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I Just Found Out I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    Completely Interrupted

    Two weeks ago, I found out I have BPD. I've been a mess ever since.
    XxGirlInterruptedxX XxGirlInterruptedxX 26-30 2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    I Was Diagnosed Today With Borderline Personality Disorder

    I was with my therapist today, opening up my terrible childhood, it was very strange it was a frank, honest, open account. I cried when I explained the violence and hot, cold treatment received from my mentally ill mother. I mentioned to her about the sexually abuse I received as...
    Gracie2012 Gracie2012 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    I really really need someone with BPD to talk to. I'd go to my "friends" but I'll hear the same thing, and none of them know that I have BPD.
    danadanes danadanes 18-21, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    i think sometimes i was better not knowing i had all these -isms. i am tired of feeling broken and not worthy. i have to talk myself up every day sometimes hundreds of times a day...
    LITVET LITVET 41-45, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    3 days without an episode now someone came on our property and he's out there with his gun threatening to shoot people. The day started off okay ... But we are in a downward spiral...
    bpdwifelife bpdwifelife 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    No matter how normally we behave; no matter how much love , care and respect, the moment they know we have BPD, they choose to protect themselves and run away from us. Medications...
    deceptiveoutofcloset deceptiveoutofcloset 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Today,I found a few self-help tips and was excited to try them and change my life but then I looked at a few pictures of me and I thought why bother, I would still remain ugly. And...
    uglyshyguy uglyshyguy 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm planning on gathering more BPDs like myself. Message me if you're interested
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    We found out today with a pregnancy test and I was wondering if any one had any advice for me?
    acountryboy19 acountryboy19 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    If you can get ahold of BLUE DREAMS from Ca, that is a 3 hour window of much happiness and relief from any soreness or tense muscles. And coming down is like floating on a feather...
    shaymenae shaymenae 46-50, F 5 days ago

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    I'm blowing everyone off. "I can't stay out late again." "I need to clean my room." "I'm not hungry." "I have stuff to do." "I want to come, but I don't know if I can." Bullshit...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, T 5 days ago

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    i had/have an eating disorder for about 6yrs, but the worst times were about 4yrs ago. it was a prison. i never went out because i thought i was ugly & that everything made my fat...
    screambloodygore screambloodygore 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    So I'm due on Friday to get a diagnosis for what I'm sure will be borderline personally disorder. When I was younger I had a psychiatric assessment done and borderline was...
    Livingwithbpd Livingwithbpd 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Just found out that I have Histronic P.O. not the bipolar I've been taking meds for years for. So down. What a mess I've become and what a fricken fool I've made over the years of...
    shaymenae shaymenae 46-50, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Looking in the mirror seeing myself and not feeling good enough, not feeling "hot" enough. Not seeing the movie star body on my body, instead seeing some freak who doesn't...
    ginganinja33 ginganinja33 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    It's as if I'm drowning in a sea of pain. I don't understand anything when it comes to this disorder. I don't understand why it has to make us feel the way we do. I know we all...
    ginganinja33 ginganinja33 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    You're not sick or crazy. The world is just simplistic and flawed.
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 27

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    I'm sitting here on my own sipping wine straight out the bottle, with the television playing in the background. I can feel a rage bubbling inside of me, I feel angry, hurt and...
    busybrain busybrain 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Please read with care, and take steps to keep yourself feeling safe and secure, if reading about body image and associated topics are triggering for you. I’m your stereotypical...
    ChocolateCurvesModel ChocolateCurvesModel 31-35, F Jun 26

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    My experience of narcissistic personality is bitter sweet. It's sweet because I love the high from it. I'm proud of it. From being able to manipulate a person to adore me and do...
    porsia75 porsia75 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 26

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    What an awful existence. A combination of childhood traumas and inherited brain chemistry, making one sad sack of a human being. Always jumping to the worst conclusion, always a...
    BigBaddaBoom BigBaddaBoom 26-30, F Jun 26

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    I am so empty feel lonely I love my husband like crazy then we fight and my love turns to anger and hate them I get depressed love him again it's a horrible cycle. Sometimes I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 25

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    I'm obsessed with a man in a different country who doesn't want me so I'm intent on ruining his life.
    janiegirlUK janiegirlUK 41-45, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    My Borderline personality disorder is ruining my life.The disorder make me very afraid of abandonment and have mood swings.I have a lot of anger and can't stand when people...
    Iloveowl Iloveowl 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    My whole existence is based on other people...every thought, every action. Every movement I make is to make people think I'm cool...Every activity I do is to impress people, and to...
    TheGentleman001 TheGentleman001 18-21, M 6 Responses Jun 24

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    I think I have known that I had borderline personality disorder since I was in my teens. My, then, therapist diagnosed me with disthymia. After thirteen years of cognitive...
    sugarbabysub sugarbabysub 31-35, F Jun 23

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    My boyfriend and my mother both have borderline personality disorder. My mother is in denial, my boyfriend is not. It cannot be cured. But it is something that can be lived with...
    FlourescentBlack FlourescentBlack 31-35, F Jun 23

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    The days are getting harder. And now that I have moved back into my mother's house... I find that I cannot control my anger and temper. I have never been an angry person so this...
    anderablack anderablack 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    I feel empty when I am bored. I don't have a strong sense of identity or purpose. I hate this feeling.
    CrazyDaisyeee CrazyDaisyeee 18-21, F Jun 22

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    Me and my mum clash! She thinks I'm attention seeking, needy and self absorbed. I resent my mum, she brought me into this world against my will, and she shows me no love. I...
    busybrain busybrain 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    Lying in bed, I feel as though the life has been sucked out of me. No energy. My rooms smells of cigarettes and there are empty wine bottles on my floor. I lie in bed full...
    busybrain busybrain 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 22

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    Okay, so I did it. I did the "right" thing. I did not get drunk, I did not cut. I took my meds like a nice compliant teenager... And now, I'm tired and cranky because that's what...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, T 4 Responses Jun 21

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    dont really feeling like writng as i dont have any emotions today i just want to off myself im sicj and tried of this i woke up early i wanted to scream the pain is so much maybe...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Jun 21

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    I don't know if any of you identify with this, but I'm not sure if I WANT to get better...I don't know if I'm scared...or it's a defense mechanism or what...I've been working on my...
    TheGentleman001 TheGentleman001 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 21

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    There's nothing worse than trying to be happy, when ur not happy. Trying to be okay, when's nothings okay. Trying to live when everything makes you suffocate. Wanting to live but...
    kayleisma kayleisma 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 20

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    I only have an eating disorder to tackle now, losing weight even when I'm eating normally. Back then when I was losing weight rapidly my mother wasn't worried much the first time...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    I've finally been diagnosed, people now take me more seriously
    treescarab treescarab 22-25, F Jun 20

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    I'm thirteen and my friend just got diagnosed with bone cancer. His leg gradually started to feel worse and we both just thought it was nothing. Then they found out he has cancer...
    reagan1017 reagan1017 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 19

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    I have an eating disorder, message me
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 18

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    I haven't been diagnosed with borderline personality but I know my behaviour isn't normal. I have an overwhelming feeling of emptiness. As a teenager I was anorexic, and I have...
    busybrain busybrain 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 18

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    I have a compulsive disorder that revolves around my intake on food. I am constantly thinking about how much I intake because the fear of gaining weight weighs so heavily on me...
    Charper44 Charper44 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 17

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