I Know About Bipolar Disorder

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    Bipolar disorder sucks !

    Every day is an internal never ending struggle, nobody sees or aknowledges that im in pain and nobody understands or cares. I suffer from severe anxiety and ptsd stemming from my past and this had led to me isolating myself most days unless my husband is with me. I feel stupid...
    queenofdarkness83 queenofdarkness83
    31-35, F
    Aug 30, 2015
    ModifiedMamaofTwo ModifiedMamaofTwo
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 4, 2015

    I hate this disorder.

    I hate that I know anything about it. I hate that 2 of my kids have it. I hate the mania. I hate having to worry about them all of the time. I hate that I am hypersensitive to any movement in the middle of the night worried to death that one of them is walking the floors...
    Arubaskies Arubaskies
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Dec 23, 2015

    Life,death...and the Miracles of Living.....

    I met my children’s’ father, “Bob”, in 1984 when I was 15.  We were a bi-racial couple in a small community during a time when inter-racial couples were NOT nearly as accepted as they are now.  My mother was an abusive alcoholic, my stepfather...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter
    36-40, F
    24 Responses Aug 6, 2006

    I don't suffer from bipolar

    but I do have it now sometimes the people around me suffer from my bipolar cause they don't get it and the meds don't always control everything especially the panic N irritability
    tindertear tindertear
    41-45, F
    Jul 15, 2015

    Another Night, Another Day

    Must've had yet another bout of mania.....sitting here hoping my meds kick in because i feel like i'm on the last hours of a good trip - as you start to come down and you can feel the gritty energy that you were so high on. My mind is spinning, but i can feel my body winding...
    spygirl1978 spygirl1978
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 7, 2012

    There Is More To You Than This Disorder

    My son has been diagnosed with this disorder. We have had a couple of rocky years in the past but things are looking better. Now that he is getting treatment we look back and have some explanations for his behavior. He was not purposely sleeping in and missing school just to...
    friendsonly friendsonly
    46-50, F
    Mar 11, 2013

    Yea I know about bipolar I m Bipolar I had

    situation last night with my grl then she says I better take my Meds cuz I've been upset & I snapp & called her *hey lady* she took offense to that & told me get the **** out of her house,being Bipolar is very hard I'm sad & alone wish there were someone to understand...
    torres54 torres54
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2014

    Overcome

     this bi-polar thing really completely totally sux> I am finally at the end of a dead end street.  I am completely over come with absolute depression. I have been thinking of only one thing   relief. My every breath is miserable, I am completely ashamed and embarassed by this...
    originalmadman originalmadman
    46-50, M
    5 Responses Feb 27, 2012

    I Hate Bipolar Jokes

    Each time people say "You're bipolar" or "so-and-so is bipolar" I secretly cringe inside. Anybody that has lived with a relative with bipolar knows it's not fun.The worst of it comes when they are off their meds or when they're bipolar and don't even know it.The latter was true...
    montezia93 montezia93
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 20, 2011

    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449
    22-25, F
    Mar 27, 2015

    From My Family Member and She Is Not Crazy!

    My sister is bipolar. People can be cruel.   I get angry when someone refers to her as crazy.  She has an illness and that is all anyone needs to say.  Maybe it isn’t something that you can see the physical effects on her body like you can MS, Cancer...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    46-50, F
    8 Responses Aug 3, 2008

    Does anyone see or hear things with bipolar.

    I see things that's not there and hear things. I started smelling cigaret smoke recently but I don't smoke. I hate smoke. But I noticed when I am depressed I am like this and I also space out from time to time. Like I was in another place for a second and back again. Smh
    Bipolarshon Bipolarshon
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Dec 18, 2014

    Many women have ridden the roller coaster with

    me. Many have fallen off. A few have clung even tighter. God bless the few.
    Golondrinas Golondrinas
    56-60, M
    2 Responses Jul 16, 2015

    i can help people of this disorder .

    But if i say it here everyone copy me . what if i get money by helping peoples. I can help such peoples Guaranteec .
    LooserMale LooserMale
    22-25, M
    Jul 3, 2015

    I just had a story taken down from this group

    because I mentioned that I attempted suicide in 2004 while in a mixed state. This is stating a fact, EP, not an endorsement. And to the person who flagged me, this is not against the rules as they are written. I have used my story to help many people come back from the...
    emperornorton47 emperornorton47
    56-60, M
    1 Response Sep 9, 2015

    I have been on meds for 18 years.

