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I Kept Alot Inside My Heart

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    I Miss Dad...

    Just yesterday morning dad died of cancer. It had been in his brain and lungs and spread to the liver, bone... Been fighting about 2 years and this came after his heart failure. Last week I saw improvements. Fussing just to playfully fuss wanting to hold his own drink and not be...
    7kelli89 7kelli89 31-35 3 Responses Nov 6, 2010

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    It's Coming Out Now.

    And it feels lighter.....All I can say is, if people don't understand the way you feel, then its not your problem....you have to deal with those feelings....You can't just push them aside.  They tend to resurface, and make themselves known, and eventually it gets to where you...
    EyzofBlue EyzofBlue 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 15, 2011

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    Almost Valentines Day

    Most couples in the world spend their Valentines Day with the love of their life..For me, I still missed the last Valentines Day I had with J.  It was one of the memorable moments we spend together..This year, Valentines Day falls on the 1st Day of Chinese New...
    Eternal Eternal 31-35, F Jan 31, 2010

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    Yes

    Is sad when some people keep so many things inside their heart. Its good to express the way you feel and be hones
    princesa420 princesa420 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    When You Keep To Much Inside Heart It Just Stirs You Up More And More

    I have always been a strong person to the outside world. No matter how wrong unfair life treated me i never wept before somebody.I cannot see people sympathising with me calling me poor little girl. I have become like this.I have often or more than often been a support system to...
    IllusionPlaying IllusionPlaying 18-21, F Apr 20, 2012

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    What Is Your Answer.???..

    I don’t understand why should I let you know about my thoughts,Feelings ..what is in my heart and how it beats…Surely if still I have to clarify I am sorry to say then you truly don’t deserveAn iota of emotions to be wasted on you..Now I don’t want to bare my heart...
    trappedwings trappedwings 26-30, F Feb 17, 2013

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    Completely This.....

    When my mother berates me for my job, low earnings, being single, lack of friends and body, I just bury it inside and keep it inside. I cry about it when I am alone and feel great guilt and shame but no-one knows that. I cry about my life all the time and always at night. I feel...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 8, 2011

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    Nothing

    I'm tired of holding on for nothing
    BreatheEasyAgain BreatheEasyAgain 36-40, F May 22, 2013

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    Why???????????????????

    There goes the saying Life is not lived without knowing separation.It manifests because of desire or sometimes from desperation but most times it is brought by fate but our irony we brought ourselves. Though realizing every moment it is one of life's painful sorrows, there is...
    trappedwings trappedwings 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2013

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    Its Not Something I Want To Do

    Its not something I mean to do. I find it extremely difficult to say a lot of the things that I feel to others. I guess its a slow process with me, as I have been trying to sort this out for a long time now....
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M Sep 27, 2011

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    Keep Moving 4ward..

    I am a very, strong, hardworking,loyal no-nonsense kind of women. I am a single mother of two, raise my little sister who's 15,and i own a dog,(terrier) (Roxi).  Yea i have taken allot of responsibility's at a young age but I've matured and just own up to it out of...
    Tee27 Tee27 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 25, 2010

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    In my heart, your presence is there,

    but I am still looking for your love, everlasting. Fr now I have an implication. It still hurts. But I am waiting, and i will continue to wait until I have to wait no longer. For I will find a way, no matter what, I will find a way. If there is no way, I shall make a way on my...
    LonelyPuppy LonelyPuppy 16-17, F Dec 19, 2013

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    My Oldest Cousin Told Me My Heart Was A Useless Organ And He Is Right

    when you are as ugly as me... it is a useless organ ... this is a world were only the physically beautiful and violent survive I have loved a lot of people and cared for many people... I cared about Louise when her mother was ill, I cared about Louise when her husband left her I...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 14, 2012

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    Too Much

    Because of things that have happened in my life, I have kept a lot locked inside He has slowly been getting me to open up, help me share the burden. Sometimes  there are things that are much too close, very personal that I cannot share even with him
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 18, 2010

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    For Six Years

    since I was in 1st year highschool, I have always liked this girl. kept it in me all throughout my highschool days until the 4th year where I finally told her how I felt about her,she hugged me and at that moment, I really felt that I had her, now I am in 3rd year College, I...
    themrniceguy themrniceguy 18-21, M 1 Response May 17, 2010

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    Why I Could Never Say So Many Things

