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I Lost a Child

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    We Did Nothing Wrong...

    I was 32 weeks pregnant, I was driving our car to a friends house around 930 at night with my husband in the passenger seat. We didn't have the radio up loud, we were just enjoying eachothers company when all I saw was headlights. A man swerved into our lane and hit us head on...
    Hughes3313 Hughes3313 22-25 1 Response Sep 1, 2013

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    I lost my son before I

    even knew I was pregnant... The first I knew about him was when I woke up bleeding and in terrible pain. I think about him every day. I love you.
    messinghaml messinghaml 18-21, F Jun 13

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    I was dating a woman,

    and I loved her. She got pregnant, and I proposed. She told her mother, who in the name of Jesus, made her have a miscarriage, because I come from a Law Enforcement and Military Family. She shoved her daughter down the porch steps. Kicked her screaming, that if she has a...
    Berzerker82 Berzerker82 31-35, M May 30

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    I Lost A Child

    Even thought I was raped and convieced a son and carried him full term! But God had other plan's for my son. On his tenth day of being born my son passed away in his sleep. My beautiful baby boy went in his sleep after having his feeding time and he feel asleep! when I work up...
    bluerose82 bluerose82 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 24, 2013

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    February 17 2000- Early on this morning,

    two police officers showed up at the club I was dancing at(don't judge me!) and ask "Are you the mother of J------ Martin-Zecharias?". That was my 5 year old daughter. I said I was and they told me to throw some clothes on and come with them. "An ambulance was called to your home...
    CocoaBelle CocoaBelle 41-45, F 2 Responses May 24

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    I was depressed all the time a mother of toe

    and one on the way I felt lost I had a home And husband a car a boat a family.. No reason I know now to be depressed I lost my 7 month old son he died in bed with my husband a freak accident who was blamed he went crazy beat me left me for my cousin he ended up In jail now he is...
    laceykight laceykight 31-35, F Apr 13, 2014

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    Yes

    I wrote this b4, but when I deleted my account, it left, I want to share my story with this name, but its too painful to write it all again, so I will cheat, and copy and paste.I was not like the other girls my age, I didn't want to be a mom, I didn't want to have kids, I wanted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 13, 2013

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    Gone In the blink of An Eye.

    I came to Iraq in spring 2004 to manage a hazardous waste program for the military. I went home on R&R in January 2005. I returned to Iraq in late January and my wife gave me the news in Febuary that she was pregnant which caught both of us by surprise. We already had 2 girls...
    Shanthewildman Shanthewildman 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 29, 2008

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    I had a very difficult time

    when I was first an empty nester. It was brutal really. We lost our precious baby daughter to a sudden and devastating terminal illness, she was 22. Our only son went to war, twice. Our eldest child, also a daughter, had four consecutive miscarriages in another country. How’s...
    hillbillycrone hillbillycrone 56-60, F 2 Responses Feb 15, 2014

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    To a miscarriage when I was 20.

    To this day I cry about it sometimes... I finally named her willow a few days ago (don't know if it was a boy or a girl.. But always thought of her as one (a daughter)) I imagine her sometimes with her bright face and big eyes and afro.. I miss her... Sometimes the loss of...
    Illll Illll 31-35 1 Response Jun 1

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    Emma

    I shared seven short, sweet years with Emma. If my tears could build a railway, And my love could make a train, I'd take that train to heaven, Emma, And we'd never part again. She was diagnosed with neuroblastoma aged four and a half, and survived three years of high dose...
    SarcassticMum SarcassticMum 31-35, F May 12, 2013

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    I was pushing the 3 month mark

    when we walked in the clinic together. My husband took the elevator and I took the stairs in order to stall for more time, hoping that I would be late for my appointment. But my husband's motto is "If you're early. you're on time. If you're on time, you're late", thus, he made...
    ShyBubble ShyBubble 18-21, F Jun 26, 2014

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    I Lost Everyone...

    i lost my boyfriend when i was 12 weeks pregnant, he found out he had cancer 7 weeks before he died, i was so upset after his death but happy because i was having his child. 26 weeks pregnant and still raw from the loss of my boyfriend i went in to labour and our son was born...
    Lauren1307 Lauren1307 18-21, F 17 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    Lost My Child At 3 Weeks

    Well here goes. I lost my little girl Cassie at 3 werks due to bacterial meningitis. she was born 26 nov of 1996 and passed 17 dec 1996. I was so amazed at the love I felt for her the moment she arrived, it was overwhelming. i loved her more than my own life and i begged god to...
    jedigg jedigg 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 9, 2013

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    It changed everything,

    forever. I was 18 and she was less than two months old when shaken to death by her dad. She would be sixteen this year and I've spent so much of my life missing her. It's easier. I can breathe again. Time doesn't exactly heal that wound but it does make it bearable. I wonder...
    cherk03 cherk03 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 3

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    Still Can't Get Over It......

