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I Lost My Dad to Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 61 People

    How It Happened.

    It was early in the morning, I woke up next to my boyfriend, I was 17 years old.  My dad and I had been fighting pretty bad because he didn't want me to live with my boyfriend and I didn't want him to have underage drinking parties for my 15 year old sister.  He was...
    krouti2891 krouti2891
    18-21, F
    Jan 19, 2010

    Wow. He Actually Did It

    I have to share this because it is so ****** up and it still tears me up inside. It's been around three years now after my dad killed himself in his shower. He died by carbon monixide poisoning. Later I found out he tried to use a helium tank, jump out of his window at work, hang...
    joes2001 joes2001
    26-30, M
    5 Responses Aug 29, 2011

    Dear Dad

    it feels like yesterday when i heard the horrible news.   i remember that night perfectly, i was running around voe with my friends and then i was told to come home. the worst thing a daughter can hear is, your father killed himself. i didn't know what to do with...
    Shygirl90 Shygirl90
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 6, 2009

    My dad killed himself with morphine patches.

    My mother is a selfish women who chewed him up and spit him out. She told him she wanted a divorce one night. That night I heard my father begging and pleading to her that he would make her happy. I don't want to go into specifics because the bottom line was that my mother had...
    Amr6121992 Amr6121992
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 12, 2014

    They Never Told Me

    I was 8. They told me that he had a heart attack. As I got older I grew suspicious, and I knew that wasn't the whole story. I had a hunch that he did take his own life. But no one ever told me. I wanted to just let it be, though. I figured I could best honor my father by...
    accomplice accomplice
    46-50, M
    4 Responses Dec 20, 2010

    A Day I Won't Forget...

    It's hard to believe that this really happened, yet it did. My dad had gone missing. Actually, my dad had come home from a therapy session and left an hour later. He didn't say goodbye to my brother and my mom was with me while I was having a medical procedure done. Because I was...
    mcdonaldsworker mcdonaldsworker
    18-21
    1 Response Dec 19, 2010

    The Lost Of Loved Ones Within The Last Four Years

    it was hard when my 1st brother died in 2004 then the eldest in 2006, and another in 2007 i found the strenght to mend that emptyness of not having them around through my mother and my own family, but death had not finished knocking at our door,cause 2008 came in do...
    DaddadMaaka DaddadMaaka
    46-50, M
    Oct 16, 2009

    My Head Is So Messed Up

    First of all I don't know why I'm writing this, I just feel like I need someone to listen to me for a change I suppose.   It was 1998 and I was 7 years old, My mum had moved me, my younger brother, my younger sister and the dog to my Gran's with her, because my dad had...
    mcvicyc mcvicyc
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2010

    My Father Shot Himself And I Found Him

    I was only 11 when he did it. He shout himself in the head and I was the one who found him. I will never forget that night. I was in shock for years. I only cried about it when it first happened and then not again until years later. Over 20 years has passed and I'm still not...
    SomeoneOutThere SomeoneOutThere
    41-45, M
    1 Response Jun 16, 2013

    He may not have been my real father,

    but i still considered him that. he was everything to our family. it was the morning of June 10th, i got a text from my sister saying i need to call asap "FAMILY EMERGENCY". so once i found the news it didnt hit me for like 5 mins then i started balling my eyes out. he left...
    lindseyloo292 lindseyloo292
    22-25, F
    Jan 18, 2014

    My father shot himself

    when I was barely five years old, before I could grow big enough to know him. I've had no male role models in my life, and it's only now that I'm in my late 20's that I'm starting to realize how much I've missed out on (and how much I've let myself miss out on.) I have no money...
    stgnant stgnant
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 9, 2014

    Missing Link

    My dad killed himself when I was two months old. I never was given a chance to know him and I struggle with that each and every day of my life. I feel like people also don't care as much because I wasn't old enough to be aware of his suicide and the pain of losing him. But it's...
    occase occase
    18-21, F
    Apr 15, 2012

    Convoluted Contemplation Of My Dad's Suicide

    It was a little over a month ago...I'll never forget that day. I'm 17, and have always had a super close relationship with my Dad. We were buds, we got one another, we had the same sense of humor, the same passiveness, the same optimism, and the same appreciation. Well, the...
    nattownsend nattownsend
    18-21, F
    May 19, 2012

    I Really Wish...