    There is so much I wish I could say. There is a huge and raging frustration within me that I see others on here sharing and venting things I could never share or vent. First, I would never risk my salvation or yours. Second, I could never say anything that could remove even a...
    perseverer perseverer 51-55, F 6 Responses Apr 12, 2011

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    I Don't Do This Any More

    Yeah, I definitely have done this, too much as a matter of fact.  So much that I ended up with PTSD, flashbacks, a total mental breakdown!!!  Not a good thing... We, my sisters and I, my cousins, really back then people didn't talk about their emotions, feelings, hurts...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 2 Responses Apr 20, 2011

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    Lock Box

    There is a lot of stuff locked inside my heart- some good, some bad, some scary. No one has the key, and I prefer it that way. Some things are just too private for anyone to ever know about.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 24, 2010

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    Changing My Life

    I have always kept most things quietly to myself. Have lived logically and igored emotions.Never even gave consideration to emotions such as physical attraction. As I've gotten older, the things that are important to me have changed. For the past year I have been learning to open...
    7kelli89 7kelli89 31-35 2 Responses Jun 16, 2010

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    A Thought..

    Sometimes the words I say are flat and empty. They slip from my lips, they lie like waste paper in a bin. Still I try to fill them with life, laughter, and love that I need you to hear, to feel, but they still seem papery.
    trappedwings trappedwings 26-30, F Dec 28, 2012

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    Yes, It Is Locked.

    I was a shy kid. But later on , I overcame shyness. Now I can face people directly. I can express my views without any fear. I can talk to a random stranger. I reversed my personality in this aspect. EP also helped me this. But when the matter comes to heart, then i am still a...
    Somexyz Somexyz 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 9, 2011

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    Fool I Stand

    you talk about suffering, the agony the pain i cause. I am a hindrance in your life, according to you. But so easily you forget all the times I bailed you out, gave you shelter, gave you love, fed you always by your side when needed. Never questioning (******* idiot, i turned out...
    lonesomeallthetime lonesomeallthetime 26-30, F Dec 5, 2011

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    Dear, Who I Once Loved

    I did everything i could possibly do to make sure you never got hurt. for 3 years i dragged myself on the street hustled every dime and did everything could to feed you.. as much a i resented you for what you made me become i loved you. you were the missing piece to everything...
    StinaXD StinaXD 18-21, F 1 Response May 1, 2013

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    I need someone's help

    so bad right now.. I'm need someone to take my mind of of things, before I end up hurting myself. You have no idea how scared I am right now. Please help me
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 18

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    Yes...

    There are many types of love and a heart can have many rooms.
    silentwellofsorrow silentwellofsorrow 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 18, 2010

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    Taylor Swift (featuring Ed Sheeeran) Everything

    Has Changed All I knew this morning when I woke Is I know something now, know something now I didn't before And all I've seen since 18 hours ago is green eyes and freckles and your smile in the back of my mind making me feel like I just want to know you better know you better...
    Tella84 Tella84 26-30, F Jun 1

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    Trying To Let It Out

    Slowly...I think I'm getting the hang of writing out my random thoughts here. Man am I spamming EP now :D
    MaikaJaymee MaikaJaymee 22-25 May 24, 2013

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    When You Let Your Mind Wander

    when you let your mind wander, where does it go? Is there anyone else doing the same wondering and feeling as I? I find myself knowing that I have so many things going for me in my life, people cheering for me and loving me, i think i'm going places...yet I still find reasons to...
    praytell praytell 18-21, F Aug 28, 2012

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    Built Up

    I'm too quiet sometimes, more so than people think. Would anyone really want me to express all the secret anger and resentment, the doubts I can't put into words, the fears, losses, the love you never really wanted from me, the defeat, the bitterness? I've been told before to...
    Sinaname Sinaname 26-30 1 Response Sep 17, 2012

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    Lost Love

    i and he were like 2 bodies and a soul...the day he proposed me was lyk a dream for me..we both enjoyed each others company, shared small and big things...it was hard to think of a single moment without him....but slowly and gradually that thing called "LOVE" disappeared from...
    pariga pariga 18-21, F Jan 7, 2012

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    I need help my heart is broken my life is over

    i dont wanna live im alone and hurt
    Lonelybrokenangel95 Lonelybrokenangel95 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    Wish

    I wish I was as invisible as you make me feel
    BreatheEasyAgain BreatheEasyAgain 36-40, F May 19, 2013

