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I Keep Struggling With Who I Am

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 209 People

    Broken Self, Broken Soul

    I am nearly 27, and recently divorced. I never thought i would be in this position. She was abusive mentally and physically. She slowly turned me into a shell of myself, and although leaving her was the best decision I've made I feel extremely hollows right now. I have lost most...
    selfseeking selfseeking 26-30 Dec 10, 2012

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    Hate Who I Am And Am So Ashamed....

    Sometimes I surprise myself and also anger myself at how fake I can be. I pretend my life is normal and that I am happy but it is anything but and I am really NOT happy. To the outside world I pretend everything is ok, but it really isn't. Yet I don't want people to know just how...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 4, 2011

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    I was raised to be the gentleman,

    to care about how girl's feelings, to be the guy that she can let down her guard around knowing full well that I wouldn't betray that trust that she has for me. I was taught that instead of burying my face in a new phone or whatnot, I should greet people with a smile, say hello...
    V12Snow V12Snow 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 26, 2014

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    I heard it all before.

    I know all the right words to say. I'm the one that can always help others, but when it's me that needs help I just want to run, want to be alone and I tell everybody I'm fine when I know I'm not. I'm not looking for responses to this post! I just need to type it!
    JFitzy JFitzy 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2014

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    I Don't Have Any Idea

    Since my husband died, I struggle with my identity. I am not sure who I am anymore. I built my life around him and my children and now that he is gone, I am at a loss as to what MY goals are. I can't seem to find a new ambition. I still run the business we started together, but...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 11 Responses May 22, 2009

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    Life On Pause

    Does anyone else feel like everyone else's life is progressing and you're just stuck in the same spot? unable to feel grateful for what you have? I may be comparing apples and oranges but I feel like I've gotten nowhere since starting University. I'm 22 years old and a Post...
    Makwete Makwete 22-25, F Jan 2, 2013

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    All I Know About Myself Is My Name.

    Who I am? A question that I have been asking myself for a long time. I have been thinking about it and I started asking people but still I have no answer. I don't have a specific group of friends so I can know what kind of a person I am. For example, if I'm a punk I would have a...
    zeinakhaled zeinakhaled 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 30, 2013

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    No One Can Figure Me Out

    so I guess that I am young so I shouldn't know exactly who I am, but it gets so frusterating. People ask me what my favourite food is or simple questions and I honestly don't know the answers to that. I can't figure out my sexuality, because I have experianced to much. i...
    cindy17 cindy17 18-21, F May 21, 2009

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    Who People Want Me To Be And Who I Am

    I transferred colleges recently, I felt I was going insane. I was torn between who my parents want me to be and who i really am. I have had so many experiences that have made me who i am i felt like my parents didnt know the real me. i have so much hidden inside i struggle...
    kacunnin kacunnin 18-21 4 Responses May 1, 2011

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    Don't Know Who I Am

    I never had a sense who I really am. I follow others ,stay hidden inside myself. I am so far from everyone on this planet. I'm not real. I feel very frustrated.
    jjimmy61 jjimmy61 51-55, M 2 Responses Aug 24, 2009

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    I to struggle with who I am the fact is I don't

    know who I am I thought I knew who I was but I don't really know all I know is I was born a boy but in reality that don't mean anything sense there are people out there who believe they are born the wrong gender so I cant say if I am really a boy or a girl all I know is I was...
    jon200547 jon200547 26-30, M Oct 4, 2014

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    When I Feel Safe & loved, I'm a Breeze to get along with. Honestly. But it's the FEELING part that seems to be such a challenge. Cuz it's Not about KNOWING I'm safe & loved...
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    I'm a twenty two year old slightly single overweight lesbian woman who is mainly looking for friends of older age. I battle borderline personality disorder, which makes...
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    Whenever I see someone struggling with something, like if someone was trying to open a door while carrying a big stack of books, I am always willing to stop what I'm doing and go...
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    You don't know pain until you are staring at yourself in the mirror with tears streaming down your face, and you're begging yourself to just hold on and be strong. That is pain.
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    I can't change who I am, I can't even change the things that happen to me, I can't take back the hurt, the memories, the words, the scars. I'm suppose to apologize for being hurt...
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    I'm a gay male and I'm in love with my straight guy friend.. well it all Started 7 years ago, at the time my sister was dating his uncle and he lived with them. well when I met him...
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    Well.... **** happens. I don't know, i will probably bore you with this story, but it is my story. So here it goes. (I want to apologize in advance for any spelling errors or...
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    musicman1965 musicman1965 56-60, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I can't stand myself. My life literally so lame. I have no friends. I'm stupid. I'm fat. I'm ugly. I'm too quiet. I'm ugly. I'm shy. I'm sad. Did I mention I'm ugly? I can't deal...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    Ok. So I'm 23 & just starting to come to terms with my sexuality. About 8 months ago, I finally started to acknowledge that I liked girls & allowed myself the space & time to come...
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    And yet I keep arguing with them, over and over again, until I turn into a stew of hate and stupidity that mirrors the idiot I despise.
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    I am struggling with my mood swings. They're becoming more frequent and it feels so heavy. My body can't take it and my eyes are sore from the crying. I really need to get some...
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    5 days since I had any contact with the other man. Spent a really good day with hubby yesterday and am again reminded what an awesome man he is! How much he loves me. I'm trying so...
    Queenbee1960 Queenbee1960 51-55, F Jul 18

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    Well i have always fantasised about screwing someones wife but do not want to ruin there relation. Its an awkward situation where i am never sure when to make my move and with who...
    vidzzz vidzzz 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 17

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    In general, I like myself. But others don't in general, so I worry and think I should change more and more.
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    She's probably the greatest thing to ever happen to me. She helped me ease out of the closet and accepted me. She helped with boy problems and girl problems. She's now a thousand...
    ILoveYourSmile ILoveYourSmile 13-15, F Jul 16

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    actually I feel bad for people who are struggling with being gay or just coming out because everyone's family is mostly ****** up I mean honestly if the “family” I have didn't...
    shiasan shiasan 16-17, M Jul 15

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    I don't think that forgiveness is always necessary or helpful. I had one person that I tried to forgive for years, and I couldn't do it. No matter what I tried, I couldn't forgive...
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    Susie is now on her third round of chemo :( She's as stubborn as anyone I know. We had another nice visit yesterday. She's always been the one who gives and is struggling with...
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    I am having the worst time in my life. I gained 8kg.... I think I look terrible when I am fat. I gained all this weigh because I had a hard time this year and I lost all of my self...
    mccontrucci mccontrucci 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    It blows my mind on how many people I know are awful people who treat others terribly but get everything I want. I want a relationship and a child. I stead I sleep with just 2 men...
    Eg9801 Eg9801 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    The reality of the situation is more complicated than drugs. My (half)sister has two children at about 30 years old. She has lost all motivation. She has played her family time...
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    at the young age of 7 , I hated myself . I hated everything about myself . I flat out just hated being me , my life , my face . Everything . God i can't stress that word enough to...
    Rs668009 Rs668009 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 11

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