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I Look Forward to Death

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    A Better Tomorrow

    I've been struggling with depression for over ten years now. I started having suicidal thoughts in middle school, and have always barely kept them at bay. I just don't have the motivation to do anything about it when I actually want to off myself.I'm a very spiritual person; I...
    Torcularis Torcularis 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 4, 2013

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    I look forward to death

    as a man at an oasis looks forward to arriving at another oasis.
    Venturawhite Venturawhite 26-30, M Mar 21, 2014

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    Death

    I was on a motorcycle coming back from seeing my  brother in the hospital around 250 miles from my house.The weather changed quickly before the storm hit the temp dropped around 15 degrees.I wasn't prepared no rain suit . Soaked kept riding stopped for fuel couldn't make my...
    broken69 broken69 51-55, M 2 Responses Aug 28, 2009

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    I am my own parasite.

    I dont need a host to live. we feed off of eachother. we can share our endorphins. look on the bright side is suicide. lost eyesight im on your side. angel left wing, right wing, broken wing. lack of iron and/or sleeping
    fuga3i fuga3i 16-17, F Jun 13

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    not in a bad or suicidal way

    but in a curious and fascinating way just to see what truly happens and what it fells like to physically die
    chuckzares chuckzares 26-30, M Dec 4, 2014

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    I can't believe I'm looking forward to my own

    death. You might think I have a lot of living left to do because of my age but the truth is I'm ready to go. I pray everyday to be taken away from this life and brought up to heaven so I can be with my son again. I miss him so much. Since his passing I've lost everything. My...
    goombata72 goombata72 41-45, M 2 Responses May 4, 2014

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    No Fear

    I believe that we all have a predestined time to be born and we are allotted X number of years in the beginning. I know there is nothing i can do to change this so therefore I do not fear death. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 8 Responses Jun 6, 2011

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    All Things Will Eventually Perish But That Is The Beauty Of It.

    I wait patently for you to embrace me in your cold harsh reality that causes so much fear. How and when I die I care not for I yearn to know what happens after you kiss me softly. Is there anything after your lingering cold lips leave?
    LightYagami LightYagami 18-21, M Aug 19, 2012

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    Death Is Peace

    I remember several thousand past lives and while I can't tell what the next will bring I miss the peace and tranquility that is being dead.
    jehova jehova 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 12, 2012

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    only because it might be another chance to see

    my father who has already passed
    feoxy feoxy 18-21, F 2 Responses May 4, 2014

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    Well like, sometimes more

    than others but I always do. That doesn't always mean I want to end it all. It just means when it happens I have things to look forward to and things I won't miss here. But I still love living and I'm afraid to die but yea..
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    As Ever

    It's always nice to meet an old friend.
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 17, 2009

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    I Don't

    That is the biggest unknown to me. What is going to happen to me when i die? I have no idea, and that isn't something i want to really find out to fast.
    Arorin Arorin 22-25, M 7 Responses Dec 17, 2009

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    The Only Way Out

    I feel like it's the only way to permanently set my soul free from this invisible purgatory in my sick mind.  
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 2, 2009

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    I don't fear my death. My hope is I maintain a vital quality of life until the end such that one moment I am here and a moment later, the hereafter.
    Wm4eroticfunwf Wm4eroticfunwf 46-50, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    throughout my life i have been pushed down, kicked repetitively, fought to get back up only to be knocked down again. life is strange for me sometimes. the more i want something...
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 31-35, M 3 hrs ago

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    homeless people are so beautiful to me, in there time of need with no more than a few dimes in a cup,they still find it in them to look up to the better of society and say...
    miimii0069 miimii0069 26-30, F 3 hrs ago

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    I don't know how old I was but I was swimming with a friend at a hotel in Wisconsin and she was dunking me in the pool for fun but she would hold me down under water for quite a...
    xxemogirlxx xxemogirlxx 22-25, F 3 hrs ago

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    My name is Zoya, I have always been different than most growing up. Everyone always has that one best friend they grew up with and never part. But not me. You see, I prefer to be...
    Zster3 Zster3 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I am looking for females to tickle me!
    fanoftickle355 fanoftickle355 18-21, M 4 hrs ago

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    I am looking for a online mistress/dominator
    mjlay83 mjlay83 31-35, M 4 hrs ago

