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I Live With Unbearable Shame

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 58 People

    Impending Doom...

      I've carried shame my whole life. Shame that has fueled my addictions and exasperated them. My current addiction is sex and love and an uncontrollable obsession to seek exterior validation at mine and others emotional expense. It's tormenting all of the time, but the...
    ClawingMyWayOut ClawingMyWayOut 36-40 4 Responses Mar 31, 2009

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    Everyone Say's It's Nothing, But I Don't Believe It

    I was born missing a finger on my right hand. It has made me quiet and withdrawn much of the time and I battle depression most of the time. Everybody says I make too much of it. But I can't let it go! And the doctor who delivered me cut a nerve in my face which makes me talk...
    LonelyGemini LonelyGemini 41-45 3 Responses Feb 20, 2010

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    Time to Be Honest.

    I feel mentally ill. I'm thinking about cutting down on the time I spend here, it's making me more reserved an anti-social, not to mention it's also triggering stress and flash anger. I couldn't even sleep because of some ridiculous debate I had here last night. I don't even...
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 1 Response May 15, 2009

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    This Is Hard To Talk About But ... The Shame Is Killing Me

    I live in deep shame for my childhood and all the sexual abuse-I went thru in silence -  that went on, and not one soul cared about me! I feel such deep guilt for the most minor of things that others would not even worry about. I feel shame and guilt over the way I let my great...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 8 Responses Apr 15, 2011

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    I Don't Know Why...

    I don't know when it began, but I've always felt like the things I do are wrong.  Everything!  I feel...Dirty?  Stupid?  Disgusting?  Undeserving of all things good... I am ashamed of everything I do, I think, I feel, I am.
    moonlit1 moonlit1 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2009

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    At My Lifestyle...

    And also because of things that I have done wrong in my life. I know, I know, guilt is a wasted emotion but sometimes there are words I just want to say and I can't or I feel I can't and it burns a hole in my stomach and crushes me. I hate knowing that I wasn't there for someone...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Jun 19, 2011

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    Shame At The Job

    I am a young woman from Latin America living and working in Sweden. Last Thursday I had a two days trip with my job, where all the people from different locations had a meeting and a Christmas party afterwards. We have drank a lot during the dinner and after eating I went to get...
    petala petala 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 19, 2011

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    God Damn It.

    I'm beyond that sick, soothing emotional balm thinking about suicide can bring. I am starting to push beyond that into the realm of planning. My reasons aren't situational. I have the perfect life- I have a fiance who loves me, and I love him. He is my true love, my only...
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 7 Responses May 11, 2009

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    I've Lived With...

    I grew up with an unbearable sense of shame about myself. More like gave birth to it, nurtured it, and let it become the suffocating monster that strangles me odd hours of the day. A simple walk to school is like the march of the dead. Imagine being 17 years old and having a...
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 8 Responses Mar 30, 2009

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    Putting pen to paper and confessing my love is easy. Saying the words out loud is difficult and sometimes awkward for me. What if I say the wrong things? I always do... What's in...
    MyHeart4You MyHeart4You 46-50, F 2 hrs ago

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    im sorry i hurt my wife. she was a good woman. but i chose the easy way out by hurting her so she can hate me so it makes it easier. i know i broke the heart of a flawless woman...
    ElusiveF4I ElusiveF4I 26-30, M 7 hrs ago

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    I have hurt someone in a way that i can never make up for at least not in this life. I have never said the words either out loud or by writing them down. So ill do that here and...
    saint1123 saint1123 31-35, M 21 hrs ago

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    I m sorry ı hurt my sister by accusing her of me not passing a job entrance exam although ı could barely graduate thanks to her dedication to me, ı m sincerely sorry that...
    eunhaerealimnida eunhaerealimnida 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    https://youtu.be/Vrr3lRLjZ1Y
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 1 day ago

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    I'm 30 living with my parents. I don't give a flying f-uck, about that fact and about most other things.
    zarpanzur zarpanzur 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    I am a t-8 to t-12 paraplegic due to a spinal abscess
    Pittfan82 Pittfan82 31-35, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    "I live without breathing" - Shankaracharya
    thatwhichsees thatwhichsees 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    Famed country musician Charlie Daniels posted a blistering open-letter to Congress on his band’s Facebook page Monday, blasting the legislative body for what he said was a lack...
    Brooke01 Brooke01 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    By society's rules I don't deserve a wife due to the fact that I still live with my parent. Its hard to imagine anything else in my life. I'm caught up in the matrix. Matrix is...
    Noology19 Noology19 26-30 6 days ago

