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I Keep Too Many Things to Myself

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    Yes and I'd like to keep it

    that way. Sometimes it's just better to keep things to yourself.
    calistolevana20 calistolevana20 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    Sometimes I worry it will all come out all at

    once. It's a scary thought.
    mongo275 mongo275 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 30

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    I'm so afraid of Hurting other people.

    ..of having anyone worry about me, especially my mom, that I keep everything In. I know she has anxiety and mild OCD tendencies because of the life she has had. Instead of being able to go to her with my Worries as a pillar of strength, I fear with my issues on top of her own...
    HopefullRomantic HopefullRomantic 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    It Is Easier

    It has always been easier for me to keep things to myself. Putting a smile in your face is lot more easier than to tell others how much you are feel. When I try to tell my secrets, fears and feelings to others, I feel insecure. I feel like what if they take advantage of me, what...
    citygirl9841 citygirl9841 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 12, 2012

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    My mom has never seen me cry

    and she never will I also don't talk to any one about my feelings because I don't won't to be judged so here I go I'm letting something go if you feel the need to judge please do so there is this 51 year old guy on here he won't leave me alone he's always messaging so I blocked...
    gymnist gymnist 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 8

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    Opening Up...

    I have always been one of those people who keeps a lot of things to myself. Call it stupidity, me being insular, whatever.....I just have difficulty sharing some things with other people. At one time there are so many things in my head that I tend to compartmentalise and share...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    What to do when emptiness & loneliness creeping

    up again? Even when keeping myself occupied & busy doesn't help. Or there r those times been real busy but.. Why must we live in that way where society expects us to? How to find a happier/passionate way within this sphere? Going on without knowing what's the purpose cuz the...
    JonDanny JonDanny 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    I've just learned to do this over time

    because it's my experience that nobody REALLY cares. They are just looking for that break in the conversation to tell THEIR story. Which is cool... I'm a listener but in turn a lot of things are internalized. PLUS I feel like at the end of the day no one can actually CHANGE...
    DreamerByNature DreamerByNature 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 5

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    Thoughts, opinions, ideas,

    questions, problems, concerns, and feelings: these are all things that I don't feel like burdening others with. I feel that if I reveal any of them, the opposing views of others may change, or people with opposing views may feel as though they are being challenged. I don't want...
    JustAnotherHuman34 JustAnotherHuman34 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 28

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    A Story About My Older Cousin.

    ...This is very strange to share, but i'll say it. When I was younger my cousin came over to play. My older sister was there and me and my cousin were just fooling around just having fun. He's older then me by a year, in fact his birthday is the day after mine.(weird rite?) We...
    Animecrazyluv Animecrazyluv 16-17, F 9 Responses Aug 26, 2012

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    When I found out about my personality

    as an INTJ, I read about how many of these people, while they were like Newton, and Stephen hawking, they were also hitler and the Unabomber. I do think I have a complex form of thinking and I'm afraid of what side of the spectrum ill end up being in :/
    Cristian1928 Cristian1928 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 16

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    My friends get so upset at me

    because I never answer the phone when they call.. If they only knew how much anxiety it gives me. Simple conversation = the struggle, sighhh :(
    MaeRose4 MaeRose4 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 13

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    So, within the 15 years I've been alive,

    I've not accomplished much. But my few close friends always tell me I'm amazing. All of this is going to sound like I'm on here just looking for attention but I feel awkward just writing about myself. The reason is because I never talk about my problems or myself, actually. I've...
    emilyythepilot emilyythepilot 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 17

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    I can't seem to open up to anyone,

    because I feel too weird and no one would understand. It's easy to not talk in group therapy then to feel judged and insecure.
    feelingtrapped09 feelingtrapped09 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 20

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    I keep to many things to myself.

    I can't even tell my own friends what I feel or think because I know they'll judge me or say "don't worry you have me" but once I need that shoulder, where the **** are they?
    lyndssyrmz lyndssyrmz 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    I'm Already Sorry I Wrote This.

    Fair warning to the few of you cherished fans and friends who actually look for some sort of coherence from me: this is a brain dump, and may not actually make any sense at all.I want to learn how to trust again. I don't feel like I can be in any relationship with anyone that...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 11 Responses Mar 26, 2012

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    I hate this time of month.

