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I Keep My Pain Inside Of Me

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    Just Because I'm Not Complaining Doesn't Mean Life's Perfect - I try t keep it inside of me for a [seemingly] good reason though. I feel like I'm only adding weight to my freinds...
    MusicAddict4Life MusicAddict4Life 13-15, F May 22, 2012

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    The Joker - Whenever I try to think about the past, it is always the bad memories that come first. In elementary school, true to the typical Asian stereotype, I was a kid who liked...
    MyOwnPoison MyOwnPoison 18-21, M Jul 29, 2013

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
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    Ever feel like emotional pain is so addictive. Something that makes you happy high and keeps you on your toes. But at the same time eating you away from the inside. Bit by bit...
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    For the past 5 years i have felt dead on the inside. I use to feel so alive but after the awestruck events of betrayal, backstab, lies, emotional abuse, destruction of my...
    Coolrocker Coolrocker 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    I have suffered since age 16 from endo. I have three young children. During my third pregnancy, things went wrong. The placenta was outside of the uterus. My doctor went into a c...
    CPPDANCER CPPDANCER 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Another day to pretend..to keep my head held high..to smile..to cover the pain..to forget..i wish I could just stop from hurting..from dying...
    babslabs babslabs 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
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    What if... We can't change the past so why do I continue to look back on things? I only grow smarter as I grow older. Why couldn't I know the things I know now 15 yrs ago? I would...
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    I feel that if I let them out that I won't be able to handle it. Once in a very hard time in my life I did do that and it broke me! I lost who I was and everything about me in...
    browneyedgirl10 browneyedgirl10 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Are you very upset on your back pain? As more and more body problems,such as back pain,joint pain and so on I think everyone always wants to have a healthy body. So we should do to...
    mbtshoes2011 mbtshoes2011 22-25, F Apr 9

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    It's awful. Unbelievably awful. It's like going through all your days with this ache inside you. This pain that won't go away. It's basically equivalent to having horrific cramps...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Apr 9

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    This flowers will never die and people here will never grow old this moment will last forever, that’s what I love the must about painting. a painting is as an endless dream just...
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 18-21, F a week ago

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    Due to my status being unknown at the moment... Not sure what's gonna happen and when. I'm 32 and I feel ridiculous saying this, but I've been in pain with this situation and one...
    Br1981 Br1981 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    I was diagnosed last year with a chronic pain condition that formed from me passing 4-8 kidney stones a year. Since I keep passing the stones I will always be in agony and when I...
    dirkablaze dirkablaze 26-30, M Mar 30

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    My soul drained my spirit broken I sit alone in the dark of night my sanity sleeping away your memory crushing me unforgiving and relentless these emotions won't let go I cry for...
    tatterdremains tatterdremains 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 2

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    I'm so afraid of Hurting other people...of having anyone worry about me, especially my mom, that I keep everything In. I know she has anxiety and mild OCD tendencies because of the...
    HopefullRomantic HopefullRomantic 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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    It's always been me against the world. I've never leaned on anyone even though they've told me I can trust them. Never have I met someone I can trust 100% of the time. Everyone...
    treegurl94 treegurl94 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    I do my best to keep you happy, keep you safe, and make sure you know your loved. There's nothing that hurts me more then to see you in pain
    Krysk Krysk 13-15, M Apr 6

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    I love drawing......its the one thing that even when I so sad I can still grab a pencil and draw. I have to draw to keel my feelings from going overboard otherwise I wouldn't be...
    TealMarie TealMarie 16-17, F Apr 9

