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I Know When I'm In My Head I'm Alone In A Bad Neighborhood

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    My Neighborhood

    Instead of windows, my neighborhood has mirrors. When I look out, all I can see is myself. I never get any trick-or-treaters. But there are an awful lot of firecrackers all year 'round. Don't know where they come from. They can be a bit startling.
    Sage360 Sage360 41-45, F Aug 2, 2010

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    If

    I knocked on my own door I'd tell me to go away.
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F Jul 23, 2010

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    Dark And Scary

    When I'm in my head ,which I most of the time, I am in a dark and frightening place that is full of demons fighting against me. My head is like a battlefield at times especially if I am feeling sad.
    EmotionalRaven EmotionalRaven 18-21, M Sep 30, 2011

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    What Its Like

    A friend of mine recently told me that I was one of the very few people that she hadn't fully "figured out." I asked her what she meant by that, and she said that she just doesn't get me, or why I am the way I am. She hasn't figured out how to describe my thought processes...
    Hrmg Hrmg 13-15, F May 29, 2012

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    And.... *drum roll please* let the drama begin.

    I hate holidays, as far as ones go this hasn't been too bad actually I survived it with a load of avoidance, the internet, and well yeah more avoidance...Today I just want to sit here and cry, period. It's almost that day again that I'd love to celebrate but can't bring myself...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F Dec 29, 2014

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    Be Careful....

    It's dangerous in here.... someone could get hurt... muahahaha...ahem.
    BamaBabe87 BamaBabe87 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 26, 2010

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    In My Head

    I can't fully explain what goes on in my head, mainly because I don't understand all of it, but all I know is that when I have days were I do nothing but think,  I am at my worse. It's almost like a drug, at first I just play around with my imaginations and continue my precious...
    unluckyrabbit unluckyrabbit 18-21, F Oct 22, 2011

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    It's Sad And Desolate...

    When left to my own devices for very long I usually end up getting myself into a state of melancholy.  I dwell on things that have happened and most of the time I don't even realize it until I'm so upset that its useless to try to stop it.  So I would say that my...
    amahaterita amahaterita 26-30, F Aug 25, 2010

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    I always see my neighbors trying to see what

    I'm doing and listening. When I leave the house they would be looking out the window until I drive away, same thing when I return they would be at the window. And when I look at their window they try to hide. My room is right by their driveway and late at night they would go out...
    dtarget dtarget 41-45 2 Responses Jun 15, 2014

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    I Mean.... Damn!

    I have totally and absolutely GOT to stop believing everything I think!
    SaratogaGirl SaratogaGirl 26-30, F 13 Responses Apr 13, 2010

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    A Look Into My Mind

    My head is blank my world has darkened the demons of my past come out to play the lifeless body the prison I have come to know trapt in my head depression gullain barre they both have faces I have seen. Happiness is a beautiful woman dressed in White laying dead gagged and bound...
    TheDevilsOwn TheDevilsOwn 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 1, 2011

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    I'm The First Person To Tear Me Down

    I have always demanded more from myself than any one else does. I am also the first to criticize myself. I have learned that when I am looking inward and contemplating myself I always tear myself down. I am indeed my own worst enemy.Not to mention, my head is full of crap. I have...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T Dec 19, 2012

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    *shivers*

    That's a scary place and I don't like to go there.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F Jan 9, 2011

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    Fat Belly

    I use to be so small now I fel so bad to have so menu weitgho
    Manoucheka83 Manoucheka83 22-25, F Mar 31, 2012

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    Criticism

    I think this way sometimes...surely not all the time though. But sometimes I self-criticize and it's like being heckled from the windows as I pass. "Are you kidding with that outfit? You look like a clown!" ..."Oh yeah, go into the restaurant fattie, that's just what you need...
    MechanicalBull MechanicalBull 36-40, M 2 Responses Apr 26, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I feel like I have friends, but I don't care so much about them anymore. They're always busy and I'm always not. I feel like I'm always the one who has to contact them, and if it's...
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    I've been very very sad, and confused lately, but I do not show it. Even right now it is hard for me to type this out. I'm the one in this home who has to keep things together, be...
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    If you ever meet me or talk to me at the wrong time or the wrong day it's a likely chance you're going to get your throat ripped out I'm extremely aggravated often on the wrong day...
    Autumnflowers Autumnflowers 18-21 1 day ago