    I feel insecure about my friendships or lack there of. How do people keep friends over the years. I know people have their differences. For some reason, they're able to pick up and move forward. For some reason, I feel easily dismissed and pushed aside. But I don't tolerate...
    1LadyButterfly 1LadyButterfly 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 17

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    Good Vibrations

    I feel pretty darn good today! So Im sending you my good vibes::::::: ❤💖💙💕❤💞💘💛💛💓💕 Enjoy!
    LaBebe LaBebe 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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    Not A Burden

    I keep things to myself because I do not want to burden others with my problems. Everyone has issues of their own and I don't like being the one to add to someone elses. I have no problem listening to someone else or helping but I am a one way street. I don't accept help very...
    jatpack3 jatpack3 36-40, M 14 Responses May 28, 2013

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    I know you don't feel the same

    and believe when I told you I tried to get a rid of those feelings but there is always this fool moon lighting me up in the darkness.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 5

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    That's always the argument I have with my

    boyfriend that I don't tell him enough stuff that stresses me out. I've tried to be better but of course it takes time I'll get there and he knows I'm doing better
    dast3830 dast3830 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 4

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    I have never told what I have gone through too

    anyone and I think its time. I was bullied all the way through middle school, harrased for how I look. I never got over it and am not extremely self conscious and have repressed a lot of memory now. In high school I was completely alone. I had no close friends in school and...
    louieeeeeeee louieeeeeeee 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 23

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    I want to let it out!

    Life to short for secret!!!!!
    fergusriordan97 fergusriordan97 16-17, M Aug 18

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    I find that I can sympathize more with

    unimportant things then with some friends and even family. It feels automatic but if I see a gruesome video like love things of people dying I don't really get hurt much. Just sort of watch and realize that's real. I think I find lack of sympathy with people. With the stories I...
    Cristian1928 Cristian1928 16-17, M Feb 17

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    I need to talk to people.

    I hate keeping these things to myself
    Untrustworthy117 Untrustworthy117 16-17, M 1 Response May 25

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    To some this question will seem to have an easy

    answer but for me, it's really hard. How do you ask for help or share your feelings? I feel like I am always the one that lends the shoulder to cry on, the ear for listening or the outlet for others to vent. The problem is, I can't seem to bring myself to ask for the same in...
    honestme77 honestme77 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    Antiquated Torment

    Where children once played now rang out with a deafening silence that made my ears hurt. Studying was replaced with funeral arrangements, phone calls, tidying the house and making sure everyone’s Sunday best was clean and ironed. Everyone around me was either unsure of what...
    SecretBrokenDoll SecretBrokenDoll 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 22, 2012

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    My husband is a hard worker,

    he works 70 hour weeks in order for me to stay home and care for our baby. I know he is tired when he gets home, and he would like to do some thing to wind down but every night he brings his brother over to play video games all night until he goes to bed. It just truly baffles...
    cbnfvr cbnfvr 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    I thought she was really my best friend.

    That she would be there for me anytime I needed her. That she wouldn't hurt me like everyone else did. I try my best just so that she is happy. So that she doesn't feel the way i feel. All she doesn't now a days is hit me or criticize me. "I don't like this or that about you, I...
    rosaluv4 rosaluv4 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    Finally scheduling a doctors appointment

    tomorrow. I'm sick of this effecting my life.
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F Apr 27

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    I often want to express myself,

    but I'm not good with words verbally. I often hold back my true and meaningful thoughts because I don't expect people to care. Its hard for me to open up and tell people about things, even the little ones.
    Bscott34 Bscott34 18-21, M Feb 18

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    I Want To Do Whatever I Want

    I just want to be able to do whatever I want, without any fear of failure.
    bearpro bearpro 22-25, M 3 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    Lifelong Lockdown

    This is my biggest downfall- locking things up inside. Silence is often easiest-worries of saying the wrong thing, not knowing what to say, wondering if I'll be mocked, not able to share the deepest thoughts and desires for fear of alienating others.... Discovering EP has given...
    CrowdOfOne CrowdOfOne 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 26, 2013

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    Here Are My "secrets"

    Since nobody I'm referring to can read this (hopefully), I'm going to list the things that I've been keeping to myself. Dad, I still don't know why you abandoned me ten years ago and started a new family for yourself. You moved across the country and I never hear from you, so...
    lostinwunderland lostinwunderland 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 30, 2011

