I Live a Depressed Life,but Put On a Fake Smile So Noone Knows

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 486 People

    My past has destroyed my future.

    My only hope is to either a) develop amnesia b) develop Alzheimers c) become brain-dead.
    blondallover blondallover
    61-65, F
    1 Response May 4, 2015

    I don't have a fake smile.

    I have a full on mask. A mask that smiles giggles and tells jokes. instead of the real me crying and brooding and depressed
    thebladeisbae0718 thebladeisbae0718
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 5, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 18, 2016

    would it be helpul if i was whining about

    everything to everyone? I don't think so...
    sparkydream sparkydream
    18-21, F
    14 Responses Feb 4, 2015
    eternalmusics2017 eternalmusics2017
    16-17, F
    Feb 5, 2015

    I hate myself for it

    but i do it everyday I leave for work, hold open doors, and wish everyone a good morning with a smile When the truth is i feel like id be better off dead im a lower middle class man who never had a real girlfriend with no passion for life and it gets worse when i see former...
    TheLastOfMe TheLastOfMe
    22-25, M
    Mar 13, 2015

    So tired of feeling depressed

    and acting like everything is okay when its really not 😔
    dawwnn dawwnn
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 15, 2015

    It's easier to hide behind a fake smile

    than it is to tell people how you feel. You can feel the loneliest person in a room full of people. Some days it's easier to hide away than socialise with friends and do other things. I hate the fact I have so little motivation anymore. Constantly stuck in a rut, people...
    danyellelakin danyellelakin
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 2, 2015

    I hate being a girl the standards are

    so high and if you dont match up to them you "Ugly", "Fat", "Worthless" I just hate those bitchy girls because they did this to me the screwed up my life in a way I cannot turn away from
    embonza1 embonza1
    13-15, F
    Jul 8, 2015

    If anybody can give me a reason 2 live I will

    listen, my heart n soul is destroyed n there r kids in the world who pass away everyday but I'm still alive for some reason n I feel like imma waste of life n air that they could have so if I don't wake up tmrw I jus wanted 2 let the world know how I feel n I'm sorry for being...
    eaj2088 eaj2088
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 28, 2015

    I feel out of sorts for 4 days I'm running away

    idc if my husband gets mad at me...but I'm running away . I'm tired of the world ...and annoying people who say the same dumb jokes.
    imissdnce imissdnce
    31-35, F
    Mar 13, 2015

    Not being pretentious

    but rather I value my privacy... I don't want to talk about it with other people especially if they are nosy and notorious for being backstabbers, blackmailers and gossipers. But I guess maybe that's why I'm slightly depressed I don't trust others easily...
    thelittlemonster thelittlemonster
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 17, 2015

    Anybody I get close to ends up avoiding me.

    I don't think I fully suck but I must if that keeps happening. I'm just gonna turn into an antisocial ***** with no feelings. Gonna start that today! Your welcome!
    spaceylibra spaceylibra
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 6, 2015
    vairos vairos
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 7, 2015

    When I'm out and about

    and feeling like ****. People say hi to me, and ask how I am. I tell them I'm doing good. They don't need to know what a ****** life I live.
    noaht43 noaht43
    46-50, T
    Jul 30, 2015

    Sometimes I wish I could cry,

    only the tears can't be found. I'm surrounded by a thousand screams, but I can't hear a single sound. I'm walking through a land of darkness, without even a flashlight. I'm hit by a thousand fists, and I've forgotten how to fight. I know that I need to breathe, but my...
    good4nothin1 good4nothin1
    31-35, M
    1 Response May 5, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 25, 2015

    Giving up on life, I quit .

    .......................
    eaj2088 eaj2088
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 12, 2015

    Sometimes its hard to hide my feelings,

    so I close my bedroom just to cry. At this time I just want to be left alone. No one can understand the feelings I feel. Sometimes I don't understand them myself.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 31, 2015

    I'm a girl that's 14 years old

    and acts so super happy and everyone always says I'm the most bright happy girl they know little do they know it's all just a fake smile and I really cut myself and hate myself.
    secretstokeep secretstokeep
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Dec 26, 2013
    eaj2088 eaj2088
    26-30, M
    Mar 12, 2015
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