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I Locked My Real Self Away For 9 Years

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    Missing22Aquarius Missing22Aquarius 18-21, F Oct 10, 2013

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    When I was younger I decided that after My parents got divorced I wouldn't survive. I had wanted to die for years, when I was just four I wanted to just die, and I prayed for it all the time. I had an amazing memory, but punched holes in memories I didn't like or thought were...
    Missing22Aquarius Missing22Aquarius 18-21, F Mar 24, 2012

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