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I Learned to Embrace Past Pain

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    Accept It Now

    My early transition years were not easy. Though I may have had "dream come true" it left me still very messed up. Going through puberty was hell. It seems my body was fighting me every step of the way.I was on hormone treatment to make me female, but my head was really in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 21, 2010

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    Alone In Darkness

    In the depths of nothing I hear their screams of suffering. The lonely broken souls call out to me. We are together, yet all alone as the darkness courses through our veins. I want just a small grain of golden oats but still I hunger alone but together in the darkness. Searching...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Jan 15, 2012

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    It Took a Long Time

    After so many years of the  pin and torment that others caused and I have subjected myself to, I have finally learned to accept myself for who I am.  So many times in the past, I have thought about just stopping the maddness and ending my life.  It wasn't untill I...
    Michellewhois Michellewhois 56-60 2 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    Fear of Being Hurt By My Own Past

    I grew up abused as a child and teenager. Then I was mentally abused while in the military.  The adversity I experienced, the humiliation from others certainly kept me in a low self esteem mode. I had been told by therapist to write my autobiography as it could be...
    Micayla Micayla 61-65, F 4 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    I have been fighting this feeling for my entire life, sorting out what emotions are mine and what emotions are coming from those around me. I guess I was just scared that it would...
    Hiddenoutside Hiddenoutside 22-25, F Jul 22

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    Writing a diary is too risky, so I’ve decided to make a blog. I am not actually that good in writing essays but when I do, I always have a lot of things to say. It was this...
    kurinatot kurinatot 18-21, F Jul 14

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    My pain started when I was 12. They called them migraines. When I was 16 I had a headache that didn't go away for 2 years. Eventually my headaches were accompanied by joint and...
    eeeck eeeck 26-30 Jul 21

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    So a few years back I had a dream that I think went with my "tabitha story" and that was a place called Skye, and that's how it was spelled. I soon realized the accent was indeed...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    I have trouble letting go of the past.. But recently I've learned that if they wanted to be in my life then it wouldn't be considered the past.. So don't miss meπŸ˜πŸ˜˜βœŒοΈπŸ‘‹
    cassiecollins cassiecollins 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I have learned to take everything day by day. Nothing is ever going to be perfect. I have learned that your family is the most important thing. I have learned, nothing is better...
    OwnWhoYouAre OwnWhoYouAre 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I changed my personality 3 times since I was born, cuz if I stayed the same I would've killed myself when I was 9. The first time i changed my personality was because of my...
    Kirakat14 Kirakat14 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 5

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    K..give me feedback. I am an older male with a chronic illness that creates pain so bad I shut down. Two years ago my doc put me on med's that cleared me up but caused severe liver...
    wonderwho1 wonderwho1 13-15, M Jul 22

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    The day I was sitting in the hospitals waiting room and a dr came in and I just knew by his face that my mum had past. Everything around me went in slow motion and I could hear my...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F Jul 1

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    I,was,diagnosed this past year with several autoimmune disease. My body is breaking down as well,as my spirit. I am in pain 24/7 and have become a burden on my family. I just want...
    QueenTasi QueenTasi 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    Did you enjoy my pain? Was it fun to watch me fall? You where the reason why I became this way Everyday, my life is tormented by nightmares, Nightmares that are my reality Do you...
    silvermoon9619 silvermoon9619 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    Well EP addicts, since I've last shared any stories on here my best friend died of an over dose. August 22nd last year. He was my very best ******* friend. And I still didn't...
    Woofy1 Woofy1 18-21, F Jul 12

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    I just found this site. Every story I read sounds like my own. My wife is the love of my life. My everything. The past two years I have seen her go from an amazingly passionate and...
    dempag dempag 41-45, M 2 Responses Jul 20

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    Inside I can be as weird as I want! Outside, well you might sorry about those around you! Embrace me! Embarrass me!
    Paca24 Paca24 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    TIL that in the past, rather than being a consequence of asthma, smoking was touted as a ... ahem .... treatment for the aforesaid ... http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles...
    AldousHuxtable AldousHuxtable 41-45, M Jul 4

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    After years of being miserable because of this or that being done to me. This bad condition of things around me or that. I finally have a new beautiful home!!! No more mold, no...
    lu7998 lu7998 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    I've learned to mask my feelings and overcome the hurt by rising above it. :)
    LittleMissIntrovert LittleMissIntrovert 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I am haunted by who I am. Everyday is a dream compared to my memories. The pain of the past turns my life into a nightmare. No one sees who I really am. I wish for nothing more...
    Afrondae Afrondae 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    In life, don't expect anything from anyone. Because expectation, when not fulfilled, gives you pain. When you get something without expecting it, It gives you pleasure. So take the...
    got2Breal got2Breal 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    When I first arrived in Ibiza it was very difficult for anyone to get to know me. I was afraid to smile and socialize because I cared too much about what other people thought. I...
    Badtimanonymous Badtimanonymous 31-35, M Jul 6

