I Keep Too Many Things to Myself

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    My heart breaks for someone

    who was never mine.
    sleonard777 sleonard777
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Nov 29, 2014

    I want my man :(( he'll be caring

    and caress my neck and all of those stuff
    vivianescrooge vivianescrooge
    22-25
    1 Response Apr 1

    A lot of things have happened

    for the past weeks. Ups and downs. Me coming at peace with love/loving you, then the meet up with that mysterious guy ??-my long awaited Soulmate.. Then coming clean about this side of me that noone else in my real life knows about, not even H/mom. I havent made up my mind...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Mar 27

    Had too much to drink tonight

    but enjoyed being with family and friends at a fantastic concert. However, I wanted to take my oldest friend aside and say," Do you know how ****** up I am? Can you save me from myself?" I feel like my emotions will split me into two halves. I want to feel normal. Whole. Is that...
    Iratelibrarian Iratelibrarian
    46-50, F
    4 Responses Oct 9, 2015

    I really love this app.

    I'm so thankful I found it. Really good & awesome people on here that take time of their day to let you know that you aren't alone. This is awesome. I appreciate it.
    Giselle1231 Giselle1231
    22-25, F
    May 25, 2015

    how bad it is to like

    or to fall in love to a married man? he is married legally but been separated and he and his wife not living together anymore. what to do? he confessed his love on me and doesn't want to lose me. should I let him go? I value moral and God's law but loving him distruct my belief...
    icedwithin17 icedwithin17
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Feb 21

    I miss him so much...

    .but no, I won't say a word after what he did. he is ignoring me after telling me "I talk a lot" without telling me what I did wrong or have said. he doesn't love me.
    icedwithin17 icedwithin17
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 28

    I actually hate keeping things to myself.

    Most of the time I want to tell everyone the truth about all the secrets I keep- depression, self-harm, etc.- because when I keep quiet about everything it builds up inside me until I'm on the verge of exploding. But I can't tell anyone any of it, because I need to be self...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21
    13-15, F
    6 Responses Dec 17, 2014

    I'm probably gonna get hate

    for this...but I'm at a loss...please no rude remarks. I've been talking to this guy that I've know for many, many years. We started talking on Snapchat, went to texting, and now phone calls. He has a girlfriend, they have a child together. He has been having a lot of trouble...
    boppysgirl boppysgirl
    13-15, F
    6 Responses Apr 12

    I can never express myself.

    pretty much any sad emotion I feel, I keep to myself...which has only messed with my head a bit.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jul 5, 2015

    When ever someone asks me

    if I am ok at school or home I say yes even though most of the time I am dying.
    Lou0409 Lou0409
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Feb 26

    War doesn't decide who is right .

    ...just who is left!
    5chuck6 5chuck6
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jun 2, 2015

    I have always had this problem.

    not speaking out against some atrocities, hiding them, pretending my life in different settings or conditions, my fantasy life. I've lived inside my imagination for as long as I can remember. my mind is my safe place. I can be what I want to be. I live in the real world but I...
    msrbull msrbull
    56-60, F
    1 Response Mar 8

    there's nobody to rely on except yourself.

    Yeah maybe you want someone to listen to your woes, anguish,or whatever emotions you have; but at the end of the day you will be left alone. there maybe your family or friends but no matter what they advise you to do the decision will still be up to you. just my opinion.
    icedwithin17 icedwithin17
    26-30, F
    7 Responses Apr 23, 2015

    Anyone ever feel like their at the top of a

    mountain and no matter how loud you scream no one would hear you? That's how I feel.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Aug 30, 2015

    Wishing I could unburden myself,

    release the excess weight I've been carrying for a thousand lives. I've seen trust dismantled before my eyes. And if I glance back into my past, the bombardment of pain and lies can be too much to fathom. Like the time I opened my heart, opened my legs, misguidedly believing I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Aug 3, 2015

    Space is what I thought I needed.