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    I have been married for 16 years, together 17. We married fairly young, and quickly. My husband is a good guy (overall)and there is no abuse or red flags. Though, there are...
    emk38 emk38 36-40, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I've posted about my CIDP diagnosis before but this is an update. I found out today that I will be able to start my treatment for this autoimmune disease next week. Each day, for...
    amariesimms amariesimms 41-45, F a week ago

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    I'm not sure how correct this is,,, but I heard 12% percent of the people that try meth 1 time quit or never do it again... 12%. = 5% of the men and 7% of the woman... my advice...
    LoV3KiLlSsLoWLy LoV3KiLlSsLoWLy 56-60, F 3 Responses Aug 22

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    I divorced in Feb 2014 and although I started dating very quickly, I had already checked out of my marriage approximately 1-2 years prior, so I felt I was ok to date. I met an...
    14nolookingback 14nolookingback 36-40, F Aug 21

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    As a Licensed Massage Therapist, using my muscles to help others with theirs, finding out that I have CIDP (chronic inflammatory Demyelinating Polyneuropathy) was crushing. I am...
    amariesimms amariesimms 41-45, F Aug 21

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    I'm going to just muse about what I wish I had going on in life... I want to do something that I feel is important. I thought that going to college was going to solve the trouble...
    milehighHeartbreak milehighHeartbreak 31-35, M Aug 21

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    And people often asks me if I live in Germany then. Okay. I can live with getting annoyed (smh)
    purpleaimee purpleaimee 13-15, F Aug 20

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    For my first year of college, I lived in a dorm room with two other girls. One of them was easy to live with because she went to bed at the same time I was used to going to bed...
    hiddenkitty hiddenkitty 18-21, F Aug 18

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    Growing up with a mild case of cerebral palsy was a challenge as I saw my twin sister do things that I wanted to do but I couldn't due to my disability. So, yes it was tough but it...
    Alexp3 Alexp3 16-17, F Aug 18

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    I rarely have the tv on but I always have music playing! I even fall asleep to it!
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 17

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    I'm by they not even sure where to begin. I feel I could write a book sometimes. I am 37 and very very in love with my husband of 14 years on his good days. His good days are...
    hopelessandsmiling hopelessandsmiling 36-40 Aug 17

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    ...but I would need lots of realllllllly large screen computers
    caddriss caddriss 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    I'm finding rhe nerve pain almost impossible the last 4 days I don't know what's happened. But the pain is traveling up my spinal chord in feels bigger and higher. now the lump...
    thesunshineparty thesunshineparty 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    Been awake every half hour with pain in my arms, struggled to get up and in my wheelchair 45 mins to take a shower and now im not going to work cos I cant push my chair
    wheels1972 wheels1972 41-45, M 3 Responses Aug 17

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    I live with him, but we don't do too much together. We've both wanted to play video games together for a while.. And We finally agreed on a game. Instead of playing with me, he is...
    DaughterOfMichael DaughterOfMichael 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    People may say that a man who lives with his mother is missing out on life, and I would agree, but the cohabitation is not to blame. It works but with effort of course. What I...
    hythloday hythloday 41-45, M Aug 16

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    I read this in the book 'Living with a PA man'.. it's a real/scarey/enlightening insight into the dynamics of the PA ...now I know it's actually both a relief, as I had no idea...
    Londonylady Londonylady 46-50, F Aug 16

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    Today I exploded with what I should call a friend. (My mom) She's not even my mom any more, she's a really selfish friend to have in my life and I can't wait to move out. All I...
    gwebb15 gwebb15 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I am one of those people who constantly needs to have my phone with me. Not so much for texting, I rarely text anyone. A lot of my phone is used to browse the web and to read. If I...
    Klong91 Klong91 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I finally got my phone fixed! Fwop!
    AshleyWCSloth AshleyWCSloth 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I have always been the care taker in the family; I am the youngest of 4. When my parents divorced my siblings went to live with my father and I stayed and took care on a mentally...
    roxyrolls roxyrolls 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I really want to. I see my friends having fun, living their lives with boyfriends and girlfriends and they seem to follow the idea of "life is short to be too serious" and I'm...
    ThatGirl290399 ThatGirl290399 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 12

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