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I Know When I'm In My Head I'm Alone In A Bad Neighborhood

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    I'm The First Person To Tear Me Down

    I have always demanded more from myself than any one else does. I am also the first to criticize myself. I have learned that when I am looking inward and contemplating myself I always tear myself down. I am indeed my own worst enemy.Not to mention, my head is full of crap. I have...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T Dec 19, 2012

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    What Its Like

    A friend of mine recently told me that I was one of the very few people that she hadn't fully "figured out." I asked her what she meant by that, and she said that she just doesn't get me, or why I am the way I am. She hasn't figured out how to describe my thought processes...
    Hrmg Hrmg 13-15, F May 29, 2012

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    A Look Into My Mind

    My head is blank my world has darkened the demons of my past come out to play the lifeless body the prison I have come to know trapt in my head depression gullain barre they both have faces I have seen. Happiness is a beautiful woman dressed in White laying dead gagged and bound...
    TheDevilsOwn TheDevilsOwn 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 1, 2011

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    If

    I knocked on my own door I'd tell me to go away.
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F Jul 23, 2010

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    In My Head

    I can't fully explain what goes on in my head, mainly because I don't understand all of it, but all I know is that when I have days were I do nothing but think,  I am at my worse. It's almost like a drug, at first I just play around with my imaginations and continue my precious...
    unluckyrabbit unluckyrabbit 18-21, F Oct 22, 2011

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    It's Sad And Desolate...

    When left to my own devices for very long I usually end up getting myself into a state of melancholy.  I dwell on things that have happened and most of the time I don't even realize it until I'm so upset that its useless to try to stop it.  So I would say that my...
    amahaterita amahaterita 26-30, F Aug 25, 2010

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    Dark And Scary

    When I'm in my head ,which I most of the time, I am in a dark and frightening place that is full of demons fighting against me. My head is like a battlefield at times especially if I am feeling sad.
    EmotionalRaven EmotionalRaven 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 30, 2011

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    *shivers*

    That's a scary place and I don't like to go there.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F Jan 9, 2011

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    I always see my neighbors trying to see what

    I'm doing and listening. When I leave the house they would be looking out the window until I drive away, same thing when I return they would be at the window. And when I look at their window they try to hide. My room is right by their driveway and late at night they would go out...
    dtarget dtarget 41-45 2 Responses Jun 15

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    My Neighborhood

    Instead of windows, my neighborhood has mirrors. When I look out, all I can see is myself. I never get any trick-or-treaters. But there are an awful lot of firecrackers all year 'round. Don't know where they come from. They can be a bit startling.
    Sage360 Sage360 41-45, F Aug 2, 2010

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    Criticism

    I think this way sometimes...surely not all the time though. But sometimes I self-criticize and it's like being heckled from the windows as I pass. "Are you kidding with that outfit? You look like a clown!" ..."Oh yeah, go into the restaurant fattie, that's just what you need...
    MechanicalBull MechanicalBull 36-40, M 2 Responses Apr 26, 2010

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    Fat Belly

    I use to be so small now I fel so bad to have so menu weitgho
    Manoucheka83 Manoucheka83 22-25, F Mar 31, 2012

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    I Mean.... Damn!

    I have totally and absolutely GOT to stop believing everything I think!
    SaratogaGirl SaratogaGirl 26-30, F 13 Responses Apr 13, 2010

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    Be Careful....

    It's dangerous in here.... someone could get hurt... muahahaha...ahem.
    BamaBabe87 BamaBabe87 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 26, 2010

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    I spent all morning preparing on what I'm going to say, put on my finest clothes and shoes made sure my makeup was done and that everything was perfect, for that perfect moment...
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    Isn’t it supposed to be the people that love you and say how much they care for you support you? I know I’m pretty damn stupid as everyone keeps telling me but I’m smart...
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    Who m i? I really dont know. Where did i come from? Where i m heading to? Where do i have to go? What is my destination? Who knows? Me or you or someone else? I know what is the...
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    This song has been a favorite of mine for a long time. It always comes to mind when I'm feeling especially alone and/or hurt. It was written for Big Kenny's sister who was a...
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    I'm grateful for everything in my life & for everyone in my life. I just want to say that. But even when I'm around my kids, my mom or whomever, I still feel a bit alone. I'm...
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    For some reason, music calms me down. That's why I've chosen music over cutting. When I'm upset, I lock myself up in my room, close the curtains, stick in my headphones, and...
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    I know that I'm not like I have a mini heart attack every time we take family photos. Now there are people who say "well I'm so unattractive" while they take five thousand photos...
    LSAF LSAF 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    I think, no...I know, I've spent the last 15 years trying to convince someone that I'm good enough to love and deserve the truth. There's no point in going on about all the things...
    IstyBisty IstyBisty 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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    So I've been broken up with my ex for over a month and I've been in inpatient psychiatric care twice over said month for my anxiety disorder and depression. I don't really know...
    rorimori rorimori 18-21, F Nov 25

