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I Lie to Myself

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    I Once Did

    I don't so much anymore. The past was all lies: that I was tough, that I was straight, that I was lonely, that I loved, that I didn't love, that I perhaps was addicted to various things, that I was ever okay. Now, I've finally realized that lying to myself gets me nowhere. It...
    BrownEyedMystery BrownEyedMystery 18-21 Oct 29, 2012

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    I Can't Stop It.

    I just lie and lie and in my head I think I've manipulated everyone around me. Sometimes I just want it to come crashing down and tell the truth about everything, I want to know why I feel like this. I just don't know how. I can't express it. In my family, my mother got pregnant...
    MyJustMeHere MyJustMeHere 13-15, F Aug 7, 2011

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    I Hate Lying

    I hate lying to myself and others that everything will be fine and I'm okay. I hate having to slather on false happiness on the words I speak and force a sparkle and a twinkle in my eye. I do this everyday, but believe me that doesn't make it easier on myself at all. No one seems...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 18-21, F Apr 2, 2013

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    Im Fake?

    Most people in this group lie to themselves that every things ok. I lie to myself about everything NOT being ok? I lie to myself so much i cant even remember whats true in my past and what isn't. When i was about 10 a lot happed in my life .. i think . I remember my brother...
    aliimathers aliimathers 13-15 Mar 20, 2011

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    I Lie To Myself Everyday And I Live In Denial

    Living in denial is like a drug like meth. The more meth you take the more you like it and get used it. I've lied to my friends and family since day one. Lying has gotten me troubles that have re-shaped my thinking and logic.  For example, when i was 8 years old i stole 50...
    spectra2005 spectra2005 26-30, M Aug 20, 2011

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    Pretending things are great,

    when I really have to hate,the way things are going,all that while really knowing!That the truth is showing,and the battle is blowing,like lots of windblown dust,as my dreams turn to rust!And in myself, I lose trust,and so I really, really must,stop this sly deception,or adjust...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 6, 2013

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    Why Do I Lie To Myself?

    I lie to myself for the following reasons To deny the fact that I'm having issues right now. To hide my problems away from me To get ahead with my life To convince myself that I really have it all together Well, that's why. I'm lying right now and say...
    sparkles4edward sparkles4edward 26-30, F 1 Response May 29, 2010

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    Vain promises after other fall short of

    themselves and violently collapse.I like to tell myself certain naive things. "It gets better". "Things change". "We'll brave this place". In fact, it gets worse. Nothing changes. You're already stuck in motion. It's a perpetually cruel game of self deception turn false reality...
    s0undgarden s0undgarden 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 31, 2014

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    I always say I hate liars

    and that if you lie to me then I'm done, but I lie all the time. But I only lie so I can try to make myself believe something else. I don't want to believe the reality of my life situation or how much it ******* sucks or how much it hurts me, so I lie. But I'm only lying to...
    agirltoremember agirltoremember 16-17, F Apr 1, 2014

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    And it has started to eat away at my soul.

    I can't stand not being able to achieve my own expectations so I try to delude my self and others while I rot inside with guilt. I don't want this for myself anymore. I think I owe myself some honesty and others deserve to know the real me. This perfectionist mentally is self...
    In100years In100years 22-25 1 Response Nov 27, 2014

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    Lie Doesn't Last...

    I've been lying to myself about doing something not my choice is fine... It worked for a few months... I tried again and again as the self-helps I read for teaching me how to accept and learn to like something I don't like said if I keep on lying and pretending to myself,one day...
    ellen183 ellen183 22-25, F Nov 21, 2011

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    A Place Called Denial

    I lie to myself on a daily basis. It's how I manage to hold it together no matter what happens. I tell myself that I'm the smartest, prettiest most awesome person I can be, but I know that's not true. The more I think about it, the more parts of me I find that I hate. So I...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F Feb 21, 2013

