I Lost a Child

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    My son would of been 17 years old.

    I lost him at a very young age. He was 2 when he was killed. I still hold a tote with all of blankets and toys. Every year since he passed away, I get told to donate the clothes and blankets. I just can't find myself letting go of his things. As long as I'm alive, his belongings...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Mar 10, 2016

    vent! my niece can get pregnant

    that does drugs and I can't when I have a stable home to provide......my family expects me to be OK with it...nope
    Zoeykb Zoeykb
    26-30, F
    Feb 8, 2016
    jewwlie jewwlie
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jan 13, 2016

    next week will be a year

    since I lost my baby. how do you get through this?
    Zoeykb Zoeykb
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 12, 2016

    I know you're out there,

    somewhere, asking questions. I know it's been hard and very confusing at times. I know there are people around you, trying to hold you down. Preaching hate and quick to point to your flaws. I want you to know I don't agree with them. I'm so very proud of you. Even with every...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

    I lost my 5 year old son last month in a car

    accident. I miss him so much he was such a loving child. his baby sis wants her brother everyday. my husband died in the accident as well and our family has been changed forever. I cry everyday. if it was not for God and my daughter I would never get out of bed
    uliu uliu
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jul 14, 2015

    I lost my son before I

    even knew I was pregnant... The first I knew about him was when I woke up bleeding and in terrible pain. I think about him every day. I love you.
    messinghaml messinghaml
    18-21, F
    Jun 13, 2015

    It changed everything,

    forever. I was 18 and she was less than two months old when shaken to death by her dad. She would be sixteen this year and I've spent so much of my life missing her. It's easier. I can breathe again. Time doesn't exactly heal that wound but it does make it bearable. I wonder...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 3, 2015

    To a miscarriage when I was 20.

    To this day I cry about it sometimes... I finally named her willow a few days ago (don't know if it was a boy or a girl.. But always thought of her as one (a daughter)) I imagine her sometimes with her bright face and big eyes and afro.. I miss her... Sometimes the loss of...
    PastelLime PastelLime
    31-35
    1 Response Jun 1, 2015

    I was dating a woman,

    and I loved her. She got pregnant, and I proposed. She told her mother, who in the name of Jesus, made her have a miscarriage, because I come from a Law Enforcement and Military Family. She shoved her daughter down the porch steps. Kicked her screaming, that if she has a...
    Berzerker82 Berzerker82
    31-35, M
    May 30, 2015

    February 17 2000- Early on this morning,

    two police officers showed up at the club I was dancing at(don't judge me!) and ask "Are you the mother of J------?". That was my 5 year old daughter. I said I was and they told me to throw some clothes on and come with them. "An ambulance was called to your home shortly after...
    CocoaBelle CocoaBelle
    46-50, F
    1 Response May 24, 2015

    7 years ago today, I lost my 2 year old angel

    to terrible accidednt. I still miss him every day. I have worked hard to get where I am now. I am proud of the progress I have made, but it still hurts so much. To all you parents out there who have lost children, I send you love today. Please take care of yourselves and...
    jeffyduke jeffyduke
    46-50, M
    May 21, 2015

    My Sweet Little Angel.

    .. You came in the world with such violence and pain. I am so sorry little one, charged with you're protection for this I have failed. He beat me again today, I covered you with my arms the best I could. I am sorry little one I should not have ran away. Today I tried to leave...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    35 Responses May 14, 2015

    it's been three years now.

    she's been gone as long as i had her. i still don't know where i'm going.
    hoblinbobgoblin hoblinbobgoblin
    41-45, M
    2 Responses May 1, 2015

    Most painful experience ever!

    Im so sorry about your losts:(
    fauxlady fauxlady
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 2, 2014

    I lost my beautiful baby boy at only 14 months.

    They said undefined. How is that possible? It's either SIDS or somthing, but every test they took gave no results. Said it would b side if he was under a year but since he was over it's undefined! The 27 will b three years. I now have a new bf we live together and take care of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 2, 2014

    I was pushing the 3 month mark

    when we walked in the clinic together. My husband took the elevator and I took the stairs in order to stall for more time, hoping that I would be late for my appointment. But my husband's motto is "If you're early. you're on time. If you're on time, you're late", thus, he made...
    ShyBubble ShyBubble
    22-25, F
    Jun 26, 2014

    Today is been a hrs day

    for me since the lose of my twins 4 years ago. I'm trying to get they this day but it just doesn't seem to get any easier.
    browneyedgirl10 browneyedgirl10
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 11, 2014

