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I Lost My Most Beloved Person To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support

    I lost my beloved kitty of 14 years on December 4 2013. He was my best buddy through a lot of hard times. It still hurts. I don't think I'll ever have another pet.
    Nikki351 Nikki351 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    If I was only loved by her and no one else in the world (which is what it sometimes seems) I would still be the most loved person on earth because she loves me in a way I didn't...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Jul 1

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    I always loved cats. I had recused one last year from a parking lot. she was a girl and I named her veve. she wasn't like any cat I had before cause she chirped when she was trying...
    RavenRena17 RavenRena17 18-21, F Jun 26

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    I lost 2 cat, both brothers. I lost one of them 2 years ago because he was extremely ill. Then I lost the other one last year because his brain was failing so my dad got him put...
    samdavis3 samdavis3 16-17, M Jul 3

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    Yes I had a pet Beagle and i loved her so much and feel that i killed her, i was the last person in my family to take her on a walk and it was a long one, and i had no water for...
    skull55 skull55 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dear Sadie,Knowing you, you've probably already forgiven me even though I haven't forgiven myself. But everyday I miss you. And when I think of you, I have warm, happy memories...
    misspoke misspoke 22-25 1 Response Jun 26

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    I lost 2 of my family cats. One of them pass away 2 years ago from being very ill. He was suffering so we had to put him down. The other one passed away recently because his brain...
    samdavis3 samdavis3 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 3

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    I lost a cocker spaniel, Penny and a cat named KFC. Penny was given to me when she was 1 year old. She was supposed to be fixed and had a litter of pups at age 7. A 7 year old...
    tenderheart3 tenderheart3 66-70, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My mum didn't die but was in hospital after attempt suicide. She was found in a ditch and with a few details actually tried to end her life in a multiple of ways: She was found in...
    greaves98 greaves98 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    i am banned or ignored or flamed on forums i have lost count and grown board with user names i think it way way in the thousands funny even disorder websites ban me i have gotten...
    themosthatedman themosthatedman 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 8

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    I am I truly am loved by the most wonderful guy in the world. I have never thought that I was able to love someone anymore after things that have happened to me in life but I did...
    jennyivettem jennyivettem 18-21, F Jul 9

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    I am in relation with wonderful person for about 2 years now. Before that we were best friends. We mt in my previous office. I am more than happy to be with him. He makes me feel...
    TrueLoverN TrueLoverN 26-30, F 5 hrs ago

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    The ONLY thing that makes me happy was taken from me just over a week ago. My beautiful Jack Russell Lucy. Far too young. I was at work when I got the call "what do you want to...
    Recklessdesires Recklessdesires 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 29

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    Our cat was independent, self-centred, fussy, demanding and more, but she was our Ash and we loved her to snuggle on our laps, nest in our beds and just be a presence in our place...
    shydate shydate 66-70, M 1 Response Jul 5

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    Dear Frieda (RIP 02-2014) June 19, at 1;30 I just saw you this morning on your barrel overlooking the birds, not knowing that you won’t be coming home ever again. Seeing your...
    LillyPad80 LillyPad80 41-45, F Jul 8

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    When I was little, my dad promised me a little puppy, I loved animals as this was the first. My father received a call from a lady saying she had a little puppy three months but...
    ferrer95 ferrer95 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    Pixie was a 3 year old chawawa wiener dog mix. When i first got her she was so small she slept across my neck because i was afraid i'd roll over on her. She was smart, loving, and...
    McCoyAnna McCoyAnna 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    I think my girlfriend just killed herself....because I cut myself bad... :'(
    DGCalum99 DGCalum99 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 25

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    But now you've left me to love another.You have shattered all of my dreams... 
    NobodyCanEverHearHerCall NobodyCanEverHearHerCall 22-25, F Jun 25

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    Hi i was actually a normal gurl(dont go by the name) that was eventually like all atracted to boys i also go to a mixed college but evne though i fell in love or only attraction...
    liambuckingham liambuckingham 18-21, F Jun 26

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    It is the only way I can improve myself.I should take care of myself and I can only change myself.
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I just lost my bestfriend to suicide. Her mom just called me and told me😓
    ccluhyahhoe ccluhyahhoe 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    Hi, I'm Nik, artistic type, gamer, 23, Slovenia and in 2013 I had my first girlfriend. I went to live on the coast to work during the summer season, have some fun andmeet new...
    legice legice 22-25, M Jun 23

