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I Just Found Out I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    I Was Diagnosed Today With Borderline Personality Disorder

    I was with my therapist today, opening up my terrible childhood, it was very strange it was a frank, honest, open account. I cried when I explained the violence and hot, cold treatment received from my mentally ill mother. I mentioned to her about the sexually abuse I received as...
    Gracie2012 Gracie2012 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    Completely Interrupted

    Two weeks ago, I found out I have BPD. I've been a mess ever since.
    XxGirlInterruptedxX XxGirlInterruptedxX 26-30 2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    I am have been diagnosed as with borderline personality disorder last year.Such a relief.I think I have had it for 10 years and have inherited it from my mother.Who I forgive,If...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    I managed to creep myself out... A lot. I just looked through some of my old papers and stuff. I must have had borderline personality disorder for a long long time. I kept emails...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 7

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    I just can't cope at the moment. I'm having counselling and "personality" has been mentioned, and, now I really think about it, perhaps my having a personality disorder would "fit...
    Chaleureuse Chaleureuse 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    I'm borderline. and in a relationship with the most caring compassionate understanding human being I've ever found... I am incredibly grateful and head over heels in Love. But...
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My mother got icy cold cause I she wanted a scarf I had ,and I could not give it to her then and there.She proceeded to dramatize how she needs nothing from me,and she is capable...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F a week ago

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    im so sick and tired of fricken being like this i literally feel ill i cant deal withhtis im a mental screwq up why do we feel sick no energy dont get it all i do is stay in my...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Do you have a problem with argumentative people So I was having these perfect three days ,and I decided to tell my brother about my tendencies for "depression" and "anxiety".He...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 23

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    Just got diagnosed yesterday. Would explain why I have always found life tough and struggle to keep friends. I currently have no friends but thankfully have a very understanding...
    Violaplayer84 Violaplayer84 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    Would you say there are any mental illnesses very similar to borderline? If so, what?
    strawberryletter22 strawberryletter22 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 18

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    I hate the drama I always create in my life. It's like I'm doomed to drag myself into my own dramatic stories. Why does this disorder hurt so much??
    styxc styxc 18-21, M Jan 4

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    this "personality" is a curse
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 4

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    Does anyone else have urges to where they are compelled to do something to "Fix" themselves? Yesterday I felt like I had to cut my hair. I did this once before and that time I...
    insanepoet84 insanepoet84 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Put so much effort into looking nice today thinking my boyfriend was picking me up after work so I could stay at his. Even though he's going out with his friend. Packed my bag had...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    So i walked outside today in nothing but a sweatshirt and running pants for 20 min. its 17 degrees here. i walked until i went numb. i thought it would help lessen the pain inside...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M Dec 31, 2014

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    So I'm here my bf is sick he tells me to go out with my friends for new years asks me at what time I'll leave, turns around and asks me to cash his check which i don't mind, but...
    melibar melibar 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    so it's New Years and everyone's excited and happy.... but not me. I hate that I can feel it in myself that I want to be miserable and complain and probably make a bad night of it...
    cherBearCJ cherBearCJ 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I truly hate holidays so glad there over with... so glad they're over with and all the who we're going to, what we're doing and ugh the meeting new ppl, being surrounded trying to...
    melibar melibar 26-30, F Jan 1

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    Another suicide attempt last night. Drinking makes me act crazy sometimes, I over react to things, get bursts of rage, ball my eyes out... I'm upset that I ****** up my sisters...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 1

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    The holidays bring out the worst in me emotionally. I'm having a really horrible day and am going through an episode. Trying to fight it off but it is still there.
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    I'd really like to know if my story is similar to anybody else's. I was diagnosed with BPD at 14, after being told it was Depression, then Bipolar, etc etc. Almost as if it was a...
    skyworm skyworm 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    this emotional overload I can't handle without freaking out!
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 8

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    Who Am I to come here? (Who am I even at all?) I can't press the me too button because I don't know. A doctor didn't tell me, I just guessed and a lot of people have said some...
    ForeverStarrs ForeverStarrs 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 11

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    i have so much anger built up in me and take it out on all the wrong people. i feel so empty. i really dont know what to do. i want to feel happy again. i want to not get so angry...
    pinkwink1245 pinkwink1245 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 13

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    Kelly Clarkson's Dark Side speaks out to me. http://youtu.be/H5ArpRWcGe0 "Oh oh oh, there's a place that I know It's not pretty there and few have ever gone If I show it to you...
    69NTD8 69NTD8 36-40, F 2 days ago

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    Don't know how to control myself. I feel like I'm on drugs being so up and elated to all of a sudden this major come down. I can't have bad days without getting negative comments...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel like there's this darkness surrounding me and I'm chained to it now. I don't even have to try to resist food anymore. I just don't want it. Although it sounds crazy,I keep...
    poodahpop poodahpop 18-21, T Jan 1

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    so Christmas was good... I got more than I needed and I am very appreciative but I just felt like empty the whole day.. like why is Christmas all about getting gifts to some people...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Jan 1

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    One week with a blade and this is my arm. One day with the pills and there will go my life. What have I become?
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I hate the days where I am really paranoid.. I have already convinced myself that someone has been in my apartment for about 20 hours, they kidnapped my fiancee, and they changed...
    jwest230 jwest230 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Feeling beautiful today when I haven't for a very long time ❤️
    jwest230 jwest230 22-25, F Jan 5

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    My dad just came home. He seemed mad at me . He asked me why I sounded funny on the phone when we spoke a while ago. I told him it was because I said "hola" in a Spanish voice. But...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    I have a job interview this afternoon, and I am so incredibly nervous.
    jwest230 jwest230 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    Hi, ive got a question for my fellow bpd's. should I tell my boss I have been diagnosed with it? if someone on here has, how did it go and did anything change? I'm currently in...
    Violaplayer84 Violaplayer84 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 16

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    I really want a hug.... I just want a shoulder to cry on, a friend to laugh with, and share everything with, a lover, a support system. But I don't have this cause I pushed that...
    mysoulachesforyou mysoulachesforyou 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 18

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    I was dx'd with bpd last year and it makes so much sense. My biggest fear is that I'll never be able to have any kind of relationship.
    borderlinecassandra borderlinecassandra 16-17, T 1 day ago

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    she will never understand how much it hurts.....to feel rejected, to feel angry, to feel judged, to feel walked on.....
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I can't sleep because of her
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I feel like people like me don't deserve to be alive. My boyfriend got sick with the flu and all I did is start a fight and feel unwanted... I'm so tired of being selfish, mood...
    melibar melibar 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    **** it. I feel like ****.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M Jan 1

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    everything I do is wrong, should I even try? Wish I could just die... It's all I want
    melibar melibar 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 1

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    I'm doomed I'm too ****** up
    styxc styxc 18-21, M Jan 4

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    Completely forgot to take my meds this morning. I had a good day but then I started shaking and feeling sick to my stomach. I just took them. It's that ever present reminder that...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F Jan 4

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    Never going to get better.......
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 7

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