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I Just Purged

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    && I Feel Guilty Either Way.

    Guilty for gaining weight.And now guilty for letting go of all the work I had put into not doing it for these last couple months.I want to be worthy of love.And beautiful.Sometimes, I wish I was someone other than me...Look inside my heart and be amazed.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2012

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    I just binged and purged.

    ..not proud. Haven't done that in a while. In a lot of pain.
    Lucile199 Lucile199 18-21, F Apr 1

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    Didn't Go Very Well

    Although, in theory, every purge I have I should consider bad-just by its existence- I hate when I have a truly horrible purge. I just did, it was painful, slow, loud, and hardly anything came back up. In addition, I've been more paranoid about getting caught. I don't know why...
    feelingfoolishlame feelingfoolishlame 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2012

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    Stupid

    I messed up & I don't know why I just flipped out & felt sick. I should never eat with my mom because she makes me so nervous. I hate eating. I hate food. I hate recovery.
    itsjustmelexie itsjustmelexie 16-18, F 2 Responses Aug 19, 2007

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    Over And Over Again.

    Its sad and almost makes me want to laugh at the irony. This is one of the few experiences that I have each and every day (sometimes multiple times in one day). I can't remember the last time I went a day without purging. I pray for the day...the one normal day! This has been...
    fighting4life fighting4life 26-30, F Oct 7, 2011

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    Words. Words. Words.

    To make this long story short, i'll keep it simple.Dad gets angry.Dad proceeds to call his bulimic daughter a worthless, lazy, fat *****.Daughter purges. And is very upset.It hit me though, like a ton of bricks. That he would call me fat. The connotation of that word, it ugh...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 2, 2012

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    My Final Stand

    My tooth hurts. A lot. It could be that I haven't stopped purging in the last 3 weeks. I want to say I can't help it, but I don't want to bullshit myself. I could help it if I really tried. Maybe if I tried harder than I am now. I'd have to chain myself to my bed, throw out all...
    sweetskinnytomato sweetskinnytomato 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 18, 2010

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    My Final Stand

    My tooth hurts. A lot. It could be that I haven't stopped purging in the last 3 weeks. I want to say I can't help it, but I don't want to bullshit myself. I could help it if I really tried. Maybe if I tried harder than I am now. I'd have to chain myself to my bed, throw out all...
    sweetskinnytomato sweetskinnytomato 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 18, 2010

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    This is my prayer and this is my cry. I want more of Christ, no matter the price. May I take up these seven steps, so in His image I stand. II Peter 1:5-9 And beside this, giving...
    smilejem smilejem 16-17, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I haven't purged in two months and I was starting to get healthy and my body was almost back to it's normal form until last night😔 I ate more than 1200 calories and I felt...
    XxbixtchybellaxX XxbixtchybellaxX 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    enjoy this picture of my legs and favourite shoes😂 i fasted for almost twenty-four hours today, but being the horrid person i am i ate dinner with my family. after dinner i...
    razorthxn razorthxn 13-15, F 9 Responses Jun 24

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    I've always had an issue when it comes to food, as long as I've lived I've been a really fussy eater. About two years ago I was deliberately starving myself, and over exercising...
    Ballet16 Ballet16 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I was a month clean, my cuts were healing, I was eating. In that time I never starved myself or vomited or cut. I relapsed. Badly. Yesterday night I ate quite a lot and I bloat...
    XxbixtchybellaxX XxbixtchybellaxX 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 27

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    I binged. Almost purged. I knew that I didn't want to wake up the next day with a swollen sore throat and enlarged lymph nodes. All I could think about was him. My amazing...
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    3 months clean, he leaves and that's it! 3 months gone. I purged once, no big deal, 2 times okay, 3 and I'm ******. Somebody save me?
    kenzieburr kenzieburr 16-17, F a week ago

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    My name is Michelle I am 29 years old, and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F a week ago

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