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I Locked My Real Self Away For 9 Years

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    Missing22Aquarius Missing22Aquarius 18-21, F Oct 10, 2013

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    When I was younger I decided that after My parents got divorced I wouldn't survive. I had wanted to die for years, when I was just four I wanted to just die, and I prayed for it all the time. I had an amazing memory, but punched holes in memories I didn't like or thought were...
    Missing22Aquarius Missing22Aquarius 18-21, F Mar 24, 2012

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    it started when i was 9. I dont know how to get out from it. I think im pulling my boyfiend down with me. we dated for 2.5yrs now. I even get confused about staying with him or not...
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    Each week. But poor cant. And employers despise my history. So poor stays. Until a lottery won.
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    My story isn't as bad as most people's but I still suffer from it so.... When I was ten years old my parents started fighting a lot. More than ever. They threw things. yelled...
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