I Just Don't Understand Myself Sometimes

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    Fear

    I just don't understand my fears. I can lie in my bed happily one day and miss my girlfriend and want nothing more than to have her in my arms and the other day I have her with me and I'm so scared because she's so close that I can't breathe. I always tell myself that when I'm...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 5, 2007

    I Don't Know

    i am such a strange creature. I'm just amazed at the things i do.  i need to control my impulsiveness i can say no to the drugs 99.99 of the times  but it happens.   why why i ask myself are you doing this? an i can never give myself a good answer as to the...
    notsodeadpoet notsodeadpoet
    22-25, M
    Mar 7, 2007

    I Don'T Even Know Why I'M Typing This...

    It's hard to express myself sometimes. It's hard to put it out there. Everything. It's so much easier to generalize. Intimacy scares me. Terrifies me, even. It's difficult for me to swallow what I hear from others. It's difficult for me to swallow and accept the opinions of my...
    sympathyisnotrequired sympathyisnotrequired
    26-30
    Mar 5, 2013

    I Just Dont!

    this is silly. absurd even. i am supposed to be the one to know myself inside out! it is the natural thing to do, isnt it? you are supposed to take care of yourself and cater to your needs and all. but i am not like this! i dont understand most of the times. and even more ironic...
    madamoiselle madamoiselle
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jun 27, 2008

    I Need Help

    Okay, im sitting at home on a saturday night, it's not that late. It's only 10.30 PM. My two good mates want me to come downtown with them for some drinks and some fun. I wanna go with them but I feel like staying at home instead. I know why that is. It is because subconciously I...
    Wraither Wraither
    22-25, M
    3 Responses May 3, 2008

    Me Too

    holy moly mackeral yes! usualy its in the way that i do somthing and then i tell myself not to do it again coz it makes me feel ****, but then i do it again. and i dont get that. what? do you get me?
    jess86 jess86
    22-25, F
    Jul 4, 2007

    My Partner.....

    quite often says "I worry about you." My mind works really oddly and as the group title states "I just don't get myself sometimes".
    randomdriftwood randomdriftwood
    22-25, F
    Jul 4, 2007

    It's Not Fair On Them.

    I expect the lads to understand me. A lot of the time they do, but other times they just haven't a clue. I shouldn't expect them to understand me because I don't even understand myself sometimes!!! But, I'm a woman and they're used to my confusing thoughts and ways.. I...
    bulletinmybutterflywing bulletinmybutterflywing
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 18, 2007

    Another Funk..

    It tends to happen lately more times than not.. Just been depressin and stressin, mainly about my own behavior, and things i cannot change.... Don't know what it is with me these days.... Thought i was doing so well and then all of the sudden here Iam stuck in what i like to call...
    AuThEnTiC AuThEnTiC
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 17, 2008

    I Am a Weirdo

     As an individual of the USA, I am a weirdo. Plain and simple. I confuse myself with emotions and then wash everything away with logic. Am I making sense? Wait- I don't even understand what I'm saying...
    sailorJ sailorJ
    18-21, F
    May 28, 2009

    Bad Grammar There, Honey. ...

    bad grammar there, honey. but its not sometimes, its all the time. but lets face it, to get into this terrortiory (ok my grammar is bad too) we are going to have to get into the whole "who am i really?" debate and that should be saved for high school english class.
    piggygoff piggygoff
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 4, 2007

    I Don't Understand When I ...

    I don't understand when I freak out about stupid simple things that other people do all the time... last night it was when Eric asked me to pull his dad's car into an empty spot on his street so he could put his car in the driveway and his mom could move hers so his would be in...
    mandarose524 mandarose524
    26-30, F
    Jul 4, 2007

    A Lot More Than Sometimes, Act...

    A lot more than sometimes, actually.  Most times, I'd say.
    silvermystics silvermystics
    51-55, F
    Jul 4, 2007

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