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I Loath My Childhood

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    Childhood

    When I was born, my dad yelled at the doctors and my mom, saying he didn't want me because I was a girl. He favors my brother, and he will talk to me. But does not prefer it. He has never really liked me, and I honestly don't know why. He has never been there for me or really...
    Abigailrose98 Abigailrose98 13-15, F Jun 24, 2013

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    Denial....

    By the time I was 25, I felt I had lived 2 lifetimes.  Partly because I never was really allowed to have a childhood and due to the abuse suffered during that time. I was raised by a Borderline Personality with alcoholism, all innocence is ******** away and I was forced...
    bonobabe bonobabe 31-35, F 6 Responses May 6, 2007

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    Growing Pains

    I grew up with a pretty rough and unstable childhood. My parents ended up in jail, so I lived with my grandma from 2-6, when I was adopted and sent to a rough boarding school, where young kids were beaten literally every day. (Real beatings, not just a slap/kick/punch around...
    Shinypuddle Shinypuddle 16-18, M Aug 3, 2007

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    In Some Ways, Yes

    I loved my parents and siblings - but I never came home from school without hoping that Daddy had or would go to bed early, or that there wouldn't be any dinner-table fights that would make me sick to my stomach and prevent me from having a decent meal for dinner. Daddy sat at...
    MaryJanine MaryJanine 56-60, F May 20, 2013

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    I Wish I Could Disappear Into Thin Air

    that's a part of me i don.t want to uncover, i feel if anyone knows my past they will hate me, or think I'm making things up. I try to keep away from people to shield myself, but at work, they've come to this conclusion that I'm some sort of proud *****. I take pills most of the...
    crimsongoddess crimsongoddess 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 22, 2008

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    Those With the Best Intentions

    My parents divoriced when i was a year old. They had a very bitter divorice lukily i was to young to remember it. my mother married a rich man when i was 3 years old. She didnt love him but she came from a poor mexican family and she was doing everything she could to give me and...
    lvtd lvtd 18-21 2 Responses Feb 25, 2009

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    My parents put the "D" in dysfunctional family

     My father was a medical doctor, so all the kids and teachers at school assumed we were little rich kids. The truth is, he spent all his money on mistresses, partying, and the like, and ended up without enough to care for his wife and three children. My mother was not much...
    paulinlv paulinlv 51-55, M 2 Responses Jan 18, 2009

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    My Childhood

    I loathe my childhood because I saw my parents marriage crumble. My dad, an ex-alcoholic with anger issues, and my mom, who suffers from depression and bi-polar disorder, would always battle it out as soon as I got home from school everyday it seemed. The fights were usually...
    FrozenOcean FrozenOcean 18-21, F Mar 23, 2012

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    Anger

    All I remember about my childhood is a lot of anger and fear...a lot of yelling. And now that I have grown up I have inherited that trait that I couldn't stand. I scare myself sometimes.
    ameeker ameeker 21-25, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    Would I Do It Again? Yeah, But Only If I Was Allowed A Gun..

    I hate that I can't remember a lot of positives about it, and that aren't that many photo's of me laying around having spent most of the time avoiding mirrors and my reflection.  The times I felt safe are pretty few and far between, and as I had it pointed out to me last night a...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F 1 Response May 4, 2012

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    Arguments

    As a child, I grew up in a very good environment, with a loving home, and my dad was a doctor and runned a jewelry place and our finance conditions were good and I had everything a child would ever need. When you looked at my family and I, u'd thing that were...
    HeartLove HeartLove 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 30, 2007

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    This One's For the Kids

    daddy tried to kill mommy, made me watch him make her try to eat her own vomit one day. i was like 5... then they divorced but still saw me on the weekends. In this time together he managed to call me the devil.. like seriously... then my mother was twisted in her own way from...
    QuincyArcher QuincyArcher 22-25 1 Response Jan 4, 2009

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    The Child No One Wanted

    when i was 2 my mom divorced my father. when i was 3.5 my mother remarried. my father kept my mother in court very often.  he stalked her.  he prank called her, etc. in my 4th year my half brother was born.  my mother and step-father took my father to court...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 10 Responses May 28, 2007

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    Loathe Is the Word!

