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I Lost My Innocence

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    Hmmm...

    i lost my innocence somewhere along the way, and i forgot to find out where.  its not that i didn't care more like i was glad it was gone. way back in the dark ages, before i got pregnant by the big m.  or it may have been after i went to europe in high school and didn...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 30, 2010

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    Are You My Mommy

    ....as i sit here while the world flows like water around me,its as if i'm not moving at all....as a child i experienced many heart aches,i dont even know where to begin so i'll try to list them in order 1. my earlist childhood memory was when i was 2 years old and my mom jumped...
    CraziiBeautiful CraziiBeautiful 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 7, 2013

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    Help Me Find It Please....

    I am not quite sure I ever had innocence but somewhere along the way I lost it.  I am not sure if it was in High School after the prom when I stayed out ALL night long french kissing a most gorgeous young man.  Or maybe it was in college at one of the many Frat parties...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 25 Responses Oct 15, 2008

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    I Woke Up.

    I believe now that my innocence is lost. I've seen so many things and witnessed so many events in this world that I don't think I could ever be the same. I'm not the blissful little girl I once was; I know now what really happens and why. I'm only 14 years old and I feel like I'm...
    Raine550 Raine550 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2013

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    Just a State of Mind...

    What is innocence and how do I lose it?... Was I ever innocent to begin with?...
    drcynic drcynic 26-30, M 7 Responses Jun 9, 2008

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    What Is It to Mean Loosing One Innocent

    Is It Facing the World For what it is? Is it waking to find what is Lost. I mean so many Things. I lost my Innocents a While back. When I Realized that Life isn't candy Canes and lollipops. The day I was Left alone. The moment I was Hit. The moment when I woke to realize...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 12, 2008

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    Innocence Of Infancy

    What's the point of growing up if all you get for the Trouble of making-and Fulfilling-dreams, hopes and aspirations, is Hatred, Neglect, Negativity and people who claim they "Love" you always saying things that suggest they want you to use Your skills to fulfill Their ends...
    WhiteLegoNinja WhiteLegoNinja 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    I lost my Innocence when I was too damn young.

    Sometimes I wish I could jut go back and take it. He should've known. I hate him. I know that's it's not good for me. I should forgive him. The person that it hurts the most is me. But I can't. You don't do that to your sister. When I was 7, I was sexually abused by my brother...
    Claudipou Claudipou 18-21, F Dec 13, 2013

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    I Lost My Innocence When

    I lost my innocence when my grandpa died at christmas time when I was in the 8th grade... That totally changed my views on life and everything and everyone in it. I found out the world is a cold hellhole that u dont get out of til u die.  Until the love of my life changed...
    livinmylovesong11 livinmylovesong11 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2008

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    Realization

    This is the first time ever I am talking about what happened to me. I realized it later in life that I was a victim of abuse. I may have survived with my virginity intact but I have lost my innocence. I cant deal with the fact that nobody will ever know that I am losing the...
    tiredofescaping tiredofescaping 22-25, F Nov 28, 2013

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    I fell asleep around 2am today.

    At 5am I awoke. I was breathing heavily and my heart beat quickly. The feelings in my stomach were strong. I haven't felt these feelings in a while. Sick to my stomach, I sat there and rocked myself back and forth. I wanted to cry, but the tears were invisible. This morning I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 23

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    If Only I Could Get It Back...

    I lost my innocence mor than once if that is possible. I lost it when I was constantly beat up by my dad as a child. I also lost it when my bestfriend tried to rape me. I see it as what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and I'm not dead yet so I must be hard as a rock. You know...
    candycutie93 candycutie93 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 26, 2009

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    Never Spoken Of Before Today....

         standing in the kitchen,as a 32 year old woman,i was shocked that by me seeing one tiny small thing would trigger a terrifying memory...     So the year was 1982,i had just started elementary school and i can remember waking up to the apartment being quiet,not just...
    CraziiBeautiful CraziiBeautiful 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 16, 2013

