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I Lost My Most Beloved Person To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support

    I'm that mother. And all that's keeping me from opening and downing every pill bottle in the house is the thought of my children having to live saying these words - "I lost my...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 36-40, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I had to have my beloved Sheba put to sleep 9 years ago and I still miss her every day. She was a starving stray when I took her in and I wasn't sure if she'd adjust. She did and...
    Dodger30y2k Dodger30y2k 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 26

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    I just came home a little while ago and found my beloved Mo had died. He was the best cat, but he was more than that, he was like my little roommate. He was always here and...
    tide814 tide814 36-40 4 Responses Sep 27

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    Tonight my beloved cat, Dunkin, was sent to heaven to be with his sister. You were a good boy everyday of your life. You will be with me forever my baby.
    funlecy1 funlecy1 46-50, F 7 Responses Oct 11

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    Oh little David Dog my special furry buddy. I think about you almost everyday and miss you something awful. I hope you and the other family animals are frolicking happily where...
    NicoNever NicoNever 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 5

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    Just wanted to apologize for not answering most of my messages this past week. Very sad about the loss of Dunkin and haven't been in a chatty mood. Don't give up on me, I will...
    funlecy1 funlecy1 46-50, F 4 hrs ago

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    13 years ago today I was 5 and I lost something I never had. It's a weird feeling to have a hole from something you never remember to begin with. She jumped out of a hotel window...
    idontknowidontknow idontknowidontknow 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    Dunkin has been gone for 24 hours now. My beautiful boy was always by my side, purring, and cuddling. I feel lost and alone.
    funlecy1 funlecy1 46-50, F 8 Responses Oct 12

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    R.I.P. molly, best friends always
    hasinalady hasinalady 46-50, F 6 Responses Sep 26

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    A moment of silence for Mo
    TrackerKim TrackerKim 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 27

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    My cat Armand ran away two months ago. . . we still haven't found him. I really miss him; he loved to cuddle.
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 11

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    Introducing: BOBO 8 weeks old.
    funlecy1 funlecy1 46-50, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm not ready to talk about it... not yet, at least. She did it last Monday and I feel copious amounts of guilt. One day, I won't. And, one day, I'll tell my story.
    jamiesarrae jamiesarrae 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 7

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    It's been over 4 years since that horribly shocking, life altering day, and I'm still here, all Glory to God. I was spared & saved. There were times I didn't think I'd survive, and...
    Begin2C Begin2C 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    It is great being able to spend every other weekend sleeping next to my boyfriend. I don't sleep well when he isn't here but when he is I get the best sleep ever...I also get the...
    BabyFox1995 BabyFox1995 18-21, F Oct 5

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    The one and only.. Who is it, you may wonder? Why of course, my mother :) I mean my friends love me too, and they're awesome too, but a mother is someone who is irreplaceable
    IRID3SC3NT IRID3SC3NT 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    I am loved by not only my family, but the love of my life, my world, my everything...
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F Oct 6

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    My father loves me dearly. We're not rich but he would spoil me with ice cream and chuck e cheese then I got older and he would let me drive his car or choose what I wanna watch in...
    vanessamoomoo vanessamoomoo 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    20 years ago today my brother took his own life. You would think after 20 years the pain wouldn't be as bad, but it's not true. Today a milestone anniversary and it hurts like...
    SomeoneOutThere SomeoneOutThere 36-40, M 6 Responses Sep 24

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    Today is 2 years since I lost my girlfriend to suicide. I miss her terribly. She was not only my girlfriend but also my best friend. And deep inside I feel as if it was my fault...
    CatySansom CatySansom 16-17, F 7 Responses Oct 6

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    I lost my boyfriend to suicide. I still havent dealt with it, he was my best friend too. He hanged himself. It was completely unexpected even though we both had a lot of issues. We...
    featherdibs featherdibs 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Well... I am not sure I am gonna explain myself clearly.. but i will try my best so stay with me till the end... To start with , I lost my Dad when I was 1 so I don't even...
    aaloneman aaloneman 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 8

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    I had success with a great family, with work where I was respected and valued by my company and by my customers. I worked hard on improving my health, and had finally reached my...
    gmeza98 gmeza98 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 25