    I was depressed all the time a mother of toe

    and one on the way I felt lost I had a home And husband a car a boat a family.. No reason I know now to be depressed I lost my 7 month old son he died in bed with my husband a freak accident who was blamed he went crazy beat me left me for my cousin he ended up In jail now he is...
    laceykight laceykight
    31-35, F
    Apr 13, 2014

    I lost a baby at 15. I was in an abusive

    relationship and my bf got me pregnant at 15. When he found out, I was 6 1/2 months pregnant and he got violent and beat me til I lost the baby. I think I'm ready to move on with my new bf, and try to have a baby. am i wrong?
    AKimball AKimball
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 20, 2014

    I spoke with The forensic coroner yesterday.

    Said my sons case is closed. they are officially ruling it as SIDS. I don't know what to feel or how to process. In part I'm ok with knowing it wasn't something that could have been prevented. But on the other, why would such a health baby boy just die. It's hard to process.
    crabbycakes26 crabbycakes26
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 18, 2014

    I had a very difficult time

    when I was first an empty nester. It was brutal really. We lost our precious baby daughter to a sudden and devastating terminal illness, she was 22. Our only son went to war, twice. Our eldest child, also a daughter, had four consecutive miscarriages in another country. How’s...
    hillbillycrone hillbillycrone
    56-60, F
    1 Response Feb 15, 2014

    I wanted this baby so much,

    we had been trying for so long and when I finally fell pregnant, he had already left me. I was confused and stressed out, i told him and it just made things worse, i tried my hardest to hold it all together and to do the best for the baby, but one day it must of all gotten to...
    illmindofhayley illmindofhayley
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 24, 2013

    Before I tell my story,

    I need to mention that this story is not a story about the death of my child, however I was not sure where else to share this experience. Unfortunately, the result of this experience is the same, my daughter is no longer with me. Now, let me tell you my story: A little over a...
    Rhun Rhun
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Dec 4, 2013

    1 Year!

    as some of you may know from reading my previous story that i lost my child and boyfriend but for the ones that don't here it is...this time last year i was trying to deal with the fact i had just lost my boyfriend, he had cancer, i was young but he was the love of my life and i...
    Lauren1307 Lauren1307
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 23, 2013

    I Lost Everyone...

    i lost my boyfriend when i was 12 weeks pregnant, he found out he had cancer 7 weeks before he died, i was so upset after his death but happy because i was having his child. 26 weeks pregnant and still raw from the loss of my boyfriend i went in to labour and our son was born...
    Lauren1307 Lauren1307
    22-25, F
    17 Responses Oct 15, 2013

    Angel In Disguise

    My daughter, Misha, died 2nd October 2013. Misha was born on Christmas 2006. She was only 6 when she died. Misha was a kind and sweet girl-she was adorable and curious. She would ask lots of questions while sitting in my lap. 8 months ago, she was diagnosed with leukaemia. The...
    JennikaCindieF JennikaCindieF
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 3, 2013

    We Did Nothing Wrong...

    I was 32 weeks pregnant, I was driving our car to a friends house around 930 at night with my husband in the passenger seat. We didn't have the radio up loud, we were just enjoying eachothers company when all I saw was headlights. A man swerved into our lane and hit us head on...
    Hughes3313 Hughes3313
    22-25
    1 Response Sep 1, 2013

    How Do You Help Friends Who Lost A Child?

    I need some advice...how do you help friends who lost a child? A couple who is dear to me have just lost their daughter...she was born premature but was doing fine until she developed an infection and was not able to heal from it...she lived 12 days...they just had the funeral...
    euft euft
    31-35, F
    Jul 14, 2013

    Empty Cradle Broken Heart

    My baby boy, Mason died a week ago, today i have searched for answers , for anyone who can relate. It hurts so bad, I cant eat cant sleep dont wanna even breathe without you, I wake to feed you and you are no longer here, i woke to screams an hour and a half after feeding you at...
    mason2013 mason2013
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 10, 2013

    Lost My Child At 3 Weeks

    Well here goes. I lost my little girl Cassie at 3 werks due to bacterial meningitis. she was born 26 nov of 1996 and passed 17 dec 1996. I was so amazed at the love I felt for her the moment she arrived, it was overwhelming. i loved her more than my own life and i begged god to...
    jedigg jedigg
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Jul 9, 2013

    My Angel Baby

    I lost my daughter when she was 7 months old. My mother in law was babysitting n she had a seizure n dropped her n the pool. It was 10 years ago june 24th n I still think about my Lindsay Grace every day
    Bear300 Bear300
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jul 2, 2013

    Ella Grace

    I'm mostly writing this story for the people I'm friends with on EP so that I don't have to write each one a personal message. For those of you who know me know that my children are my world and my little girl has had health issues from the beginning but she was finally turning...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jun 28, 2013

    I'Ve Been Told That It Doesn'T "Count"...

