I Just Need to Breathe

I need to breathe, I need a break from everything that is going on. All the stress, all the problems, all the Drama. I need a break from the trauma that is going on. I just can't take it much longer. I am eventually going to...

I know I need to just take a deep breath and calm myself.  Deep down I know this... but I just can't seem to do it today.
 The woman I love and know like a mother is so ill and had to be taken to the hospital today.  She is home now...

Today I found myself getting in my car and just driving. I didn't know where I was going until I ended up in the next village over. I was at the family beach, so I grabbed my I pod got down and started walking though the water..... It...

DOWN AND UP AND ROUND AGAIN,
LIFE KEEPS GOING CRAZY LIKE, SEEMS LIKE IT'S NEVER GONNA END.
MAKING SENSE, GETTING CONFUSED, FIGUREING OUT, pUzZLEd?
SO LET IT RIDE, IT'S TOO MUCH TO TAKE IN,
SOMETHING'S GOT TO BEND.
FORGIVING...

Okay, I know that it's impossible to literally forget to breathe...but I know my breath gets ragged and irregular when I get upset.  And I know that it's hard to think when I'm not breathing right.So yeah.  I just need to breathe.

The strongest emotion I am feeling right now is a STRONG dislike for someone.
Then the anxiety not too far behind.  But that is masked at the moment by that voice in there screaming, "Oh, hell no b**ch!"...

I just need to breathe and keep doing my part. I need to remember everything will fall into place as it should. I need to remember how strong I am. I need to remember I have angels around me and am blessed. I need to remember to breathe...

I should just sit here and not do another bloody thing. Just go on a strike of sorts. Stop organizing, stop worrying, stop snapping because I am perpetually irritated from the stress. Just sit here, and let everything go to hell. Pop...

~ Everytime I feel an anxiety attack coming on. Everytime I get scared in the middle of the night because the ghosts won't let me rest. I remind myself to breathe. Just breathe! Sometimes that's all you can do to...