I Keep My Emotions Bottled Up

i know i should let my feelings out... but i CANT! 13,385 People

    I don't always realize

    when I do it. I'm forced to analyze my feelings when I lose my appetite or get headaches. Crying helps me reset but my tears aren't always easy to release. A lot of sleep can help but that worries people around me.
    aLadywithoutaclue aLadywithoutaclue
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 4

    Its funny how we feel

    so much but we dont't say a word, we're screaming inside but we can't be heard.
    ImJustANobody ImJustANobody
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 30, 2015

    I always smile. I never get mad

    or cry around people. That's what they all see. But inside I'm sad. I want to cry but it just won't happen.
    Mahrhindha Mahrhindha
    18-21, F
    Dec 29, 2014

    My mom says I'm too independent

    and I don't tell her about my life or my feelings. It's hard for me to tell people how I feel because they'd just look at me like I'm crazy. Even I don't understand my emotions. I've learnt to smile even when I'm crying inside and look cheerful when I'm empty inside. I talk to...
    ToluDee ToluDee
    16-17, F
    2 Responses May 15, 2015

    I can be really gobby at times.

    But can't open up emotionally. Its like if i do then i am showing a sign of weakness, showing the hole in my armor, inviting people to attack me or laugh at me. Its like i know they will lose what respect they have for me, that's if they have any for me in the first place
    GlueGirlMegan GlueGirlMegan
    13-15, F
    Feb 17

    i kept everything inside me

    until i don't know what to feel anymore.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 14

    Sometimes, no matter how hard you try to pretend

    that you don't care, there comes a point where you can feel everything bubbling away under the surface and you start to feel that as soon as you lift the lid, everything is going to start pouring out and when that happens, you will lose those that you care about the most. Well...
    LoneSouls LoneSouls
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Mar 3

    I had applied for a job

    but I didnt passed the demonstration. Yes, I can accept it, I had no talent for it ( Im not a teacher I'm a business student). But.. my problem is my father and my sister. All my life they had been mocking me so much - I dont have good grades, I think I do not have the best of...
    greenamythese77 greenamythese77
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 29

    Balled my eyes out for a good hour the other day

    and it felt like it gave me a high for a good 24 hours
    urigagarin urigagarin
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 1

    right now I'm lying in bed next to my

    'boyfriend' who's napping, I had my baby girl 3 weeks ago and I can't tell u the last time he changed a nappy or fed her, I feel like a single mum and just want him to leave so even though I didn't realise it before I'm trying to push him away, safe to say he ain't budging just...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 13

    Honestly, I hold in a lot.

    When I'm upset, I don't really like to tell anyone. Especially the person who made me that way. No matter how much anyone asks, the answer will always be "I'm fine." Even if it's not true.
    KxXw KxXw
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 5, 2015

    I don't tell anyone how I feel

    because they don't give a **** about me or how I feel. So there's no point in me telling everyone how I feel everyday. I think that feelings are bullshit.
    Jason2111 Jason2111
    13-15, M
    2 Responses Apr 9

    Everyone thinks that i am

    such a happy person, and that i have it all together. i make sure that they believe that, every time they are with me i put on a smile that shreds a part of my soul. They dont really know, that im dying in the inside. i cant let them know, im afraid of talking or opening up. i...
    SW33TdArkness SW33TdArkness
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Dec 30, 2015

    I keep my emotions bottled Because my

    parents never listen . if i do talk to them about something they will find a way to make me mad or say "No that not what depression is." but i swear I have depression , feeling down , gaining weight , hating myself , hurts self physically. My parents also don't listen to me like...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Aug 4, 2015

    I'm not all about how I'm feeling.

    I'm all about how you are feeling.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 3

    I keep my emotions bottled up

    because no ones ever understood or tried to help me so whats the point
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 7, 2015

    I've been having a full on week then today was

    so relaxing. But that bliss is gone and I've pretty much ruined my weekend. But idc I finally said it. I've been waiting and I've had to hide my true feelings and keep up a facade. But it came at a price. My mum forgot to pick me up x3 so I had to walk 45 minutes to get home...
    Darkprincess24 Darkprincess24
    16-17, F
    Mar 3

    My mom always compares me to my older sister.

    Just because she's prettier than me and skinnier. And I can never say anything or else she'll think I'm jealous. But I'm just so tired of being compared
    Leslie24 Leslie24
    36-40, F
    9 Responses Aug 8, 2015

    I've kept them inside

    for so long that I'm starting to go numb...
    FallenAngel519 FallenAngel519
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 14

    I don't know why I do.

