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I Learned to Embrace Past Pain

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 38 People

    Fear of Being Hurt By My Own Past

    I grew up abused as a child and teenager. Then I was mentally abused while in the military.  The adversity I experienced, the humiliation from others certainly kept me in a low self esteem mode. I had been told by therapist to write my autobiography as it could be...
    Micayla Micayla 61-65, F 4 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    Accept It Now

    My early transition years were not easy. Though I may have had "dream come true" it left me still very messed up. Going through puberty was hell. It seems my body was fighting me every step of the way.I was on hormone treatment to make me female, but my head was really in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 21, 2010

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    It Took a Long Time

    After so many years of the  pin and torment that others caused and I have subjected myself to, I have finally learned to accept myself for who I am.  So many times in the past, I have thought about just stopping the maddness and ending my life.  It wasn't untill I...
    Michellewhois Michellewhois 56-60 2 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    Alone In Darkness

    In the depths of nothing I hear their screams of suffering. The lonely broken souls call out to me. We are together, yet all alone as the darkness courses through our veins. I want just a small grain of golden oats but still I hunger alone but together in the darkness. Searching...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Jan 15, 2012

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    I was in therapy for many years in junior high and high school. I had some serious issues around isolation and loneliness. I was depressed, horribly bullied, and miserable. Fat and...
    incorporealist incorporealist 36-40, M Sep 28

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    I can never focus on what's happening around me. I don't try to focus on my past, but I can't help it. The memories are just so clear, so vivid. They flash through my mind's eye at...
    Tsalokath Tsalokath 18-21, F Sep 23

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    I am sure many of you have leaned a plethora of life lessons, so I am not reinventing the wheel here, but I find it more curious that some people seem to inately know how to live...
    chatty1962 chatty1962 51-55, F Oct 6

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    Pain. Pain is an interesting word. Short and beginning with a hard sound then trailing off in to a soft n. Much like the feeling associated with the word. But sometimes we stutter...
    SunlilySky SunlilySky 18-21, F Oct 8

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    Bday party at the office, year after year. It has become a permanent date in the calendar. That day, I already set my mind on what to do. As I use the motorbike to work more than...
    samemay54 samemay54 51-55, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I certainly don't want to forget the past, and the lessons it gave...The truth is - life now is getting out fully of the dark and into the light. "When we begin to take our...
    samemay54 samemay54 51-55, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    I had major back surgery a few months ago. I never would have had the surgery had I not been paralyzed in my left leg & foot. After several years of suffering from sciatic pain...
    gatorgirl013 gatorgirl013 36-40, F 3 days ago

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    Mostly all the painful memories working for many creeps, and one time getting severely ill from working for horrible people. I used to think of ways which I could have deferred...
    bettygingham bettygingham 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    I feel an ache in My Heart I gasp to breathe a breath of air and feel a hestiant sigh come out my lips, a feeling of blue and dark loneliness embrace my every thought through my...
    Xenasdreams Xenasdreams 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm scared, terrified, traumatized, and sick. I wish I had more words to add how completely humiliated and terrified I am right now. Why? WHY?! I thought I was happy now, I thought...
    GirlWithThePWSBM GirlWithThePWSBM 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    7 years ago, I met a boy. We were teenagers. At the time, there was alot going on in both our lifes and i suppose it was just that, that drew me close to him. My relationships with...
    HannahJL HannahJL 18-21 Sep 20

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    Dr Lai is effective at Occumed in Subiaco, WA and in my view does not work in the passions of an injured staff. His loyalty lies With all the individuals that pay back him. His...
    Laurenazrj90 Laurenazrj90 31-35, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Can anyone really do that.. How do you let go of the past? Your first love will always remain a bittersweet memory and as difficult as it may be to deny, defines most of our...
    Lee124 Lee124 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 30

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    So tired. Every day I wake up, I crack my neck and finger joints a few times, I get up and sit on my laptop all day. After a couple of hours I'm tired, and I've worked out it's low...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M Oct 2

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    Coming to a cross roads before I walk any further I've decided to unleash my pain. For those whom have questioned whether I know pain- yes I do. Much of my pain stems from...
    AquariusLife AquariusLife 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 21

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    Pain has been ruling my life for about the past 4 years and progressively getting worse. I broke my neck 6 years ago and have been paralyzed from about the chest down since. I had...
    cpettit757 cpettit757 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 10

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    For the past three years, I've kept my toe nails painted pretty regularly. Today I did something a bit more bold. I left one of my finger nails painted from the weekend. I left...
    JosetteLaRoc JosetteLaRoc 36-40 1 Response Sep 22

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    Oh gosh, do I ever...... I think of some of the things I did and the way that I behaved and can't believe that was me! Unfortunately you can't change the past but you can learn...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 22

