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I Lost My Most Beloved Person To Suicide

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    If I was only loved by her and no one else in the world (which is what it sometimes seems) I would still be the most loved person on earth because she loves me in a way I didn't...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Jul 1

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    I lost 2 cat, both brothers. I lost one of them 2 years ago because he was extremely ill. Then I lost the other one last year because his brain was failing so my dad got him put...
    samdavis3 samdavis3 16-17, M Jul 3

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    Yes I had a pet Beagle and i loved her so much and feel that i killed her, i was the last person in my family to take her on a walk and it was a long one, and i had no water for...
    skull55 skull55 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 20

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    My betta fish used to do the most adorable little "happy dance", wriggling like a snake while his petal-like fins fluttered beautifully in the water. I'm going to miss that so much...
    therainbowconnection therainbowconnection 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I lost 2 of my family cats. One of them pass away 2 years ago from being very ill. He was suffering so we had to put him down. The other one passed away recently because his brain...
    samdavis3 samdavis3 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 3

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    I lost a cocker spaniel, Penny and a cat named KFC. Penny was given to me when she was 1 year old. She was supposed to be fixed and had a litter of pups at age 7. A 7 year old...
    tenderheart3 tenderheart3 66-70, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    i am banned or ignored or flamed on forums i have lost count and grown board with user names i think it way way in the thousands funny even disorder websites ban me i have gotten...
    themosthatedman themosthatedman 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 8

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    January 18th, 2014. Police chased me down on January 20th. They had called, to tell me they had some bad news they had to "pass on." I thought if they were going to arrest me I...
    girlivyg girlivyg 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am I truly am loved by the most wonderful guy in the world. I have never thought that I was able to love someone anymore after things that have happened to me in life but I did...
    jennyivettem jennyivettem 18-21, F Jul 9

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    I am in relation with wonderful person for about 2 years now. Before that we were best friends. We mt in my previous office. I am more than happy to be with him. He makes me feel...
    TrueLoverN TrueLoverN 26-30, F Jul 21

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    Our cat was independent, self-centred, fussy, demanding and more, but she was our Ash and we loved her to snuggle on our laps, nest in our beds and just be a presence in our place...
    shydate shydate 66-70, M 1 Response Jul 5

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    Dear Frieda (RIP 02-2014) June 19, at 1;30 I just saw you this morning on your barrel overlooking the birds, not knowing that you won’t be coming home ever again. Seeing your...
    LillyPad80 LillyPad80 41-45, F Jul 8

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    When I was little, my dad promised me a little puppy, I loved animals as this was the first. My father received a call from a lady saying she had a little puppy three months but...
    ferrer95 ferrer95 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    Pixie was a 3 year old chawawa wiener dog mix. When i first got her she was so small she slept across my neck because i was afraid i'd roll over on her. She was smart, loving, and...
    McCoyAnna McCoyAnna 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    It is the only way I can improve myself.I should take care of myself and I can only change myself.
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    I just recently lost a friend to suicide and I'm still not over it. I'm not sure how to cope :/
    Raelyn13 Raelyn13 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I lost the only person i have ever cared about. First thing first, i should have known. I just should have. I'd known Jake for 5 years, hell i'd even been in a relationship with...
    devondoll3 devondoll3 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    December 2013 I lost my dad to suicide. not only did I lose my dad but I also lost my best friend. things aren't the same. I've had trouble sleeping ever since and Iay every night...
    madison1998 madison1998 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    I just realized how easy it would be to just be sarcastic to most every one of these experiences! But I won't, I will be authentic! I have lost most of my close family over the...
    RaverFan RaverFan 41-45 1 Response Jul 7

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    My brothers gone...sorry if this is long but it's what happend. My names Nevada and I'm 14. I'm the only girl my parents have, I have four older brothers. Declan is 21, Jackson is...
    VadaDrewSeventh VadaDrewSeventh 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Today one of my closest friends on here killed himself... Or at least he told me he was going to (now he won't reply and is to online so I'm assuming) he was the most depressing...
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    Wow what do you know I am the most rare personality type. Figures as such. The INFJ personality type is very rare, making up less than one percent of the population, but they...
    Powederedtoastman Powederedtoastman 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 19

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    My cousin Amalric committed suicide when he was fifteen. He jumped off a cliff. His girlfriend of two years threw him over for his friend Pedro, so he killed himself!
    Catram21 Catram21 22-25, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I lost my dad 10 years ago and there is not a day that goes by that I wish he were still here. I think the thing that hurts the most is that he wasn't there to walk me down the...
    Thokgirl82 Thokgirl82 31-35, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I used to have all this sympathy for people who commit suicide, but after yesterday, that's greatly lessened; I know now, without a doubt, that is the most selfish act a human can...
    GoldButterfly GoldButterfly 18-21, F Jul 4

