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I Know My Heart

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    The Mystic's Pain

    If the sky were to become purple-black and rain searing green fire all ‘round, it would have nothing to do with the the feelings in a mystic’s heart.    But when he makes an opening between his fingers and looks out, he hears our cries--our suffering because we haven’t...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F May 15, 2011

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    The Love Egg

    There were strange events surrounding the group of young men with whom our son met often, and he remembers it a little differently than I do, but he didn’t record it and I did. Here’s one of the events, another story from the front of my journal. It was a nice group of teen...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 2 Responses Oct 17, 2011

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    The Lover

    OUT THERE IN THE WORLD COGNIZED BY MIND   THE LOVER IS UNSEEN AND RARELY SUSPECTED,   THE CARESSES ASSIGNED TO A SOURCE OTHER,   THE GIFTS TAKEN TO BE THEIR OWN PROGENY. 
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 1 Response May 13, 2011

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    In

    It is a place of friendly shadows, with lichen and mushrooms and fairies. Her feet go soft on moss, and she can lie on her stomach with the cosmic lover and watch fishes in clear greeny pools. The beauty makes her eyes mist. This is why she loves being alone.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2011

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    Lifes Blessings

    Before you were born, before any sonogram could tell me, I knew your sex. Before any pregnancy test could tell me, I knew you were growing inside of me. I knew I loved you before any doctor or test told me that you were there. When you were born, the pain was forgotten when you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 10, 2011

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    This heart of mine, was never broken to begin

    with, was never yours to begin with, you were never mine to begin with, we were never meant to be to begin with.
    Jeggo Jeggo 31-35, F Dec 6, 2013

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    And I Thought I Had Been Living Simply.

    I find getting old to be a very great pleasure as I sit in my not uncomfortable chair.There’s no desire for a magazine or a computer or TV or phone or backrub or window view—actually, not even for chocolate.. Inside there is comfort.  It’s very interesting inside.  There...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 11 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    Favorite Experience Recorded in My Journal

      I loved riding along the California coast and enjoying the plants, so different from those of the desert and of the Midwest.   Five years before the events of this story Hubby had decided we would move back to the Midwest, and separation from folks who had given me support...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 9 Responses May 29, 2011

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    Dweller In Multiple Worlds

    I'm beginning a walk.  A tour of a farm,  of struggles and achievement.  Of nothing.  I leave out that which would cause purposeless sorrow. It's 1940.  The  fence is clear of brush, has sturdy posts, and the wires are stretched tight enough that you can climb...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 11 Responses May 6, 2011

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    Know My Heart

    Why do I pray? Do I pray to say I prayed an hour? Why do I love? Do I want you beholden to me? Why do I help? Do I help to hear my name called out? And why do I sing? Search me and know my heart, Oh God. See if there is any wrong thing in me All I have ever really wanted...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    Meeting a Mystic, a Disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda

    She was young and I was young, but she was mature enough to be called a spiritual giant, and I was mature enough to know that it was true.   When I saw her across the lawn my homing instinct took me, and as she walked here and there I floated, entranced, behind her right...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 10 Responses May 15, 2011

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    We Consciously Tried To Be No Bother

    We went back to our spot near Sedona and saw the beautiful comfortably settled-in homes that look out across the valley, just like we used to do while sitting in our folding lawn chairs next to a wait-a-minute bush.  We couldn't actually deny a certain beauty of freshly...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 8 Responses Sep 1, 2011

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    Training A Child In The Way He Should Go -- Aka -- A Harsh Environment Demands That A Child Learn To Accept Responsibility

    This is the story, told by The Gypsy,  of a climb she made out of the Grand Canyon with a party of Havasupai, and of a boy's adventures on that trip. The child had been told, the night before, that they would be accompanying the group setting out the next day to gather pine nuts...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    Romance is Divine

    Romance is divine When one's romance is with the Divine.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 3 Responses May 31, 2011

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    OH – MY – GOSH – YES – THERE – IS

