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I Keep My Emotions Bottled Up

i know i should let my feelings out... but i CANT! 8,020 People

    Last year a girl told me that

    if I stepped on a scale I would break it. nobody would leave me alone needless to say I hit a light switch with the back of my head and cracked the light switch I'm still mad.....??
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 3

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    Ever have feelings like your people's doormat?

    Like they can lie to you like you mean nothing? You are supposed to brush it under the carpet, pretend like it's all normal. I want to much more for myself, I just don't understand how I attract people that treat me like that....
    crafty36 crafty36 36-40, F 7 Responses May 18

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    My mom says I'm too independent

    and I don't tell her about my life or my feelings. It's hard for me to tell people how I feel because they'd just look at me like I'm crazy. Even I don't understand my emotions. I've learnt to smile even when I'm crying inside and look cheerful when I'm empty inside. I talk to...
    ToluDee ToluDee 16-17, F 2 Responses May 15

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    This is mostly the reason

    why I'm suicidal. Well, lately, I've been so upset from what happened this year, but I had no friends to talk to just to let out all these "bad" emotions. Also, when I start thinking, sometimes they lead to a negative thought, and I mostly would agree with it, and sometimes it...
    RainbowBlood RainbowBlood 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    I tend to to keep to myself

    until things get out of hand. My friends want help but they refuse to ask so i just give it to them without anything said. but with life the way it is it hurts me.
    Cheshirecupacat Cheshirecupacat 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 9

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    I have to or Ill be in trouble.

    .. Well Ill be in trouble even if I do but Id rather not show any weakness
    udontneedtokno udontneedtokno 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 10

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    even if I'm not alone,

    the nights are the worst.
    exacerbate exacerbate 16-17, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Honestly, I hold in a lot.

    When I'm upset, I don't really like to tell anyone. Especially the person who made me that way. No matter how much anyone asks, the answer will always be "I'm fine." Even if it's not true.
    KxXw KxXw 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 5

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    chris7379 chris7379 41-45, M 2 Responses Jul 25

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    The older I get the more I realize

    that most people dont care what you have to say or what your going through. Because everyone is dealing with there own demons their own monsters do you really think they have time to hear your points of view or how you feel about something. Thats why I keep my emotions bottled...
    RuRave93 RuRave93 18-21, F 9 Responses Aug 18

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    Tonight the bottle got too full of emotions.

    As a result, it exploded while my girlfriend was trying to handle it delicately. That caused feelings to get hurt. Now, I feel like a complete *******. This is a reminder for why I need to stop doing this. It only hurts everyone close to me in the end.
    SapphicMinion SapphicMinion 26-30, F 6 Responses Jun 16

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    my grandfather died 5 years ago this october.

    he was in mexico when he passed away. I could not go because I was pregnant ready to burst and taking finals in school. I loved my grandfather dearly. he would spoil me and my brother like crazy. I tried showing how to play poker and I would cheat and he would scream...
    Lucylubbsgolda Lucylubbsgolda 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Its funny how we feel

    so much but we dont't say a word, we're screaming inside but we can't be heard.
    ImJustANobody ImJustANobody 26-30, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    It's my last day. Preparing to say good bye to

    you, my lunch time eye candy. I see you between the pallets. Your stride caught my attention. Appreciating the genes that gave you the firmness of your *** cheeks. It's a pity wasting my time day dreaming... Wishing my alter ego can visit just as you glance over... There goes...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 16

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    seems i can't feel the good stuff anymore.

    the only way i can get myself to realize i m still alive is to feel pain. i keep hurting myself, but it s only because i lost what it was like to smile and mean it. i became transparant and slowly am vanishing. i hate going outside. i could stay home for weeks, i wouldn't mind...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 26

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    Given where I'm in life emotionally- I prefer

    to keep my inner workings private from close ones. I'd rather be spared the shame and awkwardness that follows my heart's confessions. I prefer to keep the rawness at a distance for now. I am not ready to show that level of vulnerability. It's not fair to my loved ones. I...
    artxinxmotion12 artxinxmotion12 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 10

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    I am bisexual, but with men i am only attracted

    to them if i know them really well. I think im attracted to my bestfriend, however i dont know if he is gay. He seems to put hints out there, but calls himself straight. He is also one of my only friends so i dont want to go mess it all up. Should i just start dropping hints and...
    Usernamesalreadytaken Usernamesalreadytaken 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 4

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    I don't know why I do.

