I Just Don't Know Anymore

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    I'm lost and confused.

    .. I've got depression, bipolar, PTSD and Seasonal Deffective Disorder and I drive people away. Everyone ends up leaving me and I just dont know anymore. I cut, i've only got a few friends who are true. Music helps me but then i have to go through **** once i stop :/ I just need...
    MusicalGirl24 MusicalGirl24
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jan 31, 2014

    That feeling after a very long vacation from

    school. A very long vacation from all the weariness you get from interacting to these people you'd rather see not breathing. The feeling that Monday is gonna be two days from now.
    orange225 orange225
    18-21, F
    Jan 3, 2015

    It Sounds Petty

    ive lost friends, really good friends. i battle self harm, today i broke and dislocated my toe and meant it. i dont know if im straight bi or gay. one friend is being a total dipshit! one of my best friends thinks ive stopped cutting. and if i could take each problem...
    detourahead detourahead
    18-21, F
    May 1, 2010

    So Much For That....

    I let the things my daughter did to me go in hopes of being involved with my grandchildren and three times now she has managed to mess up my plans to stop by and see them.  On my grand daughters 10th birthday June 21 I called to tell her happy birthday and my daughter said...
    Comprehensive2 Comprehensive2
    31-35
    1 Response Jun 22, 2007

    Don't Know

    Don't know,What's it all about,Just don't know,No more,Please,Can someone help?Let me in,We can be friends.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Nov 22, 2011

    I am so tired that I don't know what to do with

    my life. I didn't knew how much my childhood impacted me until this past few months where I feel so depressed. My family,however, drag me to a new country to start a new life but my family is still messed up. And now a lot of problems come to me and I don't know a thing about...
    RienneVille RienneVille
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 11, 2014

    My Luck

    Amongst all the things i have going on something that made me smile and mad at the same time . I went to visit someone at a prison yesterday secure lot hell!!!! I parked my car , locked it and went in . There are cameras everywhere and some dink stole my lugnut cover . Imagine...
    redheadsrule redheadsrule
    36-40, F
    11 Responses Feb 1, 2009

    No One...

    I just don't know what to do anymore, who to talk to, what to do and who to feel. Im starting to get over my depression alone but i just don't know how, even though i don't want to do it alone i have no choice. My Best friend who was just starting to connect with me(well who i...
    shannon22 shannon22
    13-15, F
    Jan 23, 2010
    destvni destvni
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2014

    What?!

    I just don't know anymore what is with me eh?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 25, 2013

    How Things Will Be

    Life is not the same as it is for the average person. I have gotten by, but at a much slower pace than most people. I wonder if people will ever accept me for who I am and know I am not the same; if ever I will be believed with all I have been through (people can assume I am a...
    asert12345678 asert12345678
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Dec 11, 2012

    Why Can't Things Be Easier?

    After having had feelings, deep feelings at that, about someone, and then ending the friendship/relationship because of complicated reasons, I still find myself thinking about that person and wishing things had turned out differently. I miss talking to them and how close we were...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 26, 2012
    4everoptie 4everoptie
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jul 30, 2015

    You Know How People Self Contradict

    Chicks probably understand it more than guys when someone does it but in the end we are all clueless. Your parents say we will never lie to you Then they tell you bout the Easter bunny and Christmas gifts How someone says you can tell me anything Then they get annoyed of your...
    Thecloverbunny5 Thecloverbunny5
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 16, 2012

    Bleeding desire in the heart forced denial in

    the eyes, Vocal words missing Heart churns in silent flames. Fake smiles on lips, Soul twitches in pain. The magical string pulls Heart cries to be with you Lonely bed hurts a lot โ€“ Shore of the ocean of love is marred with everlasting partition. Yet eyes wait...
    winterfall winterfall
    41-45
    Jan 18, 2014

    I am really trying to keep my feelings in check,

    but I am still crying over the thought of him leaving. I wish I wasn't so broken. ๐ŸŒบ
    dammitjanit dammitjanit
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 18, 2014

    I Am Lost

    I knew what I wanted to do when I was young. I didn’t come from a happy family but there were things that I was passionate about. As time went by, I became more and more confused. About my dreams, my purpose, my existence. What am I supposed to do here on earth? I am...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses May 30, 2010

    I'm confused and done.

    We're done I can't handle it. I tried to hold on. He left me again I delete his number I deleted everything that reminded me of him. Besides this thinking about deleting this as well. I'm worrying about school now I have 38 days until I leave. Won't look back until it's time to...
    MaryCrossen MaryCrossen
    18-21, F
    May 24, 2015

    One Love

    hi, one blessed love for you, have a nice day . me love that
    kwami kwami
    41-45
    Feb 3, 2012

    Look, I Admit, I've Been Reading The News......