    – A – SANTA. Something made me watch BECOMING SANTA, a movie for which I had seen no recommendation at all, other than the fact that it is a Christmas movie. It turned out to be about 'real world' guys who play Santa. I stuck with it, all the while thinking how odd it...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    As Good As Any Revenge

    My mother was strong and my dad wasn’t. He was fifteen years older than she. Before he died, after he needed care and came to live with us, Daddy told me he was afraid that Mother was going to give everything to my little brother and that he would fight her to get anything...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 14 Responses Mar 30, 2012

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    An Ocean Of Flowers

    I flew, speckled with luminous electricity, A crazed dragonfly, with black sea-horses for escort When dreams were crushing with bitter blows My skies of ultramarine were burning Into the unknown yellow ochre orb ... It was then that I saw an ocean of flowers    
    THEMADHATTERXXXX THEMADHATTERXXXX 46-50, M Oct 7, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    When the heart turns cold Love turns to hate Words left untold Have sealed our fate You kept up your walls To protect your heart But cloud nine falls And our ways must part And a...
    SpiritQuest2014 SpiritQuest2014 46-50, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    i know life can be a struggle and sometimes dreadfully hopeless but try look around you and see some other people have more struggles than ourselves have. that why we are all not...
    nataliechu nataliechu 13-15, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    It is said that time will heal all grief. really? I hope it would be right, many years gone, I can't forget all we have happened in past. Time depicts things move, however my...
    verinalan verinalan 31-35, M 11 hrs ago

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    I've only been in love two times and they both ended bad. This last girl I dated waited 6months to tell me she is bisexual. She had a best friend that hated me. It was weird...
    cwbyryan cwbyryan 26-30, M 47 mins ago

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    Ever think to much about a person you love so deeply much and then you start to cry bc you can't be with that person and your heart is like tight together?. Yahh, It sucks.
    XxTheHighsxX XxTheHighsxX 16-17, F 3 hrs ago

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    Defense of Total Depravity and Its Effects on the Human Will ~ Total Depravity means that sin has touched all of what a person is. In the unbeliever this means that his...
    PMEWhite PMEWhite 31-35, M a week ago

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    Juice Newton - "Queen Of Hearts" Midnight, and I'm a-waiting on the twelve-oh-five Hoping it'll take me just a little farther down the line Moonlight, you're just a heartache...
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M Mar 25

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    A Letter To Myself 22 March 2014 1:53 AM Dear Sam, I know what you're going through, I know how you feel. No one knows you better than me, I reside in you. It's over. Why do...
    simran1694 simran1694 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    I still remember the first day I heard your voice. And I still remember the first instant I met you, like it was yesterday. How instantly you possessed every particle of my mind...
    superficialife superficialife 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    Every night in my dreamsI see you, I feel youThat is how I know you go onFar across the distanceAnd spaces between usYou have come to show you go onNear, far, wherever you areI...
    Skpan80 Skpan80 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I thought of you today. I think of you most days. I miss you. I'm sorry things are all messy right now. I'm sorry you feel the way you do about it all. I wish you could see my...
    CaliLove87 CaliLove87 26-30, F a week ago

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    ***Post of the Day*** Find out more at: www.facebook.com/FavorUponYou Peace be unto you. I became Muslim almost three years ago, right after Ramadan in between the two Eids. My...
    FavorUponYou FavorUponYou 22-25, M Mar 26

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    I'm in love with someone I know I can't have, and I've never felt so confused and alone. My story begins three years ago- I was an underclassman in high school when I fell very ill...
    lalarose lalarose 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    If its not intended with my heart then its not meant to be said. I only write from my heart when in love with someone because i believe that is the only thing they deserve..is to...
    Islandkween Islandkween 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    She was broken. Her heart lay in billions of pieces, spread about the floor like tiny specs of dust. It would be impossible to tell that her heart had even been there at all, had...
    suppressingadulthood suppressingadulthood 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    A Dire Warning to Christians and People Everywhere. Hello, everyone here. What will be discussed here is very very important, and if you choose not to believe my words, than I am...
    EvangelistTeen EvangelistTeen 13-15, F 4 Responses Apr 5

