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I Learned to Embrace Past Pain

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    Accept It Now

    My early transition years were not easy. Though I may have had "dream come true" it left me still very messed up. Going through puberty was hell. It seems my body was fighting me every step of the way.I was on hormone treatment to make me female, but my head was really in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 21, 2010

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    It Took a Long Time

    After so many years of the  pin and torment that others caused and I have subjected myself to, I have finally learned to accept myself for who I am.  So many times in the past, I have thought about just stopping the maddness and ending my life.  It wasn't untill I...
    Michellewhois Michellewhois 56-60 2 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    Fear of Being Hurt By My Own Past

    I grew up abused as a child and teenager. Then I was mentally abused while in the military.  The adversity I experienced, the humiliation from others certainly kept me in a low self esteem mode. I had been told by therapist to write my autobiography as it could be...
    Micayla Micayla 61-65, F 4 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    Alone In Darkness

    In the depths of nothing I hear their screams of suffering. The lonely broken souls call out to me. We are together, yet all alone as the darkness courses through our veins. I want just a small grain of golden oats but still I hunger alone but together in the darkness. Searching...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Jan 15, 2012

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    And you don't know And I know It'll never be the same And you ain't And I'm So used to the pain And you ain't And I'm Ending this charade And you ain't And I'm Saying goodbye...
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    Dear coworkers, 1. I use to be exotic dancer. 2. I DO have a husband who I have been married to for 21 years. The reason he is not with me is because he's been in prison for the...
    CocoaBelle CocoaBelle 41-45, F 7 hrs ago

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    My best friend was like a sister to me. We told each other everything. I loved her like my own sister. But one day, she just left. She said she didn't want to, that she had to...
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    When I was young, there were a bunch of people trying to figure themselves out. I didn't really care until one of my friends told they were a lesbian and to not hate her, it got me...
    youxandxi youxandxi 22-25, F May 14

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    I think lots of us who are immigrants or who live in a different country from our ethnicity will at some point have an identity crisis. You grow up living in a foreign culture and...
    Creampuffs Creampuffs 18-21 May 16

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    For a year now I've been dealing with lower back problems (herniated/bulging disc with pinched nerves and numbness)with pain that radiates down my leg. The past couple of days the...
    UndeservingUndesired UndeservingUndesired 26-30 May 6

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    "We are humans not, fish. We don't know what kind of people we truly are until the moment before our deaths. As death comes to embrace you, you will realise what you are. That's...
    NikkiCOCO NikkiCOCO 16-17, F May 11

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    (warning this is a very long story and i was just wanting to vent) my thoughts are going 100mph while I lay here in Ned awake since 2am it is now 7 am. I'm thinking about how much...
    crazy4love crazy4love 22-25, F 1 Response May 12

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    Accept yesterday is over and done with because I'm done with you because I cannot have the past in my present, I tried to love and care about you but all you did was hurt me, pain...
    Brandnewhim2015 Brandnewhim2015 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    Someone Who Embraces Your Flaws
    lovingRIZA lovingRIZA 51-55, F May 11

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    I used to be a competitive swimmer (My stroke was Butterfly) but between that and lifting things that weighed near my own weight at a horse stable I volunteered at, I injured my...
    LoneDreamer11 LoneDreamer11 18-21, F a week ago

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    I have done a lot of stupid stuff in my life. But if it wasn't for that stupid stuff I wouldn't be the person I am today. The stuff I've done, I wish I could take it all back. All...
    Ladyred93 Ladyred93 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I pray that I never run into you because it still hurts. I hope to move past the pain, and continue on with my life.
    unreciprocated unreciprocated 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    mental pain is harder than physical, last 17 years of submission and marriage were hard i am divorced now but it seems i can't hide that past life
    fdenna fdenna 41-45, F 2 Responses May 3

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    Swimming downwards Facing the depth of darkness There is no light in my heart There is no radiance above me So I dive, deeper into the sea Where your eyes, are awaiting...
    Ymfas Ymfas 26-30, M May 10

