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I Keep Too Many Things to Myself

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    I've always wanted to share life with someone

    who wanted to share it with me, even when I was a kid. I'm thinking I have to much of an independent attitude, maybe I just don't scream and throw a tantrum enough, I like to think I'm just that damn good but ... I end up keeping too much to myself. I carry around stuff that...
    Sweetphoenix35 Sweetphoenix35 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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    It's better to be silent at all.

    Whenever I'm having rough times, I just want something to do for me to keep busy and apparently cannot think the things that will probably hurt me. Instead of moping around, sit in the corner, cries a river, I enjoyed watching movies to divert my attention and feelings. Goes...
    Choirayla Choirayla 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 5

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    I keep too many things to myself.

    I find the right time - which usually is too late - and tell people what's on my mind.
    Nakedness8 Nakedness8 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    I prefer to be alone

    than to be with a group of people and I prefer to keep it with myself because I know that no one else can judge me. Ouch!
    Mariangabalon Mariangabalon 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 19, 2014

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    This is hard for me .

    .. Opening up.. This is the first step, but I need encouragement. Interested in meeting new people
    kayl27 kayl27 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    I hate talking to people,

    but they all insists I need help. So there sending me to therapy, I can't stand going I'm scared to open up, I'm forced to go twice a week and I'm alone in a room with a male doctor, and I have problems talking to anyone and males even more so. I just want to keep it bundled up...
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 16

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    I am one of those people

    who never talks about there problems. I watch so many people complain about the stupidest things when I'm hiding the lost terrible things to myself. I've done it for so long that one day I swear I'm gonna blow up. Everyone has problems. I know. But I'm just sick of hearing...
    hailey29223 hailey29223 13-15, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm Already Sorry I Wrote This.

    Fair warning to the few of you cherished fans and friends who actually look for some sort of coherence from me: this is a brain dump, and may not actually make any sense at all.I want to learn how to trust again. I don't feel like I can be in any relationship with anyone that...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 11 Responses Mar 26, 2012

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    Alexlovesmusic Alexlovesmusic 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I am 22 years old. I keep far too many things

    to myself. I was working a great job as a Welder for 17$ /hr but recently got laid off. I'm planning on going to live out in Edmonton Alberta with my brother. Since my whole family has separated in different directions. My mother is moving to the U.S. while my other two siblings...
    Mcgregor117 Mcgregor117 22-25, M 6 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    I have always kept to many things to myself.

    No one has always been there for me. I have been there for other people, but it seems like when I need someone they are not there for me. I not that vey open minded in person, but when I type or text I do. I don't let a lot of my feelings out I just hold them in. When something...
    dimplesgirl17 dimplesgirl17 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    Good Vibrations

    I feel pretty darn good today! So Im sending you my good vibes::::::: โค๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’•โค๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’• Enjoy!
    LaBebe LaBebe 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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    It makes me sad that I can open up to strangers

    easier than I can open up to the people who are close to me. With them, I keep everything inside.
    JustConnie JustConnie 36-40, F 7 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    One of my friends tell me I have too many

    secrets, honestly not really. I've just never been able to trust someone enough to let them in on my life. I'm outgoing, the thing is people underestimate me. They look at me and assume my exterior is all there is. Still waters run deep, if you want to get to know me then by all...
    RainHailOrShine RainHailOrShine 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2014

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    It is not easy for me to let people in

    and know everything about me. I tend to keep some secrets, just because I think everyone don't deserve to know everything about me. I appreciate privacy, people always have their own secret right?
    rockettothemoon08 rockettothemoon08 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    I am 22 and my everyday life is becoming

    so difficult. I have so many things to be grateful for, family, friends, boyfriend. However I am at the point where I have such bad anxiety I don't want to leave my house. What is wrong with me? I try and figure out how to love life but it's like I live my life in fear. There's...
    anxietykills12 anxietykills12 22-25, F 9 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel like the reasons I keep things to myself

    is due to past friendships going down the hill. I feel like when whenever I over do something, like trying to be more honest to them. It either; makes people start to gossip and change my words around to make me look like the ***** or to the high hill where they take me for...
    50shadesofsena 50shadesofsena 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    Opening Up...

