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I Lost a Loved One to Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 522 People

    My Brother!

    When I was 16, my brother of 18 took his own life by hanging himself in our garage. I was the last one to talk to him. Not only did i lose my Brother that day, I lost my best friend, a father figure, and my positivity in life. Everyday I strive to find answers in this world...
    clarkLloyd clarkLloyd 31-35 1 Response Aug 20, 2012

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    Okay Um My Ex Boyfriend Commited I Think

    his official cause of death was gun shot wound to the head, cause of death undetermined, this was after his inquest, the first ruling was suicide.  I find it so hard to believe that he commited suicide, and I am just looking for answers.  He knew I loved him...
    Ijustwanttounderstandwhy Ijustwanttounderstandwhy 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 6, 2009

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    My Best Friend And Partner

    We met when we started working at the same company at the same time. we hit off great, and we became the terible twosome at work, we where unseperable. He was married with 2 beutiful children, but in a broken down marriage, and i was in a new realtionship with someone i met...
    tinkerbell222013 tinkerbell222013 26-30 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    My Dad committed suicide

    when I was 13 turning 14, March 2011, he tried twice and finished before we got to him the second time. He was a really good dad. He just battled severe depression. So did my mom. Now that he's gone, I feel like I've lost her too. He saved my mom and my step-siblings from really...
    blondemelody blondemelody 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    I Miss Jack Terribly

    He moved to my neighborhood and the neighbors couldn't wait to introduce us since we both rode motorcycles. I saw him the first time while we were both out mowing, he lived across the street from me. We hit it off immediately and shared coffee before work every day, spent most...
    Aintgotjack Aintgotjack 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 21, 2009

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    I still remember your voice like it was

    yesterday, 6 months today since you have been gone love you my forever best friend, no one can hurt you anymore XX
    Emilushyou Emilushyou 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 29, 2014

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    It will be four years in March.

    I miss you a lot more, lately. I think about you much more. I feel sometimes i am becoming you, as though i am a creation of yours. A child you formed before death that grew and grew alone. I had no one to share the bad days with. I had support, i had friends, i had family, but...
    theMETAmonologue theMETAmonologue 22-25, F Feb 7, 2014

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    It is important to see that

    even when one is the life of the party, and brings smiles to others by the mere mention of their name, it is possible, they are suffering inside. Falling into the darkness can happen to anyone. Depression is real, depression is not something that a pat on the back, or "it will...
    PandorasDream PandorasDream 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 11, 2014

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    Hidden Grief? Please Help Anyone.

    I just turned 17. My mum killed herself the 14th May 2012. I miss her so much, but I can never find time to express my feelings. It was almost unexpected- she had had depression her entire life and had made several attempts to take her own life but she was healing slowly, and...
    hydrangea23 hydrangea23 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 27, 2012

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    I lost my boyfriend to suicide.

    I saw it coming , but I didn't think he would actually do it .. I miss him like crazy and I wish he was here with me . Sometimes I feel like life isn't worth living , because he's not here. We were together for a long time and I feel like a part of me is missing. I wish there...
    deannam8101 deannam8101 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 6, 2015

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    Rest in peace Robin Williams c: You are

    somewhere in the jungle waiting for someone to roll a 5 or 8.
    RedtheEmerald RedtheEmerald 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    I dreamt my husband was alive again.

    .. But hurt somewhere. I was trying to find him and he was trying to avoid me. I woke up feeling as if I lost him all over again.
    Lunalovexo Lunalovexo 22-25, F 2 Responses May 7, 2014

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    Since I was little, I always got along very

    well with my father. Relationship with my mother on the other hand has always been very complicated, but overall I think we were a normal family, nothing too complicated. But when I was 10, everything started to fall apart. Mom and dad were fighting a lot more, divorce was on...
    Janeliii Janeliii 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 21, 2014

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    My Dad

    I lost my father to suidide august 10th 2013 It all started when my mom tried to commit suicide and she went to rehab and was also a heavy drinker. My dad abused her once. My mom and dad fought almost every night. My mom got in a fight with my dad one night and went to a friends...
    LostSuicide LostSuicide 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2013

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    Just My Thoughts

    i'm missing my dad today. well honestly i miss him every day, theres no way to get around it, he's gone. but its days like these, when one small thing happens- or in this case something huge- that effects me for the worse, or the better, something that i could of shared with him...
    bluebell14 bluebell14 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 24, 2013

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    How to keep going on.

