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I Keep My Pain Inside Of Me

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    The Joker

    Whenever I try to think about the past, it is always the bad memories that come first. In elementary school, true to the typical Asian stereotype, I was a kid who liked reading and math as much as playing outside during recess. I was proud of myself when I learned to multiply on...
    MyOwnPoison MyOwnPoison 18-21, M Jul 29, 2013

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    We Succeed In One Thing

    We hurt.. Our heart gets pounded by an emotional hammer. Someone just grabbed our heart and thru it to the ground and stomped on it. We try to forget the heartbreak we just went thru. So we stay busy. We work day in day out trying to forget. But it's more difficult as the days go...
    shakenama shakenama 41-45, M Feb 24, 2012

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    There is this tight ball of pain,

    rolling around my insides. What it is made of, I can not entirely say. I have become too good at adding weight to that ball, increasing it's size, to remember what all has made it so large and consuming. When the pain is high, and the ball rolls to my chest, I can feel the...
    SunAgain SunAgain 31-35, F Apr 30

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    Just Because I'm Not Complaining Doesn't Mean Life's Perfect

    I try t keep it inside of me for a [seemingly] good reason though. I feel like I'm only adding weight to my freinds shoulders and I'm dumping my problems on them, and it makes me feel terrible. Now I'm sure one of my friends might be reading this right now and will comment...
    MusicAddict4Life MusicAddict4Life 13-15, F May 22, 2012

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    "Empty"

    I sometimes feel like a failure and I hate the feeling it gives me. A lot of people say they feel "empty" but I have never felt that. I always feel something, even if it is sorrow or disappointment. I often wonder what it feels it like to be empty. What if I was empty? Would that...
    faithful98 faithful98 16-17, F Jan 31, 2013

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    just how i'm feeling lately...the pain is taking over.... can't concentrate on anything..no appetite....it's like i'm doing everything like a machine.... i feel like there's no...
    theoneyoullneverforget theoneyoullneverforget 18-21, F May 3

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    I live in a tortured painful body,mind and soul. My heart aches from loneliness,my body aches from years of illness and injuries.I'm alive but as far as I'm concerned all I am is a...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 46-50, M 1 Response May 19

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    That's how I'm feeling right now.
    loveumybabyliam loveumybabyliam 18-21, F May 3

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    I need to vent off my anger
    loveumybabyliam loveumybabyliam 18-21, F May 3

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    I put on my headphones to bed to shut out the shoutings of my parents downstairs or just to shut out reality. I cry, but then calm down and gradually fall asleep listening to songs...
    Letmebee Letmebee 22-25, F 1 Response May 15

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    Or make it worse? Still not sure which it is.   
    againstallodds22 againstallodds22 26-30, M 1 Response May 15

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    6 Bad Habits that Really WORSEN Knee Pain Immediately (http://luv2sex.theblogpress.com/?p=4289) If you’re already suffering from knee pain, read on to find out what are the...
    how2stayyoung how2stayyoung 51-55, M 55 mins ago

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    PART OF ME........ That part of me will not go away it wants to stay and fight, while the other part of me is tired and beaten down wants to quit, who will win? everyday I...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F May 11

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    I sat deep in my chair awaiting for class to finally start, thinking how i wanted this day to come to an end. I never particularly liked school, nor did I hate it. (Though the work...
    Cooper802 Cooper802 18-21, M Apr 30

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    Last night I had a dream that was connected to an earlier dream where an evil and powerful man said that me and my brother had to die by eating poison berries. So on the day we had...
    panda5876 panda5876 13-15, M May 3

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    i feel dead im empty inside no love left my life has died im just a body now going from day to day making the motions nothing to say my lungs breathe air blood flows...
    skykidx1 skykidx1 22-25, M May 18

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    There are two kinds of people in the world that can't love themselves. One type doesn't have any love to give. At the end of life, he sits alone, empty, with nothing in his heart...
    KhalJinghis KhalJinghis 26-30, M May 14

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    Have you ever seen an arrangement of electrical devices arranged in huge racks spread over a huge land? If you have visited a data center then you would say yes. Some of the...
    michaeltailor michaeltailor 26-30, M May 14

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    I am so used to not telling anyone any thing that I don't even know how to express my feelings. I have kept so much bottled up inside of me. it hurts. I have become so used to the...
    laceeann laceeann 41-45, F 1 Response May 18

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    I'm 5 1/2 weeks post op from open rotator cuff repair. Like so many who have already posted here, I still am dealing with moderate to severe pain and find sleeping in bed...
    don64rcr don64rcr 61-65, M May 16

