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I Keep My Pain Inside Of Me

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    "Empty"

    I sometimes feel like a failure and I hate the feeling it gives me. A lot of people say they feel "empty" but I have never felt that. I always feel something, even if it is sorrow or disappointment. I often wonder what it feels it like to be empty. What if I was empty? Would that...
    faithful98 faithful98 16-17, F Jan 31, 2013

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    The Joker

    Whenever I try to think about the past, it is always the bad memories that come first. In elementary school, true to the typical Asian stereotype, I was a kid who liked reading and math as much as playing outside during recess. I was proud of myself when I learned to multiply on...
    MyOwnPoison MyOwnPoison 18-21, M Jul 29, 2013

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    We Succeed In One Thing

    We hurt.. Our heart gets pounded by an emotional hammer. Someone just grabbed our heart and thru it to the ground and stomped on it. We try to forget the heartbreak we just went thru. So we stay busy. We work day in day out trying to forget. But it's more difficult as the days go...
    shakenama shakenama 41-45, M Feb 24, 2012

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    Just Because I'm Not Complaining Doesn't Mean Life's Perfect

    I try t keep it inside of me for a [seemingly] good reason though. I feel like I'm only adding weight to my freinds shoulders and I'm dumping my problems on them, and it makes me feel terrible. Now I'm sure one of my friends might be reading this right now and will comment...
    MusicAddict4Life MusicAddict4Life 13-15, F May 22, 2012

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