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I Keep Too Many Things to Myself

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    I have someone I can turn too,

    but I just find it too hard, I don't even feel I can show her my writing anymore. I just feel that we are drifting apart no matter what, it's not the same anymore. Maybe that's my fault, when I'm the way I am now I think I can be very difficult to be around and I wouldn't blame...
    ExPLadyBird ExPLadyBird 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I have been sexually harassed by my own father

    when I was about 10. Then later on been in an abusive relationship. So bad at one point I had to call the police. Absolutely traumatized and haunted by what happened. I have trust issues. Please god help me. I now am in a relatiomship with a good man but I sometimes doubt...
    ihatethispartrighthere ihatethispartrighthere 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 7

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    It makes me sad that I can open up to strangers

    easier than I can open up to the people who are close to me. With them, I keep everything inside.
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    I feel like I'm slowly losing the ability to

    properly communicate with friends and family. Even this account is unknown to any of them. I opened it to try to write and not feel judged, like some form of self therapy?....And it's like after what happened with my ex, all I've done is shut myself out somehow....Every day more...
    Xylo30 Xylo30 26-30, F 13 Responses Jun 12

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    I don't know how to express myself ,

    I usually end up saying things that just make everything worse :l
    fafi96 fafi96 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    It's kinda hard for me to talk about stuff.

    It never really seems like a big deal to just keep it in. I'm an introvert so it's not like a feel the need to release my thoughts to someone. However, sometimes I feel like I just get weighed down with the burden and eventually it crushes me and I just vent it all out. It's...
    dev10251 dev10251 18-21, M 5 Responses Mar 2

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    I am unhappy in my marriage!

    Sexless marriage, no feelings we just live together without anything I have gave up on him as I have asked for his love and his caring manytimes without any reaction from him!
    lshk lshk 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 10

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    I don't feel myself right

    now maybe because I'm on this website talking about things like ghosts, auras paranormal ect I just need sleep.
    Blueclouds1234 Blueclouds1234 22-25 1 Response Aug 6

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    I make it seem like people think they know

    so much about me, but they only know the tip of the iceberg. I kind of want to keep it that way.
    jaimsy jaimsy 16-17, F Aug 9

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    People have no idea. They might think

    that they know me, but they only know what I tell them. Even though they say I can vent, I try not to until it all comes spilling out, and even then it's not all of it. I keep a lot inside.
    Spyro93 Spyro93 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 25

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    Only1me4life Only1me4life 36-40, F 31 Responses Jul 7

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    Confusing feelings about my teacher.

    I started having a crush on them 2 years ago, but then tried to rationalise with myself. They are more than twice my age, possibly in a relationship and would never like me back. Not to mention it would be totally illegal. The next term I had classes with the same teacher and...
    andiloveit andiloveit 18-21, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    Wishing I could unburden myself,

    release the excess weight I've been carrying for a thousand lives. I've seen trust dismantled before my eyes. And if I glance back into my past, the bombardment of pain and lies can be too much to fathom. Like the time I opened my heart, opened my legs, misguidedly believing I...
    FindingNirvana420 FindingNirvana420 18-21, F 9 Responses Aug 3

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    War doesn't decide who is right .

    ...just who is left!
    5chuck6 5chuck6 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 2

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    I do its an issue with me here I vent

    but people here in the real world don't know all the stuff I post. Here I can be open and honesty, Society that type of thinking is frowned on, So very few real people know me, The I still keep things to self its a pride thing I suppose.
    Averageguy41011 Averageguy41011 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 8

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    I'm slowly starting to keep things to myself.

    I like having secrets and not telling anybody. Half the time I just don't know what to say??
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T 2 Responses Aug 20

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    Rant #1 How can you be a "little" OCD?

    HUH - is that like a lil pregnant? Why can't you just say - "hey, I'm a neatnik- don't touch my crap!" *sigh
    ofsoundmind1015 ofsoundmind1015 41-45, F 13 hrs ago

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    if I didn't keep almost all these things to

    myself I could've been happier now or hospitalized for saying all of what I've held back saying before
    mechanicman96 mechanicman96 36-40, M 3 Responses Jun 28

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    I prefer not to let people in

    because most can't handle nor can they comprehend the depths of my mind. ****, even I have trouble sometimes sorting out my own thoughts and feelings. I prefer not to tell people what I truly think and feel because it's the smart thing to do. There's this saying "never let...
    OldSoulRedux OldSoulRedux 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 11

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    I can never express myself.

    pretty much any sad emotion I feel, I keep to myself...which has only messed with my head a bit.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 5

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    It is kinda expected.

    When a person asks how you are do they really expect the truth? Not really.. More of a "I'm good" response. People really don't want to know, so you keep it to yourself. How many secrets do we all hold? Infinite amounts.
    jrf9782 jrf9782 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 11

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    At times, I just drink myself to sleep.

