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I Loath My Childhood

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    Loathe Is the Word!

    I had a horrible time growing up, not only because I was the scapegoat in my family, but I was ostracized among my peers because of being in an all-white school and being mixed-race.  What's worse, we lived in an all black neighborhood for a couple of years in my uncle's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 29, 2007

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    Growing Pains

    I grew up with a pretty rough and unstable childhood. My parents ended up in jail, so I lived with my grandma from 2-6, when I was adopted and sent to a rough boarding school, where young kids were beaten literally every day. (Real beatings, not just a slap/kick/punch around...
    Shinypuddle Shinypuddle 16-18, M Aug 3, 2007

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    My Childhood

    I loathe my childhood because I saw my parents marriage crumble. My dad, an ex-alcoholic with anger issues, and my mom, who suffers from depression and bi-polar disorder, would always battle it out as soon as I got home from school everyday it seemed. The fights were usually...
    FrozenOcean FrozenOcean 18-21, F Mar 23, 2012

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    The Worst Year Of My Childhood

     “Hey, we brought snacks. This is Rebecca, remember her from Junior High?”My friends were in the doorway. Of course I remember Rebecca. We were in 7th grade together when I lived in my old town. I had just changed schools to get away from the bullying I was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    Oh, Now You Want Me to Love You???

    Yeah, life as a kid sucked pretty bad.  It wasn't as bad as some I have read here, but we all have our own personal he11.  My childhood has shaped me into the cynical, untrusting recluse I am today. I grew up as a fat kid and everyone found it necessary to...
    Bruno Bruno 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 3, 2007

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    Painful Childhood

    I had a very bad childhood, and I just hate to even remember it. My parents always fought, and were so close to getting a divorce. My dad terribly hit me a few times when I was a kid, and once he even hit me about three times on my head, two times at my face, four times at my...
    HeartLove HeartLove 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 30, 2007

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    My parents put the "D" in dysfunctional family

     My father was a medical doctor, so all the kids and teachers at school assumed we were little rich kids. The truth is, he spent all his money on mistresses, partying, and the like, and ended up without enough to care for his wife and three children. My mother was not much...
    paulinlv paulinlv 51-55, M 2 Responses Jan 18, 2009

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    I Wish I Could Disappear Into Thin Air

    that's a part of me i don.t want to uncover, i feel if anyone knows my past they will hate me, or think I'm making things up. I try to keep away from people to shield myself, but at work, they've come to this conclusion that I'm some sort of proud *****. I take pills most of the...
    crimsongoddess crimsongoddess 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 22, 2008

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    Childhood

    When I was born, my dad yelled at the doctors and my mom, saying he didn't want me because I was a girl. He favors my brother, and he will talk to me. But does not prefer it. He has never really liked me, and I honestly don't know why. He has never been there for me or really...
    Abigailrose98 Abigailrose98 16-17, F Jun 24, 2013

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    Denial....

    By the time I was 25, I felt I had lived 2 lifetimes.  Partly because I never was really allowed to have a childhood and due to the abuse suffered during that time. I was raised by a Borderline Personality with alcoholism, all innocence is ******** away and I was forced...
    bonobabe bonobabe 31-35, F 6 Responses May 6, 2007

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    Would I Do It Again? Yeah, But Only If I Was Allowed A Gun..

    I hate that I can't remember a lot of positives about it, and that aren't that many photo's of me laying around having spent most of the time avoiding mirrors and my reflection.  The times I felt safe are pretty few and far between, and as I had it pointed out to me last night a...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F 1 Response May 4, 2012

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    Those With the Best Intentions

    My parents divoriced when i was a year old. They had a very bitter divorice lukily i was to young to remember it. my mother married a rich man when i was 3 years old. She didnt love him but she came from a poor mexican family and she was doing everything she could to give me and...
    lvtd lvtd 18-21 2 Responses Feb 25, 2009

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    Arguments

    As a child, I grew up in a very good environment, with a loving home, and my dad was a doctor and runned a jewelry place and our finance conditions were good and I had everything a child would ever need. When you looked at my family and I, u'd thing that were...
    HeartLove HeartLove 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 30, 2007

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    In Some Ways, Yes

    I loved my parents and siblings - but I never came home from school without hoping that Daddy had or would go to bed early, or that there wouldn't be any dinner-table fights that would make me sick to my stomach and prevent me from having a decent meal for dinner. Daddy sat at...
    MaryJanine MaryJanine 56-60, F May 20, 2013

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    Anger

    All I remember about my childhood is a lot of anger and fear...a lot of yelling. And now that I have grown up I have inherited that trait that I couldn't stand. I scare myself sometimes.
    ameeker ameeker 21-25, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    This One's For the Kids

    daddy tried to kill mommy, made me watch him make her try to eat her own vomit one day. i was like 5... then they divorced but still saw me on the weekends. In this time together he managed to call me the devil.. like seriously... then my mother was twisted in her own way from...
    QuincyArcher QuincyArcher 22-25 1 Response Jan 4, 2009

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    More Degenerate With Each Passing Day

    "What doesn't kill you can only make you stronger", such a cliche, but it rings true to many a people, in my case it's to the contrary. I was born in south asia, in a upper-middle-class family. Till the age of four; life consisted of playing with girl servants, waiting...
    umathena umathena 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 3, 2007

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    The Child No One Wanted

    when i was 2 my mom divorced my father. when i was 3.5 my mother remarried. my father kept my mother in court very often.  he stalked her.  he prank called her, etc. in my 4th year my half brother was born.  my mother and step-father took my father to court...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 9 Responses May 28, 2007