    Was diagnosed with depression at age 16 then at 20 diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I have been on practically everything. Some do nothing. Some work for a while then just stop. I've been doing this constant trial and error with different combinations for 18 years now. Almost...
    jks1981 jks1981
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 13, 2015

    (Updated to first person) I'm getting more

    experienced with the mania side and seeing how it effects my behavior and attitude. Mania is a high that skews my judgement. I think I can do things that aren't realistic. I start setting goals that are beyond my reach. I feel like the normal rules dont apply to me just...
    stufy stufy
    51-55
    8 Responses Aug 20, 2014

    Today I'm a totally different person

    than I was almost a year ago. My diagnosis changed my life, for the better. I destroyed so many things, so many relationships with my ever changing moods. There's a lot I look back on and regret. Especially with one person who took so much time to try and help me. He tried so...
    ChainedHeart ChainedHeart
    22-25, F
    May 28, 2015

    I suffer from wild mood swings,

    depression, anxiety, and panic attacks. People who don't know me don't understand i like to stay indoors away from the world when im depressed and suicidal.Im too sensitive which can trigger depression. But other times im very happy and normal, i need help.....
    RebeccaIsabel RebeccaIsabel
    18-21, F
    Jul 13, 2015

    I know all about bipolar disorder .

    I know all about the ups and the downs, the wanting the sex all the time, and the not wanting to be touched at all. I know all about the mood swings, and the restlessness. I know all about this because I deal with it everyday. Day in and day out. I know about the High high...
    HisLittleAriel HisLittleAriel
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 3, 2015

    If You Are Bi-polar Or Love Someone That Is......

    ....this entry may help you.  it's actually a letter i sent to a very important friend of mine, back in november of 05.  but, i was reading through some old letters and journal entries and i thought this one could probably speak for a lot of people who have been...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Feb 23, 2007

    I am a card carrying member of the 'Bi-Polar

    Club??. Thanks to a wonderful Psychiatrist, Therapist, and a proper and effective medication regime, as well as self help programs, I lead a normal life. It is simply a disease of the mind and is treated as such. As a writer, I often ''lend my pen'' to several agencies to...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 3, 2015

    Sister...

    You can’t see the world through anyone’s eyes but your own. But, I can imagine the world through yours, and my heart aches for you in a way I can’t possibly describe. Yet it’s all in your hands. Your life is in YOUR hands. I have no say so. I have NO CHOICE but to sit by...
    LG76 LG76
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 25, 2012

    I thought that all of his manners are

    because of hypermania but today he was joking with his colleague and i was waiting for his happy mood in the home
    Mshf Mshf
    26-30
    Aug 27, 2015

    I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder almost 4

    years ago. It took about 2 years to get a med regimen that worked. So now I feel like the real me. Problem now is that my relationship I was in has ended and the prospect of dating is harrowing.
    Danni1313 Danni1313
    41-45, F
    1 Response Feb 28

    today I am so irritated

    and annoyed....time for as needed meds sad but my 13 year old teenage boy and my husband is being my triggers can anyone relate...help please
    tindertear tindertear
    41-45, F
    Jul 15, 2015

    When should one give it up

    and just try to get SSDI benefits for bi polar disorder?? The high expectations, going to work, doing great work but missing days that gets one fired.. A Really Smart person, who doesn't mind working to the point of pain, constantly thinking of how to make their company better...
    ToughSoftMom ToughSoftMom
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Nov 2, 2015

    My brother has bipolar.

    He has struggled all his adult life with it. He hates taking the medication,but realises that he can be dangerous to himself and others if he abstains. My younger bro is a good man. He has no criminal records. He is a kind hearted father of 2 kids who he adores. But...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jul 2, 2015

    Bipolar: Ecstatic Horror

    I am diagnosed with Bipolar I and complex partial seizure disorder.  I still cannot fully believe I have either, but these two severe illness are the excruciating blessings of my life.  I am a painter and my psychotic illnesses fuel my creative enterprise, give me...
    gatekeeper gatekeeper
    70+
    3 Responses Nov 13, 2007

    I have been recently dx .

