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I Loath My Childhood

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    Would I Do It Again? Yeah, But Only If I Was Allowed A Gun..

    I hate that I can't remember a lot of positives about it, and that aren't that many photo's of me laying around having spent most of the time avoiding mirrors and my reflection.  The times I felt safe are pretty few and far between, and as I had it pointed out to me last night a...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F 1 Response May 4, 2012

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    Childhood

    When I was born, my dad yelled at the doctors and my mom, saying he didn't want me because I was a girl. He favors my brother, and he will talk to me. But does not prefer it. He has never really liked me, and I honestly don't know why. He has never been there for me or really...
    Abigailrose98 Abigailrose98 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 24, 2013

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    I Wish I Could Disappear Into Thin Air

    that's a part of me i don.t want to uncover, i feel if anyone knows my past they will hate me, or think I'm making things up. I try to keep away from people to shield myself, but at work, they've come to this conclusion that I'm some sort of proud *****. I take pills most of the...
    crimsongoddess crimsongoddess 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 22, 2008

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    Anger

    All I remember about my childhood is a lot of anger and fear...a lot of yelling. And now that I have grown up I have inherited that trait that I couldn't stand. I scare myself sometimes.
    ameeker ameeker 21-25, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    This One's For the Kids

    daddy tried to kill mommy, made me watch him make her try to eat her own vomit one day. i was like 5... then they divorced but still saw me on the weekends. In this time together he managed to call me the devil.. like seriously... then my mother was twisted in her own way from...
    QuincyArcher QuincyArcher 22-25 1 Response Jan 4, 2009

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    Painful Childhood

    I had a very bad childhood, and I just hate to even remember it. My parents always fought, and were so close to getting a divorce. My dad terribly hit me a few times when I was a kid, and once he even hit me about three times on my head, two times at my face, four times at my...
    HeartLove HeartLove 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 30, 2007

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    18 Year Nightmare.

    My childhood was an 18 year nightmare. I was physically and emotionally abused by both my parents. My father was a police officer but never held back from hitting or punching me. I never could do anything right and was never shown any affection. The worst occasion was when I was...
    tinatim tinatim 56-60, T 1 Response Jan 19, 2013

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    My Childhood

    I loathe my childhood because I saw my parents marriage crumble. My dad, an ex-alcoholic with anger issues, and my mom, who suffers from depression and bi-polar disorder, would always battle it out as soon as I got home from school everyday it seemed. The fights were usually...
    FrozenOcean FrozenOcean 18-21, F Mar 23, 2012

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    My parents put the "D" in dysfunctional family

     My father was a medical doctor, so all the kids and teachers at school assumed we were little rich kids. The truth is, he spent all his money on mistresses, partying, and the like, and ended up without enough to care for his wife and three children. My mother was not much...
    paulinlv paulinlv 51-55, M 2 Responses Jan 18, 2009

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    In Some Ways, Yes

    I loved my parents and siblings - but I never came home from school without hoping that Daddy had or would go to bed early, or that there wouldn't be any dinner-table fights that would make me sick to my stomach and prevent me from having a decent meal for dinner. Daddy sat at...
    MaryJanine MaryJanine 56-60, F May 20, 2013

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    Denial....

    By the time I was 25, I felt I had lived 2 lifetimes.  Partly because I never was really allowed to have a childhood and due to the abuse suffered during that time. I was raised by a Borderline Personality with alcoholism, all innocence is ******** away and I was forced...
    bonobabe bonobabe 31-35, F 6 Responses May 6, 2007

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    More Degenerate With Each Passing Day

    "What doesn't kill you can only make you stronger", such a cliche, but it rings true to many a people, in my case it's to the contrary. I was born in south asia, in a upper-middle-class family. Till the age of four; life consisted of playing with girl servants, waiting...
    umathena umathena 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 3, 2007

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    Oh, Now You Want Me to Love You???

    Yeah, life as a kid sucked pretty bad.  It wasn't as bad as some I have read here, but we all have our own personal he11.  My childhood has shaped me into the cynical, untrusting recluse I am today. I grew up as a fat kid and everyone found it necessary to...
    Bruno Bruno 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 3, 2007

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    Arguments

    As a child, I grew up in a very good environment, with a loving home, and my dad was a doctor and runned a jewelry place and our finance conditions were good and I had everything a child would ever need. When you looked at my family and I, u'd thing that were...
    HeartLove HeartLove 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 30, 2007

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    The Child No One Wanted

    when i was 2 my mom divorced my father. when i was 3.5 my mother remarried. my father kept my mother in court very often.  he stalked her.  he prank called her, etc. in my 4th year my half brother was born.  my mother and step-father took my father to court...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 10 Responses May 28, 2007

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    Those With the Best Intentions

    My parents divoriced when i was a year old. They had a very bitter divorice lukily i was to young to remember it. my mother married a rich man when i was 3 years old. She didnt love him but she came from a poor mexican family and she was doing everything she could to give me and...
    lvtd lvtd 18-21 2 Responses Feb 25, 2009

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    The Worst Year Of My Childhood

     “Hey, we brought snacks. This is Rebecca, remember her from Junior High?”My friends were in the doorway. Of course I remember Rebecca. We were in 7th grade together when I lived in my old town. I had just changed schools to get away from the bullying I was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    Loathe Is the Word!

