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I Live With Unbearable Shame

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 58 People

    I've Lived With...

    I grew up with an unbearable sense of shame about myself. More like gave birth to it, nurtured it, and let it become the suffocating monster that strangles me odd hours of the day. A simple walk to school is like the march of the dead. Imagine being 17 years old and having a...
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 8 Responses Mar 30, 2009

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    Time to Be Honest.

    I feel mentally ill. I'm thinking about cutting down on the time I spend here, it's making me more reserved an anti-social, not to mention it's also triggering stress and flash anger. I couldn't even sleep because of some ridiculous debate I had here last night. I don't even...
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 1 Response May 15, 2009

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    Shame At The Job

    I am a young woman from Latin America living and working in Sweden. Last Thursday I had a two days trip with my job, where all the people from different locations had a meeting and a Christmas party afterwards. We have drank a lot during the dinner and after eating I went to get...
    petala petala 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 19, 2011

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    Impending Doom...

      I've carried shame my whole life. Shame that has fueled my addictions and exasperated them. My current addiction is sex and love and an uncontrollable obsession to seek exterior validation at mine and others emotional expense. It's tormenting all of the time, but the...
    ClawingMyWayOut ClawingMyWayOut 36-40 4 Responses Mar 31, 2009

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    Everyone Say's It's Nothing, But I Don't Believe It

    I was born missing a finger on my right hand. It has made me quiet and withdrawn much of the time and I battle depression most of the time. Everybody says I make too much of it. But I can't let it go! And the doctor who delivered me cut a nerve in my face which makes me talk...
    LonelyGemini LonelyGemini 41-45 3 Responses Feb 20, 2010

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    At My Lifestyle...

    And also because of things that I have done wrong in my life. I know, I know, guilt is a wasted emotion but sometimes there are words I just want to say and I can't or I feel I can't and it burns a hole in my stomach and crushes me. I hate knowing that I wasn't there for someone...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Jun 19, 2011

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    I Don't Know Why...

    I don't know when it began, but I've always felt like the things I do are wrong.  Everything!  I feel...Dirty?  Stupid?  Disgusting?  Undeserving of all things good... I am ashamed of everything I do, I think, I feel, I am.
    moonlit1 moonlit1 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2009

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    This Is Hard To Talk About But ... The Shame Is Killing Me

    I live in deep shame for my childhood and all the sexual abuse-I went thru in silence -  that went on, and not one soul cared about me! I feel such deep guilt for the most minor of things that others would not even worry about. I feel shame and guilt over the way I let my great...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 8 Responses Apr 15, 2011

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    God Damn It.

    I'm beyond that sick, soothing emotional balm thinking about suicide can bring. I am starting to push beyond that into the realm of planning. My reasons aren't situational. I have the perfect life- I have a fiance who loves me, and I love him. He is my true love, my only...
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 7 Responses May 11, 2009

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    I'm scared that I have to leave my best friend behind once we go to college. She may be unusual to others but to me, she's like my twin sister. I value her more than my well-being...
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    As if im blind to how things are everytime i stop talkigng to this person my mood changes and im happy and believe in myself. Why is it that this person who doesnt really say much...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    To my father, my abuser for 25 years: I am writing to inform you that I know exactly who and what you are. Additionally, despite your many years of bullying & brainwashing...
    wowodeals wowodeals 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Ok so here's a brief summary of my situation. I've been in my current apartment for almost a year and the lease is up. During that time I've been living with the roommate from hell...
    stankboom22 stankboom22 22-25, T 3 days ago

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    Here is one batch of songs I love: 1. Our Generation by Sibel Redzep 2. Together by Demi Lovato 3. Love In Any Language by Sandi Patty 4. Love One Another by Amber 5. Let's Talk...
    loveismyfriend loveismyfriend 36-40, F 4 days ago

