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I Live With Unbearable Shame

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    I've Lived With...

    I grew up with an unbearable sense of shame about myself. More like gave birth to it, nurtured it, and let it become the suffocating monster that strangles me odd hours of the day. A simple walk to school is like the march of the dead. Imagine being 17 years old and having a...
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 8 Responses Mar 30, 2009

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    Time to Be Honest.

    I feel mentally ill. I'm thinking about cutting down on the time I spend here, it's making me more reserved an anti-social, not to mention it's also triggering stress and flash anger. I couldn't even sleep because of some ridiculous debate I had here last night. I don't even...
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 1 Response May 15, 2009

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    Impending Doom...

      I've carried shame my whole life. Shame that has fueled my addictions and exasperated them. My current addiction is sex and love and an uncontrollable obsession to seek exterior validation at mine and others emotional expense. It's tormenting all of the time, but the...
    ClawingMyWayOut ClawingMyWayOut 36-40 4 Responses Mar 31, 2009

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    At My Lifestyle...

    And also because of things that I have done wrong in my life. I know, I know, guilt is a wasted emotion but sometimes there are words I just want to say and I can't or I feel I can't and it burns a hole in my stomach and crushes me. I hate knowing that I wasn't there for someone...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Jun 19, 2011

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    Everyone Say's It's Nothing, But I Don't Believe It

    I was born missing a finger on my right hand. It has made me quiet and withdrawn much of the time and I battle depression most of the time. Everybody says I make too much of it. But I can't let it go! And the doctor who delivered me cut a nerve in my face which makes me talk...
    LonelyGemini LonelyGemini 41-45 3 Responses Feb 20, 2010

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    This Is Hard To Talk About But ... The Shame Is Killing Me

    I live in deep shame for my childhood and all the sexual abuse-I went thru in silence -  that went on, and not one soul cared about me! I feel such deep guilt for the most minor of things that others would not even worry about. I feel shame and guilt over the way I let my great...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 8 Responses Apr 15, 2011

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    God Damn It.

    I'm beyond that sick, soothing emotional balm thinking about suicide can bring. I am starting to push beyond that into the realm of planning. My reasons aren't situational. I have the perfect life- I have a fiance who loves me, and I love him. He is my true love, my only...
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 7 Responses May 11, 2009

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    I Don't Know Why...

    I don't know when it began, but I've always felt like the things I do are wrong.  Everything!  I feel...Dirty?  Stupid?  Disgusting?  Undeserving of all things good... I am ashamed of everything I do, I think, I feel, I am.
    moonlit1 moonlit1 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2009

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    Shame At The Job

    I am a young woman from Latin America living and working in Sweden. Last Thursday I had a two days trip with my job, where all the people from different locations had a meeting and a Christmas party afterwards. We have drank a lot during the dinner and after eating I went to get...
    petala petala 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 19, 2011

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    Which would usually be totally normal no questions asked but I'm 17 years old. My dad moved to Seattle and my mom lives a couple cities over so I can't live with her because I want...
    OccasionalCupcake OccasionalCupcake 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    I live with MS and I've never really had to deal with serious illness before. I'm also in the process of being tested for Anemia. It is quite stressful to just get on with my life...
    Beyala Beyala 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    It would be an amazing experience to live with wolves. Hunting large animals in packs howling in the night with a full moon and running at amazing speeds.
    Miserablechildhood Miserablechildhood 13-15, M Aug 21

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    Hence the name you can already imagine. Ever since I was very young, maybe 6 or 7, I've always had these weird ticks and twitches. I've never understood why or how they came to be...
    Twitch313 Twitch313 26-30, M Aug 24

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    I HATE you, because I love you more than me I LOVE you, because +I Can't Live without you !! I MISS you, because I`m addicted to your company I LIKE you, because no 1 is so sweet...
    wendu44 wendu44 18-21, F Aug 25

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    I'm glad that this experience was posted up because right now I am going through something which is very difficult. I have been with my partner for 9 yrs. Since I was 19 I am now...
    whisperingcampaign whisperingcampaign 26-30, F Aug 25

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    I live with my boyfriend, Shane. I love to spend so much time with him and wake up in his arms. It is the best feeling in the world to finally be accepted by someone. I don't have...
    Thatonegirl53 Thatonegirl53 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 27

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    My husband has been near death with Gastroparesis the last five days. He can't hold down water. He has had diabetes for 25 years. I guess this is the natural progression of the...
    timebanditgal timebanditgal 41-45, F Aug 27

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    Actually, I just live with my stepdad. My mom left us for her high school boyfriend and they moved to Vegas. He dumped her for younger woman and we laughed our ***** off when we...
    JeremyCooper JeremyCooper 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 31

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    Yep, I live with my mum....I'm unemployed and it's so difficult to find a job. I'm on welfare and buy my own food and when I have spare money I give that to my mum as a bit of rent...
    Dreamprojector Dreamprojector 18-21, F Sep 2

