I Keep Everything Bottled Inside, But I'm Trying To Change

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 21 People

    I like to fool myself into thinking I"m a kind person. I don't know but more often than not, I think maybe I am nice. But then I react harshly to another and remember I 'm not kind...
    WondrousLeafi WondrousLeafi
    18-21, F
    Apr 21
    Part 2 Second year is an interesting story. So much happened and yet so little. It started well, I returned to Uni and thanks to that final night out we’d all become friends...
    Tobey94 Tobey94
    18-21, M
    Apr 21
    I'm wishing everyone the best on their journey when I first joined here I was very depressed and heartbroken feeling lost. I'm glad to say I'm feeling a lot better still have...
    Devinefaith Devinefaith
    26-30, F
    Apr 21
    Today i meet another doctor. What i thought would be another person saying there is nothing indicating that something is wrong. instead i get a doctor who tells me this is the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 20
    This will be a long post but I hope you bear with because this is something that’s been eating at me for a while. I fell in love with the most amazing girl I’ve ever met. The...
    Tobey94 Tobey94
    18-21, M
    Apr 19
    this is my life song right now.. Well, everybody's got a story to tell And everybody's got a wound to be healed I want to believe there's beauty here 'Cause oh, I get so tired of...
    buckley68 buckley68
    46-50, F
    Apr 19
    Today I'm feeling very depressed and negative. I have a sinking feeling and I feel like I'm just going to drown. To people I look perfectly fine but I'm not. I'm not fine. I'm...
    FallingApart33 FallingApart33
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 19
    All of this, this group and all the stories here, are really impressive... in the most horrible of the possibile ways. What I'm most impressed with are the amount and similarity of...
    TotalVoid TotalVoid
    26-30
    Apr 19
    I am afraid I will miss the end of EP, it has been a long fun journey. I have peen fighting the urge to kill myself now for months, and it is getting stronger daily. I have a few...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 18
    I just can't get over the sheer level of both Stupidity and Ignorance in the world today. Both are equally offensive, but are very different. Unfortunately the biggest consequence...
    PantyPariah PantyPariah
    31-35, M
    Apr 18
    This is gonna be a pretty long rant, sorry. You have been warned though. I'm 22, about to turn 23 in a couple of months, and I feel like I'm completely lost. I'm living with my...
    cyberwhat cyberwhat
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 18
    Because I believe that if I keep on pretending long enough, I might forget the fact that I'm even pretending and just be okay someday :)
    Letmebee Letmebee
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 18
    Why can't parent just accept that you've changed. Same with teachers, I am constantly being told "You should just go back to the old you" And I've been going through a lot. And I...
    BeautifulTragedy1 BeautifulTragedy1
    16-17, F
    Apr 17
    I think I am too crazy over everything
    Pandalg1354 Pandalg1354
    16-17, F
    Apr 17
    I'm done being so miserable. Nobody deserves that. Happiness is a choice and I'm choosing it now. You should too. The heck with the people who kick us to the ground and enjoys it...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 17
    I wish i had at least one person i could talk to, who would truly listen. i wish i had someone with whom i could share my thoughts and feelings. I wish i had someone i could tell...
    neitheratomboynoragirlygirl neitheratomboynoragirlygirl
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Apr 17
    Dont know even how to start this. Been sitting here for almost an hour trying to get things straight in my head and not having much luck. Im totally ignorant of how love works...
    boldtimer boldtimer
    66-70, M
    Apr 17
    So , I have two friends. The first one is my best friend, I met her six years ago. The second one, I met her three years ago. Everything was fine until my best friend started...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 17
    I don't really get it. Things had been going fine and then it was like a shadow crept over me and suddenly I was caught up in tough times that were previously only going on around...
    DanceOfBlades DanceOfBlades
    18-21, F
    Apr 17
    I find it interesting how when I was younger I had my life planned out. I would be a popular kid with nice, long hair and a beautiful face that would enchant others. I would be...
    Sanghelios Sanghelios
    13-15, T
    Apr 16
    People (in real-life) mostly say one of these 2 things about, 'You're too polite! (is that even negative?)' or 'You're flirting!', I mean is it so strange I just want to be...