    I had a horrible time growing up, not only because I was the scapegoat in my family, but I was ostracized among my peers because of being in an all-white school and being mixed-race.  What's worse, we lived in an all black neighborhood for a couple of years in my uncle's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 29, 2007

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    The Worst Year Of My Childhood

     “Hey, we brought snacks. This is Rebecca, remember her from Junior High?”My friends were in the doorway. Of course I remember Rebecca. We were in 7th grade together when I lived in my old town. I had just changed schools to get away from the bullying I was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    Painful Childhood

    I had a very bad childhood, and I just hate to even remember it. My parents always fought, and were so close to getting a divorce. My dad terribly hit me a few times when I was a kid, and once he even hit me about three times on my head, two times at my face, four times at my...
    HeartLove HeartLove 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 30, 2007

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    Oh, Now You Want Me to Love You???

    Yeah, life as a kid sucked pretty bad.  It wasn't as bad as some I have read here, but we all have our own personal he11.  My childhood has shaped me into the cynical, untrusting recluse I am today. I grew up as a fat kid and everyone found it necessary to...
    Bruno Bruno 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 3, 2007

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    More Degenerate With Each Passing Day

    "What doesn't kill you can only make you stronger", such a cliche, but it rings true to many a people, in my case it's to the contrary. I was born in south asia, in a upper-middle-class family. Till the age of four; life consisted of playing with girl servants, waiting...
    umathena umathena 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 3, 2007

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    Related Experiences

    As far as I can go through my childhood memories I can remember the first one… just feeling… fear. My childhood was full of it. Scared of dark, of sleeping in my own bed, of...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F Apr 11

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    I've got a childhood friend mark we were the best he used to defend me when his sister hit me we took care of each other, once i have got a little brain problem in maths mum...
    Yasmin9 Yasmin9 13-15, F Mar 28

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    i still watch the cartoons that i watched in my childhood as i had a very awesome childhood . It just brings joy to me and i have nice dreams about playing with my friends . I don...
    manan98k manan98k 13-15, M Apr 11

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    i still watch the cartoons that i watched in my childhood as i had a very awesome childhood . It just brings joy to me and i have nice dreams about playing with my friends . I don...
    manan98k manan98k 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 11

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    i still watch the cartoons that i watched in my childhood as i had a very awesome childhood . It just brings joy to me and i have nice dreams about playing with my friends . I don...
    manan98k manan98k 13-15, M Apr 11

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    I have read so many sad and disturbing histories on here, it seems almost normal now to have been abused, misused and traumatised in childhood and beyond. I am lucky. I had a nice...
    Gladez Gladez 36-40, F Mar 24

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    When I was small :- • I'd put my arms in my shirt and told people I lost my arms • Would restart the video game whenever I knew I was going to lose • Had that one pen...
    esteem29 esteem29 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I blanked out a lot of my childhood & really only remember small parts. Which is interesting because I remember all of the weird spiritual things that happened....
    zbabi3 zbabi3 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I managed to forget all of my bad childhood memories, until a few months back when they started resurfacing in my dreams, so now not only do I have to deal with these memories, I...
    xMina97x xMina97x 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I don't know why, but recently, my mind has been drifting away A LOT thinking about my childhood. Sometimes it scares me, because I seem to remember certain moments too very well...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    im yeah starting t thnk being happy even for a day its a curse to me .upto wen i was 8 i was the happiest child ever my parents me like an egg ,after that thats wen al hell broke...
    kesinah kesinah 22-25, F Mar 29

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    I've always been insightful, having spent much of my youth chronically trapped in my overly analytic mind. Through the years I began to manifest this introspective process outwards...
    danii92 danii92 18-21, F Apr 2

