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I Lost My Innocence

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    What Is It to Mean Loosing One Innocent

    Is It Facing the World For what it is? Is it waking to find what is Lost. I mean so many Things. I lost my Innocents a While back. When I Realized that Life isn't candy Canes and lollipops. The day I was Left alone. The moment I was Hit. The moment when I woke to realize...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 12, 2008

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    I fell asleep around 2am today.

    At 5am I awoke. I was breathing heavily and my heart beat quickly. The feelings in my stomach were strong. I haven't felt these feelings in a while. Sick to my stomach, I sat there and rocked myself back and forth. I wanted to cry, but the tears were invisible. This morning I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    Never Spoken Of Before Today....

         standing in the kitchen,as a 32 year old woman,i was shocked that by me seeing one tiny small thing would trigger a terrifying memory...     So the year was 1982,i had just started elementary school and i can remember waking up to the apartment being quiet,not just...
    CraziiBeautiful CraziiBeautiful 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 16, 2013

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    I don't know when it happened

    but it did... Where did it go? Can I ever get it back? I dunno I just don't know
    JustMeWuuuut JustMeWuuuut 26-30, M 2 Responses Oct 23, 2014

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    Realization

    This is the first time ever I am talking about what happened to me. I realized it later in life that I was a victim of abuse. I may have survived with my virginity intact but I have lost my innocence. I cant deal with the fact that nobody will ever know that I am losing the...
    tiredofescaping tiredofescaping 26-30, F Nov 28, 2013

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    Seeing What Really Is Happening.

    I finally open my eyes and saw something terrifying. No innocence for me anymore... But it is better this way...
    BigDreamer1 BigDreamer1 13-15 2 Responses Jun 30, 2013

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    Innocence Of Infancy

    What's the point of growing up if all you get for the Trouble of making-and Fulfilling-dreams, hopes and aspirations, is Hatred, Neglect, Negativity and people who claim they "Love" you always saying things that suggest they want you to use Your skills to fulfill Their ends...
    WhiteLegoNinja WhiteLegoNinja 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    Is My Innocence Still Here.. Or Did I Lose It Long Ago..

    As far as I know I'm still a virgin. But I have always had the feeling that I was abused as a very young child. When I was little I always had dreams of older men wanting to kiss me and marry me, and in all of the dreams the men looked similar.. Also,the smell of certain...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 8, 2013

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    Just a State of Mind...

    What is innocence and how do I lose it?... Was I ever innocent to begin with?...
    drcynic drcynic 26-30, M 6 Responses Jun 9, 2008

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    Not Lost... Stollen

    The Step-monster… no details, not ready, don’t know if I ever will be. I tried once, to tell, the egg donor said it wasn’t possible, he was too wonderful, kind, loving… maybe too loving I thought. It wasn’t intercourse but in the mind of a child I...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 7 Responses Jun 9, 2008

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    Hmmm...

    i lost my innocence somewhere along the way, and i forgot to find out where.  its not that i didn't care more like i was glad it was gone. way back in the dark ages, before i got pregnant by the big m.  or it may have been after i went to europe in high school and didn...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 30, 2010

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    If Only I Could Get It Back...

    I lost my innocence mor than once if that is possible. I lost it when I was constantly beat up by my dad as a child. I also lost it when my bestfriend tried to rape me. I see it as what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and I'm not dead yet so I must be hard as a rock. You know...
    candycutie93 candycutie93 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 26, 2009

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    I Don't See a Big Deal With Losing Innocence.

    It's a hard ******* world. These things happen. And it's up to you to get past them. I lost my innocence at a relatively young age for my country, though late for many others. So. We all must learn to get along in life, and I don't mean friends-wise. Money-wise, personal-wise. I...
    Socklord Socklord 31-35, M 5 Responses May 29, 2009

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    Are You My Mommy

    ....as i sit here while the world flows like water around me,its as if i'm not moving at all....as a child i experienced many heart aches,i dont even know where to begin so i'll try to list them in order 1. my earlist childhood memory was when i was 2 years old and my mom jumped...
    CraziiBeautiful CraziiBeautiful 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 7, 2013

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    They Used Me

    they stole it....they stole my innocence and made me feel so dirty i didnt even want to exist. the first time it was him and his dad. the second time i dont even know who it was. but they spiked my drink and used me. and i still cant ever be okay with myself because of what they...
    bowtiesarecool97 bowtiesarecool97 18-21, F 1 Response May 14, 2013

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    It Was Very Unfortunate

    i got messed around badly, now i am recovering, i never got chance to enjoy this part of growing up, now i am past that
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 9, 2008

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    2003

    I lost my virginity at 19, I lost my innocence decidely much later. 2003 was the time, I honestly don't know if I was aware of the corrosive ability of a crisis of faith in successfully derailing the whole innocence thing. I do know that I was promptly aware of a more survivalist...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 27, 2009

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    I Lost My Innocence When

    I lost my innocence when my grandpa died at christmas time when I was in the 8th grade... That totally changed my views on life and everything and everyone in it. I found out the world is a cold hellhole that u dont get out of til u die.  Until the love of my life changed...
    livinmylovesong11 livinmylovesong11 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2008

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    We Are Corrupted Souls

    I am a teenager of a new generation. For years I was pounded with the standards of public media. I grew up absorbing from the medias of this new era an idealized version of who I'm supposed to be. Everyone talks about how this generation is so messed up, but look what the...
    ashleymarie21 ashleymarie21 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    Tiak.

    When I was growing up for as long as I can remember there was Tiak. Tiak was my mother's boyfriend and ultimate father-figure since my dad got scared and ran away from me and my mom while I was still forming. I grew a little attached to him. Tiak wasn't very nice, in fact, he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 4, 2013

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    I Woke Up.

    I believe now that my innocence is lost. I've seen so many things and witnessed so many events in this world that I don't think I could ever be the same. I'm not the blissful little girl I once was; I know now what really happens and why. I'm only 14 years old and I feel like I'm...
    Raine550 Raine550 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2013

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    I lost my innocence when I was 7 years old.

    It was taken from me from someone who was suppose to protect me. Not hurt me. It messed me up for a long time. I try to live and deal with it though.
    HisLittleAriel HisLittleAriel 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2015

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    I lost my Innocence when I was too damn young.

    Sometimes I wish I could jut go back and take it. He should've known. I hate him. I know that's it's not good for me. I should forgive him. The person that it hurts the most is me. But I can't. You don't do that to your sister. When I was 7, I was sexually abused by my brother...
    Claudipou Claudipou 18-21, F Dec 13, 2013

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    Help Me Find It Please....

    I am not quite sure I ever had innocence but somewhere along the way I lost it.  I am not sure if it was in High School after the prom when I stayed out ALL night long french kissing a most gorgeous young man.  Or maybe it was in college at one of the many Frat parties...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 22 Responses Oct 15, 2008

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    My Freshman Year

    I'm relelately young, but I do believe I have lost the innocence I once had as a child. Definately. Looking at me, some people would still think I'm the innocent one out of my group of friend with my looks, sometimes described as "angelic" (lol!!) I have blonde hair, ice blue...
    LittleMissDimples LittleMissDimples 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2012

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    I lost my virginity at 14 to my boyfriend on his birthday lol :S. It was mostly a good time except the first few minutes and I started to love the feeling after awhile :p
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    just recently i had lost my grandma to pancreatic cancer .we bearly found this out right after thanksgiving or last year .she went into the hospital cause she has stomach pains and...
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