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I Keep Everything Bottled Inside, But I'm Trying To Change

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    I smile while I'm really freaking out on the inside. sometimes I just feel like randomly crying. I have bills piling up and I'm freaking out about how I'm going to pay them. I work...
    LadyLyric311 LadyLyric311 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Don't get me wrong; my dad is a great person and I'm super lucky to have him as my dad. However, he's such a great person, that it often stresses me out. He expects a lot from me...
    dabram71 dabram71 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    Tonight I'm not okay. Tonight I'm stiring here writting this and crying so much I have to stop every few words because I can't see from the tears.. Tonight everything is too much...
    Blanche08 Blanche08 31-35, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    My thoughts torment me relentlessly. Day and night. Even in my sleep. I have nightmares frequently. I can't push my thoughts aside. It's a losing battle. I've tried so ******* hard...
    Noregrets5 Noregrets5 41-45, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    a message i sent to a girl that is having despair and wanting to die:: "no, sweetie, i don't judge you. i understand it's probably just become an obsession to ease your pain or...
    cosmosdrift cosmosdrift 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    So there is this guy at my work. I had noticed him checking me out before, but both of us are shy and we had never spoken. Things all changed when I got a cute pixie cut. He...
    kitkat0216 kitkat0216 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Is it ok to sometimes spin into a wealth of insecurity knowing that someone anyone will bring me back? Is it ok to bare my soul and hope upon hope that this time it'll be...
    JosephinaBallerina JosephinaBallerina 31-35, F 7 Responses 5 days ago

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    if I don't say the words. it doesn't mean that they are not there. I just want them to land with you the way that I intend for them to. I am sorry that I often say them like two...
    bigheartsmallworld bigheartsmallworld 36-40, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Wearing tight jeans and I'm eating out…..it's not until I get home then I undo the top and breathe.
    2setsoftails 2setsoftails 31-35 6 days ago

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    it's trying to beat it's way out of my head, my heart, but I won't let it out. it's flooding my eyes and choking my throat, but I won't let it out. it's killing me from the...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F a week ago

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    Isn't this toxic! Holding things inside is like sipping poison....Exactly, why would you do this. Well for one maybe it is the fact of the matter that these days it's hard to get...
    ItsRissa88 ItsRissa88 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    U know I'm done I just can't do it anymore I'm giving up relax I'm not gonna go killing my self or anything that will hurt its just that I don't have hope anymore I have nothing...
    me343434 me343434 13-15, F Aug 25

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    I'm sorry I used you. I'm sorry I ripped you apart. I'm sorry I didn't care. I'm sorry for it all darling. I wish I could take it all back. I wish I could take it all away. I felt...
    saraandherfoxes saraandherfoxes 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    I'm a mom I hide crying myself asleep the scars on my thigh from the many blades I hide how much I truly hate myself I hide my eating problems I hide it all and fake a smile I don...
    youngkinyteenmom youngkinyteenmom 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 24

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    I blame God for everything bad that happens to me. Because I see him as an all powerful entity that can make my dreams come true. I don't understand how God works. am I supposed to...
    Abdulaziz94 Abdulaziz94 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 24

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    The the thing with boyfriends' mothers. Oh my God they are so irritating. I'm tired of being lectured. I'm quiet and not a back talker and just nod and says yes or no, and say a...
    reginarose reginarose 26-30, F Aug 24

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    Big decision to make and I need some advice. So allow me first to give you some background. I first met my wife not too long after a really bad heartbreaking relationship where I...
    TiredDaddy TiredDaddy 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 24

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    Big decision to make and I need some advice. So allow me first to give you some background. I first met my wife not too long after a really bad heartbreaking relationship where I...
    TiredDaddy TiredDaddy 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 24

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    I've been friends with my best friend for about 6 years. We have a lot in common but we also like different things. We laugh a lot together and have a lot of fun, but lately shes...
    corndogage123 corndogage123 16-17, F Aug 22

