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I Know Someone Who Committed Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,406 People

    In Memory Of Dusty.

    I had a friend that I knew in elementary school. She had as an active imagination as I did growing up, and I still remember some of the games of "house" that we played and the stories of block castles that we came up with. Public school being public school, if you weren't in the...
    Wistina Wistina 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 5, 2012

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    I'm in Girl Scouts at my school,

    and this is a combination of 6th, 7th, and 8th grade students. Since eighth graders are allowed to be president and vice pres. of the troop, my friend and I took the positions. But anyways, a girl in 7th grade was there, and she seemed totally fine. She was always happy and...
    Audrina14 Audrina14 13-15, F Apr 17

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    I lost my starr that was her name my beautiful

    mother I will never forget you.
    riddlesmile riddlesmile 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 27

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    I had a friend from high school.

    She was a girl that held so much pain in her smile. She was a girl that never felt beautiful. She was a girl who had a handsome boyfriend, who she didn't feel worthy of. She was a girl who was nice to everyone. She was a girl who had two sisters. She was a girl who died her hair...
    livingwallflower livingwallflower 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 28

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    I just don't understand

    why someone commit suicide. God gave us a free will to know what's best for us. Our life is precious and we are created with purpose. I can't imagine how someone to do it without thinking about their love ones. Rest in peace my X step son. We sure will Miss you.
    Yojj13 Yojj13 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    I saw someone hang them self.

    I didn't know what they were doing. We were on a trip to Wales, with our school, and one night I woke up when the door creaked. I got out of bed and went to see who it was. I saw the bathroom door close so I looked in there to see one of my friends tying a rope around his neck...
    theDoomProject theDoomProject 13-15, M Apr 24

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    My Shrink Committed Suicide

    In this life it is rare that you find someone who you can depend on to give you consistently good advice. Someone who knows everything about you and can advise you because you have shared the darkest details of your life with them....I had someone like that. She was my...
    sandunguera sandunguera 31-35, F 12 Responses Apr 15, 2008

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    2 Days Ago

    She commuted suicide 2 days ago leaving behind her 5 year old son. I know what she went through I knew what was going on in her mind but I never thought she'd come to this. Why'd u have to do this know when I needed u most but I'm glad Ur out of your misery I will love and miss u...
    Thegirlyawesomegirl Thegirlyawesomegirl 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    ILYMatthewEspinosa ILYMatthewEspinosa 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    I Can't Get It Off My Mind..

    This morning I was woken up by a text message from my boyfriend (he's out of state working) he said his sister sent him a text at 2am saying that their cousin shot himself. Of course, I was shocked to hear. especially because i didnt know he was suicidal. He has a girlfriend, 2...
    amstevens23 amstevens23 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 14, 2012

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    "Why did you have to go?

    I'd give up my eyes, to see you one last time. And I'd give all my fingertips to touch you, And I could paint you picture perfect, Even if I were blinded. But you had to die, for me to see how to live." Picture Perfect - Escape the Fate
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 15

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    3 people I've known directly - the most recent

    was just back in December. Since December, another 3 people who were 1-2 degrees of separation from me (friends of friends).
    salix75 salix75 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    My Best Friend.

    I had a friend named Neashay. He was abused by his mother and father all his life. He was 15 at the time he died and I was 14. It happened over two years ago, but he is still in my heart. He had to move with his mom back home to Korea, and he messaged me when ever he could which...
    Lilg7 Lilg7 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 13, 2012

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    This is a weird piece in my history.

    ... I vaguely recall my late father going on about a cousin of his who killed himself by sticking a pillow case/ slip or whatever, over his head , filled with gas. This must have been in the early 70's when folks used to stick their heads in the gas ovens to kill themselves...
    cpthaddock cpthaddock 51-55, M 1 Response Jul 13

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    "She will not come out of her room" her mother

    cried to me on the other end of the phone that fate full day so many years ago...... A month before this sad day....seeing how she was....She struggled, she fought with herself inside. she would be happy with her friends who were close, to make them feel good, but heart...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    gilllung gilllung 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 10

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    I had a friend in the military

    who took his own life. We never actually met in person but I was close friends with his wife and he and I communicated with each other several times. It was a messed up situation. To be honest... I blame his wife for it.
    utahwriter utahwriter 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 24

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    Where Do They Go?

