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I Just Want to Be Happy

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    Today You have planned my steps.

    You know exactly what I shall walk into. What troubles will come my way. But You also said You will give me a way out. Father today in my venture of ups and downs. You are molding me, and because You consider me a diamond in the ruff, You are squeezing me here and there...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F Dec 8, 2015

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    Gordonatclaytonlake Gordonatclaytonlake 51-55, M Jan 17

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    Today I'm tired, I'm in no mood to move forward.

    So today I shall need You Father to help me move forward. My heart hurts when I see those around me in situations that I cannot help. My heart hurts when people are stricken with illness that no meds can fix. My heart hurts me when people are in situations that are financially...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F Dec 9, 2015

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    Rain0069 Rain0069 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 10

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    But, doesn't everyone?

    I want to happy, not just when good things happen. But on a normal day, I want to wake up and think 'today will be a good day', but I won't.
    LikeICare13 LikeICare13 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    fauxlady fauxlady 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 11, 2015

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    When you see me...I am all smiles.

    n But inside I am screaming, crying trying to break out of my skin. I trust no one, confide in no one. I carry my heartache everyday underneath the laughter and good deeds. My heart wants to smile too, my mind wants to be ok and not think crazy thoughts. Im so tired of faking my...
    addict408 addict408 26-30, F 7 Responses Oct 19, 2015

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    Footprints in the sand come to mind

    when I think about how my day will be. Father if there comes a time in my day that I start to feel alone. Father remind me that is the time You are carrying me. You have never left me and never will. But You know Father there are times when the steps get harder to walk forward...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F Dec 4, 2015

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    I want to find someone.

    At least a friend. Someone that won't stop talking to me because I'm boring or awkward or weird. Someone that'll always be there for me. I get lonely. I get very very lonely. Even when I'm surround by people I feel like I'm locked in a glass closet. They see me but they don't...
    SammieSweetheart687 SammieSweetheart687 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    Charliee4 Charliee4 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    Shey12 Shey12 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8, 2014

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    Today while I am Thankful

    for many things, I above all am, Thankful for the enlightenment You give me. As I am sitting and thinking about the show The Walking Dead, I recall the days I was like a walking dead person. Physically I showed all the signs of life but happiness, hope, a will to live, a heart...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2015

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    SaundraMae SaundraMae 26-30, F Jul 29, 2014

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    I am coming to You not knowing

    where to begin and cannot see an ending. At this time, I am choosing not to take one more step without taking a deep breath in and letting a deep breath out. I am reminded of the many days You have gotten me through. I did not know how, and I was not able to see an end, but the...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F Nov 30, 2015

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    Wild Ramblings

     I might be writing this to myself really, because few people may ever understand a word that I’m trying to say. I’m starting to accept that the loneliness I feel in my heart may remain there for a while.  I’ve been betrayed in ways that used to keep...
    StarliteRose StarliteRose 26-30, F 13 Responses Oct 28, 2009

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    Thinking how after the day came to an end

    yesterday, I looked back and saw the way Your hand twisted everything to work out. Far above what I thought it would have turned out. So I give You Thanks! As I sit to think right now, how I would love for things not to pile up and then have to run to You, I begin by saying here...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F Dec 16, 2015

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    Rachael95 Rachael95 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 31, 2014

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    Father at this moment my arms are up like a

    little child reaching and pleading for You to pick me up. Father what steps I have taken are ones that I just don't feel I can take one more step. Father everything and everyone seem against me, and no matter which way I turn it seems that there are nets waiting to catch me and...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2015

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    Something to ponder on.

    ... What other people think of me is none of my business. One of the highest places you can get to is being independent of the good opinions of other people. Dr. Wayne W. Dyer <3
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F Nov 29, 2015

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    For the first time in a

    while I had a great night out. But now I'm paying for it. Sitting on my bedroom floor crying my eyes out because that's how life is. I get punished for being happy. Things are never so bad, so long as I am unhappy. All I want is to be happy, and to be happy with someone.
    js246 js246 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 13, 2015

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    To be honest, I'm afraid of being happy.

    Maybe it's because everything that makes me happy disappears.
    ImJustANobody ImJustANobody 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 24, 2015

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    Life is not about waiting

    for the storm to pass, It is about learning to dance in the rain.
    cat20079 cat20079 36-40, M Mar 31, 2015

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    Faith

    I believe in God simply because of one reason...when you believe, you mustn't say about you..."I am lonely" or "I am unhappy". This feeling of neighbourhood of the God makes me happy, makes me stronger and gives me possibilities to see the world in better way, in wider aspect...
    michalmos michalmos 31-35, M Nov 17, 2013

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    I'm sure it will come in time,

    but right now it is a struggle to figure out how. I took some time off at the beginning of the year and I started to do things to take care of myself and then another thing came along and I have flashbacks, a knot in my chest, and that weary feeling once again. I have spent...
    MuguetDeMai MuguetDeMai 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    I'm so conflicted about what I should do.