    ..just lost someone last night. Just completely in shock
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F May 3, 2014

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    Why

    When I was twelve my older brother was sixteen. He was getting bullied in school and it was hard for him. He always came to me to cry to because I was younger. It was hard watching him go though that but I thought he would be alright. The morning of his birthday I went to his...
    Caitlynn567 Caitlynn567 13-15, F 5 Responses Feb 16, 2013

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    She hummed inside her thoughts Sung the hymns

    of the ones she had lost The characters in her mind she had embossed The only way to them was her life it cost A New Year has come along The intensity of the last left scars She no longer had a sense of right and wrong She just wants to live among the golden stars Another nip...
    FallenxPerfection FallenxPerfection 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17, 2014

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    My best friends sister committed suicide about

    three years ago... I can still remember the day it happened. It was June 21. We had just gotten done with our play practice and I went home. Later that night, a police officer who is best friends with my dad, came over. He asked me if I knew Kristin. That was her name... I told...
    sarahjade123 sarahjade123 16-17, F Mar 26, 2014

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    10 Years

    It's been 10 years since my boyfriend died. We'd had a massive fight and he told me what ever happens will be on my conscience and handed me a bullet. I always regret falling asleep and missing his final call as I could have stopped it or at least told him that I loved him one...
    Tarynlyn Tarynlyn 31-35, F 5 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    Apparently we lose a student every year here.

    You'd think it's because of the bad drivers the next town over or the daring games of drink at the ripe age of 16, but it's neither of those things that drags the life out of these young bodies. I'm not sure how one catches the impulse to end their life in general. It seems to...
    Blueaquatic Blueaquatic 18-21, F Sep 19, 2015

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    For me it started late September my senior year

    of high school when I came home to text my boyfriend of almost 2 years I had made homecoming court. I was so excited by the unexpectedness of it and I had left my phone at home that day. Next to my cell phone was a letter saying how much he loved me and that he was sorry. A full...
    monaghad monaghad 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 11, 2014

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    My mother and I had a very strange relationship

    she was mentally ill my whole life... I always loved her but always seemed to keep this deep down anger for her as I grew older I really watched her decline mentally she was living with daily chronic pain and was given any and all pain medication that she wanted but was never...
    Cmincey Cmincey 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

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    Finally I have met The Love of my Life,

    we were soulmates and soo beyond happy. He was struggling with dark thoughts. We work so hard together to overcome it. He couldnt take the pain. He left me 3 months ago. I ask everyday: Wasnt I good enough to stay on Earth and love each other ? He promised he would never leave...
    Ally0418 Ally0418 36-40, F 3 Responses May 11, 2014

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    I found Erica was in coma with very little

    chance of recovering from on my first day at work. I knew instantly through the tone of sisters voice on the phone that this time Erica had been successful in hurting herself. Erica had so long many layers of personality. I remember her from six years old. She was competitive...
    pollypocket27 pollypocket27 22-25, F May 18, 2014

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    Forever Missing Him...

    N early 12 and a half years ago a police officer knocked on my door to tell me that my husband had died. It's strange, because I had a "feeling".  Many little things were just not quite right that evening, and when I heard the knock on the door I knew...
    cc5439 cc5439 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 14, 2009

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    lallyxo lallyxo 18-21, F 2 Responses May 5, 2014

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    Maybe not in the conventional sense of "loss".

    She was my best friend 4 years ago and she tried to kill herself. I was her last phone call and I waited on the phone with 911, and her mom sent her away for two years. She got back around a year ago and she's not the same girl. I'm having such a hard time relating to her and...
    vtodd1 vtodd1 18-21, F Sep 10, 2015

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    Miss U Mum

    I lost my mum to suicide on the 13/04/2012.. my mum was my bestfriend and losing her has been so hard. Not seeing her everyday like we used too. The pain still hurts in my chest and tears flow most days thinking of her.. miss and love her so very much  
    holly51 holly51 26-30 2 Responses May 13, 2013

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    I lost my sister but I think I'll honor her

    memory by writing a story about her life maybe post it on here
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    She took a bottle of pills.