    It's just so uncomfortable to me that I can't even talk about my feelings with the people closest to me. I guess it's just something that if you didn't do it when you were younger, you won't be doing it any time soon.
    Mindofanintrovert Mindofanintrovert
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 1, 2015

    The older I get the more I realize

    that most people dont care what you have to say or what your going through. Because everyone is dealing with there own demons their own monsters do you really think they have time to hear your points of view or how you feel about something. Thats why I keep my emotions bottled...
    RuRave93 RuRave93
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Aug 18, 2015

    Tonight the bottle got too full of emotions.

    As a result, it exploded while my girlfriend was trying to handle it delicately. That caused feelings to get hurt. Now, I feel like a complete *******. This is a reminder for why I need to stop doing this. It only hurts everyone close to me in the end.
    SapphicMinion SapphicMinion
    26-30
    4 Responses Jun 16, 2015

    The past few days have been pretty rough around

    the house can't get along with anybody I'm doing my anger management stuff to calm down but I'm seriously about to snap if things don't change and if mom wants to talk to me like I'm dumb than she's got another thing coming
    cgr1994 cgr1994
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Feb 19

    I know it's unhealthy,

    but once you start to get used to getting hurt from opening up to people so much it begins to become comfortable.
    PetiteChica PetiteChica
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2015

    I used to keep my emotions bottled up.

    ..deep inside. Not now... I'll speak my mind and know what, l don't care if l offend anyone, whether they are the sensitive sort or not, oh no..why should l, when it's just an act anyway and the same people don't give a da*mn about my own feelings. After I've offered my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Sep 29, 2015

    I'm relapsing. It's not good,

    and I don't know what to do.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 14

    Why is it that we find comfort in 'someone' -

    'anyone's' - online response ! I found not only comfort but what I feel is 'love' ! I say it like that cos i know on my part nothin will happen...yet I find - A need, yern, a want to tell this other person what I'm doing, when I'm doin it & why !!! I dnt tho cos I know she...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 10

    I HATE being everyone's sound board

    and not able to say one word against what they are saying!!! :( *sigh*
    angelpumpkin36 angelpumpkin36
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 15

    lately the words are gone.

    im drifting back to how i was in high school. the kid in basic training who rarely talked. i cant take this world anymo re e. i dont have a place in it. i feel like im on a permanent family trip to some distant relatives house. i dont do anything...i dont go anywhere...i try...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Mar 11

    Ever have feelings like your people's doormat?

    Like they can lie to you like you mean nothing? You are supposed to brush it under the carpet, pretend like it's all normal. I want to much more for myself, I just don't understand how I attract people that treat me like that....
    SallyJones005 SallyJones005
    36-40, F
    7 Responses May 18, 2015

    I tend to keep my emotions bottled up

    so no-one can see how emotional I actually am but to some people who know this, they think I'm a ticking emotional time nuke waiting to go off.
    LonerGirl24 LonerGirl24
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 8, 2015

    Sometimes I keep things to myself

    because I don't know how the other person will react and I don't want to be a burden so I just keep them to my self
    lilkattie5684 lilkattie5684
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Dec 7, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jun 22, 2015

    I never really show my emotions.

    People think I'm bitter and numb but I'm really not. I feel a lot of emotions, but most of the time I stay reserved so I'm quite hard to read. I can't help it, it's just how I am. Also, when something is bothering me, I just keep it to myself. I'm working on it, but I don't...
    Itsallahoax Itsallahoax
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 29

    Because that's how I've been raised.

    They enjoy throwing careless passive aggressive words at me like I have no feelings or something. It's okay, I'll just suck it up and keep quite. That's not the issue though. I don't blow up on people, I do it to myself. It makes me self-destructive. Even though I don't want...
    MissEurydice MissEurydice
    18-21, F
    Aug 3, 2015

    I keep my emotions bottled ever

    since I lost my grandmother. I use to tell my grandmother everything. I miss her like crazy. she's only been gone for 8 months. Its my first holidays without her.
    Midgetmike10 Midgetmike10
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 27, 2015

    sometimes spending time with right people is

    all you need to feel happy..:)
    saffr96 saffr96
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 18

    Apparently I bother people

    when I let them out, so I will keep serious things to myself from now on. I will always be happy so no one will know how I am really feeling. At least then they will want to talk to me.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Mar 10

    Why tell people how you feel

    when they will end up judging you? It's simpler to keep your emotions and opinions to yourself.
    Sanghelios Sanghelios
    13-15, T
    3 Responses Apr 16
    LovingDead LovingDead
    26-30, M
    Mar 15

    I keep everything to myself everyone thinks I'm

    fine but deep inside I feel terrible. I smile and pretend I'm happy just because I don't want anybody to know what's really going on. I'm 16 and my life is falling apart. I moved so many times in my life. I dont know where my father is. I just can't seem to be truly happy. And...
    littlequeen21 littlequeen21
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Mar 28, 2015

    Take a deep breath. Slow your thinking.

