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I Know My Heart

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 96 People

    OH – MY – GOSH – YES – THERE – IS

    – A – SANTA. Something made me watch BECOMING SANTA, a movie for which I had seen no recommendation at all, other than the fact that it is a Christmas movie. It turned out to be about 'real world' guys who play Santa. I stuck with it, all the while thinking how odd it...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Dweller In Multiple Worlds

    I'm beginning a walk.  A tour of a farm,  of struggles and achievement.  Of nothing.  I leave out that which would cause purposeless sorrow. It's 1940.  The  fence is clear of brush, has sturdy posts, and the wires are stretched tight enough that you can climb...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 11 Responses May 6, 2011

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    Soft-Hearted

    Well, I was told to stay away from animals... family does not allow to have any pets.. but I guess a dog changed my heart.. India has many stray animals.. I was in college living away from home.. Once I saved a little pup who couldn't walk - from a herd of locals dogs out to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 27, 2013

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    Meeting a Mystic, a Disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda

    She was young and I was young, but she was mature enough to be called a spiritual giant, and I was mature enough to know that it was true.   When I saw her across the lawn my homing instinct took me, and as she walked here and there I floated, entranced, behind her right...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 10 Responses May 15, 2011

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    Favorite Experience Recorded in My Journal

      I loved riding along the California coast and enjoying the plants, so different from those of the desert and of the Midwest.   Five years before the events of this story Hubby had decided we would move back to the Midwest, and separation from folks who had given me support...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 9 Responses May 29, 2011

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    And I Thought I Had Been Living Simply.

    I find getting old to be a very great pleasure as I sit in my not uncomfortable chair.There’s no desire for a magazine or a computer or TV or phone or backrub or window view—actually, not even for chocolate.. Inside there is comfort.  It’s very interesting inside.  There...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 11 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    As Good As Any Revenge

    My mother was strong and my dad wasn’t. He was fifteen years older than she. Before he died, after he needed care and came to live with us, Daddy told me he was afraid that Mother was going to give everything to my little brother and that he would fight her to get anything...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 15 Responses Mar 30, 2012

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    Training A Child In The Way He Should Go -- Aka -- A Harsh Environment Demands That A Child Learn To Accept Responsibility

    This is the story, told by The Gypsy,  of a climb she made out of the Grand Canyon with a party of Havasupai, and of a boy's adventures on that trip. The child had been told, the night before, that they would be accompanying the group setting out the next day to gather pine nuts...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    An Ocean Of Flowers

    I flew, speckled with luminous electricity, A crazed dragonfly, with black sea-horses for escort When dreams were crushing with bitter blows My skies of ultramarine were burning Into the unknown yellow ochre orb ... It was then that I saw an ocean of flowers    
    THEMADHATTERXXXX THEMADHATTERXXXX 46-50, M Oct 7, 2011

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    This heart of mine, was never broken to begin

    with, was never yours to begin with, you were never mine to begin with, we were never meant to be to begin with.
    Jeggo Jeggo 31-35, F Dec 6, 2013

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    In

    It is a place of friendly shadows, with lichen and mushrooms and fairies. Her feet go soft on moss, and she can lie on her stomach with the cosmic lover and watch fishes in clear greeny pools. The beauty makes her eyes mist. This is why she loves being alone.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2011

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    The Mystic's Pain

    If the sky were to become purple-black and rain searing green fire all ‘round, it would have nothing to do with the the feelings in a mystic’s heart.    But when he makes an opening between his fingers and looks out, he hears our cries--our suffering because we haven’t...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F May 15, 2011

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    The Lover

    OUT THERE IN THE WORLD COGNIZED BY MIND   THE LOVER IS UNSEEN AND RARELY SUSPECTED,   THE CARESSES ASSIGNED TO A SOURCE OTHER,   THE GIFTS TAKEN TO BE THEIR OWN PROGENY. 
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 1 Response May 13, 2011

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    The Love Egg

    There were strange events surrounding the group of young men with whom our son met often, and he remembers it a little differently than I do, but he didn’t record it and I did. Here’s one of the events, another story from the front of my journal. It was a nice group of teen...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 2 Responses Oct 17, 2011

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    Romance is Divine

    Romance is divine When one's romance is with the Divine.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 3 Responses May 31, 2011

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    We Consciously Tried To Be No Bother

    We went back to our spot near Sedona and saw the beautiful comfortably settled-in homes that look out across the valley, just like we used to do while sitting in our folding lawn chairs next to a wait-a-minute bush.  We couldn't actually deny a certain beauty of freshly...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 8 Responses Sep 1, 2011

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    Lifes Blessings

    Before you were born, before any sonogram could tell me, I knew your sex. Before any pregnancy test could tell me, I knew you were growing inside of me. I knew I loved you before any doctor or test told me that you were there. When you were born, the pain was forgotten when you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 10, 2011

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    Know My Heart

    Why do I pray? Do I pray to say I prayed an hour? Why do I love? Do I want you beholden to me? Why do I help? Do I help to hear my name called out? And why do I sing? Search me and know my heart, Oh God. See if there is any wrong thing in me All I have ever really wanted...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    The woman I thought id marry said it's best that we don't talk it broke my heart I feel like dying I never did anything wrong to hurt her I treated her like a princess But she...
    rique20 rique20 18-21, M 1 hr ago

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    Every night in my dreams I see you, I feel you, That is how I know you go on Far across the distance And spaces between us You have come to show you go on Near, far, wherever you...
    karianne5683 karianne5683 16-17, F Jul 15

