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I Know That By Leaving Him, I'm Helping Him Heal

It's not an ending, it's simply a transition in love. 29 People

    Leaving Someone I Love Who Is In Denial About Cocaine Abuse

    I didn't hang around long. It happened only two times in the past 3 weeks but it was enough to know. This is difficult because he's the most beautiful man I've ever met. I was ready to be an adult rather than a child in a relationship with him. I felt myself growing and changing...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F 6 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    I Talked to Him...

    ...on the phone for the first time in nearly 3 weeks since the Coke Incident. I was kind of bored. I didn't feel angry. He asked me what's new. Al-Anon really helped me to just listen, without much reaction. He mentioned seeing his daughter and I inwardly cringed. I didn't relate...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    He Is Showing Up In My Dreams

    and that is ok. there is still a connection there. i am not "over" all of it.  but the pain is moving further and further away and i am grateful.
    onatavia onatavia 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2009

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    I Always Wondered Why...

    ...he didn't have much of a client roster, considering he was such an industry veteran ...he would recount how clients would leave him suddenly after being with him for years ...why he worked at home and didn't hire a bookeeper I'm just pissed now and need to vent. Forgive me...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 26, 2009

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    Honoring What We Shared

    I'm experiencing grief so it occurred to me that it might help me if I honored what we shared: - our sense of ease and play with each other - our sense of freedom to be our true selves with each other - our physical connection to each other - our affection for each other...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F Sep 26, 2009

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    Yawn

    This story is slowly becoming less interesting. REally. Haven't heard from "B". I realize that I was so upset last Friday b/c I wanted a response from him. I just won't do anything in relation to him that requires a response. Yawn. It's been a month since the...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F Oct 2, 2009

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    This Story Ends For Me Today

    Thanks for reading!
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2009

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    Go Ahead, Dig Your Own Damn Grave

    I didn't cause and I can't cure it. You're on your own now sucker.  
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 27, 2009

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    I'm Moping As If I Had Rebound S**** With Him.

    Geez, snap out of it. Move on. Shift your attention away from Lack and toward Love.
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    He Has a Point

    I spoke to "B" last night. He said, "You're ending it over one incident, forgetting about everything else we shared." He does have a point. But I made my point too. How I was frightened, didn't understand, questioned if I shared the same values with him...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 30, 2009

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    Hmm. I Don't Miss Him.

    - Haven't had to restrain myself from calling him. - Haven't shed a tear since Labor Day weekend. - My heart didn't leap when I saw a picture of him. - Felt sad when I realized I didn't have him around to help me with car stuff. - Felt sad that I didn't have a hand...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 18, 2009

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    We're Starting Over

    Well friends, for the first time ever in my entire history I'm going back to someone I thought it was over with. "B" clearly loves me on the highest turn of the spiral that I"ve ever seen love expressed. Through all of my fog, he very astutely sees the highest and...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F 5 Responses Oct 23, 2009

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    2600 Miles Without Saying Goodbye

    I'm at the JetBlue Terminal @ JFK. I'm headed to Seattle, returning home, returning to family after 22 years in the very Big City. I shed tears for one moment here. "B" is in London. When I returned from Seattle he was at the airport greeting me with a warm embrace a gaze that...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F Mar 18, 2010

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    I Am Trying

    I no he is wrong for me he has done so much to me that it don't hurt no more. I am pregnant with his second child an i dont want it because of all the cheating he has done an. I just want to move on with my life. My mom treats me bad my whole life her only child. My dad is sick...
    teecap teecap 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2013

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    No More Tears

    It's a week later, I"m ok! I feel a mental & emotional poise unlike anything I've ever felt post breakup! And I"m playing Elton John ballads over and over on top of it--without a tear! I won't take it for granted. I'll still be sad at moments, but I don't...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F Sep 12, 2009

