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I Live With Unbearable Shame

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    God Damn It.

    I'm beyond that sick, soothing emotional balm thinking about suicide can bring. I am starting to push beyond that into the realm of planning. My reasons aren't situational. I have the perfect life- I have a fiance who loves me, and I love him. He is my true love, my only...
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 7 Responses May 11, 2009

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    At My Lifestyle...

    And also because of things that I have done wrong in my life. I know, I know, guilt is a wasted emotion but sometimes there are words I just want to say and I can't or I feel I can't and it burns a hole in my stomach and crushes me. I hate knowing that I wasn't there for someone...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Jun 19, 2011

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    I've Lived With...

    I grew up with an unbearable sense of shame about myself. More like gave birth to it, nurtured it, and let it become the suffocating monster that strangles me odd hours of the day. A simple walk to school is like the march of the dead. Imagine being 17 years old and having a...
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 8 Responses Mar 30, 2009

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    Time to Be Honest.

    I feel mentally ill. I'm thinking about cutting down on the time I spend here, it's making me more reserved an anti-social, not to mention it's also triggering stress and flash anger. I couldn't even sleep because of some ridiculous debate I had here last night. I don't even...
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 1 Response May 15, 2009

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    I Don't Know Why...

    I don't know when it began, but I've always felt like the things I do are wrong.  Everything!  I feel...Dirty?  Stupid?  Disgusting?  Undeserving of all things good... I am ashamed of everything I do, I think, I feel, I am.
    moonlit1 moonlit1 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2009

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    Shame At The Job

    I am a young woman from Latin America living and working in Sweden. Last Thursday I had a two days trip with my job, where all the people from different locations had a meeting and a Christmas party afterwards. We have drank a lot during the dinner and after eating I went to get...
    petala petala 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 19, 2011

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    Impending Doom...

      I've carried shame my whole life. Shame that has fueled my addictions and exasperated them. My current addiction is sex and love and an uncontrollable obsession to seek exterior validation at mine and others emotional expense. It's tormenting all of the time, but the...
    ClawingMyWayOut ClawingMyWayOut 36-40 4 Responses Mar 31, 2009

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    This Is Hard To Talk About But ... The Shame Is Killing Me

    I live in deep shame for my childhood and all the sexual abuse-I went thru in silence -Ā  that went on, and not one soul cared about me! I feel such deep guilt for the most minor of things that others would not even worry about. I feel shame and guilt over the way I let my great...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 8 Responses Apr 15, 2011

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    Everyone Say's It's Nothing, But I Don't Believe It

    I was born missing a finger on my right hand. It has made me quiet and withdrawn much of the time and I battle depression most of the time. Everybody says I make too much of it. But I can't let it go! And the doctor who delivered me cut a nerve in my face which makes me talk...
    LonelyGemini LonelyGemini 41-45 3 Responses Feb 20, 2010

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    Music was the first love of my life.... Wanting to do music is the first thing that I remember wanting to do as a kid. There cannot be a day that passes without playing music. I...
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    My boyfriend is ruining his life with weed. People say that it's not addictive but I only have to look at him to see that's not true. He wastes all his money on it, we've been...
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    I have been living with my BF and his brother for a year and a half and his brother just moved out leaving just us for the first time. I thought I would be excited but I'm mostly...
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    I'm just going to say I had a flip phone when I got my first phone. I was 17. I see 8 year olds with their own iPhones. Like really? Why does she need it between school and her...
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    I have been living with my boyfriend for almost two years now. We have been together for three. The first year we did long distance. I was in Pennsylvania, and he was in California...
    mlalding mlalding 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    Music literally saves my life! I could not survive without it. Music is there for every single crazy feeling I get be it bad or good. šŸŽ¼ what's your favourite songšŸŽ¼
    Vienna488 Vienna488 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 14

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    You may hve heard that people who work for food chains and other retail compnies have taken action and started demanding better wages. Nay sayers tell you that he can not afford...
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    Trust: Whom do you trust? Is there a person in your life with whom you would trust your very life, if necessary? A spouse...a parentā€¦a siblingā€¦a very good friend? Think...
    dsardes dsardes 26-30, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Lost my ex to drugs. She was the sweetest girl in the world until her friend got her to try drugs. At first she'd just get high occasionally, and although I hated it and how she...
    toby2325 toby2325 13-15, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    ... who has multiple sclerosis (remittant/relapsing). She's a wonderful person and has helped me so much. Now she's starting to relapse for the first time in a couple of years. I...
    JulieAnn13 JulieAnn13 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 1

