I Learned to Embrace Past Pain

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 38 People

    Alone In Darkness

    In the depths of nothing I hear their screams of suffering. The lonely broken souls call out to me. We are together, yet all alone as the darkness courses through our veins. I want just a small grain of golden oats but still I hunger alone but together in the darkness. Searching...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    Jan 15, 2012

    It Took a Long Time

    After so many years of the  pin and torment that others caused and I have subjected myself to, I have finally learned to accept myself for who I am.  So many times in the past, I have thought about just stopping the maddness and ending my life.  It wasn't untill I...
    Michellewhois Michellewhois
    56-60
    2 Responses Jul 18, 2009

    Accept It Now

    My early transition years were not easy. Though I may have had "dream come true" it left me still very messed up. Going through puberty was hell. It seems my body was fighting me every step of the way.I was on hormone treatment to make me female, but my head was really in...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2010

    Fear of Being Hurt By My Own Past

    I grew up abused as a child and teenager. Then I was mentally abused while in the military.  The adversity I experienced, the humiliation from others certainly kept me in a low self esteem mode. I had been told by therapist to write my autobiography as it could be...
    Micayla Micayla
    61-65, F
    3 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    if anyone would like to keep in touch. email me at penpalwriter@aol.com. I will miss this site it has helped me through some very hard times.
    penpalwriter penpalwriter
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Apr 20
    This will most likely be the last time I am ever on here... I love you EP! Goodbye...
    NiamhM NiamhM
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Apr 20
    Taking my leave. Bye Ep, I'll miss you guys, hopefully I can run into you on Ep2
    Caleyz Caleyz
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 20
    Apparently I can now upload up to 366 new photos ...😳Well isn't THAT useful!!!😅So here's a pic of me going incognito - because EP won't let me have any public albums, and I...
    BSTisapain BSTisapain
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Apr 20
    Avoid mistakes and learn what are things to consider in choosing a painting company for your house or business establishments.
    1800allpainting 1800allpainting
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 20
    Emotional pain and period cramps :P
    PacifiedBrains PacifiedBrains
    13-15, F
    Apr 18
    I cannot teach you strength and willpower. I cannot teach you how to beat the demons in your head. All I can do is pave a way. Let's win.
    WinterRose26 WinterRose26
    18-21, M
    Apr 18
    There is no coming to consciousness without pain. I am open to learning from this new pain.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 18
    I have officially hit my emotional pain threshold. Every memory hurts. I can't think of anything else. I want to sleep but I can't. Everything is my fault.
    BernadetteAshley BernadetteAshley
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 17
    I have flashbacks of my past life My past self fact file (idk what it's called) Name: Melodes Sex: (yes plz!) male Age: Unknown (probably around 14 at the time of flashback...
    MichaelByers MichaelByers
    16-17, T
    Apr 16
    I know from personal experience that the people who are rude to you are just looking for a reaction that they can make a snappy comeback to. I just ignore them or tell it like it...
    nevergoingtousethis nevergoingtousethis
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 16
    Just learned how to ignore stupid craps who doesnt give a damn importance to us. Be good and caring upto a limit. Still if behaving weird just throw off. Thats the best thing which...
    newlife1122 newlife1122
    26-30, M
    Apr 16
    My turn to write a long, heartwarming post about EP "pausing". Here I go. As with every other one of these I've read I too have been changed by EP. I saw the other side of the...
    DarJotzahr DarJotzahr
    22-25, M
    Apr 16
    I regret a lot of my past and it comes back to haunt me every day. There were guys I should have never dated but I wasn't confident enough to say no. There were girls I wanted as...