    I'm so lost and can't find the right path. How did people make decisions I can't figure out a motion and rational thinking.
    Minx27 Minx27
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 2

    I have the feeling I'll go crazy from all those

    thoughts I have in my mind. I keep talking to myself and making a lot of scenarios in my head for things could happen but won't ever happen if I kept avoiding people in my life.. it's because I met a lot of bad ppl but who didn't. what can I do to help myself?
    rashahan rashahan
    31-35, F
    Mar 15
    Only1me4life Only1me4life
    36-40, F
    24 Responses Jul 7, 2015
    LookingForYou89 LookingForYou89
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Jun 2, 2015

    I wish I could be more open about my feelings

    and thoughts but I can't. I guess I care way too much about what other people think and that sucks.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses May 21, 2015

    I don't know when or how it happened.

    But I've recently realised that I've become so lost and changed that I can't even recognize myself in the mirror. All the friends I thought I was having are hell fake. They are never there when I need them and I always am. I don't know how to be again how I used to be.
    Piano28 Piano28
    18-21, F
    Feb 22

    I've always kept things inside me.

    bottled up deep down. but getting things out even as little as saying this here on EP makes me feel a little better. makes me feel like a new me.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Jan 28

    so I'm laying here. it is 1:30 in the morning.

    and my husband is not home.... again. so I have been married for 8 years and I'm feeling bored in my marriage. I have expressed this to my husband however he seems to be unwilling to change. I tried to explain to him that I am NOT the same young girl that he married and that I...
    KweenE KweenE
    26-30, F
    14 Responses Sep 20, 2015

    if all my mental pain comes from all i do,

    then wut if i stopped working in life. would everything be better? i keep it to myself and i just end up hurting myself more.
    LoneWolfLogan LoneWolfLogan
    13-15, M
    3 Responses Mar 12

    when I was 18 I had my first child.

    he was born premature and spent the first 6 months on neonatal unit. doctors didn't expect him to survive his first week but he proved them all wrong and came home at 6 months old. I became his full time carer as he had many health problems and every day was a struggle to help...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Feb 6

    if I didn't keep almost all these things to

    myself I could've been happier now or hospitalized for saying all of what I've held back saying before
    mechanicman96 mechanicman96
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Jun 28, 2015

    It's me. I deleted my other account

    now that EP is closing. Look at my previous posts. The time is ticking for me and it might happen to me in a matter of hours. I am feeling pain all over my body, pain I have never felt before.that's one sign that it's all coming to an end. I have no one left to talk to now as I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 28

    Okay now I just have to let it out

    since I can't tell this to anyone or talk about it.. Writing it here might make it better.. I got pregnant twice by the same guy within a span of 2 years and u can judge me or call me names but i know what it meant to be and how painful it was for me to to through all that and...
    only19 only19
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 25

    I'm afraid to have an emotional connection with

    anyone.... I think I have gone numb
    Raynebow81 Raynebow81
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 19

    I can always tell when someone is lying to me,

    or keeping something from me. But I keep it to myself, because to ask them about it is to admit two things: 1) You lied to me 2) You thought I would be stupid enough to not realize.
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 16
    Samousse Samousse
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Apr 13, 2015
    queenayanna queenayanna
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jan 27
    sykys sykys
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Aug 28, 2015

    Pen pressed firmly against ghost white paper

    for months now. No words jotted down and no prose poetry written. I am still waiting. Waiting to turn your death into a breathing work of art or a beautiful compilation of enough metaphors to describe the peace you felt "when God called you home". I've realized today that its...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease
    26-30, F
    10 Responses Oct 11, 2015

    I like my cousin well his not really my cousin

    he lives with my family and I and his step sister is my cpusin in law so I dont know if that makes us related or not but anyway we talk to each other about everything like seriously everything from crushes to family dramas to who we want to kill and we have our fights but can't...
    hlp16 hlp16
    16-17
    1 Response Feb 16

    Look at yourself as a color.

    You may not be everybody’s favorite color.
    luckyshah luckyshah
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Feb 26

    hisan idiot but i love him

    so there is this guy and i really like him on my birthday i snuck out with my cousin to hang out with him abd his best friend and he wouldnt stop asking me who i like and i couldnt tell him the truth so i said i liked one of his friends me thinking that he would stop after i...
    hlp16 hlp16
    16-17
    2 Responses Mar 18

    I always wanted to try a sex position

    when im up side down hahahahahahahhahaha
    vivianescrooge vivianescrooge
    22-25
    Apr 1

    I"m look for the writer

    who can sit and listen unbelievable story of my journeys for 10 years, I can't keep it to myself any more, pls.help me.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 20

    It's kinda hard for me to talk about stuff.

