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I Just Found Out I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    Completely Interrupted

    Two weeks ago, I found out I have BPD. I've been a mess ever since.
    XxGirlInterruptedxX XxGirlInterruptedxX 26-30 2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    I Was Diagnosed Today With Borderline Personality Disorder

    I was with my therapist today, opening up my terrible childhood, it was very strange it was a frank, honest, open account. I cried when I explained the violence and hot, cold treatment received from my mentally ill mother. I mentioned to her about the sexually abuse I received as...
    Gracie2012 Gracie2012 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    I self diagnosed about a year ago and regardless of my efforts it took that long to get a real diagnosis, which I just received. It was such a huge relief in some ways and more...
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    So I always mess up. I wrote about my therapist disliking me but it's not just her it's everyone who is in my life I will mess up or purposely push a person away or make them...
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    sadly203 sadly203 18-21 Dec 7

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    How do you get your therapist to not dislike you?????? I already messed up (manipulation, self harm, w/e) how do I fix it? I've only seen her 5 times but I said I didn't want to...
    nevawas nevawas 22-25, F Nov 21

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    psychoticpsy psychoticpsy 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 21

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    jwest230 jwest230 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    I always solely blamed myself for all of the guys I had sex with, and I'm just now realizing that it's not completely my fault. Yes I know I am mostly to blame, but it's kind of...
    jwest230 jwest230 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 25

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