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I Know What It Feels Like To Hurt Inside

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    Hurting Because Of Others

    Constantly. It's like my whole life as been like this, at least of what I can remember. Prior to about 4th grade/10 years old it wasn't so bad. But once I became so much more aware it seems, at least to me, that people go out of their way to hurt me. I think I am a good person...
    Kat47 Kat47 46-50, F 2 Responses Feb 12, 2013

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    My Pain

    My pain is not feeling the knife being dragged across my skin My pain is not feeling your fists as they pound my head into the dirt My pain is not falling to the ground after one of your breathtaking blows My pain is not physical my pain IS emotional My pain is knowing I'll never...
    Kittysmilez Kittysmilez 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 26, 2013

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    No Longer A Hopeless Junkie

    Here I am, trying to find myself. And man, that's not an easy task! Yea, I've gotten off drugs & really, life is going good, but I can't help but feel like something is missing. It may sound crazy, but I feel as if I lost my best friend or something! Because in reality, pills...
    cleanbutnotserene cleanbutnotserene 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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    So Embarrassed

    My new family had an early thanksgiving celebration today and almost all their relatives came down to visit starting yesterday. It was so many people it was cazy! I was introduced to everyone when they arrived and of course they just had to hug me (i hate people touching me...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 3 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    Oh Yes

    I know what it feels like to be hurt inside....  I know what it feels like to hurt so much you don't know if you can take it...      I know what it feels like to just want to reach into your chest and pull your heart out...just to get the pain to stop...          I know...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 13, 2013

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    I was molested as a child,

    join the army, went to war, now I suffer severe depression and anxiety. I always have nightmares. I hate to ask for help, I hate that I am medicated with a to depressants. Well last night I almost did swallow them all. I hit a point where I realized I can't do this on my own. My...
    Veterandepression Veterandepression 22-25 Mar 11, 2014

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    Especially when you're all alone

    and have no one to help you through it.
    utahwriter utahwriter 36-40, M 2 Responses Jun 7, 2014

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    I Needed This And Didn'T Hear It

    If you're scrolling through stories on here trying to find a sign to not kill yourself tonight, this is it. Can't you see? We all deserve another chance and hope in life. I went to the hospital 4 times before I decided to keep my life but I hope none of you suffer that much. And...
    closinginontheedge closinginontheedge 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17, 2013

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    If you could just design your body

    and have a switch button, i'd turn myself off to just stop feeling any pain ;(
    stiffadak stiffadak 26-30, F Mar 12, 2014

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    I Had A Miscarriage

    I had a miscarriage when I was fifteen and almost five months pregnant with my baby girl Gianna. It was the most hardest thing I ever went through. It was so horrible. I had an older boyfriend who I was very much in love with. We became intimate three months into our...
    KandyLuv KandyLuv 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2013

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    The Loss Of An On-Line Friend

    I don't know what I did or what I said, I only know this hurt in my head, If my heart can take the strain, I'd like to get back on my feet again, We shared some laughs and had some fun, I don't know why you had to run, Without so much as a reason why, You truly made me sad enough...
    Charleen78 Charleen78 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 17, 2013

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    It would be an amazing thing

    for a human being to able to turn hurt off :(
    lewiscurry lewiscurry 18-21, M Mar 12, 2014

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    Oh Yes

    ....with every fiber of my being.
    CatsToy CatsToy 46-50, F May 30, 2013

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    I Also Know What It Feels Like

    I was married for 7yrs my wife, went to work one day and never came home, she shacked up with another guy.
    agguy56 agguy56 56-60 Feb 8, 2013

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    I Used To Hurt Myself

    so hard to love my self when from very young age leave in a world of violence when my father used to be alive, alcoholic , beat my mum.... he was never around, try to buy our love with presents... when he died i was 9 and i remember i went in front of the grave to make sure that...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 9, 2013

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    Its Like A Knife Through Your Heart ....

    same day everyday ... same taste of coffee , same things at work.... everything a daily routine until one moment that .... only one moment it takes you to turn your world upside down.... is when someone comes and turn your routine to something bitter sweet... something to look...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    Hurt For Life

    You only live life once ,and somtimes you only come across somone you really cared about and did alot for only to find out you loved them and they didnt care about you that feeling inside and outside never goes away ,
    dolly99 dolly99 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 21, 2013

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    This Is My Pain. .

