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I Learned to Embrace Past Pain

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 38 People

    Fear of Being Hurt By My Own Past

    I grew up abused as a child and teenager. Then I was mentally abused while in the military.  The adversity I experienced, the humiliation from others certainly kept me in a low self esteem mode. I had been told by therapist to write my autobiography as it could be...
    Micayla Micayla 61-65, F 4 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    It Took a Long Time

    After so many years of the  pin and torment that others caused and I have subjected myself to, I have finally learned to accept myself for who I am.  So many times in the past, I have thought about just stopping the maddness and ending my life.  It wasn't untill I...
    Michellewhois Michellewhois 56-60 2 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    Accept It Now

    My early transition years were not easy. Though I may have had "dream come true" it left me still very messed up. Going through puberty was hell. It seems my body was fighting me every step of the way.I was on hormone treatment to make me female, but my head was really in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 21, 2010

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    Alone In Darkness

    In the depths of nothing I hear their screams of suffering. The lonely broken souls call out to me. We are together, yet all alone as the darkness courses through our veins. I want just a small grain of golden oats but still I hunger alone but together in the darkness. Searching...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Jan 15, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I don't always think about the past but when I do I tend to ruminate and feel guilty and it just sucks cuz can't change the past so why freak out about it x.x
    hellookbye hellookbye 18-21, F 48 mins ago

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    Writing a diary is too risky, so I’ve decided to make a blog. I am not actually that good in writing essays but when I do, I always have a lot of things to say. It was this...
    kurinatot kurinatot 18-21, F Jul 14

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    Cant change the past but im hoping to change the future, he is defenitly not right for her and he really need to get out of the picture.
    desirejanice desirejanice 22-25, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I find it hard to let go of my mistakes, because I've tried to change before sometimes it worked others it didn't, when ever I failed it just reminded me of my past failures. But I...
    shaunrain shaunrain 16-17, M 15 hrs ago

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    I paint both fingernails and toenails each week; I prefer Thursday for some reason. I pick a color of my choice. I'm wearing a light blue color but, this week I want to change it...
    Samaccino Samaccino 16-17, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    My pain started when I was 12. They called them migraines. When I was 16 I had a headache that didn't go away for 2 years. Eventually my headaches were accompanied by joint and...
    eeeck eeeck 26-30 1 day ago

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    So a few years back I had a dream that I think went with my "tabitha story" and that was a place called Skye, and that's how it was spelled. I soon realized the accent was indeed...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    I have trouble letting go of the past.. But recently I've learned that if they wanted to be in my life then it wouldn't be considered the past.. So don't miss meπŸ˜πŸ˜˜βœŒοΈπŸ‘‹
    cassiecollins cassiecollins 16-17, F a week ago

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    Physically, I am immune to pain. It amazes me, friends and doctors how pain that should cripple someone goes straight past me. But emotionally, I'm a wreck. It takes only slight...
    sadnessisbeauty sadnessisbeauty 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I am and have been in chronic pain for 23 years and have learned a lot about living with it!
    darlingrose darlingrose 70+, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    Last June 25, 2014 marked the day i felt the need to let go of our past.. that 2 hours being with you seem so long enough for me to realize things, accept the facts and realities...
    rayhn rayhn 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    I have learned to take everything day by day. Nothing is ever going to be perfect. I have learned that your family is the most important thing. I have learned, nothing is better...
    OwnWhoYouAre OwnWhoYouAre 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    In my youth I used to hang onto emotions much longer but these day if I'm angry, I drop it really fast. I forgive everyone very easily and don't hold grudges. My biggest problem I...
    Duskmoon Duskmoon 31-35, F 16 hrs ago

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    I changed my personality 3 times since I was born, cuz if I stayed the same I would've killed myself when I was 9. The first time i changed my personality was because of my...
    Kirakat14 Kirakat14 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 5

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    I feel like a real woman when I paint my nails. I keep my fingernails long and love painting them. I have loads of nail polish in all hues. Pedicures and manicures are my pet...
    annieka annieka 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    The day I was sitting in the hospitals waiting room and a dr came in and I just knew by his face that my mum had past. Everything around me went in slow motion and I could hear my...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F Jul 1

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    I,was,diagnosed this past year with several autoimmune disease. My body is breaking down as well,as my spirit. I am in pain 24/7 and have become a burden on my family. I just want...
    QueenTasi QueenTasi 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    Did you enjoy my pain? Was it fun to watch me fall? You where the reason why I became this way Everyday, my life is tormented by nightmares, Nightmares that are my reality Do you...
    silvermoon9619 silvermoon9619 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    Well EP addicts, since I've last shared any stories on here my best friend died of an over dose. August 22nd last year. He was my very best ******* friend. And I still didn't...
    Woofy1 Woofy1 18-21, F Jul 12