    What are your beliefs on where people go when they commit suicide?
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    My mom killed herself in front of me

    when I was 15 said was my fault before she did it she abused me all her life so I would expect nothing less from her I have never felt anything about her death
    unspankablebrat80 unspankablebrat80 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 6

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    Nikki

    My friend Nikki commited suicide on November 24, 2008 at the age of 14. She suffered from depression for about 3 years before it happened, her dad was a psychiatrist as well. I didn't find out that it happened until about a month later because i was out of town and i was crushed...
    roseofthedevilsgarden roseofthedevilsgarden 22-25, F 9 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    My friend for 7 years shot herself in the head.

    I found out a couple hours after she did it which was a Saturday and I didn't want to believe it at all.She was always sooo happy.We did memorial services for her at school a couple days.She had just moved from Georgia over to Texas away from her mom who made her life hell.School...
    Dannimonique Dannimonique 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 28

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    A Few

    I grew up on Chicago's North Shore. Back when I was in high school, that area was known as the suicide belt.  It is the area that the movie Ordinary People was based on.  In my freshman year there were something like 40 suicides in ours and surrounding towns. Some I knew of...
    TKD1 TKD1 46-50, F Nov 30, 2013

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    Catherine

    I met this amazing girl at uni, Sarah. Bouncy, bubbly, hilariously funny, and so kind and caring. If not a bit scatty, probably a few too many drugs in her system, and a bit emotional sometimes. But a heart as good as gold. We became very good friends. We're living together next...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 6, 2008

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    I had a friend in 9th grade named Samuel

    but we called him Sammie 4 short. He was well liked & I met him in my 5th period math class. I bite at math so he used 2 sometimes sit with me during lunch as we waited 4 class 2 start & help me with the problems I didnt get. He didn't say much about his life except that he was...
    SutureMyHeart SutureMyHeart 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    On EP he was my friend

    and I was helping him stop cutting I knew that he committed suicide yesterday . It was horrible .he posted a suicide letter when he was ding and after that his friend posted the the was found dead by his mother . :( but I found out too late .
    Ummaperson Ummaperson 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    I Like Making People Happy.

    I remember, twice in one month two years ago, I saw in the news that two different people committed suicide and said the same thing. That if just one person had just noticed them that day they would not have done it. So, ever since then I just randomly smile and wave at every...
    LostNick LostNick 22-25, M 9 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    Schoolfriend

    He was one of the cleverest people I ever met, getting spectacular grades in all his exams. He was gentle and civilised. He married and had a child. He did not have an unusual name. I had lost touch with him, years before. I read a small story, in a newspaper, of somebody with...
    unsichtbar unsichtbar 46-50 Oct 31, 2008

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    I got a call last night from my husband telling

    me someone we knew (he knew him a little better then me) hung himself. It's so sad, a successful suicide means he really wanted to die. I wish people who were on the verge would call me, I know what it's like to want to die and it sucks, but things will get better one day and...
    thefeels21 thefeels21 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8

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    One girl in middle school,

    and then another in high school. The girl from middle school (I don't want to name names out of respect) I did not know her well, I just saw her around school. The girl from high school was on my volley ball team. She was really nice. She committed suicide less than a month...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 28

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    Trapped In Her Realm - The After Math of Her

    Leaving....... The loneliest tear trickles down a hardened face, that forgotten smile gone as it turns to a frown, rolling all the way down her cheek, "I cannot let it make me weak" she whispers to herself wiping it away...thoughts polluting her mind for that final escape...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Oct 22

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    My Father.

    I'm 16 years old soon will be turning 17. I lost my father to suicide when I was 14 years old. I never really grieved because the thought of it was so hard to understand, i couldn't rap my mind around it. My father was an amazing man, he was the kind of dad that would joke around...
    nacfoss nacfoss 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 27, 2012

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    I'm mad at him. My brother quit

    and left me with anger, resentment, and grief. Thanks a lot **** head.
    justmeandmydreams justmeandmydreams 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Tina

    She was a member of my cohort in nursing school.  At the tender age of 23, she sat down on the bathroom floor, jammed the barrel of her boyfriend's rifle in her mouth, and pulled the trigger with her toe.  It was Spring Break and he'd just broken up with her before...
    divinetriangle divinetriangle 31-35, F 1 Response May 3, 2008

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    Story #141 Just Got The Call

    My phone rang and I ran to answer it. I was so happy to see on call display that it was my eldest granddaughter. I love her and I am always happy to hear from her. This time, it was not a happy call. She was calling to tell me that her 15 year old sister's boyfriend committed...
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F 2 Responses Sep 9, 2011

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    I will never forget him.

