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I Intentionally Make Myself Depressed

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    Fiance's Ex.

    So my fiance and I have been together for a while now and we have a child who's almost one, recently his ex girlfriend has been saying very negative things to me about our child and us being together...   do you think it's out of jealousy?
    TaliaYumYum TaliaYumYum 18-21 1 Response Jul 13, 2009

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    Always

    Sometimes I think of things so much that I just make myself feel really depressed. It's like I want to be like this.. but I don't... I just can't get out of it though. It just goes round and round.. I feel really depressed.. then I feel okay..  and then I think to much...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 31, 2010

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    I Guess I Should Clarify Something

    I created the group and chose the word "depressed" because I decided to use the word to mean what people commonly mean by it:  down, gloomy, sad, feeling isolated.  Folks on EP would latch onto that word, say, "Yep, that's me," and we could talk...
    romanticidiot romanticidiot 46-50, M 4 Responses Feb 19, 2009

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    Sometimes...

    I sometimes feel like a lot of depressed people do where they feel "better" the more sad or down they are. They just get used to feeling that way and keeping their expectations low so they aren't disappointed in life. I've been guilty of this many times in my life and...
    EnigmaVest EnigmaVest 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 31, 2009

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    Sometimes, when I can't sleep,

    I think of really sad scenarios that hurt me so much emotionally that I cry, because I want to prepare myself for the worse and so I will be able to be calm when I want to cry in public. But sometimes, I just think of me dying not because I want to prepare myself, because it...
    solisluna solisluna 16-17, F Aug 3, 2014

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    Storm's Brewin'

    And this time there's nothing intentional about it.  Frankly, I'm worried.
    romanticidiot romanticidiot 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 18, 2009

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    Beating Myself Up

    So I've been very depressed for three or four years now. It started in late eighth grade, and now I'm a rising senior. It's been tough. For a while, I literally didn't go a day without fantasizing about killing myself, and I think that left a lasting effect on me. Even today...
    Freezesmyblood Freezesmyblood 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 21, 2013

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    "depressed Child"

    On purpose, that is the word that rings through my head as i sit here typing this. Why would someone so sane intentionally make themselves feel unhappy, suicidal, or depressed. I have a happy streak for three or four days, but after that, i sit down and make myself depressed. I...
    dallascowboyz29fan dallascowboyz29fan 16-17 2 Responses Sep 10, 2010

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    In a Way

     I have been depressed for so long that I am so used to feeling down all the time. I don't think I'll ever be truly happy or normal. It would be a miracle if I get better. There have been many opportunities in my life to change and live a normal life but I am so pessimistic...
    reset reset 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    They show off with their perfect life and much likes and comments which i will never get. When will facebook be "out"? So that this damn girl can finally stop showing off with her...
    tokyo60s tokyo60s 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 27

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    YOUR BLOCKED FROM MY FACEBOOK SINCE MICHELLE GOT MARRIED ..YOU FAT COW
    yawnbutfun123 yawnbutfun123 51-55, F Apr 27

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    Yay.... a group for this. Hmm.. there is nothing that I can think if except abstinence. It's worked pretty well for me.
    RealmRunner RealmRunner 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I divorced the father of my children 4 years ago. I've been in a new relationship for the last 10 months and am now becoming aware of how messed up I am. My ex husband was...
    RosieAD RosieAD 31-35, F 1 Response May 12

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    I don't really know how to explain this short so what the hell i'm going to tell my whole life story. I'm 16 year old guy. Love motorcycling and computer games. I have always been...
    Jackman333 Jackman333 16-17, M May 15

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    I'm here again tonight, just when i thought i should have by now feeling more better about myself after the short escape from the hermit shell i've been self-confined in - I'm not...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F May 9

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    Big shocker for anyone to feel this way, right? Yeah, blah, anyway... I feel immensely alone and honestly, it's mostly my own doing. I do not connect well with other humans. Never...
    EngulfingBreeze EngulfingBreeze 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I keep myself engaged when I feel I am down and think of the n number of things God has bestowed on me. Just because I do not have a partner now does not make me depressed. I will...
    lesbianrva lesbianrva 31-35 Apr 24

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    I make myself smile because I feel like there's so much pressure for me to be the strong one. I can't do it anymore
    tamsin100 tamsin100 13-15, F 3 Responses May 14

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    I have made this profile few days ago with a decision to face my fears of socialization and gain some insight in my own along with other people's similar problems. At first I...
    LFSomething LFSomething 22-25, M 1 Response May 6

