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I Keep Everything Bottled Inside, But I'm Trying To Change

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    **** it. Pretending to be happy is much more easy than trying to get better... So that's what I'm gonna do. Shut my damn mouth and pretend that everything is fine and dandy. Just...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 15

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    I've always been interested in guys since before i can remember but when i was younger i was really into drama and was bullied for being gay, therefore i saw it as a bad thing and...
    Wacky1993 Wacky1993 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    Ive been reliving a sexual abuse incident every day I go to school. I'm tired, i cant keep up with it anymore, and if i ditch, I suffer the wrath of my parents...not sure what to...
    kingbrizo kingbrizo 18-21 1 Response Feb 25

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    This year will be our tenth wedding anniversary, fourteenth year together. My husband recently told me that he wants to see other people, that he's unhappy with his life, and that...
    Baralinel Baralinel 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I want to go. I'm not really sure where, but I'm fine with that. I'm okay with leaving everyone behind. I've never made any real attachments to anyone besides one or two people. I...
    wonderlust99 wonderlust99 13-15, F 1 Response 46 mins ago

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    So recently I opened up and told a friend about everything that has been bothering me for the last 10 years. She's helping me through it. I can't help but have this feeling that...
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have such an incredible life at first glance; I'm educated, recently lost 30 kilos, stay healthy, I have a roof over my head, travel the world and have some extraordinary...
    hnmad hnmad 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    I'm too big for my age. Everyone around me is small and I'm a giant. I make everyone believe I'm funny and full of life. But I'm really not. I'm that one ***** that has a fruit...
    AtlPunk1D AtlPunk1D 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Do u ever feel like you are doing everything wrong, and you are hurt never good enough for anybody? And then comes a point when you don't know what to do anymore. It's like...
    thelastfallenangel thelastfallenangel 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    I feel like I'm really dreaming this ****** dream mainly reliving my life but I'm in a coma cuz I fell off my horse during a national horse show and my best friend was there. If...
    BobTheUniPonyWakoLover BobTheUniPonyWakoLover 13-15, F Feb 17

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    I keep seeing things out the corner if my eye. And their physical things but they look different. I know that I'm seeing something but I'm not sure I always see them out of the...
    DollTheface DollTheface 18-21, F Feb 21

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    I just want to kill myself or die more than anything . I lost everything in my life. I'm even losing the things that kept me from killing myself such as my ability to do well I'm...
    IntrovertedKat IntrovertedKat 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I have been single every valentines day, until this one. My boyfriend had asked me what I'd like to do earlier that week & for once I felt my heart speed up in excitement that I...
    gluestickruler gluestickruler 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 15

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    How do I explain something that I can’t even understand myself? Deep down inside me where no one can see I feel blue , all alone relentlessly trying to fix up a heart that’s...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 8 hrs ago

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    I have been with my husband since 2008. When we first met, I laughed and we talked a lot. Then he slowly took over my life. He started coming over to my house when I was at work to...
    mom4ce mom4ce 51-55, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I feel like I'm in a one way relationship. I have been feeling very down, and might as well be alone, because when I voice how u feel it's hardly acknowledged. I'm sad. I'm scared...
    SecretAngel6 SecretAngel6 26-30, F 7 Responses Feb 17

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    at times I want to say fack off and push every one out of my life. sometimes I want to say to the people who help me, i don't need anyone's help. Well, I do say and do selfish...
    Sadfate Sadfate 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23

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    I'm terrified of the after, in both ways. How will the ones I leave behind cope and what comes next. I managed to get over my fear for a while, until I smoked pot. They say I...
    ButterflyGirl9521 ButterflyGirl9521 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9

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    Sometimes I wish I could tell everyone I know that I'm really sad inside. That the girl with a plastered smile on her face and all jokes isn't always me. I want to scream to the...
    RememberCarpeDiem RememberCarpeDiem 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 12

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    I am terribly sorry for not being fake as other guys are. I am so sorry that i couldn't change as it is hard to change who am i. I am sorry that i tried my best to hang there and...
    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 7

