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I Know Someone Who Committed Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,641 People

    One of my bestfriends all through high school

    that I actually dated for like a month when I was a junior took his life yesterday by stepping in front of a semi. He always made life a little more fun for me and I'll miss him for the rest of my life. I still can't wrap my mind around the fact that he's gone.
    TomarkLove TomarkLove 18-21, F Aug 23, 2014

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    "Why did you have to go?

    I'd give up my eyes, to see you one last time. And I'd give all my fingertips to touch you, And I could paint you picture perfect, Even if I were blinded. But you had to die, for me to see how to live." Picture Perfect - Escape the Fate
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 15, 2014

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    My Father.

    I'm 16 years old soon will be turning 17. I lost my father to suicide when I was 14 years old. I never really grieved because the thought of it was so hard to understand, i couldn't rap my mind around it. My father was an amazing man, he was the kind of dad that would joke around...
    nacfoss nacfoss 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 27, 2012

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    I got a call last night from my husband telling

    me someone we knew (he knew him a little better then me) hung himself. It's so sad, a successful suicide means he really wanted to die. I wish people who were on the verge would call me, I know what it's like to want to die and it sucks, but things will get better one day and...
    thefeels21 thefeels21 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2014

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    My mom killed herself in front of me

    when I was 15 said was my fault before she did it she abused me all her life so I would expect nothing less from her I have never felt anything about her death
    unspankablebrat80 unspankablebrat80 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 6, 2014

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    I Like Making People Happy.

    I remember, twice in one month two years ago, I saw in the news that two different people committed suicide and said the same thing. That if just one person had just noticed them that day they would not have done it. So, ever since then I just randomly smile and wave at every...
    LostNick LostNick 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    Amanda Todd

    Yesterday a girl I knew committed suicide. Her name was Amanda Todd. You can search her on google if you want, she's been in the news and everything. Anyways, they say she killed herself because she was being bullied, because of some video she posted about her story. She was one...
    ABetterMe1Day ABetterMe1Day 16-17, F 13 Responses Oct 11, 2012

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    Today my thoughts go out to those heroic members

    that endured Christmas while trying to process a loved one's suicide. I quietly knight you all and pin an invisible Medal of Honour across your chests. I am not even sure there is a lexicon, protocol or rough definition of the odyssey of the suicide survivor. I have...
    Tannasheart Tannasheart 51-55, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    "She will not come out of her room" her mother

    cried to me on the other end of the phone that fate full day so many years ago...... A month before this sad day....seeing how she was....She struggled, she fought with herself inside. she would be happy with her friends who were close, to make them feel good, but heart...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 17, 2014

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    Trapped In Her Realm - The After Math of Her

    Leaving....... The loneliest tear trickles down a hardened face, that forgotten smile gone as it turns to a frown, rolling all the way down her cheek, "I cannot let it make me weak" she whispers to herself wiping it away...thoughts polluting her mind for that final escape...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 22, 2014

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    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 22

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    Suicide doesn't take away the pain,

    it gives it to someone else.
    kolga kolga 56-60, F 4 Responses Jan 11

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    A Few

    I grew up on Chicago's North Shore. Back when I was in high school, that area was known as the suicide belt.  It is the area that the movie Ordinary People was based on.  In my freshman year there were something like 40 suicides in ours and surrounding towns. Some I knew of...
    TKD1 TKD1 46-50, F Nov 30, 2013

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    Tina

    She was a member of my cohort in nursing school.  At the tender age of 23, she sat down on the bathroom floor, jammed the barrel of her boyfriend's rifle in her mouth, and pulled the trigger with her toe.  It was Spring Break and he'd just broken up with her before...
    divinetriangle divinetriangle 31-35, F 1 Response May 3, 2008

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    I had a friend in 9th grade named Samuel

    but we called him Sammie 4 short. He was well liked & I met him in my 5th period math class. I bite at math so he used 2 sometimes sit with me during lunch as we waited 4 class 2 start & help me with the problems I didnt get. He didn't say much about his life except that he was...
    SutureMyHeart SutureMyHeart 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    I Can't Get It Off My Mind..