    I won't understand why he wanted to die. He was one of the kindest people in the world. Hell, he loved me more than my own blood did. It was horrible seeing him mentally decaying, unable to help him because he keeps pushing everyone away. Then one day he just didn't show up...
    Musicthataltersyou Musicthataltersyou 18-21, M Aug 6

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    I found out on Sunday

    that an acquaintance of mine had committed suicide on Saturday afternoon...we weren't close friends, but when you have as few friends as I do to begin with, everyone counts. He used to live in my apartment building, which is how I met him. He had been through an alcohol rehab...
    LiquidThinking LiquidThinking 41-45, M 3 Responses Jun 16

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    It's been 4 years and I still miss him.

    He was my best friend, lover, father to my daughter. I never saw it coming. I still remember the phone call I got from his dad saying "James shot himself" and I said is he in the hospital? And of course the answer was no he is dead. Took awhile me to even comprehend what that...
    justcharbar justcharbar 31-35, F Apr 21

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    You Never Know.

    I received the news last night. A former colleague of mine had passed away. After further questions I soon learned he took his own life. This was a man with a vibrant personality, who really took the time to listen to those around him, and just made you laugh. He had a love...
    Deee1930 Deee1930 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    A girl I saw every day,

    who struck me as absolutely gorgeous the first time I saw her, and every time after, died the night before last. It started because her boyfriend went to jail overnight for possession of marijuana, and she refused to give up his mother's phone number to anyone so that she...
    Isafae Isafae 18-21, F May 7

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    More Than One, Sadly.

    I've lost two people to suicide in the last year, however I'm going to write this about the most difficult suicide I had to work through.  In 2010 my ex-girlfriend committed suicide and she named me in her note.  I didn't leave her because I didn't love her, I didn't leave her...
    DoctorBastardo DoctorBastardo 31-35, M 6 Responses Jul 27, 2013

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    My In-Laws

    When I married my wife, she was twenty years younger than me and had five little children. I took her parents out to dinner and after dinner, I asked them for their daughters hand in marriage. Since her parents were only a year older than me, I'm sure they were concerned, but...
    KingSnarky KingSnarky 61-65, M 4 Responses Mar 8, 2013

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    John

    John was my older brother by six years. At the time of my engagement he had a steady girlfriend who had a child from a previous relationship. John was delighted to be welcomed into the relationship and he showed a serious commitment. In the weeks before my wedding, I moved back...
    perseverer perseverer 51-55, F 5 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    My ex boy friend Chris was bipolar

    and a meth addict and that combination drove him to shoot himself in the chest he died instantly they said! It was a very long time ago but I still believe for my sanity I had to walk away! But the guilt is something I live with! I know I could never have fixed him and he wasn't...
    Paige42986 Paige42986 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 11

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    The Worst Week Of My Life

    On September 8th, my best friend, Alice, died of cancer, she had the disease for two years, she was only 12 years old when she died. It hurt so much. I though the pain would never stop. But it wasn't over yet. Three days later, her brother, and my boyfriend. Committed suicide...
    runawaynumber6 runawaynumber6 13-15 3 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    The Governor

    He was a school governor, from a military background. As charming and apparently happy man as I have ever met. Pleasant to everyone. A loving family man, who had cared for his sick wife for some years. Talented and charismatic. He had a deep religious faith. He came down, as...
    unsichtbar unsichtbar 46-50 1 Response Oct 31, 2008

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    Suicide is never the solution.

    It's egotistical. So many people suffer - parents, friends and partners. Why end your own pain to cause other people a life time of guilt and suffering. Look more outwards instead of inwards. It could always get worse.
    oslo1967 oslo1967 46-50 2 Responses Mar 30

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    I actually dont know anyone close to me

    who committed suicide but i do know this one girl who will do it tomorrow yes that girl, is me... Ive nervous but im prepared, i dont know what to expect on the other side but i just know that my heart will always belong to God no matter what. Hopefully, my attempt works.
    Xcinderella Xcinderella 16-17, F 11 Responses Apr 8

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    Another f*cking death.

    .. Another funeral... Another scar on my body? Probably.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 10

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    May 2nd, 2011

    Its a day I play over and over again in my head. Its the day I lost my older brother, I lost my role model. The day I would never be the same again. Ever. He took his life in Virgina. Norfolk to be exact. He was going into his 7th year in the Navy. He just resigned to a new...
    ashgarbs ashgarbs 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 18, 2012

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    Please answer your phone.

    .. I'm really starting to worry... I can't lose you too. :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 11

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    Selfish?

    I know several people that has attempted suicide and a few that has succeed that purpose. Some of them I can accepted the fact of ending their lives because of mental illness. I am not saying that is an excuse but I do understand. She was young and already had three kids before...
    enchantedebonybutterfly enchantedebonybutterfly 31-35, F 6 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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