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    In two years I will have my associates degree and I'll be a qualified nursing assistant , and honestly at this point I just want to get my own place and be by myself , get a dog...
    Purpletears17 Purpletears17 16-17, F Apr 25

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    I am a 20 year old from London who studies Performance at University, which is about to end in a week. After that ill be off to America for five months working and experiencing new...
    Amyflorence Amyflorence 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    After a long heart to heart last night, I realized that there are so many things I have to do. I have to work on myself. I keep convincing myself that I'm fine, but I'm not. I need...
    tempestsarekind tempestsarekind 22-25, M 1 Response May 7

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    I think people tend to despise makeup more nowadays... Not sure why. As a women I have the right to do what ever I want to make myself feel beautiful & frankly makeup does that for...
    AristoLozan AristoLozan 18-21, F 3 Responses May 9

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    i am really depressed tonight and having a bad night i have never been this depressed befre and also have been crying too
    JamesB20 JamesB20 22-25, M 21 mins ago

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    I deny myself the most simple pleasures. I think I've finally got it. I think I've hit my breaking point. I refuse to fall in love. I refuse to smile. I refuse to laugh. I refuse...
    KOOLKAT446 KOOLKAT446 13-15, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I have known for awhile that I've given up, admitted defeat. Every part of me has stopped fighting the "good" fight. I know cower from anything that would elicit any kind of...
    Emmy508 Emmy508 26-30, F May 15

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    I am very sad and depressed I feel like no one likes me everywhere I go I feel like someone is talking negative about me. For some reason I have developed social anxiety. I am so...
    121rainy 121rainy 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Anyone message me I need all the cheering up i can get im just super depressed and have no clue what to do
    emylauren27 emylauren27 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    I'm twenty years old. Female. Born and raised Italian, but recently transplanted into the UK. I've been depressed since as far as I can remember. Not clinically, though, just a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Over this past year I've changed.The truth is I can hardly recognise myself,I'm almost a completely different person from before.I'm not really sure what triggered this change,it...
    MeAndMySelf98 MeAndMySelf98 16-17, M May 10

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    I'm here to make new friends, I'd love to be able to have conversations with people on the phone, or messaging, that involves opening up and connecting based on our experiences. I...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    My mind is racing, it's buzzing. I can't clear it. It makes my head hurt, so I cry. I don't like to cry so I try and stop myself. I guess I'm overwhelmed. Thoughts of School...
    MDCollegeMan MDCollegeMan 18-21, M Apr 27

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    Just a couple days back from my trip to Vermont, and I'm eager to plan my next adventure. I've discovered as I'm getting older, my kids are growing up that I feel the need to...
    lavendersea lavendersea 41-45, F 12 hrs ago

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    I have bulimia and anxiety so burning myself with the metal on lighters makes me feel so much better, I pretend to my friends who asked what I was doing, that it was a joke and...
    markinggold markinggold 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I know this sounds really stupid, but I have terrible issues dealing with guilt, and there have been so many times when I lay face down under the covers in my bed and think about...
    TheEnduringSunrise TheEnduringSunrise 18-21, F Apr 24

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    I've been feeling realy down lately.. First thing first I'm a 15 year old boy and I love playing video games and that's the reason I preety much suck at every ball sport.I never...
    oneMidnightstar oneMidnightstar 13-15, M 5 Responses May 3

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    Forgive, sounds good Forget, I?m not sure I could They say time heals everything But I?m still waiting I?m through with doubt There?s nothing left for me to figure out I?ve paid a...
    ShadowofanAnglophile ShadowofanAnglophile 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    After I spent half an hour talking with a customer service lady and all the work I did to get our internet back online my mom just steals the modem and says I had one day to use it...
    AnonymousCaleb AnonymousCaleb 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 26

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    i dont know what to do i think im spirling downwards. im a failure and i just want to give up. ill never make it into college i know people dont care about that stuff bc of...
    JannieL3 JannieL3 16-17, F May 6

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    I've listened to the song "How Do You Get That Lonely" by Blaine Larsen. It's a song about a 18 year old boy who committed suicide Unexpectingly. It goes: How do you get that...
    TheEnduringSunrise TheEnduringSunrise 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 25

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    I really need someone to talk to. I'm 21. I have no friends. No job. I don't go to school. I have nothing. I babysit every day, as I have for a couple years now. Every day it...
    Goob21 Goob21 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 26

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    I admit. I am depressed. It's not because of the people around me that makes me feel of sadness but my depression goes beyond that. The things happening in this world, the society...
    Xemplefied Xemplefied 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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