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    I dated a girl who was the most amazing person I've ever known, she made me such a great person and now that I've lost her I've gone back to the same old terrible person I was...
    Visualoutlaw45 Visualoutlaw45 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 12

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    Just found out few days ago that they were envolved and having sex that started about 3 months ago in my back.. she was my girlfriend for an year and he was my best friend for 9...
    Cristiano331 Cristiano331 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 21

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    Ok so tell me if this is bad or not! Plz! Ok, so last night I cried like the whole night cuz I miss my mum so much, like she is the reason I'm here and she's the most important...
    Strangerdanger47 Strangerdanger47 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    This last Friday, i lost the only person I truly ever connected with. There was so much we had in common. Here's a guy I've known since we were in elementary school and we became...
    thongluvr582 thongluvr582 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 5

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    Im the simplest most complicated person you may ever encounter
    HannaBananaa HannaBananaa 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 24

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    I'm the most skeptical person on this earth. Give me a good romance book or movie and my heart is melting like chocolate. Give me reality, and my heart has it's armor and my walls...
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    My whole life is a suffering!Can't wait for the right time to suicide!
    liza1996 liza1996 16-17, F 6 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Last month I lost a good friend but before he passed he told me that on his headstone is two dates. He wants to be remembered for the dash in between them. He had a heart bigger...
    Dora922 Dora922 31-35, T 35 mins ago

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    I know that there are people out there who will think of me as being rude but that's alright. I think suicide is the most selfish thing you could do but as to drive someone to the...
    stajapandabear stajapandabear 13-15, F Oct 12

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    Suicide or Murder Four years back I heard news about a suicide. He was a famous actor and about 50 years old. His name was Srinath. He had been depressed for a while. Had been...
    aproudwoman aproudwoman 46-50, F Oct 9

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    I lost my best friend Latasha to suicide in middle school. it was terrible. maybe one day I'll share the story again.
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I lost my son August 19th 2014 to suicide he was a good kid loved by so many but depression got the best of my 17 year boy my only son. I miss you so much buddy but you're pain...
    Hornydudetoo Hornydudetoo 36-40, M 4 days ago

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    When Hannah died, I felt my world shake. Hannah came up to me in second grade, handed me an apple slice, and asked to be my friend. I never thought how much that one moment would...
    Lostneedsfound Lostneedsfound 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I had my hardship... When I was 15... Until I reached my 17. It was all real stuff. Cutting, crying all nights, suicide attempts, meds cocktails, depression and heck, lots of...
    EarlPhantomhive EarlPhantomhive 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    My best friend of 7 years told me it was pointless even trying to be friends anymore. She said I was fake, manipulative, and a liar. Then she blocked me. She blocked me and when I...
    GingerCannibal GingerCannibal 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 4

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    So, as most of you do not know, I have been on EP for a grand total of... 17 days! And inactive for 12 of them- if you do the math correctly, this is my fifth full day on here- so...
    insidious2014 insidious2014 18-21, M 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    My best friend since the third grade committed suicide when we were twenty. Then my best friend from 17-22 committed suicide a couple years ago. My first boyfriend committed...
    dreaminghope dreaminghope 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 4

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    If you have suffered an injury, you will probably have to file a lawsuit to get fair compensation. Companies don't usually offer fair settlements, and you are going to have to take...
    neinsteinassociates neinsteinassociates 26-30, M Oct 10

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    I’ve been with the same person for thirty years. I knew very early on that we were a mismatch, but twenty-six years ago, when I told him that we should go our separate ways, he...
    miryam57 miryam57 56-60, F 15 Responses 6 days ago

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    In 5 days it will make one year. I remember the night like it's yesterday, because life changed forever after that moment. I woke up with terrible sharp pains in my head around 3...
    JacobsGirl360 JacobsGirl360 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 24

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    Another lost to suicide....... I'm in need of help :(
    mssmithy mssmithy 18-21, F Sep 29

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    What if heaven is earth? Would all hope be lost? We'd actually be destroying heaven. My brain can't go as far as to expand my thinking of this. Could anyone tell me (after giving...
    liveshadow90 liveshadow90 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 5

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    A year ago tomorrow, on Thanksgiving, my sister will have been gone for one year. She killed herself. I haven’t opened up to anyone about it because I feel ashamed and am...
    kimberlyyy00 kimberlyyy00 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 12

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