    And I know it's unforgivable...The news is all bullshit. But I keep hearing about North Korea....Jesus. We actually take them as a real country? Look, they're a dictatorship, and they stir the pot more than the Russians ever did...Why are we not nuking them to dust? Why aren't...
    Socklord Socklord
    31-35, M
    Dec 20, 2010

    Does anyone else feel like giving up

    and running away? No, just me? Ok. I just feel so done with society and the people at school. Almost everyday, I feel like just giving up, packing a back, and running away. That's why, the summer after Senior year in high school, I plan to go on a road trip around my state and...
    ZiggyZebra ZiggyZebra
    13-15, F
    Apr 7, 2015

    Im Lost ....

    i just dont know anymore i feel like everything is going a hundred miles in every direction and i cant keep up with any of it. everything is happening so fast and deadlines are coming closer. ive spent two years on my standard grades which seems like such a long time when you...
    detourahead detourahead
    18-21, F
    Mar 19, 2010

    Dealing with my family always turns out to be a

    mistake. Yesterday, I argued with them all day. All. Day. Everything is messed up and twisted, but that's how it usually is. The difference this time, though, was that my parents defended me. What a surprise. They haven't before. Maybe the one good thing that came out of that...
    TheBadgeringWitness TheBadgeringWitness
    31-35
    1 Response Aug 12, 2015

    I just don't know anymore,

    nothing ever seems to go right for me. I just want to be loved properly instead of people pretending to love me. I hate everyday I wake up. I'm slowly giving in. I just don't know how to come anymore.
    sademptynothing sademptynothing
    16-17, F
    Sep 15, 2014

    Today was a ****** day.

    I woke up feeling ******. I felt ****** through the day. I've noticed that my day is ****** unless I get to spend some time on my computer and drink coffee in the morning. But I had to of been on my laptop for at least a half hour.
    ZiggyZebra ZiggyZebra
    13-15, F
    Jun 21, 2015

    I Just Don't Know..

    I don't know any other way to start this off except to just start from the very beginning. Here goes. Today, my father had the day off from work. My brother and I were going to go to Queens with our aunt but there was a change of plans. While my father was at a doctor's...
    MsSammiiJo MsSammiiJo
    18-21, F
    Feb 16, 2010

    My sister noticed my picking yesterday.

    She told me to stop. Wow. I'm cured. Thank you. (Please note the sarcasm). She also hasn't said anything about it since. The same day, I had a doctors appointment. The part I most dreaded was the weighing part. Apparently, I'm on the lighter side of people my age and height...
    ZiggyZebra ZiggyZebra
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jun 11, 2015

    My Life

    I was born with out knowing anything about life, but I will not leave it with out knowing it.
    zangana zangana
    18-21
    Aug 16, 2012

    Frustrated

    I don't know what I want to do with my life. Even though I am making progress, I don't feel like I am.
    LostGirl246 LostGirl246
    26-30, F
    May 15, 2013

    Do I really have anything left now?

    My family doesn't talk to me as a person, only something that gets schoolwork done. Do I even have friends? I barely get to talk to one, another doesn't talk to me, another only talks to me when he is unhappy, and another only shares small talk that is so painful that I'd rather...
    YoureMyGlowstone YoureMyGlowstone
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 18, 2014

    Am I good person? Have I fell

    so far that I can't control myself does it take me seeing it all crumble before me too final understand what a controlling ******* I am? This post isn't for anyone it just..I don't know where else to turn so I guess just being another stranger on here is the only way i can get...
    kankuro18 kankuro18
    22-25, M
    Mar 5

    Maybe It's Just Me.

    We argue.  A lot.   It's never anything too drastic, but we "talk over" each other and it gets loud and I go into panic mode. But when all is said and done, he apologizes and I accept.  Every single time. Then, a few nights ago it was another "...
    mscrazylady mscrazylady
    26-30, F
    Jul 23, 2009

    Mistreated..

    I made a decision at a very young age to save myself for marriage. I am very firm on this.it is the greatest thing, however.... Extreamly difficult. I may be a virgin at 20 years of age,but I have literally dated just about every guy in town in the time frame of 16 to 18. When I...
    redrodeo redrodeo
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 23, 2012

    I can't give you what you want.

    . and it's killing me ๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ’”
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 1, 2014

    I truly have no idea what the point is.

    None whatsoever! I feel like i don't belong anywhere and never will. I don't think i will ever be truly happy again because i push people away. Deep down i know i deserve this, every bad thing that happens to me. school is getting worse I'm skipping more frequently and am...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 10, 2014

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