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I Lost My Father

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    I never got to tell my father goodbye,

    and that realization kills me. I don't think about it often and its only a passing worry if I do, since he died so long ago, but when I do I blame myself for not being more self-aware. I had autism, unbeknownst to anyone until after he died, and my amazing father died from...
    justinm96 justinm96 18-21, M Jan 23

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    Thirteen months ago today.

    .. I sure do miss him
    itsBob itsBob 51-55, M 3 Responses Jan 17

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    August 12th 2006 I lost my best friend in the

    whole world my daddy. Tomorrow it will be 8 years he collapsed in a Disney Park. Went into cardiac arrest and the park staff stood around as he died. Disney Land the land of the tradgickal!!
    stakalisious stakalisious 36-40, F 12 Responses Aug 11, 2014

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    I'm trying not to be sad about missing my

    father during the holidays. I've actually done a pretty good job of remembering our talks and visits. My heart is full of thanks to my boyfriend who encouraged me to put up a Christmas tree. I wasn't going to. I was going to be minimalist, but the lights and decor and...
    PinkJeanie1970 PinkJeanie1970 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 22, 2015

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    I miss u dada I miss u

    so much, u are my heart my soul my blood my everything. Love u a lot RIP Wajid Ali Shah
    Obaidjan Obaidjan 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 5

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    I was about 13 years old,

    so almost out of primary school. I was in school at the time taking a final exam when the principal walked up to my teacher and pulled her aside and spoke to her. My teacher tapped me on the shoulder and told me to come with her and so I did. She sat down with me outside and...
    TheRoyalFlushGang TheRoyalFlushGang 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2015

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    My father passed in March

    and there are certain things that make me break down and cry: Father's Day (didn't realize how hard it would be) Any play or movie with a dad In a hospital bed. We recently saw a play similar to Big Fish and I couldn't contain myself. It's amazing how weak (that's a bad term...
    KindHeartedGuy KindHeartedGuy 41-45, M 12 Responses Nov 6, 2015

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    I lost my father just under 3 weeks ago.

    I'm hurting every day. I miss you dad so much. You were the worlds best father and you will never be forgotten.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 30, 2015

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    My dad died May 3, 2015 from a sudden heart

    attack! He was my best friend, and loved my children to the moon and back. My world is not the same without him...
    brtndr41 brtndr41 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2015

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    At four years of age

    and presently, I have been struck with a befuddling question, one that is making me contrite and disgusted at myself i.e. was my dad's death for my own good? He shot himself in the head with his gun. Minutes ago, I passed him to go to the little room adjacent to our room, it...
    Poiu2767 Poiu2767 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2015

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    Today I lost my father

    but not by death but by his inability to get over himself. Some may say it's sad and I have shed my tears but now I stand tall because I know it is not I that will be missing out on him putting me down and him calling me disgusting, a disappointment, and a disgrace to the family...
    Miss25234 Miss25234 16-17, F 5 Responses Feb 5, 2014

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    My dearest friend's father is doing very poorly.

    .. I've been thinking of her and her father non stop for days. It has me also thinking of my father. My dad wasn't a man to show much affection. He worked several jobs, had his flaws aplenty, drank too much and had a bad temper. He didn't have a father through much of his life...
    brokencowboy brokencowboy 41-45, M 5 Responses Nov 4, 2015

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    I lost my father last year.

    .. He died from lung cancer. He was a very good man. I remember, when I was 6, we barely have nothing to eat. He turns to me and said:" Eat son, I will eat If someone lefts". He worked in a place which is 25 km from my house. Every night, he would walked to house, just not to pay...
    Petronijeee Petronijeee 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 8, 2015

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    yah, I lost my father.

    ...sux.... but, alteast I have already been thru that tragedy, I don't have to ever worry about going thru it, again once was enuff.... Rip daddy ily
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 18, 2015

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    This wensday its going to be 5 Fu****** years

    that I lost my dad to cancer it still hurt alot I cant get over the fact that he is not here I still cry my self to bed I miss him so such he was more than a Dad to me I lost everything
    Galleta666 Galleta666 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 6, 2015

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    I lost my father unexpectedly on August 22,

    2014 (heart attack). I never imagined losing a parent at 16 years old. I always fought he'd be there to watch me walk across the stage at graduation, hear what college i'd go to, and especially walk me down the aisle at my wedding. It's been a year since he's been gone and not a...
    Jessicavitone Jessicavitone 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 27, 2015