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    Too Much

    I like to think of myself as an open person but that's only true partially.  All people mask themselves in some ways and only reveal what they want to about themselves.  But I know there are a lot of things that I feel guilty about that are really not that big of a deal...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 4 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    Sometimes I want to share my life

    and my thoughts with friends or family members, but I don't think they really understand me. I am really sensitive and every time I try to share anything with anyone I just get criticized and I just end up feeling stupid and dumb.
    Cristal0330 Cristal0330 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 18

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    They say that in our teenage years we become

    more sensitive towards what we are told, what is said about us and how we perceive what others think. We become aware that are actions may influence others and that each step we take has a consequence. I am an example of tragedy, depression, sadness. These words have very...
    xogymfish xogymfish 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    In growing up we are taught

    not only by our fathers but by our mothers as well to keep things to ourselves. Our feelings. Our desires. Our dreams. Our opinions. The one reason they tell us is "not all people are going to agree with your view of life" and that some are so passionate about theirs the...
    TheBrooklynKid TheBrooklynKid 46-50, M Feb 18

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    Just a lost 16 year old girl

    who really needs advice , I have a lot on my mind and I need help sorting through it
    zChibblesx zChibblesx 16-17, F 1 Response May 1

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    Nope! Am Not Saying....

    well sometimes i am comfortable that way and sometimes i just have to keep things to myself, coz people tend to misunderstand....and since its been this way since long, am quiet used to it, my gut worries me no more when there are secret things in it more than i could contain...
    amateurgenius amateurgenius 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 21, 2011

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    Breach

    And deep in the night When the soul stirs alone, She thinks of the beasts Who got her alone. Though profound the pain Of the ones that betrayed, She’s reminded of her win Each Christmas Eve day. The win where she learned Just how much she wasn’t loved; How much she had...
    SecretBrokenDoll SecretBrokenDoll 36-40, F 6 Responses Jan 22, 2012

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    I'm the same way. I keep everything to myself

    but it's not good at all. Whatever I keep to myself I put in a journal.
    Khaliberri Khaliberri 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    I'm a pressure cooker

    and for a week I've been leaking, ready for a massive explosion! I tell nothing to no one and I can't do it anymore! Trying to reach out but no takers... That's why I don't talk!!
    exbunner exbunner 41-45, F Mar 12

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    I feel like I act like I have no feelings

    and keep everything bottled up inside when I have one of the biggest hearts.. I just want other people to not think bad about me and I just ignore problems that I have in my life because it's so much easier than dealing with them and having to worry about being judged for the...
    alyak0202 alyak0202 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    None of my family knows about anything

    that goes on. It might just be better that way
    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F 1 Response May 2

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    My Heart "I wanna say what my soul is singing.

    .....I wanna say what my heart is screaming"
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 2

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    I Am A Stranger To People I Care About.

    I can't figure out why I don't let people see me for who I am. I wear masks around them, many masks for many different people. Sometimes I forget what I am doing and wear the wrong one or I get too comfortable with someone and forget to put it on and then I am asked why I have...
    jatpack3 jatpack3 36-40, M 4 Responses Jul 11, 2013

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    Off My Chest

    If you want to say you are a good friend or lover to someone you actually have to put forth a small effort to be one. Which often times may not be convenient. A friend or lover in need may not live next door, there maybe some distance, consider this when choosing a dear friend...
    Freestanding Freestanding 51-55, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    There is so many thing

    that I keep to myself that I wish I can tell someone so maybe I can get help but I don't Trust anyone to tell them.. So I guess I would have to keep this Secrets with me all my life ;(
    jenny1bear jenny1bear 26-30, F Feb 19

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    I'm not the one to openly tell people how I feel

    unless your a close friend or my family. As I've seen friends and close people come and go I've learned that the depths of your mind and your thoughts can be your best friend in the worst times
    GodlySmith GodlySmith 16-17, M Jan 14

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    I find it incredibly difficult to open up to

    people, especially lately because everyone I've ever been close to has left. Now I just keep the majority of my thoughts and feelings to myself because I'm not good at expressing my feelings and I'm afraid people won't understand the way I think. I feel almost disconnected from...
    hollylynn91 hollylynn91 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    It’s like you’re screaming,

    but no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important, that without them you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. And when it’s over and it’s gone, you almost wish that you...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 1 Response May 30

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    I do this.....simply

    because a lot of people do not understand me. I try and help them understand me, and it is too difficult to. I try and work it out of my way, through writing expressions or just in general work through them. I am too deep for most people to understand.
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 16

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