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I Lost a Loved One to Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 358 People

    My aunt took pills, and was alone when it happened. She wasn't found until the day after, where my cousin visited her. He found her laying on the bathroom floor, and broke down. He...
    flinm flinm 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 18

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    I'Ll Never Know - I'll never know what could've been. I'll never know if it could've been prevented. Hell, I'll never know what would've been if she had told me the truth. But...
    sophiagrad sophiagrad 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    A Little Advice Please? Found A More Fitting Experience To Post My Story On To, Maybe I Can Give You My Views Too - When I was 11 my mother died to suicide and apparently it was...
    WishingonashootingStar WishingonashootingStar 18-21, F Apr 14, 2013

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    Since I was little, I always got along very well with my father. Relationship with my mother on the other hand has always been very complicated, but overall I think we were a...
    Janeliii Janeliii 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    We Didn't Even Say Good Night - Our last conversation was so regular. He called me dweeb and I called him a jerk and we laughed together. We called a truce and retreated to our...
    ecsited ecsited 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2013

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    Miss U Mum - I lost my mum to suicide on the 13/04/2012.. my mum was my bestfriend and losing her has been so hard. Not seeing her everyday like we used too. The pain still hurts...
    holly51 holly51 26-30 3 Responses May 13, 2013

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    My Cousin - My mom just told me a couple of days ago. He was my cousin. She told me how it happened and for a while I couldnt get the visual out of my head. I kept imagining what...
    SarcasmIsAnArt SarcasmIsAnArt 18-21, F Oct 5, 2013

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    Mason!!! - My best friend Mason shot himself in the chest the 2nd semester of our sophmore year of high school. He was only 15 at the time and it was only a couple of days before...
    MandiLD MandiLD 18-21, F 1 Response May 2, 2012

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    Missing A Piece Of My Heart. - I'm 13 and i lost my dad to suicide 2 months ago he was my best friend and now 'm missing him alot and it feel lonely with out him when i found out...
    neird10 neird10 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 19, 2012

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    My Beloved Husband - On 12-26-2009 I lost my husband to suicide. I had gone to get plumbing parts to fix a broken pipe. I called him from the store to ask if we needed any pipe...
    texasdancer texasdancer 41-45 3 Responses Jun 19, 2010

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    To My Brother: A Lament - On March 13th, 2011 I received a call around 11:30pm from my frantic sister telling me that my baby brother, Clint, had shot himself in my parent's...
    ArbitraryMusing ArbitraryMusing 22-25 3 Responses Apr 25, 2011

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    She took a bottle of pills... She never even made it to the emergency room... I still cry about it sometimes...
    WatchOutItsKyle WatchOutItsKyle 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 6

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    My Brother! - When I was 16, my brother of 18 took his own life by hanging himself in our garage. I was the last one to talk to him. Not only did i lose my Brother that day, I lost...
    clarkLloyd clarkLloyd 31-35 1 Response Aug 20, 2012

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    Just My Thoughts - i'm missing my dad today. well honestly i miss him every day, theres no way to get around it, he's gone. but its days like these, when one small thing happens...
    bluebell14 bluebell14 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 24, 2013

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    Why - When I was twelve my older brother was sixteen. He was getting bullied in school and it was hard for him. He always came to me to cry to because I was younger. It was hard...
    Caitlynn567 Caitlynn567 13-15, F 5 Responses Feb 16, 2013

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    For me it started late September my senior year of high school when I came home to text my boyfriend of almost 2 years I had made homecoming court. I was so excited by the...
    monaghad monaghad 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    My Best Friend And Partner - We met when we started working at the same company at the same time. we hit off great, and we became the terible twosome at work, we where...
    tinkerbell222013 tinkerbell222013 26-30 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    Still Grieving - I lost my father 5 years ago..... It is still so hard to cope, due to no closure, why did he take his own life? here is his story of his life until his death. My...
    Auricor Auricor 26-30, M Apr 30, 2013

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    Loss Of A Close Cousin:( - i remember me waking to find my mom in the kitchen making breakfast so happy like nothing was wrong... Then my dad came home. Not that i hated my dad...
    hidelesscat hidelesscat 26-30 2 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    "If Only" - He was our oldest brother, my hero, and the sibling I was closest to - my touchstone. I knew he was an alcoholic and getting sicker. I just didn't...
    soonermom soonermom 41-45, F 4 Responses Jun 25, 2008

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    Missing My Big Brother!! - Me and my brother are 4 years apart, we weren't always the best of friends but I always looked up to him. He was a great friend, always so full of life...
    Kiki0804 Kiki0804 22-25, F Nov 30, 2013

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    My Cousin - Sometimes David, there are days when you have me wondering if you weren't the smart one out of all us. I only say that due to the circumstances of our family medical...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 4, 2011

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    Not Realizing How Much Pain He Was In Till It Was Too Late - On Feb 14 valentines day I lost my sons father to suicide it was so unexpected.I got a phone call from a friend...
    21pink 21pink 26-30 4 Responses Sep 2, 2012

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    I Lost My Dad - to suicide just this last summer.  Sometimes, actually oftentimes, it feels like I found out about it yesterday.  The weird part, and the part that...
    mgnwilhelm mgnwilhelm 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21, 2010

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    It will be four years in March. I miss you a lot more, lately. I think about you much more. I feel sometimes i am becoming you, as though i am a creation of yours. A child you...
    theMETAmonologue theMETAmonologue 18-21, F Feb 7

