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I Know My Heart

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    Having my son surprise me with a visit is the

    best . Having him give me a hug is the best feeling in the world even though he's now taller than me. Made me remember how as parents we hug our children to make them feel loved, comforted and protected. All I can say now is that my son made me that way today. ❤️
    Bssanglergrl1 Bssanglergrl1 36-40 2 Responses Jun 18, 2015

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    Romance is Divine

    Romance is divine When one's romance is with the Divine.
    nelladell nelladell 66-70, F 3 Responses May 31, 2011

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    An Ocean Of Flowers

    I flew, speckled with luminous electricity, A crazed dragonfly, with black sea-horses for escort When dreams were crushing with bitter blows My skies of ultramarine were burning Into the unknown yellow ochre orb ... It was then that I saw an ocean of flowers    
    THEMADHATTERXXXX THEMADHATTERXXXX 46-50, M Oct 7, 2011

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    The Mystic's Pain

    If the sky were to become purple-black and rain searing green fire all ‘round, it would have nothing to do with the the feelings in a mystic’s heart.    But when he makes an opening between his fingers and looks out, he hears our cries--our suffering because we haven’t...
    nelladell nelladell 66-70, F May 15, 2011

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    In

    It is a place of friendly shadows, with lichen and mushrooms and fairies. Her feet go soft on moss, and she can lie on her stomach with the cosmic lover and watch fishes in clear greeny pools. The beauty makes her eyes mist. This is why she loves being alone.
    nelladell nelladell 66-70, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2011

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    As Good As Any Revenge

    My mother was strong and my dad wasn’t. He was fifteen years older than she. Before he died, after he needed care and came to live with us, Daddy told me he was afraid that Mother was going to give everything to my little brother and that he would fight her to get anything...
    nelladell nelladell 66-70, F 14 Responses Mar 30, 2012

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    Lifes Blessings

    Before you were born, before any sonogram could tell me, I knew your sex. Before any pregnancy test could tell me, I knew you were growing inside of me. I knew I loved you before any doctor or test told me that you were there. When you were born, the pain was forgotten when you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 10, 2011

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    Favorite Experience Recorded in My Journal

      I loved riding along the California coast and enjoying the plants, so different from those of the desert and of the Midwest.   Five years before the events of this story Hubby had decided we would move back to the Midwest, and separation from folks who had given me support...
    nelladell nelladell 66-70, F 8 Responses May 29, 2011

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    OH – MY – GOSH – YES – THERE – IS

    – A – SANTA. Something made me watch BECOMING SANTA, a movie for which I had seen no recommendation at all, other than the fact that it is a Christmas movie. It turned out to be about 'real world' guys who play Santa. I stuck with it, all the while thinking how odd it...
    nelladell nelladell 66-70, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    The Love Egg

    There were strange events surrounding the group of young men with whom our son met often, and he remembers it a little differently than I do, but he didn’t record it and I did. Here’s one of the events, another story from the front of my journal. It was a nice group of teen...
    nelladell nelladell 66-70, F 2 Responses Oct 17, 2011

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    Training A Child In The Way He Should Go -- Aka -- A Harsh Environment Demands That A Child Learn To Accept Responsibility

    This is the story, told by The Gypsy,  of a climb she made out of the Grand Canyon with a party of Havasupai, and of a boy's adventures on that trip. The child had been told, the night before, that they would be accompanying the group setting out the next day to gather pine nuts...
    nelladell nelladell 66-70, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    The Lover

    OUT THERE IN THE WORLD COGNIZED BY MIND   THE LOVER IS UNSEEN AND RARELY SUSPECTED,   THE CARESSES ASSIGNED TO A SOURCE OTHER,   THE GIFTS TAKEN TO BE THEIR OWN PROGENY. 
    nelladell nelladell 66-70, F 2 Responses May 13, 2011

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    Dweller In Multiple Worlds

    I'm beginning a walk.  A tour of a farm,  of struggles and achievement.  Of nothing.  I leave out that which would cause purposeless sorrow. It's 1940.  The  fence is clear of brush, has sturdy posts, and the wires are stretched tight enough that you can climb...
    nelladell nelladell 66-70, F 10 Responses May 6, 2011

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    Wow. I'm floored. He's planning a move here.

    .. And I don't feel pressured, I feel... Peace... Anticipation... Gratitude. Which is frickin' off-the-charts Miraculous!! I mean, men have suggested such things before -just a couple of Weeks Ago, in fact, most recently- and I've gone into PANIC mode!! Even if its been...
    AdoraGel AdoraGel 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2015

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    Meeting a Mystic, a Disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda

    She was young and I was young, but she was mature enough to be called a spiritual giant, and I was mature enough to know that it was true.   When I saw her across the lawn my homing instinct took me, and as she walked here and there I floated, entranced, behind her right...
    nelladell nelladell 66-70, F 8 Responses May 15, 2011

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    I Know My Heart... But my Brain does not.

    There's been a long-standing fued & disconnect, between the two, for over 30 years now. So, you see... If I seem a bit wild & contradictory, it's because I am. =) The divide within my soul has long been there, & two weeks ago, the materials necessary in altering the past...
    AdoraGel AdoraGel 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 24, 2015

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    What would it say, if my heart could speak?

    It would tell you a most horrific story, one of constant pain and near torture. It did not have to suffer, it could have chosen to stop at any time. Instead it chose daily to take the path of agony, daily to feel the pains, daily to be tortured and tormented .... and it chose...
    Extant1 Extant1 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 11, 2015

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    Soft-Hearted

    Well, I was told to stay away from animals... family does not allow to have any pets.. but I guess a dog changed my heart.. India has many stray animals.. I was in college living away from home.. Once I saved a little pup who couldn't walk - from a herd of locals dogs out to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 27, 2013

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    And I Thought I Had Been Living Simply.