    In June of 2006, when my husband came back from Iraq, I was suprised to find out we were pregnant. After no birth control for 4 years of marriage it was finally true. I was so excited. I was 2000 miles away from home but felt I could do the pregnancy just fine. With stress from...
    kstjohn kstjohn 31-35 3 Responses Aug 25, 2010

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    Sids Mom

    I had never heard that expression, SIDS MOM. I lost my first born child to SIDS. I woke up and she was lying next to me dead. At first I thought she was asleep but I felt something was wrong. I shook her and she didnt move. I pulled her leg and she was limp as a ragdoll. I tried...
    Abriee Abriee 36-40, F 5 Responses Aug 2, 2008

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    Unbelievable

    In 1992, I had a miscarriage - a son, I would later learn. I had been told a year earlier that I couldn't get pregnant, at least not without the help of fertility drugs. My husband and I weren't ready for children, and were having marital problems anyway, so we were very...
    HappyHappyJoyJoy HappyHappyJoyJoy 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 15, 2007

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    Today is been a hrs day

    for me since the lose of my twins 4 years ago. I'm trying to get they this day but it just doesn't seem to get any easier.
    browneyedgirl10 browneyedgirl10 22-25, F 1 Response May 11, 2014

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    January 9, 2008

    Going into the second Trimester. Everything was o.k. I found out a week in half After I lost it. I felt ashamed alone, I woke up Morning of January 9th With Really bad Cramps, 10x worse than my period. So I Tried to take it easy, Lay down Rest. Well I lay on the couch And stayed...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 11, 2008

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    I Lost Amber to a Drunk Driver.

    She was ten years old. The man who did it will never hurt any one again. He had a bunch of previous DWI convictions. But he got off each time. He didn't get off from this one. I am a Viet Nam Veteran. I thought I was immuned to the emotion of Death. I was wrong. I saw her...
    retiredfather retiredfather 61-65, M 1 Response Jul 4, 2009

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    I'Ve Been Told That It Doesn'T "Count"...

    ...because I never got to hold him in my arms, but I sang him lullabies, I picked out a name, and I felt him inside me, so the fact that he stopped growing before he could make it outside doesn't make him any less my child. Now I'm just a mother who never had a baby.
    Glewellin Glewellin 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 13, 2013

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    Worst Time Of My Life

    i dont know where to start,or how to some this up best but three years ago i lost my unborn son jack,and the worst part of it was that it was all my fault due to drinking as many of my friends know i used to be an alcoholic+it was this that ultimately caused me to stop drinking i...
    geekoftheweek geekoftheweek 26-30, F 10 Responses Mar 11, 2011

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    My Nickybear

    It was the beginning of May, 2006, I conceived my first child.  I never tried before, but I was totally dedicated to this.  I've wanted a child so badly since I was 21 or so and finally, my dreams came true when that little line on the ept stick showed up.  I...
    vampireheart vampireheart 31-35, T 7 Responses Jul 10, 2008

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    I wanted this baby so much,

    we had been trying for so long and when I finally fell pregnant, he had already left me. I was confused and stressed out, i told him and it just made things worse, i tried my hardest to hold it all together and to do the best for the baby, but one day it must of all gotten to...
    illmindofhayley illmindofhayley 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2013

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    I lost a baby at 15. I was in an abusive

    relationship and my bf got me pregnant at 15. When he found out, I was 6 1/2 months pregnant and he got violent and beat me til I lost the baby. I think I'm ready to move on with my new bf, and try to have a baby. am i wrong?
    AKimball AKimball 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20, 2014

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    One Of My Poems I Wrote After My Son Died Gods Plan

    I can remember the day you were born the first time I held you in my arms I thought you would always be with me but God had a different plan you see he only let me borrow you for a little while I still miss you and your beautiful smile years have passed since you went away but if...
    bmt9769 bmt9769 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 1, 2011

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    A Full Term Stillbirth

    The baby died three days after his due date. He would have been our third, and our first boy. I was surprised when I had my first child by how much of an impact she made on my life, and I was equally surprised by how much of an impact a death could have. Even thought I never...
    chromatic chromatic 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 22, 2010

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    A Prayer

    Never to have known you, but to have loved younever to have held you, like mothers doWith you i bury my hopes and dreamsFor an unknown child i will never see face to faceI also bury the love in my heart and the sadness of knowing we must partI pray to higher power, to do for you...
    jrbangel84 jrbangel84 26-30, F Mar 9, 2012

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    Thank You For All Of Your Stupid Words To Me

    People would say the stupidest things to me when my son died unexpectedly. I got the, "he's in a better place now", which makes it sound like the death of a child is a good thing. Death is NOT a good thing. He should be at home in my arms where he belongs.  I understand what...
    aroserises aroserises 51-55, F 31 Responses Jul 31, 2010

