I Lie to Myself

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    And it has started to eat away at my soul.

    I can't stand not being able to achieve my own expectations so I try to delude my self and others while I rot inside with guilt. I don't want this for myself anymore. I think I owe myself some honesty and others deserve to know the real me. This perfectionist mentally is self...
    In100years In100years
    1 Response Nov 27, 2014

    I don't care. I don't care.

    I don't care. I don't care. Fck, I still care.
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    Feb 20

    I always say I hate liars

    and that if you lie to me then I'm done, but I lie all the time. But I only lie so I can try to make myself believe something else. I don't want to believe the reality of my life situation or how much it ******* sucks or how much it hurts me, so I lie. But I'm only lying to...
    agirltoremember agirltoremember
    16-17, F
    Apr 1, 2014

    Im Fake?

    Most people in this group lie to themselves that every things ok. I lie to myself about everything NOT being ok? I lie to myself so much i cant even remember whats true in my past and what isn't. When i was about 10 a lot happed in my life .. i think . I remember my brother...
    aliimathers aliimathers
    Mar 20, 2011

    I Once Did

    I don't so much anymore. The past was all lies: that I was tough, that I was straight, that I was lonely, that I loved, that I didn't love, that I perhaps was addicted to various things, that I was ever okay. Now, I've finally realized that lying to myself gets me nowhere. It...
    BrownEyedMystery BrownEyedMystery
    Oct 29, 2012

    Pretending things are great,

    when I really have to hate,the way things are going,all that while really knowing!That the truth is showing,and the battle is blowing,like lots of windblown dust,as my dreams turn to rust!And in myself, I lose trust,and so I really, really must,stop this sly deception,or adjust...
    deleted deleted
    Dec 6, 2013

    Lie Doesn't Last...

    I've been lying to myself about doing something not my choice is fine... It worked for a few months... I tried again and again as the self-helps I read for teaching me how to accept and learn to like something I don't like said if I keep on lying and pretending to myself,one day...
    ellen183 ellen183
    22-25, F
    Nov 21, 2011

    Just Call Me Pinnochio

    Ever have one of those days that you set aside to all your catching up? Such as errands, house cleaning, paying bills, etc....I have so many of those days. Just the other day I took my child to the sitter and planned on catching up on alot of things. So I get to my house and the...
    Luci Luci
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jul 12, 2007

    Why Do I Lie To Myself?

    I lie to myself for the following reasons To deny the fact that I'm having issues right now. To hide my problems away from me To get ahead with my life To convince myself that I really have it all together Well, that's why. I'm lying right now and say...
    sparkles4edward sparkles4edward
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 29, 2010

    False Perfection, Lies, Unhappiness

    Ever wanted to be perfect, wanted to make everyone love you, the world to be your oyster...? I do and I had and still have many people fooled; I even fooled myself. If you asked anyone I know about me they'd tell you I'm an A* student, I have a wonderful family, good friends, I'm...
    publicnuisance911 publicnuisance911
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 7, 2010

    Unfortunately I am a terrible liar.

    The words already sound false as I am saying them in my mind.
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    2 Responses Feb 28

    I Can't Stop It.

    I just lie and lie and in my head I think I've manipulated everyone around me. Sometimes I just want it to come crashing down and tell the truth about everything, I want to know why I feel like this. I just don't know how. I can't express it. In my family, my mother got pregnant...
    MyJustMeHere MyJustMeHere
    13-15, F
    Aug 7, 2011

    A Place Called Denial

    I lie to myself on a daily basis. It's how I manage to hold it together no matter what happens. I tell myself that I'm the smartest, prettiest most awesome person I can be, but I know that's not true. The more I think about it, the more parts of me I find that I hate. So I...
    Lullacus Lullacus
    22-25, F
    Feb 21, 2013

    I Hate Lying

    I hate lying to myself and others that everything will be fine and I'm okay. I hate having to slather on false happiness on the words I speak and force a sparkle and a twinkle in my eye. I do this everyday, but believe me that doesn't make it easier on myself at all. No one seems...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick
    18-21, F
    Apr 2, 2013

    I Lie To Myself Everyday And I Live In Denial

    Living in denial is like a drug like meth. The more meth you take the more you like it and get used it. I've lied to my friends and family since day one. Lying has gotten me troubles that have re-shaped my thinking and logic.  For example, when i was 8 years old i stole 50...
    spectra2005 spectra2005
    26-30, M
    Aug 20, 2011

    Vain promises after other fall short of

    themselves and violently collapse.I like to tell myself certain naive things. "It gets better". "Things change". "We'll brave this place". In fact, it gets worse. Nothing changes. You're already stuck in motion. It's a perpetually cruel game of self deception turn false reality...
    s0undgarden s0undgarden
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 31, 2014

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