Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Know My Heart

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 91 People

    And I Thought I Had Been Living Simply.

    I find getting old to be a very great pleasure as I sit in my not uncomfortable chair.There’s no desire for a magazine or a computer or TV or phone or backrub or window view—actually, not even for chocolate.. Inside there is comfort.  It’s very interesting inside.  There...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 10 Responses Nov 9, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Soft-Hearted

    Well, I was told to stay away from animals... family does not allow to have any pets.. but I guess a dog changed my heart.. India has many stray animals.. I was in college living away from home.. Once I saved a little pup who couldn't walk - from a herd of locals dogs out to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 27, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Lifes Blessings

    Before you were born, before any sonogram could tell me, I knew your sex. Before any pregnancy test could tell me, I knew you were growing inside of me. I knew I loved you before any doctor or test told me that you were there. When you were born, the pain was forgotten when you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 10, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The Mystic's Pain

    If the sky were to become purple-black and rain searing green fire all ‘round, it would have nothing to do with the the feelings in a mystic’s heart.    But when he makes an opening between his fingers and looks out, he hears our cries--our suffering because we haven’t...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F May 15, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Dweller In Multiple Worlds

    I'm beginning a walk.  A tour of a farm,  of struggles and achievement.  Of nothing.  I leave out that which would cause purposeless sorrow. It's 1940.  The  fence is clear of brush, has sturdy posts, and the wires are stretched tight enough that you can climb...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 11 Responses May 6, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Know My Heart

    Why do I pray? Do I pray to say I prayed an hour? Why do I love? Do I want you beholden to me? Why do I help? Do I help to hear my name called out? And why do I sing? Search me and know my heart, Oh God. See if there is any wrong thing in me All I have ever really wanted...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze 56-60, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    We Consciously Tried To Be No Bother

    We went back to our spot near Sedona and saw the beautiful comfortably settled-in homes that look out across the valley, just like we used to do while sitting in our folding lawn chairs next to a wait-a-minute bush.  We couldn't actually deny a certain beauty of freshly...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 8 Responses Sep 1, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The Lover

    OUT THERE IN THE WORLD COGNIZED BY MIND   THE LOVER IS UNSEEN AND RARELY SUSPECTED,   THE CARESSES ASSIGNED TO A SOURCE OTHER,   THE GIFTS TAKEN TO BE THEIR OWN PROGENY. 
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 1 Response May 13, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    As Good As Any Revenge

    My mother was strong and my dad wasn’t. He was fifteen years older than she. Before he died, after he needed care and came to live with us, Daddy told me he was afraid that Mother was going to give everything to my little brother and that he would fight her to get anything...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 14 Responses Mar 30, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Romance is Divine

    Romance is divine When one's romance is with the Divine.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 3 Responses May 31, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    In

    It is a place of friendly shadows, with lichen and mushrooms and fairies. Her feet go soft on moss, and she can lie on her stomach with the cosmic lover and watch fishes in clear greeny pools. The beauty makes her eyes mist. This is why she loves being alone.
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Training A Child In The Way He Should Go -- Aka -- A Harsh Environment Demands That A Child Learn To Accept Responsibility

    This is the story, told by The Gypsy,  of a climb she made out of the Grand Canyon with a party of Havasupai, and of a boy's adventures on that trip. The child had been told, the night before, that they would be accompanying the group setting out the next day to gather pine nuts...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    OH – MY – GOSH – YES – THERE – IS

    – A – SANTA. Something made me watch BECOMING SANTA, a movie for which I had seen no recommendation at all, other than the fact that it is a Christmas movie. It turned out to be about 'real world' guys who play Santa. I stuck with it, all the while thinking how odd it...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The Love Egg

    There were strange events surrounding the group of young men with whom our son met often, and he remembers it a little differently than I do, but he didn’t record it and I did. Here’s one of the events, another story from the front of my journal. It was a nice group of teen...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 2 Responses Oct 17, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Meeting a Mystic, a Disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda

    She was young and I was young, but she was mature enough to be called a spiritual giant, and I was mature enough to know that it was true.   When I saw her across the lawn my homing instinct took me, and as she walked here and there I floated, entranced, behind her right...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 9 Responses May 15, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    An Ocean Of Flowers

    I flew, speckled with luminous electricity, A crazed dragonfly, with black sea-horses for escort When dreams were crushing with bitter blows My skies of ultramarine were burning Into the unknown yellow ochre orb ... It was then that I saw an ocean of flowers    
    THEMADHATTERXXXX THEMADHATTERXXXX 46-50, M Oct 7, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Favorite Experience Recorded in My Journal

      I loved riding along the California coast and enjoying the plants, so different from those of the desert and of the Midwest.   Five years before the events of this story Hubby had decided we would move back to the Midwest, and separation from folks who had given me support...
    nelladell nelladell 70+, F 8 Responses May 29, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    Me: "I don't know what am I doing here in this world." Heart: "Take your time. They always say that you will figure out at the age of 25." Brain: "OF COURSE YOU DON'T! YOU'RE...
    YesIAmAsian YesIAmAsian 18-21 24 mins ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Another Goodbye ButterflyI wish she wasn't so upset,when she left me,mad as she was when she left,but it's the only way she knows how leave me,believe me,I know the type,so...
    AaronLA AaronLA 31-35, M Feb 15

