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I Learned to Embrace Past Pain

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    Accept It Now

    My early transition years were not easy. Though I may have had "dream come true" it left me still very messed up. Going through puberty was hell. It seems my body was fighting me every step of the way.I was on hormone treatment to make me female, but my head was really in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 21, 2010

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    Fear of Being Hurt By My Own Past

    I grew up abused as a child and teenager. Then I was mentally abused while in the military.  The adversity I experienced, the humiliation from others certainly kept me in a low self esteem mode. I had been told by therapist to write my autobiography as it could be...
    Micayla Micayla 61-65, F 4 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    Alone In Darkness

    In the depths of nothing I hear their screams of suffering. The lonely broken souls call out to me. We are together, yet all alone as the darkness courses through our veins. I want just a small grain of golden oats but still I hunger alone but together in the darkness. Searching...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Jan 15, 2012

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    It Took a Long Time

    After so many years of the  pin and torment that others caused and I have subjected myself to, I have finally learned to accept myself for who I am.  So many times in the past, I have thought about just stopping the maddness and ending my life.  It wasn't untill I...
    Michellewhois Michellewhois 56-60 2 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    After two years, I've met a man that is open to deep conversation, tells it like it is from his viewpoint and is open to hearing my viewpoints. I even did healing work in front of...
    QuiriousMe QuiriousMe 41-45, F 5 mins ago

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    It's like I've forgotten how to breathe, how can I forget? How can I forgive, I sit here with fogged mind a storm that's ready to hail, so much emotion to do what with? I cannot...
    traceyannmay traceyannmay 22-25, F 5 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I think the worst type of pain is emotional pain, I can deal with a broken bone but a broken heart has no healing time, the scar may not be visible but it's there and it's deep. I...
    traceyannmay traceyannmay 22-25, F 7 hrs ago

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    I've learned some things throughout my life that I think some people here might find useful and therefore this will be the first of a series of posts about life and people's mind...
    unknownpoetx unknownpoetx 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 8

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    I'm a pastor's wife. Just recently a woman came to our church, who just recently received her ministers lic. She is very sweet, loves the Lord, and has a burning passion to help...
    DAJ1 DAJ1 56-60, F 8 hrs ago

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    He is everything to me and I cannot see him in pain. We live apart and I cannot be there for him. If I were, I'd take him in my arms and let him know he's cared for. I can't make...
    KuriosityKills KuriosityKills 31-35, F 18 hrs ago

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    I just finished cutting I hadn't done it in a while, I usually do it on my inner thighs, stomach, or under my breasts so no one can see. But my preferred area is the arms, I like...
    Bellalargo Bellalargo 31-35, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    One year ago today, I got a phone call that ripped my heart out. I felt pain I had never felt before. Even as I took in the news, I was bargaining with God, begging to go back to...
    lostit77 lostit77 46-50, F 5 Responses Apr 19

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    I just wish that I could undo some things.Not that I haven't learned from them or am stronger or w/e because of it.Its just, lifelong consequences really suck.I think the worst...
    RafaReu RafaReu 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 16

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    I just wish I could go back to living a normal life... For the past 8 years I've felt nothing but pain. The sad thing is, I'll never have a normal life again. I'll be in pain the...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    I had a best friend that hurt me so much. I was emotionally hurt, I was emotionally affected. I never thought getting into high school was like a life risk. I felt like a failed...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    Many things have happened in life. I learned and in a way it shaped me into the person I am so I am grateful for everything that I've experienced both good and bad
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M Apr 7

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    Nothing stays perfect forever. I have learnt that the hard way. Whether it be a family member, a friend, a situation...nothing stays good forever. People change and time moves on...
    cupcakes1995 cupcakes1995 18-21, F Apr 10

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    That feeling you get when you know you're doing it for cause, for love. Really makes all the pain and the stress worth my while. It's funny how productive you can be even while...
    abcdefghisabelmnopqrst abcdefghisabelmnopqrst 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    Hey... I am huge fan of late actor Paul Walker. When he died I felt sad but not devastated but when I saw his new film in the theater I cried my heart out when he said...
    MalavikaPaul MalavikaPaul 18-21 Apr 8

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    So after an almost successful suicide attempt I felt extremely guilty and regretful. I couldn't take my mind off the actions I took and the people I've affected, it seemed to pain...
    driftingalone driftingalone 16-17, F Apr 13

