I Im Always Trying To Figure Things Out And Keep My Gaurd Up

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    I've always thought it important to know when something is ending. To know and fully experience something for the last time, even while it is happening. To properly dance that very...
    GlassDog GlassDog
    36-40
    4 Responses Apr 21
    A few weeks ago I found myself chatting with a young woman in PM. Nothing inappropriate. A friend of friends, somebody that had orbited around our group but whom I never connected...
    JonE65 JonE65
    46-50, M
    Apr 21
    I honestly sat outside last night for a couple hours and really thought about nothing but her ( I lie, I thought about the sweet cigar I was smoking, too). I am rarely able to talk...
    boldtimer boldtimer
    66-70, M
    Apr 21
    I'm 15 and live wth my grandmother and my little sister who is 13 years old and I hate it. My sister gets treated so differently. When i was my sisters age I never even had a phone...
    morgan247 morgan247
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 21
    Okay here goes nothing.. 1. I'm 19, I'm a proud single mom to my son. 2. I go to college and also I bartend and own a tattoo shop 3. I eat super fast. Whenever I go out to eat with...
    Buoyantwaters Buoyantwaters
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 21
    I havee. I can't say they are my best friends now, but when they were, oh boy did we do some stupid stuff! I think it's only right I end my time here on EP with a positive, fun...
    TheMasterMan1 TheMasterMan1
    16-17, M
    Apr 20
    So will you. All of you. When I'm at my lowest moments, I always say that to myself, and no matter how I feel, deep inside I know that to be a fact. How do I know this? Well it's...
    rana3434 rana3434
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 20
    Since today is the last day of being able to post for the foreseeable future, I thought I should let everybody know a few things about me. 1) I love the great outdoors. I could...
    HaleyAnnabelle HaleyAnnabelle
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 20
    My name is specialED1256 if we need time to figure out the new EP
    SpecialED1256 SpecialED1256
    46-50, M
    Apr 20
    I can't pretend that I like the ppl that I don't. So at least I try to keep quiet till the time is over.and when these ppl ask me why I keep quiet i give them a smile like a punch...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 19
    Do I quit or toughen the **** up? I am a 22 year old college student. I got a job as a personal banker about a month ago. Before this, I worked as a cashier at a fast food place...
    harleyquinn16 harleyquinn16
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 19
    I wish I could find a group that says I'm trying to learn figure skating. So I just recently joined a learn to skate figure skating class. I have never figure skated in my life...
    YesCrazy YesCrazy
    26-30, F
    Apr 18
    I didn't know what I was capable of, until it was time for me to step up to the plate..
    FeelingsOfTheEnd FeelingsOfTheEnd
    22-25, M
    Apr 17
    I have a teen age daughter that is getting ready to move away for school and it breaks my heart. We have always been so close and over the course of the last year we have had so...
    Helpless24 Helpless24
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 17
    Dont know even how to start this. Been sitting here for almost an hour trying to get things straight in my head and not having much luck. Im totally ignorant of how love works...
    boldtimer boldtimer
    66-70, M
    Apr 17
    Sometimes I keep too many things to myself. I know by sharing these things it would be disastrous so I keep it all in. I am the type of person that knows more than I let on but...
    EscapingUrLies EscapingUrLies
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 17
    I keep trying to post something, but it always says invalid characters. Why?!?! It's SOO annoying!
    Kimberlybucklandz1093 Kimberlybucklandz1093
    13-15, F
    Apr 16
    I met this guy about 6 months ago and he was the first person I ever fell in love with. At first it was so intense, I felt the need to talk to him or spend all my time with him, he...
    Drakaria Drakaria
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 16
    okay so I've just found out that my house mate has run up the electricity bill by leaving lights and the stove on and just being irresponsible and now i could possibly be getting...
    Andyboo1998 Andyboo1998
    18-21, F
    Apr 14
    I have high anxiety today I cannot bear being in public places. I've been that way for as long as I can remember however, it's become so much more difficult to deal with over the...