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    Empty Cradle Broken Heart

    My baby boy, Mason died a week ago, today i have searched for answers , for anyone who can relate. It hurts so bad, I cant eat cant sleep dont wanna even breathe without you, I wake to feed you and you are no longer here, i woke to screams an hour and a half after feeding you at...
    mason2013 mason2013 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2013

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    Last Walk

    Today I took my son's ashes to Starved Rock. He had a favorite remote canyon. I was with his mother and his wife. I had been moving for few days and was sore and stiff. Still, I carried his ashes along the long trail. I had walked many times wiht him down this trail. But...
    demorcan demorcan 61-65, M 3 Responses Jun 10, 2012

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    I lost my beautiful baby boy at only 14 months.

    They said undefined. How is that possible? It's either SIDS or somthing, but every test they took gave no results. Said it would b side if he was under a year but since he was over it's undefined! The 27 will b three years. I now have a new bf we live together and take care of...
    msmendiola122 msmendiola122 22-25, F Sep 2, 2014

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    1 Year!

    as some of you may know from reading my previous story that i lost my child and boyfriend but for the ones that don't here it is...this time last year i was trying to deal with the fact i had just lost my boyfriend, he had cancer, i was young but he was the love of my life and i...
    Lauren1307 Lauren1307 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 23, 2013

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    I spoke with The forensic coroner yesterday.

    Said my sons case is closed. they are officially ruling it as SIDS. I don't know what to feel or how to process. In part I'm ok with knowing it wasn't something that could have been prevented. But on the other, why would such a health baby boy just die. It's hard to process.
    crabbycakes26 crabbycakes26 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 18, 2014

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    Most painful experience ever!

    Im so sorry about your losts:(
    fauxlady fauxlady 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 2, 2014

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    How Do You Help Friends Who Lost A Child?

    I need some advice...how do you help friends who lost a child? A couple who is dear to me have just lost their daughter...she was born premature but was doing fine until she developed an infection and was not able to heal from it...she lived 12 days...they just had the funeral...
    euft euft 31-35, F Jul 14, 2013

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    My Angel Baby

    I lost my daughter when she was 7 months old. My mother in law was babysitting n she had a seizure n dropped her n the pool. It was 10 years ago june 24th n I still think about my Lindsay Grace every day
    Bear300 Bear300 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 2, 2013

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    A Letter To My Son

    Dear Ibrahim,         Though you never knew me, you were the most precious thing I had ever seen with my eyes or held in my hands. Though you never took your first breath, you took my breath away when I held you in my arms for the first time.  You are my first born...
    calicuz calicuz 41-45, M 38 Responses Jan 30, 2011

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    Before I tell my story,

    I need to mention that this story is not a story about the death of my child, however I was not sure where else to share this experience. Unfortunately, the result of this experience is the same, my daughter is no longer with me. Now, let me tell you my story: A little over a...
    Rhun Rhun 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    Memorial Day

    My son died 19 months ago...he was a member of the military as is my other son...We went to the Memorial Day Service at the local cemetary today...and all I could do was cry. The National Anthem started the tears and when they did the Twenty-One Gun Salute and played Taps...I...
    checkers checkers 46-50 3 Responses May 26, 2008

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    I Don't Remember Agreeing to That

    I remember the day they told me my child was dead.  I started to laugh.  I was positive it was some kind of warped joke.  I kept waiting for the punch line.  Instead I just got the punch....straight to the gut.  I remember screaming (literally and at the...
    Pix Pix 41-45, F 2 Responses May 10, 2008

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    My First Great Love

    .. 11 years after I first felt her inside me, and I still can remember everything so clearly.. I once wrote about her in College and the pain back then is back again.. .. Sept 21, 2002; looking at the viewing window of the hospital's NICU (Nursery Intensive Care Unit), I saw her...
    iamtheredbutterfly iamtheredbutterfly 22-25, F Jan 30, 2013

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    I Can Only Imagine

    Today is not a special day, it has no meaning whatsoever with regards to my son.  Other than this could be an anniversary of one of the days I was pregnant with him, and a day when I was rubbing my tummy, smiling, talking to him, planning our future games and road trips...
    vampireheart vampireheart 31-35, T 3 Responses Aug 30, 2008

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    My Sweet Little Angel.

    .. You came in the world with such violence and pain. I am so sorry little one, charged with you're protection for this I have failed. He beat me again today, I covered you with my arms the best I could. I am sorry little one I should not have ran away. Today I tried to leave...
    AngeleyesUponU AngeleyesUponU 41-45, F 50 Responses May 14

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    it's been three years now.

    she's been gone as long as i had her. i still don't know where i'm going.
    hoblinbobgoblin hoblinbobgoblin 41-45, M 4 Responses May 1

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