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I Learned to Embrace Past Pain

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 40 People

    Fear of Being Hurt By My Own Past

    I grew up abused as a child and teenager. Then I was mentally abused while in the military.  The adversity I experienced, the humiliation from others certainly kept me in a low self esteem mode. I had been told by therapist to write my autobiography as it could be...
    Micayla Micayla 61-65, F 4 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    Accept It Now

    My early transition years were not easy. Though I may have had "dream come true" it left me still very messed up. Going through puberty was hell. It seems my body was fighting me every step of the way.I was on hormone treatment to make me female, but my head was really in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 21, 2010

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    It Took a Long Time

    After so many years of the  pin and torment that others caused and I have subjected myself to, I have finally learned to accept myself for who I am.  So many times in the past, I have thought about just stopping the maddness and ending my life.  It wasn't untill I...
    Michellewhois Michellewhois 56-60 2 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    Alone In Darkness

    In the depths of nothing I hear their screams of suffering. The lonely broken souls call out to me. We are together, yet all alone as the darkness courses through our veins. I want just a small grain of golden oats but still I hunger alone but together in the darkness. Searching...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Jan 15, 2012

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    From year To Year From year to year Time will go by That is true Years come and go But you set me aglow As a mirror I see With your face so sweet I don't have aches I can still...
    Angelsmile4u Angelsmile4u 46-50, T 6 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I complain to God. Ok I will admit I complain to God often about one thing or other. I sometimes wonder if I bother him to much with all that goes through my mind. He...
    TheBlessedOne TheBlessedOne 46-50, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    With this departure that gave me another life to breathe in. It was not fulfilling for I am breathing without my left lung. How long has it been? Few days? To me, it was simply...
    JinxRaven JinxRaven 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    My hubby just pulled my boots off, and after being in leather boots all day, the pedicure lasted. I love the way my toes are painted:)
    Shelley3457 Shelley3457 26-30, F 9 hrs ago

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    It's an interesting term, we use it in discussions everyday in some form or another whether it be in our jobs, to friends, girlfriends, boyfriends, husbands, wives, relatives...
    xxSTEVE7xx xxSTEVE7xx 31-35, M 4 Responses Dec 4

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    My third anniversary on EP was in August 2014. I am a bit behind. You know how life keeps you busy. So it is time for me to share what I have learned in this past year. I hope you...
    PoetryNEmotion PoetryNEmotion 51-55, F 21 Responses Nov 27

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    The 5 stages of death: 1. Denial 2. Anger 3. Bargaining 4. Depression 5. Acceptance A friend of mine died in a car accident this past summer. When I got the news my whole world...
    GirlInTheMountains GirlInTheMountains 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    A few days ago, I hurt so badly that I needed help to make it through the day, so I emailed the following to some of my closest friends. I hope and pray that each of you that has...
    UncleEkipS UncleEkipS 51-55, M 6 days ago

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    KNIFE The worst pain in the world goes beyond the physical. Even further beyond any other emotional pain one can feel. It is the betrayal of a friend. Something I learned about...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 28

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    I wish people wouldn't hide behind a different picture on here. I have mine out in the open because I like being honest with people about anything and everything concerning me. Yes...
    meli347 meli347 13-15, F Nov 30

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    I hate my past but I've grown and learned from it is what counts!
    Diamond1029 Diamond1029 16-17, F Dec 12

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    Too many people get stuck in their stubborn ways and habits that they've gotten use to over the course of their life. You have to step outside of your comfort zone or you will...
    ozboybrian ozboybrian 26-30 4 Responses Nov 25

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    That past you once lived, those tears you once cried, the problems that burdened you, that pain you've experienced day in and day out...let not those past feelings invade your...
    Cooper802 Cooper802 18-21, M Dec 11

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    Daily and no, I'm not over exaggerating or being over dramatic. I'm actually in pain daily. Eye/Head pain from past surgeries Wrist/Hand from Carpal Tunnel Legs/Knees from...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 4 Responses Nov 27

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    The past is cruel! It haunts me so Desperately needing Many many host The wetness on my face The redness of my sight Spirals of depression That block the holy light The nostalgic...
    newbeginnings15 newbeginnings15 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 26

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    The memories of things that have happened in the past are haunting me. No longer just keeping me up at night but haunting me through the day. I was used by a friend to when I was...
    LoveDontJudge LoveDontJudge 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 29

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    I was in a very dark place when I as younger. I hated every single thing about myself. I would look in the mirror and wished I looked like someone else. Talked and thought like...
    solojo solojo 31-35, M Nov 25

