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I Keep My Emotions Bottled Up

i know i should let my feelings out... but i CANT! 5,905 People

       Hi everyoneYou all must be

    wondering why I used those three magical words in Chinese. Well I have a very lovely incident of mine attached with those Chinese words. I am a person who loves cute lovely romantic stories and films too ( like Letters to Juliet..) and this was kind of romantic encounter. So the...
    miru1 miru1 26-30, F 2 Responses May 31

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    I can't help it, I always have always will.

    Until eventually I burst, I think I'm pretty much at that point (again) now. God, it's the worst feeling. With everything that's going on I just want to run. Away from this life. Away from everyone I've disappointed. I keep telling myself that I should talk to someone but when I...
    xDarkxxAngelx xDarkxxAngelx 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    I feel like I'm going to explode.

    There's so much churning underneath the surface, I just can't handle it! I'm emotionally unstable, and lacking greatly. Most of the emotions I'm feeling now, I've never felt before. It's so horrible! I just want to go back to being that stoic girl that had never felt real...
    BlackSunCrimsonFyre BlackSunCrimsonFyre 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 7

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    I had 8 stepdads. Seem to always desire to

    please someone I adore and run from those that adore me. Definitely need a few 100 miles on the bike!
    HouseMouser HouseMouser 46-50, F May 26

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    I keep everything in.

    ..but every once in a while, I'll let out a little scream for help. Please don't ignore it. That's my one change for someone to save me. If it goes unnoticed or ignored...I shut down and block everyone out again. These screams for help don't come often...so I'm asking...just...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Dec 22, 2014

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    Who would I tell? Who would listen?

    Who would care? This is what I ask myself every time I think I should tell somebody my real feelings. Because no one wants to know why all they hear is the discrepancies. Cutter. Contemplating suicide. Depressed. Voices yelling at me in my own head. Numb. How could you hear a...
    thebladeisbae0718 thebladeisbae0718 13-15, F 28 Responses Feb 5

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    my mother just texted me.

    ... I moved out two months ago and she chose her husband over me.......
    laj5086 laj5086 13-15, F 7 Responses May 24

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    Ever have feelings like your people's doormat?

    Like they can lie to you like you mean nothing? You are supposed to brush it under the carpet, pretend like it's all normal. I want to much more for myself, I just don't understand how I attract people that treat me like that....
    crafty36 crafty36 36-40, F 8 Responses May 18

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    My boyfriend hates to hear what I have to say,

    he is so self absorbed. My other male friends love to hear every word that forms off my tongue. That's great but it would be better if the man I love cared to listen to me.
    BookDiva BookDiva 36-40, F Apr 28

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    I always smile. I never get mad

    or cry around people. That's what they all see. But inside I'm sad. I want to cry but it just won't happen.
    Mahrhindha Mahrhindha 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I've recently started having this crush on a

    boy from my school. Of course it's not like I walked up to him and told him that. He confessed to me. I was shocked at first, but over time I started to like him too. For about a few weeks we would flirt, but on the down low because I wasn't ready for people to know I liked him...
    ChrissySy ChrissySy 16-17, F Jun 16

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    samesame101 samesame101 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 17

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    Being told I'm beautiful is just about the most

    self confidence smasher for me...
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    I can't tell my IRL friends

    and family about my friend because they wouldn't understand and I'm very private anyway. I'm wondering if I will eventually need to speak to a head shrinker. I think I'm heading in that direction. My thoughts might end up slowly driving me mad.
    Stella25 Stella25 36-40, F 1 Response May 24

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    I guess I just feel like there's

    so much going on, and that sharing it will just get dismissed as whining by my friends and family. I don't pity myself or anything like that, but it's just that some of the things I deal with are difficult to deal with on my own. I think one of the worst is the loneliness. I...
    IComeWithKnives IComeWithKnives 16-17, T 2 Responses Apr 12

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    I don't know why I do.

