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I Just Found Out I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    I Was Diagnosed Today With Borderline Personality Disorder

    I was with my therapist today, opening up my terrible childhood, it was very strange it was a frank, honest, open account. I cried when I explained the violence and hot, cold treatment received from my mentally ill mother. I mentioned to her about the sexually abuse I received as...
    Gracie2012 Gracie2012 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    Completely Interrupted

    Two weeks ago, I found out I have BPD. I've been a mess ever since.
    XxGirlInterruptedxX XxGirlInterruptedxX 26-30 2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    Recently been told I may have Borderline Personality Disorder. It's not a confirmed diagnosis yet, but I'm pretty sure I have it, definitely makes more sense to me than the...
    atremain atremain 18-21, F Apr 3

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    i have borderline personality disorder maybe i have to join another group lee anne
    maddisongrace maddisongrace 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    My problem with getting this diagnosis was that I used to not like the fact that everyone gets labels. I mean, I still feel like certain terms get thrown around way too casually...
    showusyoursouls showusyoursouls 18-21, F Apr 1

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    Wow . I'm so beyond bored right know when I shouldn't be . Blah maybe the whole borderline personality disorder is getting in my way . Hmmm
    Briinx Briinx 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have PSTD and personality disorder which I don't know how to handle.
    godswish49 godswish49 46-50, M 2 Responses Apr 4

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    Just found a support group @ Http//www.supportgroups.com Check it out if you wish
    Jackal208 Jackal208 56-60, M Mar 28

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    Balancing in an unbalanced world. Walking on a tightrope with the wind blowing. Falling apart while simultaneously trying to catch the pieces. That's how I've been feeling the...
    greeneyes91 greeneyes91 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    I have BPD and I'm totally my own worst enemy, I've learned over the years that when things are calm and peaceful I sabotage my own life because I'm more comfortable in chaotic...
    BeautifulBorderlineJunkie BeautifulBorderlineJunkie 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 11

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    As a teen, psycologists or whatever ists think it could just be "teen moodiness". That is in fact, bullshit. This isn't your oh whatever, she/he is just having moodiness. These are...
    AnaPanda1 AnaPanda1 13-15, F Apr 2

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    I have chosen to be alone till I die. I find that with borderline it is literally impossible to find good people and maintain friendships and relationships. I enjoy being alone...
    FragileFish FragileFish 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 4

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    I was diagnosed with BPD about a year and a half ago. I was in denial and didn't get the help that I needed. It was my husband who figured out that their was something wrong and...
    mamakate09 mamakate09 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I left work today :( A little background. I was diagnosed BPD (among others) 5 years ago and have been on disability since then. Disability has that wonderful program where for...
    whoamifooling whoamifooling 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I hate when randomly BPD starts taking over out of no where. It's like from 0 to 10 quickly. There's no feeling kinda bad it just goes to horrible. I hate being like this. I want...
    Australianladybug Australianladybug 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    I'm feeling my rage come out and I'm trying to keep it in but it's hard. I lash out and act unrecognizable when it happens. I hate being hurt and I hate anything that may resemble...
    Australianladybug Australianladybug 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    I got so drunk last night and had sex with a random guy that I met one before and who turned out to be a virgin. This is happening way to often. I feel like complete ****. I'm so...
    AmeliasDay AmeliasDay 26-30, F 6 Responses Apr 5

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    I'm scared. I've spent so much time feeling sad even when I'm slightly happy, I don't know if I can ever feel any different. For the past ten years I've been self harming and...
    atremain atremain 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    In my case, this means that I'm constantly on an emotional roller coaster, my emotions are never stable. Abandonment terrifies me, and I do everything under the sun to keep...
    adorea adorea 70+, F 3 Responses Apr 13

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    I experience what they call "imagined/hallucination of rejection" all the time when I go out or even here online. So I'm a ticking time bomb my emotion's all over the place and...
    GrumpyGrouchy GrumpyGrouchy 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 15

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    All I want is someone to care about me. Try opening up but I'm in the wrong.. Tried going out but no one pays me attention. So sick of life.
    jjw123 jjw123 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I spend my free time filling my head with fantasies of running away. Running away from the life I know, maybe I'd be better if I started over somewhere else. No one knows you, you...
    jhib jhib 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    This just isn't fair. I am in so much anger, and pain. I hate my impulses, and I hate getting hurt and not getting over it quickly. I keep cutting, but each time it gets deeper...
    nellagrr nellagrr 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 27