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    I just went into consult about cataract surgery today. I have diabetes and the cataract in my left eye grew quickly over the past year. My vision in that eye, was something like 1...
    MarkRomeo MarkRomeo 61-65, M a week ago

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    I actually was the one who ended this relationship. I was 14 when we started dating, and I broke it off when I was 16. He was the bad boy- the opposite of what I was then. Now, I...
    Leopard3487 Leopard3487 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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    Just express yourself okay? Dont forget that it does wonders! :) Write a bad poetry, a bad message to yourself or just talk to someone ,sing a song with harsh voice, Just paint it...
    ThisIsMeYeah ThisIsMeYeah 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14

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    Forgiveness is something that took me close to 48 years to grasp. I spent decades hanging on to the anger. the pain and the resentment. It defined me, it shaped me and drove me at...
    sckimmy sckimmy 41-45, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I once complained to God about why He gave me this kind of life that I have. I started questioning Him. I even went to the point that I kinda hated him. I even thought that maybe I...
    pitchy28 pitchy28 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    It is difficult living life when it is controlled by aches and discomfort of back pain. This article will provide you with some tips and techniques to help manage your pain. Look...
    greensdrinksnews greensdrinksnews 26-30, M Dec 4

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    More and more people are suffering from sore and aching back pains, and many do not know how to find relief. Fortunately, there are some sure means for alleviating pain in your...
    neinsteinassociates neinsteinassociates 26-30, M Dec 15

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    I have lost a sense of who I am in the past year.
    melXlo melXlo 22-25, F Dec 1

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    Damn, my life has changed so much. It pains me just to read some of it. I had this account since I was 19 and now I'm 25. Been through a lot in that six year span.
    flyawayhome flyawayhome 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    One time I was with my friend and he wanted to hang out with this girl (my former girlfriend) and we ended up hanging out. I didn't really want to hang out so I eventually left...
    XodolsWasHere XodolsWasHere 16-17, M Dec 2

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    "Can't go home again, need someone to numb the pain..."
    masmelo masmelo 16-17, F Dec 14

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    I want so much for the holidays to just be over i think i will never be the same after the hurt i been feeling since my husband left me last year it is almost a year and all i want...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F 1 Response Dec 15

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    The main thing i learned from him is how life really ***** some people.
    rehn65 rehn65 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 28

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    I've learned that this website gives us a small outlook of how the world is. By the amount of different experiences and people that we've encountered on this website, we will also...
    Cutiepeachpie Cutiepeachpie 18-21, F Nov 29

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    Chronic pain sucks. Yes it does. Been dealing with nerve pain since 2004. I know this sounds funny butt I turn to sex. To help me get mind my mind off of the pain. It does not...
    horneybear79912 horneybear79912 36-40, M 5 days ago

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    I learned something new today :) Merry Christmas Eve To everyone!
    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M 19 hrs ago

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    I had lived in Eastern Europe up until I was about 12 and then moved to France with my parents. Growing up, western culture was not really a part of my everyday life, so I didn't...
    katarinagg katarinagg 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    "Mask" By, me Everyday I try to hide, behind the mask that covers my inside. A smile, a laugh, an I'm okay. Keeps them from seeing the pain I hide away. But sometimes a mask is...
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    I wish I could allow that to sink into my head and stop worrying about the past and focus on my future. To be really honest, my past was so messed up, that I wish to go back and...
    WeirdOtaku WeirdOtaku 18-21, F Dec 9

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    Dealing with Cronic pain sucks.. I'm looking for a friend to be there for me when I need to get my mind off the nerve pain. I like sex and it help me deal with my pain. Having the...
    horneybear79912 horneybear79912 36-40, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My husband of 13 yrs has been living with chronic pain (testicular) for over 4 years now. The cause is due to a nerve disease. He's always been hilarious, the life of the party...
    watershed watershed 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    Ha yea physical pain I'm just like whatever idc. But emotional pain omg ha I start crying but I only cry when I'm alone.
    liajip liajip 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    I'm pretty sure how I got this way, was I started working in haunted attractions when I was 9 years old. And I have always loved Halloween. And when I was 19 I started my own...
    justpaint justpaint 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 28

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    My wife and I went to have a massage today. My toenails are still painted. I kept waiting for the masseuse to comment about the paint as she was working on my toes, but she didn't...
    Sharon03 Sharon03 56-60 3 Responses Nov 28

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