    It's just so uncomfortable to me that I can't even talk about my feelings with the people closest to me. I guess it's just something that if you didn't do it when you were younger, you won't be doing it any time soon.
    Mindofanintrovert Mindofanintrovert 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    I keep my emotions bottled up in till one day I

    can't hold them in and fake it. Anymore I snap I can't take it any more in till all my angers out and I have no one else's to yell at the bottle re starts
    sam136 sam136 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 7

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    I haven't let my emotions release

    for almost 2 years, I am in so much pain that I am about to have a mental breakdown, I don't even know how to describe how I feel, I'm just so damn depressed lately.
    ItsJustBryce ItsJustBryce 13-15, M 5 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    If I knew that you wanted to use me I wouldn't

    have let you in my life but then noo i waS to dump to realize that you are just like everyone else
    yayatee12 yayatee12 18-21, F Jun 7

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    Parismay Parismay 18-21, F Jun 12

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    When you legit today have a dentist appointment

    planned for two weeks already and your mom comes barging into your room and scream "I DON'T BELIEVE YOU, YOU THINK I DON'T KNOW YOU'RE SKIPPING SCHOOL" Cool mom, cause you know everything about me or school. NOT. Ps: i do not need any comments about "why do you not move out...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 27

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    One day I'll most likely blow up on someone

    and I hope it's not someone I care about.
    Ellytheoutcast Ellytheoutcast 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 23, 2014

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    Tonight the bottle got too full of emotions.

    As a result, it exploded while my girlfriend was trying to handle it delicately. That caused feelings to get hurt. Now, I feel like a complete *******. This is a reminder for why I need to stop doing this. It only hurts everyone close to me in the end.
    SapphicMinion SapphicMinion 26-30, F 6 Responses Jun 16

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    I just hate it when am with my friends .

    ..some of them they have big butts n curves so ey get all the attention from boys and I don't because am very very slim and some boys end up dissing me😔
    yayatee12 yayatee12 18-21, F 1 Response May 20

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    It's hard for me to express my emotions

    since i hate crying. I cry when im mad or sad. I guess I just dont want to show my vulnerable side to people. I'm used to being my own protector, and i always feel the need to be strong and to take care of everyone else disregarding what I feel. I'm openly affectionate and I do...
    Artandabstarct Artandabstarct 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    It's difficult for me to express my negative

    thoughts and feelings toward someone close to me that is saying or doing something repeatedly that I don't agree with. I will initially say something but it will not register with them or they will shrug it off, so then I tell myself there's no point in bring it up again, and so...
    stonecoldflame stonecoldflame 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    My whole life I thought everything was going to

    be okay but it's not. When I was I the 6th grade my older sister try to commit suicide that day when I found out she tried to do it cause for a boy. I was mad. She took a bunch of pills from my nana's medicine cabinet. When saw the ambulance people take her out of my Nana's...
    zoeyflower zoeyflower 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 8, 2014

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    nah I'm actually pretty straight forward about

    how I feel. (sometimes) other times I just want people to mind their business
    froofykittenxoxo froofykittenxoxo 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I keep everything to myself everyone thinks I'm

    fine but deep inside I feel terrible. I smile and pretend I'm happy just because I don't want anybody to know what's really going on. I'm 16 and my life is falling apart. I moved so many times in my life. I dont know where my father is. I just can't seem to be truly happy. And...
    littlequeen21 littlequeen21 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 28

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    GEMWASHERE GEMWASHERE 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 22

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    I'm certainly the best at this I can't stand

    showing emotion, I don't even like showing emotions wen I'm alone I feel like I'm about to cry I start punching walls and ****. Like right now I feel like punching a whole cus my mom is getting my last nerve I was ??that mother fycking close to punching her in her face so I had...
    AmbitiousNature AmbitiousNature 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I don't know what's going on with me.