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    I just wanted to write down random thoughts

    today because I felt a bit saddish earlier, but im fine now. Im happy again thanks to my family and ep. ^_^ When my dad died. i didnt expect it at all and i refused to believe it at first completely. my other siblings got it right away and they were crying and grieving properly...
    Slothislife Slothislife 18-21, M 9 Responses Nov 14, 2014

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    My father was running in the afternoon

    while my mother and I were shopping. He collapsed because his heart stopped beating. He fell onto the concrete, unconscious. He got immediate CPR from a bystander and was rushed to the hospital by an ambulance. They shocked him and finally his heart started up again. My mother...
    lily13576349 lily13576349 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2015

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    I Don’t Remember My Father, But I Know Him

    In the mid-1970’s, my mother had just gotten her associate’s degree in American Sign Language and started her first job as an interpreter. The US was just beginning accommodations we now take for granted for deaf people, and the company that hired her would send her to...
    samctv10 samctv10 36-40, M 13 Responses Feb 6, 2012

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    I am getting ready for my four out-of-state

    siblings to arrive for Thanksgiving week. The, "Big Kids," as my mom used to call them. The Big Kids will start arriving on Friday night. I'm making a scrap book of dad's sympathy cards for easy perusal. I'll copy and scan the several love letters he wrote to mom. We'll go...
    PinkJeanie1970 PinkJeanie1970 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 17, 2015

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    (Please excuse spaces.

    Using the App) On October 2nd 2015 my father passed into his next existence. I knew it was coming...we all did. The last day was not what i had previously experienced with someone's death...they laid there as if asleep and I was able to talk to them and hold their hand. My...
    Ravenwind43 Ravenwind43 41-45, F 18 Responses Oct 5, 2015

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    Today is the 4 year anniversary of my fathers

    death... I know I never really had a good relationship with my dad.. But I wish I could go back in time and try again..
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 1, 2015

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    Instant Gratification

    It's true what everyone says. When you lose someone who was so close to you, and so involved in your life, the pain never really goes away. I lost my father 5 and a half months ago, and I still feel like he is on a perpetual vacation. He was not an alcoholic, was not abusive, and...
    snickersbar snickersbar 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    I barely got to know him

    before he upped and left. from what i was told he was a good man. i often wonder where he is and if he misses me and my mother. i always wonder to my self if i would want to meet him.
    BaJohnson BaJohnson 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I lost my father almost a year ago (dead

    for a year on January 5th) He was in a coma for a month, and was later proclaimed "brain-dead" I tried my best to feel better and to start a new life...it was going fine until recently i guess i was just blocking my feelings-i didn't want to be seen as the sad girl who everyone...
    kimaouad kimaouad 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 23, 2015

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    I lost my father when I was only 37.

    He was my best friend and partner in crime. It was a very complex relationship and there were some very difficult times but I loved him with all my heart and we had a bond like no other. I think of him and miss him everyday and the mere thought of him brings the tears as if it...
    rescuemuttsrule rescuemuttsrule 41-45 2 Responses Mar 21, 2015

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    Lost my Dad less than 48 hrs ago from stage 4

    stomach cancer. Its the hardest most difficult thing I have ever experienced. My dads and my relationship was rocky to say the lest, from birth till about ten years ago when I had my son. My Dad became the man and father I always needed and wanted. My best friend the one person...
    jky3rd jky3rd 31-35, M 3 Responses Sep 20, 2015

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    His name was Donald, everyone called him

    "Donnie" or "Don" my entire life. He was either in his late 50s or early 60s, I don't actually know how old he was. It was the end of August of 2012, I was eighteen years old and pregnant with my son. Prior to losing my father, I lost my maternal grandparents... Grandma died in...
    MadGirl1308 MadGirl1308 22-25, F Jan 17

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    On May 9th 2014 my father passed do to a stroke

    its has been quite an ordeal for my mother and sister; along with me. My father was a good man, and one who loved us very much. I know what its like to go through the struggle. So, if you ever want some one to talk or vent to I'm here; just like EP has been for me in my hard...
    WhiteKnight99 WhiteKnight99 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 10, 2014

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    My Hero

    Today marks five years without my dad. He was such a great man. He gave everyone a fair chance. He loved his friends and would help anyone who asked. Hero. That's the best word to describe him. I now understand all those lessons he tried to teach me. Help those less fortunate...
    ALL4SMILES ALL4SMILES 31-35, F 8 Responses Sep 15, 2012

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    My Dad died in 1996 at the age of 72.