    Slow your breathing. Smile. Laugh like nothing happening. You freak out she freaks out. If youre happy shes happy. You gotta do this for your little sister. Let her play with your hair and lay on your legs. Cuddle with her and watch the movies she wants to watch. Dont Dont Dont...
    KiraRawr KiraRawr
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Aug 7, 2015

    feed the flames. gasoline of fear,

    kerosene of lonliness, alcohol of self loathing. on to the dry brush of a thorny past. strike the spark of pain. beautiful agony of flame. burning all through me. a spiraling inferno of agony.. then darkness. the switch is thrown, the breaker trips and nothing. home...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Mar 1

    Wtf people...words hurt.

    ...I have feelings....I just wanna cry but can't cause I am so used to bottling up my anger and tears...one of these days I am gonna crack and explode with anger...but tears?! They don't come anymore..I have blocked all forms of it
    TheLeesIsHere TheLeesIsHere
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 17, 2015

    I think I've developed a bad habit of

    repressing my emotions, since I was a child. I felt everything too strongly, and it confused me. I thought I was being too sensitive. I cried too easily, and people would make fun of me. So I forced myself to box up all my feelings, telling myself that I just needed to...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 9

    my emotions are always bottled up i never let

    peopple no how im really feeling i always lie and just say im fine and put on a happy face even when im not
    Rebecca1402 Rebecca1402
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Jul 11, 2015

    I have a lot of friends.

    I always smile. I keep saying I don't need anyone. the only think that bothers me is that big hole in my chest which is not really there but I can feel it growing bigger very day. I feel lost.
    Alexhatesunicorns Alexhatesunicorns
    18-21, F
    May 30, 2015

    I hate my brother inlaw I feel like he's using

    my husband and he's not being a good father. I have 2kids now raising 3 plus being his maid
    Simbageeswife Simbageeswife
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 25
    Sunnflower00408 Sunnflower00408
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 3

    Pain trying to find myself but ever turn leads

    somewhere dark just wanting to find the light wanting to know what it is like to be not afarid running around and around but there no way out hiding myself being afarid of lot of things feeling lot of pain worst feeling in the world just wanting to sleep and never wake up...
    smart99 smart99
    26-30, F
    Feb 24

    I really wish I had my essay period 1 I mean I

    prepared it and prepared almost to perfection. But now I can't concentrate on it at all. Which is really silly since I've always known I've had severe depression. The thing is I don't even know exactly why I'm upset. It's just everything but I think it's mostly the reactions of...
    Darkprincess24 Darkprincess24
    16-17, F
    Mar 22

    This is for every person

    who habitually buries any negative feelings. I used to be just like you. I want to tell you a story. About four months ago, I was messaging a guy in one of my university classes the night before an exam. We were joking around and I said "you didn't know me in high school". He...
    TheTimeLady TheTimeLady
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 11
    SolGryn SolGryn
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 24

    Since My Parents Said Real Men Shouldn't Wear Their Heart On Their Sleeve.

    I'm genetically XY male, but doctor said I'm intersexual to an extent. Not the full-blown true hermaphrodite, but a mild case of partial androgen insensitivity syndrome. I have feminine features that most people would recognize me as a boyish girl at first glance. Internally I...
    AresKyrgia AresKyrgia
    22-25, M
    7 Responses Jul 7, 2013

    When I tell my parents what's wrong they don't

    take me seriously When I don't tell my parents what's wrong they get mad
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jan 9

    I'm afraid of speaking my true feelings to my

    family. I share some of my thoughts with my friends, but not all. I'm afraid they'll judge me more then they already probably are . I'm afraid of what everyone will think of me and that is my weakness.
    olive8976 olive8976
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Dec 19, 2015

    Most men think that if they're working hard

    or a lot that it's enough reason to not have time to spend with you. It may be a legitimate reason but most women want an actual relationship which entails spending time with each other not the money you earn. This at least applies to me coz I'm not materialistic and live a...
    WynterSolstice WynterSolstice
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 9

    I don't express my feelings to just anyone,

    even my closest friends only get to see a little glimpse of it because I feel vulnerable whenever I reveal my emotions to them. I hate being vulnerable the most, this stubborn nature of mine refuses to break down in front of people. Whenever I feel sad, I don't talk about my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 17, 2015
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