    Wish I could bring him back to life. I know he'd still be alive if I was never born. I know that a few people in my family suggested it's my fault, as if I didn't know myself. It must have worsened his depression to have another child (me) with his already ex wife (my mother) and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 3, 2013

    Lost Of Loved Ones

    i would like to apologise about my entrie as  i had not taken time to see what this site was about i dont think my grife is in this catogre??? im very very sorry DaddadMaaka
    DaddadMaaka DaddadMaaka
    46-50, M
    Oct 17, 2009

    Dec 10th 2010

    i was at my building working late morning my dad stopped in we chatted for about 15 minutes nothing of much importance just how are you what are you doing so we say our good byes i walk him out to his car. went back inside finished my day of work went home go ready to go to my...
    dbr2148 dbr2148
    51-55
    Aug 3, 2012

    My dads funeral was far beyond emotional.

    If any sort of medical doctor were to be there I would have been locked away. At the funeral home they have "name plates" above the doorways to let family's know which room to go in. I seen his name and I started bawling right away. I couldn't walk. I sat outside of the room...
    ImissHim82269 ImissHim82269
    22-25, F
    Dec 1, 2013

    I’ve never done this before,

    so I’m dealing with it the best way I know how. The “best way” seems to change from moment to moment, and right now I feel like writing. So I am. It’s taken me a while to get to this point, and I know there are people worried about me, so I figured it was time to talk...
    gamerpaige gamerpaige
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 11, 2014

    July 23, 2005

    I guess you will never forget the date that your Dad died, let alone suicide.  He shot himself. 
    strimas strimas
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jan 17, 2008

    T-Shirt In Jail

    I found out that my dad died around valentines day when I was in 11th grade. No one told me how. He had been in jail since I was in second grade. My grandfather said that "they were lying said it was suicide" but he didn't believe them. So I googled it and found out that my...
    Rozzysings Rozzysings
    18-21, F
    Sep 3, 2013

    Gone Too Fast.

    My dad shot himself in June of this year. I still can't comprehend it to this day. He was funny, always cracking jokes, being a smart ***, and just in general an all around great guy. He raised me with classic rock... He was stuck in the 80s. But I loved it. I loved everything...
    greivingteen greivingteen
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 8, 2013

    Ages Ago

    my dad shot himself three times in the chest when i was 11. My family never spoke of it afterwards, they never could, i havnt seen them for 6 years and dont want to, maybe thats why?
    skyISfalling skyISfalling
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Nov 10, 2008

    Shot Himself When I Was 13

    My dad shot himself when I was 13 - I was the last to see him and the first to find him... I helped clean the blood from the walls and furniture after wards.
    00Shiva00 00Shiva00
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jan 29, 2008

    My Dad

    my dad hung himself when i 11 years old i was the last one to see him alive and the first to find him dead
    kelkz kelkz
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jan 20, 2008

    My Dad <3

    I lost my dad to suicide when i was four. him and my mum split a while before 'apparently' due to his mental health problems. she hardly let me see him and i have no memory of him at all, only pictures. my mum and dad got back together shortly before he died. the only reason my...
    Rachy12 Rachy12
    18-21
    Jun 18, 2011

    What Do I Do Now?

    My dad shot himself yesterday. I found him. Laying there, in the hammock. I shook him, grabbed his face, felt the warmth of his body. I can reply every moment of the scene. We've been fighting for years, I always did my own thing. My parents were going through a divorce.. And...
    1 Response Feb 16, 2013

    Missing Daddy

    It was a couple of days before Christmas 2008 and my boyfriend went off to work at 7am in the morning and i got up to get my daughter and myself ready to go out shopping for the day, bout an hour and half later my boyfriend at the time showed up from work. I thought it was...
    falcon82 falcon82
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 1, 2011

    My father killed himself in 1999.

    I was 12 at the time. My parents have 4 children. Myself being the eldest. My sister, who was 10 at the time, and my two brothers who were still at my mothers teat. It was summer time, I was in my room, falling asleep after reading another book from the Animorphs series when it...
    ShortLittleEskimo ShortLittleEskimo
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 5, 2014

    Sure I Don't Care, Right?

    This year at night I got a phone call. That... man [actually from my family] said my dad hanged... I couldn't believe, I was shocked. He closed himself in his house to make sure nobody could help him... I can't think how he was lonely and desperate. I can't believe I was so blind...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 3, 2009

    The Day I Found Out He Killed Himself.

    From the title its pretty self explanatory what this little story is going to be all about. Its not easy for me to let this all out. Dealing with all these emotions is a never ending battle. Its like trying to untangle a knot from a 100,000,000 mile long chain. Talking about it...
    ImissHim82269 ImissHim82269
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 28, 2013
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