    lilpoetbear lilpoetbear
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 15
    I try to hide in the corner of a room that's round. I just spiral around watching my life flash by .............then just as I think it's gone the corner appears and I'm born again...
    Dannydayx1972 Dannydayx1972
    41-45, M
    Apr 15
    I have been working on a new series of painting lately. It keeps my mind off things when I have too much on my mind..Wish I was in the mood to paint again today but some days you...
    foolinlovegirl foolinlovegirl
    31-35, F
    Apr 15
    just cut my hand practicing my knife techniques. my knife was so sharp I just skinned the muscle and an hour later still don't feel pain
    Mike3569 Mike3569
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 14
    getting a kick *** ammout of physical pain right now. trying to get off cymbalta for fibromyalgia and the withdrawals absolutely suck. so now i have ungodly pain everywhere and...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Apr 14
    A few times I was thinking if dating females but I don't like vaginas the way it look creepy to me sorry so I can't lol I female taken a break on dating is that wrong
    LucidxxShivery LucidxxShivery
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 14
    I'm ready to make a change weather it be going to the gym more often to kill some time (I like busy work) or trying to cease my procrastination habits. Some kind of big change...
    GabbyWoodBerry GabbyWoodBerry
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 13
    How to tell my pastor parents that I don't really believe in God anymore? (with facts about the holes in the bible but with love)? My dad is the pastor and my mom is the co-pastor...
    DespicableTruth DespicableTruth
    22-25, F
    Apr 13
    this is the easiest makeup for me. I do it biweekly. ilove the way I look! I need to learn facial makeup! not my best
    cableguy73 cableguy73
    51-55, T
    Apr 13
    Check out the new and improved EP! http://exp2.xyz/
    Ttlicious1 Ttlicious1
    46-50, F
    Apr 12
    People say to be happy about the memories you have with them but I can't, he was taken away from me and my family when I was only 3-4 years old I try so hard to remember but I can...
    Rosesofguernsey Rosesofguernsey
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 12
    For a couple of years, my ex would make up stories about going to the hospital. She would fake illness and even pretended to be in grave situations. I spent most of my high...
    MirusMe MirusMe
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Apr 12
    the title says it all. most of my life has been pain and sorrow both mental and physical you think that eye patch on my eye is fake no its 100% real. I made sacrifices for people...
    SladeBolinLeaderofEp SladeBolinLeaderofEp
    18-21, M
    Apr 11
    in this world people just fake it like they care but in reality not many people care most just are selfish this is reality i know what hurt is i wish i could take others...
    bimvim bimvim
    18-21, M
    Apr 11
    I'm speaking about Aillin Wuornos(a serial killer) in this video. If you have little time,please watch this video. Thank you. https://youtu.be/58v4gZ0Fd4w She got excution and...
    genjiipiexx genjiipiexx
    31-35, F
    Apr 11
    My first portrait. Oils.
    abstraction abstraction
    51-55, M
    1 Response Apr 10
    What I Learned from 2001 A Space Odyssey: If you keep running into a black monolith, you’re on the right track. Who knows, it could be the same one you ran into earlier Do not...
    notPC notPC
    56-60, F
    5 Responses Apr 10
    This is a story from my Nan's life. She is a wonderful woman. The news tells us that other people have it much worse than us, so we should simply smile at our lives, and live them...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife
    26-30, M
    Apr 10
    Have you noticed how many people have created "new" accounts on here recently?😕 Obviously I'm not talking about the usual people who are genuine newcomers to EP - I'm talking...
    BSTisapain BSTisapain
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Apr 10
    (I refer this to Christians going through TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up)  Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 10
    I'm in pain again, tears slowly forming in the corner of my eyes. My eyes that were fixed on the ceiling, thinking of what should I do to avoid thinking of thoughts that still...
