The day the doctor told me he have to opperate was the hardest decisions i had to make mommy told the doctor he can go through with the opperation never did mommy know you are going to get eight brain opperations, well as far as i knew was it the only one and last one boy was i...
I lost my baby to Acute Myloid Leukemia in August 2009 after a 9 month battle! Cyle was my only child! Cyle was such a healthy baby up to the age of 1 until this disaster of a disease took over ! However he still faught the battle to the very end and it did not...
I lost my seven year old son to aml leukemia . The doctors did not know what he had until it was too late.....I miss him ...
He died on September 21, 2011. The leukemia was hiding in his heart and the Doctors had never seen this before. He was so tough till the very end. We took...
My beautiful daughter was just 14 when she first encountered cancer. She underwent Brain surgery and then radiotherapy twice a day for 10 weeks followed by chemo for 14 months. It was a really tough time for her and the rest of us. She had a Medulloblastoma.She missed almost 2...
The moment that you died
my heart was torn in two,
one side filled with heartache,
the other died with you.
I often lie awake at night,
when the world is fast asleep,
and take a walk down memory lane,
with tears upon my cheeks.
Remembering you is easy,
I do it every day,
I came across this forum while fundraising for childhood cancer research. Your stories of your angels have me in tears, I cannot even begin to understand what you are going through but you are all so strong and fighting through. I have a four year old daughter and cherish her...
on March 5, 2012. At Texas Children Hospital in Houston, Tx. It has been the hard for the family to deal with and we miss her very much.
I feel lost and alone fighting all this hurt and angry for how all this happen. How could doctor's lie and not tell the true but give...
I have two living children now. Jason is healthy, and growing up. Sasha is mentally ill, and stuck in place.
Brinley was my baby boy, born a few years before Jason. He only made it to his fourth year of life, but he was light and happy, always smiling.
It hurts to realize...
I Love You This Much
please don't cry.
I'm in heaven now,
so dry your eyes.
God is keeping me safe and warm,
just as you did from the day I was born.
We don't know for sure why this happened to me,
but in your heart, mind and soul I will always be.
My handsome boy was diagnosed with a medulloblastoma (cancerous brain tumour) in Nov 06 and he was aged 5.He had a 6hr operation to remove the tumour which was a size of an satsuma. The surgeons told us it was a sucessful op He endured 6wks everyday of radiation followed by...
We lost our daughter to a malignant brain tumour too close to the pituitary gland to remove it. Life has been hell since we lost our Renée. The problem with losing a child is that its hard to get away from people when they brag about their kids because that...
One month, one day since Sophie passed.
Started back at work.
That awkward moment when you walk in and no one looks at you, or talks to you or even dacknowledges you. Because you have lost your daughter and they don't know what to say.
Thankfully, since the awkward first day...
Oliver was diagnosed with stage 4 nueroblastoma wen he was 3 in 2010. He's now 6 years old and is about to lose his battle. Im looking for a safe place to talk and share memories of his life when he leaves us in a couple of months. He is my neighbor and we are close enough to be...
where I can connect with others who have sadly lost their child to cancer. My daughter Darah, was fourteen when she passed away - only a year ago, from Ewing sarcoma. I want to provide some comfort to those who are grieving by telling them to open their heart. I write about my...
Spread your wings and fly butterfly!
Your beauty has touched us all.
Your wings so very delicate,
But your spirit conquers all.
You’ve given us so much on earth
But God now reclaims his prize.
Spread your wings and fly butterfly!
Let your colors brighten the sky.
One Day Closer to You
I sometimes ask the Lord
Why He took you before me,
And though He's never answered-
I guess it was meant to be.
I tell myself you're watching,
That you're never far away;
I sometimes feel the slightest touch
When I bow my head to pray.
I know heaven must...
Just one little peek into heaven,
Is all I'm asking for today.
I just want to know how she's doing,
And heaven seems so far away.
Is she playing on the clouds with angels?
Is she laughing and running today?
Does she miss me?
I guess only she knows.
Oh why does heaven seem so far...
I woke up this morning after dreaming of him. I dreamed I was asking everyone if they had been tested for a bone marrow match. After awhile I told them (whoever them is) that it didn't matter that I hadn't been tested yet and I would be the best match for him anyway because I...
My friend wrote about it.
A Book and a Mission
The last thing Kirk Forbes ever thought he would do is write a book. He also never imagined he would champion a major medical cause for women around the...
I watched the months before.
I watched and held her close and cuddled her as she vomited violently, more violently than I ever thought possible.
I told her I loved her and that she was beautiful and I watched as her beautiful russet hair slowly fell from her head.
