I Lost My Innocence

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    Are You My Mommy

    ....as i sit here while the world flows like water around me,its as if i'm not moving at all....as a child i experienced many heart aches,i dont even know where to begin so i'll try to list them in order 1. my earlist childhood memory was when i was 2 years old and my mom jumped...
    CraziiBeautiful CraziiBeautiful
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Feb 7, 2013

    They Used Me

    they stole it....they stole my innocence and made me feel so dirty i didnt even want to exist. the first time it was him and his dad. the second time i dont even know who it was. but they spiked my drink and used me. and i still cant ever be okay with myself because of what they...
    bowtiesarecool97 bowtiesarecool97
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 14, 2013

    What Is It to Mean Loosing One Innocent

    Is It Facing the World For what it is? Is it waking to find what is Lost. I mean so many Things. I lost my Innocents a While back. When I Realized that Life isn't candy Canes and lollipops. The day I was Left alone. The moment I was Hit. The moment when I woke to realize...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jun 12, 2008

    It Was Very Unfortunate

    i got messed around badly, now i am recovering, i never got chance to enjoy this part of growing up, now i am past that
    Donalh Donalh
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 9, 2008

    Is My Innocence Still Here.. Or Did I Lose It Long Ago..

    As far as I know I'm still a virgin. But I have always had the feeling that I was abused as a very young child. When I was little I always had dreams of older men wanting to kiss me and marry me, and in all of the dreams the men looked similar.. Also,the smell of certain...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 8, 2013

    Innocence Of Infancy

    What's the point of growing up if all you get for the Trouble of making-and Fulfilling-dreams, hopes and aspirations, is Hatred, Neglect, Negativity and people who claim they "Love" you always saying things that suggest they want you to use Your skills to fulfill Their ends...
    WhiteLegoNinja WhiteLegoNinja
    13-15, T
    1 Response Jan 28, 2013

    Tiak.

    When I was growing up for as long as I can remember there was Tiak. Tiak was my mother's boyfriend and ultimate father-figure since my dad got scared and ran away from me and my mom while I was still forming. I grew a little attached to him. Tiak wasn't very nice, in fact, he...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 4, 2013

    My Freshman Year

    I'm relelately young, but I do believe I have lost the innocence I once had as a child. Definately. Looking at me, some people would still think I'm the innocent one out of my group of friend with my looks, sometimes described as "angelic" (lol!!) I have blonde hair, ice blue...
    LittleMissDimples LittleMissDimples
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 29, 2012

    Never Spoken Of Before Today....

         standing in the kitchen,as a 32 year old woman,i was shocked that by me seeing one tiny small thing would trigger a terrifying memory...     So the year was 1982,i had just started elementary school and i can remember waking up to the apartment being quiet,not just...
    CraziiBeautiful CraziiBeautiful
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Feb 16, 2013

    Not Lost... Stollen

    The Step-monster… no details, not ready, don’t know if I ever will be. I tried once, to tell, the egg donor said it wasn’t possible, he was too wonderful, kind, loving… maybe too loving I thought. It wasn’t intercourse but in the mind of a child I...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Jun 9, 2008

    I don't know when it happened

    but it did... Where did it go? Can I ever get it back? I dunno I just don't know
    JustMeWuuuut JustMeWuuuut
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Oct 23, 2014

    Realization

    This is the first time ever I am talking about what happened to me. I realized it later in life that I was a victim of abuse. I may have survived with my virginity intact but I have lost my innocence. I cant deal with the fact that nobody will ever know that I am losing the...
    tiredofescaping tiredofescaping
    26-30, F
    Nov 28, 2013

    We Are Corrupted Souls

    I am a teenager of a new generation. For years I was pounded with the standards of public media. I grew up absorbing from the medias of this new era an idealized version of who I'm supposed to be. Everyone talks about how this generation is so messed up, but look what the...
    ashleymarie21 ashleymarie21
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 29, 2013

    Just a State of Mind...

    What is innocence and how do I lose it?... Was I ever innocent to begin with?...
    drcynic drcynic
    26-30, M
    6 Responses Jun 9, 2008

    I Don't See a Big Deal With Losing Innocence.

    It's a hard ******* world. These things happen. And it's up to you to get past them. I lost my innocence at a relatively young age for my country, though late for many others. So. We all must learn to get along in life, and I don't mean friends-wise. Money-wise, personal-wise. I...
    Socklord Socklord
    31-35, M
    5 Responses May 29, 2009

    If Only I Could Get It Back...