    It creates issues with love,life,& I drink too much
    SocialBee78 SocialBee78
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 2, 2015

    I don't think we should generalize people with

    this illness. As with people without a mental illness, you have good personalities and bad ones. But if their intentions and personality traits are bad, they can be extra dangerous because of their illness. They are capable of hurting you (physically, but especially mentally...
    IthinksoIam IthinksoIam
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 19, 2015

    I've met some beautiful bipolar ladies

    who have learned to open their hearts, be creative and love the world. There's a song that reminds me of them, Any precious Girl by Ben Sures that reminds me of these beauties.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 24, 2015

    My boyfriends is bipolar

    and it's hard to deal with it at times. Some days I wish I could take away his pain, others I wish I could just get out of this relationship and have a more stable one with someone else. I'm sick of being ignored and not showed any love. I know he is better than this. I have...
    nicolem84 nicolem84
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 5, 2014

    I don't know why, but it REALLY irritates me

    when people claim that having mood swings makes them Bipolar. Kendall Jenner recently had a tweet where she "reported" the change of her hair color. She claimed that she missed her old hair color and that that made her "Bipolar." Nobody understands it. The overall ignorance...
    Boulier Boulier
    18-21, F
    Jan 12, 2014

    I am up out of bed! I didn't go to work

    yesterday. It was a bad day. I took a shower after three days and will be going outside for the first time in three days. My boss thinks if I join the YMCA, some how my mental illness will just go away. I wish.
    tearsalwaysflow tearsalwaysflow
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Mar 3, 2015

    Understanding...?

    I know a number of people with bi-polar disorder.  I find them very difficult to get along with.  Mind you, all these people engage in self medication (drinking or pot), some play with their medications and all of them spend long periods of time neither sleeping or...
    claysu claysu
    56-60, F
    1 Response Apr 5, 2010

    having a bipolar episode

    and would love a person I can talk to when ever it hits. someone I can build trust with. someone I can go to for emotional support and someone that can come to me when they need it.
    0love 0love
    18-21
    3 Responses Aug 25, 2015

    A Longtime Affliction

    I was diagnosed with manic-depressive disorder back in 1985, before it became "popular". Before that I was "moody", "volatile", "mercurial", etc. I've been managing it since then with meds (that I occasionally have to upgrade), but that with counseling gives me a decent quality...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Aug 17, 2010

    I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 about a month ago

    and I've been on medication to try to help even things out. And prior to 3 days ago things were going just fine. People aside from myself noticed my mood has been much more positive than before but since last Friday things have drastically changed. Nothing has really happened it...
    tabX07 tabX07
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 16, 2015

    Think This Over And Save Yourself

    I was married to a bipolar for five years. We divorced in 08. If you are seeing someone with this disorder, just know that the ways it is now is the way it will always be. I realize that there are different degrees to this disease. Some are worse than others. If your...
    Kimlee22 Kimlee22
    56-60
    4 Responses Apr 23, 2012

    I was diagnosed as Bipolar in October 1997.

    As a young child I had been anxious and prone to make myself sick at the least provocation. In my late teens I finally found some confidence and became more settled in my own skin. In my twenties, until my diagnosis, I felt strong and independent. Very little fazed me - I lived...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 4, 2015

    My Sister And Bipolar

    I love my sister. I hate her mental illness. Perhaps it's understandable why someone would hate a debilitating mental illness that robs a loved one of their rational state of being, but I am also jealous of it. This insidious disease that consumes her at random, makes her...
    lockpick lockpick
    31-35, M
    18 Responses Feb 11, 2010

    I didn't mature right.

    The bipolar threw me off whenever I attempted to grow out of my nuclear family role. Didn't trust therapists enough. Still, I'll keep up the fight (get better at surrendering;)) I'm embarrassed for the way I am, but that's just when I let something other than divine love...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 19, 2015

    I Do

    I know all about bipolar disorder . I know all about the ups and the downs, the wanting the sex all the time, and the not wanting to be touched at all. I know all about the mood swings, and the restlessness. I know all about this because I deal with it everyday. Day in and day...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Nov 12, 2012

    Well so much for that.

    When my 15 year old son was discharged yesterday from the hospital, I was very clear with them that they were making a mistake and he was not stable enough to leave. They refused to listen. It's 1:10 in the morning and I am in the ER of a different hospital with the same son...
    Arubaskies Arubaskies
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Dec 24, 2015

    Sometimes it is difficult to understand

    why the situation is as they get. There is an art to just sit back and wait for the answer. There is an art to be able to put that aside and devote thoughts to other things in the meantime. To try to do so the thoughts do not take the upper hand and the feeling remains.
    Mori75 Mori75
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jul 14, 2015

    I was diagnosed in 2004

    after I attempted suicide in a mixed state.
    emperornorton47 emperornorton47
    56-60, M
    Sep 6, 2015

    one of my bff's is bipolar.

    so yah, I know about bipolar....
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 29, 2015

    I'm struggling. I think I have Bipolar disorder.

    About 2 months ago, I finally plucked up the courage to get help as it was getting to much for me. Long story cut short, for a VERY long time I've struggled with the crazy highs and crashing lows. I see a therapist but unfortunately, as much as I try and explain, she just does...
    dte21 dte21
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 18, 2015
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