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I Know My Mind Can Be A Dark Place

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 667 People

    They Just Happen...

    It's bizarre, but I have incredibly dark, morbid and sometimes actually filthy...I'd have to call them daydreams. I've visualized my friends and I tortured to death, occasionally raped, I've visualized killing someone myself, but not raping them for some reason, and I have almost...
    ohnonotu ohnonotu 18-21, M Jul 5, 2013

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    And Sometimes It Scares Me

    My dark thoughts are unsettling, to say the least.I am often frightened by the things that cross my mind.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F Jan 28, 2013

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    The Dark Lures Me In

    Some days my mind drifts off into this dark, dark place. It can take weeks or even months before I stop having bad thoughts, but some days it's fairly normal. I don't know what a "normal" mind thinks... but I guess my mind is almost completely normal some days. Some days though...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 2, 2013

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    Darker Thoughts After Grieving

    my dad was killed last year. he was hit by a car. i have a two year old son. he wasn't eve4n 1 when the accident happened. i remember my dad saying things such as "I won't get to see your son grow up. i will be dead by then." since his death, i too have wondered and been...
    yleigh yleigh 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2013

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    Saddness

    My mind is more of a dark sad lost place instead of an evil place though wickedness and tragedy so easily intertwine it seems. Could you see the wickedness or sadness when you look inside of me? I wonder who honestly can. I look at the world and I see such beauty peace and...
    closinginontheedge closinginontheedge 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 31, 2013

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    Secrets

    My Favorite Part Of Inuyasha Episode Tetsusaiga Breaks
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M May 24, 2013

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    I think about dark arts

    and atheism , voodoo and wiccans, I imagine killing every last one of you corrupt bastards, torturing you until you cannot live anymore. I'm a psycho lunatic who lives only because he needs to be someone's rock . after that I'm leaving
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 16, 2014

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    The Fading Light

    I wonder if I could run forever without stopping could I escape the despair that is within me? Shackled by chains unseen by others, imprisoned by bars and locks that others cannot know, I desperately try to find an opening...any crack that I can cling to that can be used to tear...
    Muriele Muriele 56-60, T May 13, 2013

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    Devil Vs. God

    I know it is wrong to think dark and disturbing thoughts. I was always taught that when you're mind goes that dark, it's a sign of the devil inviting his self in. I am a strong believe in god but sometimes I feel so angry and alone that I just want to put an end to certain things...
    LoveIsNotFamily LoveIsNotFamily 18-21, F Apr 17, 2013

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    Hahahaha Wow

    Oh my god i am one screwed up creature. Feral. I swear to god when I flow naturally i seem to magnetize towards mothers and I understand it now at the nuerological level want to be MORE, I am vigiliant but i want responsability in a big way and yet i’ve never truly had it so...
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M May 24, 2013

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    *Dark Laugh*

    I really have a dark mind... *Chuckles* I bet I'd scare my own family if they knew what I was thinking about sometimes. :/ First off, let's start with my profile pic. (If I have changed it, just keep reading.) It's a pic of a Cubone beating the blood out of a Pidgey. Whew... Okay...
    NaturistBlanca NaturistBlanca 16-17, M Jul 24, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I only ever seem to go into an even darker place after trying to climb towards the bright light.
    nirvsemp nirvsemp 16-17, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Living in a house were your parents are fighting all the time is like King kong fighting Godzilla and you are in the middle of it, it's a terrifying place in many ways . One day i...
    comlpicatedguy comlpicatedguy 18-21, M May 5

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    and I don't have no real friends to help me out. I don't know how to start feeling better
    natalienicole2015 natalienicole2015 31-35, F 7 Responses May 1

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    Thats it!! **** it! Not only the whole world in already over my shoulders buuutttt its getting even harder... So just to make things clear, this whole dilemma is because of the...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 18-21, M 1 Response May 3

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    I cant believe it. I cant believe how deceiving looks can be. Oh my god ;( At least now i know.
    Catsonly Catsonly 13-15, F May 7

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    I am a 14 year old girl and my height is 5 feet. I began puberty at around 10 or 11 years and had my first period at 13 years and 4 months old. I am not very regular and it has...
    nickyra55 nickyra55 13-15 1 Response May 9

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    Deep down I know that people would change when they're in a relationship. But what hurt me more was the fact that my bestie (slowly) change. I mean, I know that there's a...
    Imaclosetbookworm Imaclosetbookworm 18-21, F 1 Response May 5