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    Today I'm painting a picture of a sunset I saw. Maybe I'll post it once I'm done! I just need a project to stimulate my brain lol. I had done a series of paintings of sunsets and...
    bettygingham bettygingham 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    Yes I will be ready to embraced Heaven, when I my time has come in this lovely earth. Hopefully, I will meet my natural parents & be with them together.
    DiscoNight1970s DiscoNight1970s 46-50, F Sep 20

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    I'm starting to push away my friends just so the pain of leaving them won't be as bad, yet I find myself in even more pain as I see them in our group chats asking where I am and I...
    Nightfang109 Nightfang109 13-15, M 5 Responses Oct 4

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    Within the past four years, I have injured my lower back three times. Despite suffering from excruciating pain most of the time, numerous tests have revealed nothing unusual. The...
    Jononymous Jononymous 26-30, M 3 Responses Oct 8

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    today a large the delivery I really very tired after resolved all orders of customer from company away back to home I feel my torso soreness and muscle aches I wish I me to being...
    sleepwear sleepwear 46-50, M 1 Response Oct 8

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    I learned that you can give up too much of yourself. I learned how to be mean. I learned how to hide my emotions. I learned that evil exists in the hearts of some people. I learned...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Things that Mentally strong people Don't do is, Dwelling on the past,remaining in their comfort Zone, getting jealous over the successes of others, feeling sorry for themselves and...
    Zelaleme Zelaleme 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 23

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    Just feel like saying this. I attended or volunteered if you want to call it that in a six month program called the Challenge program. It was a military based structure school...
    alfredy666 alfredy666 18-21, M Sep 26

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    I really have learned from my mistakes and I feel today I learned a lot. I won't go into great detail because I doubt anyone on here cares. I'm not saying that in a pout and...
    HONAW HONAW 41-45, M 1 Response Oct 2

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    Whilst playing paintball, do not get shot in the head. It hurts. (Or the crotch, for that matter.)
    dabram71 dabram71 16-17, M Oct 6

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    My longest relationship was one 1yr 3mo I was 15 when we started going out and we argued a lot then one day she tells me she had been cheating on me for the past month of our...
    mclovin484 mclovin484 16-17, M Oct 6

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    I was travelling/hitch hiking with my ex-boyfriend this summer, and we were going to go across country. He is crazy and is addicted to drugs, so I felt kind of safe with him. He...
    onthisislandinthisworld onthisislandinthisworld 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    I remember when i was younger a drunk loved my mother. He always tried to get her but i dint let him. Since my dad died when i was three i dint know what having a father was like...
    MrYoda MrYoda 70+, M Oct 9

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    Isn't it the most painful thing ever? Like I wanna start afresh but old painful memories just keeps coming and I wasn't as willing as I was the first time. Spoiler really for my...
    Kywen97 Kywen97 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    I don't think it is good to look to the past and wonder about what could have been. Instead you should just go for it! Then there will only be a what was and what wasn't. I like to...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M a week ago

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    My past has lead me to where I am. The experience has aged me beyond my years. The emotions I have let me know I am still alive. My family and friends are part of me. The smile...
    johnbaldwin johnbaldwin 31-35, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Yesterday really. He was my very best friend and like me was 13 years old. We've been friends almost my whole life, we surfed together, skated together, played soccer together...
    AdamV13 AdamV13 70+, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    This has to do with my personal health, comfort, pain management, and basically just how to make the quality of my life a little better than it was, not even two days ago. RUNNING...
    TtotheD TtotheD 56-60, M 9 hrs ago

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    Today, I learned that many tumblr girls who act all cutesy ect, don't really care for for others, only themselves and attention. I've been talking with one girl for several weeks...
    dabram71 dabram71 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 5

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    Pasta, Pasta, Pasta, Pasta, Pasta, Pasta, Pasta, Pasta Nothing is better and if I don't eat pasta for a week i have a abstinence crisis lol Pasta with tomato, i love tomato too...
    Enjoyyourlife Enjoyyourlife 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 26

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    I have five cousins on my father's side of the family that were a huge part of my life when I was a kid, two are boys and three are girls. The girls were always like sisters to me...
    vaderjack vaderjack 18-21, M Oct 9

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    No one even suspects. Im the typical happy girl, good college grades, nice friends, decent family. But I started cutting freshman year of high school, then stopped for a long time...
    SimplyEm SimplyEm 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Was extremely helpful now has completed a complete back again flip stating that my back isn't any even worse than his Despite the fact that ct scan states chronic bone degenerative...
    Laurenazrj90 Laurenazrj90 31-35, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Induce stage injections could possibly be regarded for therapy of sufferers with myofascial pain as part of a multimodal method of pain management.Supplemental electronic material...
    Laurenazrj90 Laurenazrj90 31-35, M 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Insufficient treatment of pain is widespread during surgical wards, intensive care units, accident and unexpected emergency departments, generally speaking practice, inside the...
    Laurenazrj90 Laurenazrj90 31-35, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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