    This morning I was woken up by a text message from my boyfriend (he's out of state working) he said his sister sent him a text at 2am saying that their cousin shot himself. Of course, I was shocked to hear. especially because i didnt know he was suicidal. He has a girlfriend, 2...
    amstevens23 amstevens23 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 14, 2012

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    I Lost My Adam Two Weeks Ago...

    I don't know where to begin. I lost my boyfriend Adam two weeks ago he took his life with a shotgun to his mouth. I found him dead on his living room floor the morning  he did it. I am sufferinng everyday because of it. I don't know why he did it i didnt even expect it I saw him...
    vrio85 vrio85 26-30 9 Responses Mar 27, 2012

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    My Best Friend.

    I had a friend named Neashay. He was abused by his mother and father all his life. He was 15 at the time he died and I was 14. It happened over two years ago, but he is still in my heart. He had to move with his mom back home to Korea, and he messaged me when ever he could which...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 13, 2012

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    Story #141 Just Got The Call

    My phone rang and I ran to answer it. I was so happy to see on call display that it was my eldest granddaughter. I love her and I am always happy to hear from her. This time, it was not a happy call. She was calling to tell me that her 15 year old sister's boyfriend committed...
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F 2 Responses Sep 9, 2011

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    This is a weird piece in my history.

    ... I vaguely recall my late father going on about a cousin of his who killed himself by sticking a pillow case/ slip or whatever, over his head , filled with gas. This must have been in the early 70's when folks used to stick their heads in the gas ovens to kill themselves...
    cpthaddock cpthaddock 51-55, M 2 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    I'm mad at him. My brother quit

    and left me with anger, resentment, and grief. Thanks a lot **** head.
    justmeandmydreams justmeandmydreams 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 7, 2014

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    Catherine

    I met this amazing girl at uni, Sarah. Bouncy, bubbly, hilariously funny, and so kind and caring. If not a bit scatty, probably a few too many drugs in her system, and a bit emotional sometimes. But a heart as good as gold. We became very good friends. We're living together next...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 6, 2008

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    My older brother took his own life 5 months ago.

    There are times that it doesnt feel real then I would try to look for him in the house and realize that I will never find him coz hes gone. It hurts a lot. and it will always hurt. Its a lot harder when you know you weren't able to be there for the person before he left. I wish...
    Somecrazygurl Somecrazygurl 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    The School Governor He was a school governor,

    from a military background, as charming and apparently happy man as I have ever met. He was pleasant to everyone: a loving family man, who had cared for his sick wife for some years. He was talented and charismatic. He had a deep religious faith. He came down, as normal, for his...
    borrioboola borrioboola 51-55, M 1 Response Jun 17

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    You Never Know.

    I received the news last night. A former colleague of mine had passed away. After further questions I soon learned he took his own life. This was a man with a vibrant personality, who really took the time to listen to those around him, and just made you laugh. He had a love...
    Deee1930 Deee1930 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    The Schoolfriend He was one of the cleverest

    people I ever met, getting spectacular grades in all his exams. He was gentle and civilised. He married and had a child. He did not have an unusual name. I had lost touch with him, years before. I read a small story, in a newspaper, of somebody with his name climbing an electric...
    borrioboola borrioboola 51-55, M 1 Response Jun 17

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    I think all suicidal people are just Angels

    wanting to return home...But to someone that 'angel' is their home.
    littlegirl03 littlegirl03 18-21, F Jan 28

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    My In-Laws

    When I married my wife, she was twenty years younger than me and had five little children. I took her parents out to dinner and after dinner, I asked them for their daughters hand in marriage. Since her parents were only a year older than me, I'm sure they were concerned, but...
    KingSnarky KingSnarky 61-65, M 4 Responses Mar 8, 2013

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    I guess the only way to say this is to be blunt.