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    2003

    I lost my virginity at 19, I lost my innocence decidely much later. 2003 was the time, I honestly don't know if I was aware of the corrosive ability of a crisis of faith in successfully derailing the whole innocence thing. I do know that I was promptly aware of a more survivalist...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 27, 2009

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    My Freshman Year

    I'm relelately young, but I do believe I have lost the innocence I once had as a child. Definately. Looking at me, some people would still think I'm the innocent one out of my group of friend with my looks, sometimes described as "angelic" (lol!!) I have blonde hair, ice blue...
    LittleMissDimples LittleMissDimples 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2012

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    Is My Innocence Still Here.. Or Did I Lose It Long Ago..

    As far as I know I'm still a virgin. But I have always had the feeling that I was abused as a very young child. When I was little I always had dreams of older men wanting to kiss me and marry me, and in all of the dreams the men looked similar.. Also,the smell of certain...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 8, 2013

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    I Don't See a Big Deal With Losing Innocence.

    It's a hard ******* world. These things happen. And it's up to you to get past them. I lost my innocence at a relatively young age for my country, though late for many others. So. We all must learn to get along in life, and I don't mean friends-wise. Money-wise, personal-wise. I...
    Socklord Socklord 31-35, M 5 Responses May 29, 2009

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    We Are Corrupted Souls

    I am a teenager of a new generation. For years I was pounded with the standards of public media. I grew up absorbing from the medias of this new era an idealized version of who I'm supposed to be. Everyone talks about how this generation is so messed up, but look what the...
    ashleymarie21 ashleymarie21 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    Not Lost... Stollen

    The Step-monster… no details, not ready, don’t know if I ever will be. I tried once, to tell, the egg donor said it wasn’t possible, he was too wonderful, kind, loving… maybe too loving I thought. It wasn’t intercourse but in the mind of a child I...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 9 Responses Jun 9, 2008

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    Tiak.

    When I was growing up for as long as I can remember there was Tiak. Tiak was my mother's boyfriend and ultimate father-figure since my dad got scared and ran away from me and my mom while I was still forming. I grew a little attached to him. Tiak wasn't very nice, in fact, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 4, 2013

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    They Used Me

    they stole it....they stole my innocence and made me feel so dirty i didnt even want to exist. the first time it was him and his dad. the second time i dont even know who it was. but they spiked my drink and used me. and i still cant ever be okay with myself because of what they...
    bowtiesarecool97 bowtiesarecool97 16-17, F 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    Seeing What Really Is Happening.

    I finally open my eyes and saw something terrifying. No innocence for me anymore... But it is better this way...
    BigDreamer1 BigDreamer1 13-15 2 Responses Jun 30, 2013

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    It Was Very Unfortunate

    i got messed around badly, now i am recovering, i never got chance to enjoy this part of growing up, now i am past that
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 9, 2008

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    Usually people would take that as if I'm depressed. But I am not...I'm just lost. 21 years old having no clue what I wanna do with my life. There hasn't passed one day without me...
    ep2610 ep2610 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Im still innocent even though I'm a full in lesbian o never felt the need to have sex because i treasure my innocence.
    Kitry Kitry 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I absolutely hate getting lost. It's something that might take a while to get out of and you don't know how long it will take to get out of it. Well, I got lost at one point. And...
    DiamondAlexander DiamondAlexander 13-15, M Sep 6

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    I feel so lost that my body actually hurts from the confused emotions. I feel so lost I have no clue wether to smile or not when someone tells a joke or simply smiles at me. I feel...
    bohoemmers bohoemmers 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    I dreamt of being a mom as far back as I can remember. My dad had decided I was going to college and I was going, but I wanted to be a mom too.I can remember that I wanted twins. A...
    akindheart akindheart 56-60, F 17 Responses Sep 2

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    I am so lost I just need help. I am 15 years old. Two night's ago I had a sleepover with my friend who has an older brother. We go to her house from a party where we both had...
    lifeofateenager520 lifeofateenager520 13-15, F 8 Responses Sep 8

