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I Just Found Out I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    I Was Diagnosed Today With Borderline Personality Disorder

    I was with my therapist today, opening up my terrible childhood, it was very strange it was a frank, honest, open account. I cried when I explained the violence and hot, cold treatment received from my mentally ill mother. I mentioned to her about the sexually abuse I received as...
    Gracie2012 Gracie2012 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    Completely Interrupted

    Two weeks ago, I found out I have BPD. I've been a mess ever since.
    XxGirlInterruptedxX XxGirlInterruptedxX 26-30 2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    Check out this link!!!! New scientific research on BPD and how the brain functions for people who have been diagnosed with this disorder. Enlightening and informative. Hope this...
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    What a difference a day makes. Today I got my diagnosis This morning my knowledge about borderline was somewhat limited. I have had friends who had borderline and those were very...
    Fireleaf1991 Fireleaf1991 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    I just found out I'm Borderline today and personally I'm scared. Everything I've read about it says that it's so hard to treat but I don't want to feel this way anymore right now...
    gochickinparty gochickinparty 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 7

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    My therapist loaned me a book called "I hate you-don't leave me: understanding the borderline personality" has anybody read it? Any feedback???
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 9 Responses Aug 3

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    I don't know if this is a BPD thing or not but I honestly don't understand social interaction. This might be a Schizotypal Personality Disorder thing (I have that as well) but I...
    LewisCollins LewisCollins 31-35 Jul 25

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    Recently i found out that I have BPD. I always knew that something was different with me. My emotions ran me. They are so up and down but not only that, they were so intense. My...
    xchelseydawnx xchelseydawnx 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 25

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    I was diagnosed about 5 years ago after attempting suicide. I went through DBT therapy and worked hard to "fix" myself. I manage life so much better now. It doesn't even feel like...
    jennaporter jennaporter 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    The other day at my work, i was chatting with another staff. She was a little older then me, and was telling me about her daughter who was 8. And everything she told me sounded...
    amsfee amsfee 22-25, F Jul 26

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    Finally found the man who I would love to spend my life with. Gives me more happiness caring and understanding I have ever been given. He try's his best to be understanding of my...
    awmusic awmusic 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 28

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    I need people the way alcoholics need alcohol It's taken me a long time to come to that understanding, but it's the truth. The BPD side of me craves validation and attention with...
    AnxietyReactor AnxietyReactor 36-40, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    It has been a good couple of days. It means no sleep for me but things have been better. I work thirds and have been working overtime the past 2 weeks. All I do is work and sleep...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    Borderline and bipolar recoveree. I wanna feel normal again.
    jumpingoffthecliff jumpingoffthecliff 26-30, F Aug 2

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    It's kinda sad to read these other "experiences" of people who have dated someone with BPD. I guess thinking about it from their perspective it is a bit overwhelming to date...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    Or so I think. But don't we all? Life has become increasingly difficult by my standards and it's just enough to not make me want to excel at anything fruitful or have the...
    Keldeo Keldeo 22-25 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Does anyone else feel like some days they don't have BPD? You go through a stint of feeling almost ok? Almost normal? Of course it isn't true, but you can pass it off in public? Or...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 26

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    I know I write a lot here, but it's very therapeutic for me because these thoughts are constantly racing around in my head and getting them out is healthy. I usually wouldn't write...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 28

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    i feel like i cant go on i feel like full of dirt and have no energy i dont know how to get my feeling s out iffeel nothing i dont cant makr myself feel better it feels like ,y...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Aug 1

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    i feel like i cant go on i feel like full of dirt and have no energy i dont know how to get my feeling s out iffeel nothing i dont cant makr myself feel better it feels like ,y...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 1

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    Today I was very distant from my boyfriend. He noticed and asked me what was wrong. I didn't want to say because I knew it would make him mad, that he would just shut me out or say...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 4

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    Got told today that I don't give the attention that is needed. Blatantly pointed out how I'm hot one second, cold the next. I can see the mood changes now. Can almost feel like a...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 11

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    Once upon a time, my mother told me she loved how positive I was. She admired that I could see the good in anyone. I miss that. I was 8 years old when she said that, and I wish I...
    iwanttolovemyself iwanttolovemyself 22-25 3 Responses Aug 11

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    It's been a rough couple of months for me and my BPD has been in high gear. I know it's there and it's not only making my life hard, but everyone around me as well...my daughter...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I've made several posts with this heading, and I'm aware that this might make it hard to follow if looking at multiple posts. However, this is my current focus and all of these...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    Well therapy got canceled this morning. Therapist texted me to tell me that she accidentally double booked. It was a weird feeling. I normally dread going to therapy but I've been...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    I call my bad days "episodes". I can feel them coming on and can't stop them. They always have different symptoms. Today and the past two days it's been severe depression where all...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 10

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    I just want to blend in with the crowd. To not stick out because my anger shows as intense rage. To not get the side eye because I can cry at the change of the wind. To not appear...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F Aug 12

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    Just got out of my second stint in the hospital. This time my parents said they weren't gonna foot the bill and put me on welfare... Ever since I've been diagnosed with BPD my...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 14

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    And I'm bipolar with ADHD and Psychosis. I take meds and I feel pretty good but I notice that my mood swings now are circumstantial. I find it difficult to cope with life. My...
    Roxvox Roxvox 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    Just had my first anxiety attack in a while. I think mothers day was the last time I had one. Holidays are never good. Usually get one during thanksgiving and Christmas. Not sure...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 29

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    I think I have it but my mom isn't taking me to a psychologist or anything to diagnose. I could be wrong though.
    WinterSkyout WinterSkyout 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    Past two days have been manic for me. I can't sleep and I started teaching at a new school. I don't talk to anyone because I'm afraid they will think I'm crazy. I don't like...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    When I'm emotionally upset it's like the end of the world ... I also have bulimia and I always end up in crazy situations ... Being kidnapped in Monaco ... A plane crash ... Racing...
    steph450bhp steph450bhp 26-30, M Aug 1

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    Anyone else have weeks where you stop talking to everyone on text and soci media just to see who would talk to you first or notice that something's weird/wrong? The best part is...
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 10

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    **** this... Do half you ******* that claim you have BPD even know what the **** it is? It's no ******* joke... all people to people with BPD is kick'em when they're down... You...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    This has always made me feel better and always seems to apply... Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths, Enwrought with golden and silver light, The blue and the dim and the dark...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I got diagnosed about 3-4 years ago I can't really recall, cause when I got diagnosed was the first time that I checked myself into a Psych Ward. I was more worried about other...
    Beatles22 Beatles22 26-30, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have spent my entire life feeling as if there is a monster inside of me.
    Ashleyjoan Ashleyjoan 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Wish their was more advice for people who have bpd on how to deal with it. So much online about how to deal with someone with bpd but nothing for me. Just want my relationship to...
    awmusic awmusic 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 4

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    can't cope with the extremeness of my condition and find it so hard to explain this to other people no matter how hard they try to understand they never will and this makes me so...
    melodi17bpd melodi17bpd 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    About to be at my first therapy session in a month. Just worked a 16 hour shift, been up for 23 hours and I'm nauseous with anxiety. This can't be over soon enough.
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 31

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    I never know what I want. I constantly change my carrer, my goals, they dont stay the same for more than a couple months. I want to be someone amazing, if that means an amazing...
    emavii emavii 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 31

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    My trigger is usually high sexual drive or relationship issues.
    jumpingoffthecliff jumpingoffthecliff 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 2