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I Just Found Out I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    I Was Diagnosed Today With Borderline Personality Disorder

    I was with my therapist today, opening up my terrible childhood, it was very strange it was a frank, honest, open account. I cried when I explained the violence and hot, cold treatment received from my mentally ill mother. I mentioned to her about the sexually abuse I received as...
    Gracie2012 Gracie2012 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    Completely Interrupted

    Two weeks ago, I found out I have BPD. I've been a mess ever since.
    XxGirlInterruptedxX XxGirlInterruptedxX 26-30 2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    My borderline personality disorder has made me see the havoc I cause in people's lives and I'm regretting things I've done. I completely slandered my ex when I was splitting and...
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    I'm 21 suffering with borderline personality disorder along with depression and anxiety. I've been dealing with this since I was 11 and my mom remarried a Disney style evil step...
    knittingpretty22 knittingpretty22 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I only found out that I had this diagnosis when I requested access to my medical notes. I had been diagnose with BPD for a long time and no one told me. I was initially diagnosed...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I could really use and appreciate some help, your experience and input. I'm studying BPD psychopathology and there is something that is so conflicting for me. I'm really struggling...
    Altruistrick Altruistrick 56-60, M 6 Responses Mar 13

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    I stole my boyfriend from someone else and now I am unable to trust him. We've known each other for a long time. I always knew he liked me but I friend-zoned him. After all, he...
    elocinitis elocinitis 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 5

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    I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder with Borderline Traits. Professionals are reluctant to give a full BPD diagnosis because I'm not a cutter and had been able to hold...
    RayneBeauHill RayneBeauHill 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    I was diagnosed almost two years ago (although I've struggled with its symptoms as far back as I can remember). Yet even now when I tell people I have it - I guess because I find...
    vagabondthrone vagabondthrone 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 6

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    Borderline gets treated. Med makers profit. Borderline aint there yet. But they give us meds. That push us beyond. Why not cure the causes. Oh. Right...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 12

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    I want to die. I'm so well informed about how borderline behavior seeps into my every waking moment that I have started to second guess every feeling I have. Am I allowed to be...
    jennaporter jennaporter 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    I've noticed that my borderline traits pretty much go away when I'm not in a relationship, but as soon as I fall in love I go crazy. Having bpd is hell, I'd rather be single and...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 9

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    So a friend of mine (who is not bpd) on EP said this about me, "It's like sometime you want to talk but other times you are like in another dimension and ignoring everyone." I...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    One of the symptoms of BPD is an unstable sense of self, and I hate it so much. My self worth literally changes depending on who I'm with. Someone who used to be my best friend...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I'm writing this in an effort to reach out and make sense of what's happening inside. At times I feel completely normal and then sometimes I feel batshit crazy, all within a few...
    adub2222 adub2222 31-35, M 3 Responses Mar 16

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    Today was quite a roller coaster. Fast mood swings from extreme happiness to the lowest of lows all day. I'm beginning to wonder if Wellbutrin stopped working. It really takes...
    keekzie keekzie 22-25, T 1 Response Mar 1

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    im not feeling well in so much pain i awear i did it to myself fricken depressed and the pain doesnt come out when and got my hair done look so fine but your rotting insid ei feel...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 10

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    It's so hard to get out of bed in the mornings when you have no idea how your day could go. I wake up like a blank slate and then whoever I spend my time with tends to define how I...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    Love and Courage!! For us that have made it so far.Unbowed.Undefeated.Not giving up,just yet. Invictus Out of the night that covers me, Black as the pit from pole to pole...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F Mar 13

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    i dont know why im writing im in so much dark mental agony i dont wan to face the world so rage i hatew the way i feel nothing helps i get up then go to be dagain my mood is so low...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    You know when you just have those days when you just break? You can't fake it anymore? Today was that day for me. I was going to attempt suicide last night because I got rejected...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    i really dont know much to say except im tired of life getting up everyday today i deceded to clean my house i told my mom i cant talk to her right now as i just cant be in her...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    They say if you die suddenly, your life flashes before your eyes. I have been slowly dying for close to fifteen years, all I have seen are other people's lives.
    rorenchan rorenchan 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 28

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    I am (almost can't believe it) peaceful since yesterday night and today.I am usually a lot of emotions,but never peaceful,never.The instances where I have been peaceful,I can...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 3

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    I have started writing a blog. Please take a look. Read, Like, Comment, Share etc.. dionnetyler.wordpress.com
    dte21 dte21 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I've had this account since 2011, and I abandoned it for a long time. I was in therapy for about a year, where I learned to lie really well and cover it up if I did drugs or cut...
    tangledx22 tangledx22 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 9

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    when I disassociate it feels like I don't exist (like surreal I guess). I mean I can feel my body is here but it feels hollow kinda. does anyone else have this feeling
    mia4MyLady mia4MyLady 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 14

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    So many times I've read people here that are having difficulties with their relationships and I so feel for the pain and confusion they're in. I've been through my own and so has...
    Altruistrick Altruistrick 56-60, M Mar 18

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    The rage is is so tiring. My dogs were barking at something (innocent right)? Not with BPD. I don't remember the last time screaming like that. My dogs fled from me. I feel like...
    ItalianEnzo ItalianEnzo 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I was recently diagnosed with BPD and I'm struggling to come to terms with it.. By that I mean, it hasn't quite sunk in yet. What do I do? What am I supposed to do? I don't know...
    dte21 dte21 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 28

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    I am really feeling it right now. I can't shake it.I think I will hibernate today. also thinking of calling Dr for med increase. ugh
    mia4MyLady mia4MyLady 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 12

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    How do I know if I'm really ruining life's? I'm causing people pain just by being me by being alive. They all say suicide is wrong but if I'm that bad then why is it not acceptable...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    Today is one of "those" days. I feel ugly, stupid, pathetic, meaningless to anyone, looked over, not cared about and like everyone is looking at me thinking that I'm crazy. I hate...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response a week ago

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    ... And I desperately need someone to talk to who understands the need to flee their problems. When they can't run from themselves. I AM my problems. ASAP. Please!!!!!
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    should I welcome death and end my misery.
    knittingpretty22 knittingpretty22 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I am a 44 yo disabled female veteran entrepeneur who smokes her Rx very day. I claimed two years of sobriety before deciding to trying cannabis Rx for the ridiculous 4 month long...
    LITVET LITVET 41-45, F 5 days ago

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    I just recently researched this disorder after taking a personality quiz online. My results told me I suffer from APD. I haven't felt like this my whole life up until now. I'm...
    heaven89 heaven89 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I first discovered this in my junior year of high school. Being trans in high school is probably the worst, but being trans and having a personality disorder in high school is just...
    noyoubro noyoubro 18-21, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    http://psychcentral.com/disorders/schizoid-personality-disorder-symptoms/ my life makes sense now, and i'm pretty sure i have this type of disorder. i'm not sure how long i've had...
    randomgirl42 randomgirl42 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I married a borderline 2 years back. Initially before marriage, I saw her getting angry like crazy ..wanted to break off but the usual 'sorry..will never do again" stuff had me in...
    crazy76 crazy76 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 12

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