    I was with my husband for a long time, but we separated over a year ago. Now he wants to try and work things out. He's a sweet person, and I care about him a lot. I want him to be happy, but I want to be happy too. He has some problems with depression and other things that I'm...
    Glitterrocks Glitterrocks 31-35, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Oct 4, 2015

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    Right now, I feel very happy.

    First completely and voluntarily sober weekend I've had. Been sober for 11 days now! I'm so proud of myself. Small step but great progress <3 I feel happy and warm inside. I'm thirsty for life again and can't wait to wake up and live life again after a goodnights rest...
    neurokitty99 neurokitty99 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 26, 2015

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    Happiness and Love just go together.

    If I could find love again, I would find happiness. After 14 years of marriage I realized I wasn't happy and never would be where I was. I would be happy just to be with someone that loved me for who I am, not for the idea of who I may one day become........if I would just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 2, 2014

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    This past year has changed dramatically

    for me. I joined a frat, fell in love, stopped a friend's suicide, became heartbroken, got kicked out of my house, became a spokesperson for LGBT rights, walked at my first Pride Parade, and came back home. I know that I've impacted the lives of people. They have told me. But...
    louistoblerone louistoblerone 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 2, 2014

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    Madness of many thoughts of what is to come.

    Father, I am asking that You take each burden of thought and refill me with a renewal of thoughts. Reminders that today is a worry in itself. That You have not, are not and will not abandon me. That each step I take is taken with You. You will and have walked ahead of me. So...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F Nov 23, 2015

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    EmptyHuman EmptyHuman 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 20, 2015

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    I woke up this morning just wanting to be night

    time so I can go to sleep again. Happiness is not an option as many may suggest, write or think. Right now I don't have the strength to do anything. My husband, who is an angel, brought me breakfast. But even being next to him and our pet I just feel like crying and I would like...
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 2 Responses Apr 12, 2015

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    I realize that happiness is a fleeting emotion

    that isn't something you can hold on to indefinitely, but some times I feel like I'm going out of my way to be unhappy, and I don't have the motivation to do anything about it. I kind of know what I want, but I'm too caught up in my own feelings to do anything about it, or I...
    lunarrose123 lunarrose123 16-17, F a week ago

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    Before I take another step,

    I look to You. Father without You I am nothing but with You and through You I can do Any and All things. Right now I take a deep breath of You in and breathe out saying my steps ahead were preplanned by You. As all Your children's steps have been planned. Today You have set...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F Dec 7, 2015

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    My husband & I went on a date yesterday

    and actually had a great time together! He smiled and laughed and talked, even flirted a little! I was taken aback! I wish that happened more often.
    SaundraMae SaundraMae 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 29, 2014

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    Davesdaughter, You Are Not The Father.

    So, theres an incident that happened two days ago, and I'm looking for an opinion. Im going to try to relay the events as unbiased as I can, but im guessing you will know what I think of it. Im not going to exaggerate any details, and the funny thing is i dont have to. Okay, a...
    DavesDaughter DavesDaughter 18-21, F 11 Responses Jan 17, 2011

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    I've went through a lot in my marriage of 14

    years. For the past 5 years, I've always found myself very depressed and upset. One major damage was because my husband always thinks very negatively about me. Every 1st January, and birthday, I always make the same wish that I will be happy. But till last June, I realised...
    Lynnlsc Lynnlsc 46-50, F 6 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    I thought that everything will b great

    as time passes by.But As time passes by life is getting tougher and tougher.It will keep getting tougher and tougher every adding year.I need some proper time management and concentration otherwise I will not survive..
    GenuineAngel GenuineAngel 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I felt very heavy and sad this morning

    when I woke up, and I just didn't wanna today, but I got up and did yoga by candlelight , went for a walk around the lake at dawn and then went to the market and got fixin's for a healthy yet delicious dinner tonight. I wasn't completely present, but I didn't just phone it in...
    MuguetDeMai MuguetDeMai 41-45, F Jan 16

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    "Believing in negative thoughts is the single

    greatest obstruction in life" As a young girl I took what people said to heart whether it was positive or negative. I believed in every word spoken over me. I soon came to the realization that I had been destroying myself. You see, no one can make you feel inferior without your...
    Delicateflower98 Delicateflower98 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 7, 2014

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    Sitting and thinking how my day will be.

    Before I get to the steps that will having me walking on shaking ground, may You remind me that I am not alone. You have given me another day to see how You work. Father may the remembrances of times I did not think I would make it through and how I stopped, took a deep breath...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F Dec 1, 2015

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    Don't cry because it's over,

    smile because it happened!!! So true,, :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 10, 2014

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    Anyone else seen "Hector's search

    for happiness?" Interesting movie about what happiness could mean.
    js246 js246 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    Okay so I've been completely clean of drugs

    for upcoming 5 months now? My life and confidence has improved, My relationships with my family has improved. Loving myself and the relationship with myself has improved! Social life and esteem yes! Improved drastically. Just updating to whoever reads my post and is...
    neurokitty99 neurokitty99 22-25, F 1 Response May 18, 2015

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    One day.......i will feel at peace with my

    world and that will make me happy.
    lifealwayschanges lifealwayschanges 41-45, F Jan 16

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