I Keep Myself Distracted So I Don't Feel

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    I've spent most of the past 30 years in a protective cocoon of numbness.  I had to if I wanted to survive.  Now I'm safe and the numbness is wearing off...and it hurts like a SOB.  So now I fill my mind with clutter and fluff...anything to dull the jagged edges of a heart...
    Plaid Plaid
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 26, 2011

    Never Allowed Myself To Feel

    Never in my life have I allowed myself to feel. I've created thoughts to keep me thinking. It's all I knew until my husband and kids came in my life. Now I'm fighting to keep myself from feeling and I feel crappy all the time.
    Krissymommy Krissymommy
    31-35, F
    Oct 11, 2012

    Distraction Is My Friend

    I work out...a lot...2-3 hours a day. It keeps me from ruminating on the past. I can't say it's a good tactic, but at least I don't drink myself into a stupor or use drugs to numb the pain. I am not underweight, so the physical aspect of it is ok. The mental aspect...maybe not so...
    kristijo2000 kristijo2000
    31-35, F
    Nov 27, 2010


    It happens too often... But every once in awhile You swing me around Whether I am fluttering Or bouncing Or simply babbling You make me pause And focus On that one feeling I keep shelving away At that moment Not to hurt me But to allow me  To feel the hurt As you feel it too...
    Sylphy Sylphy
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2012

    Going Nuts

         I have been talking to a guy for over a year now. When I don't hear from him for more then fout days. I start to go nuts. I try to stay busy to distract me from not hearing from him. That way I won't miss him that much at all. I hope that he misses me...
    acjf acjf
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 11, 2010

    Get Lost In Another World

    Whenever i get sad or feel lonely or whatever other reason there may be, i always go to my books and animes. I know...animes...really? But i love them and they also help me to get my mind off of whatever is bothering me. I get lost in their world and forget about my own for...
    kuramalove kuramalove
    18-21, F
    Mar 21, 2011

    I Try

    But it doesnt always work.What is one to do when trying to sleep?Thats the worst time.I have trouble sleeping because of my thoughts.
    frostbittensoul frostbittensoul
    41-45, M
    1 Response Aug 12, 2010

    I Try. I Try. But I Usually Fail.

    i have so many demons whispering in my ear... i try to block them out, override them somehow, focus on other things, but it only works for so long. and it's never long enough. there's a pain there, waiting, that paralyzes, that kills. and it's lurking there in the corners of my...
    juggalove juggalove
    31-35, F
    1 Response Aug 25, 2010

    If I'm This Tired Now...

    I sleep a lot. Not only at night, on daytime as well. Hours after hours of just laying still when I'm too tired to do anything else. It's okay if I can't always sleep, just laying in the dark surrounded by soft sheets is fine. I feel safe, nothing can hurt me there. When I sleep...
    Fearofsilence Fearofsilence
    18-21, F
    Dec 19, 2010

    Its Been Sixteen Months

    Sixteen months since a strange mab broke into my apartment and did what he did,nearly killing me in the process. Im still waiting for the investigation to yield an answer so I try to stay busy and distract myself. Its better than feeling the soul killing desperate sadness that...
    LdsGirl LdsGirl
    26-30, F
    Sep 25, 2012

    Emotions are a pain, regret,

    guilt, sadness and many more. If I distract myself then they will only show up shortly, they don't have the audacity to interrupt, at least, most of the time.
    LikeICare13 LikeICare13
    13-15, F
    Feb 14, 2016
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 13, 2016

    lonely. It's hard trying not to be lonely

    and all you really have is yourself to talk to. I'm lonely but not alone and could interact with the people around me if I didn't feel like such a burden to them. It sucks being lonely.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 14, 2016

    I Can'T Get Through The Day Without It

    I love any kind of distraction or diversion. I can't stand the quiet, I have to keep my mind busy, so I don't think about all the things that are wrong. Things that I have no control over. I always have music going, I also read talk to friends. Especially when I think I care too...
    wonderstruck77 wonderstruck77
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 24, 2013

    Dear People Who I Used To Talk To Here But Suddenly Stopped,

    I didn't forget about you.I didn't stop caring about you.I am just not known for keeping in touch with people for a long time.I remember every conversation.Every problem we've talked about.Every joke we told.I'm just....distracted.Sincerely,Seriously distracted me.
    MonsterBeneathYourBed MonsterBeneathYourBed
    26-30, F
    Jun 10, 2013

    I Need A Distraction...