    It's just so uncomfortable to me that I can't even talk about my feelings with the people closest to me. I guess it's just something that if you didn't do it when you were younger, you won't be doing it any time soon.
    Mindofanintrovert Mindofanintrovert 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    I hate my stepdad so much

    and I feel angry and sad and confused and lonely all at the same time. I feel like I'm going mad and I have no one to talk to. Someone help me!
    failingsociety failingsociety 36-40, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    Because that's how I've been raised.

    They enjoy throwing careless passive aggressive words at me like I have no feelings or something. It's okay, I'll just suck it up and keep quite. That's not the issue though. I don't blow up on people, I do it to myself. It makes me self-destructive. Even though I don't want...
    MissEurydice MissEurydice 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    Who would I tell? Who would listen?

    Who would care? This is what I ask myself every time I think I should tell somebody my real feelings. Because no one wants to know why all they hear is the discrepancies. Cutter. Contemplating suicide. Depressed. Voices yelling at me in my own head. Numb. How could you hear a...
    thebladeisbae0718 thebladeisbae0718 13-15, F 28 Responses Feb 5

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    I've never been good with expressing myself,

    especially my feelings, and this is mostly to do with my anxiety. I'm afraid that if I open up, I'll get hurt. That people will just see me a negative weight they want to shake off. I put on a smile to distract people from how I'm really feeling inside, but that gets tiring so...
    waywardgirl98 waywardgirl98 16-17, F Aug 15

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    Tonight I was sitting in bed

    and thinking about my family. I already knew I had no one. But one of my sisters led me to believe I could actually trust her, and that went down the drain in less than a day, I have a sister who lives in Birmingham, and this week she is coming for the holidays. We were talking...
    anonymous019997 anonymous019997 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    My mom always compares me to my older sister.

    Just because she's prettier than me and skinnier. And I can never say anything or else she'll think I'm jealous. But I'm just so tired of being compared
    Leslie24 Leslie24 36-40, F 13 Responses Aug 8

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    I can't help it, I always have always will.

    Until eventually I burst, I think I'm pretty much at that point (again) now. God, it's the worst feeling. With everything that's going on I just want to run. Away from this life. Away from everyone I've disappointed. I keep telling myself that I should talk to someone but when I...
    xDarkxxAngelx xDarkxxAngelx 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    I t may be unhealthy put it's the only way I

    feel better & protected. I feel like people don't understand me at all and when I do tell someone about my situation or how I feel it's always that one shithead that thinks pushing me will make me learn my lesson or make me better. pushing me won't get me anywhere sometimes...
    PetiteChica PetiteChica 18-21, F Jul 27

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    I have a lot of friends.

    I always smile. I keep saying I don't need anyone. the only think that bothers me is that big hole in my chest which is not really there but I can feel it growing bigger very day. I feel lost.
    Alexhatesunicorns Alexhatesunicorns 16-17, F May 30

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    i dont like talking about my feelings to anyone.

    not because i want to be seen as tough its just because i get these looks when i do share my feelings. i tried obe time and never did it again. one, my family will go back and tell everyone and then the next family gathering i would be bombarded with questions.
    Aeril Aeril 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    Wtf people...words hurt.

