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I Learned to Embrace Past Pain

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 39 People

    Fear of Being Hurt By My Own Past

    I grew up abused as a child and teenager. Then I was mentally abused while in the military.  The adversity I experienced, the humiliation from others certainly kept me in a low self esteem mode. I had been told by therapist to write my autobiography as it could be...
    Micayla Micayla 61-65, F 4 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    Alone In Darkness

    In the depths of nothing I hear their screams of suffering. The lonely broken souls call out to me. We are together, yet all alone as the darkness courses through our veins. I want just a small grain of golden oats but still I hunger alone but together in the darkness. Searching...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Jan 15, 2012

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    It Took a Long Time

    After so many years of the  pin and torment that others caused and I have subjected myself to, I have finally learned to accept myself for who I am.  So many times in the past, I have thought about just stopping the maddness and ending my life.  It wasn't untill I...
    Michellewhois Michellewhois 56-60 2 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    Accept It Now

    My early transition years were not easy. Though I may have had "dream come true" it left me still very messed up. Going through puberty was hell. It seems my body was fighting me every step of the way.I was on hormone treatment to make me female, but my head was really in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 21, 2010

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    If your period pain is really bad I recommend you try going on birth control. It really does help the majority of the pain. I use to be lying on the floor in the middle of the...
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    At 23 i learned the advantage of the old and strong narra tree that stood there rain or shine. At 23, i learned to let go of the most beautiful butterfly i have ever seen from my...
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    I am so accustomed to "pain", I grew used to it and loved feeling it. I don't do this to initiate a pity party and I don't do it for attention. I love making myself suffer in...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've changed a lot since I was Badlybroken. So much so that I wonder if I ought to change the name? I'll leave the stories because I was that person. A person who thought it was...
    badlybroken24 badlybroken24 36-40, F 3 days ago

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    I thank God for this wonderful life He gave me, this wonderful family and for who I am. :) I know He loves me so much. I know who I am,what I am and what I want to be, but He's...
    Achelle07 Achelle07 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    * I love a good quote * " She has walls because she's been hurt before. It's not unusual that those walls have built higher standards. She's not willing to make the same mistakes...
    MzPhoenix MzPhoenix 31-35, F 8 Responses 5 days ago

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    Hey love..., Your life is going to be a roller coaster but you're a strong girl, just keep holding on. I want you to know that everyone is beautiful in their own way and that if...
    MeaninglessMemories MeaninglessMemories 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Sometimes the emotional pain is so debilitating that I punch myself on the leg. So that my body can feel the pain my brain and heart feel and I can get past the moment.
    teadiva teadiva 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Today I am slightly pained. I have had a few of these days recently. I finally came to the conclusion that I may still be holding on to some regret from my past. Regret as in the...
    njflyer njflyer 31-35, M a week ago

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    That's kinda hurt, I once fell too deep and i found it impossible to shut away the acute feeling of that emotional pain, I waited all day and night, only ended up with...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    i used to work for a funeral home and i lost respect for mankind,death rituals are abuse of a corpse or so i thought ,why stuff a stiff in a suit and tie they wouldn't even...
    miimii0069 miimii0069 26-30, F Jul 18

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    I'm always give people multiple chances to hurt me, and I've learned that it's wrong; these people are just so miserable and I don't need them around. I'm not obligated to give...
    myheaven myheaven 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 18

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    I have always been uncomfortable in water, an intuitive told me I drowned in a past life. I liked running in the rain, green tea and liked persimmons, which my mother had told me...
    cLight87 cLight87 22-25 Jul 17

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    I've pretty much lost all of my family. My mother is completely different, and she's mean now, and irresponsible. Her father is violent and mean as well, not to mention sneaky and...
    DementedKarkat DementedKarkat 13-15, T Jul 16

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    Yes, I have done horrible things. Do I regret them? Yes. I am human, I am not perfect. If I had not made those mistakes I wouldn't have learned from them.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 16

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    Here's my advice. If you already detest visiting the hairdresser and then someone tells you a trainee is going to wash your hair, RUN FOR YOUR LIFE. Don't get me wrong-I've had...
    GalateaSpheres GalateaSpheres 36-40, F 9 Responses Jul 16

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    i don't want to forget the past .. i just want to get over the pain, the memories, to make my life easier and better.. ppl keep telling me.to forget the past .. to move on .. and...
    missttie missttie 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 15

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    how2stayyoung how2stayyoung 51-55, M Jul 15

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    Not a good evening at all. Sister stabbed me in the back. Trying to overcome the waves of grief. The feelings of rejection which stem from past experiences. Haven't slept bad the...
    issimma issimma 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I do not think the past defines us in who we are. It shapes our paths, teaches us life lessons, and gives us invaluable wisdom. But, we get to choose who we are every day. We can...
    beachesandsunshine121 beachesandsunshine121 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    People always say,"Lean on me when you are in need." But how often does that actually happen? I mean when you try to rely on someone else they magically are too busy to care, or...
    SnowVixen SnowVixen 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    This summer I spent some time abroad in Europe, mainly France and England. I thought I would share some helpful tips with you about Paris that no one really tells you... just some...
    bhalibut bhalibut 16-17, F Jul 14

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    I suck at painting. But I don't care. I use painting to express problems such as my mental illnesses; psychosis, ocd, depression, social phobia. I usually do abstract-ish paintings...
    zoesimonesays zoesimonesays 16-17, F Jul 14

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    From my 4th first love.. 1.Never Tie Your Own Shoes 2.Never Buy Your Own Food 3.Being vulnerable with someone gives them access to all your pain. 4.Driving a boy crazy is easy...
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    50 Things I have learned by suffering from depression and anxiety 1. The biggest struggle in Life is with β€œThe Self and Our Worth” i.e. our EGO-we create these day dreams of...
    passionate6 passionate6 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    for most of my life I was told to forget my past and move on, and I never could, my past was horrible, every day of it. know one in my family understood what I had been through...
    wssj wssj 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    So I left this job some time ago and all I can do now is think about what I have lost. I guess it was just sort of my "identity" so to speak and I haven't been able to move on from...
    gameoholic gameoholic 36-40, M Jul 13

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    My hands hurt. That is the worst of it. My hands. They are always aching. It's like a constant dull ache in the joints. It's in the fingers and the wrists. It started in my left...
    FriendlyBryan FriendlyBryan 46-50, M 3 Responses Jul 13

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    Hey guys my name is Jason. I learned that the people on this site are different than most people that you'll find on social media. You guys have sense. So hear me out on this. It...
    JasonMasters93 JasonMasters93 22-25, M Jul 13

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    Its been a while since the break up. I cant even consider it a relationship. What ive learned is that infidelity is not something that is confined to the physical but when you lust...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F Jul 11

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    I'm trying to make small changes in my life but the past keeps stabbing my back. Poor choices. Losing my parents. Living with depression. Things pressing on me. I'm overwhelmed...
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F Jul 10

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    The invisible cuts, the surgery on your soul that took place without your consent. I know personally, I can get swallowed by memories and triggers from my past and most of the...
    followthewhiterabbit followthewhiterabbit 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 10

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    I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe. I've learned that...
    mindstruggle mindstruggle 22-25, F 17 Responses Jul 9

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    fsmith9095 fsmith9095 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 8

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