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I Know My Heart

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    Favorite Experience Recorded in My Journal

      I loved riding along the California coast and enjoying the plants, so different from those of the desert and of the Midwest.   Five years before the events of this story Hubby had decided we would move back to the Midwest, and separation from folks who had given me support...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 8 Responses May 29, 2011

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    Lifes Blessings

    Before you were born, before any sonogram could tell me, I knew your sex. Before any pregnancy test could tell me, I knew you were growing inside of me. I knew I loved you before any doctor or test told me that you were there. When you were born, the pain was forgotten when you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 10, 2011

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    OH – MY – GOSH – YES – THERE – IS

    – A – SANTA. Something made me watch BECOMING SANTA, a movie for which I had seen no recommendation at all, other than the fact that it is a Christmas movie. It turned out to be about 'real world' guys who play Santa. I stuck with it, all the while thinking how odd it...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    The Mystic's Pain

    If the sky were to become purple-black and rain searing green fire all ‘round, it would have nothing to do with the the feelings in a mystic’s heart.    But when he makes an opening between his fingers and looks out, he hears our cries--our suffering because we haven’t...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F May 15, 2011

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    Soft-Hearted

    Well, I was told to stay away from animals... family does not allow to have any pets.. but I guess a dog changed my heart.. India has many stray animals.. I was in college living away from home.. Once I saved a little pup who couldn't walk - from a herd of locals dogs out to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 27, 2013

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    We Consciously Tried To Be No Bother

    We went back to our spot near Sedona and saw the beautiful comfortably settled-in homes that look out across the valley, just like we used to do while sitting in our folding lawn chairs next to a wait-a-minute bush.  We couldn't actually deny a certain beauty of freshly...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 8 Responses Sep 1, 2011

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    Meeting a Mystic, a Disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda

    She was young and I was young, but she was mature enough to be called a spiritual giant, and I was mature enough to know that it was true.   When I saw her across the lawn my homing instinct took me, and as she walked here and there I floated, entranced, behind her right...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 9 Responses May 15, 2011

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    Know My Heart

    Why do I pray? Do I pray to say I prayed an hour? Why do I love? Do I want you beholden to me? Why do I help? Do I help to hear my name called out? And why do I sing? Search me and know my heart, Oh God. See if there is any wrong thing in me All I have ever really wanted...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    Training A Child In The Way He Should Go -- Aka -- A Harsh Environment Demands That A Child Learn To Accept Responsibility

    This is the story, told by The Gypsy,  of a climb she made out of the Grand Canyon with a party of Havasupai, and of a boy's adventures on that trip. The child had been told, the night before, that they would be accompanying the group setting out the next day to gather pine nuts...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    And I Thought I Had Been Living Simply.

    I find getting old to be a very great pleasure as I sit in my not uncomfortable chair.There’s no desire for a magazine or a computer or TV or phone or backrub or window view—actually, not even for chocolate.. Inside there is comfort.  It’s very interesting inside.  There...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 10 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    Dweller In Multiple Worlds

    I'm beginning a walk.  A tour of a farm,  of struggles and achievement.  Of nothing.  I leave out that which would cause purposeless sorrow. It's 1940.  The  fence is clear of brush, has sturdy posts, and the wires are stretched tight enough that you can climb...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 11 Responses May 6, 2011

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    The Lover

    OUT THERE IN THE WORLD COGNIZED BY MIND   THE LOVER IS UNSEEN AND RARELY SUSPECTED,   THE CARESSES ASSIGNED TO A SOURCE OTHER,   THE GIFTS TAKEN TO BE THEIR OWN PROGENY. 
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 1 Response May 13, 2011

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    As Good As Any Revenge

    My mother was strong and my dad wasn’t. He was fifteen years older than she. Before he died, after he needed care and came to live with us, Daddy told me he was afraid that Mother was going to give everything to my little brother and that he would fight her to get anything...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 14 Responses Mar 30, 2012

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    Romance is Divine

    Romance is divine When one's romance is with the Divine.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 2 Responses May 31, 2011

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    The Love Egg

    There were strange events surrounding the group of young men with whom our son met often, and he remembers it a little differently than I do, but he didn’t record it and I did. Here’s one of the events, another story from the front of my journal. It was a nice group of teen...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 2 Responses Oct 17, 2011

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    In

    It is a place of friendly shadows, with lichen and mushrooms and fairies. Her feet go soft on moss, and she can lie on her stomach with the cosmic lover and watch fishes in clear greeny pools. The beauty makes her eyes mist. This is why she loves being alone.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2011

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    An Ocean Of Flowers

    I flew, speckled with luminous electricity, A crazed dragonfly, with black sea-horses for escort When dreams were crushing with bitter blows My skies of ultramarine were burning Into the unknown yellow ochre orb ... It was then that I saw an ocean of flowers    
    THEMADHATTERXXXX THEMADHATTERXXXX 46-50, M Oct 7, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I remember meeting you. I remember sitting with my friend, talking nonsense. We were laughing about something so silly. When I heard a voice, oh a beautiful voice. I looked...
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    Two years ago today I never thought my life would change forever. October 20, 2012. I got pregnant at 16. All of these emotions are flooding in. I never thought I would actually...
    forgottenheart forgottenheart 18-21, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I need help. I was married for 16 years dated my husband for 10 years prior. I am 43 He cheated on me twice, hit me and always verbally abusive. I have two children. I didn't want...
    Butterbug10 Butterbug10 41-45, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I have written this story almost a year ago in my old account that I have deleted. October 26, 2014 1:35 am PHT to be exact. For someone who has and have been continuously making a...
    zoiera zoiera 26-30, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    What follows is an account of a dream I had 35 years ago. It was of a place I read about after “seeing” (as in a vision) it in the dream. You’ve heard of it; it’s heaven...
    CallmeIshmael CallmeIshmael 61-65, M 36 mins ago

