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I Keep Too Many Things to Myself

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    Life sucks the life of you.

    God I really need someone to talk to. It's like I can't breathe anymore. ~Tye
    tyeotic tyeotic 16-17, T 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Here Are My "secrets"

    Since nobody I'm referring to can read this (hopefully), I'm going to list the things that I've been keeping to myself. Dad, I still don't know why you abandoned me ten years ago and started a new family for yourself. You moved across the country and I never hear from you, so...
    lostinwunderland lostinwunderland 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 30, 2011

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    It’s like you’re screaming,

    but no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important, that without them you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. And when it’s over and it’s gone, you almost wish that you...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 1 Response May 30

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    I always have feels that I never tell anyone.

    Which isn't always a good thing. I wish I could b more open with the ppl closest to me but I feels very vulnerable to talk about my deepest most upsetting feeling. I keep everything bottled up.
    ashleybos ashleybos 26-30, F Nov 13

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    My mind goes blank when I'm asked what I'm

    thinking about.. even when I'm lost in deep thought... maybe I'm just trying to defend myself from people I belive will never understand
    nessa8a nessa8a 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 21

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    Sometimes I want to share my life

    and my thoughts with friends or family members, but I don't think they really understand me. I am really sensitive and every time I try to share anything with anyone I just get criticized and I just end up feeling stupid and dumb.
    Cristal0330 Cristal0330 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 18

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    I keep all of my feelings to myself.

    .I have friends and all but no one wants to listen to what I have to say...I'm a loner for all my life
    piercethesummer piercethesummer 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 5

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    When I was young, my interests were

    so ridiculous because I focused only on myself and neglected others.. now I think I have better views, interests and goals… as I changed my life and care also about others
    KA1977 KA1977 36-40, M 2 Responses Nov 11

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    I think too much bout things,

    and end up keeping them to myself knowing that if I talk it to someone it's gonna help me but I don't! Because I care bout someone's name getting spoilt. But at the end of the day it's me who keeps crying. And keeps getting hurt. Not physically obviously but mentally!
    heenachaudhari heenachaudhari 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 7

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    I sometimes feel bad about being bisexual,

    especially since a lot of people don't think it exists. I am full proof that it does. =)
    JuleSinger JuleSinger 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    One of my friends tell me I have too many

    secrets, honestly not really. I've just never been able to trust someone enough to let them in on my life. I'm outgoing, the thing is people underestimate me. They look at me and assume my exterior is all there is. Still waters run deep, if you want to get to know me then by all...
    RainHailOrShine RainHailOrShine 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 3

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    Too Much

    I like to think of myself as an open person but that's only true partially.  All people mask themselves in some ways and only reveal what they want to about themselves.  But I know there are a lot of things that I feel guilty about that are really not that big of a deal...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 4 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    Sometimes life becomes too much

    for me to handle and it's easier to view myself and others as objects. Mostly myself. If I am just an object, nothing matters. I can drink all I want. Do all the drugs I want. I can stay in my stupor and never come out. If I exist to be pretty, to please boys, and it doesn't go...
    neverlandgirl22 neverlandgirl22 22-25, F Nov 7

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    My Heart "I wanna say what my soul is singing.

    .....I wanna say what my heart is screaming"
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 2

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    urgh. slinging mud in public.

    insecure people tend to love doing this. they live through crowd's energy, they feed on them. well, people didn't know the exact situation, there will be always be one party who loves to speak up. and watching the crowd supporting them is a sense of security to them. arrogance...
    DNightTrain DNightTrain 26-30, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Tonight after working my normal 13 hour shift

    in a free-standing ER, I can't help but to think of the lives lost. The first was a 5 wk old whose Father stated was holding the patient when he stopped breathing. The second a 58 yo male with significant cardiac history whose wife witnessed the arrest. While lying awake in my...
    IFOS125 IFOS125 22-25, F Nov 17

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    I really just want to die.

    I've been fantasizing about it all day. I haven't been this way in a long time. I just can't handle it anymore.
    hamletesque hamletesque 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 19

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    This is hard for me .