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    Today wile walking barefoot down the street three strange men offered to let me into their apartment. They didn't seem too scary, the oldest couldn't have been older than 21, so I...
    antihero98 antihero98 16-17, F May 10

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    i can see your green light but i cant say hello..it hurts like hell
    mrmistery mrmistery 41-45, M 5 days ago

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    The drugs are gonna make it alright.
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 5 hrs ago

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    You could look innocent and be a total *****. You could look badass, yet be a gentle, sensitive person. Looks truly are deceiving.
    MisunderstoodGirl69 MisunderstoodGirl69 13-15, F 1 Response May 19

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    Has anyone else received a message from Experience Project saying that one of your groups have been removed from the site and that you are in violation of the guidelines and then...
    erarmstrng erarmstrng 46-50, M 7 Responses May 22

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    I was at the drugstore and the pharmacist asked what I was doind there. Gee, maybe book a ticket to Fiji or train to become a nonja like Naruto? It's awfully hot in here, this...
    abcdefghisabelmnopqrst abcdefghisabelmnopqrst 26-30, F May 22

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    you know in the dark there's cockroaches. I'm afraid of them more than ghosts
    mcx0125 mcx0125 16-17, M 12 hrs ago

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    Oh believe me you wouldn't want to my mind is a dark place even I get complicated with my own thoughts..
    freedom1608 freedom1608 16-17, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    In life nothing comes with an instruction manual, we can only draw on our own experiences to gain knowledge. I no longer think I have purpose in life, I have Children and a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses May 3

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    I am.. but sometimes I wish I could read other's thoughts. Lately my life's been very busy and hectic... but for a woman that spend so much time being 'caged' up.. being...
    xXxsilvermistxXx xXxsilvermistxXx 26-30, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I got INTJ, which accounts for 2% of the entire population, 3% of males, and 1% of females. •Quick, Imaginative and Strategic Mind – INTJs pride themselves on their minds...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    thefemalegrimreaper is a judgemental child who claims to be a 19 year old adult yet she acts like a 4year old and blocks people who are in a dark place it is my opinion that she is...
    Anastas17 Anastas17 18-21, T 1 Response May 7

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    I take endless personality tests and most of them have similar results but most of the time I don't feel like that are correct. I know you can only get so much out of tests online...
    z1a2r3a z1a2r3a 13-15, F 20 hrs ago

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    This has been a problem for quite some time now, im 19 years turnbung 20 on in a month, i should have a great life, my parents have money, i have friends, i dony see myself as ugly...
    lifeaintshit lifeaintshit 18-21, M May 11

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    Oh, Kitty. Ever since you stopped being my best friend, I've been trying to convince myself that I don't care for you anymore. It's hard. Sometimes I succeed--but ultimately, I...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F May 10

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    Everyday you wander through my mind... It breaks me more and more each day... I wish things could be easier... I wish I could bring you back everyday... But I know I can't... :/ to...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F May 24

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    On March 4, 2014 tianajade (18-21, F) wrote: Never say these things to someone who suffers from depression, or any other disorder/mental illness: 1: "You just need to give yourself...
    WattDeFalk WattDeFalk 56-60, T 6 days ago

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    I am honestly experiencing a heart break.I have never been in love before, I've never been in a relationship before either. I don't even want to be in love with her, I don't want...
    Someonequiet17 Someonequiet17 18-21, F 1 Response May 3

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    I'm in love with my ex n I know I can't have him anymore that hurts I feel useless because I couldn't help him I wish that he would come and there could be a us again but I...
    angie314 angie314 13-15, F 1 Response May 15

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    Definately the more knowledge you have the more you know what can hurt you, how much more there is out there that can hurt you, knowing too much is a pain.
    LifeChangedMe LifeChangedMe 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11

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    After all the crap my husband has put me through I never want to get married again. Ever. Today was honestly the final straw. I gave him another chance a couple of weeks ago but...
    Jenezebel Jenezebel 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I'm at a point where I just don't know... the people I thought I could rely on have kinda left me... and the one person I know I can talk to I'm reluctant to talk to because of...
    codenamekidnextdoor codenamekidnextdoor 22-25, F 1 Response May 3

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    And that includes me. "...man is always more than he knows or can know about himself..."
    Brontide Brontide 36-40, M May 5

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    don't come smiling at me!! we both know you can't stand me and I can't stand you! in this situations I tend to back off and stay quiet because if I spoke to the person I really...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 11

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