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I Lost My Child to Cancer

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    Waiting For Someone To Come And Tell Me This Is Not Real

    I'm a newcomer, both to this group and to this reality. On July 24th, my daughter, Sophie, died, after nearly ten months spent battling against acute lymphoblastic leukaemia. It wasn't meant to end like this. We were waiting to be matched for a bone marrow transplant. She was my...
    SkyeLarke SkyeLarke 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    Life Is Never the Same. I Will Never Be the Same.

    Those are only two of the many things I've learned since I lost my son (8 years old) to Rhabdomyosarcoma almost 4 years ago. Another thing I learned is that God DOES give us more than we can handle sometimes. If God didn't give people more than they could handle we wouldn't see...
    McGuinea McGuinea 41-45 5 Responses Jul 4, 2008

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    Visiting Oliver

    I saw Oliver today, my 6 year old neighbor who is losing his battle to nueroblastoma. He ran to the door to greet me and I swept him into my arms. We sat down and played with his Legos for a while. I noticed how incredibly skinny, bald, tired, and sick he looked. Then, in his...
    Festerr Festerr 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 28, 2013

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    My Angel Saskia

    Teardrops of my heart I have been crying for so long I just don't know where to start To end the flowing rivers of sadness in teardrops of my heart. Spirit is torn, heart sharply pierced with loss causing me pain Where do I start, how does sorrow end, how shall I sustain? You...
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 25, 2013

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    How Long?

    One month, one day since Sophie passed. Started back at work. That awkward moment when you walk in and no one looks at you, or talks to you or even dacknowledges you. Because you have lost your daughter and they don't know what to say. Thankfully, since the awkward first day...
    SkyeLarke SkyeLarke 36-40, F Aug 25, 2013

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    Osteosarcoma

    In August 1987 it was a bright and shinny day.  But my child could not go outside, because her legs hurt her so bad.  We took her to the hospital, and the doctor said that she was o.k. she just have been running too much, and her legs need rest. She rest...
    Pudden Pudden 51-55, F 4 Responses Nov 16, 2007

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    Taken Before Her Time

    My beautiful daughter was just 14 when she first encountered cancer. She underwent Brain surgery and then radiotherapy twice a day for 10 weeks followed by chemo for 14 months. It was a really tough time for her and the rest of us. She had a Medulloblastoma.She missed almost 2...
    kirjaran kirjaran 36-40 2 Responses May 13, 2011

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    I Watched As My Daughter Died

    I watched the months before. I watched and held her close and cuddled her as she vomited violently, more violently than I ever thought possible. I told her I loved her and that she was beautiful and I watched as her beautiful russet hair slowly fell from her head. I watched...
    SarcasticMum SarcasticMum 31-35, F 5 Responses May 11, 2013

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    Saskia

    One Day Closer to You I sometimes ask the Lord Why He took you before me, And though He's never answered- I guess it was meant to be. I tell myself you're watching, That you're never far away; I sometimes feel the slightest touch When I bow my head to pray. I know heaven must...
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F 4 Responses May 14, 2013

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    My Angel ♥♥

    Your presence we miss Your memory we treasure, Loving you always Forgetting you never.
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F Jun 5, 2013

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    So.

    I know, not long after posting my other experience....I'm on a bit of a posting spree, just posting random experiences and feelings all around EP. Sometimes I break off and do something and go back and I just want something- anything- to make me forget the moment they took her...
    SkyeLarke SkyeLarke 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 11, 2013

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    This Is For All Of You Who Had Also Lost An Angel , I Wrote This For My Saskia.

    She was taken, Her beautifull smile was taken but don`t worry. She was taken by God to the golden gates of heaven , Where there is no pain , a place where she can smile again while sitting amongs angels, because she is one of them, a angel i say. But don`t fear God is the...
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 26, 2013

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    Letter To A Mother That Lost Her Child To Cancer

    Hi My story is like each and every one here.I lost my only son on 7 October 2010 he was only 3 years old. A letter from a friends mother-in-law (a person that I did not even know) gave me such hope and support. I'd like to share it with every one and hopefully you take away some...
    Vanishree Vanishree 31-35 6 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    I Missing You So Much Today... My Angel

    Just one little peek into heaven, Is all I'm asking for today. I just want to know how she's doing, And heaven seems so far away. Is she playing on the clouds with angels? Is she laughing and running today? Does she miss me? I guess only she knows. Oh why does heaven seem so far...
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F 1 Response May 3, 2013