    I lost my innocence mor than once if that is possible. I lost it when I was constantly beat up by my dad as a child. I also lost it when my bestfriend tried to rape me. I see it as what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and I'm not dead yet so I must be hard as a rock. You know...
    candycutie93 candycutie93
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jun 26, 2009

    Hmmm...

    i lost my innocence somewhere along the way, and i forgot to find out where.  its not that i didn't care more like i was glad it was gone. way back in the dark ages, before i got pregnant by the big m.  or it may have been after i went to europe in high school and didn...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 30, 2010

    2003

    I lost my virginity at 19, I lost my innocence decidely much later. 2003 was the time, I honestly don't know if I was aware of the corrosive ability of a crisis of faith in successfully derailing the whole innocence thing. I do know that I was promptly aware of a more survivalist...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses May 27, 2009

    I lost my Innocence when I was too damn young.

    Sometimes I wish I could jut go back and take it. He should've known. I hate him. I know that's it's not good for me. I should forgive him. The person that it hurts the most is me. But I can't. You don't do that to your sister. When I was 7, I was sexually abused by my brother...
    Claudipou Claudipou
    18-21, F
    Dec 13, 2013

    Seeing What Really Is Happening.

    I finally open my eyes and saw something terrifying. No innocence for me anymore... But it is better this way...
    BigDreamer1 BigDreamer1
    16-17
    2 Responses Jun 30, 2013

    I Woke Up.

    I believe now that my innocence is lost. I've seen so many things and witnessed so many events in this world that I don't think I could ever be the same. I'm not the blissful little girl I once was; I know now what really happens and why. I'm only 14 years old and I feel like I'm...
    Raine550 Raine550
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 30, 2013

    I fell asleep around 2am today.

    At 5am I awoke. I was breathing heavily and my heart beat quickly. The feelings in my stomach were strong. I haven't felt these feelings in a while. Sick to my stomach, I sat there and rocked myself back and forth. I wanted to cry, but the tears were invisible. This morning I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Feb 23, 2014

    I Lost My Innocence When

    I lost my innocence when my grandpa died at christmas time when I was in the 8th grade... That totally changed my views on life and everything and everyone in it. I found out the world is a cold hellhole that u dont get out of til u die.  Until the love of my life changed...
    livinmylovesong11 livinmylovesong11
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 15, 2008

    Help Me Find It Please....

    I am not quite sure I ever had innocence but somewhere along the way I lost it.  I am not sure if it was in High School after the prom when I stayed out ALL night long french kissing a most gorgeous young man.  Or maybe it was in college at one of the many Frat parties...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    22 Responses Oct 15, 2008

    I lost my innocence when I was 7 years old.

    It was taken from me from someone who was suppose to protect me. Not hurt me. It messed me up for a long time. I try to live and deal with it though.
    HisLittleAriel HisLittleAriel
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 3, 2015

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    abby816 abby816
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    I lost my extremely best friend but I have moved on with a better group of friends and she deserves to hate me, I hope she is doing ok and I still care deep down inside.
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    Forsaken1x Forsaken1x
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    i use to play with marbles when i was little i had very shiny marbles i still miss my lost marbles purple yellow and white
    bimvim bimvim
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    lost mine when i was in 7th grade i think to my bf at the time. always was sexual when i was younger so i wanted it. first time hurt but after it felt good.
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    Its now been a year since I've lost the closest person to me. It was my friends adopted sister. Her name is Jessica and she lived to the age 11 before she had taken her life. My...
    gaygamer9376 gaygamer9376
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    2 Responses Apr 8
    I lost my mom when I was 12. She had a seizure due to an OD, and then suffocated in the sofa. I was the one that found her. For the last 10 years, I have been dealing with...
    sportsE31 sportsE31
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    Apr 8
    Over the years I have lost myself plenty of times in games, people, hobbies, etc. When I fall for something it's hard to combine it with anything else, but it does feel great until...
    Gentle153 Gentle153
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    I lost my virginity when I was 9 years old & I enjoyed it. I'm 36 now & have no regrets
    3holeboitoi 3holeboitoi
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    Its the beginning of four years. It was my fiance. Due to my experience I have been pretty guarded and reclusive. I feel really rejected, and I feel like I lost friends because of...
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    This is going to be the 2nd year of high school that I won't pass the two semesters..... I don't know why I do this to myself!!! I am so behind and I don't know what I'm doing!!! I...
    themoonwalkswithme themoonwalkswithme
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