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I Know My Heart

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 95 People

    Lifes Blessings

    Before you were born, before any sonogram could tell me, I knew your sex. Before any pregnancy test could tell me, I knew you were growing inside of me. I knew I loved you before any doctor or test told me that you were there. When you were born, the pain was forgotten when you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 10, 2011

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    Romance is Divine

    Romance is divine When one's romance is with the Divine.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 3 Responses May 31, 2011

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    An Ocean Of Flowers

    I flew, speckled with luminous electricity, A crazed dragonfly, with black sea-horses for escort When dreams were crushing with bitter blows My skies of ultramarine were burning Into the unknown yellow ochre orb ... It was then that I saw an ocean of flowers    
    THEMADHATTERXXXX THEMADHATTERXXXX 46-50, M Oct 7, 2011

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    And I Thought I Had Been Living Simply.

    I find getting old to be a very great pleasure as I sit in my not uncomfortable chair.There’s no desire for a magazine or a computer or TV or phone or backrub or window view—actually, not even for chocolate.. Inside there is comfort.  It’s very interesting inside.  There...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 11 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    As Good As Any Revenge

    My mother was strong and my dad wasn’t. He was fifteen years older than she. Before he died, after he needed care and came to live with us, Daddy told me he was afraid that Mother was going to give everything to my little brother and that he would fight her to get anything...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 15 Responses Mar 30, 2012

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    Soft-Hearted

    Well, I was told to stay away from animals... family does not allow to have any pets.. but I guess a dog changed my heart.. India has many stray animals.. I was in college living away from home.. Once I saved a little pup who couldn't walk - from a herd of locals dogs out to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 27, 2013

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    Know My Heart

    Why do I pray? Do I pray to say I prayed an hour? Why do I love? Do I want you beholden to me? Why do I help? Do I help to hear my name called out? And why do I sing? Search me and know my heart, Oh God. See if there is any wrong thing in me All I have ever really wanted...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    The Love Egg

    There were strange events surrounding the group of young men with whom our son met often, and he remembers it a little differently than I do, but he didn’t record it and I did. Here’s one of the events, another story from the front of my journal. It was a nice group of teen...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 2 Responses Oct 17, 2011

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    Meeting a Mystic, a Disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda

    She was young and I was young, but she was mature enough to be called a spiritual giant, and I was mature enough to know that it was true.   When I saw her across the lawn my homing instinct took me, and as she walked here and there I floated, entranced, behind her right...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 10 Responses May 15, 2011

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    Training A Child In The Way He Should Go -- Aka -- A Harsh Environment Demands That A Child Learn To Accept Responsibility

    This is the story, told by The Gypsy,  of a climb she made out of the Grand Canyon with a party of Havasupai, and of a boy's adventures on that trip. The child had been told, the night before, that they would be accompanying the group setting out the next day to gather pine nuts...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    OH – MY – GOSH – YES – THERE – IS

    – A – SANTA. Something made me watch BECOMING SANTA, a movie for which I had seen no recommendation at all, other than the fact that it is a Christmas movie. It turned out to be about 'real world' guys who play Santa. I stuck with it, all the while thinking how odd it...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    In

    It is a place of friendly shadows, with lichen and mushrooms and fairies. Her feet go soft on moss, and she can lie on her stomach with the cosmic lover and watch fishes in clear greeny pools. The beauty makes her eyes mist. This is why she loves being alone.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2011

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    The Mystic's Pain

    If the sky were to become purple-black and rain searing green fire all ‘round, it would have nothing to do with the the feelings in a mystic’s heart.    But when he makes an opening between his fingers and looks out, he hears our cries--our suffering because we haven’t...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F May 15, 2011

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    We Consciously Tried To Be No Bother

    We went back to our spot near Sedona and saw the beautiful comfortably settled-in homes that look out across the valley, just like we used to do while sitting in our folding lawn chairs next to a wait-a-minute bush.  We couldn't actually deny a certain beauty of freshly...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 8 Responses Sep 1, 2011

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    Dweller In Multiple Worlds

    I'm beginning a walk.  A tour of a farm,  of struggles and achievement.  Of nothing.  I leave out that which would cause purposeless sorrow. It's 1940.  The  fence is clear of brush, has sturdy posts, and the wires are stretched tight enough that you can climb...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 11 Responses May 6, 2011

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    Favorite Experience Recorded in My Journal

      I loved riding along the California coast and enjoying the plants, so different from those of the desert and of the Midwest.   Five years before the events of this story Hubby had decided we would move back to the Midwest, and separation from folks who had given me support...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 9 Responses May 29, 2011

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    The Lover

    OUT THERE IN THE WORLD COGNIZED BY MIND   THE LOVER IS UNSEEN AND RARELY SUSPECTED,   THE CARESSES ASSIGNED TO A SOURCE OTHER,   THE GIFTS TAKEN TO BE THEIR OWN PROGENY. 
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 1 Response May 13, 2011

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    This heart of mine, was never broken to begin

    with, was never yours to begin with, you were never mine to begin with, we were never meant to be to begin with.
    Jeggo Jeggo 31-35, F Dec 6, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    They say opposites attract and similarities repulse we defied this physics not meant for us, mathematics say one plus one equals to two but when our hearts melt together its...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Dear Replacement, There are a few things I think you should know, as you are now the object of his affection. Don’t let it surprise you, how quickly you fall for him, and don...
    kmart52492 kmart52492 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Chances. Connor. Tall, geeky, christian, smart, funny, blue eyes, handsome, yeah I had the pleasure of meeting him. 4 months ago we met, nothing amazing said hi, talked a bit...
    thatgirleveryday thatgirleveryday 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    I AM A 25 YEAR OLD FEMALE WHO MARRIED TO A 40 YEAR OLD MAN....WE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR A LONG TIME AND HAD VERY GOOD TIMES TOGETHER WHICH I MISS SO DAMN MUCH!!!....FOR ABOUT 2 YEARS...
    raincloud72 raincloud72 22-25, F 14 hrs ago

