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I Keep Struggling With Who I Am

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 211 People

    Broken Self, Broken Soul

    I am nearly 27, and recently divorced. I never thought i would be in this position. She was abusive mentally and physically. She slowly turned me into a shell of myself, and although leaving her was the best decision I've made I feel extremely hollows right now. I have lost most...
    selfseeking selfseeking 26-30 Dec 10, 2012

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    Life On Pause

    Does anyone else feel like everyone else's life is progressing and you're just stuck in the same spot? unable to feel grateful for what you have? I may be comparing apples and oranges but I feel like I've gotten nowhere since starting University. I'm 22 years old and a Post...
    Makwete Makwete 22-25, F Jan 2, 2013

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    I was raised to be the gentleman,

    to care about how girl's feelings, to be the guy that she can let down her guard around knowing full well that I wouldn't betray that trust that she has for me. I was taught that instead of burying my face in a new phone or whatnot, I should greet people with a smile, say hello...
    V12Snow V12Snow 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 26, 2014

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    Don't Know Who I Am

    I never had a sense who I really am. I follow others ,stay hidden inside myself. I am so far from everyone on this planet. I'm not real. I feel very frustrated.
    jjimmy61 jjimmy61 51-55, M 2 Responses Aug 24, 2009

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    Who People Want Me To Be And Who I Am

    I transferred colleges recently, I felt I was going insane. I was torn between who my parents want me to be and who i really am. I have had so many experiences that have made me who i am i felt like my parents didnt know the real me. i have so much hidden inside i struggle...
    kacunnin kacunnin 18-21 4 Responses May 1, 2011

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    I Don't Have Any Idea

    Since my husband died, I struggle with my identity. I am not sure who I am anymore. I built my life around him and my children and now that he is gone, I am at a loss as to what MY goals are. I can't seem to find a new ambition. I still run the business we started together, but...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 11 Responses May 22, 2009

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    Hate Who I Am And Am So Ashamed....

    Sometimes I surprise myself and also anger myself at how fake I can be. I pretend my life is normal and that I am happy but it is anything but and I am really NOT happy. To the outside world I pretend everything is ok, but it really isn't. Yet I don't want people to know just how...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 4, 2011

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    I heard it all before.

    I know all the right words to say. I'm the one that can always help others, but when it's me that needs help I just want to run, want to be alone and I tell everybody I'm fine when I know I'm not. I'm not looking for responses to this post! I just need to type it!
    JFitzy JFitzy 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2014

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    No One Can Figure Me Out

    so I guess that I am young so I shouldn't know exactly who I am, but it gets so frusterating. People ask me what my favourite food is or simple questions and I honestly don't know the answers to that. I can't figure out my sexuality, because I have experianced to much. i...
    cindy17 cindy17 18-21, F May 21, 2009

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    All I Know About Myself Is My Name.

    Who I am? A question that I have been asking myself for a long time. I have been thinking about it and I started asking people but still I have no answer. I don't have a specific group of friends so I can know what kind of a person I am. For example, if I'm a punk I would have a...
    zeinakhaled zeinakhaled 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 30, 2013

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    I to struggle with who I am the fact is I don't

    know who I am I thought I knew who I was but I don't really know all I know is I was born a boy but in reality that don't mean anything sense there are people out there who believe they are born the wrong gender so I cant say if I am really a boy or a girl all I know is I was...
    jon200547 jon200547 26-30, M Oct 4, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    I posted about struggling with agoraphobia (from time to time) on here a few days ago, I think it might have made things worse. Havn't left the house in a 4-5 days now :s Really...
    lonelyguybc lonelyguybc 26-30, M Jan 3

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    Since I was a teenager I've had the urge to cut myself and I was already seeing a counselor at the time for sexual abuse and anxiety so I told her my new urges and she didn't take...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    When my husband cheated, it ended in a pregnancy. My husband is pro-life and she had strong feelings for him so wanted to keep the baby. Two years later and I still harbor deep...
    poojibp poojibp 18-21, F Jan 15

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    Bad Days. Where do I go from here? That is the question I continue to ask myself. I feel like I'm stuck. Healing is the ultimate goal, but how do you know when you've reached that...
    willowsweep willowsweep 22-25, F Jan 16

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    I keep fantasizing about throwing a punch at someone so they will beat me up until I feel alive. I feel so guilty lately and It's such a lie that plays in my head, but I feel so...
    sweetsavanna sweetsavanna 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 9

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    Try to forgive myself everyday but a lot of people keep me from it
    cassyc cassyc 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    Hey! :) So yes as u probably had already seen im gay, well actualy im the only one who knows so i think it doesnt count... :p I fell deeply depressed some times because of this...
    Bral05 Bral05 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 5