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    I, for some reason, experienced a lifetime worth of heartbreak in the past year. It's the worst, heaviest, most constant pain Ive ever experienced, and im having a very hard time...
    DownSouthFlGirl69 DownSouthFlGirl69 26-30 May 15

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    I, for some reason, experienced a lifetime worth of heartbreak in the past year. It's the worst, heaviest, most constant pain Ive ever experienced, and im having a very hard time...
    DownSouthFlGirl69 DownSouthFlGirl69 26-30 May 15

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    I will prefer friends who tell me directly that they don't want to be friends with me anymore. At least, I feel much better that way. So before I told my friends this secret, I...
    Lonely90s Lonely90s 22-25, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    i been in pain for the past 2 years mostly likely due to my car accident anyway i found out turmeric helps with inflammation i been taking it for a while and it sure does help...
    heavenlytouch heavenlytouch 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've learned that good people do exist. They help us and heal us. And care for us. I learned that I'm not alone in this world and there are people like me. They've problems like me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 3

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    I think the most valuable lesson I've learned thus far is that I do not have to allow toxic people into my life. I have always tried to find good and be supportive of others, but I...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 7 Responses May 12

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    I learned that different culture have different lifestyles and it can be a lot more difficult to survive than others, I also learned how to care deeply for others. Taught me right...
    BlackBloodDemon BlackBloodDemon 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    This is something that's very hard for me. My boyfriend has cheated on me in the past, by flirting & contacting other women on social networks. And we broke up for a few months...
    shesdifferent516 shesdifferent516 18-21, F Apr 25

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    When I was younger, my father would drink a lot. and normally with any person that drinks a lot have a certain characteristic about them... For him it was anger, out of control...
    zgirl694 zgirl694 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28

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    Please do not tell to get over it. . . I grew up training myself to go into robot mood, because I had witnessed a violent childhood. I was never taught to release my feeling an...
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13 31-35, F 5 Responses Apr 30

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    I cried and I crumbled in you're arms, I was broken and lonely, my heartache had grown, I trusted you to catch me when I fell so low, how can you tell me to get over this blow. My...
    traceyannmay traceyannmay 22-25, F May 1

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    Some things make sense, most don't . Just slight misses, frustrating, but sufficient to slow or alter a course. Compromises are the worst; living with them, slight upset or...
    mcconchiea mcconchiea 51-55, M 1 Response May 4

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    It's like I've forgotten how to breathe, how can I forget? How can I forgive, I sit here with fogged mind a storm that's ready to hail, so much emotion to do what with? I cannot...
    traceyannmay traceyannmay 22-25, F 5 Responses May 5

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    My Dad was just admitted to a special hospital for patients who are approaching the end of their life. I just learned this yesterday when I called my mother to wish her HAPPY...
    Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F 2 Responses May 11

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    Today I have learned the only person I can count on is myself. I am sick and tired of people.. Period.. My kids are my focus and everyone else can kick rocks. I do what I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 12

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    There are two kinds of people in the world that can't love themselves. One type doesn't have any love to give. At the end of life, he sits alone, empty, with nothing in his heart...
    KhalJinghis KhalJinghis 26-30, M May 14

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    for years ive set in Missouri hoping that my first love would come back to me not looking for anyone else but her I had to wake up thinking about her go to bed thinking about her...
    glowsic glowsic 22-25, M May 15

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    And that's what I'm about to do. No matter what's necessary to achieve this goal. I'm the one and only producer of my life. Time for me to take matters into my own hands. Even if...
    mattie0807 mattie0807 36-40, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I always know when my period comes because of the pain. It's pain that hurts but isn't at the stage where I'm thinking "I can't deal with this anymore". It's like an alarm clock...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Apr 25

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    I wish there was an easy way to end my suffering. I often wonder what I've done to deserve to always suffer. I'm tired of the pain. The physical pain, the mental pain and the...
    St4rbright St4rbright 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    It's an amazing feeling when you reconnect with someone from your past that used to play a huge role in your life. For me, after I graduated high school, I only kept in contact...
    Haywee123 Haywee123 22-25, F Apr 26

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    Let me get straight to the point. Love is painful. It is no other way. It cannot be changed. It is pain in love. People turn the world upside down seeking for someone to love...