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I Just Found Out I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    Completely Interrupted

    Two weeks ago, I found out I have BPD. I've been a mess ever since.
    XxGirlInterruptedxX XxGirlInterruptedxX 26-30 2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    I Was Diagnosed Today With Borderline Personality Disorder

    I was with my therapist today, opening up my terrible childhood, it was very strange it was a frank, honest, open account. I cried when I explained the violence and hot, cold treatment received from my mentally ill mother. I mentioned to her about the sexually abuse I received as...
    Gracie2012 Gracie2012 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    I lash out for hours at a time, then I might get depressed for hours at a time. others I'm really happy. sometimes super excited over nothing. I started looking at symptoms of...
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    I realize now how much having borderline personality puts a damper on your relationships. It makes everything feel so unstable. And it's like I am scared to lose anybody in my...
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    just found out what the problem was
    vishar vishar 18-21, M 1 Response May 14

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    i need to vent i needed my dad see now im buried it i needed my father he was always at work i was blow drying my hair and i felt like i was goin goff the deepend no pain i gues si...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 6 hrs ago

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    I became extremely depressed to the point of suicide and I lied to my friend about having schizophrenia and then I lied to her about getting help 3 times, because I didn't have...
    breakfreex breakfreex 26-30, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Are any of you in New York? I'm trying assemble a group of mutual understanding, and yes i have BPD myself.
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 4 hrs ago

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    My borderline is getting worse these few days.I have sort of over dosing on anxiety pills.Between the trade off of being in extreme pain,and being somewhat okay I chose whatever...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses May 17

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    Alright, where to begin? I hope only those with BPD read this. It's incredibly incredibly insensitive and very damaging to a Borderline person when someone who doesn't understand...
    Vaecia Vaecia 22-25, F 6 Responses May 5

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    Ah,so shared vision turns out my founder is delusional.He wants this grand idea of a vision to be executed and cant even put a ******* business plan. Meanwhile he is derailing all...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 1 Response May 13

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    my borderline seems to differ in alot of ways from the experiences I'm reading. i have other issues that help to form this mess in my head but i dont identify with the normal...
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F 2 Responses May 11

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    In the past month, a lot has happened. I'll warn you in advance that this is a long post, but I think it might help some of you to feel less alone. I hope it does. So. I dated a...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 6 Responses May 10

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    Saw the movie shame.That is exactly how it is being borderline.I think I am somewhere in between.Being Demisexual,empath and borderline is a strange **** up of emotions.You have...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses May 8

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    Okay,so saw fatal attraction,and let me put out some stuff,as a bpd sufferer myself,I will never do,and it is very unlikely most average bpd people might. 1.I love animals...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 3 Responses May 22

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    Is anyone else a "quiet borderline?" I'm an introvert, which makes it kind of hard to relate to other bpd sufferers sometimes. Many people (especially family members) underestimate...
    SlothSweater SlothSweater 13-15, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I think this disorder will cause me to be alone forever.
    SoulSearcherLover SoulSearcherLover 18-21, F 2 Responses May 11

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    i dont really know what to qt to write really i feel like im not connected ive beenwatching tv havent been able to cope barely hangoing on i have a stubborn kid in me who refuses...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response May 1

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    The other day, I was in a mood and arguing with my husband (as is common anymore) and before I could catch it, I said something pretty awful, even for me. I said, "Lately, I spend...
    justarandom justarandom 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    I'm in the hospital again after another suicidal freak out last night. My bf restrained me from overdosing. He knocked on my sisters bedroom door and said he needs help because I'm...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 6 Responses May 2

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    i feel like i cant go on i have apart in me well the depressed kid has rejected everything doesnt have the will to go on life is passing me bad i look for a home i never had i dont...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F May 2

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    im feeling ereally funny and sick inside i feel like im not here im in my head i feel likei want to go off the riken deep end i cant feel my emotions ive beena cting fun all day no...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses May 3

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    Anyone else have that one person in your life that you try to avoid because she triggers every emotion you try to bottle up? Her very presence ignites the most intense BPD emotions...
    tribe1855 tribe1855 22-25, M 4 Responses May 10

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    I'm really trying this time but if he does not walk out the door and leave me eventually he will die. So either way he will leave me.
    SirsKnottyGirl SirsKnottyGirl 26-30, F 1 Response May 13

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    needing to vent not that it helps i was worried about brother as he hasnt been on face book i told him about mom hes i create drama all i did was reach out nobody see if he cares i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F May 18

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    I'm at the point where I've wrecked my whole life and I'm only 26. I had to change and now I'm trying to figure it all out in therapy and using stepping stones...
    kayleisma kayleisma 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I NEED TO VENT IM FEELING CRAPPY IM TIRED AND WORN OUT AS THEDAY HASNT BEGUN YET I HAVENT SLEPT A WEEK I HAVE TO GO TO MENTAL HEALTH I FEEL LIKEI JUST DONT WANT TO GO O I LOATHE...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 3 days ago

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    I recently started therapy up again and that seems to be helping tremendously. Socially and mood wise I have been a lot more outgoing and grounded This is such a change from the...
    poodahpop poodahpop 18-21, T 1 Response May 17

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    does anyone know of or have experienced and can explain dissociation in relation to BPD to me? if u don't have an answer don't bother leaving a comment...no bs.
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F 2 Responses May 3

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    I can't have normal relationships. Any good relationship I get myself into, I end up becoming destructive and craving intensity. I don't like nice guys, nice girls. I want...
    borderlineeverything borderlineeverything 16-17, F 1 Response May 10

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    does anyone else have an alter ego?
    himenoko143 himenoko143 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    today was better...it feels good to have a good day...
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F May 13

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    Right now any time there is mention of death, my brain goes "that's a great idea, let's die, you want to die" which is highly unhelpful when you're trying to be happy. Why do I...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 18-21, F 3 Responses May 14

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    anyones partner have bpd aswell as yourself?
    nessa88 nessa88 26-30, F May 16

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    im not sure i have bpd but this is the best category i could think to post in. i feel like a sheet of paper. blank. i emulate other people and fictional characters but they dont...
    gemmed gemmed 13-15, F 1 Response May 20

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    sometimes i hate being on her enot you guys i have to force myself to i feel like crap nothing helps so much pain i want to give up i feel lost and i dont know waht im tired of...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    If you're in Northern New Jersey and have a high degree of empathy, join my meetup group. Http://meetup.com/NNJ-Empathy-Meetup/ We already have over 40 members. Our next Meetup...
    Roxvox Roxvox 31-35, F a week ago

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    If you're in Northern New Jersey and have a high degree of empathy, join my meetup group. Http://meetup.com/NNJ-Empathy-Meetup/ We already have over 40 members. Our next Meetup...
    Roxvox Roxvox 31-35, F a week ago

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    I get into so many fights with my good friends - like yelling at the top of my lungs fighting. My temper/desperation for love and approval are a horrible mix.
    SoulSearcherLover SoulSearcherLover 18-21, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I can never put my thoughts into words.
    SoulSearcherLover SoulSearcherLover 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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