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    So I am very very sorry to anyone who has tried to get ahold of me... My phone broke and my mom won't let me bring my iPad to my dads...
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 3

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    "What about the smell?" "He didn't seem to mind."
    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M Oct 4

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    Music is my escape when I'm sad or feeling blue.
    Dixiechic66 Dixiechic66 46-50, F Oct 5

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    If I had regrets then I wouldn't be the person I am today. No matter what I've done I've never regretted anything not for one minute and never will.
    FindingTheRealMe FindingTheRealMe 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    My daily struggle is to making sure my phone doesn't die.
    reeessa reeessa 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    Some strange thing i realized is i cant take love. No matter if its my parents or other people when somebody does something just for me i immediately feel bad like someone just...
    IncarnationofRealism IncarnationofRealism 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 8

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    I love listening to eminem
    dwood1 dwood1 13-15, M Oct 8

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    Long story short, my phone came back from the dead :)
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    I Have A Diasability hi i have a mild intellectual disability, short arm deletion of chromosome 18 hypothalami deficiency and short arm syndrome. and i hate it when people call...
    slivereyes slivereyes 36-40, F 10 Responses Oct 11

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    My phone is broken, so i wont be on this for a while x
    Amalah Amalah 18-21, F Oct 11

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    I wish I could say that I could. But I can't, well I could, but I'm just far too attached. I don't like it, social media sites take up far too much of my time that could be spent...
    musicislife00 musicislife00 16-17, F Oct 11

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    I was born three months early, as a result, I am totally blind. I also have some bladder issues. It has not stopped me in my career, or as a husband, or father.
    vjoev vjoev 36-40, M 1 Response Oct 14

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    Hahah I wanted to make this a post but you beat me to itt n.n
    Selphira Selphira 16-17, F Oct 20

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    My mom was snorting 25 OxyContin pills a day and recently just went too rehab. I never realized how hard it truly is to have someone you love go to rehab and find out their an...
    Flannell Flannell 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 22

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    Let's start by getting a few things clear: I don't believe in spending my life stuck in an endless routine of going to work day after day just to pay the lousy bills. I believe...
    tcennoC tcennoC 51-55, M 4 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I am torn between a man that provides me safety and stability, and a man that makes me want to live. And all I can feel is that I'm hurting them both. I can't bring myself to...
    peeppeep21 peeppeep21 26-30, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    (Extended version) It's cos these lights it rages on The war of these wages you've brought up apon But when I'm gone There will be no one to look up apon Just a brightness that...
    DaBigRemix DaBigRemix 41-45, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I was a very delicate girl as a chid, I was a very good girl, sensitive and very smart as well. I think I could have had a good life, I could have been happy. At about age 10 it...
    L122 L122 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Hey guys, I'm 21 years old male and I live in California USA. I always wanted to live in the wilderness. I love God and I want to live around God's creations. I feel that's where...
    kyle1008 kyle1008 18-21, M Oct 23

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    I'm almost 21. My parents are divorced and live full, occupied lives and have a new partner. My 18-year-old sister has moved to a neighbouring country to live with her boyfriend. I...
    equilux equilux 18-21, F Oct 7

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    Right now, I need to focus on mending my insecurities and problems. Here are some quotes that I can relate to. I'll come back and read these every time I feel like breaking down...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Oct 10

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    Katie, don't cry, I know You're trying your hardest And the hardest part is letting go Of the nights we shared Ocala is calling And you know it's haunting But compared To your eyes...
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 21

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    This is the worst day yet. I don't know how to go on. It hasn't gotten better, and it's not going to get better. I've gone to many therapeutic things, some making me feel better...
    NastasyaFilippovna NastasyaFilippovna 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Hi good morning. I can sympathize with your feelings. In my own marriage after 25 years. There was no more sex. For two years. It began to build the wall in between us. My wife at...
    sunney55 sunney55 46-50, M 2 Responses 6 days ago