I Lost My Father

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    His name was Donald, everyone called him

    "Donnie" or "Don" my entire life. He was either in his late 50s or early 60s, I don't actually know how old he was. It was the end of August of 2012, I was eighteen years old and pregnant with my son. Prior to losing my father, I lost my maternal grandparents... Grandma died in...
    MadGirl1308 MadGirl1308
    22-25, F
    Jan 17, 2016

    I'm sitting here thinking of you today.

    I wonder how you would look at this age. Would you still be the tall handsome man I remembered or would you have a slight curve to your stature. Would you still have that strong baritone voice or would it just be a raspy whisper. Would you still defend me like you always done...
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    1 Response Sep 21, 2015

    I lost my father almost a year ago (dead

    for a year on January 5th) He was in a coma for a month, and was later proclaimed "brain-dead" I tried my best to feel better and to start a new life...it was going fine until recently i guess i was just blocking my feelings-i didn't want to be seen as the sad girl who everyone...
    kimaouad kimaouad
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 23, 2015

    My father died while I was studying

    for my exams (college days). Inspite the years that have passed his presence is still missed...like it was just yesterday. I miss him more when i see father and daughters bonding outside the world..no matter what age they are or their status in life...they are still lucky to...
    gennyg27 gennyg27
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Nov 5, 2015

    I'm trying not to be sad about missing my

    father during the holidays. I've actually done a pretty good job of remembering our talks and visits. My heart is full of thanks to my boyfriend who encouraged me to put up a Christmas tree. I wasn't going to. I was going to be minimalist, but the lights and decor and...
    PinkJeanie1970 PinkJeanie1970
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Dec 22, 2015

    I lost my father last year.

    .. He died from lung cancer. He was a very good man. I remember, when I was 6, we barely have nothing to eat. He turns to me and said:" Eat son, I will eat If someone lefts". He worked in a place which is 25 km from my house. Every night, he would walked to house, just not to pay...
    Petronijeee Petronijeee
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 8, 2015

    He's not dead. Hopefully not

    for a while. He even lives in the same house as me. Sometimes it just feels like he doesn't care what happens to me so he leaves. Leaves for someone better than me Like his girlfriend...
    kiwigirl2021 kiwigirl2021
    13-15, F
    Mar 20, 2016

    The Man Who Was There, But Not...

    ...never smiled. Never laughed or showed emotion. He was made out of stone and stood with horrible posture. This man was my father. He was not very smart, but smart enough to help raise two kids, or so he said. He did what he thought he had to. Show up to baseball games, sit at a...
    HopeInConstruction HopeInConstruction
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jul 28, 2010

    I lost my father recently two months ago.

    He was my best friend throughout 36 years (my entire life). Since then, I feel too lonely and I am not sure if I would be well again.
    Saramind Saramind
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Jan 6, 2016

    (Please excuse spaces.

    Using the App) On October 2nd 2015 my father passed into his next existence. I knew it was coming...we all did. The last day was not what i had previously experienced with someone's death...they laid there as if asleep and I was able to talk to them and hold their hand. My...
    Ravenwind43 Ravenwind43
    41-45, F
    16 Responses Oct 5, 2015

    August 12th 2006 I lost my best friend in the

    whole world my daddy. Tomorrow it will be 8 years he collapsed in a Disney Park. Went into cardiac arrest and the park staff stood around as he died. Disney Land the land of the tradgickal!!
    stakalisious stakalisious
    41-45, F
    11 Responses Aug 11, 2014

    I miss u dada I miss u

    so much, u are my heart my soul my blood my everything. Love u a lot RIP Wajid Ali Shah
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    1 Response Jan 5, 2016

    Ode To The Only One Who Cared...