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    Sow To Reap ~ Grow, Don't Sleep Dare to persevere.You've got to reach there.Breathe aloud the fresh air.Let loose n Smile. No stare.Time now to work in pair.For sure, all'd be...
    kuveeraa kuveeraa 36-40 5 hrs ago

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    Why do we have to make people unhappy in quest to be happy? I don't know what is worse - having my heart broken or remembering that ones I broke. Whoever invented the way we...
    Offoff Offoff 26-30, M 42 mins ago

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    That someone never ceases to amaze me... She always have and always will.. She brightens up my day like no other person could.. Calms me like no one ever would.. She came into...
    zoiera zoiera 26-30, F 58 mins ago

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    A inhabitants-dependent cohort study from the Netherlands uncovered that Grownups aged 55 decades or more mature who had high dietary intakes of vitamin C in addition to beta...
    Matthew9360qft1 Matthew9360qft1 31-35, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I really don't care what others have to think about my being kiddish every now and then. I completely know that I am one of the responsible persons on this planet. But more than...
    hiddentears hiddentears 22-25, F 10 hrs ago

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    I know you won't understand but music has no language..
    adiscorpion41 adiscorpion41 22-25, M 3 hrs ago

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    richness in green wads is so superficial its the richness of the heart ..read compassion which matters..no bank balances ever helped people in being remembered once they were gone...
    romell romell 36-40, M 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I can't do it anymore. I wanted to be strong. I don't want to guilt him. I didn't guilt him last time. He came back on his own. I only left him two messages, neither pressuring nor...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Oct 3

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    Hello everybody. I'm a new member here, but I'm not a "new heartbreak". My heart is broken long time ago. First of all, I want say that I’m amazed with Experience Project, and I...
    Dams3lfly Dams3lfly 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 23

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    I don't know how, or why, I keep going back to you, or why I don't just let you go. I know this is gonna end in disaster and heart break but I'd be willing to give my heart to you...
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F Sep 28

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    I feel helpless. It really is out of my control. I don't know if there's anything else that I can do. I'm frustrated because I had just typed out a long paragraph and it got erased...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    I don't know what to do. I can't persuade him of anything. He has to figure it out on his own. I just hope the happiness and love I brought into this relationship is enough for him...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    This is some thing I wrote a week after my hear break. Thought I would share it I dosed off early that day. I had had a long day and I had just gotten message from him saying...
    NotGoodAtLove NotGoodAtLove 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    Do you remember the day? I do, and remember it well. It was the night before your surgery, April 12, 2014. We stayed up all night not wanting to say good night, or good bye...
    Spicedpecan0617 Spicedpecan0617 61-65, F Oct 6

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    Right now, I need to focus on mending my insecurities and problems. Here are some quotes that I can relate to. I'll come back and read these every time I feel like breaking down...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Oct 10

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    I still checking my Ex facebook. And I know if meet him I will disappointed . He was 8 years old young and he wasn't even good kisser and I don't know. We almost had a sex and I...
    olsen1004 olsen1004 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 2

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    Maybe I'm crazy, maybe I'm young and stupid. So I'm not going to call what we had more than dating. But I've never had such strong feelings for someone... It wasn't to long ago...
    ashuriiNikooru ashuriiNikooru 18-21, F Sep 25

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    Its beating time with mineYou thought loveLove, love was on the lineHe holds you downBut I know you want to runBut you're hot, hotLoaded like a gunOh you feel oh so trapped and...
    Incognito666 Incognito666 18-21, M Oct 4

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    Today is our 2nd anniversary. When we first met, I never dared to dream the beautiful girl shaking my hand would one day become my wife, let alone that love of a lifetime I kept...
    overtherainbow47 overtherainbow47 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 11

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    I see nothing in your eyes, and the more I see the less I like. Is it over yet, in my head? I know nothing of your kind, and I won't reveal your evil mind. Is it over yet? I can...
    Smaugthestupendous Smaugthestupendous 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    I know pain I know abuse To think I'm alone and forgotten Stuck left to the darkness that is my heart Sound gone and bereft of beat Thought to never get better To only shatter But...
    EverChangingMind EverChangingMind 18-21, M Sep 23

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    Almost a year ago, the love of my life left me for another man, whom she had a child with. We were together for almost 12 years and besides our kids, I've never loved another human...
    midwesterndad74 midwesterndad74 46-50, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    I have had Heart or Wings as part of my email address for the last 10 years. I was going through a rough time in life, my heart had felt like it was ripped to shreds. I thought...
    Wings1969 Wings1969 41-45, F 4 Responses Oct 4

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    Life is never easy...if it was it would not be worth it! I thank God for the love He gives us so freely, He is our heavenly father who only wants the best for us... For those of us...
    Bfive Bfive 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 25

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    Long term illness is difficult to deal with at the best of times, but being told you need major surgery like a heart transplant is not what I'd call pleasant. I have spent the...
    InstantCustard InstantCustard 26-30, M Oct 12

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    Whoever said that that "it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" clearly has no idea what he/she was talking about. Falling in love is such a wonderful...
    webkoala webkoala 26-30 a week ago

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