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I Keep Everything Bottled Inside, But I'm Trying To Change

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    I didn't wanna wake up I was having a much better time asleep... It was like a reverse nightmare like when you wake up from a nightmare your so releived... I woke up into a...
    JustBeYourSelff JustBeYourSelff 22-25, M Mar 15

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    I've always been interested in guys since before i can remember but when i was younger i was really into drama and was bullied for being gay, therefore i saw it as a bad thing and...
    Wacky1993 Wacky1993 18-21, M Mar 2

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    I believe that I'm in a state of depression. I have so many feelings bottled up inside of me but put on a fake smile to let everyone think that I'm okay. I have not cried since my...
    Plasg2012 Plasg2012 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    And so I write. I realize that sometimes I can divulge to much by talking without thinking first. I'm trying to be more mindful and avoid doing this. I am also very aware that I...
    CarrieSue CarrieSue 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    This year will be our tenth wedding anniversary, fourteenth year together. My husband recently told me that he wants to see other people, that he's unhappy with his life, and that...
    Baralinel Baralinel 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    Here's a monumental mistake that I hope anyone reading this will never make. I reconnected with a school friend that I hung out with since we were both 14 years old. After 3 years...
    Cheryl56 Cheryl56 56-60 Mar 6

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    For quite some time now I have been struggling with an over riding sense of unhappiness with the state of things in my life, starting with the long term issues in my marriage...
    WishfulGuy WishfulGuy 46-50, M 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    So recently I opened up and told a friend about everything that has been bothering me for the last 10 years. She's helping me through it. I can't help but have this feeling that...
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 3

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    Almost all of my friends are convinced that I'm okay and that I'm happy with everything in my life. It's really hard for me to look into my best friend's eyes and confess...
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    I don't think I can change my future cuz of my depression. No matter how hard I try to let go of my depression and my past it still keeps me in the dark. Everyday I'm fighting it...
    Myalee Myalee 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    I want to go. I'm not really sure where, but I'm fine with that. I'm okay with leaving everyone behind. I've never made any real attachments to anyone besides one or two people. I...
    wonderlust99 wonderlust99 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    I'm not quite sure how it happened, how I became a loner. During my younger years I was always an extroverted person. You know, the bubbly, random type that didn't care about what...
    Misericordia Misericordia 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    My bf and I have been together 7yrs next month. We've had a decent relationship. I'm not an easy person to please and I can honestly say that everything that could have been done...
    CuppyCake67 CuppyCake67 26-30, F Mar 19

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    Im not good in english.. So it Will be hard for me to understand and Write, But i Will try. Yes im lonely! Im so lonely! I dont have A Lot of friends and Them i have, im not close...
    kamillemille kamillemille 16-17, F 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    My body has been through a lot. Fibromyalgia and CFS wear me down and the cancer blocking medicine attacks bones and joints. Sometimes everything hurts. I pop and crack, I get all...
    BeyondGreenEyes BeyondGreenEyes 31-35, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Top ten questions about relationships with psychopaths/narcissists. I took this from the site psychopathfree.com. I found it to be very helpful. 1. Is he / she really a psychopath...
    totallytea totallytea 46-50, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm not honest with a drink in my hand, but since you're the one zapping brain cells, I'll spill my guts. I like you more and more the less that you breathe. If you touch me again...
    ReykjaviktoZurich ReykjaviktoZurich 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I have been with my husband since 2008. When we first met, I laughed and we talked a lot. Then he slowly took over my life. He started coming over to my house when I was at work to...
    mom4ce mom4ce 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    My boyfriend wants a non-monogamous relationship. He keeps saying he loves the connection we have, and he says he feels like it would still be there between us even if we broke up...
    Jarka123 Jarka123 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    How do I explain something that I can’t even understand myself? Deep down inside me where no one can see I feel blue , all alone relentlessly trying to fix up a heart that’s...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Mar 5

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    I'm haunted by the past, dissapointed with the present, and afraid of the future. Day in, and day out, I have vivid flashbacks of my youth, of the fun I had, memories I relish...
    Eclipse993 Eclipse993 18-21, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm a survivor I finally found the light that God was shinning for me. I was in a 4 year relationship and only one year out of the 4 I was happy and trying new things like puppies...
    corazoncitoroto corazoncitoroto 26-30, F Mar 17

