Post

I Keep Things Bottled Up Inside Of Me

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 796 People

    Thats The Way It Is

    I always kept everything inside. And I mean everything. Not even things that are normally spoken about. I stuff it all within. I know its not good because sometime I feel like 'the bottle has fizz in it and is being very shaken up or there is way too much in there and will...
    sufferingmypaininsilence sufferingmypaininsilence 18-21, F Jan 14, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I love him but I can't give him all of me right

    now...he has to get his life together and thus can't give me what I need. He doesn't trust me...I can't take being under a microscope...he can't change how he feels...I can't change who I am or what I've been through...I miss him...I miss the friendship, I miss the companionship...
    AlexisLove69 AlexisLove69 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 12

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Only I Know.

    Everything that bothers me or makes me sad stays with me and me alone. While I know it's not good to keep things like that to myself, I can't help it. No one else should have to be bothered by my issues. I hide everything from my friends and act as though everything is fine...
    sgm213 sgm213 18-21, F Sep 17, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Painful Secrets

    I have a huge secret.  It’s eating me alive, from the inside out, literally.  Soon there will be nothing left of me.  But that is what it wants, in the end.  Nothing will ever be enough, and my secret will continue to deprive me and eat me alive until it finally kills me...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 13, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Brother

    I was actually thinking of this yesterday and I ran into this experience today. My big brother is a great father. I never would have thought he would be such a dedicated and hands on dad. He does everything for his kids and I love he is so involved. Even though he is busy with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 14, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    That Bottle In The Back Corner...

    Yeah, that's the one... The one that's corked up tight and looks like there's nothing in it.... Well, there's plenty in it. That bottle holds pieces of me that I'm afraid to let go of. Pieces that I haven't shared with anyone. Pieces from the last 40 years of my life that have...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 29, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Learned From Experience

    Every since I was a very young age I wud confide in people cuz I figured they love me and they wudn't do me wrong. Boy wuz I ever mistaken. I keep things bottled up inside cuz every time I do finally find someone I THINK I can trust to talk to about whats going on with me then...
    Froggie30 Froggie30 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It always feels like I'm wasting time

    when I tell people about my problems. I always feel like it's not fair to them to tell them about my problems. And the fact that I haven't had anyone to honestly talk to since I was little means I've kept years of stuff to myself. It's like a festering wound and I don't want to...
    BleedingOrchids BleedingOrchids 13-15, F 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Hate Pretending

    I am not a happy person. I think most of the time I pretend I am happy because I know my negativity will bring down others. But pretending really isn't getting me much of anywhere. But neither is being depressed. Nobody wants to listen to me. I don't even want to listen to me. I...
    CourtGatekeeper CourtGatekeeper 18-21, F Feb 22, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I can never bring myself to express my emotions

    or speak my mind, despite how much I trust someone. Even if I try to elaborate, I leave out the details that bother me the most or that I feel like caused me to be upset. Someone close to me hurt me with a comment they made yesterday about how I'm lazy and get special treatment...
    lacklongafter lacklongafter 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 28

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Lock It Up

    During middle school I started to notice I was becoming more and more inverted and shy. On the other hand my twin was becoming increasingly more outgoing and popular. He could talk to anyone. He is always so out going and open, he wears his heart on his sleeve. Ill always admire...
    BMBreal BMBreal 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Even when I feel that I should tell someone I

    can't because i think it's better if they don't worry about my problems...... And I'd just feel bad, better keeping things to myself then telling others :/
    mangadrawer12321 mangadrawer12321 13-15, F Feb 8

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Do.

    I never ever express any of my anger or sadness. I tend to ignore it all the time. I'll say to myself, I need to get over it and stop being such an idiot. I will never ask for help from someone to help me get through a really sh!tty stage in my life. I always think that someone...
    VaiinChick VaiinChick 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 11, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I do this quite a bit.

    I bottle up all of my thoughts and feelings inside me. I occasionally let them out to select people. Most of the time, I keep everything inside because it's hard for me to correctly express myself.
    Kairisheartless Kairisheartless 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 2

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Keeping Things Bottled Up Inside Is Not The Best Way To Go

    My way of handling life's situations has always been to deal with it internally. Mull it over. Think it through. Do research by reading books on related topics. I was never one to share my secrets with friends or relatives. The only time I have wavered from that policy is here on...
    neuilly neuilly 61-65, F 6 Responses Jan 28, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Can'T Trust

    I'm totally unable to trust people, including my mother and my partner of 21 years. I've been in therapy since the age of 12 and I've NEVER TRUSTED a therapist...I actually stopped therapy a few months back...it wasn't working! I don't know why I can't trust...but I can't even...
    indigofem1 indigofem1 46-50, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It Can Never Get Out

    nobody will be honest with me how telepathically gifted I am.  Well nearly nobody.  Only a few on ep here believe, which astounds me as they have no evidence to believe me.  I whisper secrets through thoughts to all those around me, yet when I confront them...
    Jacob1080David Jacob1080David 22-25, M May 14, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The Way I Feel

