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I Lie to Myself

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    Vain promises after other fall short of

    themselves and violently collapse.I like to tell myself certain naive things. "It gets better". "Things change". "We'll brave this place". In fact, it gets worse. Nothing changes. You're already stuck in motion. It's a perpetually cruel game of self deception turn false reality...
    s0undgarden s0undgarden 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 31, 2014

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    I Once Did

    I don't so much anymore. The past was all lies: that I was tough, that I was straight, that I was lonely, that I loved, that I didn't love, that I perhaps was addicted to various things, that I was ever okay. Now, I've finally realized that lying to myself gets me nowhere. It...
    BrownEyedMystery BrownEyedMystery 18-21 Oct 29, 2012

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    False Perfection, Lies, Unhappiness

    Ever wanted to be perfect, wanted to make everyone love you, the world to be your oyster...? I do and I had and still have many people fooled; I even fooled myself. If you asked anyone I know about me they'd tell you I'm an A* student, I have a wonderful family, good friends, I'm...
    publicnuisance911 publicnuisance911 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2010

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    I Lie To Myself Everyday And I Live In Denial

    Living in denial is like a drug like meth. The more meth you take the more you like it and get used it. I've lied to my friends and family since day one. Lying has gotten me troubles that have re-shaped my thinking and logic.  For example, when i was 8 years old i stole 50...
    spectra2005 spectra2005 26-30, M Aug 20, 2011

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    And it has started to eat away at my soul.

    I can't stand not being able to achieve my own expectations so I try to delude my self and others while I rot inside with guilt. I don't want this for myself anymore. I think I owe myself some honesty and others deserve to know the real me. This perfectionist mentally is self...
    In100years In100years 22-25 1 Response Nov 27, 2014

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    I Can't Stop It.

    I just lie and lie and in my head I think I've manipulated everyone around me. Sometimes I just want it to come crashing down and tell the truth about everything, I want to know why I feel like this. I just don't know how. I can't express it. In my family, my mother got pregnant...
    MyJustMeHere MyJustMeHere 13-15, F Aug 7, 2011

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    Pretending things are great,

    when I really have to hate,the way things are going,all that while really knowing!That the truth is showing,and the battle is blowing,like lots of windblown dust,as my dreams turn to rust!And in myself, I lose trust,and so I really, really must,stop this sly deception,or adjust...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 6, 2013

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    Im Fake?

    Most people in this group lie to themselves that every things ok. I lie to myself about everything NOT being ok? I lie to myself so much i cant even remember whats true in my past and what isn't. When i was about 10 a lot happed in my life .. i think . I remember my brother...
    aliimathers aliimathers 13-15 Mar 20, 2011

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    Just Call Me Pinnochio

    Ever have one of those days that you set aside to all your catching up? Such as errands, house cleaning, paying bills, etc....I have so many of those days. Just the other day I took my child to the sitter and planned on catching up on alot of things. So I get to my house and the...
    Luci Luci 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 12, 2007

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    Lie Doesn't Last...

    I've been lying to myself about doing something not my choice is fine... It worked for a few months... I tried again and again as the self-helps I read for teaching me how to accept and learn to like something I don't like said if I keep on lying and pretending to myself,one day...
    ellen183 ellen183 22-25, F Nov 21, 2011

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    Why Do I Lie To Myself?

    I lie to myself for the following reasons To deny the fact that I'm having issues right now. To hide my problems away from me To get ahead with my life To convince myself that I really have it all together Well, that's why. I'm lying right now and say...
    sparkles4edward sparkles4edward 26-30, F 1 Response May 29, 2010

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    I always say I hate liars

    and that if you lie to me then I'm done, but I lie all the time. But I only lie so I can try to make myself believe something else. I don't want to believe the reality of my life situation or how much it ******* sucks or how much it hurts me, so I lie. But I'm only lying to...
    agirltoremember agirltoremember 16-17, F Apr 1, 2014

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    A Place Called Denial

    I lie to myself on a daily basis. It's how I manage to hold it together no matter what happens. I tell myself that I'm the smartest, prettiest most awesome person I can be, but I know that's not true. The more I think about it, the more parts of me I find that I hate. So I...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F Feb 21, 2013

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    I Hate Lying

    I hate lying to myself and others that everything will be fine and I'm okay. I hate having to slather on false happiness on the words I speak and force a sparkle and a twinkle in my eye. I do this everyday, but believe me that doesn't make it easier on myself at all. No one seems...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 18-21, F Apr 2, 2013