    Tonight feels like one of those nights.
    stellar3658 stellar3658 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 25

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    Like the fact i want a boyfriend

    who sees me as girl tho im male where is a guy for me?
    Rybear23 Rybear23 22-25, M Aug 20

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    I'm Already Sorry I Wrote This.

    Fair warning to the few of you cherished fans and friends who actually look for some sort of coherence from me: this is a brain dump, and may not actually make any sense at all.I want to learn how to trust again. I don't feel like I can be in any relationship with anyone that...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 10 Responses Mar 26, 2012

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    I really love this app.

    I'm so thankful I found it. Really good & awesome people on here that take time of their day to let you know that you aren't alone. This is awesome. I appreciate it.
    Giselle1231 Giselle1231 22-25, F 2 Responses May 25

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    LookingForYou89 LookingForYou89 26-30, F 5 Responses Jun 2

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    I keep my thoughts & feelings inside,

    it's easier to keep them in than try to explain things when I don't understand them myself.
    Nae82 Nae82 31-35, F 5 Responses Jul 27

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    lot of experiences to share

    but one thing that changed my life...but I never want to discuss about that...I don't know why...
    riskch riskch 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    Just had the first troubling fight with my

    husband. It ended with him storming out of the house and leaving. I feel like the worst person ever.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I graduated from high school two years ago

    and it felt like my life went crashing down sideways. I've always had problems with focusing in school because of my ADD and I've had issues with anxiety, but the few weeks I attended at community college I feel into a deep depression and my anxiety skyrocketed. I ended up being...
    KellerKing13 KellerKing13 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 4

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    I keep it to myself coz

    who else cares
    TheDevilsSon666 TheDevilsSon666 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 7

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    I'm seriously over my life!

    I mean I'm not suicidal or anything but I really need a break from life before it does kill me. Why does nothing ever go right?
    rachelb722 rachelb722 31-35, F 14 Responses Aug 18

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    Hahaha lately I think I'm not keeping enough

    things to myself....oh well
    VaultHunter VaultHunter 36-40, M Jun 21

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    Once in a Christian fellowship session in my

    college they asked us to tell our friends something they didn't know about ourselves so I didn't know what to tell, then I told my friend I'm actually very insecure. Then she's like "noooo you're not." So I just smiled and said yes I am. Well maybe I play it all too well no...
    sanityyy sanityyy 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 25

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    There are many reasons

    that I keep things to myself. the #1 reason being that the majority of the world just doesn't give a ****. The few who do give a **** would leave me if I did tell them what I'm thinking. So there really is just no reason to talk. Unless spoken to. And then I say just enough...
    GirlEnigma GirlEnigma 41-45, F 5 Responses Jan 23

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    I do and as a musician people want to know

    everything about you. I did my first interview and answered how I would anything else, general and guarded. The funny thing is I'm supposed to open myself to the world but I shut myself off from me. I'm telling you I'm in limbo stuck inside a seven walled castle
    XxBloodyLullabyxX XxBloodyLullabyxX 22-25, M Aug 25

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    Anyone ever feel like their at the top of a

    mountain and no matter how loud you scream no one would hear you? That's how I feel.
    pinkflower7783 pinkflower7783 31-35, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    It's at the end of the day

    when I stop, pause, exhale - that the waves come crashing down over me and I feel the day that's passed seeping into me and at times I am drowning in my own life. It used to be that I cared too much and so I tried to turn my heart to stone to attempt to cope but I'm forgetting...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10

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    Does anyone ever feel

    that life literally just hates you?
    pinkflower7783 pinkflower7783 31-35, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    Samousse Samousse 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 13

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    Does anyone ever just feel alone?

    Even though you have friends, and family but just feel alone?
    pinkflower7783 pinkflower7783 31-35, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    My heart breaks for someone

    who was never mine.
    sleonard777 sleonard777 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2014

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    I wish I could be more open about my feelings

    and thoughts but I can't. I guess I care way too much about what other people think and that sucks.
    chelly0k chelly0k 18-21, F 4 Responses May 21

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    I had sesh at my best friends share house,

    slept on the couch and overheard him talking with his girlfriend about how I am really weird lately and wondering if I have a problem and how bad it is. I think that's the gist of it. It's hard to tell because I was having an anxiety attack. First I've had but u know when it...
    ucSAMicu ucSAMicu 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 20

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    there's nobody to rely on except yourself.

    Yeah maybe you want someone to listen to your woes, anguish,or whatever emotions you have; but at the end of the day you will be left alone. there maybe your family or friends but no matter what they advise you to do the decision will still be up to you. just my opinion.
    icedwithin17 icedwithin17 26-30, F 10 Responses Apr 23

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