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    I graduated from high school two years ago

    and it felt like my life went crashing down sideways. I've always had problems with focusing in school because of my ADD and I've had issues with anxiety, but the few weeks I attended at community college I feel into a deep depression and my anxiety skyrocketed. I ended up being...
    KellerKing13 KellerKing13 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 4

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    Samousse Samousse 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 13

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    I'm Already Sorry I Wrote This.

    Fair warning to the few of you cherished fans and friends who actually look for some sort of coherence from me: this is a brain dump, and may not actually make any sense at all.I want to learn how to trust again. I don't feel like I can be in any relationship with anyone that...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 10 Responses Mar 26, 2012

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    One moment, I can tell you every thing about me.

    Untold to many people, uncut, uncensored and unedited. You'll learn my secrets and see the vulnerability. But.... When I feel too overwhelmed by the emotions caused by certain circumstances, I fake it, even if I suck at doing so. I hide that overwhelming emotions. I divert...
    23rdcamp 23rdcamp 66-70 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I really love this app.

    I'm so thankful I found it. Really good & awesome people on here that take time of their day to let you know that you aren't alone. This is awesome. I appreciate it.
    Giselle1231 Giselle1231 22-25, F 2 Responses May 25

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    there are things about me

    that no one knows.... it's almost as if I live a double life... I want to tell someone ... yet I don't want to be judged or have people micro managing me after they find out.... goshhh
    cherBearCJ cherBearCJ 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I feel like I'm slowly losing the ability to

    properly communicate with friends and family. Even this account is unknown to any of them. I opened it to try to write and not feel judged, like some form of self therapy?....And it's like after what happened with my ex, all I've done is shut myself out somehow....Every day more...
    Xylo30 Xylo30 26-30, F 14 Responses Jun 12

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    LookingForYou89 LookingForYou89 26-30, F 6 Responses Jun 2

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    i keep so many things to myself

    because i dont trust anyone but my wife, and people like to take what they heard and use it against you later on theres always someone out to cause me drama
    anthinem303 anthinem303 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    I actually hate keeping things to myself.

    Most of the time I want to tell everyone the truth about all the secrets I keep- depression, self-harm, etc.- because when I keep quiet about everything it builds up inside me until I'm on the verge of exploding. But I can't tell anyone any of it, because I need to be self...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    normally the best thing

    for me is not to speak to anyone about stuff....they either judge me or just give me crap about anything I say.....or they tell everyone ....that's why things r better kept to my self...and sometimes it sucks cause I don't know wat to do or how I should handle the situations :/
    Rae203466 Rae203466 16-17, F 8 Responses 6 days ago

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    Just looking for a genuine girl mate to talk to.

    ....had too many bitchy girl mates that treated me crap! Just want someone who's similar to me
    2sophia2 2sophia2 22-25, F 11 hrs ago

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    There are many reasons

    that I keep things to myself. the #1 reason being that the majority of the world just doesn't give a ****. The few who do give a **** would leave me if I did tell them what I'm thinking. So there really is just no reason to talk. Unless spoken to. And then I say just enough...
    GirlEnigma GirlEnigma 41-45, F 5 Responses Jan 23

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    There are two rules for success.

    ..: 1- Never reveal everything you know
    maxifel maxifel 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 21, 2014

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    You call me ur friend

    when all you do is look down at me? You call me your friend when only I am the one giving but not receiving? You call me your friend when all you want is steal all of my other friends, even my job? You call me your friend when you are slowly taking everything from me?
    Meow1121 Meow1121 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 19

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    It may all be in my head All the things

    that I see All the voices that I hear Telling me to let go and to never look back Making me feel like I've done something wrong I didn't realize how much trouble you could've possibly caused me I didn't realize that you would make me feel such a way like no one ever has It...
    aaronsevenseven aaronsevenseven 13-15, M Jul 13

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    if I didn't keep almost all these things to

    myself I could've been happier now or hospitalized for saying all of what I've held back saying before
    mechanicman96 mechanicman96 36-40, M 3 Responses Jun 28

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    All this while i kept my feeling towards you.

    .. Now, u become someone's special. I regret that i did not make the first move. I guess there is no right nor wrong for a girl to make the first move so that the one that she admired for so long will not be taken by others.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 14

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    It is kinda expected.

    When a person asks how you are do they really expect the truth? Not really.. More of a "I'm good" response. People really don't want to know, so you keep it to yourself. How many secrets do we all hold? Infinite amounts.
    jrf9782 jrf9782 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 11

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    Giving a person second changes doesn't always

    make them change! They have to want to change In order to change
    kdelgado57 kdelgado57 18-21, F Jul 16

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    But thank you to the people

    who are patient enough with me to help me feel comfortable in my own skin. Thank you to those friends who I can now easily say anything to.
    RealisticSmile RealisticSmile 13-15, F Jul 22

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    I feel like I have lost myself in my thoughts.