    My Dad was a stern man but I never doubted that he loved me. Born in the Great Depression, served in WWII, and made his living as coal miner. He had a very rough life. He was a difficult man to love. He didn't smile much and frequently seemed "distant". Mom said serving in the...
    TheNarrowGate TheNarrowGate 51-55, M 2 Responses Nov 3, 2015

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    My dad turned 5 years of passing away a couple

    days ago and two days I was crying after I got into huge fight with my brother and my dad came to my mind and started to cry worse and then I felt a rush or wind like if he was hugging me and telling me everything is going to be alright I have felt so me peace inside of me its...
    Galleta666 Galleta666 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 14, 2015

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    A year ago today, my father was moved into

    hospice care. I took images of his lady friend comforting him. It was very touching because they helped each other. He was 22 years her senior and totally blind. She has dementia. Dad died very early the next morning. His lady friend doesn't remember him now; it's sad because he...
    PinkJeanie1970 PinkJeanie1970 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 19

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    I Lost My Father Today - Jan 8th 2012

    I had the most wonderful father in the world. I never felt angry with him ever. He always brought me comfort and hope. He was diagnosed with terminal cancer February 2011 when his thyroid cancer spread to his spine and from the end of August he really began to deteriorate. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Jan 8, 2012

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    Just lost my dad this morning he had a heart

    attack last night at work. They found him in his car after no one was able to get a hold of him. Still in major shock and struggling.
    Soretushy Soretushy 31-35, F 6 Responses Sep 24, 2015

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    My father died this past Saturday.

    It was merciful, because he was very unwell and his quality of life had gone to shambles. Yet, no matter how READY you think you are, you're never READY. You can't be ready for the death of a loved one. I'm also the executor of the estate and am in uncharted territory. It's...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    In March, it will be 4 years

    since he passed... I still can't believe he's gone. He wasn't here for my 16th birthday.. My 18th.. My 20th.. Now he won't be here for my 21st.. He missed my prom.. My high school graduation.. He won't be here when I start college soon.. He won't be here when I get married...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    My birth father passed away last Wednesday.

    My father was a dead beat dad. He left my sisters and I when we were very small. He promised us several times to come visit, when we were just toddlers. He would say he's coming, he's coming, but didn't show up. This happened countless times. My sisters and I grew up, but my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 5, 2015

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    Ode To The Only One Who Cared...

    I awoke to a world made of black; silent and lifeless. I stare ahead with glazed eyes to an empty room, my bookshelf holding nothing but past memories of happier times. I still miss you, even now. When you died you took my will to live my life. You taught me so much and cared for...
    NoctisUmbra NoctisUmbra 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 26, 2012

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    I Lost My Brother a Year After My Father Died

    My father was an alcoholic. He slowly killed himself through drinking himself to death, he was 54 when he died. While I was growing up, my father was what many refer to as a functioning alcoholic. He was career Navy. After he retired from the Navy, his drinking steadily...
    WittyOne WittyOne 46-50, F 3 Responses May 27, 2007

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    Life is hard. I am a 21 year old male

    and I just lost my father two weeks ago, after a 13,5-year long battle against cancer. I don't even remember my father not having it. I've always known him to be ill and able to die, anytime. I guess that after 13 years and 7 tumors, you just begin to think of him as immortal...
    morlack morlack 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 22, 2015

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    Ever since I lost my dad it's always hard

    knowing he's not going to be around to see me grow up and experience huge aspects of my life with me. But I can't help feeling that he's always with me. There's been so many times that I feel he's kept me safe. Also believe it or not a lot of Macklemore's music reminds me of him...
    nataliemarieand1cc nataliemarieand1cc 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 6, 2015

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    I'm sitting here thinking of you today.

    I wonder how you would look at this age. Would you still be the tall handsome man I remembered or would you have a slight curve to your stature. Would you still have that strong baritone voice or would it just be a raspy whisper. Would you still defend me like you always done...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 21, 2015

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    On May 29th I lost my lifelong hero,

    my first and always love. Heaven has gained an intelligent, caring, slightly mischievous new resident. My father loved his wife, his children, his grandchildren, his friends and his former students. He taught me that learning was crucial, personal growth was necessary, laughter...
    Flutterby9812 Flutterby9812 46-50, F 24 Responses Jun 9, 2015

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    Tribute To My Father.

      This is a tribute to my father which is long overdue.        Thank you for your unconditional love and patience, it has carried me through a lifetime of heartache, change, and growth. Those values and morals you insisted on teaching me, did come back to me as I matured...
    moondancelady moondancelady 51-55, F 5 Responses Dec 4, 2011

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