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    Does anyone ever feel

    that life literally just hates you?
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 1, 2015

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    This is my childhood problem.

    . I keep a lot of things to myself
    Amnik Amnik 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 22

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    I really want to kill myself.

    My life is going on horribly. My mother has psychotic depression, she has been on an affair for 9 years & has just recently stopped after being diagnosed with psychotic depression, & we aren't the wealthiest family out there. My dad use to be a gambler. I'm labeled as stupid in...
    mangoseed mangoseed 18-21, F 13 Responses Aug 22, 2015

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    I don't know how to tell people what's wrong

    or what's going on inside my head. The thoughts loop round continuously and I can't say the words in case they are wrong.
    Princessbran Princessbran 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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    This is something I'm working - I'm trying to

    open up to my loved ones more and I'm currently seeing a therapist. But, still, I have a bad habit of keeping things to myself. This habit started as a way to keep the peace in my house. My parents had a lot going on and I didn't want to worry them, so I kept my problems to...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2015

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    Daddysprincess14 Daddysprincess14 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 31, 2015

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    most people that know me will tell you I don't

    open up a lot. I keep everything bottled up on the inside and then the more I hold in the hard it gets. I end up breaking finally and make myself talk. My best friend Sara even says I keep to much in.
    PinkyChristina PinkyChristina 13-15, F Dec 26, 2015

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    i always think that there are far more

    important things to talk about other than whats in my head or that may problem is not really a big deal so I ended up keeping it all in to myself. I always thought that people won't really understand or care on what I really feel.
    aloisad aloisad 22-25, F 8 Responses Jan 21

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    It's kinda hard for me to talk about stuff.

    It never really seems like a big deal to just keep it in. I'm an introvert so it's not like a feel the need to release my thoughts to someone. However, sometimes I feel like I just get weighed down with the burden and eventually it crushes me and I just vent it all out. It's...
    dev10251 dev10251 18-21, M 5 Responses Mar 2, 2015

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    Had too much to drink tonight

    but enjoyed being with family and friends at a fantastic concert. However, I wanted to take my oldest friend aside and say," Do you know how ****** up I am? Can you save me from myself?" I feel like my emotions will split me into two halves. I want to feel normal. Whole. Is that...
    Iratelibrarian Iratelibrarian 46-50, F 3 Responses Oct 9, 2015

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    My heart breaks for someone

    who was never mine.
    sleonard777 sleonard777 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2014

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    I feel like a powder keg that's ready to

    explode. I can't keep keeping all these feelings and emotions bottled up inside. It's eating away at me. I've gotten so good at shrugging things off and pretending I don't care when inside I'm screaming and crying. I'm so tired of being strong and just taking it. I'm tired of...
    lexxrodriguezz lexxrodriguezz 18-21, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    normally the best thing

    for me is not to speak to anyone about stuff....they either judge me or just give me crap about anything I say.....or they tell everyone ....that's why things r better kept to my self...and sometimes it sucks cause I don't know wat to do or how I should handle the situations :/
    raythedragon raythedragon 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 24, 2015

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    Anyone ever feel like their at the top of a

    mountain and no matter how loud you scream no one would hear you? That's how I feel.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Aug 30, 2015

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    like how I am really dealing with everything

    and how hard it is day in and day out to keep smiling and laughing and joking and putting on a brave face. like the tears that no one ever sees or hears about because I dont know what to do or how to get thru the night again. the tears filled with fear and pain. like how i only...
    lilbit33 lilbit33 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 5

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    I really love this app.

    I'm so thankful I found it. Really good & awesome people on here that take time of their day to let you know that you aren't alone. This is awesome. I appreciate it.
    Giselle1231 Giselle1231 22-25, F 1 Response May 25, 2015

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    Each scar that has healed over my torn flesh is

    mine. No one else’s. Many by my own hand. Most hidden beneath the skin. But why do so many insignificant of happening bother me to the most hidden depths? A well-intended remark followed by the slightest sign of displeasure from its recipient, a thoughtless comment causing to...
    SeekingMyUnkown SeekingMyUnkown 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    c: its not my fault..

    .lol i lost the ******* key...so i guess it is my fault...oops
    Fool1233 Fool1233 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    sykys sykys 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 28, 2015

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    I keep too many things to myself

    and then i get overwhelmed.
    superkates superkates 26-30, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    if I didn't keep almost all these things to

    myself I could've been happier now or hospitalized for saying all of what I've held back saying before
    mechanicman96 mechanicman96 36-40, M 3 Responses Jun 28, 2015

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    queenayanna queenayanna 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 27

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    I keep most things to myself

    because I feel like people just don't really care for the most part other than getting a thrill from hearing about my problems or concerns.
    xxfallenangel xxfallenangel 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 7

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    I don't know where to start,

    so maybe I'll start with the experience that made me keep all my feelings to myself. My dad died in a car accident when I was 12. I have two older sisters, but I felt like it was my responsibility to be "the toughest guy" in the family. So I told myself that I wouldn't cry to...
    samcio93 samcio93 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I'm seriously over my life!

