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I Keep Struggling With Who I Am

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 209 People

    All I Know About Myself Is My Name.

    Who I am? A question that I have been asking myself for a long time. I have been thinking about it and I started asking people but still I have no answer. I don't have a specific group of friends so I can know what kind of a person I am. For example, if I'm a punk I would have a...
    zeinakhaled zeinakhaled 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 30, 2013

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    I was raised to be the gentleman,

    to care about how girl's feelings, to be the guy that she can let down her guard around knowing full well that I wouldn't betray that trust that she has for me. I was taught that instead of burying my face in a new phone or whatnot, I should greet people with a smile, say hello...
    V12Snow V12Snow 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 26, 2014

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    I heard it all before.

    I know all the right words to say. I'm the one that can always help others, but when it's me that needs help I just want to run, want to be alone and I tell everybody I'm fine when I know I'm not. I'm not looking for responses to this post! I just need to type it!
    JFitzy JFitzy 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2014

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    Who People Want Me To Be And Who I Am

    I transferred colleges recently, I felt I was going insane. I was torn between who my parents want me to be and who i really am. I have had so many experiences that have made me who i am i felt like my parents didnt know the real me. i have so much hidden inside i struggle...
    kacunnin kacunnin 18-21 4 Responses May 1, 2011

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    Don't Know Who I Am

    I never had a sense who I really am. I follow others ,stay hidden inside myself. I am so far from everyone on this planet. I'm not real. I feel very frustrated.
    jjimmy61 jjimmy61 51-55, M 2 Responses Aug 24, 2009

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    Broken Self, Broken Soul

    I am nearly 27, and recently divorced. I never thought i would be in this position. She was abusive mentally and physically. She slowly turned me into a shell of myself, and although leaving her was the best decision I've made I feel extremely hollows right now. I have lost most...
    selfseeking selfseeking 26-30 Dec 10, 2012

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    I to struggle with who I am the fact is I don't

    know who I am I thought I knew who I was but I don't really know all I know is I was born a boy but in reality that don't mean anything sense there are people out there who believe they are born the wrong gender so I cant say if I am really a boy or a girl all I know is I was...
    jon200547 jon200547 26-30, M Oct 4, 2014

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    Hate Who I Am And Am So Ashamed....

    Sometimes I surprise myself and also anger myself at how fake I can be. I pretend my life is normal and that I am happy but it is anything but and I am really NOT happy. To the outside world I pretend everything is ok, but it really isn't. Yet I don't want people to know just how...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 4, 2011

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    No One Can Figure Me Out

    so I guess that I am young so I shouldn't know exactly who I am, but it gets so frusterating. People ask me what my favourite food is or simple questions and I honestly don't know the answers to that. I can't figure out my sexuality, because I have experianced to much. i...
    cindy17 cindy17 18-21, F May 21, 2009

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    I Don't Have Any Idea

    Since my husband died, I struggle with my identity. I am not sure who I am anymore. I built my life around him and my children and now that he is gone, I am at a loss as to what MY goals are. I can't seem to find a new ambition. I still run the business we started together, but...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 11 Responses May 22, 2009

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    Life On Pause

    Does anyone else feel like everyone else's life is progressing and you're just stuck in the same spot? unable to feel grateful for what you have? I may be comparing apples and oranges but I feel like I've gotten nowhere since starting University. I'm 22 years old and a Post...
    Makwete Makwete 22-25, F Jan 2, 2013

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    I'm 31 years old, and for as long as I can remember I've been dodging the fact that I'm at least bisexual or gay. It's taken up so much of my strength and, looking back, has shaped...
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    I hate that I'm gay. :( and I hate that I'm alone because I can't come out. If anyone needs anyone to talk to, I'm here.
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