    GentleReader GentleReader
    16-17, M
    Apr 16
    Hey there, I'm new to Ep and before I get started I want to thank you for reading . My name is Lukas DeFranco and for awhile now I've been in a constant cycle of the same boring...
    LukasDeFranco LukasDeFranco
    22-25, M
    Apr 16
    Sometimes I keep my head down at school to keep people from seeing the bags under my eyes and how tired I am and they ask me if I'm ok. No matter what I tell them "I'm just tired...
    nevergoingtousethis nevergoingtousethis
    16-17, F
    Apr 15
    Being male isn't all it's cracked up to be. I'm stuck, because I've been told point-black I'm not transgender, told I can't try to reapply until I'm 18. The best part? I keep so...
    AsYetNameless AsYetNameless
    13-15, T
    Apr 15
    There's a lighthearted way I do to shrug the drama off. I'm starting to debunk this habit of mine, sometimes it's good to just say the truth. So I did. "You okay?" "No, i'm...
    SparkofDecency SparkofDecency
    18-21, F
    Apr 13
    I have high anxiety today I cannot bear being in public places. I've been that way for as long as I can remember however, it's become so much more difficult to deal with over the...
    Claudiiia Claudiiia
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 13
    How to tell my pastor parents that I don't really believe in God anymore? (with facts about the holes in the bible but with love)? My dad is the pastor and my mom is the co-pastor...
    DespicableTruth DespicableTruth
    22-25, F
    Apr 13
    first of all...this is my Final Semester and it's not depressed or something..it's just painful moment just hit me. My childhood crush have a boyfriend..and i failed to tell her...
    IqbalStyles IqbalStyles
    18-21, M
    Apr 13
    Everything has gotten so tight. Even my sweatpants. I feel like I'm bursting out of everything I own. I can see the months of skipping the gym and eating whatever I want. 30 lbs in...
    Atomicrainbow Atomicrainbow
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 13
    I am a recovering "nice guy". Only I'm not very nice, not inside anyway. I've spent my life due to childhood trauma trying to please other people. I gain happiness from other...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 12
    help me plz So when I first found out about him, I was 12 and he was 16. This was on a virtual reality site thing. He lives in a different county and doesn't know I exist and I...
    friedchickenwing friedchickenwing
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 12
    I'm probably gonna get hate for this...but I'm at a loss...please no rude remarks. I've been talking to this guy that I've know for many, many years. We started talking on...
    boppysgirl boppysgirl
    13-15, F
    6 Responses Apr 12
    As long as I can remember, I've never had a passion, a dream. I've never had a driving force for anything I've done. I just go through all the motions of living, but all I really...
    thegreatmango thegreatmango
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 12
    Sooo I'm staying with my supposed to be best friend but her and he gma tripping. Like I was like Ima stay at my girlfriend house tomorrow since Ima be over there she like no u can...
    theunlovedchild theunlovedchild
    18-21, F
    Apr 12
    I need some help me and g boyfriend went out last night with our friends another couple we no and my boyfriend got drunk he did not do anything I asked him he don't look at anyone...
    kayloulou kayloulou
    22-25, F
    Apr 11
    I sometimes feel things will never get better again in my life . I could have chosen the easiest path but I didn't . I don't know how this is gonna end but I'm still willing to...
    black08cat black08cat
    70+, F
    3 Responses Apr 10
    You tell me that it's okay and you love me as I watch you let it go. All I do is make you cry in bed for hours. I've stayed up too many nights fake sleeping, listening to you vent...
    silentsimp silentsimp
    16-17, F
    Apr 10
    since it's been a few days since my last update, i may as well post something to let everyone know i'm still alive. i've arrived back in CA, Kaito and i are still engaged. i...
    randomgirl42 randomgirl42
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 10
    I live with a girl who copies everything I do, from what I eat, to what I wear etc.. It's extreme, and just flat out creepy. We were friends when we first started law school for...
    NorwegianBelle NorwegianBelle
    18-21, F
    Apr 10
    Most men think that if they're working hard or a lot that it's enough reason to not have time to spend with you. It may be a legitimate reason but most women want an actual...
