Since Joel left me, I've been completely lost.
There is no chest for me to lay on.
There is no one to talk to about my day.
There is no one to laugh with, make fun of.
I really just want to be somebody's someone.
I want to feel important to someone's life. Essential.
I am just tired of worrying and struggling with everything.
My phone broke.
He told me he was getting me another one.
I told him no. Insisted.
He said he was. Insisted.
I gave in.
Now, guess who is not getting a phone.
A $30 phone.
Now, I am not materialistic...
I hate the feeling and it just sucks to feel like I'm nothing special. Most of the time when I'm around people or my very small group of friends I just feel like I'm "just there". I don't feel like I matter anymore and I think if something were to ever happen to me to cause me...