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    How To Turn Six Dollars Into Six Thousand Dollars: I found this on a bulletin board and decided to try it. A little while back I was browsing through newsgroups just like you are...
    manusundr manusundr 46-50, M Aug 22

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    Now it's just constant lying.... why?? Because no one gives a fck you just spend this time trying to get someone to listen but they don't care.... I've tried so many times to talk...
    GrandmamaTemptationCx GrandmamaTemptationCx 70+, F 4 Responses Aug 22

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    I really want to kill myself. My life is going on horribly. My mother has psychotic depression, she has been on an affair for 9 years & has just recently stopped after being...
    mangoseed mangoseed 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    This is probably the first story I have posted on EP where my feelings are really hurt. I got blocked by someone in my circle today because she felt I analyze everything and that...
    pone22 pone22 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 22

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    I know I need to but something inside is stopping me from doing so. I'm trying to but the tears just won't come. Am I past the point of crying?
    ECH0o ECH0o 16-17, T 2 Responses Aug 21

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    How should I respond to my boyfriends mom? Here is the story of what is going on. My boyfriend has learning disabilities(reading,writing,) but he can function. He can hold a...
    AtadbitLost AtadbitLost 22-25, F Aug 20

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    Soo i'm meeting up with a guy this week, we've met online but never seen each other in real life... Which has triggered all my insecurities. I do post pictures of myself online but...
    ThinkerBeast ThinkerBeast 16-17, F Aug 20

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    There's this guy I am with almost every weekend. I've spent more time with him than I have with friends I've had for 30 and 40 years. I was sad and miserable for such a long time...
    xcryptic xcryptic 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    currently listening 2 alesana beautiful in blue ...this song has me in my mood ...& it helps me get my thoughts situated wen I'm done with everything & everyone
    raythedragon raythedragon 16-17, F Aug 18

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    This is gonna be long but this is my experience - my story. I come from a complicated family background. You can say I don't know much about my parent's stories since they never...
    Abcak937 Abcak937 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    I want to be free. I want to be happy. I wanna change everything in my life, and i will. I know that, and that's what keeps me alive, cause I WILL. I'm gonna back to school next...
    GIRLpower21 GIRLpower21 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 17

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    Cannot seem to find my way up. Causing me to wonder if I'm actually dead. This is not logical, but life is not logical. I keep seeing the word UNINSPIRED everywhere I look. I...
    pearlesque pearlesque 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    The tears just won't come, and this sadness inside feels so suffocating. Even the saddest songs don't make me cry anymore. Do tears ever dry up? But then why does the sadness stay...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 17

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    It sucks, but it's true. I only realized it recently, but I've been prioritizing my wants and needs over his. I've been making everything about me. I've blamed him for things that...
    kmy66 kmy66 22-25 Aug 16

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    It is so weird because crying makes you feel so much better and when you can't cry, it gets worse. I hardly ever get time to myself and I can never cry in front of anyone. I'm...
    Demonizer Demonizer 18-21, F Aug 16

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    I tried to pretend that everything was okay... That that hadn't hurt me at all... That somehow you didn't have to say you were sorry, repeatedly, like you did... That if you wanted...
    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 Aug 16

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    I'm lonely, so lonely. and my heart feels like a black hole and it's sucking all the life out of me and I don't know wt to do anymore I keep trying to ignore the loneliness but I...
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    I was diagnosed with depression in 2009, been on and off on anti-depressants and I'm thinking of going back again, but the illusion those pills cause me scared me a lot and cause...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Aug 14

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    Today i finally figured out what was worst then being lonely and unfortunately it's the current circumstances I'm in.. not only am i lonely.. but I'm also unwanted.. unneeded.. i...
    jaynm jaynm 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    It happens to me all the time
    winterblood winterblood 13-15, F Aug 13

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    I don't know where the darkness ends and I begin. I'm trapped inside my mind. So many horrifying emotions that render me unable to speak or move, so i just give in and let it...
    U1049927 U1049927 18-21, M Aug 13

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