I Just Want to Put a Razor to My Wrist and Cut Really Bad

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    Icutmywrists

    I have cut. About 4 times, people only know about two times. Last time was recent, and I just did again... I dont know why, but I just cant stop. Im not happy anymore, I feel unwanted, not cared for and im miserable every day. Every cut I make calms me down, the deeper i go, the...
    Onlyontuesdays Onlyontuesdays
    13-15, F
    1 Response Nov 7, 2012

    It doesn't help that I compulsively bought two

    packs of double sided razor blades. But I don't know what else to do. Every time I try to stop I just worry everyone. Hiding my cuts is a lot easier than trying to hide all the sadness and years of abuse.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 18, 2014

    I used to be a cutter

    when I was in middle school.. I was severely sensitive to how i was bullied around instead of defending myself and being strong.. Now that I'm older, the ones that used to pick on me.. They ask to hang out, noticed the changes I've made, but I just ignore then or tell them to...
    musicvideographer musicvideographer
    31-35, M
    Jun 19, 2014

    I Don't Understand

    I just started tonight. And I'm not trying to but I feel like I have to... I'm sad (ish) there's bullies, and others, but the worst is the past keeps being brought up! I'm sad and tired of it.
    Briebrie6232 Briebrie6232
    13-15
    May 8, 2012

    I Sort Of Did...

    last night, breakdown. thinking of how my whole world have been shaken so much....everything changed so much and so so soon. and i waited. 15 minutes. 20. 30. an hour. two. and i couldnt take it. if i was in a lower place mentally i probably would have dug deep and drug it across...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 10, 2011

    =/

    Ya the urges are ******* here, and they suck really bad. I am sure my boyfriend is going to hide the razor tonight for sure. I hate this part. it sucks. I think I better call it a night soon, because if I stay up, and keep writing, and keep thinking, I am going to end up...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jul 22, 2009

    I just really want to start cutting again

    but I have nothing good to cut with and it is frustrating me :(
    bandcutter666 bandcutter666
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 25, 2014

    This is stupid sorry

    if I'm making you guys down I'm just really depressed I feel so alone now.none my friends message me until they need something from me.im sick of it.like I really just wanna cut now.im crying so bad and feel like no one really cares.maybe I might give up..I'm worth nothing all I...
    angelica4e angelica4e
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 7, 2014

    It calls my name. Everytime I have a bad day it

    begs me to it. One last time I tell myself after every cut. But then I come back to its grip. I wonder, is this how I will live? I ask myself When will I just press a little harder to end it all. I wonder do you ever feel this way?
    LenaBena1430 LenaBena1430
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 26, 2014

    My Three Best-friends

    My three best-friends will always be there for me… Oh! What would I be without my three dear friends… The first one will always be there for me to help me coping with the stress in my every pitiful day The second one will always help to put me to sleep when I...
    hellsdevil hellsdevil
    22-25, F
    Sep 15, 2009

    Oh Mr. Razorblade

    I can't stand having my arms bare. I know both of my arms are covered in scars, but sometimes I'm scared they will leave me. I need them so I'll know I'm still alive. They are my every day reminders that now are better days. But even though I still cut, I don't want to cut. I...
    DetachedCitizen DetachedCitizen
    22-25, F
    Jun 20, 2011

    But I won't do it. I can't.

    I have that feeling to just end it, but what's the point? I will always wonder if I could have lived a fulfilled life.
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 23, 2014
    JeSt0099 JeSt0099
    16-17, F
    Oct 23, 2014

    I haven't cut since I was 18,

    I'm almost 27. But that urge has been getting stronger and stronger. I have horrible scares on my wrists and they are so embarrassing. I can see it on peoples faces when they realize what they are. I started thinking about cutting places people wouldn't be able to see, but even...
    missmorganne missmorganne
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 24, 2014

    You know i dont feel

    that way and i used kitchen knives when i did but i didnt know what i was doing because i was young
    Kitry Kitry
    16-17, F
    Oct 25, 2014

    I know its stupid. To put a harm on your own

    body. But what if i never liked my own body? What if i really want to destroy myself. I know some people/my friends says i worth much more but the pain i feel from cutting is seriously nothing compared to bullshits im going through everyday. When i have blades in my hand i feel...
    flamedoll flamedoll
    18-21, F
    Oct 24, 2014

    The urge is so strong,

    I really want too.
    YouCantEscapeMyDemons YouCantEscapeMyDemons
    16-17, M
    4 Responses Oct 25, 2014

    Untitled

     I haven't felt the need for a while, but today it seems unbearable. I can't cut on my wrists either. It would draw too much attention and I have to change in a girls locker room, so I don't need my parents to find out about this. But so I don't I scratch my writs againts...
    whatamitosay whatamitosay
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Mar 11, 2009

    Hidden

    Not only do i hide my cuts and scars, but i hide my blades all over my room, just in case one is found or i lose one. i also keep one in my backpack for school and sometimes one in my pocket.
    zydeko zydeko
    18-21
    1 Response Aug 24, 2013

    My Blades

    I have blades all over my room in case I lose one I cut my wrist and I can love the pain pain is nothing to me I love it I have always cut my wrist since I was 12 and still do
    Djsancho Djsancho
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2012
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