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    where's a friend when u need one I'm so mad and sad Right now
    notheonlyone notheonlyone 13-15, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I always overcome my fears with a good detailed strategic plans, I always hide my negativity with words of optimism, which I'm not sure if I could even do or believe on it, I...
    nbsbgal nbsbgal 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Sometimes everything just jumbles in my head! "Go this way, no... Don't do that, that's not what I said." It's like, I'm not myself but I'm aware of what I'm doing. I make the...
    saeedalu saeedalu 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Dear World, Shut up. Just stop. I have no energy left to fight you. Stop annoying me and eating at my head. I really have no effort for this anymore. I will not give in, neither...
    KilljoyKitty KilljoyKitty 18-21 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Darn! What are you drinking people? I know it's Monday, are you done dinner? But I'm drinking tea:-)
    Oceandock19 Oceandock19 41-45, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    OK always say I'm fine and a lot of the time I know I'm not . there always pain on my heart from husband and kids. But music is my life . I can so relate to this song. Fade Away by...
    sexygirl81 sexygirl81 31-35, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    The hollowness, the numbness, the darkness....They swallowed me... I know my friends here do love me but I'm scared. I'm terrified that someday they'll leave me, abandon me like...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    just to keep others from really feeling what im feeling. i guess it to protect them. there are a few people in my life that i can't block from how i feel and ya know it kind of...
    LadyTigeress76 LadyTigeress76 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Thank god I'm an guy with a great sense of direction
    Goralski Goralski 46-50, M 1 Response Jun 25

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    I know that I'm cute but that's not what men seem to want they want sexy you know And I know that I'm just a cute girl. I'm fit with a good body and I'm not only cute but pretty...
    bemmie bemmie 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    I'm not attractive to anyone. I haven't had a boyfriend in a long time. I'm going to be forever alone
    snbreeden20000 snbreeden20000 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 24

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    which is a little bit too often. self medication is the only thing that seems to work anymore. I don't know what I am missing anymore when I just want to find my bed to pass out...
    Serendipitydoda Serendipitydoda 36-40, M Jun 24

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    I am not one hundred percent sure, but then again I am sure that I do have depression... I just feel as if it's gotten worse. Looking back, I think I had depression then. I used...
    CharleeLuv CharleeLuv 18-21, F Jun 24

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    I do it because I can either cry my tears out when I need to or dance like nobody's watching(because nobody is!)
    loneleyboy loneleyboy 13-15, M Jun 24

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    I'm 13, and weigh 108 lbs. My thighs feel fat, but my mom says they're "curves." nah. I just don't know.
    avreyyh avreyyh 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    Stop making me cry- don't you understand? It's not being able to talk to you that hurts. It's the fact that I can't talk to you that hurts. Every time I can't talk to you it hurts...
    THISarcane THISarcane 18-21, F Jun 24

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    when I'm alone, I like to listen to jazz. my personal favorite has to be paul desmond, many of his songs are beautiful, and even though they are all instrumentals, I baught almost...
    omss omss 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 23

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    I love music . Especially when I'm smoking weed (: personally I like all types of music besides country and ****** stuff they play on the radio . I love classic rock and...
    FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul FlowerChildWithARockNRollSoul 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 23

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    It started of with, hey stranger! And me thinking don't go for her, she's nothing but danger! Little did I know, what she was about to do! Made me feel like I'm her world and then...
    saeedalu saeedalu 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 23

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    I've been saying 'I'm ok' all year when I'm very far from it. The deceit breaks me down sometimes, but thats life i guess?
    DevilsStrumpet DevilsStrumpet 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    I could use someone. Sometimes when I'm sad and I'm all alone it makes me depressed. I know everyone could use someone like that.
    Shynerdwriter66 Shynerdwriter66 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    I feel like depression got to me, and now I'm just stuck. All I want is a hug I'm starting to think bad things but I push them out of my head. Just a hug... is all I need
    PandaGirl28X PandaGirl28X 13-15 Jun 21

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    Iv never felt this alone before, like I'm an outcast and no one wants to deal with me. more and more of my so called friends are leaving me, I fear that in time, I'll be forgotten...
    Quietguy1234 Quietguy1234 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21

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    I turn my speakers on/up and to some very smooth Jazz fill the house, like a cool fog movin on in, chillen, chair dancin, fingers snapin to the rhythem.
    knightedone1 knightedone1 41-45, M Jun 20

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    I Dreamt that I was lonely Friends abounded me I was crying walking the streets.. I saw the guy who liked me & that I liked back, the same guy who kissed me a few days ago but I...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 20