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I Just Don't Know Anymore

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    How do I even go about telling a computer

    screen about my last eight months? Does one start with how my life was before or how fall I have fallen? Nine months ago I was a triathlete who loved 6 hour running sessions and 12 hour rides. I had a fiancé who was the love of my life and a dog who was my best friend. Eight...
    rcpopcornman rcpopcornman 26-30, M Apr 6

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    Look, I Admit, I've Been Reading The News......

    And I know it's unforgivable...The news is all bullshit. But I keep hearing about North Korea....Jesus. We actually take them as a real country? Look, they're a dictatorship, and they stir the pot more than the Russians ever did...Why are we not nuking them to dust? Why aren't...
    Socklord Socklord 31-35, M Dec 20, 2010

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    destvni destvni 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 4

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    Maybe It's Just Me.

    We argue.  A lot.   It's never anything too drastic, but we "talk over" each other and it gets loud and I go into panic mode. But when all is said and done, he apologizes and I accept.  Every single time. Then, a few nights ago it was another "...
    mscrazylady mscrazylady 26-30, F Jul 23, 2009

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    My Life

    I was born with out knowing anything about life, but I will not leave it with out knowing it.
    zangana zangana 18-21 Aug 16, 2012

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    Frustrated

    I don't know what I want to do with my life. Even though I am making progress, I don't feel like I am.
    LostGirl246 LostGirl246 22-25, F May 15, 2013

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    How Things Will Be

    Life is not the same as it is for the average person. I have gotten by, but at a much slower pace than most people. I wonder if people will ever accept me for who I am and know I am not the same; if ever I will be believed with all I have been through (people can assume I am a...
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 11, 2012

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    I am really trying to keep my feelings in check,

    but I am still crying over the thought of him leaving. I wish I wasn't so broken. 🌺
    dammitjanit dammitjanit 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 18

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    I truly have no idea what the point is.

    None whatsoever! I feel like i don't belong anywhere and never will. I don't think i will ever be truly happy again because i push people away. Deep down i know i deserve this, every bad thing that happens to me. school is getting worse I'm skipping more frequently and am...
    udamansteel udamansteel 16-17, F Mar 10

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    Why Can't Things Be Easier?

    After having had feelings, deep feelings at that, about someone, and then ending the friendship/relationship because of complicated reasons, I still find myself thinking about that person and wishing things had turned out differently. I miss talking to them and how close we were...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 26, 2012

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    I Am Lost

    I knew what I wanted to do when I was young. I didn’t come from a happy family but there were things that I was passionate about. As time went by, I became more and more confused. About my dreams, my purpose, my existence. What am I supposed to do here on earth? I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 30, 2010

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    Im Lost ....

    i just dont know anymore i feel like everything is going a hundred miles in every direction and i cant keep up with any of it. everything is happening so fast and deadlines are coming closer. ive spent two years on my standard grades which seems like such a long time when you...
    detourahead detourahead 18-21, F Mar 19, 2010

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    Don't Know

    Don't know,What's it all about,Just don't know,No more,Please,Can someone help?Let me in,We can be friends.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Nov 22, 2011

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    So Much For That....

    I let the things my daughter did to me go in hopes of being involved with my grandchildren and three times now she has managed to mess up my plans to stop by and see them.  On my grand daughters 10th birthday June 21 I called to tell her happy birthday and my daughter said...
    Comprehensive2 Comprehensive2 31-35 1 Response Jun 22, 2007

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    I Just Don't Know..

    I don't know any other way to start this off except to just start from the very beginning. Here goes. Today, my father had the day off from work. My brother and I were going to go to Queens with our aunt but there was a change of plans. While my father was at a doctor's...
    MsSammiiJo MsSammiiJo 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 16, 2010

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    What?!

    I just don't know anymore what is with me eh?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 25, 2013

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    So does retaliation help anything?

    It seems so hard wired into who we are as humans. Do animals retaliate? An eye for an eye but turn the other cheek. Someone hurts a family member or child and punishment is rightfully meted out, if only to prevent it from happening again. But it happens again. And again. A...
    joecell joecell 26-30, M 1 Response May 23

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    My Luck

    Amongst all the things i have going on something that made me smile and mad at the same time . I went to visit someone at a prison yesterday secure lot hell!!!! I parked my car , locked it and went in . There are cameras everywhere and some dink stole my lugnut cover . Imagine...
    redheadsrule redheadsrule 36-40, F 11 Responses Feb 1, 2009

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    One Love

    hi, one blessed love for you, have a nice day . me love that
    kwami kwami 41-45 Feb 3, 2012

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    I'm lost and confused.

    .. I've got depression, bipolar, PTSD and Seasonal Deffective Disorder and I drive people away. Everyone ends up leaving me and I just dont know anymore. I cut, i've only got a few friends who are true. Music helps me but then i have to go through **** once i stop :/ I just need...
    MusicalGirl24 MusicalGirl24 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    Bleeding desire in the heart forced denial in

    the eyes, Vocal words missing Heart churns in silent flames. Fake smiles on lips, Soul twitches in pain. The magical string pulls Heart cries to be with you Lonely bed hurts a lot – Shore of the ocean of love is marred with everlasting partition. Yet eyes wait...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Jan 18

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    No One...

    I just don't know what to do anymore, who to talk to, what to do and who to feel. Im starting to get over my depression alone but i just don't know how, even though i don't want to do it alone i have no choice. My Best friend who was just starting to connect with me(well who i...
    shannon22 shannon22 13-15, F Jan 23, 2010

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    Mistreated..

