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I Just Found Out I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    Two weeks ago, I found out I have BPD. I've been a mess ever since.
    XxGirlInterruptedxX XxGirlInterruptedxX 26-30 2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    I Was Diagnosed Today With Borderline Personality Disorder

    I was with my therapist today, opening up my terrible childhood, it was very strange it was a frank, honest, open account. I cried when I explained the violence and hot, cold treatment received from my mentally ill mother. I mentioned to her about the sexually abuse I received as...
    Gracie2012 Gracie2012 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    My therapist loaned me a book called "I hate you-don't leave me: understanding the borderline personality" has anybody read it? Any feedback???
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 9 Responses Aug 3

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    I was diagnosed about 5 years ago after attempting suicide. I went through DBT therapy and worked hard to "fix" myself. I manage life so much better now. It doesn't even feel like...
    jennaporter jennaporter 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    I need people the way alcoholics need alcohol It's taken me a long time to come to that understanding, but it's the truth. The BPD side of me craves validation and attention with...
    AnxietyReactor AnxietyReactor 36-40, M 3 Responses Aug 17

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    Borderline and bipolar recoveree. I wanna feel normal again.
    jumpingoffthecliff jumpingoffthecliff 26-30, F Aug 2

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    It's kinda sad to read these other "experiences" of people who have dated someone with BPD. I guess thinking about it from their perspective it is a bit overwhelming to date...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 15

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    Or so I think. But don't we all? Life has become increasingly difficult by my standards and it's just enough to not make me want to excel at anything fruitful or have the...
    Keldeo Keldeo 22-25 1 Response Aug 18

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    Those of us who suffer BPD know where hell really is. It's inside us. No escaping the agony, pain and torture. No reprieve. It's in every moment of our day, our dreams and our...
    AussieAZ AussieAZ 41-45, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Went to see my shrink today and after 4 long years am finally down to ONLY one pill a day!! Yeah, the pills make me feel normal..but at the same time it feels so fake! They're...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    i feel like i cant go on i feel like full of dirt and have no energy i dont know how to get my feeling s out iffeel nothing i dont cant makr myself feel better it feels like ,y...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Aug 1

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    i feel like i cant go on i feel like full of dirt and have no energy i dont know how to get my feeling s out iffeel nothing i dont cant makr myself feel better it feels like ,y...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 1

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    Today I was very distant from my boyfriend. He noticed and asked me what was wrong. I didn't want to say because I knew it would make him mad, that he would just shut me out or say...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 4

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    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 11

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    iwanttolovemyself iwanttolovemyself 22-25 3 Responses Aug 11

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    It's been a rough couple of months for me and my BPD has been in high gear. I know it's there and it's not only making my life hard, but everyone around me as well...my daughter...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 20

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    Oh my god guys I just freaked out at my boyfriend I hate myself so much right now Why can't this go away >.< I can't deal with this I'm so sad i freaked out at him and yelled...
    emoscreamo101 emoscreamo101 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Hi everybody. I've been reading a lot of your stories and they hit home with me. I see a lot of my views and experiences in your posts. I've suffered on and off with mental...
    Pheebs1990 Pheebs1990 22-25, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    I call my bad days "episodes". I can feel them coming on and can't stop them. They always have different symptoms. Today and the past two days it's been severe depression where all...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 10

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    I just want to blend in with the crowd. To not stick out because my anger shows as intense rage. To not get the side eye because I can cry at the change of the wind. To not appear...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F Aug 12

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    Just got out of my second stint in the hospital. This time my parents said they weren't gonna foot the bill and put me on welfare... Ever since I've been diagnosed with BPD my...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 14

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    Hmmm..stay on the meds or get off them? I'm going through that question right now.. Am down to one a day (from a high of 6 after every meal, 18 a day). I want to quit the meds but...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    Wish their was more advice for people who have bpd on how to deal with it. So much online about how to deal with someone with bpd but nothing for me. Just want my relationship to...
    awmusic awmusic 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 4

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    Anyone else have weeks where you stop talking to everyone on text and soci media just to see who would talk to you first or notice that something's weird/wrong? The best part is...
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 10

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    **** this... Do half you ******* that claim you have BPD even know what the **** it is? It's no ******* joke... all people to people with BPD is kick'em when they're down... You...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 4 Responses Aug 21

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    This has always made me feel better and always seems to apply... Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths, Enwrought with golden and silver light, The blue and the dim and the dark...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 21

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    I got diagnosed about 3-4 years ago I can't really recall, cause when I got diagnosed was the first time that I checked myself into a Psych Ward. I was more worried about other...
    Beatles22 Beatles22 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 21

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    I have spent my entire life feeling as if there is a monster inside of me.
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    I could so use some help and advice if some of you could take the time to try and help someone who is suffering and needs the help. GUILT IS...
    Altruistrick Altruistrick 56-60, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    It sucks. If you even feel a tinge of abandonment, you turn into this insecure, self-destructive monster. You start fights or start thinking that it'll never end & everyone will...
    Susananais Susananais 18-21, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    My trigger is usually high sexual drive or relationship issues.
    jumpingoffthecliff jumpingoffthecliff 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    Hi guys...thought it would be worth posting this here after telling my story of what a desperate position I am in at the moment. I am praying somebody, anybody has read my previous...
    Daisypie Daisypie 18-21, F Aug 5

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    Does anybody else deal with intrusive thoughts? And if so how do you manage them? How do you cope, get away from them?
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 12

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    betelgeusex3 betelgeusex3 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    does anyone else get sad when a friend doesn't consider you their best friend? Lol it's kinda stupid considering I don't call anyone my best friend, but I just get so jealous of my...
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 13

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