I Just Cut Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 302 People

    I couldn't deal with anymore pain.

    I decided hurting myself was the only option. There's too much **** going on in my life and my thoughts are becoming unbearable. It was painful, but I feel like I deserve it... I feel like cutting would ease out everything; my horrible thoughts and so on. I'm not sure if I'm...
    whattheheck8 whattheheck8
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 19, 2014

    I couldn't help myself

    after everything that's been going on I just gave in and did it. I feel like I should go back and do it to punish myself for hurting myself but I just don't know anymore.
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 2, 2015

    Once again I cut my self.

    I cut my thigh this time I ran out of room on my stomach. Someone please tell me why I cut so much cause I really don't know y. Out nay sound stupid. But I really don't know y I cut. Maybe out of anger I forgot I had. Or habit idk. But someone please try to explain.
    Kelnea Kelnea
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Sep 6, 2014

    "It'S All For Attention"

    This one is for you, and it's deeper than the rest, and it's okay, because its only for attention... That's why I sit in the back of the class, don't go to lunch, and never speak?"... That's why I cut where people can't normally see, because all I want is attention... but when...
    inmysecretworld inmysecretworld
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2013
    bitchhtripinnXD bitchhtripinnXD
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Oct 8, 2014
    izzyyxo izzyyxo
    16-17, F
    13 Responses Sep 4, 2015

    I went deep. Too deep.

    It won't stop bleeding. The satisfaction feels wonderful.
    xxDarkLoverxx xxDarkLoverxx
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jan 4, 2015

    I cut myself last night

    and it felt amazing. It felt so good to not only feel the pain but to see the scars form and the droplets of blood. I didn't stop cutting until I saw the blood. That's when I felt really really good
    AutumnCarielle AutumnCarielle
    22-25, F
    Dec 7, 2014
    Rachealjack93 Rachealjack93
    22-25, F
    Feb 26, 2014

    Better than my original plan.

    .. Although I don't know what's stoping me doing it tonight...
    BulletproofLoneliness BulletproofLoneliness
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 27, 2014

    and if anyone sees it ill blame it on the cat

    but its on my thigh so no one will see it which is good because ppl wont believe the cat did it for too much longer
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jul 30, 2015
    imlivingbutdead imlivingbutdead
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 16, 2015

    I thought I was getting better.

    .. But tonight for the first time ever That I carved words into my leg... Holy **** i regret it now.
    BulletproofLoneliness BulletproofLoneliness
    18-21, F
    Nov 23, 2014
    Rosexxo Rosexxo
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Jun 18, 2014

    I'm 16 and im gay. I'm depressed alot of the

    time. last night I cut myself for the first time, I've tried killing myself lots of times though since I was 12 because of being gay and depression because my parents split up and I lived with my mum and she was always drunk and that's wen she was home. Most the time she was out...
    16yroldboy 16yroldboy
    16-17, M
    4 Responses Jan 14

    I cut my shoulder again.

    i dont remember it feeling this good. i guess i forgot what cutting feels like. I was 11 days clean. i cant even get 1 month clean anymore, let alone 2 weeks. My shoulder is stinging and burning. it feels relaxing... just a steady burn. im pissed i damaged my blade so i used a...
    Nick54 Nick54
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 21, 2015

    I just got done cutting my arms.

    .. I dont know why but i've always had this thing where if my arms have a blank spot, or a spot where my scars were fading i would cut untill my arms looked "full" of cuts. I think im finally happy with how my arms look. But not really cause they look like hell. But to me it...
    Nick54 Nick54
    22-25, M
    Dec 9, 2014

    i actually used a blade.

    i didn't think it would get this far, but i used my pocket knife instead of just scratching myself. and it felt good. better than good. i feel great, liberated. the sting almost makes me feel totally happy, because i'm actually feeling something.
    kwrc kwrc
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 9, 2014

    I cut myself and wouldn't have stopped

    if I hadn't of forced myself to wake up my mom so she could take the knife from me
    yourfaceisyourface yourfaceisyourface
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 10, 2014

    I had a relapse and I don't know Why this has

    been awhile and I just wish I could stop
    Naniebananie Naniebananie
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 17, 2014

    I did it again. I haven't been counting the days

    since I last did it, it may have been two weeks since. Sad and in pain now
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 25
    imlivingbutdead imlivingbutdead
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Nov 10, 2015

    I started years ago iv been an on off self

    harmer for years the longest iv stopped is 5monthe untill 3weeks ago then it went ddooowwn hill frim there. I am useing a dull blade yet I still cut deep not sure how but wtf ever. I do not want pity. I hqve been getting help frim doctors psychologists, councillors for years...
    danny9984 danny9984
    13-15, M
    Feb 13

    I'm cutting right now actually.

