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I Keep Struggling With Who I Am

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 211 People

    Who People Want Me To Be And Who I Am

    I transferred colleges recently, I felt I was going insane. I was torn between who my parents want me to be and who i really am. I have had so many experiences that have made me who i am i felt like my parents didnt know the real me. i have so much hidden inside i struggle...
    kacunnin kacunnin 18-21 4 Responses May 1, 2011

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    Broken Self, Broken Soul

    I am nearly 27, and recently divorced. I never thought i would be in this position. She was abusive mentally and physically. She slowly turned me into a shell of myself, and although leaving her was the best decision I've made I feel extremely hollows right now. I have lost most...
    selfseeking selfseeking 26-30 Dec 10, 2012

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    Hate Who I Am And Am So Ashamed....

    Sometimes I surprise myself and also anger myself at how fake I can be. I pretend my life is normal and that I am happy but it is anything but and I am really NOT happy. To the outside world I pretend everything is ok, but it really isn't. Yet I don't want people to know just how...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 4, 2011

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    All I Know About Myself Is My Name.

    Who I am? A question that I have been asking myself for a long time. I have been thinking about it and I started asking people but still I have no answer. I don't have a specific group of friends so I can know what kind of a person I am. For example, if I'm a punk I would have a...
    zeinakhaled zeinakhaled 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 30, 2013

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    I heard it all before.

    I know all the right words to say. I'm the one that can always help others, but when it's me that needs help I just want to run, want to be alone and I tell everybody I'm fine when I know I'm not. I'm not looking for responses to this post! I just need to type it!
    JFitzy JFitzy 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    Don't Know Who I Am

    I never had a sense who I really am. I follow others ,stay hidden inside myself. I am so far from everyone on this planet. I'm not real. I feel very frustrated.
    jjimmy61 jjimmy61 51-55, M 2 Responses Aug 24, 2009

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    Life On Pause

    Does anyone else feel like everyone else's life is progressing and you're just stuck in the same spot? unable to feel grateful for what you have? I may be comparing apples and oranges but I feel like I've gotten nowhere since starting University. I'm 22 years old and a Post...
    Makwete Makwete 22-25, F Jan 2, 2013

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    I Don't Have Any Idea

    Since my husband died, I struggle with my identity. I am not sure who I am anymore. I built my life around him and my children and now that he is gone, I am at a loss as to what MY goals are. I can't seem to find a new ambition. I still run the business we started together, but...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 11 Responses May 22, 2009

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    No One Can Figure Me Out

    so I guess that I am young so I shouldn't know exactly who I am, but it gets so frusterating. People ask me what my favourite food is or simple questions and I honestly don't know the answers to that. I can't figure out my sexuality, because I have experianced to much. i...
    cindy17 cindy17 18-21, F May 21, 2009

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    I was raised to be the gentleman,

    to care about how girl's feelings, to be the guy that she can let down her guard around knowing full well that I wouldn't betray that trust that she has for me. I was taught that instead of burying my face in a new phone or whatnot, I should greet people with a smile, say hello...
    V12Snow V12Snow 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 26

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    I to struggle with who I am the fact is I don't

    know who I am I thought I knew who I was but I don't really know all I know is I was born a boy but in reality that don't mean anything sense there are people out there who believe they are born the wrong gender so I cant say if I am really a boy or a girl all I know is I was...
    jon200547 jon200547 26-30, M Oct 4

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    Justbeingmeok Justbeingmeok 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 28

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    Hello reader, So it's time for me to get personal about a subject that is so near and dear to my heart. Since I was a freshman in high school (I'm now a sophomore in college) I...
    oscaxr oscaxr 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    So today I've been struggling. I feel like I'm on an alien planet but I know that there isn't something wrong with everyone, but rather with me. I really struggle to connect with...
    LucemSpiritus LucemSpiritus 18-21, M Dec 12

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    I am almost 40 years old and have been dealing with horrible headaches for 16 years now. I have tried all kinds of doctors, treatments, medications, even various surgeries...
    JunieMarie JunieMarie 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Being gay is something that I just recently realized that I am. I wasn't one of those who thought I've been gay since I was four, it literally was something I just sort of...
    gamerboy2001 gamerboy2001 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 2