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    I ended up re - friending my ex friend on fb. All this because we liked the same guy. (No longer speaking to). I still have hurt from when I told her I liked him too. yet she went...
    meleternal meleternal 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    Why do the ones who hurt us most always come back to hurt us again?
    CharlotteTeller CharlotteTeller 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    So I just turned 18 and am not to sure about anything. I need help and don't know who to talk to. You see ever since I can remember I have always been a little more on the feminine...
    umflic umflic 18-21, M 5 Responses Jan 9

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    The phone rings. And rings. Unknown number. Voicemail full. I stare at the contortion of my legs folded beneath me. Feel the stillness in my arms. The stillness in my head. They...
    IShutMyEyes IShutMyEyes 31-35, F Jan 12

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    I need your help again in my relationship! So, I'm talking to my crush a lot more often now. I feel that I'm very close to calling him my own. On Thursday, he was talking to his...
    Hippodippo257 Hippodippo257 16-17, F Jan 17

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    I've got so many homicidal thoughts racing through my head, day and night; it wears on me that everyone who's ever done anything to me has gotten away with whatever they did. I'm...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I don't know what's wrong with me. This isn't my usual self. I just wish I didn't exist right now :(
    MusicJunkie666 MusicJunkie666 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 3

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    Day by day is difficult for me. I feel like no one understands me and it is like I do appreciate the things I have but trying to be happy is a struggle. It is difficult for me to...
    AngelK2010 AngelK2010 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    I'm in love with a boy named Isai. Now since I'm young i obviously ways to go but he told this girl she was his present and that tore my heart. I didn't know what to think or feel...
    WorthlessXlove WorthlessXlove 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 9

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    I was baptized Lutheran and went to a Lutheran school but never went to church. We had church on Wednesdays in school but I just never felt quite like myself with God or anything...
    blackheartlover blackheartlover 16-17, F Jan 10

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    I've know I am gay since I was about 13. I denied it even as I fantasized about gay sex. I have come to embrace being gay, it is all I have ever known. Still there is that part of...
    Scott1954 Scott1954 56-60, M 1 Response Jan 13

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    I feel really, really frusterated. I HATE feeling like a victim to my emotions like this but when something over takes you so much it can be SO hard to not loathe yourself. When...
    Virgo1929 Virgo1929 18-21, F Jan 15

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    It's a major struggle tonight. I'm feeling so beyond done with life at this point. I should be sleeping, but all this crap is running through my head and it's literally going to be...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    Mines, chain link fences with barbed wire, attack dogs, guards on 24/7 patrol, huge fortress with a moat that has an alligator who is pissed he is not a crocodile. Oh and snipers...
    bombchu bombchu 22-25, F Jan 7

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    I've gone through some ugly things and been through some shudder-inducing, embarrassing experiences. I love where it has brought me though. I've never felt happier with myself...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 13

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    Forgive, but never forget.
    CascadingCoquette CascadingCoquette 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    So apparently I have enough skills to make a funny comment that gets everyone laughing but it backfires cause ones they take notice they initiate conversation which can't do and...
    AlexanderGarcia AlexanderGarcia 16-17, M Jan 16

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    I am recovering from anorexia but am finding it extremely difficult I feel awful and fat all the time like I've over eaten it makes me upset
    liviaxx liviaxx 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    how does someone tell the difference between normal curiosity & possible homosexuality? im really stuck
    tsallab tsallab 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    What kinda ****** live is this, every single day i fight to exist
    lifeaintshit lifeaintshit 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 8

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    Lost everything almost and feel like its at a end.
    Erebus1977 Erebus1977 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    I really wanna cut tonight, but it's so hard to fight the urge. I'm trying to be strong, buts it's not easy.
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 12

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    Today was not good. Nothing good came out of today. Well, I guess the fact that I got to have a peppermint mocha was good, but today was ****** all around. I'm tired of crying...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F Jan 15

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    Having a really ****** day. I don't want to be here. No one cares about me. Nothing I do matters. I want to go home and sleep forever. I'm so done right now...
    lizygurl lizygurl 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Its worth knowing what others want you to think and why.
    shivren shivren 26-30, M Jan 17

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    Ungex Ungex 26-30, M Jan 15

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    You have to love yourself first
    ElissaAcosta ElissaAcosta 16-17, F Jan 16

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    I've been dating my boyfriend since February 2014. I found out I was pregnant in April. We are young and were pressured by my side of the family to give the baby for adoption. We...
    xxdiscoveringme xxdiscoveringme 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 14

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    I am a 400lb woman ... Have been for 10 years now minus a few losses and gains ( one where I lost 100 only to gain it back ) I don't hate my body which is a problem how you ask...