    About a month ago one of my best friends killed himself. It was pretty brutal and out of the blue. He was having an off day, which was not uncommon for him, then I received a text saying goodbye, and that was that. He had been depressed for the entire time that I knew him, and...
    EnigmaVolt EnigmaVolt 18-21, M Jun 21

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    I had this friend who I met online on twitter

    and we were so close to each other, I mean like Skype everyday and we wouldn't stop talking. She had a great life, great family and friends she had everything, until she started talking someone online that forced her to do se*xual stuff for him (send pictures, videos). She did...
    ReemNoctis ReemNoctis 16-17, F 16 Responses Jun 26

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    my little sister zoey.

    ..I miss her so much!
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 5

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    There are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    sadaccaa sadaccaa 26-30, F Jun 5

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    On EP he was my friend

    and I was helping him stop cutting I knew that he committed suicide yesterday . It was horrible .he posted a suicide letter when he was ding and after that his friend posted the the was found dead by his mother . :( but I found out too late .
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    Nikki

    My friend Nikki commited suicide on November 24, 2008 at the age of 14. She suffered from depression for about 3 years before it happened, her dad was a psychiatrist as well. I didn't find out that it happened until about a month later because i was out of town and i was crushed...
    roseofthedevilsgarden roseofthedevilsgarden 22-25, F 9 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    So this kid at my high school committed suicide

    around a few months before school ended. It was a big surprise to everyone at my school since he was pretty popular, had good grades, great family that even one of my teachers said he was close with, & he was on the varsity football & Lacrosse team. "He was so close to...
    Cassgirlxoxo Cassgirlxoxo 13-15 2 Responses Jun 26

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    There was this girl in the town I used to live

    in. She wasn't always the nicest but a lot of the times she was. I wasn't good friends with her, its weird because I watched her from afar in a way. She was popular, she was 13 and had grown up so fast, she dank, smoked and did a whole lot of other stuff too. It was sad. I spoke...
    cristinaluciana cristinaluciana 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 23, 2014

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    My Shrink Committed Suicide

    In this life it is rare that you find someone who you can depend on to give you consistently good advice. Someone who knows everything about you and can advise you because you have shared the darkest details of your life with them....I had someone like that. She was my...
    sandunguera sandunguera 31-35, F 13 Responses Apr 15, 2008

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    I just don't understand

    why someone commit suicide. God gave us a free will to know what's best for us. Our life is precious and we are created with purpose. I can't imagine how someone to do it without thinking about their love ones. Rest in peace my X step son. We sure will Miss you.
    Yojj13 Yojj13 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 1, 2014

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    I lost my starr that was her name my beautiful

    mother I will never forget you.
    riddlesmile riddlesmile 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 27, 2014

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    John

    John was my older brother by six years. At the time of my engagement he had a steady girlfriend who had a child from a previous relationship. John was delighted to be welcomed into the relationship and he showed a serious commitment. In the weeks before my wedding, I moved back...
    perseverer perseverer 51-55, F 5 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    My friend for 7 years shot herself in the head.

    I found out a couple hours after she did it which was a Saturday and I didn't want to believe it at all.She was always sooo happy.We did memorial services for her at school a couple days.She had just moved from Georgia over to Texas away from her mom who made her life hell.School...
    Dannimonique Dannimonique 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    More Than One, Sadly.

    I've lost two people to suicide in the last year, however I'm going to write this about the most difficult suicide I had to work through.  In 2010 my ex-girlfriend committed suicide and she named me in her note.  I didn't leave her because I didn't love her, I didn't leave her...
    DoctorBastardo DoctorBastardo 31-35, M 4 Responses Jul 27, 2013

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    Where Do They Go?

    What are your beliefs on where people go when they commit suicide?
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Nov 25, 2013

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    It's been a long time ago

    when I was in high school. There was boy that rode my bus. We were in high school. He was kinda popular, I guess. His name was Steve. I remember him & his friend "huffing" stuff on the bus...think that's what you called it then..but I was too shy & insecure back then to...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 15

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    Selfish?

    I know several people that has attempted suicide and a few that has succeed that purpose. Some of them I can accepted the fact of ending their lives because of mental illness. I am not saying that is an excuse but I do understand. She was young and already had three kids before...
    enchantedebonybutterfly enchantedebonybutterfly 31-35, F 6 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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    Please answer your phone.

    .. I'm really starting to worry... I can't lose you too. :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 11, 2014

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