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    December 2013 I lost my dad to suicide. not only did I lose my dad but I also lost my best friend. things aren't the same. I've had trouble sleeping ever since and Iay every night...
    madison1998 madison1998 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    I just realized how easy it would be to just be sarcastic to most every one of these experiences! But I won't, I will be authentic! I have lost most of my close family over the...
    RaverFan RaverFan 41-45 1 Response Jul 7

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    Today one of my closest friends on here killed himself... Or at least he told me he was going to (now he won't reply and is to online so I'm assuming) he was the most depressing...
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    Wow what do you know I am the most rare personality type. Figures as such. The INFJ personality type is very rare, making up less than one percent of the population, but they...
    Powederedtoastman Powederedtoastman 31-35, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    when I was little my parents were very well not good parents I would cry and they would send me away to a hospital pump me full of meds then send me home. when I was 12 I was...
    Yungbug Yungbug 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    I used to have all this sympathy for people who commit suicide, but after yesterday, that's greatly lessened; I know now, without a doubt, that is the most selfish act a human can...
    GoldButterfly GoldButterfly 18-21, F Jul 4

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    I have been suicidal in my life and also attempted it in my past. It was no cry for help or any desperate act to receive attention. I am grateful I did not succeed at the attempt...
    Auntieloco Auntieloco 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My Mom's Death I remember it clearly as though it happened yesterday. She was an amazing woman. Very independent yet not. My dad really held her together. I remember the...
    PoetryNEmotion PoetryNEmotion 51-55, F 2 Responses Jul 5

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    When I was little, my mom and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 14 Responses Jul 11

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    I lost mama and I so miss her. I still love her a lot, and it's hard to go on without her. Sometimes it's terrible. I don't believe cancer killed her, her time in this worldly word...
    Meryaz Meryaz 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    His name is Michael..beautiful kid.. I love him so much..we were 10 years apart so we didn't really have a sibling bond like most of you do..if anything i sorta treated him like my...
    Onlysibling13 Onlysibling13 22-25 3 Responses Jun 22

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    My uncle Greg killed himself yesterday. He had been in a car accident two years ago and was in constant pain. He was the youngest of my father's brothers. I lost my dad when I was...
    random619 random619 41-45, M 3 Responses Jul 3

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    Think I'm suffering from depression. But don't know who to talk to . Abit redicilous really. I'm so lonely being single living away from family and live with a couple and most my...
    missylonely missylonely 22-25, F 7 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I know there is a lot of pain in this world which causes people to do some horrific things... Some hurt themselves, some hurt others, while some do a combination of both and kill...
    SirCabbage SirCabbage 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 11

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    They tell us that suicide is the greatest piece of cowardice... that suicide is wrong; when it is quite obvious that there is nothing in the world to which every man has a more...
    kaaligirl kaaligirl 16-17, F Jul 5

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    June 2002 - my cousin, who I grew up with and was close to, was suddenly shot one time in the chest at 4 AM... He was 26 and it was labeled suicide... He had spoke to his aunt that...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 1 Response a week ago

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    4 years ago my older brother and only other sibling stepped in front of a freight train and thus ended his life. I never thought that would happen and my family and I are still...
    QuantumBitch1983 QuantumBitch1983 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    i lost my ex bf to suicide. he was 16, & we had been best friends, even after breaking up. he had been going through a rough time with friends, getting bullied and harassed. one...
    Teenyphilly Teenyphilly 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 28

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    I lost my uncle(my father's brother) about 3 years ago. He was a fun and up beat kind of guy. A hard worker and motorcycle rider in spare time. He used to hold me and tell my...
    Ter4Doll Ter4Doll 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    I lost my best friend to suicide . He was literally the one I could tell everything to . I poured to him all my secrets and he would do the same . He never judged either , he would...
    r3alfri3nds r3alfri3nds 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    I lost my friend in 2005 to suicide We were supposed to go on what would have been our first cruise He took his life on the train tracks He was only 23 Iwas devastated and...
    Stanray Stanray 61-65, M 4 Responses Jul 7

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    I was officially diagnosed about 8 years ago when I was 21 but of course I've had it for much longer time. Since my childhood I'd always been very moody, capricious, prone to all...
    maajake maajake 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I had a friend well all of my friends are internet friends I don't have any real life friends really but yeah this one guy who I was friends with on the internet i talked him out...
    lonelinessneverfades lonelinessneverfades 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    It's interesting that the Japanese tv dramas always like the stories about people with double sides of personality. It's like, the same person, but in one period of time is being...
    kekehuang kekehuang 36-40, F