    I need to stop thinking, I need to stop feeling. If I can't stop feeling, I'm going to fall in a heap, and I won't get back up. I'm freaking out, I'm panicking, I'm sad, I feel hopeless, it feels like someone has punched a hole through my chest. I really need to be numb right...
    EmmmaaaLou EmmmaaaLou
    22-25, F
    Sep 19, 2013

    I Am Driving Myself Crazy!

    I left my job about a week ago, now I'm just waiting on a background check for my next job. It is driving myself crazy having all this time. I can only clean so much, play typing games, clean, type, make to do lists, and on and on and on. I am a workaholic, it satisfies me to...
    rainmoon rainmoon
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 10, 2010

    I Throw Myself Into Work....

    To distract myself from the pain I feel when it comes to how I feel about myself. I work with kids and I work so hard just so I don't have to think about what it will be like when I go home and have to then think about my personal situation. That being that I am the eternal...
    deleted deleted
    May 12, 2011

    Never A Truer Word Spoken In Jest..

    I stick my head in my book, and pray to something I don't call a god for something other than the nothingness that invades my soul. Whether it be that or cleaning, it's better than sinking into the abyss like warm covers on quilted bed. I can't eat, I can't sleep properly, I...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jun 3, 2011

    I'm Excited

    I don't want to write about all the negative in my life. I want to start to see the positive. I have a chance to move to be around my children again it has been ten years since I have been able to live around them.They are grown and I will get to enjoy my two grand babies. I pray...
    wildflower65 wildflower65
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 26, 2011


    So far the only things that help me be destracted are books, video games, and sports. They help me escape and keep my mind busy. Keep me from thinking and from remembering. Unfortunatly Im running out of books to read and games to play...
    Nemo17 Nemo17
    18-21, M
    Aug 8, 2012

    Feel Too Much

    I do anything to keep myself from thinking too much.  If I think too much I will feel too much and if I feel too much then I will do stupid things for the dumbest reasons.  Ugh, some days are better than others.
    Parthenopeaigle Parthenopeaigle
    36-40, F
    Aug 30, 2010


    i will throw myself into video marathons, or a good book, just to keep myself busy. i find that i don't waste that much time brooding about stuff this way. it's really an escapist mentality, but i live by it and it has worked quite well. :) some things are just not worth brooding...
    sheyra sheyra
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 27, 2011


    Gaming and Piano are my distractors... that and sleep... If I am hurting then I do my best to distract myself with games of some sort or get really involved with piano... or just sleep... i cant think about what is bothering me if im asleep, or gaming, or playing piano lol... Its...
    LonelyPandaBear LonelyPandaBear
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 3, 2011

    This Is What I Live By

    If I stop to think even for a second, it all comes crashing down on me and I can't breathe.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 24, 2011

    Feel Grumpy

        I have been keeping my self bissy. So, that I won't get grumpy at all. I have a sweet guy that I have been talking to.  I have a hard time when i haven'y heard from him quit some time. I like it when I hear from him. He's my sweet navy guy. I miss him so...
    acjf acjf
    22-25, F
    Aug 12, 2010

    to a good friend and colleague,

    who turns out is a mirror of me 10 years ago So. I had a cage at 19. It was music. HIM, nightwish, amorphis, dragonforce, after forever, linkin Park. They kept me locked up outside my life. Other people's sorrows and misery held me far enough away from mine as well to keep me...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife
    31-35, M
    1 Response Nov 3, 2015

    Maybe I'm Afraid To Feel Because I Don't Want To Get Hurt

    It has been a year since I moved away from New York, and from time to time I really miss that city. I remembered working in Soho, I'm always swamped with work, I'm so beat at the end of the day, I pretty much had dinner, and surf the web for a few hours then I'm good to crash. I...
    eihy eihy
    26-30, M
    1 Response Nov 4, 2010
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