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    I Love You Saskia ♥♥♥♥♥

    We little knew that morning God was going to call your name, In Life we loved you dearly In death we do the same. It broke our hearts to lose you You did not go alone, For part of us went with you The day God called you home. You left us beautiful memories Your love is still our...
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    My name is Wes Oxford,

    please read below concerning a camp that we started for families who lost a child due to cancer. We lost our son Nate January of 2013 due to Medulloblastoma, a brain and spine cancer. This is meant to be a camp for healing. Please pass along. Feel free to contact me with any...
    wesoxford wesoxford 41-45, M Jan 18

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    Elizabeth

    Our daughter died of colon cancer in November 02, 2010. She was 31 years old. This is difficult for me in writing this. I have not stopped crying and I Talk to my " baby girl " every day. All through her chemotherapy, she was amazing. Strong and determined to win that battle...
    Yolikeefe Yolikeefe 61-65 3 Responses Jun 13, 2013

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    Medulloblastoma

    My handsome boy was diagnosed with a medulloblastoma (cancerous brain tumour) in Nov 06 and he was aged 5.He had a 6hr operation to remove the tumour which was a size of an satsuma. The surgeons told us it was a sucessful op He endured 6wks everyday of radiation followed by...
    threekids threekids 36-40 8 Responses May 30, 2008

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    July 24th

    Sophie died, on July 24th, aged eight, as a result of acute lymphoblastic leukaemia. So much has changed. A few months have passed. I am back at work. My daughter goes to counselling twice a week, Monday and Thursday. Two sessions a week, to make up for a lifetime without Sophie...
    SkyeLarke SkyeLarke 36-40, F 9 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    My Darling Saskia

    God made a sweet child a child who never grew old He made a smile of sunshine He molded a heart of pure gold. He made that child as close to an angel as anyone ever could be God made a Sweet Child and He gave that dear child to me Then God saw His wonderful creation growing very...
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F 1 Response May 3, 2013

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    Bryce

    I lost my seven year old son to aml leukemia . The doctors did not know what he had until it was too late.....I miss him ... He died on September 21, 2011. The leukemia was hiding in his heart and the Doctors had never seen this before. He was so tough till the very end. We took...
    janderson10 janderson10 31-35 1 Response Nov 8, 2012

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    Saskia ♥

    NO TEARS PAST THE GATE Someone new has entered our eternal home above. The heavenly gate has opened wide to welcome the one you love. We cannot help the tears that fall- our hearts need time to grieve when earthly life has ended and a loved one has to leave. Yet even in the...
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F Jun 5, 2013

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    Renée

    We lost our daughter to a malignant brain tumour too close to the pituitary gland to remove it.  Life has been hell since we lost our Renée.  The problem with losing a child is that its hard to get away from people when they brag about their kids because that...
    Reneeclaire Reneeclaire 51-55, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2009

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    She Has Got Her Place

    Sophie, who died of acute lymphoblastic leukaemia, has got a memorial in the hospital bereavement garden, for children and babies. It's a beautiful statue of a flower patch, with a dormouse hiding in it, peeping out. I have joined another support group. They want to set up a...
    SkyeLarke SkyeLarke 36-40, F Aug 30, 2013

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    Childhood Cancer Awareness Month

    I came across this forum while fundraising for childhood cancer research. Your stories of your angels have me in tears, I cannot even begin to understand what you are going through but you are all so strong and fighting through. I have a four year old daughter and cherish her...
    Zoetimms Zoetimms 26-30, F Sep 4, 2013

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    My Darling Saskia

    Spread your wings and fly butterfly! Your beauty has touched us all. Your wings so very delicate, But your spirit conquers all. You’ve given us so much on earth But God now reclaims his prize. Spread your wings and fly butterfly! Let your colors brighten the sky. We will...
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F Jun 5, 2013

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    ♥Saskia♥

    MY PRECIOUS GIRL Saskia was my little girl. She tried to give life a whirl, But the Lord knew that she was His. I had to be alright with this. She was so tiny and could not gain weight because of the cancer, But that is fixed and she got a new start. She is in heaven and that's...
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2013

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    Beat It Back, The Memories

    I have two living children now. Jason is healthy, and growing up. Sasha is mentally ill, and stuck in place. Brinley was my baby boy, born a few years before Jason. He only made it to his fourth year of life, but he was light and happy, always smiling. It hurts to realize...
    The100DayLetters The100DayLetters 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 5, 2013

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    For My Girl. ♥

    The moment that you died my heart was torn in two, one side filled with heartache, the other died with you. I often lie awake at night, when the world is fast asleep, and take a walk down memory lane, with tears upon my cheeks. Remembering you is easy, I do it every day, but...
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F Jun 6, 2013

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    My Dearest Saskia Mommy Miss You So Much.