    icesky icesky
    18-21, F
    Apr 10
    It may seem like I'm dwelling on the past a little too much... This occurred to me, yes. But I think it's because I haven't sorted it out in my mind yet. If I don't understand...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 10
    Change my now to change my future
    vivianescrooge vivianescrooge
    22-25
    2 Responses Apr 9
    Ever since I was in school I had always been an outsider. I was always the weird kid that nobody talked to. I had a few friends throughout my school years but those friendships...
    Heretic9320 Heretic9320
    18-21, M
    Apr 8
    One of those days where I'm starting to get a headache... I almost never get headaches and this is the second one in the same week.
    TheGirlYouNeverKnew TheGirlYouNeverKnew
    18-21, F
    Apr 8
    PERCOCETS,Oxys,Opana,Roxycodone, Dilaudid,Lsd,Pseudoephedrine, Ecstasy ,Cocaine, Nembutal, Oxycontin ,Heroin, Adderall XR ,Hydrocone,Actavis,and other pain relief pills...contact(4...
    Gregbenson Gregbenson
    26-30, M
    Apr 8
    PERCOCETS,Oxys,Opana,Roxycodone, Dilaudid,Lsd,Pseudoephedrine, Ecstasy ,Cocaine, Nembutal, Oxycontin ,Heroin, Adderall XR ,Hydrocone,Actavis,and other pain relief pills
    Gregbenson Gregbenson
    26-30, M
    Apr 8
    I feel someone is caring for me a lot. He's a bit creepy but he's honest and hot so I'm happy. I'm usually the cornered weirdo so i felt more awesome
    vivianescrooge vivianescrooge
    22-25
    2 Responses Apr 7
    I feel someone is watching and giving me good guidance and listen TO me well. I feel happy and weirded out A bit because i usually Dont get attention Like That
    vivianescrooge vivianescrooge
    22-25
    Apr 7
    We make our world significant by the courage of our questions and by the depth of our answers. ~ Carl Sagan ~
    Mcinacann Mcinacann
    41-45, F
    Apr 7
    mmmh omg! haha sorry I am really enjoying this pasta sauce. I prefer homemade but this organic pasta sauce is just about the best thing right now xD I could eat it straight out of...
    IkIlLeDyOuRsOuLaNdAtEiT IkIlLeDyOuRsOuLaNdAtEiT
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 6
    I need wed-gie dares and punishments, can be creative, message me??
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 6
    My pain is much improved today. The last two days I have had a lot of pain but exercise, relaxation, heat, and distraction have helped a lot. Keeping well hydrated is important...
    Doomflower Doomflower
    31-35, F
    Apr 6
    I think we can be a victim of our circumstances or we can chose to be victorious over what happens. Its our attitude and how we choose to look at things that determines our life...
    Hope4me1970 Hope4me1970
    41-45, F
    Apr 5
    I HAVE RECEIVED MY OFFICIAL REPLY FROM EP ABOUT EXPERIENCE AGAIN!!!😳And what I learned is that Experience Again is NOT connected to EP in ANY way, so treat it in the same way...
    BSTisapain BSTisapain
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Apr 5
    I have been in agony today. This morning my shoulder was an 8/10 on pain and now it is probably about a 4 and rising again. At baseline it is a 2-3/10. It barely registers. It...
    Doomflower Doomflower
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Apr 4
    I grew up in Memphis, Tn. Life was easy, good friends and a loving family. When I turned 18.. things took a turn for the worst. I became an alcoholic/addict for the next 9 years...
    Coltsguy2016 Coltsguy2016
    26-30, M
    Apr 4
    Look at the life of Robin Williams. 😏
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 4
    Have a thing called Spondylolytis. It is when the fluid in my vertebral joints eats the cartilage instead of feeding it. With the cartilage gone my vertebra are not held together...
    boldtimer boldtimer
    66-70, M
    Apr 4
    A bright future can give you a beautiful girl but a beautiful girl can't give you a bright future...
    zafrankhan321 zafrankhan321
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 4
    Not the 4th. Whoops Although that would be weird if the freezing time was April[4]4th at 4:00
    FluttershyLabeouf FluttershyLabeouf
    18-21, M
    Apr 4
    if you end up on Answermug, shoot me a friend request. I use the same screen name there
    nukedude63 nukedude63
    51-55, M
    1 Response Apr 4
    So what advice would you give your past self?
    Hannah1100 Hannah1100
    13-15, F
    Apr 4
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