    It never really seems like a big deal to just keep it in. I'm an introvert so it's not like a feel the need to release my thoughts to someone. However, sometimes I feel like I just get weighed down with the burden and eventually it crushes me and I just vent it all out. It's...
    dev10251 dev10251
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Mar 2, 2015

    I really want to kill myself.

    My life is going on horribly. My mother has psychotic depression, she has been on an affair for 9 years & has just recently stopped after being diagnosed with psychotic depression, & we aren't the wealthiest family out there. My dad use to be a gambler. I'm labeled as stupid in...
    mangoseed mangoseed
    18-21, F
    10 Responses Aug 22, 2015

    this has been on my mind

    for a while now for some reason i think my mom thinks im pregnant but im still a virgin even though i am a virgin if this ever happened to where i get pregnant at my young age of 18 im going to keep it!!! just because i wasnt careful doesnt mean the baby has to pay for it and i...
    Eroticwriter34 Eroticwriter34
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Sep 3, 2015

    It is kinda expected.

    When a person asks how you are do they really expect the truth? Not really.. More of a "I'm good" response. People really don't want to know, so you keep it to yourself. How many secrets do we all hold? Infinite amounts.
    jrf9782 jrf9782
    31-35, F
    7 Responses Mar 11, 2015

    I keep a lot of **** to myself

    because in reality, nobody really gives a ****.
    glassbonespaperskin glassbonespaperskin
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 31

    I feel like I'm slowly losing the ability to

    properly communicate with friends and family. Even this account is unknown to any of them. I opened it to try to write and not feel judged, like some form of self therapy?....And it's like after what happened with my ex, all I've done is shut myself out somehow....Every day more...
    Xylo30 Xylo30
    26-30, F
    9 Responses Jun 12, 2015
    psychopathically psychopathically
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Feb 22

    Does anyone ever feel

    that life literally just hates you?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Sep 1, 2015

    Life.... born with nothing,

    then try to pass step by step to reach the goal, finally have to accept when time to go....what we are doing here?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 20

    If I could do it over I would have met someone

    special later in life, perhaps at this age. I was foolish to be stuck in relationships throughout college and now the one I was with for the 5 years just had our baby. I love her and all but I wish it was all different. I wish I had never moved it; I wish I could have just let...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 6

    Every time I try to open up

    and be the real me, people always shut it down. I love makeup. It is one of my favorite things in life. Whenever I post something on Facebook, or go to a family reunion everyone always tells me that I shouldn't be wearing makeup. They don't even give good reasons why I shouldn't...
    tinkbell1 tinkbell1
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Feb 15

    I'm back to my corner again,

    feel safety, but I so lonely now.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 26

    I'm seriously over my life!

    I mean I'm not suicidal or anything but I really need a break from life before it does kill me. Why does nothing ever go right?
    rachelb722 rachelb722
    31-35, F
    10 Responses Aug 18, 2015

    Seeing a perfect couple doesn't make me get

    jealous. I only get jealous to see a happy family, especially a good and caring father since I never feel it x)
    cloversmoon cloversmoon
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 23

    So let's say your daughters boyfriend likes to

    be with me ( her mother) than her! I know he flirts cuz he plays little games like messing with me. I would never ever act on it or Allow any shady **** to happen. I live upstairs he always comes up when I'm in the middle of changing . He says hurry up and come downstairs to...
    Aquarianbeauty Aquarianbeauty
    41-45, F
    7 Responses Sep 29, 2015

    Sooo....I was diagnosed with HSV2 three years

    ago I contracted HSV2 about ten years ago but didn't know what it was because it did not appear in my genital area and I didn't break out often. I began a treatment plan directly after being diagnosed then tried a homeopathic method (on my own they are really expensive...
    Branee Branee
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 11
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Apr 9

    I think maybe it's okay to keep things to

    myself. But what helps is if you write them down. I started a journal recently, and I've been scribbling all the thoughts and feelings I've been keeping pent up... It's different from EP. I just let everything loose. There's no backspace. There's no redressing your thoughts...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 15

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