    WynterSolstice WynterSolstice
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 9
    I think I've developed a bad habit of repressing my emotions, since I was a child. I felt everything too strongly, and it confused me. I thought I was being too sensitive. I...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 9
    I find it interesting how everyone is making their version of Experience Project. All these new websites are being created but where are the apps? There should be an App if there...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    7 Responses Apr 7
    1. I was born 2000. 2. I'm 5'1. 3. I think the meaning to my name says a lot about myself. And my name isn't Leah. 4. I obsess over Apple.inc. 5. I hate liars but I'm a...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    13 Responses Apr 7
    First i have to admit , i'm very complicated , even i don't understand myself , and what i want from a person , i have friends and i had girlfriends , but none of them sees, know...
    Poxulis Poxulis
    18-21
    2 Responses Apr 7
    Yes, I did. Last night. I told my husband everything because he deserve to know and I what I did to him is terrible. I realized from all those years together he made me very happy...
    confusedgirl1994 confusedgirl1994
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 6
    I ******* hate feeling like this I hate feeling stupid I hate feeling like I can never do anything right. All I do is ******* fail at everything I can never do One simple thing...
    carazami carazami
    16-17
    Apr 6
    It's so stupid how you've feeling so good one moment then you just want to cry your eyes out the next. The feeling of worthlessness even how good and nice you are to people is so...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    Apr 6
    Ok so a lot of people say I look like a b*tch when you first meet me but I'm really not lol I'm very easy going we can talk about anything you like as long as I'm interested. I...
    whoshookya whoshookya
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 5
    I am trying my best to overcome my mental problems. It's gotten to the point of life and death. I'm in survival mode now. I was taking 4 medications and realized that they were...
    toniyl toniyl
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Apr 5
    Time flies so fast. it was just like yesterday I'm still holding his hand, cooking him breakfast, doing his dishes, sleeping at his side, waking up on his arms, laughing together...
    ohsyrcira ohsyrcira
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 5
    Three years. That's how long we were apart. No words, no stories, just silence. We were pursuing different goals, each becoming what we needed to be. Not a day went by that I didn...
    Xamad Xamad
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 4
    I'm afraid that I'll be single forever. *softly chuckling* I'm unsure if that's how I truly feel. I'm more scared of myself than the entire quote. "I'm afraid that I'll be single...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 4
    I thought that going to school and getting good grades was how I could be successful and happy. I thought I would be an academic success, get a degree, and find a steady job. I was...
    Lukas2727 Lukas2727
    22-25
    Apr 4
    oh my god. i'll start out by stating the reason i can't be with this person. i'm already in relationship. a long term, committed, loving relationship. my boyfriend is just about...
    adele08 adele08
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 4
    I'm trying to break my bad habits, and my ex is one of them. We dated for more than 3 years, broke up 4 years ago. I was in a ****** place, full of hurt and pain. And I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 4
    I did it. Not like before, this time I left for good. I left my alcoholic husband for the 3rd time and as they say third time lucky and I am. I am filing for a divorce and I am...
    sunshineonarainyday sunshineonarainyday
    31-35, F
    Apr 4
    I'm a person who loves S. E. X, alot, Who doesn't love it ? But I'm equally interested in knowing people as type of a person they are and to know about their...
    pleasuretobehere pleasuretobehere
    26-30, M
    Apr 3
    Preface: In many ways I am very fortunate. I have always led a very easy, cushy, pampered life. I have never had to contend with hunger, homelessness, poverty, deprivation, or...
    atpeacewithme atpeacewithme
    31-35
    Apr 3
    Hey guys! So apparently since EP is closing down, does anyone want to talk or stay in contact? I have a kik and Skype if you guys all want to chat. Just message me for them. I want...
    luigistar300 luigistar300
    18-21, M
    Apr 3
    Okay so I don't really know how to start this or why I'm writing it other than it was weighing in my chest and I needed to get it out. I... I'm in love with a fictional character...
    WingedWolfFireFae WingedWolfFireFae
    18-21, F
    Apr 3
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