    .. She never even made it to the emergency room... I still cry about it sometimes...
    WatchOutItsKyle WatchOutItsKyle 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2014

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    August 20th 2015. My cousin called me to tell

    me my dad had shot himself. I regret so much. I havent seen my dad in 10 years. I have been living in Canada for 12 years. My son is almost 7 years old. I have been struggling as a young adult with a child. I left my abusive ex partner for a better life. My entire family is in...
    Jay27 Jay27 26-30, F Nov 16, 2015

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    Loss Of A Close Cousin:(

    i remember me waking to find my mom in the kitchen making breakfast so happy like nothing was wrong... Then my dad came home. Not that i hated my dad but it was the news a brought that was hurtful... My dad never really came home from work until around 6:30-7:00 so this was...
    hidelesscat hidelesscat 26-30 1 Response Aug 22, 2012

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    I lost a really good friend to suicide

    because he was being bullied he felt as he couldn't talk to anyone so he hung himself in his kitchen and every single day since it happened I've cried and cried and tried to figure out why he had to leave like that, he was such an amazing person. rest in peace Garyn.
    syyyydddd syyyydddd 18-21, F Apr 29, 2014

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    I still cry over you like I did the first time

    I heard the news. I terribly miss you! 😢
    tamedkitty tamedkitty 31-35, F Sep 27, 2015

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    Untitled Poem Of Anguish, In Spanish

    Nadie los escuchó ni tu lloraría ni la pistola. Nadie lo sabía ni tus secretos ni el dolor de tu alma. Hoy tu dolor es mío. I wrote this poem in Spanish on the 5th anniversary of my daughter's death, partly to signify that I could not share this pain with others (my family...
    FeelingOrange FeelingOrange 46-50, F Jan 25, 2013

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    CGibson11 CGibson11 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 25, 2015

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    I haven't thought of you lately,

    but I miss you so much. If I could have had the slightest chance to talk to you that night, I wonder if it would have changed. Would you still be here, would I still Skype you and see that beautiful smile. You were my best friend and I can't help but miss you. There's so many...
    RandomExistence RandomExistence 16-17, M Nov 17, 2015

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    my fiance. if anyone else

    who lost someone to suicide ever needs to talk. ..pm me. I still struggle with the pain. I guess I always will.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 11, 2015

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    So I reciently learned of some horrible news

    about the death of my Sisters best friend who was like a Sister.. I still remember the day I learned she Had Died ironicly it was 2 years to the day that my Mothers Sister had passed away when my Mother and Sister walked into the house crying I thought something had happend to...
    Langdon78 Langdon78 36-40, M Sep 10, 2015

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    I have loved friend who was wife of my friend.

    But as she was wife of my friend, i controlled my feelings and never spoken to her or anyone. We used to talk to each other like good friends and then one day I got a news she committed suicide and It's biggest shock of my life.. Recently her friend spoke to me that she was...
    lovencare lovencare 51-55, M 1 Response Jun 20, 2014

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    My aunt took pills, and was alone

    when it happened. She wasn't found until the day after, where my cousin visited her. He found her laying on the bathroom floor, and broke down. He then called letting us know what happened. A week later he kept told us he was "so so sorry" .We found out he shot himself Because...
    flinm flinm 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 18, 2014

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    "It only takes a second

    for my world to come crumbling down" His name was Tyler. He was cute and funny and crazy... And now he's dead. Suicide. I was in seventh grade he was in eighth when I met him. In comedy improve. He loved comedy. And we both got randomly picked. Both of in in the hall for what...
    Cozie Cozie 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    lallyxo lallyxo 18-21, F 1 Response May 5, 2014

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    Joey

    His name was Joey, I met him at the beginning of my sophomore year of high school. We shared English and World History together, and I noticed him noticing me. Every time I looked at him he was looking at me. He was cute in that sloppy clothes, not-trying-too-hard skater boy look...
    autimom autimom 31-35, F 18 Responses Jan 15, 2009

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