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    I'm surprised there are not more posts here. I don't STILL live with my parents. I've been living on my own for 10 years and a life crisis has forced me to move in with my father...
    piprimate piprimate 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 2

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    I have lived with a disability since birth (1980) in one form or another (Hydrocephalus, Hemiplegia (single side semi paralysis) which falls under the Cerebral Palsy umbrella...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Talking a bit with an EP friend earlier got me really thinking about things a bit. Android it just seems so unfair that I have to deal with the physical damage my body has gone...
    TheWomanYouHate TheWomanYouHate 31-35, F Aug 18

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    My relationship with my father stalled because of my mothers constant adultery, with his friends! I hardly saw him at all between ages eight and when I moved in with him at...
    Lecuyer90 Lecuyer90 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    I think my friend and room mate is a Sociopath. I have known her at a distance for roughly 4 years, and we (my boyfriend included) have lived together for about 6 months. So lets...
    allyjayx allyjayx 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Something precious was stolen from me. But I learned to accept it and live my life to the fullest. I can't erase the memory. On the other hand, it has made me a better person.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Aug 18

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    Relationship is a mirror. Wherever you are related with a person — a wife, a husband, a friend, a lover, an enemy — a mirror is there. The wife mirrors the husband. You can...
    wendu44 wendu44 18-21, F Aug 25

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    Keep Moving Forward Dont Wait For Tomorrow If You Want To Do Something In Your Life So Do It Now.."Dear Tomorrow Do Whatever You Want To Do.I Have Already Lived My Today & I Am Not...
    wendu44 wendu44 18-21, F Aug 25

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    Hey I just found this site. It sounds cliche but I thought I was alone. My man has 5 discs out had surgery and was paralyzed for three months after. We have only been together for...
    Onlythelonelt Onlythelonelt 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I lost my first car to my fiancé. He took it in 2011 when he left me. Also, I owe money to good friends because of him. So my friendship was rough, but I'm still good friends...
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    I can't even bear a car ride without it!
    Seblett Seblett 13-15, F Aug 19

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    I never smoked until last year; never even thought about it...... Ok....ok; slight lie there. My best friend smoked from a very early age and I was slightly jealous and envious...
    SarahTheHooker SarahTheHooker 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    This is an update from one of my posts about my bf and I moving in together and how aggravating and intrusive his mom was. Anyway, its been 4 months now that me and my bf have been...
    Slumbergirl92 Slumbergirl92 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    "Feels Like Forever" By: Of Mice and Men Did you ever contemplate when all was lost you hesitate and nothing seems the same? Have you ever hid your face, in such disgrace...
    Ashbarg Ashbarg 13-15, F Aug 23

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    I just want you to know that you are always remembered by me in a very special way. You're always in my prayers. Many people interact in our life. Some give us love & care...
    wendu44 wendu44 18-21, F Aug 25

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    As darkness comes here once again To steal away the light We gather once again for tales You just may die from fright Now settle in and gather round Take heed of what I say For...
    wendu44 wendu44 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    "When a girl thinks of her future with her boyfriend, it's normal but when the boy thinks of his future with his girlfriend, he's serious." Comment pls...
    wendu44 wendu44 18-21, F Aug 25

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    Stay in touch with those who matter to you, not because it’s convenient, but because they’re worth the extra effort. Remember, you don’t need a certain number of friends...
    wendu44 wendu44 18-21, F Aug 25

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    I seriously cannot!!! LOL I need them EVERYWHERE! On my way to school, on my way back! On public transports - Trams, Trains, Tubes When I'm walking :) Even when I'm shopping lol...
    watermelongirl watermelongirl 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    Back living with my parents after 5 years away.... Divorced and debts to pay. I love their help so I can pay off my debts and move on with my life but I really miss my independence...
    lilbirdydoll lilbirdydoll 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 2

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    where r u m there..... u can't see me..... u can't listen my voice.... u can't understand my feelings..... but i m incomplet without u....
    NivyaSurani NivyaSurani 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    “One-pointed intention means holding your attention to the intended outcome with such unbending purpose that you absolutely refuse to allow obstacles to consume and dissipate the...
    findmeholdmeloveme findmeholdmeloveme 18-21 6 days ago

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    so, my boyfriend and i have known each other for years, like about 12 years. we dated back in middle school in 6th grade and were on and off forever. one day we fell out of touch...
    ym15 ym15 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I have a mild form called "Dyspraxia" which mainly affects the coordination and that I develop skills later than most my peers would. I have some troubles with speaking, I don't...
    cyanidemaxwell cyanidemaxwell 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Stabbed right through the chest, empty and bitter.. Swollen, yet with little absorbtion of any blood flow. Deathly broken, so badly, never to be replaced or revived. Purely and...
    EstherKay EstherKay 22-25 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Music is my therapy and medication. I listen to music everyday.
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 8 hrs ago

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    I couldn't feel worse to know to not be capable to at least write qualitatively.
    psycopower90 psycopower90 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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