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I Keep Too Many Things to Myself

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    Friday night. Aced my finals.

    And now I'm watching movies in my room alone. How lame is that? Friends are all on date nights, brother is at work, just me.
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    recently I've come to realize I have no one in

    my life who I can turn to. yes I have "friends" at school but when it comes down to talking about what's on my mind I can't seem to do it. I feel more comfortable talking to strangers than the people in my life. my depression has gotten really bad and without having a person to...
    lillali lillali 70+, F 5 Responses Mar 6

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    Life sucks the life of you.

    God I really need someone to talk to. It's like I can't breathe anymore. ~Tye
    tyeotic tyeotic 16-17, T 3 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    I tend to just swallow my emotions

    and I've definitely never been a big fan of talking about how I feel. This site has become a spot where I feel I can unload some of those feelings...whether this is a healthy practice remains to be seen.
    Bumblelion Bumblelion 31-35, M 4 Responses Mar 11

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    i wish to apply this one "Never allow someone

    to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option”
    KAREEM77 KAREEM77 36-40, M Nov 25, 2014

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    Here Are My "secrets"

    Since nobody I'm referring to can read this (hopefully), I'm going to list the things that I've been keeping to myself. Dad, I still don't know why you abandoned me ten years ago and started a new family for yourself. You moved across the country and I never hear from you, so...
    lostinwunderland lostinwunderland 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 30, 2011

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    Sometimes I feel like saying something to my

    husband that im not happy with n sad about it.. but I cant.. why? I dont want to upset him..
    secilia9 secilia9 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 23

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    I drank too much yesterday

    and told my friends about my heart break. They were disappointed, because I kept them in the dark throughout my whole relationship. I just can't bring myself to talk about myself. I'm glad I let it out, even if it wasn't intentional.
    Jovexxi Jovexxi 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 19

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    In fact, I keep me to myself.

    I am lively. Brave. Funny. But only in my head. And I can't seem to get it out, in fear that I might be wrong. Because in this world where I live in, it seems like it doesn't matter if you're happy or not, as long as what you're doing is right.
    BlackRosesAmongLilies BlackRosesAmongLilies 13-15 6 days ago

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    Safer. That way. Not hurt

    and no misunderstandings
    pettypet pettypet 51-55, M Apr 19

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    if I share I become vulnerable.

    people will use information against you those who say the are listening are really making their grocery list in their heads
    nonjoy nonjoy 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    I should have when I got the sign,

    but you're right I left it behind. I could kick your *** without questions asked. My heart has been robbed so I dare not take on the task. I also see what will become. I still think and crave you some.
    Isis27 Isis27 36-40 Apr 24

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    kidneygrl kidneygrl 18-21, F 9 Responses Apr 18

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    I feel like breaking down any second soon,

    even few words from a silly song make me freeze when they remind me of what I dont want to be reminded of..
    GRda GRda 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 14

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    don't you think it's awkward on the part of

    fresh graduates or even to those who don't have enough job experience? Most companies nowadays requiring applicants to have experience on the job they're applying for. Unfair on the part of fresh graduate or none experience applicant to qualify, right? But how are they going to...
    icedwithin17 icedwithin17 26-30, F 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Tonight some of my family members went out to a

    concert, although I would have liked to attend with them. I made the decision to Not go due to me having to work at 5am in the morning, so I could get adequate rest. Now I'm feeling alone, abandoned, and hurt... I also feel ridiculous b/c I know it's my fault b/c I chose to stay...
    NotYurAverage1 NotYurAverage1 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 19

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    It makes me sad that I can open up to strangers

    easier than I can open up to the people who are close to me. With them, I keep everything inside.
    JustConnie JustConnie 36-40, F 7 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    I'm not the one to openly tell people how I feel

    unless your a close friend or my family. As I've seen friends and close people come and go I've learned that the depths of your mind and your thoughts can be your best friend in the worst times
    GodlySmith GodlySmith 16-17, M Jan 14, 2014

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    I find it hard dating.

    I've been through the nothing but bad experiences in my past. I've been in relationships where I've been physically mentally and emotionally abused I've been in relationships where I've been drug into things that could've cost me my life in possibly jail or prison I've dated men...
    UnknownBeautyQueen UnknownBeautyQueen 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 22

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    I've never done this before

    and just need to get it off my chest I had sex with this girl and I'm 15 and she says she hasn't had her period year it's been maybe 2 3 weeks you don't need to respond just need to get it off my chest.
    noregrets676 noregrets676 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 20

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    My Grandfather died on 4/21 I hated his guts

    and I don"t know how to feel. He manipulated me and lied to me and my mother he divided our family and left us homeless. I can't go to his funeral.....which is today.
    DeathByPandemic DeathByPandemic 70+, M 11 Responses 1 day ago

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    Sometimes I don't feel i have friends.

    I mean i have few but i'm not sure if they are real ones and i often feel alone :(
    Ladylockedheart Ladylockedheart 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    Sometimes all I want to do is cry.

