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I Just Purged

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    Couldn't take the fat anymore.

    Made my self through up now cleaning my face cause of me crying
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    My Final Stand

    My tooth hurts. A lot. It could be that I haven't stopped purging in the last 3 weeks. I want to say I can't help it, but I don't want to bullshit myself. I could help it if I really tried. Maybe if I tried harder than I am now. I'd have to chain myself to my bed, throw out all...
    sweetskinnytomato sweetskinnytomato 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 18, 2010

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    Words. Words. Words.

    To make this long story short, i'll keep it simple.Dad gets angry.Dad proceeds to call his bulimic daughter a worthless, lazy, fat *****.Daughter purges. And is very upset.It hit me though, like a ton of bricks. That he would call me fat. The connotation of that word, it ugh...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 2, 2012

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    I just binged and purged.

    ..not proud. Haven't done that in a while. In a lot of pain.
    Lucile199 Lucile199 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Stupid

    I messed up & I don't know why I just flipped out & felt sick. I should never eat with my mom because she makes me so nervous. I hate eating. I hate food. I hate recovery.
    itsjustmelexie itsjustmelexie 16-18, F 2 Responses Aug 19, 2007

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    My Final Stand

    My tooth hurts. A lot. It could be that I haven't stopped purging in the last 3 weeks. I want to say I can't help it, but I don't want to bullshit myself. I could help it if I really tried. Maybe if I tried harder than I am now. I'd have to chain myself to my bed, throw out all...
    sweetskinnytomato sweetskinnytomato 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 18, 2010

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    Didn't Go Very Well

    Although, in theory, every purge I have I should consider bad-just by its existence- I hate when I have a truly horrible purge. I just did, it was painful, slow, loud, and hardly anything came back up. In addition, I've been more paranoid about getting caught. I don't know why...
    feelingfoolishlame feelingfoolishlame 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2012

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    Over And Over Again.

    Its sad and almost makes me want to laugh at the irony. This is one of the few experiences that I have each and every day (sometimes multiple times in one day). I can't remember the last time I went a day without purging. I pray for the day...the one normal day! This has been...
    fighting4life fighting4life 26-30, F Oct 7, 2011

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    && I Feel Guilty Either Way.

    Guilty for gaining weight.And now guilty for letting go of all the work I had put into not doing it for these last couple months.I want to be worthy of love.And beautiful.Sometimes, I wish I was someone other than me...Look inside my heart and be amazed.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2012

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    I was pretty normal as a kid, I really didn't care about my weight. But when I reached 10 years old, it had began to get out of control. I had done gymnastics, and I was 10 5'2...
    MickaelaLovesZachLin MickaelaLovesZachLin 18-21, F Aug 8

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    Ugh......I binged and purged last night......and I didn't even eat "that much" I just felt bad I ate something.....I hate when I do that, but it only happens when my laxatives stop...
    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    caitcaitc caitcaitc 18-21, F Aug 14

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    I have never felt comfortable with my weight, I never feel okay about eating , but I'm slowly but surely getting better, I've come to realise that my weight has no significance to...
    morticiamortal morticiamortal 16-17, F Aug 18

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    I started a new school in tenth grade and for the first time in my life I found it so hard to find meaningful company at all, I wasn't overweight but another new girl used to call...
    zoehammo zoehammo 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I was doing week on day one of abc diet and i ate this really high calorie pudding i purged but i just want to eat :(
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