    I had a horrible time growing up, not only because I was the scapegoat in my family, but I was ostracized among my peers because of being in an all-white school and being mixed-race.  What's worse, we lived in an all black neighborhood for a couple of years in my uncle's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 29, 2007

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    Growing Pains

    I grew up with a pretty rough and unstable childhood. My parents ended up in jail, so I lived with my grandma from 2-6, when I was adopted and sent to a rough boarding school, where young kids were beaten literally every day. (Real beatings, not just a slap/kick/punch around...
    Shinypuddle Shinypuddle 16-18, M Aug 3, 2007

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    mrinvader mrinvader 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 15

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    I've been bother with how depression as changed me as in laughter, meaning I use to love to laugh just for the sake of laughing and just get a kick out of someone how they find...
    onlytrusthim onlytrusthim 36-40, M Jul 10

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    I am 47 YO, and most of my adult life, I have struggled to find meaning, and make meaningful connections, with others. Even struggled to maintain good healthy relationship with my...
    Shinesaathlove Shinesaathlove 46-50, M 4 Responses Jul 1

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    this is me. damaged, broken me. there nothing special about me, im just an average women trying to muddle through life with ease. i was always a 'strange' child according to people...
    littlemiss052014 littlemiss052014 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 3

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    My child hood was a living hell...for me I was born in Hong Kong and my first home was a filthy uncomfortable house. Then I spent my years as a toddler and little kid in a house...
    Miserablechildhood Miserablechildhood 13-15, M Jun 28

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    Life of being a child is so much fun. I remember when I play outdoor games, volley ball,basketball,Chinese garter and many more.We play also hide and seek, climbing trees,biking...
    Lovesweetlove Lovesweetlove 26-30, F Jun 28

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    I had my first crush back in the year 2002 (omg :-) its a decade ago), she was my same neighborhood, same school and everything, it all started in the 7th standard. She...
    Anirudhbasutkar Anirudhbasutkar 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 28

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    I get embarrassed sometimes when I talk about my childhood to my friends. They have all had great childhoods and mine was just complete horrible. I have never went on family...
    UnknownNYC728 UnknownNYC728 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    Yup I did . I donno if 12 is still childhood but I wanna learn and learn but I don't wanna study that's what I wanna do for my childhood . Kinda lame for someone my age but Idc .
    DrowningInPain2 DrowningInPain2 13-15, F Jul 9

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    I don't think I've ever told anyone the full story of my childhood. Not even my closest friends. I know this post will be long and I know it's not as awful as some of the story's...
    caaarl caaarl 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 15

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    My mom throughout my childhood has had about ten boyfriends since my dad. She never got too close, never revealed secrets. She also never put me first. It's always been about her...
    naturalnobody naturalnobody 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 28

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    I just suppress most of my childhood. I don't remember a lot of it because I don't want to. I don't remember my life out of school very well.
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    There's so much that I missed out On growing up. When people ask me if I remembered that one show or movie or song or actor/actress from long ago I'm dumbfounded. 95% of what they...
    AquariusLife AquariusLife 26-30, F Jul 3

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    Well, as a child I was abused, both physically and mentally. My dad beat me and said horrible things to me, my mom said horrible things and slapped me a lot, my brother choked me...
    hannahgus hannahgus 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    From my mother being in the hospital for a mental breakdown. My father, brother and cousin had their fun molesting me and my sister. This lasted well for my father they got...
    ladybugiswithmealways ladybugiswithmealways 51-55, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    From my mother being in the hospital for a mental breakdown. My father, brother and cousin had their fun molesting me and my sister. This lasted well for my father they got...
    ladybugiswithmealways ladybugiswithmealways 51-55, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I was a very smiley happy child all the time and I loved animals, but things changed as I got older I miss my childhood:/
    LightenSky LightenSky 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    Things must have happened to me when I was a kid, there are periods where I can't remember anything about my childhood.
    jarret1234 jarret1234 51-55, M 2 Responses Jul 15

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    Recently I've been re-experiencing really powerful childhood memories. I'm not sure what triggers it, but it's nice.
    lefft lefft 31-35, M Jul 16

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    ....I'm not so sure actually!!!! My childhood was the 70's. so we had stuff like the Bee Gees. The Sweet. Marc Bolan. The Osmonds. David Essex. David Cassidy.........
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M Jul 16

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    Its been 24 years now.I have had a good life,but what i miss the most of all these years now is my childhood. Especially early teenage,it was so much fun riding bicycles,walking...
    certifiednaughtyness certifiednaughtyness 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 17

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    My Mam ruined my childhood as a drug addict and bows its taking its toll on me even though shes 5+ years clean
    amyf98 amyf98 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't think it's healthy to continually blame our parents for how we turn out. They may have played significantly influential roles, but constant blame is just an excuse to...
    immobilise immobilise 31-35, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Well umm don't know how to start, but I am currently happily married 27 and still think about my childhood crush. We met when I was 8 we were in the same school / grade but not...
    indigo1987 indigo1987 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    Home sweet hell.... Still to this day I have horrible nightmares from my childhood my mother was a typical single working mother who went to church and raised us well so everyone...
    Forbiddenkisses Forbiddenkisses 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Probably the most embarrassing moment of my childhood that still haunts me to this day, was when i was 5 and i couldn't sleep one night so I got up to go to my parents bedroom. I...
    DatRandomGinger DatRandomGinger 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    so much pain and cruelty haunted my childhood I'm honestly surprised I didn't starve to death when I was very little or got killed when my mums friend got mad at me when they were...
    BlueLanternDodgerBlake BlueLanternDodgerBlake 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I started going to "Open Gym" with a friend in middle school at a church. At first it was just an air conditioned hang out place that happened to be run by church people. Slowly...
    scurvadelic scurvadelic 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    You must understand, hatefulness of religion is not hatred if the people of that religion, not in the slightest. It's simply a strong dislike of the philosophy or acts committed in...
    SamJanowiak SamJanowiak 13-15, M Jul 1

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    There was this guy who rode the same bus I did to class and I was completely mesmerized by him. I thought he was the most beautiful person I've ever seen, but I only talked to him...
    meagenator meagenator 16-17, F Jul 18

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