    I have always been one of those people who keeps a lot of things to myself. Call it stupidity, me being insular, whatever.....I just have difficulty sharing some things with other people. At one time there are so many things in my head that I tend to compartmentalise and share...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    I actually hate keeping things to myself.

    Most of the time I want to tell everyone the truth about all the secrets I keep- depression, self-harm, etc.- because when I keep quiet about everything it builds up inside me until I'm on the verge of exploding. But I can't tell anyone any of it, because I need to be self...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 8 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    Yeah. Just take what you need,

    there's nothing left anyway.
    littlemissmacabre littlemissmacabre 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2014

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    Here Are My "secrets"

    Since nobody I'm referring to can read this (hopefully), I'm going to list the things that I've been keeping to myself. Dad, I still don't know why you abandoned me ten years ago and started a new family for yourself. You moved across the country and I never hear from you, so...
    lostinwunderland lostinwunderland 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 30, 2011

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    Off My Chest

    If you want to say you are a good friend or lover to someone you actually have to put forth a small effort to be one. Which often times may not be convenient. A friend or lover in need may not live next door, there maybe some distance, consider this when choosing a dear friend...
    Freestanding Freestanding 51-55, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    Too Much

    I like to think of myself as an open person but that's only true partially.  All people mask themselves in some ways and only reveal what they want to about themselves.  But I know there are a lot of things that I feel guilty about that are really not that big of a deal...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 4 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    I'm not the one to openly tell people how I feel

    unless your a close friend or my family. As I've seen friends and close people come and go I've learned that the depths of your mind and your thoughts can be your best friend in the worst times
    GodlySmith GodlySmith 16-17, M Jan 14, 2014

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    no one knows how i really feel,

    i put on this brave face and hide away my feelings and problems because people have their own and shouldn't worry about me. i keep everything squished up inside my head hoping that it'll all eventually go away but its hasn't. Emotions and problems and everything is building up...
    toomuchpressure toomuchpressure 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 17

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    We lie to ouselves, we force our lips to smile,

    we force out a laugh but they are never going to be enough. We get broken continuously and eventually the glass that we were breaks down into tiny shards which scar people when they try to pick us up again so they have to be careful and so do you, to make sure you won't break...
    joeinafaith joeinafaith 13-15, F Jan 15

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    There are something's

    that the world around you doesn't need to know.. but keeping them to yourself just mounts to a lot of stress. So much is the stress level at one time that you feel your brain is about to explode.. But sometimes you just live with the explosives within your brain coz these...
    uselessguy uselessguy 36-40, M 2 Responses Dec 8, 2014

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    Life sucks the life of you.

    God I really need someone to talk to. It's like I can't breathe anymore. ~Tye
    tyeotic tyeotic 16-17, T 3 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    hedleygirl hedleygirl 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    I've been told that I should tell people more

    things. Like what's bothering me or if I want to talk about something. But the thing is...The times I do bring up what I want to talk about or even when I'm in middle of a conversation the subject gets changed and never looked back on. I mean I look back on it because I end up...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 8, 2014

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    My heart breaks for someone

    who was never mine.
    sleonard777 sleonard777 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2014

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    PsychologyNerd PsychologyNerd 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    Help please. Please someone read this

    and guide me in the right direction. I need to get you informed of my current situation so a quick background of my family from prospective, I have been holding in for so long. My immediate family: This consists of my husband 33 Son 8, goes to school, plays sports always at...
    lawsonbrayjules lawsonbrayjules 26-30, F 4 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    Itโ€™s like youโ€™re screaming,

    but no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important, that without them you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. And when itโ€™s over and itโ€™s gone, you almost wish that you...
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 1 Response May 30, 2014

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    what about your life makes it worth living?