    I don't know the reason this time tho, maybe I'm just being sad or depressed or maybe it's just a habit. But it's still cutting. On my hips hiding underneath clothing so no one sees, no one knows the true pain I feel.
    Angelfromhell17 Angelfromhell17
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jun 16, 2014

    I swore to myself I wouldn't cut yet,

    I still did it...why am I so weak ;w;
    MysticalBlade MysticalBlade
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Feb 24, 2014
    christinelol christinelol
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 14, 2015

    I just find it extremely hard to stop

    once I've started with one cut.... I know I have to end this habit but I'm already addicted. Don't see myself quitting anytime in the future.
    TheAmazingSpiderPuss TheAmazingSpiderPuss
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 9, 2015

    They've gotten a lot smaller.

    .. I guess that's better than nothing.
    BulletproofLoneliness BulletproofLoneliness
    18-21, F
    Sep 17, 2015

    A lot to the stomach actually

    and now it's healing. I realized that every time I cut I care for the wounds.. Either cause Im scared of someone finding out or I'm actually giving sympathy to myself.. Weird.
    Brogann Brogann
    3 Responses Aug 21, 2014

    (Originally posted on June 6,

    2013) It was time to cut myself. There was no stopping it. I really wanted to feel and see the blood and pain. I was to try cutting with something different, with the blades out of a razor. Clouded with self hatred, I searched for a razor and my scissors. I made sure my door...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 14, 2014

    (Trigger warning) Fuckkkkk me.

    πŸ™I wish there was another way. My eating disorders and razor blades are my only best friends....words can't explain how I feel simply because I have no emotions anymore just unwritten words. πŸ’”
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 15, 2014
    imlivingbutdead imlivingbutdead
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Nov 9, 2015
    emmacla emmacla
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 3, 2014
    popcornpillows popcornpillows
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 8, 2014

    I've been feeling so terrible today.

    I started cutting myself again, and my mom walked in just as I put away the blade. I'm so happy she didn't see anything... Ughhh im losing it. I'm crying. Cutting. Thinking of how easy it would be to just walk down the street and lie down on the highway. Or maybe to drown...
    CallMeNobody CallMeNobody
    13-15, F
    Aug 29, 2015

    I cut myself and went to my mom

    after realizing what I did, she just wiped off my wrist put a band aid on it and sent me back to bed! Not sure what I was thinking when I did it I kind of blanked out in the moment and then realized what I'd done!! :(
    ariel2891 ariel2891
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 22, 2014

    So it's been almost a year

    and part of me has been thinking about doing this for days. And I don't think I sabotaged myself I just think I'm going to break again things are getting to be too much. School and work and balancing my life it's like I'm pretending it's working but I know it's starting to...
    WhoseMe WhoseMe
    18-21, F
    Mar 9, 2015
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2014

    I cut myself again last night.

    Im so pissed off at myself, because i try to help so many with their problems i forget about my own. To and try to get them to stop. Makes me feel better, but then I contradict myself and cut anyways... Cutting doesnt solve anything, Your beautiful, Someone will love you, even...
    Nick54 Nick54
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 8, 2014

    I really wanna cry now.

    ..I shouldn't have
    deleted deleted
    13 Responses Jun 9, 2014

    I just cut myself for the first time 5 mins ago.

    .. I did it cuz I don't care about myself or my body anybody anymore. I don't own any long sleeve shirts or wristbands, but I don't care because nobody is gonna notice me anyways. I'm hideous and I'm always gonna be hideous. I don't plan on living past 18 and imma die alone and...
    NPkid44 NPkid44
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Jun 27, 2014

    more like a hundred scratches I can't cut deep

    today, maybe my blade is too dull for whatever reason though, I'm so frustrated. I need to draw blood and scratches don't suffice. and I hate myself for feeling like I need this
    mirrorimage99 mirrorimage99
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 18
    Natureismagic Natureismagic
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Nov 9, 2015

    About ten minutes ago.

    Wish I could say I regret it, but I don't. I wish I could say I'm always a positive person, but I'm not. And I wish I could say I wanted to stop! But it's too good to stop! What's wrong with me?... Xxx
    BulletproofLoneliness BulletproofLoneliness
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

    I like it it's a good stress reliever I know

    it's not good to do but it makes me feel important when I cut I feel no pain
    faith1015 faith1015
    13-15, F
    Mar 11, 2015

    I relapsed again. Why doesn't it hurt?

    Why does the pain stop in that moment when the blade drags across your skin? It's the only way to solve my problemsπŸ’”
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 19, 2014

    twice today I feel terrible

    now nobody wants to talk to me
    imlivingbutdead imlivingbutdead
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2015

    Dirty Secrets

    So you're expecting to read a story about something wrong with my life. That's what you'll get.. You ever have those days that just completely suck? I have a lot of those. I'm not an attention seeker so don't get that in your head, please. Anyways, about that day that just sucks...
    2 Responses Jan 13, 2013

    I have been so long without cutting myself then

    I did it and now dont regret it but want to go deeper what is wrong with me
    megs1717 megs1717
    18-21, F
    Aug 16, 2015

    Just cut 52 times on my leg!

    Having such a great day (sarcasm)! Like I can't even explain. This is just great....
    deleted deleted
    Feb 11, 2015
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