    The day the doctor told me he have to opperate was the hardest decisions i had to make mommy told the doctor he can go through with the opperation never did mommy know you are going to get eight brain opperations, well as far as i knew was it the only one and last one boy was i...
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F 2 Responses May 13, 2013

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    Daughter Kristen 23 Yr Cervical Cancer

    My friend wrote about it. A Book and a Mission               The last thing Kirk Forbes ever thought he would do is write a book. He also never imagined he would champion a major medical cause for women around the...
    piplance piplance 56-60 2 Responses Feb 23, 2009

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    My Jaclyn

    My little girl got brain cancer when she was 2.5 yrs old..in 1996 it was the worse day of my life she was a beautiful blue eyed Blondel little girl filled with life and joyness she went through so much treatments for 8.5 yrs and I was blessed to take care of her she taught me so...
    jaclyn512 jaclyn512 36-40 Jan 11, 2013

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    My Angel

    I Love You This Much Mommy, mommy, please don't cry. I'm in heaven now, so dry your eyes. God is keeping me safe and warm, just as you did from the day I was born. We don't know for sure why this happened to me, but in your heart, mind and soul I will always be. We need...
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 29, 2013

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    Oliver

    Oliver was diagnosed with stage 4 nueroblastoma wen he was 3 in 2010. He's now 6 years old and is about to lose his battle. Im looking for a safe place to talk and share memories of his life when he leaves us in a couple of months. He is my neighbor and we are close enough to be...
    Festerr Festerr 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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    Losing My Son Too Soon To Cancer

    Johnny was 6 months old when I noticed a lump under his ribcage, I waited in the ER for 3 hours for a pediatrician to show up , she said his liver was a little big and he'd grow into it after doing no tests just by feeling his belly . Her diagnosis didn't set well with me so I...
    lilabeaver lilabeaver 46-50 4 Responses May 6, 2013

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    Emma

    I miss you, little Emma, And I'll never forget that day, The day when those angels came, To take my Emma away, I've lost you, Emma, in body, But you'll forever live in my heart, And although I want you to live here and now, I know we'll never be apart, Six years ago since I...
    SarcassticMum SarcassticMum 31-35, F 1 Response May 11, 2013

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    It's A Tyler Day.

    I woke up this morning after dreaming of him.  I dreamed I was asking everyone if they had been tested for a bone marrow match.  After awhile I told them (whoever them is) that it didn't matter that I hadn't been tested yet and I would be the best match for him anyway because I...
    sg0617 sg0617 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 7, 2011

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    Lost My Son To Malignant Brain Tumor

    I lost my first born son Makael in october of 2009 to a rare brain tumor known as DIPG or diffuse intrinsic pontine glioma, I love and miss him very much. He was diagnosed in 2008 @ the age of four, the doctors knew right away it was terminal and gave him about a year to live if...
    Miracleman04 Miracleman04 31-35, M Dec 29, 2012

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    My 2 Year Old Son Cyle !

    I lost my baby to Acute Myloid Leukemia in August 2009 after a 9 month battle! Cyle was my only child! Cyle was such a healthy baby up to the age of 1 until this disaster of a disease took over ! However he still faught the battle to the very end and it did not...
    goosy75 goosy75 31-35, F 7 Responses Apr 11, 2009

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    Jaedyn's Story May 6, 2011 - November 18, 2011

    My name is Jessica. On may 6, 2011 I gave birth to the most amazing, healthy, 9lb 4oz, baby boy & named him jaedyn marquise Hargrove. I remember holding him and just thinking, wow he's finally here! (I was two weeks over due) and thinking that god blessed me again so much with a...
    Jaedyn0611 Jaedyn0611 18-21 5 Responses Apr 17, 2012

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    Love You Always Saskia ♥

     You can shed tears that she is gone, or you can smile because she has lived. You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all she has left. Your heart can be empty because you can't see her or you can be full of the love you shared...
    natashatjie natashatjie 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 6, 2013

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