    ...because I never got to hold him in my arms, but I sang him lullabies, I picked out a name, and I felt him inside me, so the fact that he stopped growing before he could make it outside doesn't make him any less my child. Now I'm just a mother who never had a baby.
    Glewellin Glewellin
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 13, 2013

    Yes

    I wrote this b4, but when I deleted my account, it left, I want to share my story with this name, but its too painful to write it all again, so I will cheat, and copy and paste.I was not like the other girls my age, I didn't want to be a mom, I didn't want to have kids, I wanted...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 13, 2013

    Emma

    I shared seven short, sweet years with Emma. If my tears could build a railway, And my love could make a train, I'd take that train to heaven, Emma, And we'd never part again. She was diagnosed with neuroblastoma aged four and a half, and survived three years of high dose...
    SarcassticMum SarcassticMum
    36-40, F
    May 12, 2013

    My Angel

    I lost my baby girl almost 15 years ago when she was only 3 days old. I was alone when I noticed that she was not breathing. Nothing in this life comes close to the pain and loneliness that you feel. I remember the fear, and begging God to just please let her live. I remember the...
    Haleymyangelbaby Haleymyangelbaby
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Apr 19, 2013

    Loss

    Even thought my son was concieved as a result of rape I loved him from the moment he was born. On the night of the car accident my boyfriend At the time was on his way to pick me up from work with my son. They were hit by a drunk driver going 60 miles an hr and my boyfriend...
    cryssy8313 cryssy8313
    26-30, F
    Mar 1, 2013

    My Sleeping Angel Ariana

    My Sleeping Angel Ariana Written on February 3rd, 2013 On January 15th 2013 at 10.10 am, I gave birth to our beautiful sleeping Angel Ariana. We found out on jan 12th that our beautiful daughters heart had stopped. I hadn't felt her move in a while.....and she was always having...
    Ari15 Ari15
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 24, 2013

    I Lost A Child

    Even thought I was raped and convieced a son and carried him full term! But God had other plan's for my son. On his tenth day of being born my son passed away in his sleep. My beautiful baby boy went in his sleep after having his feeding time and he feel asleep! when I work up...
    bluerose82 bluerose82
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 24, 2013

    February 15 Is My Dead Daughters Birthday

    My little liana would be well 6 years old she died at almost 3 so yes 6 i am crying for her so bad i can just her her voice say MOMMY MOMMY I MISS YOU i feel like I hear her I would kill my self just to hear her again I would jump into a volcano just to say hi to my girl Liana...
    lianawolf lianawolf
    22-25, F
    Feb 14, 2013

    All About My Pretty Girl Part 2 Of Pretty Girl

    Liana was a pretty 2 almost 3 year old she had cancer and ADHD her pre-k teachers dident understand her and well they never will i am trying to have another child but I still love my little Liana girl All about her hair: Blonde eyes: blue tall skinny and always happy I miss...
    lianawolf lianawolf
    22-25, F
    Feb 14, 2013

    Pretty Girl

    For an unknown reason i became pregnant and had a pretty girl named Liana Wolf when she was 2 she died in her sleep she was a sleeping angle. The night she died I was in her hospital room with my sweet child with cancer I kissed her face and said good night and in the morning my...
    lianawolf lianawolf
    22-25, F
    Feb 13, 2013

    Grief And Friendships...

    Our oldest son, Ryan (20), went to spend eternity in Heaven on April 7, 2012 after falling 100 feet in a climbing accident (his passion). He isn't lost...I know right where he is. :) On that day, however, our lives were altered forever. These last 10 months have been an...
    momofhope momofhope
    46-50
    Jan 31, 2013

    My First Great Love

    .. 11 years after I first felt her inside me, and I still can remember everything so clearly.. I once wrote about her in College and the pain back then is back again.. .. Sept 21, 2002; looking at the viewing window of the hospital's NICU (Nursery Intensive Care Unit), I saw her...
    iamtheredbutterfly iamtheredbutterfly
    22-25, F
    Jan 30, 2013

    Angel Marie: The Making Of An Angel By Sam Oliver

    This Novel is a story about a baby that is born into her mother's heart. A heartfelt story on infant loss. http://www.amazon.com/Angel-Marie-Sam-Oliver/dp/1604143363/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&qid=1359335020&sr=8-3&keywords=angel+marie+the+making+of+an+angel
    Jan 27, 2013

    My Little Girl.