    But then I realize that I can't. I just can't because im tired and bored of it. My eyes don't make tears and face muscles refuse to move. I don't know how to let the pain out. Or where to exactly let it go. So I just feel numb at heart. Im not angry im not sad but im numb. A...
    ithinkithink ithinkithink 26-30, F 5 Responses Apr 4

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    there are things about me

    that no one knows.... it's almost as if I live a double life... I want to tell someone ... yet I don't want to be judged or have people micro managing me after they find out.... goshhh
    cherBearCJ cherBearCJ 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    Samousse Samousse 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 13

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    I feel so alone. I know it's entirely my fault

    for isolating myself, and that makes it worse. I spend too much time locked up in my own head. Nobody from my old school cares about me for anything other than my ability to do their homework for them or act as a free therapist when they want help. Nobody at my new school cares...
    MurderAndCreate MurderAndCreate 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    I have so many things

    that I keep to myself because I wouldn't know where to start telling you about me
    bigbill75 bigbill75 36-40, M 2 Responses Apr 13

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    This is hard for me .

    .. Opening up.. This is the first step, but I need encouragement. Interested in meeting new people
    kayl27 kayl27 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    I keep thinigs to my self

    because I'm very selective about who I open up to. You can't talk to everybody about everything. I have no problem being open and getting things off my mind because I know that holding things in make it worse, and when in good company I can be sarcastically hilarious and silly...
    MJP88 MJP88 26-30, F 6 Responses Apr 14

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    There are many reasons

    that I keep things to myself. the #1 reason being that the majority of the world just doesn't give a ****. The few who do give a **** would leave me if I did tell them what I'm thinking. So there really is just no reason to talk. Unless spoken to. And then I say just enough...
    GirlEnigma GirlEnigma 41-45, F 5 Responses Jan 23

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    It's kinda hard for me to talk about stuff.

    It never really seems like a big deal to just keep it in. I'm an introvert so it's not like a feel the need to release my thoughts to someone. However, sometimes I feel like I just get weighed down with the burden and eventually it crushes me and I just vent it all out. It's...
    dev10251 dev10251 18-21, M 5 Responses Mar 2

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    Jeez!! Can't tell nobody anything

    even if it's not that big of a secret they'll end up going around telling the first **** up that comes around....
    ruthlessbitch13 ruthlessbitch13 22-25, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    It all gets bottled up

    and then I explode and nothing good comes out of that.
    boo514 boo514 26-30, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    It is kinda expected.

    When a person asks how you are do they really expect the truth? Not really.. More of a "I'm good" response. People really don't want to know, so you keep it to yourself. How many secrets do we all hold? Infinite amounts.
    jrf9782 jrf9782 31-35, F 8 Responses Mar 11

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    I am tired of trying

    so hard, in a country that greed has ruined. It used to be your company would keep just enough profits to be well off, they cared about thier workers and gave them enough where you could work hard and change the stars. Now we are lied to,... go to college, get a degree, check...
    simj1122 simj1122 31-35, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Good Vibrations

    I feel pretty darn good today! So Im sending you my good vibes::::::: β€πŸ’–πŸ’™πŸ’•β€πŸ’žπŸ’˜πŸ’›πŸ’›πŸ’“πŸ’• Enjoy!
    LaBebe LaBebe 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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    I actually hate keeping things to myself.

    Most of the time I want to tell everyone the truth about all the secrets I keep- depression, self-harm, etc.- because when I keep quiet about everything it builds up inside me until I'm on the verge of exploding. But I can't tell anyone any of it, because I need to be self...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    I'm Already Sorry I Wrote This.

    Fair warning to the few of you cherished fans and friends who actually look for some sort of coherence from me: this is a brain dump, and may not actually make any sense at all.I want to learn how to trust again. I don't feel like I can be in any relationship with anyone that...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 10 Responses Mar 26, 2012

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    I don't say what I want,

    so I never get what I want. I have alcohol hidden in the house. I have a secret lover. I have a journal that no one can read. I do not tell people my thoughts or opinions. I am locked in this polite persona. It is what makes me "successful" but it is also very stifling...
    Directionless450 Directionless450 41-45, M 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    CloudyForest CloudyForest 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 12

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    I've been that way ever

    since I was a child. That's just how it is. I know it's not healthy to keep things bottled up, but I can't see me changing in that respect even if I wanted to.
    Romanadvoratrelundar Romanadvoratrelundar 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 23

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    My heart breaks for someone

    who was never mine.
    sleonard777 sleonard777 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2014

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    I tried Im tired of everything Im tried to be a

    strong faith women And im tired Im tired of being dependable place for people around me I found no one i trust I found no one have a kind hearted in my life journey till this time I found no one can and know my hidding tears I put fake smile Pretend everything okay Pretend i...
    alicelynn alicelynn 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 24

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    I have these two friends

    who know that I feel this way and that I can talk to them whenever I need to. But I have to go to them because they don't know when I'm at my worse because usually it's late at night and I don't know what to say to them. If you need help, you have to ask for it but I can't ask...
    repeat36 repeat36 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 20

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