I Live With Bipolar Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 10 People

    I miss the old me. The hyper me,

    go out and have fun me! I'm so tired of looking at four walls. There are days it takes all I have to get out of the bed. Feeling like my legs are weighted down with lead, thoughts running rampant inside my head. Dwelling on this thing here, and that thing over there. I'm...
    zanyzoey zanyzoey
    41-45, F
    Apr 15, 2014

    It's hard to believe

    that a former Varsity cheerleader in high school has gone from prom queen court to the bottom of the barrel. I am on multiple medications and it's sad to know that I will have to be on these medications for the rest of my life. I wake up in the morning and instantly want to cry...
    ek2465 ek2465
    22-25
    1 Response Aug 12, 2014

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