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    For a while now, I've thought that there was something seriously wrong with me. People have always seen me as a very shy and highly sensitive person. But aside from being shy and...
    alexa021 alexa021 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    When 'People' Ignore you, won't talk with you, Prefer "criticism" To Kindness, Are More concerned with themselves Than You, Choose to "worship" A Job/Money MORE than having a...
    desireindisguise desireindisguise 61-65 Apr 26

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    I pray that I never run into you because it still hurts. I hope to move past the pain, and continue on with my life.
    unreciprocated unreciprocated 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    mental pain is harder than physical, last 17 years of submission and marriage were hard i am divorced now but it seems i can't hide that past life
    fdenna fdenna 41-45, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I've learned that good people do exist. They help us and heal us. And care for us. I learned that I'm not alone in this world and there are people like me. They've problems like me...
    chocolateinmyblood chocolateinmyblood 16-17 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have learned that I come accros as a person that lost the love of his life judging by the things I write and I don't mind people thinking that. I have lost a person I care a...
    GuiltBear GuiltBear 31-35, M Apr 8

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    If someone can make you feel discouraged or helpless and hopeless after talking to them, then they are toxic. My mother is not innocent. For years I knew something was wrong with...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    I can't forgive my dad for what he done on my 13th birthday. I ended up in hospital for a week because he assaulted me. I've tried in the past to face him even though I can barely...
    MixedJayy MixedJayy 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    I have been on a Chinese learning website and learn Chinese on it. I learned it very well thorough this website, so I recommend it to you guys who wanna learn Chineseļ¼Œ who want...
    Sue890 Sue890 18-21, F Apr 14

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    but it feels like it is already. I've posted a few bits and pieces but now I want to just purge my mind. Is that ok with you? A while back, god, how long? Since June of last year I...
    cavedweller2 cavedweller2 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 20

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    Been wearing polish on my hands for the past few months 24/7 after letting people around me know I like to do it. I am straight and have a girlfriend who likes it and encouraged me...
    Mirinesse Mirinesse 46-50 2 Responses Apr 21

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    This is something that's very hard for me. My boyfriend has cheated on me in the past, by flirting & contacting other women on social networks. And we broke up for a few months...
    shesdifferent516 shesdifferent516 18-21, F Apr 25

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    When I was younger, my father would drink a lot. and normally with any person that drinks a lot have a certain characteristic about them... For him it was anger, out of control...
    zgirl694 zgirl694 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Please do not tell to get over it. . . I grew up training myself to go into robot mood, because I had witnessed a violent childhood. I was never taught to release my feeling an...
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13 31-35, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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    I cried and I crumbled in you're arms, I was broken and lonely, my heartache had grown, I trusted you to catch me when I fell so low, how can you tell me to get over this blow. My...
    traceyannmay traceyannmay 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    Some things make sense, most don't . Just slight misses, frustrating, but sufficient to slow or alter a course. Compromises are the worst; living with them, slight upset or...
    mcconchiea mcconchiea 51-55, M 1 day ago

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    I always know when my period comes because of the pain. It's pain that hurts but isn't at the stage where I'm thinking "I can't deal with this anymore". It's like an alarm clock...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Apr 25

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    I wish there was an easy way to end my suffering. I often wonder what I've done to deserve to always suffer. I'm tired of the pain. The physical pain, the mental pain and the...
    St4rbright St4rbright 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    It's an amazing feeling when you reconnect with someone from your past that used to play a huge role in your life. For me, after I graduated high school, I only kept in contact...
    Haywee123 Haywee123 22-25, F Apr 26

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    Let me get straight to the point. Love is painful. It is no other way. It cannot be changed. It is pain in love. People turn the world upside down seeking for someone to love...
    Babeondwy Babeondwy 41-45, F 3 days ago

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    This might seem strange but I like to paint my fingernails and I am a boy. It started when my sister wanted to paint them and I let her do it. And I like having my nails painted so...
    crazykid100 crazykid100 13-15, M Apr 14

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    Pain is nothing. Pain is a restraint that you can overcome. No matter what pain physical or emotional it will go away. Pain is terrible but will heal. Pain is an obstacle that can...
    Hispan Hispan 13-15, M Apr 24