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    I just found this site. Every story I read sounds like my own. My wife is the love of my life. My everything. The past two years I have seen her go from an amazingly passionate and...
    dempag dempag 41-45, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Inside I can be as weird as I want! Outside, well you might sorry about those around you! Embrace me! Embarrass me!
    Paca24 Paca24 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I was a dog. In some ways, I still am. I don't understand humans. I don't feel like a human. I remember my old life, bits of it so vivid that it seems like those bits happened...
    sadkitten11 sadkitten11 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    I use to selfharm. I had 10 scars underneath a purple bracelet that I never take off. I have been treating my scars for 3 years, today I realized that only 8 are still visible...
    SaphiraJane SaphiraJane 16-17, F 8 Responses Jun 29

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    TIL that in the past, rather than being a consequence of asthma, smoking was touted as a ... ahem .... treatment for the aforesaid ... http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles...
    AldousHuxtable AldousHuxtable 41-45, M Jul 4

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    After years of being miserable because of this or that being done to me. This bad condition of things around me or that. I finally have a new beautiful home!!! No more mold, no...
    lu7998 lu7998 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    When I first arrived in Ibiza it was very difficult for anyone to get to know me. I was afraid to smile and socialize because I cared too much about what other people thought. I...
    Badtimanonymous Badtimanonymous 31-35, M Jul 6

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    It is never too late, they say. But maybe harder and easier in certain ways, as time passes. The horror of it had not really gone anywhere. But atleast I was older and more...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Jul 12

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    I haven't done anything with my nails in the past 2 months but my next plan is emoji nails which will be perfect for this summer :~)
    sailorantares sailorantares 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    This is something that happened a while a go but, I just feel like I need to spit it out - Last year I went out with a guy, at first I really liked him and it was all fine and all...
    FayeAndMerlin FayeAndMerlin 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 26

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    I agree with everyone here. I am now 12 weeks post surgery for a full tear of my rotator cuff. It's more painful than the imagination. Simply indescribable and my heart goes out...
    NomadicMe NomadicMe 41-45, M 2 Responses Jun 27

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    Paintmyphotos is seen as a top quality photograph to painting studio headquartered in xiamen, fujian, China, our company has been in the area of custom made oil painting from...
    widevocation8051 widevocation8051 26-30, F Jul 3

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    I have been having a particularly hard weekend dealing with the loneliness of living with a spouse with chronic pain so I searched the web and found this site. As I read some of...
    hispainismypain hispainismypain 61-65, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    I would love to know more about my past lives. I had one spontaneous remembrance of a past life, and it happened not that long ago. I had been cleaning my microwave and was really...
    Solfeggio Solfeggio 36-40, F 5 Responses Jun 27

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    Today I learned and did for the first time,(twice), longboarding down a parkade I FINALY pulled off two high speed drifts thru two full corner turns!
    Sandalfoot Sandalfoot 46-50, M Jun 28

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    I have learned and taught myself to never get my hopes up because I get disappointed every time
    findasilverlining33 findasilverlining33 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    Learned my lesson when I let someone in. I just want things to go back to how they were. Its hard though, you get used to having someone. I think Im almost back to the way I was...
    ButencioX ButencioX 18-21, M Jul 5

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    I've learned that it is important to fill your life with happiness and support the people you love because somewhere, we know, it will get better. Even if that day is far to come...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 8

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    The thing that i've learned is that you will never forget your first true love.. Its like the first girl that the universe made for you a.k.a ''Soulmate'' and it went wrong , i...
    LuisPT LuisPT 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    When I was 10 I learned to play with myself And once I got it done I did it off and on for hours after that day I did it almost every night when I was suppose to be asleep
    msjayy msjayy 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have been in a massive amount of pain for the last few days but this pain has been on and off for months now. I thought that maybe it was my posture or something but after doing...
    sunniedays89 sunniedays89 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    I have had chronic back pain for about 3 years now. It used to hurt so bad sometimes I didn't want to move, just lay there eyes open wide. I tried everything, physiotherapy...
    jonacular jonacular 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 27

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    I have crippling pain all the time. Sometimes it's two or more pains at once. Generally I have back pain, ankle pain, neck pain, wrist pain, headaches, and/or migraines.
    kat990 kat990 13-15 3 Responses Jun 28

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    I have been living with serious pain since I was 16. I was in a car accident where I was rear-ended by a car that was speeding. Since that day I have had chronic neck and lower...
    i4it4t i4it4t 36-40, M Jun 30

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