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I Keep Struggling With Who I Am

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    Hate Who I Am And Am So Ashamed....

    Sometimes I surprise myself and also anger myself at how fake I can be. I pretend my life is normal and that I am happy but it is anything but and I am really NOT happy. To the outside world I pretend everything is ok, but it really isn't. Yet I don't want people to know just how...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 4, 2011

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    Who People Want Me To Be And Who I Am

    I transferred colleges recently, I felt I was going insane. I was torn between who my parents want me to be and who i really am. I have had so many experiences that have made me who i am i felt like my parents didnt know the real me. i have so much hidden inside i struggle...
    kacunnin kacunnin 18-21 4 Responses May 1, 2011

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    Broken Self, Broken Soul

    I am nearly 27, and recently divorced. I never thought i would be in this position. She was abusive mentally and physically. She slowly turned me into a shell of myself, and although leaving her was the best decision I've made I feel extremely hollows right now. I have lost most...
    selfseeking selfseeking 26-30 Dec 10, 2012

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    I was raised to be the gentleman,

    to care about how girl's feelings, to be the guy that she can let down her guard around knowing full well that I wouldn't betray that trust that she has for me. I was taught that instead of burying my face in a new phone or whatnot, I should greet people with a smile, say hello...
    V12Snow V12Snow 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 26

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    I to struggle with who I am the fact is I don't

    know who I am I thought I knew who I was but I don't really know all I know is I was born a boy but in reality that don't mean anything sense there are people out there who believe they are born the wrong gender so I cant say if I am really a boy or a girl all I know is I was...
    jon200547 jon200547 26-30, M Oct 4

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    I Don't Have Any Idea

    Since my husband died, I struggle with my identity. I am not sure who I am anymore. I built my life around him and my children and now that he is gone, I am at a loss as to what MY goals are. I can't seem to find a new ambition. I still run the business we started together, but...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 11 Responses May 22, 2009

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    I heard it all before.

    I know all the right words to say. I'm the one that can always help others, but when it's me that needs help I just want to run, want to be alone and I tell everybody I'm fine when I know I'm not. I'm not looking for responses to this post! I just need to type it!
    JFitzy JFitzy 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    Don't Know Who I Am

    I never had a sense who I really am. I follow others ,stay hidden inside myself. I am so far from everyone on this planet. I'm not real. I feel very frustrated.
    jjimmy61 jjimmy61 51-55, M 2 Responses Aug 24, 2009

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    All I Know About Myself Is My Name.

    Who I am? A question that I have been asking myself for a long time. I have been thinking about it and I started asking people but still I have no answer. I don't have a specific group of friends so I can know what kind of a person I am. For example, if I'm a punk I would have a...
    zeinakhaled zeinakhaled 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 30, 2013

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    Life On Pause

    Does anyone else feel like everyone else's life is progressing and you're just stuck in the same spot? unable to feel grateful for what you have? I may be comparing apples and oranges but I feel like I've gotten nowhere since starting University. I'm 22 years old and a Post...
    Makwete Makwete 22-25, F Jan 2, 2013

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    No One Can Figure Me Out

    so I guess that I am young so I shouldn't know exactly who I am, but it gets so frusterating. People ask me what my favourite food is or simple questions and I honestly don't know the answers to that. I can't figure out my sexuality, because I have experianced to much. i...
    cindy17 cindy17 18-21, F May 21, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    Alright, so I recently started what some would call a religious journey, and I'm really struggling with it. Some background information: I was not brought up in a religious...
    leencuisine leencuisine 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Don't you just feel like your another person doing the same things as billions of other people. Stuck in this stupid rat race. Wanting more from life but feeling like you don't...
    Emil2 Emil2 18-21, M 16 hrs ago

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    I'm married, my ex is married and has 2 children. When I was in high school, I got my ex pregnant. We were in love, and were trying to figure out how we could make everything work...
    LookingForFK LookingForFK 31-35 1 Response Sep 30

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    Hi there. Actually I'm no longer struggling :-) I had a really really hard time but managed to get out of my depression with help of my best friend (and some professionals). I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 10

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    I don't want to leave my wife but I'm realizing that I want to be honest about who I am. I struggle with being gay because I have deceived people (wife, family, friends, neighbors...
    walkingcast1 walkingcast1 41-45, M 5 Responses Sep 22

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    I've always called myself pansexual. I wasn't and am still not attracted to people by physical appearance, but by their heart. I've never really told anyone I know in real life...
    mugzib mugzib 13-15, F Oct 6

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    My father is a terrible role model. He has other family. Never looked after is. Brought other women to the house. Ask us to call the other women mummy. He only comes home when he...
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F Oct 6

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    Anyone else feels like a freak when you are the only person who you know has less than perfect skin? Anyone that feels a sting when looking in the mirror? :( Because it sucks.
    LiLkoala LiLkoala 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am scared of the things that come with being gay. One would be is being alone, guys are very visual and I personally don't feel like I would be visually appealing to someone you...
    ZNior ZNior 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 20

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    Sometimes I'll go to a **** shop or book store to purchase gay ****. If the store is empty I go to the gay area of the store and check out the selections. If not I can't bring...
    walkingcast1 walkingcast1 41-45, M 2 Responses Sep 29