    I mean I'm not suicidal or anything but I really need a break from life before it does kill me. Why does nothing ever go right?
    rachelb722 rachelb722 31-35, F 12 Responses Aug 18, 2015

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    LookingForYou89 LookingForYou89 26-30, F 5 Responses Jun 2, 2015

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    Pen pressed firmly against ghost white paper

    for months now. No words jotted down and no prose poetry written. I am still waiting. Waiting to turn your death into a breathing work of art or a beautiful compilation of enough metaphors to describe the peace you felt "when God called you home". I've realized today that its...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 11 Responses Oct 11, 2015

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    RoseThailand RoseThailand 51-55, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    Sometimes I don't feel i have friends.

    I mean i have few but i'm not sure if they are real ones and i often feel alone :(
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 5, 2015

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    I actually hate keeping things to myself.

    Most of the time I want to tell everyone the truth about all the secrets I keep- depression, self-harm, etc.- because when I keep quiet about everything it builds up inside me until I'm on the verge of exploding. But I can't tell anyone any of it, because I need to be self...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    this has been on my mind

    for a while now for some reason i think my mom thinks im pregnant but im still a virgin even though i am a virgin if this ever happened to where i get pregnant at my young age of 18 im going to keep it!!! just because i wasnt careful doesnt mean the baby has to pay for it and i...
    Eroticwriter34 Eroticwriter34 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 3, 2015

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    I have a special needs step son

    who is 15, he wears my patience till I have none. His special needs are ADHD, oppositional defiant order, conduct disorder, low IQ. He will listen to his father & jump at the word go, but I believe he purposely does things to **** me off. I find myself hating him at times & I...
    canwetawk canwetawk 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 27, 2015

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    Why am I feeling that we're drifting off/apart?

    It feels like someone is losing interest. I'm not sure who. It's not like before...I'm not sure what it is. Is it just me or is this the start of my fear? This friendship is supposed to be forever or are we fools to believe in such a thing. My fear of just losing someone so dear...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I can’t explain myself

    but i think I’m caring, loving, and lil bit sensitive. When people meet me, at the very first sight thy think I’m so innocent n it’s true. I have some limitations in my life n i can’t break them. I can never trust one who fooled me once. Since I gave up hope I feel much...
    luckyshah luckyshah 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    what else can you do,

    seems like everyday I lose trust in another person. Atleast by keep it to your self, you can keep from hurting yourself again.
    iEmperorking iEmperorking 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    browneyez88 browneyez88 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I've always kept things inside me.

    bottled up deep down. but getting things out even as little as saying this here on EP makes me feel a little better. makes me feel like a new me.
    TimeUnfolds TimeUnfolds 31-35, M 6 Responses Jan 28

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    It's hard to open up to certain people

    who couldn't give a damn about what you have say even when your feelings are involved. Constantly I give my sacrifices only for the happiness for the other people in my life. There's times where I want to express how I feel but they wouldn't care for a second always looking out...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 22

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    So let's say your daughters boyfriend likes to

    be with me ( her mother) than her! I know he flirts cuz he plays little games like messing with me. I would never ever act on it or Allow any shady **** to happen. I live upstairs he always comes up when I'm in the middle of changing . He says hurry up and come downstairs to...
    Aquarianbeauty Aquarianbeauty 41-45, F 10 Responses Sep 29, 2015

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    I have to keep things to myself

    as trust has been broken over the years. plus I've never come across anyone as open as me. I think I be better off opening up but can't quite find enough trust in people.
    Leylandlad Leylandlad 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 26, 2015

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    I wish I could be more open about my feelings

    and thoughts but I can't. I guess I care way too much about what other people think and that sucks.
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 21, 2015

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    I tend to bottle up a lot of my emotions

    and thoughts because I'm afraid of feeling alienated. I've always been weird growing up and seemed to constantly manage to say the wrong thing. When I was a teenager, I would be quiet out of fear of saying something embarrassing until I felt like I wouldn't be judged. Even then...
    JungDeviant JungDeviant 22-25, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    I can never express myself.

    pretty much any sad emotion I feel, I keep to myself...which has only messed with my head a bit.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 5, 2015

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    when I was 18 I had my first child.

    he was born premature and spent the first 6 months on neonatal unit. doctors didn't expect him to survive his first week but he proved them all wrong and came home at 6 months old. I became his full time carer as he had many health problems and every day was a struggle to help...
    missusgibb missusgibb 26-30, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Sucks when you want someone to talk to

    but the people you can talk to don't care to hear it.. When they can do whatever they want with no problem but whatever you do is always a problem..
    EternityF EternityF 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 28

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