I Look In The Mirror And Hate What I See

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    I Hate Myself

    I'm uncomfortable with my self and my appearance I'm unhappy and I don't deserve this body.
    SkyBeauty2525 SkyBeauty2525
    16-17
    Mar 14, 2011

    I've never been a mean person to anyone on

    purpose but I can be nasty to myself. Very nasty. I've been glancing in the mirror and vehemently spitting comments about how I **** everything up ALL the time. How I am a twit and a loser. Why would anyone want to be around me? I've been bleeding misery from my pours and it...
    sumsmit sumsmit
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    Apr 27, 2014

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