i WILL START BY EXCUSING MY POOR GRAMMAR AS I AM A BIT HAPPY AND ITALIAN.
I was wondering, If I get out of this hell, how the **** do I tell my future bf why we broke up?
Honestly before SM knocked on my door, I was oblivious, and had I ever met anyone in a SM, I would think
"okay you are either a weirdo or a freak, either way, I want nothing to do with you".
If I say to someone what I am living, whether its a potential lover or just a friend, wont they think
"WTF?" My mom even said "you dont want everyone knowing you hubby is funny".
Funny is how my mom calls him now a days, what would people think, the same thing I would.
a) you suck in bed, really really bad.
b) you have some sort of STD or worse
c) you're lame in the sack, oh thats the same as a) LOL
d) you lie.
How do you stand a chance at anything better than this by starting a new relationship on lies.
Yes I pick D) because It's embarrassing to admit to another human being that I had to beg for sex.
Ya I know I'm ranting but do you all think of this?
Oh I just thought of something else, even if I were to say the truth, how does that look on me,
splitting a family over sex, i'll look like a ****, with no priorities and selfish.