I Just Want to Be Numb

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    The less BS I'm putting up with,

    the less I keep in touch with so-called "friends." I'm doing well taking care of myself, but I wish I could numb my emotions to take all the bad feelings away, like feeling alone, etc.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 16, 2014

    I'm tired of crying because I feel unloved by

    my mom. I wish that I could just not have any emotion and be strong until I turn 18 and can leave.
    helloo12121 helloo12121
    16-17, F
    Jul 8, 2015

    I have lost interest in med school.

    But I won't be able to enjoy life outside it because my parents will make it a living hell in retaliation for not fulfilling their dreams. If only I could be numb to pain and existential depression. If only I could forget to long to find something for myself, because it will not...
    twelves twelves
    22-25
    Dec 11, 2014

    I Wish....

    I'm so tired of hurting all the time! Why can't I ever be happy? Why can't I feel good? I used to be numb...it was the only way I could cope with all the pain my ex caused. I wish so desperately I could go back to being numb again. How much is one person supposed to be able to...
    kzoodiana kzoodiana
    36-40, F
    Feb 28, 2012

    My boyfriend (ex I think,

    I don't know), just asked me if I cheated on him. I didn't. But why am I so nervous? I shouldn't even be nervous about something I didn't even do. I guess I'm just nervous because I'm afraid of what I'll do to myself if things get too out of hand.
    stillYDGN stillYDGN
    18-21, F
    Aug 1, 2014

    I hope It becomes permanent.

    I want numbness to take over me and take away this inner trauma that just refuses to leave me. I want to stop being tormented by these things called " emotions". I wish it gets buried in the sand of numbness forever. And for the first time I am feeling I was doing much better...
    Susana1985 Susana1985
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Jul 18, 2014

    People Hate Me.

    People in school hate me, it's just too much. I want to settle things with everyone but they are too overpowered by rumors like I'm a *****, a backstabber and a hater. I don't know where they are getting these accusations and recently, one of my close friends hated me. I asked...
    chescakes chescakes
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 4, 2011

    Please Let Me Dont Feel The Pain

    i just wanna be numb right now. i wish whatever you make me feel, i can shut it out. i am in so much pain right now, i am thinking i don't wanna live this life anymore. yeah there are still so many years ahead of me, but getting there is so not worth it. can you see these tears...
    LovelessAdvocate LovelessAdvocate
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 24, 2010

    I Dont Like My Emotions.

    I dont like to feel. I remember a time when I was numb. It felt good. I didn't have to worry about being embarrassed. I didn't have to worry about the feeligns of others. I didn't have to feel pain, or hurt, or sadness. I wasn't even hungry. Over the years "i've come out of my...
    Norealidentity Norealidentity
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 12, 2011
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