    i personally can't answer that question. seems as if the only reason im even here is because im to scared to take it into my own hands. i see beauty in the world but i do not see beauty in my own life. ive already given up and the idea of a happily ever after. for the first time...
    livingpositively livingpositively 22-25, M 5 Responses Jan 11

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    I guess I must have looked like I needed a hug

    tonight because when I dropped my daughter's car off at the mechanics shop, the mechanic hugged me real big.
    JustConnie JustConnie 36-40, F Nov 13, 2014

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    not sure what to put here,

    but my deal is that I keep 3 different journals ( real paper books), one for everyday stuff, one for venting about my husband and the last for my deepest thoughts that I won't ever share and its kept under lock and key with the key hidden separate from it. you would think after...
    meadbme meadbme 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 17

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    there are things about me

    that no one knows.... it's almost as if I live a double life... I want to tell someone ... yet I don't want to be judged or have people micro managing me after they find out.... goshhh
    cherBearCJ cherBearCJ 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    Antiquated Torment

    Where children once played now rang out with a deafening silence that made my ears hurt. Studying was replaced with funeral arrangements, phone calls, tidying the house and making sure everyoneโ€™s Sunday best was clean and ironed. Everyone around me was either unsure of what...
    SecretBrokenDoll SecretBrokenDoll 36-40, F 5 Responses Jan 22, 2012

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    It's easier to keep it in

    because then I don't have to worry about how people might react. The one time I allowed myself to be completely vulnerable with someone I find out that it's possible but I get tired of telling my story over and over. I just want to move forward without having to carry the cross...
    ShakenButNotBroken ShakenButNotBroken 18-21, F Jan 4

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    There are many reasons

    that I keep things to myself. the #1 reason being that the majority of the world just doesn't give a ****. The few who do give a **** would leave me if I did tell them what I'm thinking. So there really is just no reason to talk. Unless spoken to. And then I say just enough...
    GirlEnigma GirlEnigma 36-40, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have kept many things to myself.

    Now that Iโ€™m older and certain circumstances have occurred, I wished that Iโ€™ve have been more open. Now if I would talk about some of them it would appear to people that I love that I was dishonest or lied, and it isnโ€™t that simple. I just never disclosed that...
    Raven57 Raven57 56-60, F 4 Responses Jan 4

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    uzmazaidiali uzmazaidiali 26-30, F 5 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    i wish to apply this one "Never allow someone

    to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their optionโ€
    KA1977 KA1977 36-40, M Nov 25, 2014

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    some people might think im crazy.

    this is why im saying it here. you may not trust what i am about to say. and honestly i dont blame you. i didnt trust myself either. i have two different "souls" a evil one and a good one. i call them shadowsoul and darkwhisper. neither is my given name becuase they are not me...
    darkwhispershadowsoul darkwhispershadowsoul 22-25, M 4 Responses a week ago

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    To some this question will seem to have an easy

    answer but for me, it's really hard. How do you ask for help or share your feelings? I feel like I am always the one that lends the shoulder to cry on, the ear for listening or the outlet for others to vent. The problem is, I can't seem to bring myself to ask for the same in...
    honestme77 honestme77 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    I like to keep things to myself

    until I get to know somebody that are like and then I might tell them a little bit about me sometimes I go outside at night and listen to the music inside of my truck just to be by myself I like my alone time is me time to think I think everybody needs to have some alone time to...
    jeepwrangler1 jeepwrangler1 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 21, 2014

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    There are two rules for success.

    ..: 1- Never reveal everything you know
    maxifel maxifel 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 21, 2014

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    Sometimes I want to share my life

    and my thoughts with friends or family members, but I don't think they really understand me. I am really sensitive and every time I try to share anything with anyone I just get criticized and I just end up feeling stupid and dumb.
    Cristal0330 Cristal0330 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 18, 2014

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    This is me I keep to many things bottle up in me

    and I never have the courage to say it at all
    stephanie678 stephanie678 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    gaveegee gaveegee 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 7

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