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    My mom has decided to stop taking her medicine and to not replace her pacemaker battery. This decision will effectively end her life. The hard part is I have medical power of...
    Texaspumper Texaspumper 51-55, M 9 Responses Oct 2

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    I'm fighting an anxiety attack right now. I'm currently stuck in my room. I've been awake since 7 am and it is 4pm now. I go back and forth between napping and sitting awake to...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 2

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    I find it hard to deal with but i know i am well...gay I've already accepted this what im worried is that if come out my parents will have a fit cause of religious reasons when I...
    Joshuadd07 Joshuadd07 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 7

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    I know deep down inside I am gay, I have fought this since I was a child, never understanding why this was happening to me. People preached that it was alwful and that you should...
    SexuBio SexuBio 18-21, M 6 Responses Oct 7

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    My mom is always stressing me out with her bills and the fact that she doesn't make enough money anymore since retiring. Meanwhile this is the age that I'm suppose to be starting...
    Rosebox Rosebox 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Some people never say sorry.They hurt me repeatedly and then say I am the one hurting tbem.They refuse to discuss it if I want to.Still I try to forgive for my sake but am not...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 4

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    Why did it even happen to me?
    kiddishguy kiddishguy 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 5

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    I refuse. I accept what has happened but let's be real, I hope we don't end up in the same afterlife . I forgave myself . Why should I forgive you?
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    It's a terrible mix of anorexia and bulimia. I don't eat a lot of food and when I do I throw it up. No one knows about this and I want it to stay that way. I am trying to do...
    dambookworm17 dambookworm17 13-15, F Sep 20

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    I'm out to my friends and everyone I know. If anyone asks my sexuality, I'd say I'm gay. But I'm not sure about telling my dad. He's very homophobic, and I don't want to be kicked...
    PFowler PFowler 16-17, M 4 Responses Sep 24

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    It sounds weird that since I have converted to Catholicism and have grown in Christ that I have finally accepted the fact that I'm gay. I have yet to come out to all of my friends...
    jbussing jbussing 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 4

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    Sometimes I just feel like it would be easier if I was straight. But then I realise how much I'd miss about guys if I was.
    Disqualify Disqualify 13-15, M 3 Responses Oct 10

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    I found this on the internet - Hope it helps someone. 5 stages of grief - how it applies to infidelity Posting from another site. This will help you understand that the...
    NOWHealing NOWHealing 61-65, F 2 days ago

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    I am sick, but not of a very serious illness. Still, up to now they told me it is not curable, and I have to live with it my whole life. My whole digestive system is ****** up, my...
    Serenahil Serenahil 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    hi, im indonesian (28yo) and i married with a japanese man (28yo) 2 months ago. we have been together 11 months then he finally marry me. but i already facing a sexless marriage. i...
    yn12986 yn12986 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    I'm very frustrated in love I'm beginning to wonder if I really have a soulmate. I seem to fall for the wrong people. I've been in three relationships so far, my ex bf who was...
    betty87 betty87 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    When it comes to my mental illnesses which are schizophrenia anxiety disorder depression and intrusive disturbed images thoughts and feelings sometimes even random words pop in my...
    Janisoneluv Janisoneluv 26-30, F Oct 5

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    Casting for a new cable television show Struggling with a phobia or chronic affliction that is interfering with your daily life Do you have uncontrollable hand tremors a...
    AL8X AL8X 22-25, F Sep 25

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    I, like many people these days, have found myself caught up in p*rn. I didn't mean to do it, and I didn't realize what it was until it was too late and I was already in. I have...
    disneyalltheway disneyalltheway 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 29

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    Maybe, I’ll stop loving him tomorrow, But for today, I’ll fall in love with him… I was only four when I met him. He was eight. He (Yael) and his little sister (Eva) were my...
    kiendy123 kiendy123 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23

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    Maybe, I’ll stop loving him tomorrow, But for today, I’ll fall in love with him… I was only four when I met him. He was eight. He (Yale) and his little sister (Eva) were my...
    kiendy123 kiendy123 18-21, F Sep 29

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    I have posted about this many a time before; truthfully I don't even know which category to post this in. Perhaps to get the most feedback I will just post it in more than 1. Is...
    itscake itscake 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 6

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    Rating is accessible if the online video continues to be rented. This attribute is not really accessible right this moment. Be sure to try once more later on.Inside of a month...
    Willy52yt Willy52yt 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 20

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    Rating is out there once the movie has actually been rented. This function is just not out there right now. Remember to test all over again later.In a thirty day period, the...
    Keniaga838 Keniaga838 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 21

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    Tonight is going to be yet another night when I can't even think about sleeping until a stupid time because as long as I don't sleep then it's not tomorrow (does that make sense...
    MarniBear MarniBear 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 22

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    Over the years I have come to learn and realize that you shouldn't have to change for no one. You should always stay true to yourself. I admit I made that stupid mistake of trying...
    Morenita79 Morenita79 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 24

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    Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long. No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone. You hold me without touch. You keep...
    lp1989 lp1989 22-25, F Sep 26

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