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    The Lazarus Effect Manipulation.. Greetings everyone how has everyone been? me? im feeling well almost like I've won the lottery!. :) Ok so this is a little flashback, during...
    icey1 icey1 22-25, M 5 hrs ago

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    When using one of those dating apps where you swipe and swipe pictures, 80% or more has this icy look. I am not even sure if id call it a serious look, it is just kinda flat, icy...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M 5 hrs ago

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    It was many years ago, yet I still remember the experience vividly. I was ''code blue'' for two minutes. I felt a very peaceful floating experience as I looked down on my body...
    Olivia1962 Olivia1962 51-55, F 6 hrs ago

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    I feel like it's a bad thing.The better they look, the more i care what they think about me. I need to change, don't i? But idk how to.
    opiumm opiumm 16-17, F 8 hrs ago

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    I am looking for a mate. I'm looking for a female wolf therian I'm OK with long distance
    crimsonpaw11 crimsonpaw11 16-17, M 8 hrs ago

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    I'm looking for someone who won't cheat who will be good to me who will care about me I'm 18 and I'm looking for someone is a girl!-zack
    zackisepiclyaweosme zackisepiclyaweosme 26-30, M 8 hrs ago

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    Hi! I'm 16 and a male. I'm looking for a female on here (I'm open to any age up to around 25) to swap pictures or talk to. Send me a message or comment if you're interested. I'm...
    FunLover67 FunLover67 16-17, M 14 hrs ago

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    They say that just took make me feel better about myself when in reality, looks matter more than everything in the society we live in
    KidNova45 KidNova45 18-21, M 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    It's true, I do not fear death. What I fear is breaking my mothers heart if I die before she does.
    moonchild669 moonchild669 18-21, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I don't know if is just me but I do think about death and what would happen if I did die !! My story I got in trouble like big trouble and someone found me when I was trying to...
    livvie22 livvie22 13-15, F 23 hrs ago

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    I think about death as very normal thing and loves to have death.. In a way it's way to get free from everything and move on from this world full of mess.. The fact is death is...
    Ravidesai Ravidesai 41-45, M 1 day ago

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    i wonder about what happens after death. im a christian and i dont know about heaven and hell, is that wrong??? im starting to think that our soul just, explores after death
    kyanitestone186 kyanitestone186 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I'm not nervous about being dead. I'm more nervous about the process of dying. I've always hoped mine would be quick and painless but I know we can't all have that. Death is...
    Allforaview Allforaview 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I just want this to go away. Back in January I lost the group of friends I had been extremely close with for the last 4 years. That was very hard for me. I spent weeks in a...
    juli123 juli123 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    We all going to die one day… Why do we act as if we will live forever? Forever make love? Forever stay young and strong? Is there an infinite amount of chances to try again and...
    QueenMargot QueenMargot 36-40, F 2 days ago

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    Just got in an hour ago. My boo is here with me and were going eat some Asian soup with chicken dumplings and watch the BET awards tonight. We are using plastic disposable utensils...
    Outofeden Outofeden 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    I owe my life to someone somebody famous. On August 3rd 2002 I was in my hometown Palm Springs California. I was on one of the beaches and I was with my grandparents. I wanted to...
    sarahhoek sarahhoek 18-21, F 10 Responses 3 days ago

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    I practice Buddhism so I want to believe I will be reincarnated - not sure if it really happens but if it does I will move a little bit forward on the scale of enlightenment- every...
    blonde10 blonde10 36-40, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    June 12, 2015 I went to the movies with my sister & her 2 youngest kids the last thing I remember before coming too in the ICU. 12 hours later was watching the big dinosaurs play...
    msmarch13 msmarch13 31-35 4 days ago

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    i cried over shinjiro aragaki's death in persona 3. and almost every death in dangan ronpa as well... i mean they were pretty heartbreakingly sad tbh
    bromaeda bromaeda 13-15, T 4 days ago

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    I think I have cried about more fictional character deaths then I have real deaths.
    ThatGirlIsPoison23 ThatGirlIsPoison23 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    I fear death. I fear dying especially because I'm a woman. In the world that I'm born into, women are the slaves of men. Women are mere objects for the fulfillment of a man's...
    Vivianne18 Vivianne18 18-21, F 6 days ago