    .. Opening up.. This is the first step, but I need encouragement. Interested in meeting new people
    kayl27 kayl27 26-30, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Off My Chest

    If you want to say you are a good friend or lover to someone you actually have to put forth a small effort to be one. Which often times may not be convenient. A friend or lover in need may not live next door, there maybe some distance, consider this when choosing a dear friend...
    Freestanding Freestanding 51-55, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    I'm experiencing severe stress in my 14 year

    marriage. On the outside it looks picture perfect. On the inside it is ugly, dark,stressful,unhappiness,unfulfilling and so many other things. There are good days but at the present time it is on the ROCKS. I'm strongly thinking about calling it quits. My husband and I were in...
    realife123 realife123 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 8

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    There are two rules for success.

    ..: 1- Never reveal everything you know
    maxifel maxifel 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    i wish to apply this one "Never allow someone

    to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option”
    KA1977 KA1977 36-40, M 3 days ago

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    I've been through so many experiences I

    rather just bottle up because of trust issues. I don't believe there's anyone worry enough to keep stuff. I can't express things because I just got used to the pain.
    dianaaasuckss dianaaasuckss 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 10

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    A Story About My Older Cousin.

    ...This is very strange to share, but i'll say it. When I was younger my cousin came over to play. My older sister was there and me and my cousin were just fooling around just having fun. He's older then me by a year, in fact his birthday is the day after mine.(weird rite?) We...
    Animecrazyluv Animecrazyluv 16-17, F 9 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    I have these fear that no one will ever

    understand me. i try so hard to make people understand but it seems like they're not listening. I get so lonely that I cry to sleep and I just cannot find the strength to stand up and I'm scared. Why do I feel constant ache and it wont go away. I still wake up everyday like I'm...
    vashee vashee 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 8

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    I find it incredibly difficult to open up to

    people, especially lately because everyone I've ever been close to has left. Now I just keep the majority of my thoughts and feelings to myself because I'm not good at expressing my feelings and I'm afraid people won't understand the way I think. I feel almost disconnected from...
    hollylynn91 hollylynn91 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    I really miss my mom.

    .. She passed 6 months ago. It hurts so badly,my grandmother passed a year ago and my dad died nine years ago. I'm an only child. I often wished I had brothers and sisters... I feel like my family is wiped out. Oh mama I miss you so.
    Von7 Von7 26-30, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've just learned to do this over time

    because it's my experience that nobody REALLY cares. They are just looking for that break in the conversation to tell THEIR story. Which is cool... I'm a listener but in turn a lot of things are internalized. PLUS I feel like at the end of the day no one can actually CHANGE...
    DreamerByNature DreamerByNature 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 5

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    Antiquated Torment

    Where children once played now rang out with a deafening silence that made my ears hurt. Studying was replaced with funeral arrangements, phone calls, tidying the house and making sure everyone’s Sunday best was clean and ironed. Everyone around me was either unsure of what...
    SecretBrokenDoll SecretBrokenDoll 36-40, F 5 Responses Jan 22, 2012

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    If you could recognise me from my little words,

    or the sound of my laughter, or the way i think..what makes you think that i wouldn't realise that it was you? Didn't it ever cross yr mind that i recognised you just the way as you never failed to recognise me? How easy... And i would never do the same thing as you did. I...
    DNightTrain DNightTrain 26-30, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm not the one to openly tell people how I feel

    unless your a close friend or my family. As I've seen friends and close people come and go I've learned that the depths of your mind and your thoughts can be your best friend in the worst times
    GodlySmith GodlySmith 16-17, M Jan 14

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    I'm an adrenaline junky

    and live to push myself to the edge sometimes. I love to drive way to fast. The crazy thing is, you wouldn't believe it by your first impression of me and not even your last either. ;)
    Sheismybestfriend Sheismybestfriend 31-35, M 4 days ago

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    I'm Already Sorry I Wrote This.