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    I happened upon this piece of writing today, and I liked it so much I thought I'd share. It really speaks to me! I agree with what she says, and almost feel like I could have...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 36-40, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I don't want to feel anything today (I don't want to feel anything today) Anything at all I'll just be alone (I just want to know that you want to know) I don't want to live...
    farhad1993 farhad1993 18-21, M Jul 4

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    I see your faceYou look more beautiful every passing dayI live this tranceWhere I'm loved by this wonderful woman.I want you, I feel you, I love youThis feeling I have for you is...
    prettyfate prettyfate 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    I understand what it’s like to want to hide a part of who you are, to want to lock the key into your heart, into who you are, and throw it into the deepest depths of the ocean...
    brandon1841 brandon1841 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    I need a love that grows I don't want it unless I know With each passing hour Someone somehow Will be there, ready to share I need a love that's strong I'm so tired of being alone...
    SweetEmotions SweetEmotions 36-40, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I don't know what to say, I don't know what to think, I don't know what to do anymore. Maybe I fell in love with you early in my life for a reason and maybe I don't love you at all...
    brandon1841 brandon1841 18-21, M Jul 13

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     Cold Winter's Heart Stormy skies in the darkness of night ...Surrounded by darknessMillion stars shine beneath the cloudsThe rain falls deep in side the heartLike a...
    mintybear2 mintybear2 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    It really hurts being parted from my daughter. But I wouldn’t trade those feelings for the world. Yes, no one likes divorce. The problems between my ex are our own, and not my...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55, M Jun 29

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    Thinking of you is all i ever really do, Trying not to cry is a mission in my eyes, I miss you so much that i can't help but to cry, I'm so in love with you that my heart can't...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 3

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    After 1 failed marriage and 7 broken relationships I am done with telling my tail of a broken heart. It took me 20 years to figure out that we are only as happy as we purpose to be...
    SunsetDaily SunsetDaily 36-40, F Jul 3

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    MindvsHeartAJ - It basically describes how I am at this point in life. Everything I do starts a complete war between my mind and my heart and I, AJ, am at the mercy of both. Even...
    MindvsHeartAJ MindvsHeartAJ 18-21, T 1 Response Jul 5

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    I'll Never Let You Go As darkness comes here once again To steal away the light We gather once again for tales You just may die from fright Now settle in and gather round Take...
    wendu44 wendu44 18-21, F Jul 9

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    Although I've been hurt a lot in the past. And I know I shouldn't have let people into my heart easily. But when you like someone so much.. You want to know the whole thing about...
    kiarna811 kiarna811 13-15, F Jul 16

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    Because am tired of fighting down these feelings, am sick of being "accustomed" to everything. I am tired of being hurt constantly,and it's driving me crazy cz i can't find answer...
    carelesswhisper00 carelesswhisper00 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    To: The Girl Who Will Replace Me He is going to love you. He will hold your hands when the two of you are together, he will sit by your side on the beach, but don't run around...
    butterfliesndut butterfliesndut 18-21, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I want you to clear your mind and put all egos aside. Review & research, because in the end of our lives we all face death- and only then will we find out once and for all if what...
    Mirandaluvslife Mirandaluvslife 36-40, F Jul 2

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    I carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere I go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M Jul 5

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    You know how when my heart was broken and didn't want to pick up the pieces? Well soon I picked them up, but the hurt and pain was still present. I was just a shell of a man. No...
    LuckyGuy001 LuckyGuy001 13-15, M Jul 13

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    A little story about a heartbreak... She was in love with him. He did not love her back the same way. His presence made her fall in love with him more thinking he wanted to stay...
    Zozolove Zozolove 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Deer Spirit Animal Deer spirit animal and totem meaning When you have the deer as spirit animal, you are highly sensitive and have a strong intuition. By affinity with this animal...
    Skylar2000 Skylar2000 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Wow, heart break sucks. This isn't the first time I've had my heart broken. The guys I was with before hurt me, broke my heart into a thousand piece, but as cliche as this sounds...
    Via70 Via70 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    1: What would you name your future daughter? Abrielle 2: Do you miss anyone? Yes 3: What if I told you that you were pretty? i would thank you 4: Ever been told “it’s not...
    Borntobedevilcute Borntobedevilcute 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    There is too much I feel, much I want to say. I feel hurt and I can't show how deeply only with expressing I can give a glimpse. I try to treat those around me with respect and...
    Xenasdreams Xenasdreams 22-25, F Jul 1

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    I don't know what to say. When I have the opportunity to be happy, I am full of guilt and sadness. I want to smile but in my mind I know it's so unreal. I wonder maybe it is just...
    AxDisorientedxMind AxDisorientedxMind 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    “First day of seventh grade, Hmm hopefully this goes well.” I thought to myself as I went to my first period class. It was my second year at the Academy and I was looking...
    Lifeisgoodtearsofjoy Lifeisgoodtearsofjoy 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 14

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    1) What would you name your future daughter? Zoey!! 2) Do you miss anyone? Uncontrollably. 3) What if I told you that you're pretty? Aww, thanks.. *blushes* 4) Ever been told...
    Jennnaaa Jennnaaa 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I found out he was "back" with his X, apparently they been together and never broke up, he play both of us, she doesn't know about me, I confront him about it he didn't face me and...
    esscape esscape 36-40, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have to get this off my chest or I will explode. My husband and I have been married several years. I had a child from a previous relationship, and we had two together. I always...
    nwhermit nwhermit 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I am 29. I had a major heart attack in March. I was rushed to hospital and had an angiogram straight away. They scented a 99.9% blockage. I had another heart attack during the...
    Misslandscape Misslandscape 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 19

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