    I made a decision at a very young age to save myself for marriage. I am very firm on this.it is the greatest thing, however.... Extreamly difficult. I may be a virgin at 20 years of age,but I have literally dated just about every guy in town in the time frame of 16 to 18. When I...
    redrodeo redrodeo 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2012

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    You Know How People Self Contradict

    Chicks probably understand it more than guys when someone does it but in the end we are all clueless. Your parents say we will never lie to you Then they tell you bout the Easter bunny and Christmas gifts How someone says you can tell me anything Then they get annoyed of your...
    Thecloverbunny5 Thecloverbunny5 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 16, 2012

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    There is one person that my whole life seems to

    revolve around... there really isn't much more in my life besides work. We are in separate countries and even though we are 5000 miles apart I feel closer to her than anyone else. She goes to bed during my afternoon, and I go to sleep before she wakes up in the morning. When I...
    ballen0420 ballen0420 36-40, M Mar 24

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    It Sounds Petty

    ive lost friends, really good friends. i battle self harm, today i broke and dislocated my toe and meant it. i dont know if im straight bi or gay. one friend is being a total dipshit! one of my best friends thinks ive stopped cutting. and if i could take each problem...
    detourahead detourahead 18-21, F May 1, 2010

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    My mind is in a state of confusion. I don't know what I want or what to do. I try to stay focused but my mind is some where else with you. I remember how the sun would shine down...
    Iamjustalonelygirl Iamjustalonelygirl 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 11

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    I just don't know anymore. I'm tired of lying to myself and being someone I'm not. I don't know if I should shut out the internet and go camping to clear my mind but I really need...
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    The women I married is now showing her true colors. her ego is more than I can bare. I am planning on leaving her when I finally obtain my nursing degree. It is rough, and I love...
    qwerty350 qwerty350 26-30 Jul 12

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    Early 2012, I fell in love with a girl who was together with a guy at that time and she fell in love with me, too. The situation is such that while she loves him, she's not in love...
    DarkCrusaderz DarkCrusaderz 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    When I was 17, I got pregnant with my oldest. He was a premature baby, so I got little to hardly any time to bond with him the first 3 months of his life. I spent 6 days a week...
    Krissysheart Krissysheart 22-25, F 18 hrs ago

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    I have a friend of nearly 20 years who I believe has Borderline Personality Disorder. She claims she was diagnosed as bipolar, but as time has passed BPD has really seemed like a...
    dolceharajuku dolceharajuku 26-30, F Jul 12

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    I'm 24 and the oldest of 3 girls. I'm in that age where people think I should be at the peak of my life, they say I should already have a stable job, so that I can help my family...
    gehanalyanna gehanalyanna 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    my depression has got to the point where I jut don't care anymore, I don't care about school, I don't care about eating or showering or going out in the world. I just want to sleep...
    silentgirl1234 silentgirl1234 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    Seriously I haven't belonged anywhere, ever. Only a select few have really proven to be worth even considering a friend, whatever that word means anymore. I use to think I was the...
    CrimsonSkull CrimsonSkull 13-15, M Jul 19

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    As a kid my parents were never the affectionate type, never said 'I love you', never hugged or kissed each other let alone us kids. I wouldn't say I had a bad childhood as we had a...
    megannicole1996 megannicole1996 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    So I have the ex from hell. We were long distance and it ended TERRIBLY. His best friend kept me sane during all the fights and heartbreak. I hadn't seen him in four years but we...
    sugarsweet88 sugarsweet88 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    My boss and I have the best relationship imaginable! We're like the perfect best friends. We're always talking to each other at work and he is the only person I actually feel...
    stef17 stef17 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    i'm only 15 and i'm already lost, i just hate the fact that i don't have a real personality and that i'm not mentally Stable and can't make my own decision, i don't know what to...
    shayy13 shayy13 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    I'm pretty sure most of you have felt this way at least once in your life. You know, that point when you just have this bothersome feeling that you can't quite decipher. As for me...
    malipatient malipatient 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm trying to be positive, trying to find a hobby to keep myself occupied, but it's not working. It probably doesn't help that its the start of the summer holidays and my son is at...
    russianpenguin23 russianpenguin23 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I have been talking to this guy named Warner close to 3 years. We would only Skype, text (rarely), and message on Facebook because he lives in another country. I know that people...
    alyjrose alyjrose 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I came to a realization that I think I don't know who am I... How should I look or act around people and the environment in general. It is confusing and frustrating as hell. Even...
    bat118 bat118 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    In an effort to make a long story short, I will sum up by saying that I have been married to my husband for 11 yrs and we started dating in high school 15 yrs ago. We had our first...
    Jme0925 Jme0925 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    I really don't know how I ended up being a special ed student. Somehow I got really depressed and stopped coming to school. It got so bad that I guess they had to give me tests to...
    thisisausernametoo thisisausernametoo 18-21 1 Response Jul 21

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    I get into these relationships that seem to be going really well and then it's like as soon as we get serious, everything goes wrong. I live with my boyfriend who I've been with...
    Christuh Christuh 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    It sucks when you don't know who to trust anymore especially the people you love. Everyone screws me over; friends, family, even boyfriend.. sometimes I feel like I don't belong in...
    hippiestone hippiestone 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    I'm 18 years old and starting my first year in the university. I came to this university with one of my good friend from high school, we applied for the same major. At first things...
    justgewoon justgewoon 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    I don't know what to do anymore. I'm trying to tell this guy that I've been through with everything that I kinda wanna move on but he's just not getting it
    sabby86 sabby86 16-17, F Jul 10

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    I look in the mirror, and I don't know this girl staring back at me. She's a stranger. How can this girl possibly be me? If you asked me 3 years ago how I thought my life would be...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 11

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