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I Know My Heart

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    An Ocean Of Flowers

    I flew, speckled with luminous electricity, A crazed dragonfly, with black sea-horses for escort When dreams were crushing with bitter blows My skies of ultramarine were burning Into the unknown yellow ochre orb ... It was then that I saw an ocean of flowers    
    THEMADHATTERXXXX THEMADHATTERXXXX 46-50, M Oct 7, 2011

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    The Mystic's Pain

    If the sky were to become purple-black and rain searing green fire all ‘round, it would have nothing to do with the the feelings in a mystic’s heart.    But when he makes an opening between his fingers and looks out, he hears our cries--our suffering because we haven’t...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F May 15, 2011

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    We Consciously Tried To Be No Bother

    We went back to our spot near Sedona and saw the beautiful comfortably settled-in homes that look out across the valley, just like we used to do while sitting in our folding lawn chairs next to a wait-a-minute bush.  We couldn't actually deny a certain beauty of freshly...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 8 Responses Sep 1, 2011

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    Romance is Divine

    Romance is divine When one's romance is with the Divine.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 3 Responses May 31, 2011

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    Meeting a Mystic, a Disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda

    She was young and I was young, but she was mature enough to be called a spiritual giant, and I was mature enough to know that it was true.   When I saw her across the lawn my homing instinct took me, and as she walked here and there I floated, entranced, behind her right...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 10 Responses May 15, 2011

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    And I Thought I Had Been Living Simply.

    I find getting old to be a very great pleasure as I sit in my not uncomfortable chair.There’s no desire for a magazine or a computer or TV or phone or backrub or window view—actually, not even for chocolate.. Inside there is comfort.  It’s very interesting inside.  There...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 11 Responses Nov 9, 2012

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    Know My Heart

    Why do I pray? Do I pray to say I prayed an hour? Why do I love? Do I want you beholden to me? Why do I help? Do I help to hear my name called out? And why do I sing? Search me and know my heart, Oh God. See if there is any wrong thing in me All I have ever really wanted...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2011

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    Lifes Blessings

    Before you were born, before any sonogram could tell me, I knew your sex. Before any pregnancy test could tell me, I knew you were growing inside of me. I knew I loved you before any doctor or test told me that you were there. When you were born, the pain was forgotten when you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 10, 2011

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    Training A Child In The Way He Should Go -- Aka -- A Harsh Environment Demands That A Child Learn To Accept Responsibility

    This is the story, told by The Gypsy,  of a climb she made out of the Grand Canyon with a party of Havasupai, and of a boy's adventures on that trip. The child had been told, the night before, that they would be accompanying the group setting out the next day to gather pine nuts...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Feb 2, 2012

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    Favorite Experience Recorded in My Journal

      I loved riding along the California coast and enjoying the plants, so different from those of the desert and of the Midwest.   Five years before the events of this story Hubby had decided we would move back to the Midwest, and separation from folks who had given me support...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 9 Responses May 29, 2011

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    In

    It is a place of friendly shadows, with lichen and mushrooms and fairies. Her feet go soft on moss, and she can lie on her stomach with the cosmic lover and watch fishes in clear greeny pools. The beauty makes her eyes mist. This is why she loves being alone.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2011

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    Dweller In Multiple Worlds

    I'm beginning a walk.  A tour of a farm,  of struggles and achievement.  Of nothing.  I leave out that which would cause purposeless sorrow. It's 1940.  The  fence is clear of brush, has sturdy posts, and the wires are stretched tight enough that you can climb...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 11 Responses May 6, 2011

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    Soft-Hearted

    Well, I was told to stay away from animals... family does not allow to have any pets.. but I guess a dog changed my heart.. India has many stray animals.. I was in college living away from home.. Once I saved a little pup who couldn't walk - from a herd of locals dogs out to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 27, 2013

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    As Good As Any Revenge

    My mother was strong and my dad wasn’t. He was fifteen years older than she. Before he died, after he needed care and came to live with us, Daddy told me he was afraid that Mother was going to give everything to my little brother and that he would fight her to get anything...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 15 Responses Mar 30, 2012

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    The Love Egg

    There were strange events surrounding the group of young men with whom our son met often, and he remembers it a little differently than I do, but he didn’t record it and I did. Here’s one of the events, another story from the front of my journal. It was a nice group of teen...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 2 Responses Oct 17, 2011

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    The Lover

    OUT THERE IN THE WORLD COGNIZED BY MIND   THE LOVER IS UNSEEN AND RARELY SUSPECTED,   THE CARESSES ASSIGNED TO A SOURCE OTHER,   THE GIFTS TAKEN TO BE THEIR OWN PROGENY. 
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 1 Response May 13, 2011

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    OH – MY – GOSH – YES – THERE – IS

    – A – SANTA. Something made me watch BECOMING SANTA, a movie for which I had seen no recommendation at all, other than the fact that it is a Christmas movie. It turned out to be about 'real world' guys who play Santa. I stuck with it, all the while thinking how odd it...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I think when or if you read this story you will know that I am writing it about you....Where did you go, I hope you are alright? I know that you have been going through some pretty...
    prettyface1 prettyface1 46-50, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    It's been over a month since I heard from my boyfriend words can not describe how devastated I am. 4 together an the last I heard from him was July 31 2014. He text me an said...
    Dematt Dematt 46-50, F 5 hrs ago

