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I Just Found Out I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    Marlena1977 Marlena1977 36-40, F Aug 18, 2015

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    I Was Diagnosed Today With Borderline Personality Disorder

    I was with my therapist today, opening up my terrible childhood, it was very strange it was a frank, honest, open account. I cried when I explained the violence and hot, cold treatment received from my mentally ill mother. I mentioned to her about the sexually abuse I received as...
    Gracie2012 Gracie2012 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    Completely Interrupted

    Two weeks ago, I found out I have BPD. I've been a mess ever since.
    XxGirlInterruptedxX XxGirlInterruptedxX 26-30 2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    I didn't develop S.A.D. until moving to Maine three years ago. I barely made it through the winters of 2014 and 2015. I spent hours on the phone with crisis lines. (Don't even get...
    themoodymuse themoodymuse 56-60, F 1 Response 13 mins ago

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    If you have this disorder can you please message me? I have some questions and I am wondering if I , myself might be.! thanks
    LunaDove LunaDove 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I'm taking control of my disorder. I'll ride through the emotions it brings me, feel them fully, and let them go as they pass rather than clinging for dear life and desperately...
    nicaea nicaea 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    A few days ago I posted how my head hurts and how I have to let ago of a relationship. Also to use it as an opportunity to reflect on my issues. So here goes. The thing that sucks...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    ... Blank ... I feel like that sums up me right now. I feel like I'm losing hope.
    Jlb13592 Jlb13592 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    Yes, I am who I am partly because of them, I hate that they cause drama for me sometimes, I hate that I can never get any peace, always hearing them complain in my head, especially...
    Silverfeather1993 Silverfeather1993 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    But I am NOT: -Crazy -Manipulative -A promiscous person
    Blueborder21 Blueborder21 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    One day I asked the DBT therapist to lead a mindfulness activity as a repair for showing up to the previous group late. My individual therapist encouraged me to give an explanation...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I accepted that there's going to be up and downs. The downs doesn't make me a failure, however, it is an opportunity to explore what is inflicting me and sharpen my skills. I'm...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I think I have obsessive compulsive disorder as I m in continuous fear for the people I care about!! 24x7 and my overprotective nature irritates them!! I don't know how to change...
    alexmaine alexmaine 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I don't have BPD but my (ex) boyfriend may have it so coming here to learn. Hopefully that is okay.
    Lann2015 Lann2015 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I can't live like this forever. I'm not in physical danger, but I'm feeling hopeless. Is there reason to hope?
    mymaidenname mymaidenname 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I really dislike it when people presume to know you from one brief EP post
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My head hurts. For the past couple of months my symptoms were being triggered by what I suspect to be a narcissist. I was sucked in to his cycle of discard and being placed on...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    There's a part of me, which would like to meet a girl that has BPD just so she can meet a few of my darker needs just because I think the others don't get it. Any girls out there...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Recently diagnosed, learning coping strategies... Feels like if I even go near the thoughts I'm supposed to challenge, it amplifies them and makes them so scary... I fight against...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My Girlfriend had BPD. Over the past few months, her disorder has become increasingly more difficult. I have been fed up for at least a few weeks. I think being "stuck" together...
    hopefullyRD hopefullyRD 36-40, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have a question for those of you who have also been given this diagnosis. I was diagnosed about 1.5 years ago, and it has certainly been the worst period of my life. I feel...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 7 Responses a week ago

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    I am the ultimate loner, have tried unsuccessfully to fit in to different groups my whole life. Recently I tried to make friends with a group of people who are considered the...
    sguy1823 sguy1823 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 28

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    I like to see my blood... I like to vomit after I drunk a lot of wine and hard liquor... I do not like to eat too much and wrong foods, as medicines make me do... I do not like to...
    bpd86it bpd86it 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 27

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    Having borderline personality is like being normal but intensified. You feel like your mind is pure chaos and you try to act as normal as you can be so no one’s figures it out...
    Blueborder21 Blueborder21 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    I feel like this describes me. Ive been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. None of the medications ever made things better? And I've tried numerous kinds. I don't know.
    aBlackRoseBurial aBlackRoseBurial 26-30, M Jan 27

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    Does anybody struggle with feelings of low self worth, even though they know it not to be true?
    deej200 deej200 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    I am so tired of not being understood whatsoever. I feel like there is an insane and massive distance between me and everyone I know. It's like a vast space that just keeps them...
    NarcissisticCartman NarcissisticCartman 26-30 5 Responses Jan 26

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    Today, in a lecture, suicide was casually mentioned. Wasn't even about humans, was about birds, but I just wasn't mentally prepared. I can deal with reading about that sort of...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    It took several years and soooo many meds to finally get diagnosed with BPD. I only got the dx because I went to an outpatient program and there were 2 doctors looking at my...
    justme081 justme081 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I am being treated for depression, anxiety and panic attacks. Although I am certain that I have BPD (self observation, I haven't seen a professional as of yet) My mood is...
    EverlyLeex EverlyLeex 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    I have body dysmorphic disorder because I have double lazy eyes. I can use either my left eye or my right eye but not both at the same time. I mostly use my right eye and my head...
    stevecobb76 stevecobb76 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 25

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    I was from 1991 to 2008. We have 2 kids together. This best sums up the life in hell; what's it like? -Depending on the person, the first few days or years will be intense but...
    Onewithone Onewithone 46-50, M Jan 25

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    One has opened up to me in a new way. A few nights ago i had a dream, ive felt i kind of knew what it meant, but the thing is, he sees things the way that they arent, and is very...
    xseventyXsevenx xseventyXsevenx 18-21, M Jan 23

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    why does most of EP users keep telling me that I have an eating disorder ? whenever I post something about loosing weight or about starving and these stuff , I get people who say...
    a1aa1a a1aa1a 13-15 Jan 23

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    I have been scared of being fat or overweight for a long time. Due to events in the past. I hate how my body looks so much, and I constantly see places to lose weight. I don't...
    eemoo eemoo 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    Nah it's just the inter web getting to me.
    Everyheartbeat Everyheartbeat 26-30 1 Response Jan 21

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    I can't get close to anybody because I don't trust that they genuinely care about me and I don't trust that they'll stay around. Literally everybody I've ever loved, family and all...
    D3vacj D3vacj 22-25, F Jan 20

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    Does anyone else feel as if that people are always indirectly/or directly mocking your abilities? That they always underestimate how capable you are?
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 20

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    on Saturday night I found out that my nana has died but we don't know how when where and we have been trying to get in contact with my auntie but she wont answer and I am really...
    lifeisshitasf lifeisshitasf 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    I feel alone a lot. Even though I have someone who loves me. Im afraid to hold on because everyone that I love has died, usually by committing suicide or because of me. Im in love...
    kayovele kayovele 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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