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I Just Want to Be "First"

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    My Little Situation, So to Speak.

    Over the last year and a half, I have gone through a lot of inner struggles trying to uphold a "relationship" with someone who would want to be with me, and only me. I know I have made some stupid decisions in the past, in a sense which I knew I was being used (as...
    bloodpromise bloodpromise 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 27, 2009

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    Hmmm

    You know... number one... numero uno.... your choice.... the winner.... the chosen one.  I am not used to being second best and I won't accept it. I always come out on top and this is no different. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2010

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