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I Just Found Out I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    I Was Diagnosed Today With Borderline Personality Disorder

    I was with my therapist today, opening up my terrible childhood, it was very strange it was a frank, honest, open account. I cried when I explained the violence and hot, cold treatment received from my mentally ill mother. I mentioned to her about the sexually abuse I received as...
    Gracie2012 Gracie2012 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    Completely Interrupted

    Two weeks ago, I found out I have BPD. I've been a mess ever since.
    XxGirlInterruptedxX XxGirlInterruptedxX 26-30 2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    sorry i need to vent i have no energy dont want to go on i dont want to go on anbymore i feel like such a fat pig i think of certain people i want to do myself im i cant take the...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I want to understand borderline more. No, I don't have it. I was misdiagnosed once, but I do have aspergers. Anyways, I have a friend with BPD and I wish to write a book about BPD...
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    Or so I think. But don't we all? Life has become increasingly difficult by my standards and it's just enough to not make me want to excel at anything fruitful or have the...
    Keldeo Keldeo 22-25 1 Response Aug 18

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    i just found this link http://bpd.about.com/od/livingwithbpd/a/Coping.htm , not adding much from what i've already knew but still a nice reading material.. still struggling to...
    yayforKay yayforKay 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    hi just need to vent not feeling well i feel like im going off the deep end i dont like getting up in the morning anymore i want to avoid the night time when i get my cycle my...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Those of us who suffer BPD know where hell really is. It's inside us. No escaping the agony, pain and torture. No reprieve. It's in every moment of our day, our dreams and our...
    AussieAZ AussieAZ 41-45, M 3 Responses Aug 28

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    Went to see my shrink today and after 4 long years am finally down to ONLY one pill a day!! Yeah, the pills make me feel normal..but at the same time it feels so fake! They're...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 26

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    how do you love your self as i loathe myself i need love but cant receive my kid parts super angry at my parents as when i was younger i needproper parents and it so affected big...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Who the **** am I????? I'm so beyond confused right now. It seems like since I got diagnosed idk what was really me and what was the disorder. My anger is irrational, I fall in...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    It's been a rough couple of months for me and my BPD has been in high gear. I know it's there and it's not only making my life hard, but everyone around me as well...my daughter...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 20

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    Oh my god guys I just freaked out at my boyfriend I hate myself so much right now Why can't this go away >.< I can't deal with this I'm so sad i freaked out at him and yelled...
    emoscreamo101 emoscreamo101 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 28

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    Hi everybody. I've been reading a lot of your stories and they hit home with me. I see a lot of my views and experiences in your posts. I've suffered on and off with mental...
    Pheebs1990 Pheebs1990 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 31

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    have you ever stayed in a relationship because you're afraid of being alone? I don't know if I am.. I don't think I am staying in it for that reason.. I love someone so much but...
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 5

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    Hmmm..stay on the meds or get off them? I'm going through that question right now.. Am down to one a day (from a high of 6 after every meal, 18 a day). I want to quit the meds but...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M Aug 27

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    I feel like I'm spinning out of control. I'm making actions, taking risks that aren't safe or right for me to be doing. There's a chance it could lead to bigger things that could...
    NoraDysphoria NoraDysphoria 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 28

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    Can feel myself growing distant again. It's where I'm most comfortable. Dealing with realizing my codependency issues and trying to work thru those. Surprised my boyfriend hasn't...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 3

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    I feel really, really bad... I keep having these dreams about how my parents treated me before they put me in a mental hospital, then about the year I spent in the mental hospital...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses Sep 5

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    I think the pills I take could be working but just not in the right way? I take Effexor and Sulpiride. I think they are giving me headaches and also causing me not to care about...
    Beatles22 Beatles22 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 8

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    Waiting outside my psychiatrist's office! What to talk about today?
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M Sep 9

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    im feeling down im not sure what to write i feel like i want to give up i feel imature to day nothing works i feel like im just donr everyone is too nice i have a part that doesnt...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    Ok uhh, talked with my psychiatrist yesterday and we decided to try a three week trial period of no meds! So I'm one day in and I'm getting serious withdrawals... I'm cycling so...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses Sep 10

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    i need to vent i called my brother today big fricken mistaken anyways i was telling him about my situation with a my landlord controlling me hes a hole iwasnt being mindful anywas...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    **** this... Do half you ******* that claim you have BPD even know what the **** it is? It's no ******* joke... all people to people with BPD is kick'em when they're down... You...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 4 Responses Aug 21

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    This has always made me feel better and always seems to apply... Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths, Enwrought with golden and silver light, The blue and the dim and the dark...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 21

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    I got diagnosed about 3-4 years ago I can't really recall, cause when I got diagnosed was the first time that I checked myself into a Psych Ward. I was more worried about other...
    Beatles22 Beatles22 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 21

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    I have spent my entire life feeling as if there is a monster inside of me.
    Ashleyjoan Ashleyjoan 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    I've been having a real ****** time being happy. Not exactly sure I feel like writing. I just know I haven't been doing that well.
    ashless ashless 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 24

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    Last week was so rough for me. It was truly manic. I cried for about 4 days straight and literally wanted to die. I felt that everyone at work could tell I was crazy and were...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 24

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    I have been crying for two days straight. I have been sleeping all day because I exhaust myself with my thoughts. Now I can't sleep at night. I have also been very angry with my...
    stephaniekaye stephaniekaye 26-30, F Aug 29

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    I have been crying for two days straight. I have been sleeping all day because I exhaust myself with my thoughts. Now I can't sleep at night. I have also been very angry with my...
    stephaniekaye stephaniekaye 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    I could so use some help and advice if some of you could take the time to try and help someone who is suffering and needs the help. GUILT IS...
    Altruistrick Altruistrick 56-60, M 5 Responses Aug 29

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    does anyone here to know how to cope i get up struggling everyday is a struggle just to get through the day ive gained so much weight that could be it i smoke to much its so black...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 5

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    Just told a girl that said she thought I was cute to **** off and then got totally drunk so I'm gonna rant a bit now! Don't even think you understand what I'm going through! Don't...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I started regularly weekly therapy 5 years ago after a lifetime of severe trauma. I was immediately diagnosed with BPD. Actually, I was pretty thrilled to know there was a real...
    AlleywayGospel AlleywayGospel 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I can't stand it anymore... all the emotional turmoil and chaos... I'm getting to the point where I don't even think other's with BPD understand how I feel! Yeah I can hope all I...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 18

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    Feeling not depressed but weird.. just finished watching Halloween (2007 remake) for some reason feels like me in that mental hospital.. those kind of places only make you worse...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 27

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    Off the medicine I'm not sure now I feel about my choice..
    emoscreamo101 emoscreamo101 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    Everything in my life ive messed up, sick of feeling the way I do. Meds just mask the way I am. The reality is I either learn how to live with it or give up
    cleef84 cleef84 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 28

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    Well it helped one person so might help so of you others! The BPD song for all of us! lol https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=NJDNjsc7nRA
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 28

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    It sucks. If you even feel a tinge of abandonment, you turn into this insecure, self-destructive monster. You start fights or start thinking that it'll never end & everyone will...
    Susananais Susananais 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 1

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    To all the people who look down on, degrade and ridicule people with BPD I would like to invite you to come walk a mile in our shoes!
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 4 Responses Sep 1

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    It has been suggested that this is what I'm dealing with. I've been reading a lot into it and tbh I think it hits the nail on the head. I've been referred to a psychiatrist to...
    FallenForDeceit FallenForDeceit 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 4

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    I hate how you can feel a sad episode coming on yet can do absolutely nothing about it to stop from coming.
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 7

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