    I awoke to a world made of black; silent and lifeless. I stare ahead with glazed eyes to an empty room, my bookshelf holding nothing but past memories of happier times. I still miss you, even now. When you died you took my will to live my life. You taught me so much and cared for...
    NoctisUmbra NoctisUmbra
    22-25, M
    1 Response Oct 26, 2012

    It's almost been a year

    since I lost my father. He died in May 2015 after battling bladder cancer. I feel so bad that I couldn't be there with him during his final days at the hospital. I live so far away and wasn't able to get a flight out there in time. I miss him everyday. And still can't believe he...
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    Apr 16, 2016

    I Lost My Brother a Year After My Father Died

    My father was an alcoholic. He slowly killed himself through drinking himself to death, he was 54 when he died. While I was growing up, my father was what many refer to as a functioning alcoholic. He was career Navy. After he retired from the Navy, his drinking steadily...
    WittyOne WittyOne
    46-50, F
    3 Responses May 27, 2007

    My dearest friend's father is doing very poorly.

    .. I've been thinking of her and her father non stop for days. It has me also thinking of my father. My dad wasn't a man to show much affection. He worked several jobs, had his flaws aplenty, drank too much and had a bad temper. He didn't have a father through much of his life...
    brokencowboy brokencowboy
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Nov 4, 2015

    I just wanted to write down random thoughts

    today because I felt a bit saddish earlier, but im fine now. Im happy again thanks to my family and ep. ^_^ When my dad died. i didnt expect it at all and i refused to believe it at first completely. my other siblings got it right away and they were crying and grieving properly...
    Slothislife Slothislife
    18-21, M
    8 Responses Nov 14, 2014

    I lost him when I was 21,

    it's not so long ago, like the first of October. He was 63. His birthday was short after and so was mine, and then came Christmas and new year. I've always been daddy's girl. So I don't really know how to cope without him. He had been sick for many years. But he always survived...
    deleted deleted
    Mar 20, 2016

    On May 9th 2014 my father passed do to a stroke

    its has been quite an ordeal for my mother and sister; along with me. My father was a good man, and one who loved us very much. I know what its like to go through the struggle. So, if you ever want some one to talk or vent to I'm here; just like EP has been for me in my hard...
    WhiteKnight99 WhiteKnight99
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Aug 10, 2014

    I am getting ready for my four out-of-state

    siblings to arrive for Thanksgiving week. The, "Big Kids," as my mom used to call them. The Big Kids will start arriving on Friday night. I'm making a scrap book of dad's sympathy cards for easy perusal. I'll copy and scan the several love letters he wrote to mom. We'll go...
    PinkJeanie1970 PinkJeanie1970
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Nov 17, 2015

    My father passed away in 2012.

    He didn't get to see me graduate high school. I miss him everyday.
    Libranastasia Libranastasia
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Apr 15, 2016

    My father died this past Saturday.

    It was merciful, because he was very unwell and his quality of life had gone to shambles. Yet, no matter how READY you think you are, you're never READY. You can't be ready for the death of a loved one. I'm also the executor of the estate and am in uncharted territory. It's...
    DanicaER DanicaER
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

    I never got to tell my father goodbye,

    and that realization kills me. I don't think about it often and its only a passing worry if I do, since he died so long ago, but when I do I blame myself for not being more self-aware. I had autism, unbeknownst to anyone until after he died, and my amazing father died from...
    justinm96 justinm96
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    Letters To My Dad

    I lost my dad last week to cancer. My dad has been battling cancer and chrones disease for most of his life. He learned to deal with the chrones disease and beat cancer the first time before I was born. Two years ago my dad was diagnosed with cancer, again! This time it was...
    diana1z55 diana1z55
    11 Responses Sep 28, 2012

    My father passed in March

    and there are certain things that make me break down and cry: Father's Day (didn't realize how hard it would be) Any play or movie with a dad In a hospital bed. We recently saw a play similar to Big Fish and I couldn't contain myself. It's amazing how weak (that's a bad term...
    deleted deleted
    10 Responses Nov 6, 2015

    My dad died May 3, 2015 from a sudden heart

    attack! He was my best friend, and loved my children to the moon and back. My world is not the same without him...
    brtndr41 brtndr41
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 18, 2015

    the King Is Dead, Long Live the King

    As a boy, I remember being deeply concerned with the mortality of my father.  After work, he would fall asleep on the couch, and before I would go to tap him on the shoulder to wake him up, I wondered if he had passed on and that my attempts to wake him would be futile. ...
    Seraph1m Seraph1m
    26-30, M
    32 Responses Feb 14, 2006

    yah, I lost my father.