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    I don't know if I'm bi or if I'm just lesbian honestly. I've never really had thoughts about guys like that but I've always kind of pictured myself marrying one since I was younger...
    SarahTWD SarahTWD 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    I do so many stupid things when I'm angry..
    gracegarang101 gracegarang101 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    well truthfully, I put my hand in other peoples' pants when I'm bored hah
    LanniLette LanniLette 13-15, F 7 Responses Dec 10

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    PREQUEL, AN EP NOTIFICATION ON MY NEW GROUP: "'I Mark My Calendar So I Know When I Was Banged Last' does not have any stories yet. Be a superstar and share yours." Oh yeaaaayyy...
    lunadelobos lunadelobos 41-45 1 Response Dec 14

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    Definitely not something most people expect from me but I feel like this when I'm mad. If I'm really mad ill actually do it. It's happened before.
    JessicaTacos JessicaTacos 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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    Ima just take a nap. That's what I do when I'm bored. I sleep.
    Justadarkhole Justadarkhole 22-25, M Nov 30

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    I know that I'm ugly and I hate the way I look
    nikueycookery nikueycookery 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 7

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    I don't know why I'm here anymore I don't understand what the point is I wanna leave the world forever I wanna fall asleep and never wake up
    relapsing14 relapsing14 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    I think we've all done this before when someone has asked us what's wrong. I tend to hide it better than some other people can, but some people still see straight through me and...
    lovedownunder lovedownunder 16-17, F Dec 9

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    I got expelled from school. I had just gotten a scholarship and it was out-of-country. I was going to go for 2 years and experience the world. Then I was going to try and transfer...
    pancaekes pancaekes 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    It looks really bad. For instance: "I I'm a lover of...insert love of whatever here" Doesn't it look moronic? I just have this strange yearning to go through all the headlines and...
    secretme1970 secretme1970 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 11

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    I'm so lost right now, i don't know what to do...
    EyelessGlitch EyelessGlitch 13-15, F Nov 24

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    Everybody around me has somebody to talk to or has close knit of friends and mine lives in Another state so I can't tell her what I want to and my parents will only lie to me and...
    WannbeAnorexic WannbeAnorexic 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Here's why I give up on people: I walk away because I cannot stand the thought of believing whatever he says and letting myself feel vulnerable around him, only to later feel like...
    SuperWomanFly SuperWomanFly 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    Hey everyone, just to say to my friends I may be offline for a while as I'm sick. I'm laid up in bed, but not in the good way lol. Been sick, aching, headaches, body pains, not...
    CheatingTracy CheatingTracy 22-25, F 35 Responses 4 days ago

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    Stunned and hurt. He is hurting and so am I. There's nothing I can do. I can't help him, I can't even help myself. I am desperately trying to hold it all together, to keep all this...
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    Im so stupid. Get to emotional when I drink and wear my heart on a sleeve. It takes alot for someone to speak out and I can't believe u making me feel bad for it. It's supposed to...
    Bubbalicious93 Bubbalicious93 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 9

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    got a notification today of a black mark on my credit thanks to ex not making his car payment..I text him and said next time accept my help..he gets bent out of shape and says I'm...
    chioume chioume 46-50, F Dec 10

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    "Whaat?? That's too deep for me." "No... Idea what you are talking about." "I don't go there." Heard it plenty. I look up at the night sky, and then I turn to my friend or a...
    starkizzed21 starkizzed21 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 14

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    I'm actually really pretty. When your eyes are closed 👌
    justme1996 justme1996 18-21, F 25 Responses Dec 6

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    I have pale light skin, green eyes and long brown hair, while everyone else round here has a nice darkish tan, brown eyes and short/pixie cut /or medium black hair… Guys notice...
    chocolatecurlz chocolatecurlz 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 6