    Your Response

    Cancel
    For the Heartbroken You took all the love I offered Even all my dignity Made me think my love was ugly Then threw it back at me Now my stomach feels so hollow My ego feels...
    squizz5 squizz5 41-45, M 6 Responses Feb 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I had to break up with my boyfriend. He was so good to me, but he ignored my kids. After 15 months I had to decide if I wanted to keep just dating him, knowing it would never...
    Marcibella Marcibella 36-40, F 2 Responses Feb 20

    Your Response

    Cancel
    well, i'm pretty sure that's where this is going. i have been talking to this boy for exactly two months today. everything has been going perfect- until last night. it was like...
    daydreamer27 daydreamer27 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It all started on a summer day, I still remember the moment when I met her. She was a young and innocent girl, we share a similar background of a lone foreigner travelling to a new...
    thebiggestwhatif thebiggestwhatif 18-21, M Feb 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    A beat An ache of loneliness which you feel at that moment will never go away A longing that takes your mind to an unknown place A sensual desire which heats your entire being...
    SecretEscape SecretEscape 36-40, F 9 Responses Feb 19

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Today I saw the man who makes my heart jump with joy and ache at the same time.. He was only 20 feet away.. I wanted to come up to him and say hi, but he looked happy and thought I...
    TrueLove213 TrueLove213 26-30, F Feb 23

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Being depressed over a girl isn't cool. And whats worse, i am afraid of letting my friends, family know because i don't want to be laughed at. Even if i know they won't. For over a...
    Lance142Vance Lance142Vance 16-17, M Feb 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I know what love could do to you. Breaks you and tears you into little pieces. I just wish I had more control over my feelings and wished that my heart asked me for my permission...
    jiajee jiajee 18-21 5 Responses Feb 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I joined EP after I had some major personal issues in my life, looking for a place just to vent to get things off my chest. This was back in June 2014 when I found EP. What a...
    hunterw0lf hunterw0lf 41-45, M Feb 14

    Your Response

    Cancel
    In painful moments of dire discouragement, please know that your soul has a resiliency and a capacity to endure suffering that is beyond anything you can imagine. Even the softest...
    deephuman deephuman 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 14

    Your Response

    Cancel
    You said I was special. I was breathtaking, I was beautiful. I didn't really care about your words, but i believed you believed them . I believed in your kindness and not the...
    wingeyes wingeyes 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Fear. That is all it started. I have been through a busy childhood. My childishness was early taken away from me, and at a very young age, such as six years old, I learned to act...
    diane1996 diane1996 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It feels a if your heart has just being ripped out of your chest you begin to feel emotionless as if life has just left your body you know? like a walking dead yeah you cry...
    BlueFloraKae BlueFloraKae 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I toured the world with rock bands, not on stage, but as one of the crew (a 'Roadie'). At a gig in Connecticut (I'm from the UK), I caught the eye of a girl in the auditorium...
    dooskybrady dooskybrady 56-60, M 1 Response Feb 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    If you've read my previous experience on this or have even just spoken to me, you'll know that I often feel like there's a hole in my heart and there's something missing. I feel...
    KilljoyKitty KilljoyKitty 18-21 4 Responses Feb 20

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I totally understand how pain - being unloved when you need it desperately - can lead to resentment and outright hatred. I totally get how things even just within yourself - guilt...
    scalner scalner 31-35 a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    to you my gorgeous love, I just wanna say you are beautiful in more than just one way your personality illuminates my life your pure and kind soul are true treasure you are as...
    kimmychantwo kimmychantwo 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 9

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am sick and i am tired but I had to sayYES THIS IS MY GROUP AND MY HEARTH GROUP :D!USUALLY PEOPLE HAVE NOOO IDEA HOW VULNERABLE HOW POROUS AND HOW MALLEABLE MY BOUNDARIES REALLY...
    lunadelobos lunadelobos 41-45 1 Response Feb 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I thought I was okay. But whenever I see him emotions rush to my head, my heart starts beating with rage, and my eyes fill up. Now I just saw a comment on a girls instagram. He was...
    lizcochran98 lizcochran98 16-17, F Feb 20

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My boyfriend, or should I say long distance boyfriend, lives on the other side of the world. A 26 hour plane ride away. I just came back in January from seeing him. When I left, it...
    inevitablebliss inevitablebliss 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Ok I know I shouldn't be praising myself, it isn't nice, but yeah, I realise that now. It is either that I am very kind hearted or that I am stupid, so I choose the former.. I...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Living out of memories...just about it. I can relate... BY Delta Goodrem. If it's okay I'll leave the bed light on And place your water glass where it belongs And if it's...
    ninja5593 ninja5593 18-21, F Feb 17

    Your Response

    Cancel
    You Have a Content HeartYour heart doesn't crave much. It doesn't take much to make your heart happy.You may or may not have found love, but either way, your heart is at peace.If...
    lunadelobos lunadelobos 41-45 1 Response a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I started high school this year, a high school in a different town. Making friends has always been hard for me; people would always pick on me because I was the small kid until I...
    Kassings Kassings 16-17, F 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel