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I Lost My Innocence

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    Just a State of Mind...

    What is innocence and how do I lose it?... Was I ever innocent to begin with?...
    drcynic drcynic 26-30, M 6 Responses Jun 9, 2008

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    Innocence Of Infancy

    What's the point of growing up if all you get for the Trouble of making-and Fulfilling-dreams, hopes and aspirations, is Hatred, Neglect, Negativity and people who claim they "Love" you always saying things that suggest they want you to use Your skills to fulfill Their ends...
    WhiteLegoNinja WhiteLegoNinja 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    I lost my Innocence when I was too damn young.

    Sometimes I wish I could jut go back and take it. He should've known. I hate him. I know that's it's not good for me. I should forgive him. The person that it hurts the most is me. But I can't. You don't do that to your sister. When I was 7, I was sexually abused by my brother...
    Claudipou Claudipou 18-21, F Dec 13, 2013

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    Seeing What Really Is Happening.

    I finally open my eyes and saw something terrifying. No innocence for me anymore... But it is better this way...
    BigDreamer1 BigDreamer1 13-15 2 Responses Jun 30, 2013

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    We Are Corrupted Souls

    I am a teenager of a new generation. For years I was pounded with the standards of public media. I grew up absorbing from the medias of this new era an idealized version of who I'm supposed to be. Everyone talks about how this generation is so messed up, but look what the...
    ashleymarie21 ashleymarie21 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    It Was Very Unfortunate

    i got messed around badly, now i am recovering, i never got chance to enjoy this part of growing up, now i am past that
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 9, 2008

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    Help Me Find It Please....

    I am not quite sure I ever had innocence but somewhere along the way I lost it.  I am not sure if it was in High School after the prom when I stayed out ALL night long french kissing a most gorgeous young man.  Or maybe it was in college at one of the many Frat parties...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 22 Responses Oct 15, 2008

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    I Lost My Innocence When

    I lost my innocence when my grandpa died at christmas time when I was in the 8th grade... That totally changed my views on life and everything and everyone in it. I found out the world is a cold hellhole that u dont get out of til u die.  Until the love of my life changed...
    livinmylovesong11 livinmylovesong11 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2008

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    I Woke Up.

    I believe now that my innocence is lost. I've seen so many things and witnessed so many events in this world that I don't think I could ever be the same. I'm not the blissful little girl I once was; I know now what really happens and why. I'm only 14 years old and I feel like I'm...
    Raine550 Raine550 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2013

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    Is My Innocence Still Here.. Or Did I Lose It Long Ago..

    As far as I know I'm still a virgin. But I have always had the feeling that I was abused as a very young child. When I was little I always had dreams of older men wanting to kiss me and marry me, and in all of the dreams the men looked similar.. Also,the smell of certain...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 8, 2013

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    Realization

    This is the first time ever I am talking about what happened to me. I realized it later in life that I was a victim of abuse. I may have survived with my virginity intact but I have lost my innocence. I cant deal with the fact that nobody will ever know that I am losing the...
    tiredofescaping tiredofescaping 22-25, F Nov 28, 2013

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    Tiak.

    When I was growing up for as long as I can remember there was Tiak. Tiak was my mother's boyfriend and ultimate father-figure since my dad got scared and ran away from me and my mom while I was still forming. I grew a little attached to him. Tiak wasn't very nice, in fact, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 4, 2013

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    They Used Me

    they stole it....they stole my innocence and made me feel so dirty i didnt even want to exist. the first time it was him and his dad. the second time i dont even know who it was. but they spiked my drink and used me. and i still cant ever be okay with myself because of what they...
    bowtiesarecool97 bowtiesarecool97 18-21, F 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    Never Spoken Of Before Today....

         standing in the kitchen,as a 32 year old woman,i was shocked that by me seeing one tiny small thing would trigger a terrifying memory...     So the year was 1982,i had just started elementary school and i can remember waking up to the apartment being quiet,not just...
    CraziiBeautiful CraziiBeautiful 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 16, 2013

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    Hmmm...

    i lost my innocence somewhere along the way, and i forgot to find out where.  its not that i didn't care more like i was glad it was gone. way back in the dark ages, before i got pregnant by the big m.  or it may have been after i went to europe in high school and didn...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 30, 2010

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    Not Lost... Stollen

    The Step-monster… no details, not ready, don’t know if I ever will be. I tried once, to tell, the egg donor said it wasn’t possible, he was too wonderful, kind, loving… maybe too loving I thought. It wasn’t intercourse but in the mind of a child I...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 8 Responses Jun 9, 2008

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    I lost my innocence when I was 7 years old.

    It was taken from me from someone who was suppose to protect me. Not hurt me. It messed me up for a long time. I try to live and deal with it though.
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F Jul 3

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    If Only I Could Get It Back...

    I lost my innocence mor than once if that is possible. I lost it when I was constantly beat up by my dad as a child. I also lost it when my bestfriend tried to rape me. I see it as what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and I'm not dead yet so I must be hard as a rock. You know...
    candycutie93 candycutie93 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 26, 2009

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    I don't know when it happened

    but it did... Where did it go? Can I ever get it back? I dunno I just don't know
    JustMeWuuuut JustMeWuuuut 26-30, M 2 Responses Oct 23, 2014

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    What Is It to Mean Loosing One Innocent

    Is It Facing the World For what it is? Is it waking to find what is Lost. I mean so many Things. I lost my Innocents a While back. When I Realized that Life isn't candy Canes and lollipops. The day I was Left alone. The moment I was Hit. The moment when I woke to realize...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 12, 2008

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    My Freshman Year

    I'm relelately young, but I do believe I have lost the innocence I once had as a child. Definately. Looking at me, some people would still think I'm the innocent one out of my group of friend with my looks, sometimes described as "angelic" (lol!!) I have blonde hair, ice blue...
    LittleMissDimples LittleMissDimples 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2012

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    I Don't See a Big Deal With Losing Innocence.

    It's a hard ******* world. These things happen. And it's up to you to get past them. I lost my innocence at a relatively young age for my country, though late for many others. So. We all must learn to get along in life, and I don't mean friends-wise. Money-wise, personal-wise. I...
    Socklord Socklord 31-35, M 5 Responses May 29, 2009

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    Are You My Mommy

    ....as i sit here while the world flows like water around me,its as if i'm not moving at all....as a child i experienced many heart aches,i dont even know where to begin so i'll try to list them in order 1. my earlist childhood memory was when i was 2 years old and my mom jumped...
    CraziiBeautiful CraziiBeautiful 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 7, 2013

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    I fell asleep around 2am today.

    At 5am I awoke. I was breathing heavily and my heart beat quickly. The feelings in my stomach were strong. I haven't felt these feelings in a while. Sick to my stomach, I sat there and rocked myself back and forth. I wanted to cry, but the tears were invisible. This morning I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    2003

    I lost my virginity at 19, I lost my innocence decidely much later. 2003 was the time, I honestly don't know if I was aware of the corrosive ability of a crisis of faith in successfully derailing the whole innocence thing. I do know that I was promptly aware of a more survivalist...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 27, 2009

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    We lost him around 6 months in to the pregnancy. she had to birth him. i almost tore the side rail off the bed when they couldnt find the heart beat. everyone was so worried about...
    Lifessoundtrack85 Lifessoundtrack85 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    Hi, this is my story about said topic.. thanks for reading, if you stick around to the very end .. it all started when i was about 4. . i "accepted Jesus into my heart", and it...
    tobeheld tobeheld 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I lost my virginity to a guy I liked when I was 14. Things didn't work out, but I still think about him everyday 4 years later. He is the closest I've been to in love. I don't...
    sarahcollin sarahcollin 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I was 14 when I lost my virginity.. I know i was very young.. I did it with my boyfriend, we're still together now.. People say we're to young to know about love but I know for a...
    Jaylahapril Jaylahapril 36-40, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I have a great life but inside I feel so torn. I have worked so hard over the years in my career but am more happy when I am not doing my job then when I am. I used to love it when...
    ozdiva ozdiva 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    I lost my grandma to lung cancer when I was 6. I lost my grandpa to the same thing when I was 13. My dad died 4 months before I was born.. I'd do anything to have a chance with all...
    JustDevy JustDevy 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    What can you do when all hope is gone? Nothing or no one can help you in any way. What is happiness? Were those moments happiness? Or were they mere illusions? Is happiness within...
    DropsOfRain DropsOfRain 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 27

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    I have lost everything from my children, my car, money, and love. I am alone and am very curious about voodoo and Santeria. I want to regain all that I have lost and maybe a new...
    memorymaker1980 memorymaker1980 31-35, F Jul 26

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    On April 28th 2014 I met a sweet girl from America. On June 23 2015 I lost her. she was the greatest friend I've ever had and I loved her like a sister we used to talk all day...
    AlwaysGonnaBHere4You AlwaysGonnaBHere4You 22-25, M Jul 23

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    The title of this says it all really, I mean there's not much more to say than I lost my virginity to somebody who really wasn't that bit special. At the time he was perfect, he...
    amberblueford15 amberblueford15 13-15, F Jul 23

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    I lose friends..my friends online..most (if not all) of them I guess. How do I say this.. I always knew that people change, that both the way we view them and the way they view us...
    Junderbalt Junderbalt 18-21, M Jul 22

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    please help I feel like a dumb *** I am afraid that I lost someone i care about this girl means the world to me I would do anything for this girl I would move heaven and earth for...
    josephpiper josephpiper 22-25 Jul 22

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    I want to share a verse to all of the strugglers in sin and in their relationship with God. But first i want to send a powerful message, and that is God sent his son to die for us...
    TemptaionWontShakeMe TemptaionWontShakeMe 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    I am not afraid that I have lost my salvation, I know that I have and yes I am afraid because of that. I gave my life to the Lord in 2008 I had a major encounter with God, I had...
    Coloursearching Coloursearching 22-25 6 Responses Jul 18

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    Yesterday morning, I remember that I put my headset, tissue and hand wipes inside my locker. Then, when I arrived inside the locker area, I was surprised that my headset, tissue...
    RyAnne10 RyAnne10 26-30, F Jul 17

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    when I was 21 I lost my Grandfather and this past February I lost my mother. Both of them were taken by lung cancer. I know it hurts and the pain of watching them spiral down is...
    sirfarmer sirfarmer 36-40, M 4 Responses Jul 13

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    I gave birth to a live baby girl last july 1 through CS because she was in transverse lie position. When I saw her, i saw the most beautiful creature God has ever made. She had my...
    cassandrabrienne cassandrabrienne 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    I miss my sister who lost her battle after 5 years. I miss my brother in law who died a later. I miss my cousin who only made it 3 years after diagnosis. I miss my uncle who died...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 12

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    What a horrible daughter I am, I can't even keep up with how long it's been. . . Time just seems to run together. God I feel so broken. I don't even know if mourning you is my sole...
    BabyDoll23p BabyDoll23p 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 12

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