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I Know My Mind Can Be A Dark Place

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 631 People

    Saddness

    My mind is more of a dark sad lost place instead of an evil place though wickedness and tragedy so easily intertwine it seems. Could you see the wickedness or sadness when you look inside of me? I wonder who honestly can. I look at the world and I see such beauty peace and...
    closinginontheedge closinginontheedge 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 31, 2013

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    Hahahaha Wow

    Oh my god i am one screwed up creature. Feral. I swear to god when I flow naturally i seem to magnetize towards mothers and I understand it now at the nuerological level want to be MORE, I am vigiliant but i want responsability in a big way and yet i’ve never truly had it so...
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M May 24, 2013

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    I think about dark arts

    and atheism , voodoo and wiccans, I imagine killing every last one of you corrupt bastards, torturing you until you cannot live anymore. I'm a psycho lunatic who lives only because he needs to be someone's rock . after that I'm leaving
    MrFoe MrFoe 13-15, M 3 Responses Aug 16, 2014

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    The Fading Light

    I wonder if I could run forever without stopping could I escape the despair that is within me? Shackled by chains unseen by others, imprisoned by bars and locks that others cannot know, I desperately try to find an opening...any crack that I can cling to that can be used to tear...
    Muriele Muriele 51-55, T May 13, 2013

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    The Dark Lures Me In

    Some days my mind drifts off into this dark, dark place. It can take weeks or even months before I stop having bad thoughts, but some days it's fairly normal. I don't know what a "normal" mind thinks... but I guess my mind is almost completely normal some days. Some days though...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 2, 2013

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    They Just Happen...

    It's bizarre, but I have incredibly dark, morbid and sometimes actually filthy...I'd have to call them daydreams. I've visualized my friends and I tortured to death, occasionally raped, I've visualized killing someone myself, but not raping them for some reason, and I have almost...
    ohnonotu ohnonotu 18-21, M Jul 5, 2013

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    Devil Vs. God

    I know it is wrong to think dark and disturbing thoughts. I was always taught that when you're mind goes that dark, it's a sign of the devil inviting his self in. I am a strong believe in god but sometimes I feel so angry and alone that I just want to put an end to certain things...
    LoveIsNotFamily LoveIsNotFamily 18-21, F Apr 17, 2013

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    *Dark Laugh*

    I really have a dark mind... *Chuckles* I bet I'd scare my own family if they knew what I was thinking about sometimes. :/ First off, let's start with my profile pic. (If I have changed it, just keep reading.) It's a pic of a Cubone beating the blood out of a Pidgey. Whew... Okay...
    NaturistBlanca NaturistBlanca 16-17, M Jul 24, 2013

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    Darker Thoughts After Grieving

    my dad was killed last year. he was hit by a car. i have a two year old son. he wasn't eve4n 1 when the accident happened. i remember my dad saying things such as "I won't get to see your son grow up. i will be dead by then." since his death, i too have wondered and been...
    yleigh yleigh 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2013

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    And Sometimes It Scares Me

    My dark thoughts are unsettling, to say the least.I am often frightened by the things that cross my mind.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F Jan 28, 2013

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    Secrets

    My Favorite Part Of Inuyasha Episode Tetsusaiga Breaks
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M May 24, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    A find it easier to remain in the dark crevasses of my mind as escape has proven impossible on my own.
    HermausMora HermausMora 18-21, M Jan 6

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    And again the thought that I am hurting and suffering for something I have no control over, ugh. Like I wanna fix this, but its nothing I can do. I have to deal with this. I have...
    Sharudy Sharudy 18-21, F Jan 15

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    I am but it's an odd blessing. Up until about 1-2 years back my world was only black and all I saw was darkness. The valley of death was my existence and it sucked. As dark of a...
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 15

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    I'm not sure where I went wrong - no wait I know exactly where I went wrong. Currently for the start of this New Year, I am... Financially ******. I am 22 and living with Family...
    Mcgregor117 Mcgregor117 22-25, M Jan 1

