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I Just Found Out I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    Two weeks ago, I found out I have BPD. I've been a mess ever since.
    XxGirlInterruptedxX XxGirlInterruptedxX 26-30 2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

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    I Was Diagnosed Today With Borderline Personality Disorder

    I was with my therapist today, opening up my terrible childhood, it was very strange it was a frank, honest, open account. I cried when I explained the violence and hot, cold treatment received from my mentally ill mother. I mentioned to her about the sexually abuse I received as...
    Gracie2012 Gracie2012 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    Hello, I was recently diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I am really freaking out about it. Since I was 18, I thought I had Bipolar disorder and now I am 25 and they...
    LostAriel LostAriel 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 14

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    After being diagnosed with what seems like everything I was finally diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. It had taken a long time to get my meds right and to find a...
    skatinem13 skatinem13 26-30, F Jul 1

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    hello , I been in a relation with woman has borderline personality disorder .. It ended in the most painful way to me , I can't get over it , she just abandoned me gradually until...
    xthedreamerx xthedreamerx 41-45, M 4 Responses Jul 16

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    What a difference a day makes. Today I got my diagnosis This morning my knowledge about borderline was somewhat limited. I have had friends who had borderline and those were very...
    Fireleaf1991 Fireleaf1991 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    The symptoms of this personality disorder are proving true. And it feels like it's out of my control. I'm very grateful and appreciative of the things around me, consciously. But...
    NoraDysphoria NoraDysphoria 18-21, F Jul 14

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    I was never diagnosed with BPD but I feel I do have it. I have been reading about it and after reading many of your own testimonies I am convinced this is what I have. It's been a...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    I don't know if this is a BPD thing or not but I honestly don't understand social interaction. This might be a Schizotypal Personality Disorder thing (I have that as well) but I...
    LewisCollins LewisCollins 31-35 6 days ago

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    Over time I've realised that BPD has made me a Chameleon. I change my colours depending on who I'm with. I've done this for as long as I can remember. I've realised that I don't do...
    LewisCollins LewisCollins 31-35 3 Responses Jul 7

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    Recently i found out that I have BPD. I always knew that something was different with me. My emotions ran me. They are so up and down but not only that, they were so intense. My...
    xchelseydawnx xchelseydawnx 22-25, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    Who am I? I am a chameleon. I change, I turn blue or pink depending on what your favorite color is. Deep down, I want you to protect me and I want you to love me. I am a mirror...
    sabrinainstars sabrinainstars 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    The other day at my work, i was chatting with another staff. She was a little older then me, and was telling me about her daughter who was 8. And everything she told me sounded...
    amsfee amsfee 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    Finally found the man who I would love to spend my life with. Gives me more happiness caring and understanding I have ever been given. He try's his best to be understanding of my...
    awmusic awmusic 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I was officially diagnosed about 8 years ago when I was 21 but of course I've had it for much longer time. Since my childhood I'd always been very moody, capricious, prone to all...
    maajake maajake 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    Living with this disorder is not something I am proud of. All my life I have pushed people away because I can not control my emotions. I am absolutely terrified to meet new people...
    ForeverLostPoet ForeverLostPoet 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    Borderline ruins my life. I'm almost 15 and at least here in Sweden you have to be 18 to get diagnosed with Borderline. But I do have it. I'm sure. They even say I do and I'm...
    paradiseisbroken paradiseisbroken 13-15, F Jul 10

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    and I have known this for quite a while so I have been studying up on it and mostly they say the only true way to manage this is through counseling this is really not an option for...
    catlady496 catlady496 36 1 Response Jul 13

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    It has been a good couple of days. It means no sleep for me but things have been better. I work thirds and have been working overtime the past 2 weeks. All I do is work and sleep...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm not quite sure whether I have one or not but I have this symptoms: 1. I feel like most of the times I feel nothing unless anger and sadness and hurt. Sometimes I'll laugh but...
    ayamaxx ayamaxx 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    I've been completely off this week. My mother (who's my biggest trigger) came into town doing her usual dishonest antics causing constant upset and paranoia that I'll be just like...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 4 Responses Jul 17

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    I hate this disorder. Yesterday I was supposed to meet my friends for a girls night and an hour before one of the girls text me like she really didn't want to come so I...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    I saw a Psych (the 4th in the last 4 months) and he said it might be a good idea to put me on mood stabilisers. Which in itself is fine but what bothers me is that I'm already on...
    LewisCollins LewisCollins 31-35 Jul 10

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    Ever since this year, i have been very impulsive, obsessive and irritable. In the past i have self-harmed and undergone dissociative disorder and depersonalization at a small scale...
    butterfliesndut butterfliesndut 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    Back to being distant and uncaring today. Therapist has been out of town for a week and it will be almost another week before I see them. Been spiraling out of control. Pulled...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    Does anyone else feel like some days they don't have BPD? You go through a stint of feeling almost ok? Almost normal? Of course it isn't true, but you can pass it off in public? Or...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I know I write a lot here, but it's very therapeutic for me because these thoughts are constantly racing around in my head and getting them out is healthy. I usually wouldn't write...
    Serenity14 Serenity14 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    TRIGGER - SUBJECT OF SUICIDE. The last time I saw a Psych I was asked a question that I've never been asked by a Psych in the 18 years I've been seeing Dr's. He asked "Have you...
    LewisCollins LewisCollins 31-35 2 Responses Jul 2

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    Idk if this is something that's typical of someone with bpd. But There's this guy and I've been seeing him for about 4 months. Things are getting more serious between us and I like...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 5

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    And I'm poor. I go to a state funded clinic (thank GOD for its existence), and only pay $5 for each prescription. However, there are considerable draw-backs to the state funded...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F Jul 22

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    I've made several posts with this heading, and I'm aware that this might make it hard to follow if looking at multiple posts. However, this is my current focus and all of these...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Well therapy got canceled this morning. Therapist texted me to tell me that she accidentally double booked. It was a weird feeling. I normally dread going to therapy but I've been...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    That feeling of rejection you get when you know a message you've sent someone has been seen but they don't reply. Why do I have to feel these emotions so intensely?
    LewisCollins LewisCollins 31-35 1 Response Jul 6

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    I think I have it but my mom isn't taking me to a psychologist or anything to diagnose. I could be wrong though.
    WinterSkyout WinterSkyout 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Past two days have been manic for me. I can't sleep and I started teaching at a new school. I don't talk to anyone because I'm afraid they will think I'm crazy. I don't like...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Positive traits of those with BPD: 1. Passionate-experience extreme intensity of passion when we find something that interests us 2. Individual-strongly cultivate our individuality...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 21

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    And I have no one in my life to understand. Not even my parents, no one really understands what it is like to have BPD. I feel abandoned but I am the real one who pushes people...
    pinkchalk pinkchalk 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 22

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    And I'm bipolar with ADHD and Psychosis. I take meds and I feel pretty good but I notice that my mood swings now are circumstantial. I find it difficult to cope with life. My...
    Roxvox Roxvox 31-35, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Just had my first anxiety attack in a while. I think mothers day was the last time I had one. Holidays are never good. Usually get one during thanksgiving and Christmas. Not sure...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    About to be at my first therapy session in a month. Just worked a 16 hour shift, been up for 23 hours and I'm nauseous with anxiety. This can't be over soon enough.
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I never know what I want. I constantly change my carrer, my goals, they dont stay the same for more than a couple months. I want to be someone amazing, if that means an amazing...
    emavii emavii 18-21, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    That awkward moment when you realise that having multiple mental illnesses and the way you've been treated in life has completely ruined your life and you don't see how you can...
    LewisCollins LewisCollins 31-35 Jul 1

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    So they say. And by they, I mean the drs, psychiatrists, and counselors. I think it's a bullshit diagnosis and I refuse to believe it. These doctors can take anyone and convince...
    Blackfish510 Blackfish510 18-21 2 Responses Jul 7

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    I feel no one understands me with is
    yesiigarciaa yesiigarciaa 18-21, F Jul 10

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    I want to be a counselor and help kids for a future im 18 tight now suppose to start college in August..My dad is right what kind of counselor scratches her wrist till it bleeds...
    yesiigarciaa yesiigarciaa 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 11

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    Or an addiction to freedom of speech. Lmao.
    converted converted 46-50, M Jul 13

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    One year anniversary with my boyfriend tomorrow, can't believe he's managed to put up with me for a whole year, hope there's more to come, woo for the longest zip wire in the uk...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F Jul 14