I Live a Depressed Life,but Put On a Fake Smile So Noone Knows

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    Jan 18, 2016

    I don't have a fake smile.

    I have a full on mask. A mask that smiles giggles and tells jokes. instead of the real me crying and brooding and depressed
    thebladeisbae0718 thebladeisbae0718
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 5, 2015

    Not being pretentious

    but rather I value my privacy... I don't want to talk about it with other people especially if they are nosy and notorious for being backstabbers, blackmailers and gossipers. But I guess maybe that's why I'm slightly depressed I don't trust others easily...
    thelittlemonster thelittlemonster
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 17, 2015

    So tired of feeling depressed

    and acting like everything is okay when its really not 😔
    dawwnn dawwnn
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 15, 2015

    It's easier to hide behind a fake smile

    than it is to tell people how you feel. You can feel the loneliest person in a room full of people. Some days it's easier to hide away than socialise with friends and do other things. I hate the fact I have so little motivation anymore. Constantly stuck in a rut, people...
    danyellelakin danyellelakin
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 2, 2015

    My past has destroyed my future.

    My only hope is to either a) develop amnesia b) develop Alzheimers c) become brain-dead.
    blondallover blondallover
    61-65, F
    1 Response May 4, 2015

    I hate being a girl the standards are

    so high and if you dont match up to them you "Ugly", "Fat", "Worthless" I just hate those bitchy girls because they did this to me the screwed up my life in a way I cannot turn away from
    embonza1 embonza1
    16-17, F
    Jul 8, 2015

    I feel out of sorts for 4 days I'm running away

    idc if my husband gets mad at me...but I'm running away . I'm tired of the world ...and annoying people who say the same dumb jokes.
    imissdnce imissdnce
    31-35, F
    Mar 13, 2015
    eternalmusics2017 eternalmusics2017
    18-21, F
    Feb 5, 2015

    When I'm out and about

    and feeling like ****. People say hi to me, and ask how I am. I tell them I'm doing good. They don't need to know what a ****** life I live.
    noaht43 noaht43
    46-50, T
    Jul 30, 2015

    If anybody can give me a reason 2 live I will

    listen, my heart n soul is destroyed n there r kids in the world who pass away everyday but I'm still alive for some reason n I feel like imma waste of life n air that they could have so if I don't wake up tmrw I jus wanted 2 let the world know how I feel n I'm sorry for being...
    eaj2088 eaj2088
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 28, 2015
    eaj2088 eaj2088
    26-30, M
    Mar 12, 2015
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 25, 2015

    I'm a girl that's 14 years old

    and acts so super happy and everyone always says I'm the most bright happy girl they know little do they know it's all just a fake smile and I really cut myself and hate myself.
    secretstokeep secretstokeep
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 26, 2013
    vairos vairos
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 7, 2015

    would it be helpul if i was whining about

    everything to everyone? I don't think so...
    sparkydream sparkydream
    22-25, F
    14 Responses Feb 4, 2015

    Sometimes its hard to hide my feelings,

    so I close my bedroom just to cry. At this time I just want to be left alone. No one can understand the feelings I feel. Sometimes I don't understand them myself.
    deleted deleted
    May 31, 2015

    Giving up on life, I quit .

    eaj2088 eaj2088
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 12, 2015

    Sometimes I wish I could cry,

    only the tears can't be found. I'm surrounded by a thousand screams, but I can't hear a single sound. I'm walking through a land of darkness, without even a flashlight. I'm hit by a thousand fists, and I've forgotten how to fight. I know that I need to breathe, but my...
    good4nothin1 good4nothin1
    36-40, M
    1 Response May 5, 2015

    I hate myself for it

    but i do it everyday I leave for work, hold open doors, and wish everyone a good morning with a smile When the truth is i feel like id be better off dead im a lower middle class man who never had a real girlfriend with no passion for life and it gets worse when i see former...
    TheLastOfMe TheLastOfMe
    22-25, M
    Mar 13, 2015

    Anybody I get close to ends up avoiding me.

    I don't think I fully suck but I must if that keeps happening. I'm just gonna turn into an antisocial ***** with no feelings. Gonna start that today! Your welcome!
    spaceylibra spaceylibra
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 6, 2015
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