I'm a newcomer, both to this group and to this reality. On July 24th, my daughter, Sophie, died, after nearly ten months spent battling against acute lymphoblastic leukaemia. It wasn't meant to end like this. We were waiting to be matched for a bone marrow transplant. She was my...
Johnny was 6 months old when I noticed a lump under his ribcage, I waited in the ER for 3 hours for a pediatrician to show up , she said his liver was a little big and he'd grow into it after doing no tests just by feeling his belly . Her diagnosis didn't set well with me so I...
Our daughter died of colon cancer in November 02, 2010. She was 31 years old. This is difficult for me in writing this. I have not stopped crying and I Talk to my
" baby girl " every day. All through her chemotherapy, she was amazing. Strong and determined to win that battle...
We little knew that morning
God was going to call your name,
In Life we loved you dearly
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you
You did not go alone,
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.
You left us beautiful memories
Your love is still our...
My story is like each and every one here.I lost my only son on 7 October 2010 he was only 3 years old. A letter from a friends mother-in-law (a person that I did not even know) gave me such hope and support. I'd like to share it with every one and hopefully you take away some...
You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes
and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes
and see all she has left.
Your heart can be empty
because you can't see her
or you can be full of
the love you shared...
God made a sweet child
a child who never grew old
He made a smile of sunshine
He molded a heart of pure gold.
He made that child as close to an angel
as anyone ever could be
God made a Sweet Child
and He gave that dear child to me
Then God saw His wonderful creation
Those are only two of the many things I've learned since I lost my son (8 years old) to Rhabdomyosarcoma almost 4 years ago.
Another thing I learned is that God DOES give us more than we can handle sometimes. If God didn't give people more than they could handle we wouldn't see...
NO TEARS PAST THE GATE
Someone new has entered
our eternal home above.
The heavenly gate has opened wide
to welcome the one you love.
We cannot help the tears that fall-
our hearts need time to grieve
when earthly life has ended
and a loved one has to leave.
Yet even in the...
She was taken, Her beautifull smile was taken but don`t worry. She was taken by God to the golden gates of heaven , Where there is no pain , a place where she can smile again while sitting amongs angels, because she is one of them, a angel i say. But don`t fear God is the...
multiforme at thirteen-years-old. He had the most tender of hearts and waged his battle with incredible courage. Within seven years I lost my husband, my son and my mother-in-law to cancer. My journey has been published in my memoir called "In the Cleft:  ...
MY PRECIOUS GIRL
Saskia was my little girl.
She tried to give life a whirl,
But the Lord knew that she was His.
I had to be alright with this.
She was so tiny and could not gain weight because of the cancer,
But that is fixed and she got a new start.
She is in heaven and that's...
I know, not long after posting my other experience....I'm on a bit of a posting spree, just posting random experiences and feelings all around EP. Sometimes I break off and do something and go back and I just want something- anything- to make me forget the moment they took her...
I miss you, little Emma,
And I'll never forget that day,
The day when those angels came,
To take my Emma away,
I've lost you, Emma, in body,
But you'll forever live in my heart,
And although I want you to live here and now,
I know we'll never be apart,
Six years ago since I...
Sophie died, on July 24th, aged eight, as a result of acute lymphoblastic leukaemia.
So much has changed. A few months have passed. I am back at work. My daughter goes to counselling twice a week, Monday and Thursday. Two sessions a week, to make up for a lifetime without Sophie...
In August 1987 it was a bright and shinny day. But my child could not go outside, because her legs hurt her so bad. We took her to the hospital, and the doctor said that she was o.k. she just have been running too much, and her legs need rest. She rest...
Sophie, who died of acute lymphoblastic leukaemia, has got a memorial in the hospital bereavement garden, for children and babies. It's a beautiful statue of a flower patch, with a dormouse hiding in it, peeping out.
I have joined another support group. They want to set up a...
please read below concerning a camp that we started for families who lost a child due to cancer. We lost our son Nate January of 2013 due to Medulloblastoma, a brain and spine cancer. This is meant to be a camp for healing. Please pass along. Feel free to contact me with any...
My name is Jessica. On may 6, 2011 I gave birth to the most amazing, healthy, 9lb 4oz, baby boy & named him jaedyn marquise Hargrove. I remember holding him and just thinking, wow he's finally here! (I was two weeks over due) and thinking that god blessed me again so much with a...
Joy Comes in the Mourning (found on Amazon and Barnes and Noble)
“Grandy’s arms ached and she felt stone cold and empty. There were no words that could describe the pain she was feeling. What’s more, when she looked out the window it surprised her to see how the rest of...