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    It is never too late, they say. But maybe harder and easier in certain ways, as time passes. The horror of it had not really gone anywhere. But atleast I was older and more...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Jul 12

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    Paintmyphotos is seen as a top quality photograph to painting studio headquartered in xiamen, fujian, China, our company has been in the area of custom made oil painting from...
    widevocation8051 widevocation8051 26-30, F Jul 3

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    I have been having a particularly hard weekend dealing with the loneliness of living with a spouse with chronic pain so I searched the web and found this site. As I read some of...
    hispainismypain hispainismypain 61-65, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    had surgery on my dominant shoulder on april 24. it was arthroscopic, had 10 incisions which were done to treat/repair 1 full thickness with a graft and two partial tears, remove...
    pdpcuffed pdpcuffed 66-70, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Anyone have any ideas on how to move on after a painful break-up?
    missmybaby1 missmybaby1 31-35 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    It wasn't a relationship break-up, but it was a break-up with a guy that I had feelings for. He had feelings for me too. He was the roommate of a close friend of mines at his...
    Samaccino Samaccino 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Learned my lesson when I let someone in. I just want things to go back to how they were. Its hard though, you get used to having someone. I think Im almost back to the way I was...
    ButencioX ButencioX 22-25, M Jul 5

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    I've learned that it is important to fill your life with happiness and support the people you love because somewhere, we know, it will get better. Even if that day is far to come...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 8

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    The thing that i've learned is that you will never forget your first true love.. Its like the first girl that the universe made for you a.k.a ''Soulmate'' and it went wrong , i...
    LuisPT LuisPT 18-21, M Jul 16

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    When I was 10 I learned to play with myself And once I got it done I did it off and on for hours after that day I did it almost every night when I was suppose to be asleep
    msjayy msjayy 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 20

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    This quote points out the idea that respect isn’t necessarily about the person who is receiving it. It is about our own character, which is reflected by our treatment of...
    lovingRIZA lovingRIZA 51-55, F 5 days ago

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    I have learned a lot-the easy way and the hard way.
    Seblett Seblett 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Kind of ironic, isn't it? The way we cut to stop pain. We inflict pain to forget pain. Trade emotional pain for physical pain because it's easier to take. But people don't see this...
    VolleyBallPrincess14 VolleyBallPrincess14 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    Just like three days grace says. Pain without love. Pain can't get enough. Pain I like it rough cause id rather feel pain than nothing at all. Could you imagine never feelingl...
    holehearted79 holehearted79 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    Has anyone ever had success with past-life regressions? Where you try to meditate and visualize who/where you were in a past life. I have done it a few times and have had a little...
    sweetie8403 sweetie8403 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    "Your past is your past. Even if it remembers you, forget it". <3 My past has been super horrible...some of it was my fault, but a lot of it wasn't. Some of the things that...
    njgirll njgirll 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    i like pain, i like to re-cut my scabs and watch the blood drip down, i like the pain. it feel wonderful. i like the pain when i cut , i like the pin when i punch myself. it feels...
    brownzugar brownzugar 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    I don't know my identity, or my name, in my past life, but I believe I remember my death from my past life. I believe I was only 3 years old, and I remember pulling up into a...
    laurennhem laurennhem 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    I know the pain of natural childbirth, and emotional pain. Pain of broken friendships and torn relationships. The pain of wanting to know why something has happened to you but not...
    strawberry38 strawberry38 36-40, F Jul 1

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    I can't change my past. But I feel like my past is changing me.. I am trying not to let my past define myself. But I feel it's hard to sometimes...
    ShadowedLover ShadowedLover 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I think everyone In their life has done some things they aren't proud of but that doesn't mean you should live in the past. Living in the past is a bad thing to do. It's in the...
    toiletwater toiletwater 16-17, M Jul 8

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    I can only paint if I'm really really happy so I haven't painted in monthes. I did one practice painting to test how out of practice I am. I know I'm mediocre but I really dream of...
    burnout77 burnout77 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 12

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    Painting allows me to escape my brain but at the same time explore parts of it I didn't even know existed. I paint with some of my favorite music blasting and it is so therapeutic...
    Affley Affley 18-21, F Jul 14

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