    Fair warning to the few of you cherished fans and friends who actually look for some sort of coherence from me: this is a brain dump, and may not actually make any sense at all.I want to learn how to trust again. I don't feel like I can be in any relationship with anyone that...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 11 Responses Mar 26, 2012

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    I guess I must have looked like I needed a hug

    tonight because when I dropped my daughter's car off at the mechanics shop, the mechanic hugged me real big.
    JustConnie JustConnie 36-40, F Nov 13

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    I prefer to be alone

    than to be with a group of people and I prefer to keep it with myself because I know that no one else can judge me. Ouch!
    Mariangabalon Mariangabalon 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 19

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    Hey I really need some advice,

    I am devastated. I'm 17, my bf is 19. We've been together for almost 6 months now. The thing is that before being with my current boyfriend I was in a long distance relationship and decided to end it because I really started to like the new guy. Well the thing is that at the...
    silentRegard silentRegard 16-17, F 6 Responses Nov 5

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    Good Vibrations

    I feel pretty darn good today! So Im sending you my good vibes::::::: ❤💖💙💕❤💞💘💛💛💓💕 Enjoy!
    LaBebe LaBebe 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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    Hey!

    Hey,I am someone that has a passion for helping people. I am a great help to many people, if anyone wants to talk to me about anything I am hear and will talk to you, and maybe help! Your never alone, I think it is important that you let it out whatever you problem maybe...
    HannahSDavis HannahSDavis 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    I act like I don't care about my appearance,

    but I also make myself throw up after I eat ice cream.
    SunshineOverClouds SunshineOverClouds 26-30, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I battle my depression with my fist literally

    would punch trees to relive stress just thought I'd throw that out there
    draze draze 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 10

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    It makes me sad that I can open up to strangers

    easier than I can open up to the people who are close to me. With them, I keep everything inside.
    JustConnie JustConnie 36-40, F 6 Responses Nov 4

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    Rambes Rambes 16-17, M 3 Responses Nov 11

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    I keep many things to myself

    because Im scared that if people find out that they will think of my differently. I hurts because it like you have so much weight on your chest.That you wish you can get rid of and when you think everything the memories of the past. You just Break down wishing that someone can...
    zoeyflower zoeyflower 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 9

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    I have big decisions to make.

    ..none of them easy. How far does love carry you before circumstances are too much to handle. I guess when that moment comes I will know.
    JustConnie JustConnie 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 7

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    I keep toooo many things to myself.

    .am kinda an iceberg..so even when i feel awful and i want to talk about it i just can't.. i can swear i haven't had an honest long conversation about how i feel with anyone before..never..i always put barriers in my relationships and i started to hate it.. i need to master...
    trytrytry2 trytrytry2 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 15

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    I have always kept to many things to myself.

    No one has always been there for me. I have been there for other people, but it seems like when I need someone they are not there for me. I not that vey open minded in person, but when I type or text I do. I don't let a lot of my feelings out I just hold them in. When something...
    dimplesgirl17 dimplesgirl17 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 15

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    Breach

    And deep in the night When the soul stirs alone, She thinks of the beasts Who got her alone. Though profound the pain Of the ones that betrayed, She’s reminded of her win Each Christmas Eve day. The win where she learned Just how much she wasn’t loved; How much she had...
    SecretBrokenDoll SecretBrokenDoll 36-40, F 7 Responses Jan 22, 2012

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    My interpretation of my husband: Emotionally

    cut off from me Losing interest in things you care about Have a hard time relating to and getting along with me Drink occasionally without celebration Pulling away from me PSSD AND YOU NEED TO ACCEPT HELP!
    IFOS125 IFOS125 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    i feel very unsupported at work

    and on a treadmill i am not happy living. and no i do not know how i can change my treadmill. win lotto and run away shud do it.!
    ennaoj05 ennaoj05 36-40 1 Response Nov 6

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    Opening Up...

    I have always been one of those people who keeps a lot of things to myself. Call it stupidity, me being insular, whatever.....I just have difficulty sharing some things with other people. At one time there are so many things in my head that I tend to compartmentalise and share...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    To some this question will seem to have an easy

    answer but for me, it's really hard. How do you ask for help or share your feelings? I feel like I am always the one that lends the shoulder to cry on, the ear for listening or the outlet for others to vent. The problem is, I can't seem to bring myself to ask for the same in...
    honestme77 honestme77 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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