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    I've learnt though that it's not the best thing to do. Not only is it exhausting but it can also hurt the people around you. About a month ago something happened that has just...
    Viviq66 Viviq66 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    Last July I started to break up with this guy, and in his twisted mind he thought raping me would bring me back. I got through it and months later I thought I could completely...
    Anon787 Anon787 22-25, F 7 Responses 3 days ago

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    I am in an intensive outpatient for my eating disorder as of current. I attend 6 days a week, 10 hours a day. Before this, I was in school for welding, doing my thing all smiles...
    Yourbaaaby Yourbaaaby 18-21, F Feb 7

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    I usually am a very cheerful person, always trying to make people happy and never letting problems tear me apart; but lately, school is being so stressing and nervous that I don't...
    Adriano90 Adriano90 22-25, M Feb 11

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    Soooo... I'm sixteen and I think I'm straight or bi-curious. I've never had a boyfriend but I've been kissed before... by a girl. A guy once made a move on me but it felt so wrong...
    hikarusan hikarusan 16-17 Feb 13

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    I can accept that I'm not perfect but my family really can't. They want me to change and everything which gets me annoyed... I don't know have to. I'm a reject ):
    brokxnangxl brokxnangxl 13-15, F Feb 18

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    I've been in a relationship with my boyfriend for 4 years, and I love him very much. I would say we are happy, which I think we are for the majority of the time, but lately I've...
    Deda0505 Deda0505 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    Out of my head out of my brain.I don't want your negative thoughts to poison me. You were just a pawn in this game of life. You failed to maneuver through the board. You didn't...
    AndrogynousBeauty AndrogynousBeauty 22-25 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm not feeling like myself at all. I'm losing faith in everything, except God. I'm losing faith. I don't know what's happening. I feel like I'm doing a lot of things to make...
    BMTH99 BMTH99 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I feel that all the things I'm going through with my husband is going down a spiral of nothing. I left him because of the stupid choices he made. And (because of our child and my...
    Babygirl872901 Babygirl872901 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    I see everyone around me in some type of relationship or trying to get in one. It's to a point where I have asked out a total of 5 women in the past 3 months and only to be...
    SuperiorSamaa SuperiorSamaa 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 23

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    I'm empty. I'm aching. I'm hurt. And it's killing me.....
    Alijumah Alijumah 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 6

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    All my life, I've always forced myself to put on a smile so that everyone knew I was this "sweet" person. No one (not even my parents) knew what I was dealing with inside. They...
    WeirdOtaku WeirdOtaku 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    I'm some kid that pretends he needs nobody else, and he knows everything about everything, and is super confident. He is always on top of life, and doesn't need the company of any...
    charkzilla20 charkzilla20 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 14

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    I feel like I am an amazing person but I am trapped in my own mind.
    melXlo melXlo 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    I'm living in a situation where I'm not loved, appreciated or even treated with decency. What's even sadder is that it's in a house with my bf and my mom. My mom is the most...
    therapeuticalsentences05 therapeuticalsentences05 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I know im part wolf...I've known since 3rd grade and I'm now in 5th...I feel deep inside of me there is something that makes me different than anyone else....I'm 11 and am part...
    winterwolfNT winterwolfNT 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 8

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    I Can't, I just can't no matter how much I try! I am feeling so lifeless, I can't cry or laugh or have fun or get bored or feel. I can just study and feel a few feelings which I...
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 10

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    No one wants me. Everyone has hated me lately. Everyone has someone special. I'm a good person, don't I derserve someone's love? Someone that I want? :(
    SeanaO SeanaO 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 21

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    I'm scared of: Dying, parents dying, what the future holds, humiliating myself, deciding what uni course to apply for, rejection, sex, relationships, commitment, being abandoned...
    tvdlover1865 tvdlover1865 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    There are so many things I want to say about myself, just to try and make sense of what's going on inside me... I'm married, but I want to have a lesbian experience. I have the...
    Averisong Averisong 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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