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I Know My Heart

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    It is a place of friendly shadows, with lichen and mushrooms and fairies. Her feet go soft on moss, and she can lie on her stomach with the cosmic lover and watch fishes in clear greeny pools. The beauty makes her eyes mist. This is why she loves being alone.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2011

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    OH – MY – GOSH – YES – THERE – IS

    – A – SANTA. Something made me watch BECOMING SANTA, a movie for which I had seen no recommendation at all, other than the fact that it is a Christmas movie. It turned out to be about 'real world' guys who play Santa. I stuck with it, all the while thinking how odd it...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Know My Heart

    Why do I pray? Do I pray to say I prayed an hour? Why do I love? Do I want you beholden to me? Why do I help? Do I help to hear my name called out? And why do I sing? Search me and know my heart, Oh God. See if there is any wrong thing in me All I have ever really wanted...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    The Lover

    OUT THERE IN THE WORLD COGNIZED BY MIND   THE LOVER IS UNSEEN AND RARELY SUSPECTED,   THE CARESSES ASSIGNED TO A SOURCE OTHER,   THE GIFTS TAKEN TO BE THEIR OWN PROGENY. 
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 1 Response May 13, 2011

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    An Ocean Of Flowers

    I flew, speckled with luminous electricity, A crazed dragonfly, with black sea-horses for escort When dreams were crushing with bitter blows My skies of ultramarine were burning Into the unknown yellow ochre orb ... It was then that I saw an ocean of flowers    
    THEMADHATTERXXXX THEMADHATTERXXXX 46-50, M Oct 7, 2011

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    The Love Egg

    There were strange events surrounding the group of young men with whom our son met often, and he remembers it a little differently than I do, but he didn’t record it and I did. Here’s one of the events, another story from the front of my journal. It was a nice group of teen...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 2 Responses Oct 17, 2011

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    Meeting a Mystic, a Disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda

    She was young and I was young, but she was mature enough to be called a spiritual giant, and I was mature enough to know that it was true.   When I saw her across the lawn my homing instinct took me, and as she walked here and there I floated, entranced, behind her right...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 10 Responses May 15, 2011

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    Favorite Experience Recorded in My Journal

      I loved riding along the California coast and enjoying the plants, so different from those of the desert and of the Midwest.   Five years before the events of this story Hubby had decided we would move back to the Midwest, and separation from folks who had given me support...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 9 Responses May 29, 2011

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    As Good As Any Revenge

    My mother was strong and my dad wasn’t. He was fifteen years older than she. Before he died, after he needed care and came to live with us, Daddy told me he was afraid that Mother was going to give everything to my little brother and that he would fight her to get anything...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 15 Responses Mar 30, 2012

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    And I Thought I Had Been Living Simply.

    I find getting old to be a very great pleasure as I sit in my not uncomfortable chair.There’s no desire for a magazine or a computer or TV or phone or backrub or window view—actually, not even for chocolate.. Inside there is comfort.  It’s very interesting inside.  There...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 11 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    We Consciously Tried To Be No Bother

    We went back to our spot near Sedona and saw the beautiful comfortably settled-in homes that look out across the valley, just like we used to do while sitting in our folding lawn chairs next to a wait-a-minute bush.  We couldn't actually deny a certain beauty of freshly...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 8 Responses Sep 1, 2011

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    Lifes Blessings

    Before you were born, before any sonogram could tell me, I knew your sex. Before any pregnancy test could tell me, I knew you were growing inside of me. I knew I loved you before any doctor or test told me that you were there. When you were born, the pain was forgotten when you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 10, 2011

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    Dweller In Multiple Worlds

    I'm beginning a walk.  A tour of a farm,  of struggles and achievement.  Of nothing.  I leave out that which would cause purposeless sorrow. It's 1940.  The  fence is clear of brush, has sturdy posts, and the wires are stretched tight enough that you can climb...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 11 Responses May 6, 2011

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    Training A Child In The Way He Should Go -- Aka -- A Harsh Environment Demands That A Child Learn To Accept Responsibility

    This is the story, told by The Gypsy,  of a climb she made out of the Grand Canyon with a party of Havasupai, and of a boy's adventures on that trip. The child had been told, the night before, that they would be accompanying the group setting out the next day to gather pine nuts...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    Romance is Divine

    Romance is divine When one's romance is with the Divine.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 3 Responses May 31, 2011

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    The Mystic's Pain

    If the sky were to become purple-black and rain searing green fire all ‘round, it would have nothing to do with the the feelings in a mystic’s heart.    But when he makes an opening between his fingers and looks out, he hears our cries--our suffering because we haven’t...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F May 15, 2011

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    This heart of mine, was never broken to begin

    with, was never yours to begin with, you were never mine to begin with, we were never meant to be to begin with.
    Jeggo Jeggo 31-35, F Dec 6, 2013

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    Soft-Hearted

    Well, I was told to stay away from animals... family does not allow to have any pets.. but I guess a dog changed my heart.. India has many stray animals.. I was in college living away from home.. Once I saved a little pup who couldn't walk - from a herd of locals dogs out to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 27, 2013

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    I happened upon this piece of writing today, and I liked it so much I thought I'd share. It really speaks to me! I agree with what she says, and almost feel like I could have...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 5 Responses Jul 21