    ...sux.... but, alteast I have already been thru that tragedy, I don't have to ever worry about going thru it, again once was enuff.... Rip daddy ily
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    Aug 18, 2015

    I barely got to know him

    before he upped and left. from what i was told he was a good man. i often wonder where he is and if he misses me and my mother. i always wonder to my self if i would want to meet him.
    BaJohnson BaJohnson
    18-21, M
    Feb 8, 2016

    On May 29th I lost my lifelong hero,

    my first and always love. Heaven has gained an intelligent, caring, slightly mischievous new resident. My father loved his wife, his children, his grandchildren, his friends and his former students. He taught me that learning was crucial, personal growth was necessary, laughter...
    Flutterby9812 Flutterby9812
    51-55, F
    20 Responses Jun 9, 2015

    In March, it will be 4 years

    since he passed... I still can't believe he's gone. He wasn't here for my 16th birthday.. My 18th.. My 20th.. Now he won't be here for my 21st.. He missed my prom.. My high school graduation.. He won't be here when I start college soon.. He won't be here when I get married...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Dec 29, 2014

    I lost my father unexpectedly on August 22,

    2014 (heart attack). I never imagined losing a parent at 16 years old. I always fought he'd be there to watch me walk across the stage at graduation, hear what college i'd go to, and especially walk me down the aisle at my wedding. It's been a year since he's been gone and not a...
    Jessicavitone Jessicavitone
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Sep 27, 2015

    I lost my father when I was only 37.

    He was my best friend and partner in crime. It was a very complex relationship and there were some very difficult times but I loved him with all my heart and we had a bond like no other. I think of him and miss him everyday and the mere thought of him brings the tears as if it...
    rescuemuttsrule rescuemuttsrule
    2 Responses Mar 21, 2015

    Life is hard. I am a 21 year old male

    and I just lost my father two weeks ago, after a 13,5-year long battle against cancer. I don't even remember my father not having it. I've always known him to be ill and able to die, anytime. I guess that after 13 years and 7 tumors, you just begin to think of him as immortal...
    morlack morlack
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 22, 2015

    When I was 11 (10th June 2014) I lost my dad to

    cancer. It's been hard. I've cut. Have anxiety and depression but I still don't know how to deal with the loss. He had cancer before this and he survived it so I didn't expect it to be that bad this time by he slowly got worse. He had seizures too as a side affect. He got...
    Maddieatkin Maddieatkin
    16-17, F
    Apr 6, 2016

    This wensday its going to be 5 Fu****** years

    that I lost my dad to cancer it still hurt alot I cant get over the fact that he is not here I still cry my self to bed I miss him so such he was more than a Dad to me I lost everything
    Galleta666 Galleta666
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Sep 6, 2015

    Tribute To My Father.

      This is a tribute to my father which is long overdue.        Thank you for your unconditional love and patience, it has carried me through a lifetime of heartache, change, and growth. Those values and morals you insisted on teaching me, did come back to me as I matured...
    moondancelady moondancelady
    51-55, F
    5 Responses Dec 4, 2011

    I was about 13 years old,

    so almost out of primary school. I was in school at the time taking a final exam when the principal walked up to my teacher and pulled her aside and spoke to her. My teacher tapped me on the shoulder and told me to come with her and so I did. She sat down with me outside and...
    TheRoyalFlushGang TheRoyalFlushGang
    36-40, F
    1 Response Sep 5, 2015

