I Just Want to End It All

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    I just want you to love me big brother ... Why is that so hard... Its not my fault I was born from our father's affair... It's not my fault my birth destroyed the family... It's not my fault our father didn't want me... None of it is my fault... But still... You act like you hate...
    Cerorizo Cerorizo
    18-21, M
    Apr 7, 2013

    it crosses my mind everyday.

    . more than ever now.. it'd be so easy.. just an "accident". I could fall in the creek and drown.. or trip while crossing the highway.. it's so easy..
    alienpanda alienpanda
    18-21, F
    Mar 29, 2015

    I have gotten to point

    that I am ready to go. But what holds me back is that I do not want to go alone. Is there anyone out there who wants to make the journey by my side. I live, for now, in the UK.
    TaintedAngel93 TaintedAngel93
    31-35, M
    Oct 23, 2015

    Death Note

    One day someone will read this note, someday this note will mean something. Right now I am 16 and full of un answered questions and that’s alright. I have suicidal thoughts , I lie to my therapist I lie to my family and friends. But not a bad lie … I tell them I don’t have...
    VampreEmoNeko VampreEmoNeko
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 13, 2013

    I just want it to go away .

    .. and not live another day... I'm so confused, I feel as if my emotions have been abused. I want to be like Alice, and fall down a hole , and go to wonderland, where my life shall be grand ! I want to end it all..... and just like Alice... I'll let myself finally fall...
    emmawinterfrost emmawinterfrost
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 4, 2014

    I wrote this when i was 16,

    I'm 18 now and still want to die. One day someone will read this note, someday this note will mean something. Right now I am 16 and full of un answered questions and that’s alright. I have suicidal thoughts , I lie to my therapist I lie to my family and friends. But not a...
    EmoNekoNiki EmoNekoNiki
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 23, 2014

    The pain and the burden is just too much

    for me. I try to have good days i really do. but for every good days comes 10x more horrible days and it only gets worse and worse. i have no future like this...no hope that things can get better....it just doesn't stop...it doesn't go away and it never will..its hard to even...
    Lyxdesicgal Lyxdesicgal
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 14, 2015

    Sometimes, yes, I do.

    But there are moments when going on seems bearable.
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum
    18-21, F
    May 19, 2015

    I'm sick and tired of being a door mat

    that people think they can walk on at any time. I've Ben pushed too far and tomorrow no one will have to worry about me ever again. I'm done I'm done with all this and I wish to you guys a better life than mine was. Bye forever. You know its funny all my life I thought I could...
    oharu oharu
    2 Responses Jun 29, 2015
    IrwinsScars IrwinsScars
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

    I just have my own hand to hold,

    I just have my own lap to put my head on and cry, I just have myself to share my thoughts and feelings with. Gosh. It really hurts to have no one, to be alone from within, to have no one to understand!!!
    adasth adasth
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 19, 2015

    I'm not a writer, sometimes I lack common sense,

    and other times I make no sense at all. If you still with me for the nect few minutes though I only hope that it gives you some thought. Two years ago I tried to take my life. I was in my last year of high school and I was severely depressed (clinically diagnosed). I was never...
    InfinitelyCurious InfinitelyCurious
    18-21, F
    Nov 12, 2014

    I just want to stop feeling like this,

    living like this, being like this. Nothing I do changes anything. I'm wasting my time here.
    seanlayton211 seanlayton211
    16-17, M
    Oct 5, 2014

    this week I put my life on here.

    I wrote about what happened to me as a child. it's something I have blocked out for so long. yet all the haters on here made me feel like I had to justify the person that I am. this has turned into guys asking if I enjoyed being raped or if I want it to happen again. my life...
    CheatingTracy CheatingTracy
    22-25, F
    48 Responses Jan 16, 2015

    I cant laugh, I cant cry.

    I wish I died in 2012.
    Ang012685 Ang012685
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 20, 2015

    I Don't Want To Hold On Anymore

    I think I'm going to finally carry it out... life just isnt worth it..
    DarkOmy1 DarkOmy1
    13-15, M
    3 Responses Jun 25, 2012

    I don't remember the last time I was truly

    happy. Everyone I know thinks I have a perfect life. I will admit I live in a nice house which I am grateful for. I have food, water, clothes, and shoes which I am also grateful for. I live with my mother and stepfather. About 2 and h half years ago my mother was diagnosed with...
    IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 IDontEvenKnowAnymore1
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Aug 9, 2014

    Struggling so much. Gonna stop taking my

    medication, it's poisoned and I don't need it. They're just trying to control me and mess with my head. I really really really just wish to god I was dead.
    DespicableMind DespicableMind
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 16, 2015
    tuffy232 tuffy232
    13-15, M
    May 20, 2015
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Dec 22, 2014
    Jess7787 Jess7787
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 14, 2014

    My dad just told me to drop dead with no

    question…and to be honest that's all I'm thinking about
    hannahcallaway hannahcallaway
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Nov 11, 2014
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