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    I have lived a long struggle when it comes to relationships. Have been through heartache as many have. At 41 I'm feeling my heart sinking as I think my girlfriend is pulling away...
    PeterBGood PeterBGood 36-40, M Apr 10

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    Last year I fell for a guy. This was not just some guy... I was an exchange student, 17 years, in Madrid, Spain, and he worked at a club. He was 10 year older than me. It all...
    lachickaloca lachickaloca 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    I feel broken hearted but not in way most people do. I was not dumped, beated or cheated on. My heart broke with his suicide. It is strange, you can go your how life being non...
    MissScarlettAngelica MissScarlettAngelica 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I don't understand life. But I hope that it gets better. Work has been amazing but I have been trying so hard to deal with this broken heart. I am reaching a point where I have...
    dmsummerwind dmsummerwind 36-40, M 2 Responses Mar 22

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    Everyone has a different definition for love. For some, it is only a word. It is thrown out to the wind, used as a tool to ensnare the weakest of hearts. The truest form of love...
    Eristotle Eristotle 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    It hurts because i'm not used to this,not used to not have you anymore. I will miss your goodmornings and goonights,i'll miss talking about whatever it's in our mind,i'll miss your...
    miserableamy miserableamy 16-17, F Mar 19

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    It hurts that I lost one of my best friends three weeks ago. It hurts that he can't face me, refuses to be friends years from now and threw away our friendship like it never...
    philosophicmyth philosophicmyth 26-30, F Mar 24

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    I'm literally sick of hurting so much and all the time. I was seeing someone who was damn near perfect, I know that's an unreal title, but to me he was. A few weeks in to our...
    Alanda510 Alanda510 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 25

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    I recently found out my wife was cheating on me, I went crazy for a week and eventually calmed down. I still have a lot of heartache, even though I am staying in the marriage. We...
    heartache41 heartache41 41-45, F Mar 27

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    where I come from, most often than not you marry your high school sweetheart. I've had 2 serious boyfriends in my lifetime (that doesn't count guys I've casually dated & hung out...
    countryanon countryanon 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    I want to find the perfect guy. However to find the perfect guy I needed to experience the guy who I thought way "the perfect guy" but turn out to be an a**hole I met this guy...
    aliceS96 aliceS96 16-17, F Mar 29

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    You treated me like a princess and my love for you grew stronger as each day passes it was really strong until one day, you left me hanging I was invisible to you but I waited...
    amaiamai amaiamai 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    How can it be when I can't see, The man who means so much to me!! The thrill I get when he answers my post Warms my heart like golden toast!! I don't know what he looks like, Or...
    Sandyshaw13 Sandyshaw13 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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    What is primitive? What does it mean to be primitive among other men? Primitive are the people who can't handle the truth. God can handle the truths that you can't, so prepare to...
    TheTristman TheTristman 26-30, M Apr 5

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    Today my bf told me that he wasn't going to take my **** and that he wasn't coming home. It broke my heart into a million pieces. I've tried all day to talk to him and he ignored...
    k80lawrence k80lawrence 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 19

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    I know the truth about love. And I can honestly say that I am loved. I have a beautiful daughter that loves me. And an amazing boyfriend who I plan to marry someday. One thing I...
    Inherownwords Inherownwords 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    I have had a broken heart from splitting up from my first love. but I'm glad of the experience. I think your heart needs to be broken so you can piece it back together and make...
    Renezra Renezra 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    There are millions of people in the whole wide world, even in our place, but I still choose you. The sad part is it is a one-sided feeling. If only I can teach my heart who to...
    iamblue1234 iamblue1234 18-21, F Apr 1

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    Want to die part 2 ( part 1 is my first experience that you can read) This experience is an interesting experience very interesting... I'm back here again feeling like a **** once...
    DepressedGirl22 DepressedGirl22 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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