I Keep Silent And It Is Destroying Me

Can you find your voice? Do you keep silent, even when you know it's only hurting you? 447 People

    "…Sometimes quiet is violent/I find it hard

    to hide it/My pride is no longer inside/It's on my sleeve/My skin will scream…" (Car Radio).
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 14, 2015

    I feel like I keep a lot in

    and I feel like im just one day going to explode from all the crap I keep inside to myself.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 10, 2014

    I've been pretending to be okay

    for far too long. It is not only destroying me, but is destroying what little relationships I have with people. I'm sick of staying silent, but I'm too scared to talk. I don't know what to do :(
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 9, 2014

    Sometimes I Even Fool Myself That I Am Ok...

    I work with children and so I have to put on a mask, hide the pain and paint on a smile instead. I always look so cheerful but I'm not. I am so sad inside. I think I am a loser and really behind in life. I feel not good enough everyday, I feel ugly, guilt, shame, weird. All kinds...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 13, 2011

    I allow you you to do

    so much to me I've been trained to keep quiet you choke me I say nothing you slap me no a word you mentally destroy me, make me hate who I am I don't even argue every week I can count on you to break me down and I accept silent today you held me mouth down I tried to say...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 1, 2014

    A Voice? What Is That Exactly???

    I'm not sure when it started, or even if I was aware that I ever had one. A voice, I mean. I've always been silent about the things that matter to me. It could be the shyness, the fear of rejection, but would a 3 yr old know that kind of fear? Would a 5 yr old? I know a 9 yr old...
    MaidenWolf MaidenWolf
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Nov 15, 2009

    I had a conservation with my oldest daughter

    who is almost 17 last night and felt like such a horrible parent. She had a boyfriend for 2 years who manipulated her and would make her feel bad over stupid little things. At times he would not talk nice to her. And she allowed it. So as a mom I have taught her that this...
    SallyJones005 SallyJones005
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Dec 8, 2014

    as I lay as I lay beside you after you've beat

    me, choke me, and hurt me I pray I fall asleep and never wake up as I lay beside you the tears falls silently, and I never make a sound to alert you of my pain as I lay beside you the words I want to say cannot form I'm my mouth, forever burning with silent rage as I lay...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987
    26-30, F
    Dec 1, 2014

    I just don't know how to talk about certain

    things without people thinking I'm crazy. I hate keeping silent, but I don't even know how to start the conversation with people about certain problems I'm having. I'm so lost....
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jan 2, 2015

    I just need to let it out.

    I just need to scream and tell someone but I just keep quiet and suffer alone in silence . I just wish I didn't have to. I need someone
    AsCharleigh AsCharleigh
    18-21, F
    Apr 28, 2015

    I'm going to leave in silence,

    I have let my silence consume me. I am no more.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 16, 2015

    Silent

    Some nights I go home feeling like there is a cork in my throat.  I've always seemed to have an issue with saying what needs to be said when it needs to be said.  There are also times that, even with a really close friend, I loose track of what to talk about.   It's awkward to...
    chfkawai chfkawai
    22-25
    May 20, 2012
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 9, 2015

    Keep It Up

    Keep it up! Remember: there are no winners in life - only survivors!
    NarutoShippudenFanGirl NarutoShippudenFanGirl
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 8, 2013

    My boyfriend joined the military

    and of course I want to support him, but he doesn't know how much it's hurting me.
    lostinthesound lostinthesound
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 1, 2014

    These last few weeks I've had

    so many thoughts over this situation Thats been stressing me out yet I remain silent... I've been locking up my emotions and it kills me..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 10, 2015

    Opening My Eyes To The Truth

    Expressing my feelings has always been a problem. I would keep it all inside and continue my daily battles. I work hard at my job and provide for my wife and myself. Been married now for four years and our marriage has been on of those battles. I try hard to do for others with...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 12, 2012
    ammarasaad26 ammarasaad26
    18-21, M
    Dec 1, 2014

    It's funny how that one person you trust

    and love just uses you and ends up effecting (destroying) your entire life without realising it.. Thanks demon..
    zoe1118 zoe1118
    18-21, F
    Aug 18, 2014

    Today's my 17th birthday

    but nobody cared, but I still didn't say anything, I don't want to make a fuss.
    titch7 titch7
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 1, 2014

    Silent But Inside Screaming In Pain

    ever since i was born i have always been the happy,cheerful girl that studies hard to get good grades. when my parents were going through their divorce, which took 9 years to get it over and done with, i had to be happy and cheerful. my older sister has suffered from anorexia and...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes
    22-25, F
    Jun 20, 2011

    I Have No Voice....

    I am unable to pick up the phone, and call someone, and say I need them. I am unable to look a family member in the eye, and tell them, I don't knnow if I am going to okay this time., I keep quiet because its the only thing I know how to do. Its the only thing that I am able to...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jul 14, 2010
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