I Look Forward to Death

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    Well like, sometimes more

    than others but I always do. That doesn't always mean I want to end it all. It just means when it happens I have things to look forward to and things I won't miss here. But I still love living and I'm afraid to die but yea..
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 4, 2014

    The Only Way Out

    I feel like it's the only way to permanently set my soul free from this invisible purgatory in my sick mind.  
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Sep 2, 2009

    A Better Tomorrow

    I've been struggling with depression for over ten years now. I started having suicidal thoughts in middle school, and have always barely kept them at bay. I just don't have the motivation to do anything about it when I actually want to off myself.I'm a very spiritual person; I...
    Torcularis Torcularis
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 4, 2013

    only because it might be another chance to see

    my father who has already passed
    feoxy feoxy
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 4, 2014

    Death

    I was on a motorcycle coming back from seeing my  brother in the hospital around 250 miles from my house.The weather changed quickly before the storm hit the temp dropped around 15 degrees.I wasn't prepared no rain suit . Soaked kept riding stopped for fuel couldn't make my...
    broken69 broken69
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Aug 28, 2009

    No Fear

    I believe that we all have a predestined time to be born and we are allotted X number of years in the beginning. I know there is nothing i can do to change this so therefore I do not fear death. 
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    8 Responses Jun 6, 2011

    I am my own parasite.

    I dont need a host to live. we feed off of eachother. we can share our endorphins. look on the bright side is suicide. lost eyesight im on your side. angel left wing, right wing, broken wing. lack of iron and/or sleeping
    fuga3i fuga3i
    16-17, F
    Jun 13, 2015

    I can't believe I'm looking forward to my own

    death. You might think I have a lot of living left to do because of my age but the truth is I'm ready to go. I pray everyday to be taken away from this life and brought up to heaven so I can be with my son again. I miss him so much. Since his passing I've lost everything. My...
    goombata72 goombata72
    41-45, M
    2 Responses May 4, 2014

    not in a bad or suicidal way

    but in a curious and fascinating way just to see what truly happens and what it fells like to physically die
    chuckzares chuckzares
    31-35, M
    Dec 4, 2014

    All Things Will Eventually Perish But That Is The Beauty Of It.

    I wait patently for you to embrace me in your cold harsh reality that causes so much fear. How and when I die I care not for I yearn to know what happens after you kiss me softly. Is there anything after your lingering cold lips leave?
    LightYagami LightYagami
    18-21, M
    Aug 19, 2012

    I Don't

    That is the biggest unknown to me. What is going to happen to me when i die? I have no idea, and that isn't something i want to really find out to fast.
    Arorin Arorin
    22-25, M
    7 Responses Dec 17, 2009

    I look forward to death

    as a man at an oasis looks forward to arriving at another oasis.
    Venturawhite Venturawhite
    26-30, M
    Mar 21, 2014

    Death Is Peace

    I remember several thousand past lives and while I can't tell what the next will bring I miss the peace and tranquility that is being dead.
    jehova jehova
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jul 12, 2012

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