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    seeking for some reaction some expected action, i want to see in your eyes i really loved you..wasn't that enough for you this grotesque betrayal by expectations left me...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    I caught my daughter in a ball face lie the other day. I live roughly an hour away from work. I passed by the hotel near work, and I saw a vehicle that looked like hers. Now, she...
    lifealwayschanges lifealwayschanges 41-45, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    It's always a struggle to wake up and get out of bed in the morning. My belly gets in the way and it takes me about half hour just sit up, by that time I am exhausted and I lie...
    ThickLegged ThickLegged 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    twisted thoughts of unforgiven fate didn't move and still feel ashamed have you corrupted what was in me or it's a dream of my own cruelty bored with reasons..to convince and...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    This may be hard for a lot of people to understand, and I don't expect them to. I have always wanted love. I will never admit it to your face, but I dream of finding that "perfect...
    MuscleCarBabe69 MuscleCarBabe69 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    that moment when you really like someone and you're dating but they lied to you and you are just like wow I can't believe I believed them when they said "oh I'm different" and "i...
    nightmare06 nightmare06 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I took a handful of random pills.... I said my good byes I was tired of all the deceiving lies I closed my eyes and withered away.. And some how I'm alive today...
    Justwondering223 Justwondering223 13-15, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    needs missions..colliding with unknown decisions living in filth and trying to become free, cleansing yourself from the shtt you have become..a junkie so high like a fckng...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    WALTER PALMER, a dentist in MN, paid $55,000 to illegally lure a well known, collared, protected lion from a game reserve in Zimbabwe. This lion was the mascot of the reserve and...
    speedman817 speedman817 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My boyfriend lied and cheated on me over the past six months, I thought we could get through it but now that he is in Bootcamp, It is random days like this when I am alone that the...
    kat115nk kat115nk 22-25, F 16 Responses 6 days ago

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    My mother says that there's art in loosing yourself, but I don't figure it out yet. I'm supposed to never think of myself, to always help others. To never look too long in the...
    emotionlessbitch emotionlessbitch 13-15, F Jul 25

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    Sure can,t and find it a lot on this site..Damn it,s ok to be a perv i,m one at times as well but why lie...If you say you will do something do it...***.. just say n...Stop the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 25

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    I'm bored so writing these out as I think of them. One is a lie and the rest are true. Can you pick the lie? 1. I live in a country with lots of rain 2. I have long hair 3. I am a...
    sunnygirl96 sunnygirl96 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 25

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    Do you know what it's like to hide your feelings, because you don't want to get that person in trouble? Do you know what it's like to throw your studies aside, just to be by his...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies 61-65, M 2 Responses Jul 25

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    making sense of it all the equations gifted to the living feeling, expecting..doing the chores silent yet so many opinions in the mind try..wait..think..hope..convincing the...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Jul 24

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    I made a decision that cost me eternal love, joy, peace, relationship... all the good things that only Love Himself can give. I don't understand why I did it, the only answer would...
    Coloursearching Coloursearching 22-25 Jul 23

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    I Don't Like It When Someone Lies to Me Of course, I don't like it when someone lies to me, but lies happen... Right? I mean you and I are texting away and having a pleasant enough...
    Orangerocket Orangerocket 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 22

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    I don't like being lied to especially when I'm close you and trust you and are always honest to you bc I expect the same curtsy. The worse is when I ask if your lying and you lie...
    Alex288837359 Alex288837359 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 22

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    People hide behind their lies, afraid to be themselves and afraid to die. Wondering why they feel so alone... No such thing as a harmless fib. The truth will set you free.
    MorningStars MorningStars 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 19

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    I have zero tolerance for liars. Lie to me once, there's no comeback, no second chance, you'll be forever a liar in my mind.
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M Jul 18

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    Sometimes i dont know if people lie because they are protecting you or lie because they dont like you.
    Elleshore81 Elleshore81 31-35, F 6 Responses Jul 18

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    I met a guy a year ago I thought he was the one, even though we saw each other for two months i decided to wait a year for him while he was away from work, he got back a few weeks...
    val8788 val8788 26-30, F Jul 17

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    open a book which has never opened before willingly with some truths..some lies you do hide a reality of your state and those hidden emotions which you...all your life...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    I have been lied to all my life and now I don't trust anyone everyone is just all lies to me
    winterblood winterblood 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    Don't like people who lie I don't have any respect left for them .. Truth is the way forward
    maj32 maj32 31-35, M 5 Responses Jul 16

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    you want peace...love and sleep the things which made you what you're now those wishful thoughts...those dreams hope they com true...you stalked a shadow far from the sun..he...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 15

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    I am writing this is the hope it may help someone else. I completely forgot I had this account until I received an email which led to me to my first and only post back in 2013...
    rose24785 rose24785 22-25, F Jul 15

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    being lied to sucks, especially if it's from someone you're really close to. trusting others is something that I'm really not good at.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 14

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    go there... stand in the line with your kind... to me you don't exist..your tricks..games keep your ego..and keep your beautiful smiles i am not here to watch your fantasies...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Jul 14