    I had an abortion on December 19 2009. Almost 4 yrs now and it still feels like my heart is literally being squeezed so tight that its seconds from bursting and with each breath I want to cry a million years but I swallow that feeling as if it were broken glass and nails just to...
    sarrah1219 sarrah1219 22-25, F Nov 3, 2013

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    Everyones Against Me

    At times i feel like the world has turned its back on me. Almost as if there is something wrong with me.
    aida6778 aida6778 13-15, F Nov 8, 2013

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    Affected

    I grew up poor and being teased. My mom cut her self all the time and eventually committed suicide. My biological father didnt want me and my step dad abused my mom and molested me. Still get flash backs, have battled depression and an eating disorder. So yes I know how it...
    skai1987 skai1987 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 23, 2013

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    Im just a piece of ****.. I feel like my parents hate me, my brother is always Being a douchebag to me, i have a girlfriend, Who is always sad, almost all the time.. If feel like...
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    It feels like ****. The brighter side, though, is that it could've hurt more if he had felt the same, we'd been together, and then something bad and super dramatic happened...
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    I don't know what to do...my life is crumbling apart and I have no idea what to do to fix it. My best friend/sister doesn't trust me and I can sorta understand why considering all...
    snowolf13 snowolf13 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    Let's just say I know what it feels like to get hurt
    BMTH26 BMTH26 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    Can someone give me advice please :( my bf told me he doesn't want a relationship anymore because he is in love with his ex.... I love him so much and it hurt so bad but I'm not...
    babygirlxxxo babygirlxxxo 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    It's different, I don't like it but I do. He's married & I'm practically married? Maybe that's why it feels okay? I know it's not but I like it, I wish i didn't but I do. I never...
    SincerelyJasmineXO SincerelyJasmineXO 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKKK I HATE MY WIFE!!!! Wow, that feels better. What a deceitful, hurtful, miserable thing I got attached to.
    sparksearcher sparksearcher 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 22

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    So my ex is talking to me again. He's talking about being friends with benefits. I'm thinking this will just hurt me even more. But at the same time I'm thinking, what if he still...
    EmilyPouliot EmilyPouliot 22-25, F 69 Responses 2 days ago

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    Well, I believed a lot of stupid things, and most of them nobody even told me, I thought them for no reason. I thought grown-ups never cried. I used to think that the sun went down...
    Indigo27 Indigo27 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    Everyone goes through this stage of their life, some people more than once. I on the other hand am still going through this. I have been for years. I don't understand how some...
    ScarM3 ScarM3 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    My ex and I started talking as friends again, and we've had a hard time when we were together. He would self harm and everyone he did I would alway be there to help him clean up...
    holdontome holdontome 18-21, F Jan 8

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    lately i have no clue as to what im doing. im just confused. ive just gotten used to laying on my floor staring at fan listening to music and working out. it feels like my mind has...
    Ebolaa Ebolaa 16-17, M Jan 10

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    i don't know if i'm supposed to be monogamous. no matter how much i like the idea of a husband, two kids, some pets, and a house, i always get bored with my current partner and...
    iridescenteyes iridescenteyes 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm at a loss for what to do about this situation. I live with my 28 yr old male cousin and his parents and brother. right now the living arrangements are such that I sleep on...
    lonleelonnie22 lonleelonnie22 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    She's my world :'( my everything :'( I'm trying to fix things :'( I'm trying to to talk to her but my anxiety gets in the way :'( I'm trying so hard to overcome it but I just get...
    ywilliam31 ywilliam31 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 7

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    Sometimes it feels like the only way to fix the problem is to remove myself from the equation. But then, how is that fair?
    rorenchan rorenchan 18-21, F Jan 9

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    I wonder what its like to have that neural pathway that integrates pain and fear destroyed. The ability to be invincible and resistant to human nature's weaknesses. *Sighs*
    50ShadesOfAnne 50ShadesOfAnne 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    So i have been in love with this guy for years now and like now his bestfriend likes me.. Im friends with both of them but i dont know what to do.. I love him sooo much and i...
    believexo believexo 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    I come home from work after my fiance telling me that he doesn't want his ex and can't stand her...day after day lately...to him talking to her the entire time that I am gone. I...
    Pumpkiin Pumpkiin 22-25, F Jan 19

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    I don't want to be anyone else but me, I like me. My therapist says that there are all types of abnormal things about me. Yeah, I'm trying to figure that out, but that doesn't...
    LadyTShay LadyTShay 36-40, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    When someone loves you and is in love with you they should not hurt you. We just recently bought a house and I am regreting it. I can not afford the mortgage on my own and I don't...
    bliss619 bliss619 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    I don't ever know what to say, so I guess I'll just keep the jumbled mess inside my brain. that way I'm the only person suffering needlessly.
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F 5 Responses Jan 21

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    I think my heart would have to know what it's feeling before I can explain it to someone else. there's just no words to explain. So I just keep it inside
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F a week ago

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    As most of you know, I am dating a girl on here. She is a wonderful person and I couldn't have asked God for a more perfect girlfriend. But I have a weird feeling, like abandonment...
    Sierra1993 Sierra1993 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I feel like all the stress and frustration is all thrown at me. Like I don't know what else my mom wants me to do. I feel like she tells me the same thing everytime and I don't...
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    You know that moment when you simply are tired of people arguing about religion? Doesn't matter who has the right answer. Instead of having an open conversation about this subject...
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    I'm the most useless person who ever lived. I've never had to survive on my own, I've always been supported. No matter what, I always had a foundation to stand on. But in recent...
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