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    Just Call Me Pinnochio

    Ever have one of those days that you set aside to all your catching up? Such as errands, house cleaning, paying bills, etc....I have so many of those days. Just the other day I took my child to the sitter and planned on catching up on alot of things. So I get to my house and the...
    Luci Luci 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 12, 2007

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    False Perfection, Lies, Unhappiness

    Ever wanted to be perfect, wanted to make everyone love you, the world to be your oyster...? I do and I had and still have many people fooled; I even fooled myself. If you asked anyone I know about me they'd tell you I'm an A* student, I have a wonderful family, good friends, I'm...
    publicnuisance911 publicnuisance911 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2010

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    sitting there playing and smiling faking it and knowing can't fool myself with new set of lies can't say my goodbyes to all of what i know i see and feel still i try to...
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    Heey~^^! I am here to share my story~ Soo... I am 16 years old and i cut for first time two weeks ago... ( I've just downloaded the app. I used it before, but i delete my profile...
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    I really hate dishonesty of any kind. Mostly the sneaky insidious kind that comes from self deception, and the inability too many people have to be self introspective. It makes...
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    The biggest liar I've ever met was actually my previous boyfriend. The funny thing about it is that he would always go on and on and on about how he hated liars and being lied to...
    BexBaby84 BexBaby84 31-35, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I spent a week in a psych ward for "suicidal ideation". it really only taught me how to lie better
    helplesslyhopelessly helplesslyhopelessly 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    nobody likes being lied to... its just a reason to get in trouble, why lie, its a stupid thing
    jenna66spinder jenna66spinder 16-17, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    JoeGlas JoeGlas 31-35, M 3 days ago

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    I think about everything before going to bed. what has happened in the past, what I could've done to fix things, change things..I always overthink myself into a bad mood and I hate...
    chelsey1214 chelsey1214 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My father was the king of lies. My favourite of all, the "if only" type. If only you had asked me for the money, I would have been happy to give it to you. If only you had told...
    BookGrl BookGrl 41-45, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    it's funny... some people says that they hate lies but they lied to themselves in the first place, calling "white lies" just to not feel bad with themselves, for me, a white lie...
    ladywarrior100 ladywarrior100 41-45, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I feel that most people in my life are only there due to convenience. I don't feel any "bond" or connection with even my closest friends and family anymore. I know it's my fault...
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    I see you dressed in sin waiting for that midnight touch. Waiting for someone to make it right. Waiting for someone to hold you tight. So you feel okay. So you feel alright...
    pinkcloudsandbrokenhearts pinkcloudsandbrokenhearts 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I just don't do it. There is no good that comes from lying to myself or others.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 2

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    what upsets me is some people lie then they admit they lied then they say they hate being lied to. what is that called?
    myame1 myame1 46-50, F 5 Responses Feb 1

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    a cruel fantasy of humanity to search for happiness and peace the things we believe the toys we create to deceive the altered perception for some satisfaction blind to see...
    anotherclone anotherclone 31-35, M Feb 1

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    When people lie to you.. do you Confront Them ???
    CODECRACKER2014 CODECRACKER2014 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 31

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    Overall, I'm just a horrible human being. I am mean to people for no reason, I get annoyed easily, and when I'm annoyed that leads to a tiny outburst. It hurts me all the time. The...
    TotidemVerbis TotidemVerbis 18-21 3 Responses Jan 30

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    I really hate it when people try to fool me with a lie which is obviously that, a lie. I hate the fact of being considered a silly girl more than what they lied about. I say...
    LadyHeartnMind LadyHeartnMind 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 29

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    The past few nights have been awful. People are bullies and just don't know how much a simple lie can hurt someone so much. Can I handle it? Yes. Do I want to handle it by crying...
    autumnwaves15 autumnwaves15 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 28

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    I have a bad habit of making excuses for people who do me wrong thinking that if I forgive them they'll change. I am working on myself though.... I'm a strong woman and love a...
    LUzunov LUzunov 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 27

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    I've lost my direction, I've let days go by doing nothing, I've had my ground slip away, I've been deceived, I've been hopeless, I've been grim, I've been lied to, I've been...
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