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    I have been dealing with this for awhile. It really just does not seem fair. I feel like no matter what I do it is wrong. So here is the story. About a year ago I moved into a...
    ButterflyKisses08 ButterflyKisses08 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Music defines my mood, ad my mood defines the music. I can't go past a day without listening to anything, addiction or just common ?
    SpanishCristian SpanishCristian 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    My best friend Olivia seems to be the only person who understands me and I feel myself around her. She is the main reason I haven't killed myself.
    Sanjana3612 Sanjana3612 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Ok... So I just watched this video of a couple of boys of a which religion I am not naming beat up this little boy because he was of a certain nationality (Again not naming) Now...
    KnowingKatie KnowingKatie 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I know I am only 12 but life is better already with no dad he has gone away for a week so it's just me and mommy
    littlenackedboy littlenackedboy 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Looking for guests for my podcast "The Incontinent Veteran." This is not an ABDL podcast, just incontinence support. I cannot post the link here but DM me if you would like to...
    archerstaley archerstaley 26-30, M Jun 26

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    Newest episode for podcast is up! I go over my incontinence management history and what I do now. Also on iTunes, stitcher, tunein, overcast, etc. http://theincontinentveteran.com...
    archerstaley archerstaley 26-30, M Jun 25

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    My Friend Tanner We have bean friends since kinergarden Then years Later Me And Him Had To Move I Moved to were i am now And he moved to colerado and i miss him very much
    JovanRaineHankinskenmore JovanRaineHankinskenmore 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 25

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    Can't find my headphones seriously about to die
    missrayrayk missrayrayk 13-15, F Jun 25

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    milind3012 milind3012 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 25

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    my best friend is one of the only people (if not THE only person) who truly understands the real me. not even my parents know me as well as he does. I'd be devastated if he died.
    Azeazal Azeazal 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 23

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    So that was like days ago me: I Mr*** I tease him with the Mr haha :P him: Hi Miss *** It seems that you wake only at night and sleep at day time me: don't judge if you don't...
    InLove000 InLove000 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    I think I'm better. And it's all of my friends who have made me better. I love them all so much, I can't even express it with words. I know that most of them will never see this...
    HidingInTheMusic HidingInTheMusic 13-15, F Jun 22

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    Be strong- that's what everyone says. What happens when the person you love is what makes you stronger and now they are told they are experiencing kidney failure on top of all the...
    lovewillkeepus2gether lovewillkeepus2gether 36-40, F Jun 22

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    Not necessarily in order... 1. The Same Deep Water as You - The Cure 2. True Happiness This Way Lies - The The 3. Cortez the Killer - Neil Young 4. My Timing is Off - eels 5. Time...
    samedeepwater samedeepwater 51-55, M Jun 22

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    We all share stories about ourselves and our lives as a way of getting to know each other. But each story is just one interpretation of events and never the complete truth, so...
    ILAMA2 ILAMA2 41-45, F Jun 20

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    rob pattinson - let me sign, Hayden - home by Saturday, Anna nalick - breathe, Amos lee - careless, I am a man of constant sorrow - soggy bottom boys, I will always love you...
    Leahtipeah Leahtipeah 16-17, F Jun 20

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    Both my spouse and I suffer from some chronic pain and depression, although his chronic pain is worse and more systemic. I have lower back issues and arthritis and he has ehlers...
    jabl61514 jabl61514 26-30, T Jun 18

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 18

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    Crywank - Hikikomori, Twenty One Pilots - Stressed Out, Modern baseball - The Weekend, Nirvana - Come As You Are, Red Hot Chili Peppers - Under the Bridge, Major Lazer - Jessica...
    StayAliveFriend StayAliveFriend 16-17, F Jun 17

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    She is too good to be true.
    Killerlemon Killerlemon 22-25, M Jun 17

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    I hate having to be in a house full of men right now they are so reckless it's like they get out of the shower and leave the floors all wet and then I fall, it's not the first time...
    IsMyStory IsMyStory 16-17, F Jun 16

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    I cant imagine my life without him, let alone the living stuffs
    AyuBDas AyuBDas 18-21, M Jun 15

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    my grandpa touches me when he thinks im asleep
    Jazmin01 Jazmin01 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 13

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    Heck Yea! Just forgot how it feels.
    001goodguy65 001goodguy65 46-50, M 1 Response Jun 12

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