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    I am under the impression that all men are the same or at least most of them are..They say and do things that **** you off to the point that you want to literally slap them for...
    prettyface1 prettyface1 46-50, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    I should start by saying that I am emotionless person. For years I had been running around, playing with men feelings, breaking hearts and not blinking an eye. Of course...
    FloChild FloChild 22-25, F Aug 7

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    (Sorry for grammar mistakes. English is not my native language) It's a long and complicated story. So i will start with the background. I spent most of my life closed in my home...
    Valiosc2 Valiosc2 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 12

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    I need a love that grows I don't want it unless I know With each passing hour Someone somehow Will be there, ready to share I need a love that's strong I'm so tired of being alone...
    SweetEmotions SweetEmotions 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    My heart aches for you. I am tortured with thoughts of you, and though I am sometimes convinced that these feelings have faded, each and every time I fall in love with you again...
    brandon1841 brandon1841 18-21, M Aug 12

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    Yes, I absolutely hate goodbyes; and I think a lot of people would agree that some of the worst ones are those that are absolutely necessary. One question that I always ponder...
    1MagicalMystery 1MagicalMystery 31-35, F a week ago

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    I've been posting about the same topic for a while, and I feel like posting again so I can ventilate as I'm having a terrible morning. Nearly two months ago, my ex-girlfriend broke...
    xSundip xSundip 18-21, M 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    To: The Girl Who Will Replace Me He is going to love you. He will hold your hands when the two of you are together, he will sit by your side on the beach, but don't run around...
    butterfliesndut butterfliesndut 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 22

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    My bf and I haven't been seeing each other that long, but we spend a lot of time together, and talked about it a month ago that once he finishes school we would move in together...
    match4me match4me 31-35, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Why did you break my heart? What did I do to you? I haven't done anything bad to you, haven't said a single bad word to you. Why are you so harsh on me? You don't have to love me...
    AmberDD AmberDD 22-25, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I thought you really loved me but I was so stupid enough to believe your lies. I was young, dumb, and in love. I thought you actually cared about me, but then again if you really...
    Zozolove Zozolove 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    A little story about a heartbreak... She was in love with him. He did not love her back the same way. His presence made her fall in love with him more thinking he wanted to stay...
    Zozolove Zozolove 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    Wow, heart break sucks. This isn't the first time I've had my heart broken. The guys I was with before hurt me, broke my heart into a thousand piece, but as cliche as this sounds...
    Via70 Via70 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 25

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    I found out he was "back" with his X, apparently they been together and never broke up, he play both of us, she doesn't know about me, I confront him about it he didn't face me and...
    esscape esscape 36-40, F 4 Responses Jul 25

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    i want to cry, but i cant. i cant show that im weak. i dont want them to look down on me. i want to be better than them. no, its that i must be better than them. if i cant make...
    FatinNajihah1 FatinNajihah1 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 31

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    Today is my birthday. Yesterday night, i gave myself one of the best gift i have ever given myself. Bravery. Bravery to face my fear. To face my broken heart. To face the love...
    butterfliesndut butterfliesndut 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 31

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    Why does the heart want something you head knows it can't have? Like when you really want to be in someones life, as a friend or maybe even more, but, that other person is always...
    ashuriiNikooru ashuriiNikooru 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    This will take a bit. 1. What would you name your future daughter? idk yet. that's gonna take some time to think about lol 2. Do you miss anyone? unfortunately :/ 3. What if I...
    DontLoseHOPE DontLoseHOPE 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    I used to be a really nice and sweet girl. Really immature and innocent. That was 5 years ago. 3 years later I'm still the lil innocent girl who does not talk back. Did not even...
    MeXYours MeXYours 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    We've both been hurt and disappointed and we both remember the pain. It isn't easy starting over and learning to trust again. The problem is not yours it is purely mine my heart is...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Aug 10

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    Do I continue to feel these feelings for you? Knowing that you might not feel the same. Do I run and heal my heart or continue to be there? Am I able to deal with this situation...
    natashaxxs natashaxxs 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 10

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    You follow your head.You're rational, collected, and logical.Generally, it takes you quite a while to fall in love.In fact, you've even been accused of being very picky.While you...
    livelaughlovedream3 livelaughlovedream3 41-45, F 11 Responses 5 days ago

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    I met a man, a wonderful man, using an online dating site. We were together for 5 months. I loved him. And I thought he loved me. We vacationed, met families, talked every day...
    sar4952 sar4952 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    1) What would you name your future daughter? Zoey!! 2) Do you miss anyone? Uncontrollably. 3) What if I told you that you're pretty? Aww, thanks.. *blushes* 4) Ever been told...
    Jennnaaa Jennnaaa 13-15, F Jul 22

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    Today was the first day in three days that I changed clothes, ate, had human contact.... And it all hurt. I still cry at random moments and am sick thinking of having to go to work...
    sar4952 sar4952 26-30, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    hey all ! ... this is important and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M Jul 22

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    hey all ! ... this is important and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M Jul 22

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    Once your heart been touched it's difficult to use your mind so I do believe you should follow it as you might regret it!As once that heart is broken it can't be fixed again so you...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23

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