    I really want to talk to someone share what's in my mind but I can't. I want someone to understand my life my choices without having an opinion without judging. Sometimes I just want to explode I can't handle it anymore but I literally have no one that I can trust and most...
    Tofi786 Tofi786 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 23

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    PinksTheNewBlack PinksTheNewBlack 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 12

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    I wish I could be more open about my feelings

    and thoughts but I can't. I guess I care way too much about what other people think and that sucks.
    chelly0k chelly0k 18-21, F 6 Responses May 21

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    I dont even know where to start.

    When I was young I know im different from other kids. I was more mature and kept things to myself instead of crying and ask for what I need/want. I was/am totally antisocial. Whenever I was in a party or a group of friends I usually just stay quiet and listen to people talk...
    Meow1121 Meow1121 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    aterribleneed aterribleneed 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    My Heart "I wanna say what my soul is singing.

    .....I wanna say what my heart is screaming"
    VelcroB VelcroB 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 10

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    I'm just f****** lonely I think I pushed to

    many people away from me because I feel misunderstood and because of that the only friend I have is GOD.
    kevingreen88 kevingreen88 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 12

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 21

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    I am the kind of girl

    that keeps everything to her self and hide it with an smile . This is because I am scare that people will use it against me or hurt me and so I just keep it to myself I normally just write it in a journal all of my thoughts and keep it under my bed so I can write everything down...
    ternat567 ternat567 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    i wish to apply this one "Never allow someone

    to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option”
    KAREEM77 KAREEM77 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 25, 2014

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    I was born into a world I do not identify with.

    I don't feel any sense of belonging to my family, social group, racial group, country, or even the world. I have an inner stormy battle about this as I am always out of place. Expressing these feelings leads to conflict with people I tell. They do not understand what I am going...
    SoulCoffee SoulCoffee 26-30, M 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    anshaw anshaw 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    Anger is not an emotion

    that I show often despite the rage that is in me. This results in psychosomatic symptoms. I wake up nearly everyday wanting to scream at the top of my lungs "When is this going to end?" due to the neck, back and shoulder pain that I experience daily due to my severe depression...
    asianpartsincluded asianpartsincluded 31-35 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I hold in my feeling

    because I feel like I have to be strong for everyone else, because I don't want to be earmark be I know I'm weak. I can keep all of this up all the time. Just recently I've had a break down and I was by myself. I was breathing hard and keep mumbling that I was a horrible person...
    BecomingBrave BecomingBrave 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I tend to just swallow my emotions

    and I've definitely never been a big fan of talking about how I feel. This site has become a spot where I feel I can unload some of those feelings...whether this is a healthy practice remains to be seen.
    Bumblelion Bumblelion 31-35, M 4 Responses Mar 11

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    It's kinda hard for me to talk about stuff.

    It never really seems like a big deal to just keep it in. I'm an introvert so it's not like a feel the need to release my thoughts to someone. However, sometimes I feel like I just get weighed down with the burden and eventually it crushes me and I just vent it all out. It's...
    dev10251 dev10251 18-21, M 5 Responses Mar 2

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    I can never express myself.

    pretty much any sad emotion I feel, I keep to myself...which has only messed with my head a bit.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 5

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    War doesn't decide who is right .

    ...just who is left!
    5chuck6 5chuck6 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 2

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    My heart breaks for someone

    who was never mine.
    sleonard777 sleonard777 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2014

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    I've planned my wedding

    and baby showers. I have never told anyone this, but I have been planning my wedding and baby showers, and nursery design plans (one for a girl and one for a boy) for years now. I regularly go online (pinterest mostly) and fantasize about what my wedding and baby's rooms/showers...
    kristabug80 kristabug80 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    Hahaha lately I think I'm not keeping enough

    things to myself....oh well
    VaultHunter VaultHunter 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 21

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    Who am I thinking about you Who am I missing

    you I don't want to wake up with you nowhere to be found I'm looking out my window thinking where on earth you could be It seems like you're dead and gone from this painful world Theirs nothing I can do but keep moving on Did you go where you've always wanted To the place...
    aaronsevenseven aaronsevenseven 13-15, M Jul 12

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    I wish I could trust someone enough to tell

    everything to. But there's no one worthy of that...
    clearmymind clearmymind 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    It makes me sad that I can open up to strangers

    easier than I can open up to the people who are close to me. With them, I keep everything inside.
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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