    I find getting old to be a very great pleasure as I sit in my not uncomfortable chair.There’s no desire for a magazine or a computer or TV or phone or backrub or window view—actually, not even for chocolate.. Inside there is comfort.  It’s very interesting inside.  There...
    nelladell nelladell 66-70, F 10 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    There's just something about the character

    roles Jason Bateman plays that makes me wish I could find his twin. Where is that handsome perfectly imperfect man... Seems like or rather it is like I always end up with the the opposite.... :/
    Bssanglergrl1 Bssanglergrl1 36-40 1 Response Jun 10, 2015

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    Know My Heart

    Why do I pray? Do I pray to say I prayed an hour? Why do I love? Do I want you beholden to me? Why do I help? Do I help to hear my name called out? And why do I sing? Search me and know my heart, Oh God. See if there is any wrong thing in me All I have ever really wanted...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    AdoraGel AdoraGel 31-35, F Aug 1, 2015

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    We Consciously Tried To Be No Bother

    We went back to our spot near Sedona and saw the beautiful comfortably settled-in homes that look out across the valley, just like we used to do while sitting in our folding lawn chairs next to a wait-a-minute bush.  We couldn't actually deny a certain beauty of freshly...
    nelladell nelladell 66-70, F 8 Responses Sep 1, 2011

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    Hi, guys! I'm a curious brat. Forgive me. Well, I want to know whose birthday is on July 14. Kindly answer me. Alright.
    CrazyTrishy CrazyTrishy 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    To my love my darling You make me whole and keep me safe from darkness Even when I stumble and fall You are always there when I need you the most Your heart shines and I know...
    mintybear2 mintybear2 46-50, F 23 hrs ago

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    I wanted to spread love wherever I go, and I feel as if I have plenty of hearts in my pockets so I want to give it to others that show their true self to me. I felt as if I'm...
    greenamythese77 greenamythese77 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    To know what it is to live and not just exist, Knowing when to care, to love, to give and also knowing when to resist, Within the heart and soul, a human being will always yearn...
    Johnny050 Johnny050 46-50, M 3 days ago

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    In elementary I was bullied pretty badly. It got to the point where I would cry alone on a bench at school and think about how much I wanted to die. I never made any attempts to...
    NicoleAngel101 NicoleAngel101 13-15 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My Heart Is Broken Evanescence I will wander 'til the end of time, torn away from you. I pulled away to face the pain. I close my eyes and drift away. Over the fear that I will...
    Jackie69C Jackie69C 46-50, F 4 days ago

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    Everybody calls me a cold hearted person. Some people even say I'm made of steel. I don't like it. I really don't know why do people feel that way although I try my best to be...
    FallingApart33 FallingApart33 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Yeah me!! The ex came back around for a few weeks and yes I fell for it. Par for the course, he's gone again after about three weeks. He hasn't retuned a call or text in a two...
    Cmat2 Cmat2 31-35, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    My name was Veil, I was one out of twenty children selected to live in a subspace called "The Portal Gardens" and save everything. Or try to. This is important! The war is still...
    Brightfire101 Brightfire101 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    It doesn't always come from a bf/gf or spouse. Sometimes family can break your heart. You can always change who you date or who you are married to, but you can't change parents or...
    JessygotaBooBoo JessygotaBooBoo 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    With petals of love I wished to decorate your heart today. Each petal unveiling a secret that I hold close to my heart. My soul a blooming flower, from a small bud it grew...
    winterfall winterfall 41-45 a week ago

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    I have been through a lot and I no longer have the energy to deal with these emotions. I have been in love with a guy who has been mean and cruel to me and which he claimed was...
    thecoldheartedqueen thecoldheartedqueen 18-21, F a week ago

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    Because it always go through so much pain while he never give but love and kindness, best brother i am but when it comes to love, i am always having troubles with my heart, and...
    GamesBOSS GamesBOSS 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 4

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    Hi my name is Adam I'm 15 years old and 9th grade and Muslim (not terrorist), so my life started to get painful and hurting at the end of 6th grade, well..... i know I'm super...
    KissedByTheDevil KissedByTheDevil 13-15, M 7 Responses Feb 3

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    Actually I don't think my heart is breaking but I think my heart is rot. Small wound to big wound in my heart, I never find the cure. I always hold back my anger because I know...
    mariaherliana mariaherliana 13-15, F Feb 3

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    Face down with the LA curbside endings With the ones and zeros. Downtown was the perfect place to hide. The first star that I saw last night was a headlight Of a man-made sky...
    coffeeonice coffeeonice 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    Talk about a bad day. Funny thing is every single thing that made me feel bad came from someone else's words or actions. Why do I care so much? I hate that I am so soft. I think...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F Feb 3

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    This feels kind of weird to me, but part of me wants someone, even a stranger (but preferably a close friend), to listen to my heart beating, to hear my blood being pumped through...
    alphaomega95 alphaomega95 18-21 1 Response Feb 2

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    Having a hard time, it makes sense I should know better, he isn't perfect, my family and friends all say I can do better....my heart tells me, as it skips a beat that... The way he...
    Froggy420 Froggy420 31-35, F Feb 2

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    When I was going to the sixth grade. I was forced into a private school. After hearing what they had to say. seeing how they acted. Even at 11 I was able to see through their lies...
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