    Empty. lonely thats just 2 words that describe the way I am feeling. I've never been one to open up freely and talk about how I feel. Maybe thats just one of the reasons I am in the situation I am in now. I've never liked talking about having problems I've always just kept my...
    blackdiamond38 blackdiamond38 46-50, M 5 Responses Apr 22, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I never talk to people about my problems I'v

    always found I bottle things up
    Lisalocket1225 Lisalocket1225 18-21, F Mar 29

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It's hard to find the right pattern of words to

    describe how one feels, to explain reason for ones actions. It's hard to explain a belief, a meaning. It's said that when someone is down or unsettled they fill a void for that is all they have, there meaning and purpose to go foreword. I cannot find my meaning or place, and...
    fadedmind fadedmind 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    TheCunylinguist TheCunylinguist 41-45, F Mar 20

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'M 2 Different Persons, Inside The House Vs. Outside

    I can't be myself outside the house. for example, i dance and go crazy, almost to every music i hear. i talk, a lot, to the point that you can't shut me up. even if i don't have anything to say, i'll make something up, i'll say weird stuff, i'll talk to furniture around the house...
    Shamandora Shamandora 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 11, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Am Lonely

    I had nervous breakdown, but I cant talk to any one, , as they dont want to listen i am beside myself with panic, but people think I should be able to copoe with it, I live for the time when I can have my next tablet. I am a widow aged 77 and feel the whole world is against mme...
    sherborne sherborne 70+ Mar 19, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Think Its Better If I Do

    Keep it bottled up, cause honestly if i go around telling everyone how i feel.. i'd end up in a mental institution.Anyway, im a listener, not a talker. ( ;
    BeGentlex BeGentlex 16-17, F Jan 23, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Bottled Up Feelings...

    I have been bottling my feelings for so long, that I feel like it's going to burst one day. I have hatred on myself for being ugly. I have deep sadness, since my grandmother passed away. My best friend won't look at my face anymore. She has another friend. I have on-going...
    unknowninvisible unknowninvisible 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 11, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Nice Dream

    one night during my deep sleep, I dream LORD JESUS CHRIST, I SAW HIM walking in the sea shore, with people, but those people did not notice that he is JESUS CHRIST, because he disguise that he is one of those people spent there vacation, I run after him, then I called him, LORD...
    fuenkymallz fuenkymallz 46-50, F Oct 11, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Ok.. I Have A Question

    My husband is a friend with his ***** and he calls her at least 2 times a day.. Usually when I am at work..  He has even went so far as to hide the bill..  which is stupid because we can view it online..  Well  he talks to her anywhere from 30 minutes to 2...
    pokie4406 pokie4406 31-35, F 2 Responses May 22, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Aaaaaaaahhhhhhh! This is probably

    why I have anger issues O_O Hector: o_O...>_< Me*throws chair that direction* Hector*dodging barely* What the heck ~_~' Me: That chair had it coming for embarrassing at college! Hector: U pushed it in first ~_~ Me: I pushed it in for your mom O_O Hector: ~_~'
    SquirrellyChanLuvsAcorns83 SquirrellyChanLuvsAcorns83 18-21 Mar 29

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Too Much.

    I keep everything and anything deep inside in a room in my heart locked with billions of locks in the highest tower surrounded by so much **** so that it'll never come out. I can't show people I'm sad or aggetated or frustrated or deppressed because you know what? The truth is...
    FadedSecrets FadedSecrets 16-17, F Apr 18, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Im at the stage were i have

    so much bottled up that its hard for me to explain what i feel cause at times i just dont know how to put it into words im the sort of person that keeps things to meself things that can effect my mental and emotional health in the course im in there are 2 fellas that say things...
    stewartK14 stewartK14 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 15

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I swear one day I may just end up blowing up on

    some random person because I can't express how I feel or am feeling it really irritates me that I'm that weak >:(
    mangadrawer12321 mangadrawer12321 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 12

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm Like A Balloon

    I don't talk about things And people hate that I push people away Its what I do best I keep things in So that I don't bother others Even if they ask I won't tell Its my problem not theirs And in all honesty they don't care They just see a broken person So they ask questions...
    BrokenButStillFighting BrokenButStillFighting 18-21, F Dec 26, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Found The Corkscrew...

    One of my worst habits is keeping everything bottled up inside me. And I'm finally opening the lid and letting things out. It's like a plaster. When you rip it of it hurts but after a minute, it's like it never happened. Even if it's just writing it down, it's definitly working...
    OnMyTippeeToes OnMyTippeeToes 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 21, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It's not a healthy habit,

    but it seems that every time I try to speak my mind, or add my input into a conversation, I'm either interrupted or reprimanded. Especially by my mother.
    YesThisIsJenna YesThisIsJenna 16-17, F Feb 3

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Learned That It Was Safer To Wear A Mask

