I Keep Thinking I Don't Deserve This

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    I KNOW I don't deserve this.

    .. I don't deserve these flashbacks, nor did I deserve the abuse. I just want these stupid flashbacks to be gone. I can't deal with them anymore! I wish she never introduced me to him. I wish I walked away sooner. I just don't deserve this... Please go away...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart
    22-25, F
    Mar 31, 2015

    I Am a Good Person!

    I have gotten that intuition we often get as women alot lately.  My boyfriend has changed in many ways and is no longer the man I intend to marry!  I have gathered some evidence together but since he is a lawyer I have been very careful in my endeavors.  I have...
    Ttribeye Ttribeye
    2 Responses Jul 14, 2008

    I've been battling depression

    for years and I blame everything on myself. I keep thinking I don't deserve the precious gift of life. It should be given to someone who takes advantage of it
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333
    18-21, F
    Mar 31, 2015

    I Don't Deserve Abuse From People

    and I am sick of it really. I know I deserve a better life. and if I want abuse like S&M or some other fetish that is for me and one other person only not all and assundry like the film group seemed to think.
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    Apr 16, 2011

    B/c I know I don't...

    I deserve to be happy.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 17, 2015

    Why does it seem that everything in my life

    went to hell right after I made a vow to be a better person? The more honest & sincere I try to be, the crappier I get treated? I ***** and complain about it, but I still try my damnest.
    Lonesmwolf Lonesmwolf
    46-50, M
    1 Response Mar 30, 2015

    i think that's the thought

    that is always in the back of my mind.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Mar 30, 2015

    My Wife Focuses On Me More Than I Do Her.

     I try to focus on her and do things that would make her happy in everything I do. Yes; I fail and repeat daily.  I do not deserbe her but I thank God for her daily. I pray for the strength and guidance to do things that will make her enjoy me being in her life. I still...
    Snookybear Snookybear
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Jan 30, 2010

    Hey guys I don't feel like I deserve anything

    like for example my boyfriend and I just broke up with me not long ago and I keep thinking to myself I don't deserve any of this
    christinaxxxxx christinaxxxxx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2015

    I'm Trying To Improve

    Every time something good happens to me, I am overwhelmed by feelings of guilt, like I don't deserve the good things. I am trying to stop thinking that way, because it isn't healthy, but it's somehow ingrained in me to feel undeserving.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Mar 6, 2010
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