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    Hi, I'm Zack. I'm 15. I'm in 10th grade. I'm bisexual. My family owns a hunting lodge and outdoor resort in East Texas. I have late puberty. I was dumped by my xgf in real life and...
    zackthehunter zackthehunter 13-15, M 9 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Noelict Noelict 31-35, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Love is more than a feeling, more than butterflies in the stomach. Love takes action to go with it. I thought what I had with J was love, but I was wrong. It was not love. It was...
    ChicaAudaz ChicaAudaz 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    Dying While Giving Birth In my most recent past life I was a mother of four, when I gave birth to my youngest I died of infection in the hospital. In this lifetime my father is a...
    Futuete Futuete 46-50, F 5 hrs ago

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    I'm a 17 year old guy and have been raised by a strong Christian mother and pretty much never missed a day of church while growing up. I love my Mom so much and have full respect...
    Qznvh Qznvh 16-17, M 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    There are days I would welcome the silence and serenity. I've seen the light once and been in the vortex looking back onto my body - and you know it's not do bad. I guess I won't...
    bjcf1102 bjcf1102 66-70, M 12 hrs ago

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    Gator tail, cascadu, beef heart and tough and horse meat
    S2012C S2012C 36-40, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Feels like my heart has been stomped on. But he will get what he deserves sooner or later
    rubyy25 rubyy25 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    Do you know where heart is when it sees your face, it starts to skip a beat over and over for you. Every time your near me I feel like my heart drowns for love. When I lay on...
    natashaxxs natashaxxs 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    So having unrequited love fore someone you have known for a few months is bad or even a year or two. Though knowing someone your whole life and having unrequited love for them is...
    BDMW15 BDMW15 16-17, M Aug 30

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    Hi. Please read this cause I would like to explain a concept lots of you seems to misunderstand. There I was forcing laughters faking smiles. Lying to myself that I'm actually...
    TheLadyYves TheLadyYves 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    This is the story of me and a boy named joey a met on a teen program in my cruise. We're still friends after all of this, but I'm scared that we'll never get back together because...
    SteffXRocker SteffXRocker 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Here's to you, dad. You sicko. My first sexual relationship was with you. You thought I'd forget. You thought I was too little to remember. You knew I didn't know any better. You...
    Solfeggio Solfeggio 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 4

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    When you are on one end of a cliff. And your falling, Who is going to catch you? They say, If he loves you he leaves and never comes back, he wasn't worth it. If he comes back. It...
    jeniridianar9 jeniridianar9 18-21, F Sep 1

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    I've been posting about the same topic for a while, and I feel like posting again so I can ventilate as I'm having a terrible morning. Nearly two months ago, my ex-girlfriend broke...
    xSundip xSundip 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    I Have a Broken Heart I met him four years ago, we never grew up together so I didn’t see him for what he was: my cousin. Yes I know, gross. I know. I know. I always knew. But I...
    danee012 danee012 18-21, F Sep 3

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    I thought you really loved me but I was so stupid enough to believe your lies. I was young, dumb, and in love. I thought you actually cared about me, but then again if you really...
    Zozolove Zozolove 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    So for sometime now the gf and I have been having issues, mainly due to communication and practice on our part. It all started amazing for me, I had met the girl I wanted to...
    duplexoutlet duplexoutlet 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 25

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    Every day that I have no contact with my crush, I'm going to upload a song. ;-"The Waiting" by Tom Petty & the HeartbreakersOh baby don't it feel like heaven right nowDon't it...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 28

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    I am a woman of great passion and desire to feel loved. But my spiritual and emotional pain tends to over shadow my hearts desire and keeps men from noticing me. My greatest hearts...
    dybbukbox dybbukbox 41-45, F 4 Responses Aug 30

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    Heart in her hands, My heart in her hands. I don't know why I did that. I don't know why I even loved her so. And it deeply hurt my soul, that I put my heart in her hands. Its out...
    keyshawn15 keyshawn15 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    Alright, this is gonna be long, so prepare yourself for this. I'm gonna start off with some background info: To put it bluntly, I have nobody. My family doesn't give 2 f***s...
    Rudale Rudale 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    So this is going to be long but I got to get all this off my chest... and it wouldn't hurt to get some feedback. So as always there was this guy lets call him Tom. I met him my...
    justagirl18 justagirl18 16-17, F 16 Responses Aug 21

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    I am a woman of great passion and desire to feel loved . My spiritual and emotional pain tends to over shadow my hearts desire and keeps men from noticing me. My greatest hearts...
    dybbukbox dybbukbox 41-45, F Aug 30

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    Aight y'all this is kinda long so drink your coffee befor u start. My gf of 7 cheated on me. Lied about for months, went back to him, then I found out and she kept me from...
    TexomaHornDog TexomaHornDog 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 3

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    I met him four years ago, we never grew up together so I didm;t see him for what he was: my cousin. Yes I know, gross ******. I know. I know. I always knew. But I have accepted the...
    danee012 danee012 18-21, F Sep 3

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    Actually I know two for certain, my grandfather has rectal cancer and my dad has cancer too although I don't know what kind of cancer he has and I don't want to ask. I.. I don't...
    udamansteel udamansteel 16-17, F Sep 5

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    Every day that I have no contact with my crush, I'm going to upload a song. ;-)The Killers - All These Things That I've DoneWhen there's nowhere else to runIs there room for one...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F Sep 10

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    Testosterone therapy problems, even though frequently slight and treatable, can lead to further more troubles like the event of cardiovascular disease, coronary heart attack...
    Joshua603b4zn8 Joshua603b4zn8 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 24

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    I don’t know where everything went wrong ,how I lost the gamble of life. My inexplicable mind didn’t keep anything though,no balance sheet it prepared- what it got and what it...
    trappedwings trappedwings 26-30, F Aug 30

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