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    Has anybody been to the Mclean Hospital in Belton MA? I have their website pinned to my favorites. I dream of the possibility of being a go there. Unfortunately, people don't see...
    whoamifooling whoamifooling 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Starting at a young age I felt alone, empty, and misunderstood. It was such a normal feeling I almost didn't realize it wasn't "normal". What was wrong with me? ADD? Depression...
    certzjbd23 certzjbd23 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    I have nobody to talk to. I've never felt so alone and I'm scared of getting bad again
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F Apr 1

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    Definitely feeling manic right now. I have been so productive it's insane. It almost seems like a good thing but I know that it will most likely interfere with my sleep tonight. I...
    HaileyBee92 HaileyBee92 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    Today I woke up and had a great start to the day but somehow I have ended up back in bed feeling very reluctant to face the world today. I think right now I just need to take one...
    AmeliasDay AmeliasDay 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    So an interesting thing was brought up to me... We tend to focus so much on the downside of BPD we don't often see the positive things. We're passionate, creative, to the point...
    EngulfingBreeze EngulfingBreeze 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 3

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    I have been afraid for so long to say so. I am afraid of being this way, but when learning about BPD no matter where I looked (if it was an accurate source not like wikipedia) it...
    InsanitySpark InsanitySpark 13-15, F Apr 6

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    I was diagnosed exactly a year ago a week from today. I have no support system right now, I can't go to therapy or get medicine, and I'm worried that I'm getting worse.
    moubliez moubliez 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I have such a personal dilemma and it's causing way more of a commotion inside me then it should . Logically looking at it there's a reasonable explanation to the issue , that...
    Briinx Briinx 31-35, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Why is lying associated with BPD?
    Australianladybug Australianladybug 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 25

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    Does anybody else suffer from Bulimia or anorexia? Drinking? Cutting? roleplaying (I live in my mind) I do all the above but I think my bulimia has gotten really bad :(
    whoamifooling whoamifooling 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 27

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    The only time this issue truly affects me anymore is when I hurt the one person I love more than anything. He knows I was ill in the past but I will never tell him about my...
    kerrence23 kerrence23 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    If i say the sky are purple, how come everyone say they are blue? I can see it! its purple! its right there! like the rest of my mind and feelings, why wont you see it? why are you...
    RoDeLeon RoDeLeon 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Today was good but then my husband is showing me no attention. We temporarily live in different cities during the week and he acts like he doesn't care. I feel rejected constantly...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    I don't know how to fight the constant pain I feel
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    Questioning everything right now even my existence
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I hate when someone tells me to ignore the way I'm feeling and if I ignore it enough it will go away. You don't feel what I feel so stop trying to give me advice. It's so annoying...
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    I need help. I mean, I don't even understand what to do. I can't maintain my own happiness because I'm too busy succumbing to my inner demons. I push the ones who care away...
    Destati Destati 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    Sometimes I just tell myself to shut the **** up cuz Im not in the mood to listen to me today!
    Jackal208 Jackal208 56-60, M Apr 6

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    Who the **** am I? I hate molding into other peoples interests attitudes and other **** like that and I dont know who I am at all, it drives me crazy i just want to scream and hit...
    feistyfun15 feistyfun15 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I feel like my family instead of helping me makes it worse
    yesiigarciaa yesiigarciaa 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    If you don't know what it is look it up. It's ******* hell. It's not my fault that I do the things I do, don't ******* judge me....you don't know me. If you do know what it is then...
    JEJ22 JEJ22 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 14

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    I have borderline personality disorder
    isabel44 isabel44 16-17, F Mar 30

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    Caged. Heavy; light; pounding; relaxing; broken; glued. This is what goes on inside her head, because this is who she is; a girl diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    Okay.. well, Im a 16 year old girl, been in and out of the hospital for depression, selfharm, anxiety. That was all two years ago. I've lived with a dad that has pretended that i...
    Soldottern Soldottern 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I'm going on day 2 of being off my meds. I can't tell you how amazing I feel. They always made me more tired & agitated. Now I feel like myself again. I still get impulsive & angry...
    Susananais Susananais 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    I left my wife in August and immediatly went to speak to a lawyer to file for divorce. I'm still not divorced. She and I have signed papers twice all ready, and we will have to...
    VeloAficionado VeloAficionado 26-30, M Apr 10

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