    My dad turned 5 years of passing away a couple

    days ago and two days I was crying after I got into huge fight with my brother and my dad came to my mind and started to cry worse and then I felt a rush or wind like if he was hugging me and telling me everything is going to be alright I have felt so me peace inside of me its...
    Galleta666 Galleta666
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 14, 2015

    My Hero

    Almost three years ago I lost my hero. My father was my best friend and I could trust him and he could trust me. He passed away of cancer. This was a hard time for my whole family. I never imagined losing my dad. We found the cancer too late. He received chemo-therapy for three...
    littletealroses littletealroses
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 3, 2013

    Ever since I lost my dad it's always hard

    knowing he's not going to be around to see me grow up and experience huge aspects of my life with me. But I can't help feeling that he's always with me. There's been so many times that I feel he's kept me safe. Also believe it or not a lot of Macklemore's music reminds me of him...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Sep 6, 2015

    I Don’t Remember My Father, But I Know Him

    In the mid-1970’s, my mother had just gotten her associate’s degree in American Sign Language and started her first job as an interpreter. The US was just beginning accommodations we now take for granted for deaf people, and the company that hired her would send her to...
    samctv10 samctv10
    36-40, M
    13 Responses Feb 6, 2012

    Today I lost my father

    but not by death but by his inability to get over himself. Some may say it's sad and I have shed my tears but now I stand tall because I know it is not I that will be missing out on him putting me down and him calling me disgusting, a disappointment, and a disgrace to the family...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Feb 5, 2014

    I lost my father just under 3 weeks ago.

    I'm hurting every day. I miss you dad so much. You were the worlds best father and you will never be forgotten.
    deleted deleted
    7 Responses Jul 30, 2015

    Today is the 4 year anniversary of my fathers

    death... I know I never really had a good relationship with my dad.. But I wish I could go back in time and try again..
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 1, 2015

    My Hero

    Today marks five years without my dad. He was such a great man. He gave everyone a fair chance. He loved his friends and would help anyone who asked. Hero. That's the best word to describe him. I now understand all those lessons he tried to teach me. Help those less fortunate...
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Sep 15, 2012

    Instant Gratification

    It's true what everyone says. When you lose someone who was so close to you, and so involved in your life, the pain never really goes away. I lost my father 5 and a half months ago, and I still feel like he is on a perpetual vacation. He was not an alcoholic, was not abusive, and...
    snickersbar snickersbar
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jun 11, 2007

    At four years of age

    and presently, I have been struck with a befuddling question, one that is making me contrite and disgusted at myself i.e. was my dad's death for my own good? He shot himself in the head with his gun. Minutes ago, I passed him to go to the little room adjacent to our room, it...
    Poiu2767 Poiu2767
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 4, 2015

    A year ago today, my father was moved into

    hospice care. I took images of his lady friend comforting him. It was very touching because they helped each other. He was 22 years her senior and totally blind. She has dementia. Dad died very early the next morning. His lady friend doesn't remember him now; it's sad because he...
    PinkJeanie1970 PinkJeanie1970
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Jan 19, 2016

    Just lost my dad this morning he had a heart

    attack last night at work. They found him in his car after no one was able to get a hold of him. Still in major shock and struggling.
    Soretushy Soretushy
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Sep 24, 2015

    Lost my Dad less than 48 hrs ago from stage 4

    stomach cancer. Its the hardest most difficult thing I have ever experienced. My dads and my relationship was rocky to say the lest, from birth till about ten years ago when I had my son. My Dad became the man and father I always needed and wanted. My best friend the one person...
    jky3rd jky3rd
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Sep 20, 2015

    I Lost My Father Today - Jan 8th 2012

    I had the most wonderful father in the world. I never felt angry with him ever. He always brought me comfort and hope. He was diagnosed with terminal cancer February 2011 when his thyroid cancer spread to his spine and from the end of August he really began to deteriorate. I...
    deleted deleted
    15 Responses Jan 8, 2012
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