I Like to Push Myself to the Extreme

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    To Old Any More

    topush my self to the extremy no more base jumping no more sky diving or deep scuba diving just fast cars and bikes
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    1 Response Dec 14, 2011

    All my life I have pushed myself to do things

    that are difficult and that scare me. On a daily basis I purposely put myself in situations that I do not like, that terrify me. Why do I do this? Ridiculous as it may sound, I have an acute fear of heights and exposure, yet I pursue my passion of base jumping, climbing and...
    mattturcs mattturcs
    26-30, M
    Oct 12, 2014

    One of my superpowers is the ability to survive

    without sleep. And complicate things in a way that would cause me to unknowingly sabotage myself. I started a new job three weeks ago and am energy depleted every day (at least physically), but already used to being almost completely recharged after a four-hour sleep. My job...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 1, 2014

    Of Sleeplessness...

    Here I go for another afternoon, now 27 hours up. Why? I feel your pain and I can't go through it while I rest.
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Feb 19, 2009

    Te Extreme

                                          i like to push myself to the extreme. i like to do well...
    flourlady111 flourlady111
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Feb 18, 2009

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