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    I Lost My Boyfriend - Chris I love you, and you'll never be forgotten. I know we weren't dating for long, but I still love you. I always will. Yes you acted like everything was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 15, 2013

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    My Mom - It was right before Valentine's day, this year. I was a normal fifteen year old at school, having fun with all her friends. In fact, I think it was the day of our swimming...
    thelyingrose thelyingrose 16-17 2 Responses Aug 11, 2012

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    Hidden Grief? Please Help Anyone. - I just turned 17. My mum killed herself the 14th May 2012. I miss her so much, but I can never find time to express my feelings. It was almost...
    hydrangea23 hydrangea23 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 27, 2012

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    My Dad - I lost my father to suidide august 10th 2013 It all started when my mom tried to commit suicide and she went to rehab and was also a heavy drinker. My dad abused her once...
    LostSuicide LostSuicide 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2013

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    I lost my sister but I think I'll honor her memory by writing a story about her life maybe post it on here
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23

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    Joey - His name was Joey, I met him at the beginning of my sophomore year of high school. We shared English and World History together, and I noticed him noticing me. Every time I...
    autimom autimom 31-35, F 18 Responses Jan 15, 2009

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    My best friends sister committed suicide about three years ago... I can still remember the day it happened. It was June 21. We had just gotten done with our play practice and I...
    sarahjade123 sarahjade123 13-15, F Mar 26

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    Three people now actually.... When i was 7, i lost my Grampy to suicide. He hung himself while intoxicated... November of 2011, My eldest brother, James, ended his life with me...
    TeganLynne TeganLynne 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    Untitled Poem Of Anguish, In Spanish - Nadie los escuchó ni tu lloraría ni la pistola. Nadie lo sabía ni tus secretos ni el dolor de tu alma. Hoy tu dolor es mío. I wrote...
    FeelingOrange FeelingOrange 46-50, F Jan 25, 2013

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    My Closest Cousin - On March 15,2009 my life was changed forever. At around 5:30 I received a frantic but confused call from my uncle. Just as he was asking me if i had heard from...
    MissMyCousin MissMyCousin 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    I Miss Jack Terribly - He moved to my neighborhood and the neighbors couldn't wait to introduce us since we both rode motorcycles. I saw him the first time while we were both out...
    Aintgotjack Aintgotjack 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 21, 2009

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    She hummed inside her thoughts Sung the hymns of the ones she had lost The characters in her mind she had embossed The only way to them was her life it cost A New Year has come...
    FallenxPerfection FallenxPerfection 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    My Dad committed suicide when I was 13 turning 14, March 2011, he tried twice and finished before we got to him the second time. He was a really good dad. He just battled severe...
    blondemelody blondemelody 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    I Am At A Lost For Words - I was raised by my mother and grandparents. My father was absent in my life and my grandfather took his role. He was my dad and raised me from a baby...
    Ccuttle1787 Ccuttle1787 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 7, 2013

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    My Brother - Last year I spent a week with my brother, while my mother was in the hospital. It was kind of a weird time. We hadn't really gotten along in a long time. When I was...
    Vsti71 Vsti71 31-35, F Oct 5, 2013

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    My Puzzle Piece Is Missing - My husband... charismatic, brave, loving and a wonderfully wonderful father and provider lost his battle with his inner demons April 7th 2009. We were...
    FionaFresh FionaFresh 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 26, 2013

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    All These Years I Thought It Was A Heart Attack , Please Help! - Dear EP, I am a 40 year old man with 2 older siblings. Our mother is 76 years old and her health has seen better...
    sobernlost sobernlost 41-45, M 1 Response Nov 7, 2013

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    My Dad Took His Own Life... - On Jan 14th of this year, life as I knew it changed forever...I have always been incredibly close to my mum and dad, we are a close family. But there...
    Jessicaneal Jessicaneal 31-35, F Sep 26, 2013

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    10 Years - It's been 10 years since my boyfriend died. We'd had a massive fight and he told me what ever happens will be on my conscience and handed me a bullet. I always regret...
    Tarynlyn Tarynlyn 31-35, F 5 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    My Drug Addict Of A Mother - Dear Mom, I will always love you even though you nearly killed me once. I never would have wanted to see you leave so soon. Even when at times I felt...
    TakenYoung TakenYoung 18-21 2 Responses Mar 25, 2013

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    The Death Of A Son - I originally posted this story about 8 months ago in another group and decided that it might belong here as well. The feelings I have are indescribable and...
    ScatteredGrapes ScatteredGrapes 41-45, F Aug 8, 2012

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    I just lost my mother to suicide. This December 15th of 2013 was the worst day of my life. I miss my mommy my best friend. She has suffered from mental illness for her entire life...
    Xandi1990 Xandi1990 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    After a 20 year hurtful marriage I meet my soul mate & the love of my life in 2012. He was my life, he loved me like no other, he showed me what love really was, he was my rock...
    sugarmonkey76 sugarmonkey76 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    My Father - My dad took his own life on July 24, 2012. Earlier that day, he sent me a text message saying "Have a truly outstanding day. I love you so much!". He shot himself in...
    Tommy457 Tommy457 16-17 4 Responses Aug 16, 2012

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    Father - My father committed suicide when I was a baby. I spent a long time resenting that. Now I see it from his point of view. I can't quite forgive but I accepted it.
    rh12345 rh12345 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 15, 2013

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