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I Lie to Myself

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    I always say I hate liars

    and that if you lie to me then I'm done, but I lie all the time. But I only lie so I can try to make myself believe something else. I don't want to believe the reality of my life situation or how much it ******* sucks or how much it hurts me, so I lie. But I'm only lying to...
    agirltoremember agirltoremember 16-17, F Apr 1, 2014

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    Just Call Me Pinnochio

    Ever have one of those days that you set aside to all your catching up? Such as errands, house cleaning, paying bills, etc....I have so many of those days. Just the other day I took my child to the sitter and planned on catching up on alot of things. So I get to my house and the...
    Luci Luci 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 12, 2007

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    A Place Called Denial

    I lie to myself on a daily basis. It's how I manage to hold it together no matter what happens. I tell myself that I'm the smartest, prettiest most awesome person I can be, but I know that's not true. The more I think about it, the more parts of me I find that I hate. So I...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F Feb 21, 2013

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    And it has started to eat away at my soul.

    I can't stand not being able to achieve my own expectations so I try to delude my self and others while I rot inside with guilt. I don't want this for myself anymore. I think I owe myself some honesty and others deserve to know the real me. This perfectionist mentally is self...
    In100years In100years 22-25 1 Response Nov 27, 2014

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    Pretending things are great,

    when I really have to hate,the way things are going,all that while really knowing!That the truth is showing,and the battle is blowing,like lots of windblown dust,as my dreams turn to rust!And in myself, I lose trust,and so I really, really must,stop this sly deception,or adjust...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 6, 2013

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    Vain promises after other fall short of

    themselves and violently collapse.I like to tell myself certain naive things. "It gets better". "Things change". "We'll brave this place". In fact, it gets worse. Nothing changes. You're already stuck in motion. It's a perpetually cruel game of self deception turn false reality...
    s0undgarden s0undgarden 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 31, 2014

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    Im Fake?

    Most people in this group lie to themselves that every things ok. I lie to myself about everything NOT being ok? I lie to myself so much i cant even remember whats true in my past and what isn't. When i was about 10 a lot happed in my life .. i think . I remember my brother...
    aliimathers aliimathers 13-15 Mar 20, 2011

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    I Hate Lying

    I hate lying to myself and others that everything will be fine and I'm okay. I hate having to slather on false happiness on the words I speak and force a sparkle and a twinkle in my eye. I do this everyday, but believe me that doesn't make it easier on myself at all. No one seems...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 18-21, F Apr 2, 2013

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    I Once Did

    I don't so much anymore. The past was all lies: that I was tough, that I was straight, that I was lonely, that I loved, that I didn't love, that I perhaps was addicted to various things, that I was ever okay. Now, I've finally realized that lying to myself gets me nowhere. It...
    BrownEyedMystery BrownEyedMystery 18-21 Oct 29, 2012

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    Lie Doesn't Last...

    I've been lying to myself about doing something not my choice is fine... It worked for a few months... I tried again and again as the self-helps I read for teaching me how to accept and learn to like something I don't like said if I keep on lying and pretending to myself,one day...
    ellen183 ellen183 22-25, F Nov 21, 2011

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    I Can't Stop It.

    I just lie and lie and in my head I think I've manipulated everyone around me. Sometimes I just want it to come crashing down and tell the truth about everything, I want to know why I feel like this. I just don't know how. I can't express it. In my family, my mother got pregnant...
    MyJustMeHere MyJustMeHere 13-15, F Aug 7, 2011

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    I Lie To Myself Everyday And I Live In Denial

    Living in denial is like a drug like meth. The more meth you take the more you like it and get used it. I've lied to my friends and family since day one. Lying has gotten me troubles that have re-shaped my thinking and logic.  For example, when i was 8 years old i stole 50...
    spectra2005 spectra2005 26-30, M Aug 20, 2011

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    Why Do I Lie To Myself?

    I lie to myself for the following reasons To deny the fact that I'm having issues right now. To hide my problems away from me To get ahead with my life To convince myself that I really have it all together Well, that's why. I'm lying right now and say...
    sparkles4edward sparkles4edward 26-30, F 1 Response May 29, 2010

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    False Perfection, Lies, Unhappiness

    Ever wanted to be perfect, wanted to make everyone love you, the world to be your oyster...? I do and I had and still have many people fooled; I even fooled myself. If you asked anyone I know about me they'd tell you I'm an A* student, I have a wonderful family, good friends, I'm...
    publicnuisance911 publicnuisance911 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2010

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    see myself as i am fading away, smoke of those dreams have become reality wasted feelings..imprisoned in misery letting go..for a moment and thinking it was fate..my life...
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    I lied. It hurt It hurt so much But you don't care You never care So when you ask me again If it hurts I will lie
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    My boyfriend of 4 years lied to me a lot in the past , i can't forget and it still hurts tough it have been almost a year back.. He created dating sites and lied about them,told me...
    Candymett Candymett 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I'm lost and uninspired, I feel like I am gone, my body is here but my mind is wondering about life, I meet a nice girl, why can't we just be friends, why do I have a tendency to...
    psychopuppet23 psychopuppet23 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    There is no meI am multitudeI think I have been trying to fool myself with the idea that I can uncover the real me. That if I delve deep enough, explore long enough, that I will...
    jacquelinejones jacquelinejones 46-50 6 days ago

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