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    I lost myself. I'm no longer me. I look in the. Mirror. And see a stranger. I lost her along the way. I feel like I'm walking in a dead body. I don't feel alive. I feel lost in...
    kjonesr kjonesr 18-21, F Sep 11

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    Recently I have lost an uncle and his life was a crazy one he lost his leg to a logging accident and later spent his time in china and Mexico teaching English he never married but...
    gigapo gigapo 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 6

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    Hi at the moment I don't live life. I feel like I wasted a lot of time doing crazy things, that are good for telling a story but not for your resume. At the moment nothing really...
    freebirdOz freebirdOz 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 6

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    I miss your eyes So blue. I miss your voice How jolly. I miss our talks So carefree. I'd get lost in time with you. I wish things were different So different. I wish you'd let me...
    nvragain1024 nvragain1024 31-35, F Sep 16

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    It's been 2 months straight of my damn great holiday and I gotta go back to collage on Monday. It's not really big of a deal if my collage is not far away from home, but sadly it...
    alifia alifia 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 19

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    I have compassion for "The Lost Souls. For The Lost Souls, who have lost their ways in life.Consumed & tried to escaped their darkness inside. We need compassion & helped them out...
    DiscoNight1970s DiscoNight1970s 46-50, F a week ago

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    I had success with a great family, with work where I was respected and valued by my company and by my customers. I worked hard on improving my health, and had finally reached my...
    gmeza98 gmeza98 51-55, M 5 days ago

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    I lost a part of me when someone very important to me left. I was too dependent on him and didn't think anything bad would happen. If I were to say I lost a part of me a year ago...
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I can't even begin to tell you how much love I feel for you. It is difficult to measure something that is immeasurable, for I can only tell you that you are the most precious thing...
    idzaudin idzaudin 16-17, M Sep 1

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    It really sucks losing your opposite sex parent. Guys don't fair well without mom girls without dad. I lost my mom at age 2-3. She was run over by a drunk driver. What made it...
    NarraratorAkaTylerDurden NarraratorAkaTylerDurden 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 1

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    I'd be lost without my catS. I was a rescuer of homeless cats. I didn't go looking for them, they came one by one by one.... I have 12. :-0 ...yup.. omg! But you want to hear a...
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze 56-60, F 3 Responses Sep 3

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    I don't know if it can be said that I lost someone to suicide, when I didn't know her at all. You can't loose what you never had. My mother killed herself exactly two weeks after...
    whitemut whitemut 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 5

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    8/7/2014 - Dedicate to Mom - Goldie  I'm stagnant. I feel like a prisoner in my own soul and I don't know why. Am I at a crossroad, to go one way through a tunnel or keep...
    bemyvalentine bemyvalentine 56-60, F 4 Responses Sep 6

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    Traditional herbalist in South Africa Welcome to Divine Prayers and Spell caster. My name is Prof. pato semu I am a Traditional healer herbalist with extreme powers. I cast...
    mama235 mama235 31-35, M Sep 7

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    I got lost looking for others, and now I just realize no one knows I have been gone for a while. I should have just stayed and be myself instead of looking for them when they aren...
    ruthm ruthm 18-21, F Sep 9

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    11 weeks ago I lost my mom to cancer... she was been diagnosed in March, a week before my 39th birthday... Three weeks after she passed my dad committed suicide. I am...
    spiritvoyage spiritvoyage 36-40 1 Response Sep 11

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    I have been in love with him for five years; he was everything he even helped me get over my dads abuse to me before i move out. Waiting for him for all those years just for him to...
    Misguided123 Misguided123 22-25, F Sep 11

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    Away with the fairies!There are days where I daydream, just keep thinking and thinking!When i overthink i kind of lost touch with reality and escape in my thoughts so i get lost in...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F Sep 12

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    I'm lost, completely lost. You're told to talk about it but no one really listens.
    HevNat HevNat 31-35, F 2 Responses