    Claudiiia Claudiiia
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 13
    I am hard to figure out to most people. What I find especially distressing is when people think they know me and treat me according to their projected view of me. It leaves me...
    Obliterati Obliterati
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 12
    hate that I don't ever fit in anywhere no matter where I am or what I'm doing. tired of always being alone.
    Schiizm Schiizm
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 12
    I'm probably gonna get hate for this...but I'm at a loss...please no rude remarks. I've been talking to this guy that I've know for many, many years. We started talking on...
    boppysgirl boppysgirl
    13-15, F
    6 Responses Apr 12
    Sooo I'm staying with my supposed to be best friend but her and he gma tripping. Like I was like Ima stay at my girlfriend house tomorrow since Ima be over there she like no u can...
    theunlovedchild theunlovedchild
    18-21, F
    Apr 12
    I've spent most of my life . people don't like me because I chose to be my own personal and not who they wanted me to be. I was never invited to things and people often avoided me...
    SladeBolinLeaderofEp SladeBolinLeaderofEp
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 10
    i was in love with a girl once. but never opened up to her n still can't forget about her. i think she also liked me since she hinted it with her body language n some things she...
    breeze16 breeze16
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 10
    I am very lucky to know my dad, but our relationship has never really been more than a friendship. He and my mum split when I was around 6 and just remember not being that bothered...
    nedh1996 nedh1996
    18-21, M
    Apr 10
    don't read into things...i do try. but its my nature to want to understand all that happens around me. the people who are important to me are ones I am desperate to understand...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Apr 10
    I think I've developed a bad habit of repressing my emotions, since I was a child. I felt everything too strongly, and it confused me. I thought I was being too sensitive. I...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 9
    When we were very young children, my sisters and I would be shirtless a lot. In the house, in the yard, out with mom, visiting with friends and relatives, you name it. Mom's view...
    CabanaBoy86 CabanaBoy86
    26-30, M
    Apr 9
    The one person who is always a constant denominator in my life, is my brother. We have basically grown up as twins despite our two year age difference. When we were younger we...
    lbokete lbokete
    18-21, M
    Apr 8
    Dont know when it started. I had become an emotional nightmare over the last year or so. I know it started when I just started to cry over all kinds of family deaths. Not when they...
    boldtimer boldtimer
    66-70, M
    Apr 8
    1) I spend a lot of time alone and I'm unused to talk. 2) I think I must be extremely boring and uninteresting to most of the people I meet because I'm very quiet, reserved and...
    OpenlyHonestly OpenlyHonestly
    22-25, F
    Apr 8
    he constantly annoys me. like grabbing my private parts and is always pushing and shoving me especially in public. he sticks his fingers in my ears. licks my face when I want to...
    missey1981 missey1981
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Apr 8
    I'm a 20 year old male college student and I'm not sure what I'm feeling right now, especially since I always assumed that I was 100% straight. Coming from a pretty religious...
    ProxyVox ProxyVox
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Apr 7
    Feel like a monster ugh how do I make things right
    yuki25 yuki25
    22-25, F
    Apr 7
    The only man to have touched me in the last year has been the trainer at the gym. I don't do anything fancy, I just discovered the free classes that no one takes advantage of and I...
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Apr 7
    i love lavender colour(that ease my soul) ep is my second home i don't have friends much in a real life(only few) but i don't need many i don't text much for my mental...
    genjiipiexx genjiipiexx
    31-35, F
    Apr 7
    Ten things about me: 1.im super stubborn 2.i love the outdoors and walking the trails 3.Im obsessed with pro wrestling 4.i adore kindness and honesty 5.i am very old fashioned...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 7
    I think I want to shave my head! I have appreciated the support and interest in my posts on this site. If you have followed me, you know most of my posts concern style and my...
    cm440 cm440
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 6
    mai rahoon ya na rahoon..of armaan malik..just reminded me of those nights when it was on repeat mode..it made me cry so much. .for nothing though. .he is not here today. .n I have...