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    I Had Sex With a High School Girl- My little sister is now out of high school and in college now so this story is an older one but a memorable experience I wanted to share as a new...
    dickybun dickybun 26-30, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    After 14yrs together and 3 small kids, it's over! Why is it so much easier for a men to go on, and us females get stuck in the end of that relationship and we suffer more. I am...
    Br1981 Br1981 31-35, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Idk why the **** am i still in love with him /my ex .And now , he doesn't even in love w me or probably never think bout me no more ... And now that i found that ,he already have...
    Christinamayday Christinamayday 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I don't know if it's just the enemy inside that's doing any of this or what, but there are things that I know that are just not right. They are very wrong in this modern society to...
    FireCoyote FireCoyote 26-30, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm not dead inside most of the time, my friends and family revive me most of the time and make me happy. But someone special used to keep me from dying completely. She was the...
    emilesfault emilesfault 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    Call it disassociation or schizophrenia or a wild imagination but in will be gone all day with my love who always stands beside me, not in me, who is like an older brother but...
    rose114 rose114 16-17, F Mar 18

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    I'm messing up everything. Everything. I found someone wonderful and I can't even keep her happy. She deserves someone sooo much better for me. Some one who's a lot more qualified...
    yourguardianangel9613 yourguardianangel9613 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 19

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    Painting my nails calm me and keeps me peaceful. It makes me feel good about myself when people compliment my nails.
    meganayyye21 meganayyye21 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 27

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    I always watch all these people who have close family and friends and wish for it but I'm already in my 30's so I don't think it will come. Sometimes I wonder how good it is for my...
    Mell30 Mell30 31-35, F Mar 28

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    I'm not one to normally share my feelings or put my business out in the open. I'm more of the suffer in silence type! Keeping my EP account a secret is mostly because I view it as...
    MrsOMS MrsOMS 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 8

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    To keep my story short- i had it very hard in my life. I dont know why people treated me this way, that i became sick, but i cant find answers to this. All i feel is pain, shame...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35, F a week ago

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    I hear rumors that your leaving. It's been six months since we actually talked, not counting the one sentence you spoke to me in court, which looking back I'm not sure was spoken...
    ophelia379 ophelia379 26-30, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I claw the dark circles hanging low around my eyes. Stay up an eternity thinking of you. The same she I plotted and schemed my escape from. You tired me out... I contemplated...
    faintking faintking 26-30, M Mar 18

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    I want to forgive the people that abused me but I cannot do that unless I move on and I feel I am still stuck inside the past. Constantly battling between denial and acceptance...
    Lucile199 Lucile199 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    I am holding on with a death grip. Holding, holding, holding. I have to hold on for Iris and Arthur and my wife and grands. Holding on.... but why? Why why why why why why why why...
    NoahBody123 NoahBody123 51-55 Mar 31

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    I would always have a smile on my face like everything is all good but in reality I'm always in pain. My body aches to be held and comforted but at the same time I hate it cause I...
    MissJazmineeeee MissJazmineeeee 13-15, F Mar 31

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    I don't know how to start. I'm loosing grip. I'm standing on the edge but, I'm scared to fall. There is no one to turn to.. It's getting harder to shield this pain in my heart. It...
    hazellmo0n hazellmo0n 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    The aftermath after holding your pain... It's unbearable for me
    MrIndeedNL MrIndeedNL 13-15, M Apr 7

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    why like this? is this real me? nobody cared about me.. I feel i'm dead but alive..if i die will they cry for me.. but if i die i just run away isn't? do i have to feel this so i...
    serachii serachii 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    The pain doesn't leave after a break up has happened.... They say that you'll move on and everything will be fine and your feelings for the other person will vanish... But is this...
    KenzieDanielle KenzieDanielle 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I can sit in a room of people and act kind to every single one yet I always end up in my room curled up in a corner pouring out my pain into my writing. I honestly am really...
    TheBlackDove368 TheBlackDove368 22-25, F Apr 8

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    silver metal shine so bright, scarlet blood that feels so right, dream of blood trickling down, and wake up just before you drown, the moonlight shining off your tears, as you...
    SweetAlone13 SweetAlone13 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Smiling on the outside, and crying secretly on the inside.
    pardz pardz 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My battle with chronic pain goes back 18 years to my first attack of acute hemorrhaging pancreatitis - a disease caused in my case by gall stones that blocked my pancreatic duct...
    ericgaudion ericgaudion 61-65, M 2 Responses Apr 7