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    Last July I started to break up with this guy, and in his twisted mind he thought raping me would bring me back. I got through it and months later I thought I could completely...
    Anon787 Anon787 22-25, F 7 Responses Mar 2

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    I have a BA in Sociology and a MS in Library Science. For the past 3 years I've been looking for jobs in the field of my Master's and it's been no luck. They don't hire ppl without...
    ksybilannw ksybilannw 26-30, F Mar 5

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    It looks pretty funny, right? A super fat girl plugging up a barely-there incline, puffing like a mother ******* steam engine. I get it. I look stupid. As a fat person, I'm...
    Averisong Averisong 22-25, F Mar 16

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    Sometimes I feel like I'm a quitter.... I just want to take all the necessary and walk further and further away from everything. ..I'm tired of all the pressure, all the...
    Intelligentgirl2 Intelligentgirl2 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I can't help but compare myself to others. My friends are more than just full time students. Here I am at home, still living with my parents, gaming, hardly a social life and no...
    ikg00 ikg00 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I've been always lonely I just don't think about it all the time I try to keep my mind busy but sometimes I just can't stop thinking about it. It makes me feel wanna die I even...
    turki2550 turki2550 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 11

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    I finally found a spot to stop the pain and i can actually feel this pain lifting off my mind and my body. i was so weighed down with diagnosed depression from the hatred from my...
    LoveLessOne97 LoveLessOne97 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 11

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    Ok... I don't know what the hell is wrong with me... but I got concerned about a suicidal EP post. I've already seen so many suicidal notes on here. If someone has made a decision...
    mishale80 mishale80 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 14

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    THIS IS A TRUE STORY ABOUT ME, PRETENDING TO BE SOMEONE ELSE. BEFORE YOU START READING IT, I'D LIKE TO SAY THE GUY IN THIS STORY IS THE REASON WHY I DECIDED TO FINALLY TELL THE...
    anzenyan anzenyan 70+, M 4 days ago

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    Very few people know that I'm in a relationship. People post stuff about relationships on facebook. And most of it is utter ignorance. You can only imagine. Most of the topics be...
    CreoleItalianwoman CreoleItalianwoman 31-35, F Mar 10

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    Everybody thinks that I'm this nice, shy guy, but that's just the outside. I'm really this psychopathic guy who thinks about ending it all soon. The type of guy, who thinks that...
    jonbz17 jonbz17 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 6

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    I sleep without underwear so that my husband can have sex with me if he wakes horny in the middle of the night. It's so exciting and flattering to be suddenly woken by his weight...
    HiddenMenace HiddenMenace 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    I I keep getting on here hoping that I'll see something or talk to someone, and that I'll recognize what I'm searching for when I see it. I don't know what I'm looking for. I don...
    thatonewoman thatonewoman 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    I'm so bored, so if you are too, drop a message in my inbox:) P.s try keep it with in my age range no older than about 16. Thank you, x
    XxChelzxX XxChelzxX 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm not good enough for anybody, I never am. There's always someone better to be with instead of me. I don't deserve anyone. I'm not good enough for my friends, the guy I love, my...
    greyxskies greyxskies 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 2

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    I battled depression. And I got over it by myself. No doctors, no friends, no parents. Diagnosed in 2013 knowing I had been suffering it for years, and today... in 2015 I can...
    nataliafacheux nataliafacheux 18-21, F Mar 5

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    Hi! Me and my mate are looking to start a pack, and if you are interested in joining, please keep reading. The pack name is Moon Stone. Both me and my mate are 15 years old, I am...
    riversxmoonbeam riversxmoonbeam 13-15, F Mar 9

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    Sometimes I feel like I'm Cursed. A slow, hungry curse that has worked its way across my entire life, stripping me of everything I loved.
    arslmalik arslmalik 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 14

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    My parents are pushing me a lot to have good grades and be their perfect daughter they even made me skip classes so I could graduate early like they did but sometimes I just have...
    otakulover909 otakulover909 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 14

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