    BrokenSB BrokenSB
    22-25, F
    Apr 6
    There's this girl at school who tries so hard to be cool. Honestly it has become so pathetic and funny. I don't understand why you would make a fool of yourself to be seen a cool...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    2 Responses Apr 5
    I am trying my best to overcome my mental problems. It's gotten to the point of life and death. I'm in survival mode now. I was taking 4 medications and realized that they were...
    toniyl toniyl
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Apr 5
    Isnt all of this a bit too much..i just don't understand what the hell is everyone's problem here..I don't know why can I not have my space in here...I am just so irritated..i have...
    BrokenSB BrokenSB
    22-25, F
    Apr 5
    Who isn't? If anyone thinks they have life totally figure out, they are fooling themselves. There are always unanswered questions, mysteries that we won't ever understand. That's...
    Hannah1100 Hannah1100
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Apr 5
    1. I'm doing this because I'm bored out of my mind. 2. I'm a self-taught expert in the art of procrastination. 3. I am the pride of one half of my family, and the disappointment of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 5
    I'm trying to break my bad habits, and my ex is one of them. We dated for more than 3 years, broke up 4 years ago. I was in a ****** place, full of hurt and pain. And I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 4
    I hate feeling depressed and hopelessness. Hope this feeling starts to shake off
    yuki25 yuki25
    22-25, F
    Apr 3
    but all im trying to do is say truth. the other day someone was telling me how i should talk less and I think i should have taken their advice. Anywho. Good night EP
    IkIlLeDyOuRsOuLaNdAtEiT IkIlLeDyOuRsOuLaNdAtEiT
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 3
    Dear H It seems that you need to go away to figure out what you want and be on your own for a while.I want your happiness more than anything in the world.I just want you to be...
    SingapuraGirl SingapuraGirl
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 3
    Space is what I thought I needed. I'm so lost and can't find the right path. How did people make decisions I can't figure out a motion and rational thinking.
    Minx27 Minx27
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 2
    My friend went out with this girl i didn't care about a day after i broke up with her after a week of dating. One day he asked me who I liked and I told him, he called her gross...
    Oborus Oborus
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 2
    I am in love with you and all the little things. I love you when you reply to my message on EP. I keep waiting for you. I keep thinking about you. It feels like in heaven while...
    CoffeeTimeNow CoffeeTimeNow
    22-25, F
    Apr 2
    I was thinking this morning about how none of my relationships are satisfying anymore. My husband isn't really affectionate anymore, despite me begging over the years. My one...
    AlacrityMelancholy AlacrityMelancholy
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Apr 1
    why is this so hard to figure out. am I bi? its like a movie in my head where "stuff" is happening with me and a guy except these days, I'm imagining "stuff" is happening with me...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 1
    We grow up waiting for our life to begin, constantly wanting more, constantly wishing for the future, and eventually, almost too suddenly we are in our 20s, the best years of our...
    writingforlife6 writingforlife6
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 1
    I dont tell this story to often because it freaks people out. I have often thought of volunteering my time at a hospice as a place to tell this story; because I feel it would bring...
    calmingwind calmingwind
    46-50, M
    Mar 31
    I'm quite pleased with this little creation haha. Got bored at work so started typing. As I sat in my chair watching everyone dance across the dance floor in such wonder, I...
    wonderland63893 wonderland63893
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 31
    Hello everybody im back Recently I've been finding that I ALWAYS screw everything up. I'm Finnally in a place where I'm happy and with someone I Love with all my heart. Yet... I...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1
    18-21, F
    Mar 30
    My friend lost his mother at the age of 3, and was taken in by his Aunt. Recently coming out as Trans, his aunt wasn't supportive and still isn't to this day. He told me tonight he...
    KingTamale KingTamale
    13-15, T
    Mar 30
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