    My Name is Marissa Johnson,I Am 27 years old,and My Daughter Drowned in the Pool Behind our house.It was last year, in june.She was 6 years old.I Was in my bedroom, talking on the Phone with my Husband.We had been haveing fights and where planning a Divorce.My Daughter,Emily,Had...
    TheMourningMother TheMourningMother
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 18, 2013

    Jordan Nathaniel Walker Bray

    My baby boy was born September 2, 2012 and left this Earth to be with God on December 9, 2012 He was amazing and touched me in a way I thought I'd never be touched, he changed me. I was going down a spiral and noone thought it would stop but he forced me to get better for him, I...
    jordansmommy0117 jordansmommy0117
    18-21, F
    Dec 19, 2012

    My Baby

    My baby died in 2008. He was 22 years old. Even though it has been 4 years it is just as if happened yesterday. I joined an on-line grief group after trying one on one grief counseling and it has helped some but life is still a killing me. I don't know when it will not hurt...
    homebased44 homebased44
    51-55
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2012

    Lost Canyon

    I feel such a need to share: "Like a child who’s been crying for so long that he eventually forgets why he’s crying, we lose sight of what we’re missing. We stay focused only on the void left behind. Like staring at the spaces between the stars, rather than on the stars...
    sfleming sfleming
    46-50
    1 Response Nov 30, 2012

    Dead And Gone

    NI can never forget that horrible evening on march 14,2010. As i stood in the kitchen i could hear the sounds of laughter, both the girls were in thier bedroom singing and doing thier usual thing. Suddenly, as the laughter and the joy of singing came to complete silence.My wife...
    gmuzik04 gmuzik04
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Nov 24, 2012

    Unspeakable Pain ...

    ... my second son died of SIDS at the age of 6 1/2 months old. He was at the babysitters when he died. He died 29 years ago. I have reached Painful Peace. After two failed suicidal attempts, I wouldn’t be here typing this to you today had it not been for my growing faith...
    drewnn drewnn
    51-55
    Jul 26, 2012

    Last Walk

    Today I took my son's ashes to Starved Rock. He had a favorite remote canyon. I was with his mother and his wife. I had been moving for few days and was sore and stiff. Still, I carried his ashes along the long trail. I had walked many times wiht him down this trail. But...
    demorcan demorcan
    61-65, M
    3 Responses Jun 10, 2012

    When I Got The Call...

    On this past May 10,my son celebrated his 42 birthday...but by dawn he was dead. Nothing unusual happened I was told...he was with friends and family barbecuing his special way. I sent him a birthday greeting just to reach out to him in some small way. I did what I normally do...
    Letstalkaboutitin2016 Letstalkaboutitin2016
    61-65, F
    3 Responses May 31, 2012

    My Son

    ! year ago today my son was finishing his finals. I was moving to another state. We had made our plans for a three day weekend of good food and each others company. I was really looking forard to the time with him. 4/21/2011 was a Thurday and we were gong to get together to...
    demorcan demorcan
    61-65, M
    Apr 21, 2012

    A Prayer

    Never to have known you, but to have loved younever to have held you, like mothers doWith you i bury my hopes and dreamsFor an unknown child i will never see face to faceI also bury the love in my heart and the sadness of knowing we must partI pray to higher power, to do for you...
    jrbangel84 jrbangel84
    26-30, F
    Mar 9, 2012

    Deepest Sorrow

    I am not sure where to start. I remember as a child, sitting playing with dolls " playing mom". One day i would become one. Life was always full of dreams, goals, nothing could go wrong....at least to me. That was my mindset. As became older, I had my own life, had a job, my own...
    jrbangel84 jrbangel84
    26-30, F
    Mar 9, 2012

    Alanna <3

    love you forever my sweet baby alanna, u just weren't meant for this world...god has bigger plans for u <3<3 love you millions mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
    niamh90 niamh90
    18-21, F
    Jan 14, 2012

    Twice

    My ex-wife had two miscarriages.... nothing else to say about it.
    VincentValentine VincentValentine
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Jan 3, 2012

    Today Is My Daughter's Angel Date

    It is hard to believe that 10 years ago today, my beloved daughter and only child, Shawnee, died.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 3, 2011
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