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    Related Experiences

    I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention...
    AlissaCupcakes AlissaCupcakes 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Back In my childhood this time of year, end of October beginning of November was the best time even rivaling Christmas because if you happen to be British it was the run up to...
    IF64 IF64 46-50, M 3 Responses Oct 26

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    When you go through so much pain, emotionally. It will affect your memory. I seriously can't remember my childhood, even parts of my childhood that I'm old enough to remember. Long...
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F Nov 16

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    Money&Material Wealth Can't Stop The Pain On The Inside- I was given any and everything I wanted as a child no matter the cost yet was never satisfied because "Hell was a place...
    FutureMaxiSurgeon FutureMaxiSurgeon 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    not some but all the memories of childhood were bad and dark ones..
    mahdiraza mahdiraza 16-17, M 2 Responses Oct 27

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    its true, I never got disciplined , i got abused i didn't get scolded, i was told i was nothing and never will be nothing and that im completely worthless..over time i started...
    LunarDream LunarDream 16-17, M 2 Responses Nov 12

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    I have struggled with major depression, as a direct result of complex high betrayal trauma, ever since I was a little girl. From the time I was 7 years old until the time I was 9...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 23 Responses a week ago

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    I miss the times. The times when we didn't have worries, or care about what people think. Life just seems so much better when your a kid. Because all my childhood I wanted to grow...
    AshCakes AshCakes 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    This is my teddy bear hehe yes I'm 27 years old and I still have a teddy. But he doesn't sleep with me he lives in my cupboard he is also roughly 27 years or even older any way...
    AladdinsCave AladdinsCave 26-30, M 8 Responses 5 days ago

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    Tomorrow I start an intense 8 week program at a local hospital. The program is for adult women who survived childhood trauma and abuse. I was sexually abused when I was 6 - 9 years...
    Etheros Etheros 46-50, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I grew up in a house with my dad, mom, brother and sister. But I did not have a family like other people. It seems like we were more like just 5 people living together. I am not...
    iamryland iamryland 16-17, F 16 hrs ago

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    I have tried and tried to be nice. He is hateful and mean. I heard he and his battleaxe are moving soon and I AM SOOOO HAPPY.
    Iyaha Iyaha 56-60, F Nov 2

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    Just found out the guy I am sleeping with is married. For awhile I had a nagging thought that he was lying to me. Yes him and I entered a NSA situation but we've had conversations...
    Gigilaugh Gigilaugh 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    A question came to my mind today. it's a really important question to me. Once upon a time, i was seven years old maybe? I can't even remember. I was with my big brother outside...
    algrm algrm 22-25, M Oct 28

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    I never really had much friends as a little kid. I remember one time I thought I made a friend. She invited me to the football field. Nobody ever invited me anywhere so I was...
    AwkwardDemon AwkwardDemon 16-17, M Oct 29

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    Growing up was pretty glorious It was painful too I had 8 sisters, 2 brothers and my mum I also had a crazy step-dad, paranoid schizophrenic Mormon My family apart from my step-dad...
    Ikonoclastia Ikonoclastia 41-45 1 Response Oct 29

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    I only remember the fights, the fear, and detailed night terrors ( brutal murders in my house, dead bodies in my basement) from age 2-6. I'm still creeped out and confused about...
    dragthewaters4 dragthewaters4 18-21, F Oct 29

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    i used to ask my mom "why didn't you invite me to your wedding"...
    kartik311 kartik311 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 31

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    Runescape omfg :( I miss it
    michaelnutty25 michaelnutty25 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 31

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    One time I was in the bathroom and i had to be like... Hmmm.. 6?7? I was in there and I started singing. I finished and walk out and my family kept telling me thank you for the...
    RogerThat1108 RogerThat1108 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 1

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    Trauma lasts a lifetime, I don't care what anyone or professionals say! there are triggers that are said, and it brings back memory flashes of what happened as a child. I'm doing...
    duhibrokeit duhibrokeit 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 1

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    I remember I walked out the bathroom with tissue coming out my jeans. It was embarrassing
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 2

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    My mom brought this microphone speaker box. My mom and brother test it out. It worked. They left I'm the only one in the room. I hold up the microphone and started singing whatever...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F Nov 2

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    Certainly can if they are traumatic enough. From my own experiences there are many things I tried to warn my children about! And to this day there are things I don't do,places I...
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M Nov 2

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    I wasn't born into a good family. If I was a child of one of the mansion clan it would have been better for me. My father was the "John Wayne" type. So he expected me to walk talk...
    ATroubledLife ATroubledLife 46-50, M Nov 2

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    When I was7 my mom had a friend over and they were talking about how old you should have to be to get married. And I told my mom's friend " shouldn't you be married?" And the look...
    wabbey wabbey 13-15 1 Response Nov 2

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    Oh, for sure. My dad wasn't around til i was about four and we never really bonded- i believe I had problems with guys as a result.
    papercastles papercastles 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 2

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    I dream big From a child to the present, I am kept dreaming that I grow to gigantic size. I would walk around town with my big feet and hear people screaming. I may even grow even...
    Profweird Profweird 18-21, M Nov 4

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    Past memerious have taken me back to the time when I first went to school for the first time .i was 5 years of age and it was 1985 when I first attended school at El Salam school...
    lostsouluk lostsouluk 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 7

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