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    It's been just over a year since the last time I cut myself. This time of year is really hard for me. I miscarried last year, 5 days after the 1 year anniversary of my rape... For...
    KC94 KC94 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    I am terrified of discrimination for being gay. All I want is to be able to live my life without my identity experiencing so much hate. I feel like I have to lie about who I am...
    ajusu ajusu 22-25, M a week ago

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    Life is tough! The worst thing is when one minute you have it all and it doesn't matter how grateful you are or how much you appreciate it all because the next minute it's all...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 22

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    I've been with my husband over 4 years and the first 2 were miserable because of my stepdaughters mother. She abused her child physically and verbally. Over a year ago, she was...
    xomambr14 xomambr14 18-21, F Dec 1

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    It feels like I'm walking upstream through a current strong enough to pull me under four times over. There are others with me but they are walking along the banks telling me to...
    nnawsnahta nnawsnahta 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 4

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    Life has been impossible for me these past 6 months especially the last two. I am miserable, in agony, I want to live but I can't right now. I've always flirted with the thought of...
    thefightingangel thefightingangel 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    Im 19 . I Live in the middle east As you know middle east countries is strict with Gay rights . & Its 10 times harder to express your feelings . I have a Guy crush On A lot of...
    lordeley952 lordeley952 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I think of hurting myself a lot its been a bad couple of years my apartment burned with everything in about a year ago and I lost my job 3 months ago I didn't even get to get my...
    tremaine37 tremaine37 36-40, M 23 hrs ago

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    I find that I have always been more aware of myself and mature than most people my age or in my generation. I always get the comment that I'm an old soul and people think I'm older...
    TigerStripedLady TigerStripedLady 18-21, F Nov 30

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    To avoid being mistaken for a sellout, I choose my friends carefully. The more politically active black students. The foreign students. The Chicanos. The Marxist professors and...
    somebodydreams somebodydreams 16-17, F 3 hrs ago

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    every day I want to rip open my own skin
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 29

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    I am extremely depressed. I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    A overly large penis. #thestruggle
    LongNeckJoe LongNeckJoe 16-17, M Nov 30

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    It's been about two months since I cut myself and I really want to it's eating me alive.....
    kassidia kassidia 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    I have never hurt myself but it has crossed my mind multiple times. I like to think that its just a thought and I would never hurt myself but I am afraid that one day I really wont...
    cheybear96 cheybear96 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1

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    Someone please distract me I want I sooo bad I can't stop myself
    kassidia kassidia 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    ADVICE FROM WOMEN ONLY!! PLEASE!! Okay, so I'm a gay male, but I don't think guys would understand this, I think this is more on the feminine side of topics... so yeah, so I got...
    deademotion11 deademotion11 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 5

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    Really want to hurt myself right now. :(
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 5

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    Haha, I don't even understand life anymore. for real, what is my purpose anymore. I can't do anything right. maybe tonight is the night. ??????
    nnawsnahta nnawsnahta 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 6

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    Today the 3 year anniversary of when I was raped...
    KC94 KC94 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut. I need to cut...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 13

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    I don't know what's going to Happen and I'm freaking out.
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    Find happiness or die trying. I feel like I cannot have been put on this earth to simply earn a living and struggle to push through the day. Life has to be more than a career...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am a gay man and I am proud about that fact
    latintop9x5 latintop9x5 36-40, M Nov 25

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    I'm going to tell a story, so prepare for a lengthy read. Read it if you like, or not, I just need to write it down. I'm going to start at a very important part of my experience...
    soulrebel78 soulrebel78 36-40, F Nov 30

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    It took long enough! Today I had a break through. For years I have been so confused about what I want to do with my life. Once you get into high school, your teachers and parents...
    AnnUrban AnnUrban 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 13

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    Genuinely starting to worry that I'm on the verge of a total meltdown. I'm a broken damaged person. I'm not worthy of Love. I'm disgusted with who I am. I hate myself. How do I...
    0815Jade 0815Jade 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    Everyone who has an actual conversation with me tells me that they trust me and either say or imply that they are comfortable speaking to me. Please do not get me wrong; I truly...
    kimb27 kimb27 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    I've never hated myself before. But recently I'm struggling with is. less hating who am, but more hating who I was. a weak needy person. I know I'm not that person anymore but...
    0815Jade 0815Jade 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    I remember this day with complete clarity. I remember what I wore, what he wore, how my hair was, etc. I also remember how nervous I was. I was so young, fifteen years old and he...
    TheLoneRaven TheLoneRaven 18-21, F Nov 22

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