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    I have been suicidal in my life and also attempted it in my past. It was no cry for help or any desperate act to receive attention. I am grateful I did not succeed at the attempt...
    Auntieloco Auntieloco 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    My Mom's Death I remember it clearly as though it happened yesterday. She was an amazing woman. Very independent yet not. My dad really held her together. I remember the...
    PoetryNEmotion PoetryNEmotion 51-55, F 3 Responses Jul 5

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    When I was little, my mom and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 11

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    I lost mama and I so miss her. I still love her a lot, and it's hard to go on without her. Sometimes it's terrible. I don't believe cancer killed her, her time in this worldly word...
    Meryaz Meryaz 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    I'm 16 years old. I've been depressed since i was 13. I attempted suicide at age 15 after being raped and beaten by different people. I cut extremely deep and they told me I was...
    teenagetragedy teenagetragedy 16-17, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I lost a good friend on Friday. I found out as I was walking into work. It was one of those moments when time stopped. Everything just stood still. And it hasn't started back up...
    loveandlight29 loveandlight29 26-30, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    My uncle Greg killed himself yesterday. He had been in a car accident two years ago and was in constant pain. He was the youngest of my father's brothers. I lost my dad when I was...
    random619 random619 41-45, M 3 Responses Jul 3

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    I was 15 when I lost my best friend to suicide. She was in Foster Care because her dad beat her numerous times and her mother just didn't want to be a mother. About every other day...
    Skinnylove99 Skinnylove99 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I know there is a lot of pain in this world which causes people to do some horrific things... Some hurt themselves, some hurt others, while some do a combination of both and kill...
    SirCabbage SirCabbage 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 11

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    They tell us that suicide is the greatest piece of cowardice... that suicide is wrong; when it is quite obvious that there is nothing in the world to which every man has a more...
    kaaligirl kaaligirl 16-17, F Jul 5

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    June 2002 - my cousin, who I grew up with and was close to, was suddenly shot one time in the chest at 4 AM... He was 26 and it was labeled suicide... He had spoke to his aunt that...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 1 Response Jul 14

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    I am sad that I have lost my faith in God. I used to be a very strong, Christian until I started questioning and becoming involved in leadership in the church. I saw so much...
    Katiegirlwasagirl Katiegirlwasagirl 26-30, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I lost my friend in 2005 to suicide We were supposed to go on what would have been our first cruise He took his life on the train tracks He was only 23 Iwas devastated and...
    Stanray Stanray 61-65, M 6 Responses Jul 7

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    I lost my closest and best friend. He was the best thing in my life. He had come out to his father( a homophobic *****) who had chucked him out of home. He then went to live in...
    Il0veandre Il0veandre 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 22

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    I lost the love of my life to suicide.... I was 16 and he was 18. It was a rainy depressing ohio day like always. I went over to his house to get ready and go on vacation. When I...
    Cta112 Cta112 18-21, M 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Been going thru some old pics and old letters to you today. Working a 16 hour shift allows for way too much time to think. I miss you and the way life was when you were around...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I was officially diagnosed about 8 years ago when I was 21 but of course I've had it for much longer time. Since my childhood I'd always been very moody, capricious, prone to all...
    maajake maajake 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I had a friend well all of my friends are internet friends I don't have any real life friends really but yeah this one guy who I was friends with on the internet i talked him out...
    lonelinessneverfades lonelinessneverfades 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    It's interesting that the Japanese tv dramas always like the stories about people with double sides of personality. It's like, the same person, but in one period of time is being...
    kekehuang kekehuang 36-40, F Jul 12

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    when I found out my wife had an affair. Little more than a year later and she has worked hard to correct to what she has done wrong and I have worked hard to be a better husband...
    fg2704 fg2704 46-50, M 2 hrs ago

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    **** YOU SUICIDE, YOU MITHER ******* SON OF A BICH WHY?!?!?!! WHY DOD YOU TAKE THE ONE PERSON THAT KNEW ME BETTER THEN I KNE MYSELF?!?!?!! I ******* HATE YOU
    1LilLefty 1LilLefty 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    I want to kill myself but am too much of a coward. I am too lazy to do anything. Too boring to have friends. Too dumb to be successful. Too weak to be tough. Too pathetic to be...
    Guest4111 Guest4111 13-15, M 1 Response