    ...I have feelings....I just wanna cry but can't cause I am so used to bottling up my anger and tears...one of these days I am gonna crack and explode with anger...but tears?! They don't come anymore..I have blocked all forms of it
    TheLeesIsHere TheLeesIsHere 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 17

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    I cant express my emotions freely

    so I have all these bottled up unexpressed emotions
    FadedDreams222 FadedDreams222 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I keep my emotions bottled Because my

    parents never listen . if i do talk to them about something they will find a way to make me mad or say "No that not what depression is." but i swear I have depression , feeling down , gaining weight , hating myself , hurts self physically. My parents also don't listen to me like...
    Rosey3686 Rosey3686 16-17, F 5 Responses Aug 4

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    I tend to keep my emotions bottled up

    so no-one can see how emotional I actually am but to some people who know this, they think I'm a ticking emotional time nuke waiting to go off.
    LonerGirl24 LonerGirl24 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    Even when he thinks it's been a great day

    together, little does he know when I go to take a shower, I cry over how bad I hurt. I hide my feelings from him only because I thought once we got back together again, everything would change for the better. Only he is happy.
    CandyCrushers CandyCrushers 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 14

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    My boyfriend hates to hear what I have to say,

    he is so self absorbed. My other male friends love to hear every word that forms off my tongue. That's great but it would be better if the man I love cared to listen to me.
    BookDiva BookDiva 36-40, F Apr 28

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    samesame101 samesame101 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 17

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    Since My Parents Said Real Men Shouldn't Wear Their Heart On Their Sleeve.

    I'm genetically XY male, but doctor said I'm intersexual to an extent. Not the full-blown true hermaphrodite, but a mild case of partial androgen insensitivity syndrome. I have feminine features that most people would recognize me as a boyish girl at first glance. Internally I...
    AresKyrgia AresKyrgia 22-25, M 8 Responses Jul 7, 2013

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    i have so much to say i don't

    even know where to start
    vicor123 vicor123 18-21, F Jul 26

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    GEMWASHERE GEMWASHERE 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 22

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    I've bottled them up

    so much I feel like a sociopath. it automatically goes behind a wall. don't want to know what happens when that breaks. and yet I'm trying to break it. but it seems like the more I try to break the more reinforced yet higher pressure it is.
    SeanDR SeanDR 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I keep my emotions bottled up

    because I feel no one has been through everything I have and you can't really give advice if you don't know the pain and what it feels like to be emotionally and mentally ****** up...
    Laurennmariee Laurennmariee 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 4

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    I guess I just feel like there's

    so much going on, and that sharing it will just get dismissed as whining by my friends and family. I don't pity myself or anything like that, but it's just that some of the things I deal with are difficult to deal with on my own. I think one of the worst is the loneliness. I...
    IComeWithKnives IComeWithKnives 16-17, T 2 Responses Apr 12

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    I've lost so many close relationships

    after I grew so attached and confided so much in them. All of those experiences have been agonizing, and thus my reaction of bottling up is justified.
    beautifulbizarre beautifulbizarre 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    I know it's unhealthy,

    but it feels good.... at the end of day no one will actually give a **** about your personal problems because people want to remain selfish & concieted. As being a little sensitive girl I actually got my feeling hurt from opening up to people, but that's what I get for trusting...
    PetiteChica PetiteChica 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My sister makes me so mad.

    I just can't deal with her anymore. She's always hyper and running around and being crazy. If I could, I would just tell her to shut up and act normal. I just can't take her anymore.
    Abbyi25 Abbyi25 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    Take a deep breath. Slow your thinking.

    Slow your breathing. Smile. Laugh like nothing happening. You freak out she freaks out. If youre happy shes happy. You gotta do this for your little sister. Let her play with your hair and lay on your legs. Cuddle with her and watch the movies she wants to watch. Dont Dont Dont...
    KiraRawr KiraRawr 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 7

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    To much, I can't I don't know how to express

    them to personal, to sad, to hurtful....when I get to the point I'm a ticking time bomb I still don't express them; I cry and let them burn a hole right through my heart with the worst burning sensation. I rather get hurt playing with fire than let someone else close enough to...
    clover01 clover01 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 28