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    Attending Al Anon

    For the first time I attended an Al Anon meeting just b/c of this experience. It's funny, the whole 12 step starts with the issue of addiction and its ultimately a program for anything I want to fundamentally change in my life. I felt at home in the group, I felt...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 12, 2009

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    A Lesson In The 'hood About Love

    Dearest B~ The other day on the bus, I got into a very hostile and uncomfortable confrontation with a young man next to me who was playing loud gangster rap. It got to the point where he rolled his eyes and ignored me. Rather than move, I remained in the seat right next to him...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 11, 2009

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    He Is In Darkness

    someone helped me save my life once. i have so much empathy for someone in darkness, because i remember being there.  but had i not wanted to be alive myself, no one anywhere could have helped me to save my own life, and gratefully i am alive. i have a heart that can feel...
    onatavia onatavia 41-45, F 4 Responses Oct 30, 2009

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    Thank God For My Support Group!

    I feel 100lbs lighter right now. I got myself out of the house in Jersey City and drove into Manhattan to be with my personal development support group. The gathering in the cafe on the Upper WEst Side was a pleasant distraction. When I left, I walked out with a young...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F Sep 8, 2009

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    Two Weeks Gone!

    Tomorrow will mark 2 weeks since Cocaine Incident #2 with "B". Have not talked to him since. He's overseas. I think about him everyday but without longing. Frankly, it's of little interest to me if he heals or not. It's not enough that he says he really loves me. I...
    beautytruth beautytruth 46-50, F Sep 17, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    So, what do you think? I think I'm not. Just wanna know how to be more attractive?
    Naockey Naockey 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 28

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    I honestly don't even know. I carry myself confidently but I have 4 kids and feel so unattractive. I don't feel like I'm aging well. 31 isn't being kind to me lol be honest
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    I'm in love with this picture 😍
    BriGags BriGags 16-17, F 6 Responses May 2

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    I'm in love with this picture! What do you think?
    BriGags BriGags 16-17, F 4 Responses May 10

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    ...yeah I'm weird, thanks!
    Gingurrx14 Gingurrx14 18-21, M May 10

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    Well am I take it easy tho lol
    roodline roodline 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 26

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    Just got to japan! How do I look?
    bingbongtingtongg bingbongtingtongg 18-21, F 9 Responses May 10

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    I think beauty is in the inside
    Barathmatrix Barathmatrix 18-21, M May 11

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    Am i? maybe not ?? LOL Be Nice Okay...
    Ratnasarie Ratnasarie 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Lol random pic of me I was at my nephews birthday party, and I took my nieces doll
    PanamanianPenguin PanamanianPenguin 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 25

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    Everybody seems to be doing this, so I thought I'd give it a go and post myself in my natural habitat, doing what I normally do xD Hopefully this'll be enough to scare away the...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 3 Responses May 10

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    am i ugly people always say i am
    ChrisSowirka ChrisSowirka 13-15, M 2 Responses May 13

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    Pretty impressive lol 😍
    DevilinaSundress DevilinaSundress 31-35, F 12 hrs ago

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    Be honest... What do you like or dislike?
    brokenandbi brokenandbi 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    mguinm mguinm 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 27

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    Be nice haha im a very nice person
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 27

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    Lex2421 Lex2421 13-15, F 1 Response May 3

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    Eh why not lol all thoughts positive and negative are welcomed!
    WardenChult WardenChult 18-21, M May 9

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    1 am in the morning hahahaha insomnia you suck 😘😜❤️
    lolznewaccountio lolznewaccountio 18-21, F 2 Responses May 9

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    So yea... pretty much what the title says
    Reef182 Reef182 16-17, M 1 Response May 10

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    What what, tell me what you think.
    chamicus chamicus 26-30, M 1 Response May 10

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    My ego hangs in the balance, it all depends upon what strangers say about this carefully taken, compressed selfie
    Benziiii Benziiii 16-17, M 1 Response May 10

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    message me ! Teenagers only!
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 days ago

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