    Growing up, it was always safer not to show any emotion. I stuffed everything because I had no one to trust, no one to model appropriate social behavior, and no one knew. I never told anyone. I know that when I became an adult, my choices became MY responsibility, and I've...
    crowbaby crowbaby 56-60 Sep 14, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I know how you feel I do the same thing in my

    life I just keep things all bottled up it seems like no one really wants to take the time to listen to you or at least the love ones around you seems like everyone is always so busy with their lives!!!!!
    lilyjoy59 lilyjoy59 51-55, F Feb 1

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Numb

    I have to say that for a majority of my life I've bottled up all emotions. I don't let anyone see what is going on with me in fear of putting my 'burden' on the rest of society or to make others feel more comfortable. I've never been one to talk about what's going on with me and...
    AHG1011 AHG1011 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 22, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    A Dark Fog

    Maybe I just dont like to accept the fact I have feelings. At times I wish I felt nothing at all, and I do for a while. But I still feel something deep inside, so many things ive walked away from, feelings Ive ignored and left to rot inside my mind. They're still there, the...
    3501april 3501april 16-17, F Oct 24, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    This Is Why I Love Ep!!

    i always tend to keep things bottled up inside me, and i usually never tell anyone in real life, how im feeling, and if i have any problems, cos i dont want anyone to worry about me, cos im the youngest in my family, and everyone seems to worry about me more than anyone else in...
    cowshed123 cowshed123 31-35, M 1 Response May 23, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I feel like I'm going to explode today.

    .. I have so much I want to say but it won't come out right...
    sosieq sosieq 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 3

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm scared. I never reveal all of myself to

    anyone. I'm scared of how they'd react.
    RuthieAnja RuthieAnja 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 12

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Know I Shouldn't..

    But I do.. until I explode on a random day when that one last thing does it. I'll completely act as if someone died or something all because I let so many little things get to me.. but not show it until it becomes too much.. I did this alot a couple years ago.. that was...
    sasukesnumber1fan sasukesnumber1fan 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 11, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I've never been the type of person to express

    my feelings, if anything ... my emotions usually tend to show themselves through my facial expressions or how I act sometime. I never run to people to talk about how I feel, I just keep it all bottled up inside ... Until I can't take it anymore and all of my emotions hit me all...
    lovexMICKEY lovexMICKEY 18-21, F Jan 27

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Rarely...

    ....let my emotions known. I do keep everything bottled up inside of me. I know that's not a good thing, but its what I have always done.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 12, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I do, I know this not relevant,

    The frozen song- Let it go is exactly what i feel like and did. I pretended I was okay. I didn't care. I keep things. I have a really complicated life that Noone, NOONE knows about. I keep it to my self. Because I keep things bottled up I can be really moody and at school its...
    AliceReel AliceReel 13-15, F Jan 15

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm 15 and a half years old.

    I'm the eldest of 3 girls. 3 years before I was born my mum had a baby boy in Ireland with my Dad. She named him William. About a week after his birth, he passed away. My mums first child died whilst she was in a country she barely knew. Because my mum and dad weren't married...
    ForBetterOrForWorse ForBetterOrForWorse 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 22

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Not How I Appear

    Everyone's always thought of me as completely sure of myself, confident and happy with who i am. I always talk about how body image doesn't bother me, how little i care and everyone believes every word. I remember a couple of years ago someone told me that i was 'the only...
    username9696 username9696 16-17 1 Response Feb 5, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    This is currently killing me,

    yet I can't bring myself to tell anyone. Whenever I try, I shut myself up and change the subject, never even alluding to the issue again. I don't know why that happens but I really wish that I could stop.
    lacklongafter lacklongafter 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    I feel that if I let them out that I won't be able to handle it. Once in a very hard time in my life I did do that and it broke me! I lost who I was and everything about me in...
    browneyedgirl10 browneyedgirl10 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It sucks when you're ignored by the person whose attention is the only thing you want in the world. Ever since this girl first walked into our school, I couldn’t take my eyes...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm so afraid of Hurting other people...of having anyone worry about me, especially my mom, that I keep everything In. I know she has anxiety and mild OCD tendencies because of the...
    HopefullRomantic HopefullRomantic 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My sugar coating needs sugar coating. My bluntness makes me a love or hate person, but I will be honest. I try not to be unnecessarily rude, but quite honestly the rude boundary...
    Twichl Twichl 18-21, F Apr 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm in a losing battle with my mind. I over think things way too much. I have a problem staying focus on daily task. Because I over think things I've messed up relationship.
    BrittTHart BrittTHart 26-30, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've always been the kind of person to bottle things up. I have never really had a close friend I could tell everything to. For all the people out there who may feel lost or just...
    loveyourself22 loveyourself22 16-17, F Apr 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    1. I keep myself occupied all day 2. I'll rarely feel bored at all 3. I'm obsessed with abs workouts 4. I love metal music (a lot) including hiphop and R&B 5. I love geography 6...
    s3renity s3renity 16-17, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I just keep my feelings to myself it's a bad habit, I'm the type of person who loves to make other's feel comfortable around me. I learned early that people don't really want to...
    PixieLeah PixieLeah 41-45 1 Response Apr 8