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    Lots

    This is right, I kept A LOT inside my heart and still keeping LOTS.  C'est la vie!
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 6 Responses Feb 17, 2010

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    Like Pain

    Alot like massive pain. Rapes, Bullying, Friends backstabbing me, abusive relationships, rumors, bad treatment from teachers. Big sigh...
    sweetmusic2011 sweetmusic2011 18-21, F Apr 18, 2011

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    Yes and right now I'm sad

    and wanna die it's beating so hard that my shirt shakes all my body shakes this started cuz of my severe depression I'm really worried
    Ummaperson Ummaperson 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    Run

    It's so much easier to run than face all this pain here all alone
    BreatheEasyAgain BreatheEasyAgain 36-40, F May 19, 2013

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    Thoughts...

    Do I really want? If I let you know what I really want and what lies inside my heart and how I see and want you in my life it may scare you …you can’t even think also what boundaries My want can cross I sometimes get scared seeing my craziness I can’t make you understand...
    trappedwings trappedwings 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2012

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    I Can't Seem To Let It All Out

    whenever i try to write what's in my head...i can't seem to let it all out...don't know how to start...often times i would write a few paragraph but then again i would hold it back and not continue at all....i used to keep a diary before but not anymore....i have lost my...
    kissbykarma kissbykarma 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 31, 2010

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    When it comes to heart,

    i lost my senses n rationality...
    Tella84 Tella84 26-30, F Apr 26

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    Torn Apart

    Theres nothing left of me to be hurt anymore, I've been torn apart.
    BreatheEasyAgain BreatheEasyAgain 36-40, F May 19, 2013

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    Then Let It Out....

    All my bottled up feelings, resentment, and anger...I let it out to my parents (who can never get along), my best friends (who can never get along), and my boyfriend (who won't admit he cheated) and now I'm done.
    Val3ntine Val3ntine 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 19, 2010

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    Changes ...

    I am changing.  Quite consciously.  Deliberately. Opening my heart.  Letting my feelings out.  Revealing my innermost thoughts. And it feels good.  Really good.
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 7 Responses Feb 17, 2010

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    Hmmm

    Love, pain, doubt, guilt, remorse, lust, and so many other things. My heart is full and is a perfect contradiction of emotions.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 19, 2011

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    Its Hard For Me To Said How I Feel

    I been with my fiance for 4yrs. now. We have a 2yr. old daughter togerther. Most of the times i dont tell him of how i feel about many things. i know that he wont know how i feel until i tell him. i said i luv u to him first, i always wait for him to said it to me first. Even if...
    anelatai anelatai 22-25, F Oct 19, 2011

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    Only Dreams

    Is it love at first sight? Hell no, i don’t even think that exists, but one thing I am sure of is that it’s love. I have known her for four years now, we kicked off as class mates and two years later we were best friends, best friends she says, but all i see is the love of my...
    ibahc ibahc 18-21, M Feb 18, 2012

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    I Am Male!

    Ever since i was a little kid i always loved playing i didn't care what it was dinosaurs, cars, dolls, stuffed animals whatever it was i played with it. I didn't dress only in "boys" clothes or only in "girls" clothes, But i did stop the dresses and the skirts at a very young age...
    DifferenceIsAcceptable DifferenceIsAcceptable 16-17, T 1 Response Apr 24, 2011

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    Will Remain Unanswered....

    love enraptured my heart to the fullest. It touched my soul so gently Filling my heart with immense desire as your love for me you declared. But now my heart is so numbed everything seems to be vague and mirage.. Trust I can’t, though I want to but deep inside it bleeds only I...
    trappedwings trappedwings 26-30, F Jan 24, 2013

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    I don´t heart every comment my posts may get just because...I do it when I agree and only if they are not impolite or aggressive...I usually delete them or reply appropiately...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    There's this man at work, he is so kind to me and so thoughtful , we always talk about everything and sometimes he would say good things about me and even asked my best friend...
    nbsbgal nbsbgal 22-25, F 6 hrs ago

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    I didn't mean to fall in love with him--I just did. He was just a schoolmate back in College. But ever since one of my classmates said that we looked good together, my suffering...
    ayamesan16 ayamesan16 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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    Those words you said "I want to remain as friends" and "I knew you liked me for a while" took me by surprise. I didn't know what they until a couple of hours later when I finally...
    Evoriya Evoriya 16-17, F Dec 1

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