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    Being on the countryside on a swing in a tree. playing with my cousins hide and seek all night long. I had a pleasant childhood.
    Cristianpellicier Cristianpellicier 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    The sky was milky gray and the ocean was fierce. The light dappled through the clouds. He stood in a circle of four other friends, skateboard underfoot and as aloof as the azure...
    streck32 streck32 26-30, F Apr 5

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    So with the weather getting nicer this morning I was having my coffee, and a memory from my childhood came to mind. When I was 8-10 years old my great grandma use to live near a...
    Slashrattlenroll Slashrattlenroll 41-45, M 3 Responses Apr 8

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    One of my childhood heroes passed today. I've been a huge professional wrestling fans as far back as I can remember. The Ultimate Warrior had that wildness and energy that as a kid...
    Royced45 Royced45 36-40, M Apr 9

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    My mom drank through my entire childhood and would take me to house parties and lock me in the bathroom or get anyone she could to babysit me. Including disgusting men. I was...
    Purplesloths Purplesloths 18-21, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=plmqMMWIPjw
    Trothar Trothar 18-21 Mar 26

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    It is rarely requited, and the most agitating thing is to be denied of an emotion that requires another soul to enjoy it with. It's like having a picnic for two all planned out...
    NightLark NightLark 22-25, M Mar 30

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    When I was a kid I used to think that all dogs were male and all cats were female. I also thought 3rd place was better than 1st because it was a bigger number. Lol
    Venturawhite Venturawhite 26-30, M Mar 21

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    It's like a void where there had to be actual feelings. I s suffered and still suffer alone, far from home, trying to find myself a way in my life. So, basically, the only persons...
    suns3ta suns3ta 18-21, F Mar 22

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    I do I reamber all the fun I had with my dad until he left
    mariehere23 mariehere23 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    I was abandoned by my mother at a young age. I'm sure this has affected the person I've become
    lonelyCPA lonelyCPA 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    I miss when I had no worries and boys had cooties.
    Kayleer18 Kayleer18 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    I have just watched this film,Silent House and it really triggered a lot of bad memories.Like a lot of them for all of that dont know i have been abused as a child by my...
    SammyLautner SammyLautner 13-15, F Mar 23

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    A Decision I Made... Years Ago. To have and to hold from this day forward. Sept 15, 2001 on this date I informed my spouse and said "I was going to transition into a woman, many...
    Trisha60ts Trisha60ts 61-65, T 3 Responses Mar 24

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    and i just can't stop thinking about it..
    AlbertOlami AlbertOlami 22-25, M Mar 24

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    I have known Ryan since i was in third grade. (21 years ago!) I had a crush on him from third grade to ninth. Till i moved to Texas. I recently found him on facebook. I thought of...
    Wittygeek02 Wittygeek02 31-35, F Mar 24

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    We had to go to school barefoot, and weren't allowed to wear shoes to school, and loved it,but in the boarding school, we didn't have to wear pyjamas and slept in the nude, which...
    barefootb barefootb 46-50 Mar 25

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    The smell of rain, i used to live on top of a mountain and it always smelled like that
    anovasiangel anovasiangel 13-15, F Mar 25

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    My story is not as bad as some of the others I have read. I was bullied through the ages of 6-12. For the most ridiculous reasons too. First: I have a big nose. : ) I'm sure you...
    hellcat88 hellcat88 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I was diagnosed with depression at eight years old and have lived with it in such a way that it has crippled nearly every aspect of my life. I have never been on medication to help...
    Scorpio018 Scorpio018 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 26

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    I have came to complete acceptance that depression will likely always be apart of me., a piece of me I carry through my days here as an earthling . This is not me saying, hey I...
    Allissaxxx Allissaxxx 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 28

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    As a child I suffered from Exploding Head Syndrome.
    needlessthings needlessthings 31-35, M Mar 28

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    I wish I could have had someone to hug me and tell me everything was gonna be all right as I got older, but instead I suffered thinking the scars inside would never heal. Now I...
    Boo37 Boo37 13-15, F