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    "On my own Pretending he's beside me All alone I walk with him til morning Without him I feel his arms around me And when I lose my way I close my eyes And he has found me In...
    sar4952 sar4952 26-30, F 3 hrs ago

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    It's not all hearts and flowers. Love is when you are a long way from each other. But NOTHING will keep you apart! Love is feeling the pain she's in and feeling every second of it...
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M 6 hrs ago

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    i dont want to do it.i prefer to die....i know its my last chance...but i cant....im scared of dying while surgery... :"(
    00roshana00 00roshana00 18-21, F 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    He did this to me, it will heal but my heart won't. I refused to make the same mistake and the pain cost greatly
    NoraWilliams NoraWilliams 13-15, F 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I went out tonight and I met this couple and I thought they were married. Turns out they were best friends she's married and he's not they don't cross that line they do share their...
    ICRETO ICRETO 46-50, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I can feel the pain in my heart. No joke. It's really there and it's an unpleasant feeling. It's not healthy too. But I can't stop this pain.
    Togepi07 Togepi07 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I loved someone that just wasn't worth the time or energy. At first he seemed to genuinely care about me, but as time passed-I find that he cares only for himself. I put my trust...
    stardusthope stardusthope 36-40, F 2 hrs ago

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    So having unrequited love fore someone you have known for a few months is bad or even a year or two. Though knowing someone your whole life and having unrequited love for them is...
    BDMW15 BDMW15 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    I should start by saying that I am emotionless person. For years I had been running around, playing with men feelings, breaking hearts and not blinking an eye. Of course...
    FloChild FloChild 22-25, F Aug 7

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    (Sorry for grammar mistakes. English is not my native language) It's a long and complicated story. So i will start with the background. I spent most of my life closed in my home...
    Valiosc2 Valiosc2 18-21, M Aug 12

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    This is the story of me and a boy named joey a met on a teen program in my cruise. We're still friends after all of this, but I'm scared that we'll never get back together because...
    SteffXRocker SteffXRocker 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Hi. Please read this cause I would like to explain a concept lots of you seems to misunderstand. There I was forcing laughters faking smiles. Lying to myself that I'm actually...
    TheLadyYves TheLadyYves 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    My heart aches for you. I am tortured with thoughts of you, and though I am sometimes convinced that these feelings have faded, each and every time I fall in love with you again...
    brandon1841 brandon1841 18-21, M Aug 12

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    Yes, I absolutely hate goodbyes; and I think a lot of people would agree that some of the worst ones are those that are absolutely necessary. One question that I always ponder...
    1MagicalMystery 1MagicalMystery 31-35, F Aug 13

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    I've been posting about the same topic for a while, and I feel like posting again so I can ventilate as I'm having a terrible morning. Nearly two months ago, my ex-girlfriend broke...
    xSundip xSundip 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    When you are on one end of a cliff. And your falling, Who is going to catch you? They say, If he loves you he leaves and never comes back, he wasn't worth it. If he comes back. It...
    jeniridianar9 jeniridianar9 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    My bf and I haven't been seeing each other that long, but we spend a lot of time together, and talked about it a month ago that once he finishes school we would move in together...
    match4me match4me 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 14

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    Why did you break my heart? What did I do to you? I haven't done anything bad to you, haven't said a single bad word to you. Why are you so harsh on me? You don't have to love me...
    AmberDD AmberDD 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    I thought you really loved me but I was so stupid enough to believe your lies. I was young, dumb, and in love. I thought you actually cared about me, but then again if you really...
    Zozolove Zozolove 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    So for sometime now the gf and I have been having issues, mainly due to communication and practice on our part. It all started amazing for me, I had met the girl I wanted to...
    duplexoutlet duplexoutlet 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 25

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    Every day that I have no contact with my crush, I'm going to upload a song. ;-"The Waiting" by Tom Petty & the HeartbreakersOh baby don't it feel like heaven right nowDon't it...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I am a woman of great passion and desire to be physical. But my spiritual and emotional pain tends to over shadow my hearts desire and keeps men from noticing me. My greatest...
    dybbukbox dybbukbox 41-45, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I am a woman of great passion and desire to be physical . My spiritual and emotional pain tends to over shadow my hearts desire and keeps men from noticing me. My greatest hearts...
    dybbukbox dybbukbox 41-45, F 3 days ago

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    Why does the heart want something you head knows it can't have? Like when you really want to be in someones life, as a friend or maybe even more, but, that other person is always...
    ashuriiNikooru ashuriiNikooru 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    This will take a bit. 1. What would you name your future daughter? idk yet. that's gonna take some time to think about lol 2. Do you miss anyone? unfortunately :/ 3. What if I...
    infinitexhope infinitexhope 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    I used to be a really nice and sweet girl. Really immature and innocent. That was 5 years ago. 3 years later I'm still the lil innocent girl who does not talk back. Did not even...
    Kywen97 Kywen97 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    We've both been hurt and disappointed and we both remember the pain. It isn't easy starting over and learning to trust again. The problem is not yours it is purely mine my heart is...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Aug 10

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