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I Just Found Out I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    Completely Interrupted

    Two weeks ago, I found out I have BPD. I've been a mess ever since.
    XxGirlInterruptedxX XxGirlInterruptedxX 26-30 2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    I Was Diagnosed Today With Borderline Personality Disorder

    I was with my therapist today, opening up my terrible childhood, it was very strange it was a frank, honest, open account. I cried when I explained the violence and hot, cold treatment received from my mentally ill mother. I mentioned to her about the sexually abuse I received as...
    Gracie2012 Gracie2012 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    I'm actually not quite sure if I do or not, but when I was still 17, my psychiatrist said she wanted to diagnose me with Borderline Personality Disorder after I turned 18. I've...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 10

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    Let's create a resource thread. So many times I feel isolated and don't know where to turn for help. Maybe we can all band together and share our resources for getting treatment or...
    IamLisaSimpson IamLisaSimpson 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    This is my first time posting on EP, so bear with me. Also, keep in mind that doctors and therapists are not 100% of my BPD diagnosis-- I also have dissociation, ADHD, and panics...
    DepressedDemigod DepressedDemigod 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    I'm 21 suffering with borderline personality disorder along with depression and anxiety. I've been dealing with this since I was 11 and my mom remarried a Disney style evil step...
    knittingpretty22 knittingpretty22 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 24

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    I only found out that I had this diagnosis when I requested access to my medical notes. I had been diagnose with BPD for a long time and no one told me. I was initially diagnosed...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    Just because I have come to grips with my illness, my brain, and my eventual demise, does not mean that I'm not allowed to grieve for the life I could have led, for the people I...
    rorenchan rorenchan 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Borderliners?Wanna try this? I am gonna make this the new script for my diary entries format.So I will start filling these,instead of the pain I normally do.Oh,and the flow thing...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I have BPD. Usually I'm quite depressed or apathetic. Occasionally, for no reason, I will wake up feeling great. Energetic, joyful, smart, and insightful. Music has deeper meaning...
    caly94 caly94 31-35, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Argued with my mom today... She´s in another country with my brother... and she left me here... It´s hard comunicating with her, she doesn´t get me... My family should be close...
    DiamondArmada DiamondArmada 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    Someone should check my posts and their dramatic change of emotional stand for explanation of borderline pd.I am much better now.And while my emotional self is still cringing at...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    im not sure why im writing everydat i find is hell and struggling i do not feel connected i have therapy to day at mental heath i dtread going ouy there is in a badf s[pot im...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    most of the ppl who say the are bpd and not been diagnose by a professional. ive taken a lot of test , and it comes up that i have strong indicators of it , they confirmed i do...
    WhiteRice14 WhiteRice14 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 31

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    i dont know why im writing im in so much dark mental agony i dont wan to face the world so rage i hatew the way i feel nothing helps i get up then go to be dagain my mood is so low...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    You know when you just have those days when you just break? You can't fake it anymore? Today was that day for me. I was going to attempt suicide last night because I got rejected...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 20

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    i really dont know much to say except im tired of life getting up everyday today i deceded to clean my house i told my mom i cant talk to her right now as i just cant be in her...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I'm at a weekend away with a club I'm part of, and someone when they were drunk said "No one likes you Amber, you should just leave." I know that if I think about this logically...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 18-21, F Mar 30

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    i woke up to early 300pm. now im tired i feel like im in lala land i must be shut off noytthing matters pain pain thats all i know abuse is all i know abusr to me with food over...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 4 Responses Apr 5

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    So many times I've read people here that are having difficulties with their relationships and I so feel for the pain and confusion they're in. I've been through my own and so has...
    Altruistrick Altruistrick 56-60, M Mar 18

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    The rage is is so tiring. My dogs were barking at something (innocent right)? Not with BPD. I don't remember the last time screaming like that. My dogs fled from me. I feel like...
    Riprovo Riprovo 31-35, M 1 Response Mar 25

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    hello im feeling dark miserabkevery lonely my mind im tired of fighting this i dont know how to cope with this i think i feel angry im not sure whant to be set free my angry...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I was having a great day at work and coming towards the end of the day I started feeling pathetic knowing that once I left work I'd have no to call or text me. Most people...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    How do I know if I'm really ruining life's? I'm causing people pain just by being me by being alive. They all say suicide is wrong but if I'm that bad then why is it not acceptable...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    Today is one of "those" days. I feel ugly, stupid, pathetic, meaningless to anyone, looked over, not cared about and like everyone is looking at me thinking that I'm crazy. I hate...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    ... And I desperately need someone to talk to who understands the need to flee their problems. When they can't run from themselves. I AM my problems. ASAP. Please!!!!!
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 4 Responses Mar 23

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    should I welcome death and end my misery.
    knittingpretty22 knittingpretty22 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    It's just not getting easier. How can do many amazing things be going on in my life yet I am still consumed with depression, sadness, lonliness, and feeling like trash?
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    Or do i. EP Link
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 1

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    I need to try to stop having "episodes" when I'm with my friends... but also getting to the point where I don't give a crap what they think anymore... If I'm gonna be alone anyway...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses Apr 8

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    Is there anyone here from Essex in the UK at all?
    TheIceQueen2012 TheIceQueen2012 36-40, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    We fight every night for something. When the sun sets were both the same. Half draped in the shadows. Half burned in flames.
    JohnVBlackburn JohnVBlackburn 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm in treatment but it's a struggle
    hollaem hollaem 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am a 39 year old female,. I have boarderline personality disorder, major depressive disorder(diagnosed at 10) adhd (diagnosed at 38), ptsd, anxiety, a past history of anorexia...
    sofullofcyn sofullofcyn 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    Hi. Im new to this so.. please be understanding! I only have one personality. Her name is DoryBob and she is 3. Is it common to only have one alter?
    SallyandBob SallyandBob 16-17, F 11 hrs ago

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    I am a 44 yo disabled female veteran entrepeneur who smokes her Rx very day. I claimed two years of sobriety before deciding to trying cannabis Rx for the ridiculous 4 month long...
    LITVET LITVET 41-45, F Mar 21

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    I first discovered this in my junior year of high school. Being trans in high school is probably the worst, but being trans and having a personality disorder in high school is just...
    noyoubro noyoubro 18-21, T 1 Response Mar 25

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    http://psychcentral.com/disorders/schizoid-personality-disorder-symptoms/ my life makes sense now, and i'm pretty sure i have this type of disorder. i'm not sure how long i've had...
    randomgirl42 randomgirl42 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    Has anyone here with DID ever feel like they have no personality? Like a void dark type feeling with no feel of drive to do or say anything but you try anyway because you know it's...
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have been in a relationship on and off with my child's father. I have been trying to get away from him for the fact that he has cheated on me in the past and broken up with me on...
    road2recovery road2recovery 31-35 1 Response Mar 20

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    I find being social extremely tiring and a bit timid to bring the stress on myself. It's not that I don't act myself around friends, I do. It's just a constant battle with myself...
    Disobey007 Disobey007 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2