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    Have you ever just felt pain? So much pain that you don't even want revenge... you just want it gone... I'd never hurt him. I don't even want to tell him I'm still hurt. He thinks...
    xderailedfatalitiesx xderailedfatalitiesx 18-21, F Jan 14

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    I can't stop hurting myself..
    DoYouTryToUnderstand DoYouTryToUnderstand 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    i wanna cut so ****** bad it actually hurts. can't keep resisting it
    angiebirdflyaway angiebirdflyaway 18-21, F Jan 18

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    I honestly know that what has happened to me in the past cannot be changed but, it's preventing me from moving on. I'm struggling 24/7 here. I'm meant to forgive and forget, accept...
    ScarM3 ScarM3 16-17, F Jan 10

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    Sometimes we do not know when exactly change has taken place. Like the Ship of Theseus, do we know exactly which is the last plank that says 'this is the old me'? When even that...
    novembermountain novembermountain 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    many times in my life ,,,Lost at sea ,trapped in a fire ,being beat to death ,a gun misfiring meant to blow my brains out ,,He was always there ,and that was before I realized...
    rckt148 rckt148 51-55, M Jan 3

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    01. I wish I never gave him a chance to get back in my life... he made a fool outta me... I pray to god that time heals faster and I forget who he even is, it's like he never...
    CharlotteTeller CharlotteTeller 26-30, F Jan 11

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    It's mentally tolling and draining working in the social/human services field. What I do is so simple and easy and I'm doing more than I should. I am applying for jobs now and I...
    Frenchgal11 Frenchgal11 26-30, F Jan 12

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    And so can every single one of you. An alter ego is usually a conscious construction. For example, remember the way you feel like when you walk out of the theater after watching...
    slipdasystem slipdasystem 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    right now i feel like taking this bottle of pills and being gone. theres a part of me that says hold on this isnt right but mostly im like f it. i just dont understand why i was...
    puplenurple206 puplenurple206 13-15, F Dec 30, 2014

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    Life is all about making mistakes or bad choices because you wanted to. Dealing with the consequences. Learning from the conclusions.
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M Jan 11

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    and what exactly is their responsibility?
    gyty gyty 13-15, M Jan 17

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    I will talk to anyone about anything they're going through , I'm a really good listener :)
    j1494 j1494 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Damn you. why did you do this to me again? I was over you. you were settled. somehow we've ended up talking again. again. Everytime we talk it ends up badly. you've got me in a...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    I've notice this 6th sense of mine after an experience I had at a hospice while my mom was passing away. I was with my boyfriend visiting my mother at a hospice in Lakewood...
    Roshir Roshir 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    My mind can't focus or stay fixed on one thing and this is becoming especially troubling since I have exams coming up. It just suddenly begins to wander, telling me I don't need to...
    StrayingFromSanity StrayingFromSanity 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Reading through this website helped me so much with my recent situation, that I felt the need to contribute somehow and hope it helps others in return. A little background about...
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    3 years ago I was an Uni student. Now I am just a drop out who never told his family that. So for the past 3 years I have been lying about my studies, my results etc. I had done...
    tiszero tiszero 22-25, M Jan 19

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    It will soon be two months since it has been off. I wake up okay for just that one minute, but then I just start to cry. I just know she was my last chance to have my first...
    MadDog21 MadDog21 31-35, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I laugh at things I'm not supposed to at times. My mind can twist & have a pretty morbid & deranged side. I think the only people who I can be open with this are my kids, my...
    Stickwithmebabe Stickwithmebabe 36-40, F 6 days ago

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    I ended my affair for many reasons as explained in other stories. I fell in love with him because when my life was at it's worst he made me laugh and gave me hope. Well this past...
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    Yes and i really dont know,how can i keep it like a secret :)
    fauxlady fauxlady 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    All it takes is being at the wrong place at the wrong time. I didn't know regret could hurt so much and be felt so deep. I want to forget it, but I keep thinking: "what could I...
    larosenoire larosenoire 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 5

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    Sometimes I just don't understand. I never end up with the person I really like. Either there's always someone else or I'm just not good enough. But what about when someone leads...
    blackspikex blackspikex 18-21, F Jan 20

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