    I feel like two different people sometimes. One side of me hates sex but another side of me is really sexual. I don't get its really confusing I feel like I don't know who I am. When im in my no sex mode I feel like wanting to know people for who they are but I talk to people...
    ensp23 ensp23 16-17, M Jun 20

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    My mom says I'm too independent

    and I don't tell her about my life or my feelings. It's hard for me to tell people how I feel because they'd just look at me like I'm crazy. Even I don't understand my emotions. I've learnt to smile even when I'm crying inside and look cheerful when I'm empty inside. I talk to...
    ToluDee ToluDee 16-17, F 2 Responses May 15

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    I hate people who are ungrateful

    for the things they have yet some people out there are striving to make a living
    yayatee12 yayatee12 18-21, F 1 Response May 24

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    Still not quite sure how to get over the

    immense desire to be that beloved spouse. The focus steals my positive energy. Some how I must quench this desire with something else before it destroys my most precious gift ~ life
    HouseMouser HouseMouser 46-50, F May 24

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    I try to make people think I have it all the

    together. I have to be the strong one in the relationship. I have to be strong for my family. I have to be strong and happy. When in reality, I'm depressed and hurting.
    Kizhere Kizhere 16-17, T 1 Response Jun 7

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    It's my last day. Preparing to say good bye to

    you, my lunch time eye candy. I see you between the pallets. Your stride caught my attention. Appreciating the genes that gave you the firmness of your *** cheeks. It's a pity wasting my time day dreaming... Wishing my alter ego can visit just as you glance over... There goes...
    complex7 complex7 31-35, F Jun 16

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    I tend to to keep to myself

    until things get out of hand. My friends want help but they refuse to ask so i just give it to them without anything said. but with life the way it is it hurts me.
    Cheshirecupacat Cheshirecupacat 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 9

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    I hate talking about my scars .

    Even though my mom ask I never give her an answer . When I'm out in public and people ask I get snappy or I laugh and say nothing .
    Toneonac Toneonac 16-17, F Jun 12

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    I have a lot of friends.

    I always smile. I keep saying I don't need anyone. the only think that bothers me is that big hole in my chest which is not really there but I can feel it growing bigger very day. I feel lost.
    Alexhatesunicorns Alexhatesunicorns 16-17, F May 30

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    I used to have this middle school friend

    that I spent most of my school days with. I thought she was a good friend but she was selfish. She only thought about herself all the times. I quarreled with her quite a few times. Until one time, I had misunderstanding with her friend who was as selfish as her too. I thought...
    Beanyy25 Beanyy25 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It's just something I do

    and I'll never be able to change that, no matter what
    CatalinaPetrova CatalinaPetrova 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm a sad person, and I'm not happy with myself

    but I don't know why. I lock myself away in my room, and I hate being around people, sometimes I don't eat for days and sometimes I eat so much. Sometimes i sleep for hours and sometimes I can't sleep at all. :( But at school i seem so happy. I'm a happy person in the outside...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 19

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    When am with my best friend i nolonger feel

    comfortable being around her because she has a"nicky minaj "body type so she gets to noticed by a lot of guys and then some of the guys they be saying hurtful things such as stop starving yourself, you are soo skinny you look like a mosquito and so on...it really hurts me though...
    yayatee12 yayatee12 18-21, F 3 Responses May 30

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    The only thing that should matter to me right

    now is myself. I been hurting myself as well as the others that whom hurt me and that are hurting me (still.) Hurting my feelings,--emotionally or physically. I still love my ex boyfriend, my first boyfriend in high school, my first love from my freshmen year. I always think who...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX 16-17, F Jun 7

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    When I get depressed,

    I get really quiet and unresponsive. I lock myself away and avoid everyone. When my family or someone at work asks if I'm okay, I tell them I'm fine and they leave it alone. I want to talk about how meaningless and empty I feel, but I feel like I don't have the ability to...
    erinw96 erinw96 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 13

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