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    Big brown eyes...used to be sharp....look deep inside, they are dull, lifeless, nothing there but emptiness...once used to sparkle and shine...capture....now dead dark pools....A...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 1 Response May 3

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    I am dead inside. 100%! Why keep my body going when everything inside me is dead?
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 2 Responses May 10

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    The face was dug in the soft pillow and the pain was growing within,until breathing became hard...and the head shot up,just to gulp the cold air in. It was nothing,just a shearing...
    urnesha urnesha 18-21, F May 17

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    I thought I was the luckiest girl alive when you came. But, all of a sudden everything has change. YOUVE CHANGE T.T Now, I don't know how to reassemble/ to all the pieces and the...
    hellsAngel025 hellsAngel025 18-21, F May 19

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    Sometimes it's hard for me to arrange the entangled mess of emotions and thoughts that reside in the restless spaces of my mind into coherent words. It feels like an internal...
    ArcticNorah ArcticNorah 16-17, F May 19

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    I am 17 years old. I have danced (ballet, tap & freestyle) since I was 3, I also do other sports activities. I work in an office so am sat down a lot of the time. I will admit I am...
    AHelpfulLover AHelpfulLover 16-17, F May 12

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    I do share somethings, but most of the time I keep my real problems to myself. I don't want people to worry about me, nor do I think anyone could understand. Putting things out in...
    LostInElizabeth LostInElizabeth 16-17, F 1 Response May 5

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    I pretend I'm ok but I'm broken inside. a million pieces n ur 1 whole. funny how someone can shatter u but they stay d exact same way. I will keep on smiling. maybe me 'trying' to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 13

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    My mom says I'm too independent and I don't tell her about my life or my feelings. It's hard for me to tell people how I feel because they'd just look at me like I'm crazy. Even I...
    ToluDee ToluDee 16-17, F 2 Responses May 15

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    there's not a day that goes by and i don't feel my inside been torn out, yet trying to stay strong is becoming more difficult, if there is anyone out there, depress, hurting etc...
    LDRlover LDRlover 16-17, F a week ago

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    There's a voice inside of me that tells me to write even when I feel like I have nothing to say. Right now I have nothing to say. This is me spit balling and hoping something will...
    AshleyJea AshleyJea 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    Me and my mother constantly fight and on top of that my sister loves to throw fire on it. No matter what I do or say it never seems good or enough. My mother and sister always put...
    auroramemoires auroramemoires 22-25, F 1 Response May 2

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    I'm starting to like a new guy .. It's been 6months since my last painful breakup and I'm really scared I keep pushing this new guy away but at the same time I don't wanna regret...
    gkaren gkaren 18-21, F May 13

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    I, for some reason, experienced a lifetime worth of heartbreak in the past year. It's the worst, heaviest, most constant pain Ive ever experienced, and im having a very hard time...
    DownSouthFlGirl69 DownSouthFlGirl69 26-30 May 15

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    I, for some reason, experienced a lifetime worth of heartbreak in the past year. It's the worst, heaviest, most constant pain Ive ever experienced, and im having a very hard time...
    DownSouthFlGirl69 DownSouthFlGirl69 26-30 May 15

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    I was an abused child growing up, all done by step-fathers. I don't hold anything against my mother, since she was mistreated along with me. My first step-father abused me and my...
    Sonicblu Sonicblu 41-45, M 2 Responses May 17

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    my new rule, if it's gossip don't give it to me i'll help you overcome it or speak out. But i can't help you hide it form everyone unless it involves personal life issues that isn...
    DriftingLeaf DriftingLeaf 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    ooh foot ooh foot of mind I'm truly sorry for what I did to you, I hope somehow you will forgive me,buy not by pulling the tears from my glossy blue eyes,or by keeping me all night...
    68bear 68bear 46-50, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    i been in pain for the past 2 years mostly likely due to my car accident anyway i found out turmeric helps with inflammation i been taking it for a while and it sure does help...
    heavenlytouch heavenlytouch 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Today there was a guy who was coughing up a lung and I asked for him not to die and he started crying as he looked me in the eyes and told me it was sad that I tell people that...
    quietbunny quietbunny 18-21, F May 8

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    I'm alone and I feel pain...
    nath2281 nath2281 13-15, F May 9

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    READING MY EYES...... Reading my eyes will say many things..... lost my pride, lost my way, lost my heart and soul lost who I once was...who was she anyways? careful looking...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F May 11